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Alive & Fragile
“What’s wrong with being fragile?” she asked. If you consider yourself to be sensitive and hate it, please subscribe. If you love your sensitivity, definitely subscribe. If you hate talking about feelings, woo-woo nonsense or have refused anything adjacent to a yoga session in your life, hang around for a bit. If you’re the opposite, of course, stick around. If you are somewhere in between, there’s a place for you. This space is for anyone who craves change in themselves and the world. Join me…
Episodes
Alive & Fragile24-30: A re-education on the meaning of legacy
Video version ;)You may notice that this audio is timely with current events because I am mixing up the order in which I’m releasing these entries into the…
Alive & Fragile23-30: I am the answer
This has a video version ;)I revisited the Neighbourhood’s Wiped Out album last week, around when this was recorded. I used to loop it in my car until I knew…
Alive & Fragile22-30: Cosplaying 15 year old me
It’s funny to me how buzzy/energized/frenzied I feel when recording some of these and how it always comes across as very soft/chill/calm. If I could…
Alive & Fragile21-30: Do you want it to be easy or not?
I can always tell when I say something or write something with an edge of clarity. I can’t control it, but it’s a delight when it comes. This was one of those…
Alive & Fragile20-30: Daydream therapy
[Video version]I remembered while listening back to this that Jacob Anderson recently talked about his experience doing this as a kid, and my brain lit up like…
Alive & Fragile19-30: Channeling on my channel
Today’s audio has a video version, because I felt like it. I lie about not editing. No chopping up the voice, but I wanted some visual zest.Just realized my…
Alive & Fragile18-30: Just show up
I’ve been thinking a lot about structure, the string from me to you. I want to find more of you, and I also want to find ways to show up that make sense for…
Alive & Fragile17-30: Spending a decade trying to become who I was at the start
This was a strange temporal, warpy week. Everything I had learned unraveled in my hands. This audio revelation did ground me at least. This is a public…
Alive & Fragile16-30: There's no way to know for sure
It’s taking longer to put these posts together, so another shift has arrived. Article mentioned: This is a public episode. If you'd like to discuss this with…
Alive & FragileAugust Forecast: We'll never be those kids again
August’s playlist! Listen & check in later for updates 𓂃 ོ☼𓂃If you’ve been keeping up with my semi-daily voice notes the last month, then you know July was…
Alive & Fragile15-30: A turning point
* I finished no books. None of what I’ve been reading felt worth finishing. I did start reading fanfiction again, and, of course, newsletters on here.* The…
Alive & Fragile14-30: Breathe with me
Oh hello, for those unfamiliar. Recording this one felt nice for me.(Alexandra) Apple mentioned! This is a public episode. If you'd like to discuss this with…
Alive & Fragile13-30: Where's the medicine in this poison?
This is yesterday’s entry’s sister. Something is moving in me. I don’t even feel the way I did this morning about it all. If you’re interested you can watch…
Alive & Fragile12-30: The Pits
I was gonna keep this one, but I also value narrative structure. I feel bad that I’ve been offering a version of myself that isn’t my best. I’m hurting more…
Alive & Fragile11-30
Writing and sharing from the inside of this period in real time is very fragile for me. I find myself wanting to retreat from the world, from friends, from…
Alive & Fragile10-30
Sometimes I get lucky and catch myself right as an idea is forming. I’m very curious to see how I can weave all of these ideas together into something bigger…
Alive & Fragile9-30
I say ‘abuedo’ but I mean albedo. That feels about right for where I was. I’ve been restless this week, which I’m sure you can feel too. I want the other side…
Alive & Fragile8-30
The reason why I love making voice notes in general is that sometimes I’ll listen back and think, “She was being very silly.” This was one of those moments. Of…
Alive & Fragile7-30
The album playing in the background of this entry is Venna’s Malik. It’s an excellent album to work to in the morning. I know Venna from “Sun, Moon, & Herbs,”…
Alive & Fragile6-30
Took you along on my walk today. I tend to walk fast when I do, which is the only reasonable explanation for sounding like I’m running a marathon. I like this…
Alive & Fragile5-30
There’s another shift happening, but I’m starting to think that’s the way it goes. There’s always change and evolution, and some changes hit harder than…
Alive & Fragile4-30
This is from yesterday, but I moved so slowly I didn’t get a post together early enough before I needed to sleep. I’ve learned from my mistakes, and now my…
Alive & Fragile3-30
I’m back from San Diego, sleepy and contemplative. Excuse my brevity as I need to get ready for bed. Here’s the song I mentioned. This is a public episode. If…
Alive & FragileStep it up!
July’s playlist! Listen & check in later for updates 𓆉°❀⋆.ೃ࿔*:･Welcome to July! This month’s energy is going to be a bit of a firecracker (no pun intended)…
Alive & Fragile2-30
Putting this together after last-minute packing for San Diego. We’re taking the train early to get a full day in before riding back the day after. It still…
Alive & Fragile1-30
In this entry, twitchy witch and Savannah Brown are both cited as inspiration for this format and project. It’s only right to give them their flowers. There’s…
Alive & FragileHow do we engage with pain?
If you’ve been keeping up with the newsletter this year, this audio vlog entry will likely not surprise you. It’s been an intense six months. The change has…
Alive & FragileI try not to draw clean conclusions
I’m starting with a story, which will soon reveal irony.The last time I felt like an epistemological imposter was when I abandoned Cathar’s Corner. This…
Alive & FragileDon't say I've never looked out for ya
June playlist! Listen & check in later for updates ₊‧.°.⋆🫧•˚₊‧⋆. Welcome to June! The start of something new! Summertime! Butterflies! My birth month!This…
Alive & FragilePhantasmagoria
In March of 2026, I decided to participate in a beta test of an app for tracking synchronicities. The idea of synchronicity is credited to Carl Jung. As I am…
Alive & FragileTime for the grand finale...
