12-30: The Pits
I was gonna keep this one, but I also value narrative structure. I feel bad that I’ve been offering a version of myself that isn’t my best. I’m hurting more than usual, and thanks to my particular healing trajectory, I am more in tune with that pain than I’ve ever been able to be. This is a marker of progress and change in me. I’ve never been able to feel my pain. Intellectualize and philosophize it? Yes. Mythologize and poeticize? With ease. But feel it, the ability to sit and cry and still feel it sitting in my chest as I write this? This is a new level for me. It’s not something I can say…
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