May playlist is here! Go listen now .𖥔 ݁ ˖ᯓ ✈︎ Starting this month, paid subscribers can request a personal single card reading once a month. Learn more…
Alive & FragileAll the things I’m drawn to are helpful mirrors
This is a free preview of a paid episode. To hear more, visit catharaxia.substack.comThis year has been the hall of mirrors. It’s a welcome change from the…
Alive & FragileWhere do we go from here?
April playlist is here and growing ♫₊˚.🎧 ✩₊˚Congrats! You survived the upheaval that was March 2026. One may wonder things like “what now?” and “where do we go…
Alive & FragileApocalypse
This is a spoiler free zone. There’s a themed playlist to enjoy if you’d like 𓇢𓆸 ˙•˚☘︎If I could explain myself in easy colors, I would. Instead, my interior…
Alive & FragileH-O-T T-O G-O
Let’s get real for a moment. This energy we’re starting March with is a lot. It’s a post-eclipse aftershock alongside the muck of Mercury retrograde, which…
Alive & FragileAnd if nothing else stay true
This is a free preview of a paid episode. To hear more, visit catharaxia.substack.comThere’s a February playlist btw. Enjoy ⋆𐙚₊˚⊹ ᥫ᭡One thing I love about…
Alive & FragileI can't keep fighting what I am
I listen to mixes like this a LOT when creating. Felt real to add it to this message. I sit in this moment of apathy and shame for not fitting my own…
Alive & FragileThe world is your oyster
It’s Phantogram Phebruary for me ˖ ݁♬⋆.˚𝄞.Hello loves! Welcome to this month’s tarot forecast. The energy predicted for the month is different from what I…
Alive & FragileYou are here
Found this song during quarantine and it came to mind today. I’m finding myself at a weird impasse. I haven’t been doing the song and dance of digital protest…
Alive & Fragile30 days of prompts from me to you
Earlier this month, I announced that I would be giving daily tarot prompts and sharing my readings. These prompts were meant to be straightforward and light…
Alive & FragileRespect the work
I’ve been recording audio entries for the last year that I’ve been meaning to share with you, but I move slowly. I’ve decided I’ll share them when it feels…
Alive & FragileEverything in its right place
I’m still processing how much of last year was about grief and transition. As this new year begins and this old season of life closes, I find myself…
Alive & FragileIn a new room
Music for your reading ☆*️ᥫ᭡I’m writing to you from the other side of things. Hello. How are you? Have you been feeling well? Refreshed. It’s a new year, and…
Alive & FragileFire the gun!
Happy New Year! Welcome to the first tarot forecast for 2026. This year is going to be one for the books, and we’re off to a running start!As usual, this will…
Alive & FragileThings that have changed.
I’d recommend letting me read this one to you. May more change continue to come :)-Things that have changedI do not like pomegranates during winter. It is a…
Alive & FragileMarch of the Butterflies
Author’s Note: This a long piece so if you usually read via email, it might get shortened. You can read the full post on my substack page. Song used can be…
Alive & FragileAre you ready to take flight?
♫⋆｡♪ ₊˚♬ december’s playlist so far ♫⋆｡♪ ₊˚♬Welcome to December’s tarot forecast. This came together much slower and more analytically than last month’s, which…
Alive & FragileThe journey down under continues
‧₊˚♪ 𝄞₊˚⊹music for this reading‧₊˚♪ 𝄞₊˚⊹Inspired by the lovely astrologers of the internet, I decided to pull some cards to add to the picture the stars may be…
Alive & FragileObservations on time and its movement patterns
I’ve been sitting with time recently. Watching her slowness to start much of anything, the languidness she chooses. The way the future arrives after years of…
Alive & FragileThis full moon comes with fire and a message.
This Aries full moon has been the first lunar cycle in a while that I lost grasp of. It felt more like remembering I’m 24 not 22. Remembering I live in Los…
Alive & FragileWe sit in the void's cocoon on the precipice of emergence
I’ve been crying at work nearly every day for the last month. It’s been an inconsequential moment of my life, mirroring the depression switch that went off in…
Alive & FragileNo one owes you expertise.
The following is a transcription of some of my new moon clarity. The song is how it felt to have the fog of my own nonsense finally clear stage to allow…
Alive & Fragilehow to be yourself.
Sometimes I sense how trapped my bones feel inside my body — pressed against muscle and veins, organs thumping, squeezing against the edge. Sometimes I have…
Alive & Fragilelet's talk about love
In the last two months, I have been swept off my feet in the worst ways imaginable. Random losses, crises out of my control, stressful family dynamics, all…
Alive & FragileFive of Cups Has News for You
It's more about […] surrendering and being […] open to receiving this next thing now that you've given up all these things that you may have wanted or you…
Alive & FragileAn Ode to the Body, from the Soul.
This week has been on one. I found myself deciding to step out of my shell and read some writing in front of people for the first time in a couple of years…
Alive & FragileA Quick Message from Three of Pentacles
Hello again! I come bearing a message I created early last week. It was strangely timed, considering the hermit energy I was in. This weekend, I finally…
Alive & FragileA Message from the Page of Wands
“We are on our journey, our path forward. We kind of know where we're going already, and it's […] more of a matter of trusting ourselves and the path forward…
Alive & FragileA Message from the Queen of Cups
As part of an experiment, I wanted to share a series of one-card readings and make a reinterpretation of the card to match. First up is Queen of Cups, who came…
Alive & FragileWelcome Back
“Our bodies are flashlights toward our ancestors” - Fariha RóisínI’ve been thinking hard about the person I am — I don’t know who that is and who I’d like to…