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Complex PTSD Recovery [Reports]: We Are Traumatized Motherfuckers
Part of the Traumatized Motherfuckers' Research Project: What you need to know about CPTSD, in bitesized summaries of our in-depth research efforts. Peer-reviewed research and irreverent dark humor meet trauma recovery, without the "bright sides." Let's talk about the complicated experience of rectifying a life built on trauma, relearning how to have relationships, and re-imagining your future... in micro chunks. (When you're ready, jump into the deep end, detailed below.)
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Complex PTSD Recovery [Reports]: We Are Traumatized Motherfuckers6.10 Self Repression in Psychology! Why Free Will was Stripped from Psych
Come watch the free video version! So this Big S Self stuff actually comes down to "having feelings and using them." How mundane. In that case WHY IS IT so…
Complex PTSD Recovery [Reports]: We Are Traumatized Motherfuckers6.9 Ibogaine, Psychedelics, and Big Ass Self; Neural Healing w/ Mystical Experience
Ibogaine part 2! Today, we report on how psychedelic substances change energies of the brain during so-called "mystical experiences" - leading to rapid…
Complex PTSD Recovery [Reports]: We Are Traumatized Motherfuckers6.8 Worth-Less-Ness: Glueing Together MDD, PTSD, and Lifetime Suicidality
Is there one issue driving unresponsive PTSD and standard CPTSD? For a month, I built the case on "worth-less-ness belief." This episode we cap off the…
Complex PTSD Recovery [Reports]: We Are Traumatized Motherfuckerspub pod 6.7 Stellate Ganglion Blocks
What links treatment unresponsive PTSD, chronic pain, and GI issues? What if they could all be treated with one minimally invasive procedure? Let's talk…
Complex PTSD Recovery [Reports]: We Are Traumatized MotherfuckersPub Pod 6.6: Childhood Emotional Neglect, Somatization, and all your adult problems
Research on the PTSD-throat disorder connection revealed something unexpected. Do somatization, self-sabotage, and unfulfilled living all come down to…
Complex PTSD Recovery [Reports]: We Are Traumatized MotherfuckersPub Pod 6.5 Walking Style, Body Clues, and Revictimization
What helps human predators detect human prey? We talk about revictimization and the subtle ways our bodies give us away to perpetrators. Time to learn about…
Complex PTSD Recovery [Reports]: We Are Traumatized MotherfuckersAnnouncing! The Re-Release of Traumatized Motherfuckers
RELEASED from behind the paywall! A huge announcement for Motherfuckers. Follow, rate, review, share: Apple Podcasts! Spotify! Deezer! Research & creator…
Complex PTSD Recovery [Reports]: We Are Traumatized Motherfuckers6.4 DnD: Dystopian Dating vs. Women
It's an overiew of men, women, trans and non-binary dating challenges we researched this month - and then let's talk about 5 unique anecdotal obstacles for the…
Complex PTSD Recovery [Reports]: We Are Traumatized Motherfuckers6.3 Dating in Dystopia: Jaws Themed Dating | PUWBs & Sharks in Fish's Clothing
Psychoeducation is the brightest point to come from Dystopia. Right guys? Right? ...Or has it been creating stronger predators and overconfident amateur…
Complex PTSD Recovery [Reports]: We Are Traumatized Motherfuckers6.2 Dating in Dystopia 01: Emotional Masturbation & Addictions to Fake Relationships
This month in the Patreon feed we're talking romantic relationships and all the ways they go immediately wrong. In this recording we rap about emotionally…
Complex PTSD Recovery [Reports]: We Are Traumatized Motherfuckers6.1 Time Turrors and Disturtions (A Month of Fear-Work)
A month full of dealing with fear and determining who to be. In this release from the patreon stream, we talk about the terrors of time when you have a…
Complex PTSD Recovery [Reports]: We Are Traumatized Motherfuckers5.12.2 Top 5 Life Lessons of 2025
Not to call it 'experiential wisdom,' but... if 5 things were gained in 2025? HAPPY NEW YEAR FUCKER Come have a personal hang at…
Complex PTSD Recovery [Reports]: We Are Traumatized Motherfuckers5.12.1 Top 5 Lit Lessons of 2025
Says it all. These are the most impact-making findings in the research conducted 2025. HAPPY NEW YEAR FUCKER Come have a personal hang at…
Complex PTSD Recovery [Reports]: We Are Traumatized Motherfuckers5.11 Cognitive Basis of Depression
'Stop seeing everything so negatively." they say. But the cognitive behaviors underlying depression don't allow it. Let's talk about mental reactions and…
Complex PTSD Recovery [Reports]: We Are Traumatized Motherfuckers5.10 Back to High School: Secret Sources of Peer Pressure in the 2020s
"Peer Pressure is a high school problem." Or is it? Let's talk about adult brains drunk on social influence through the illusions and purposeful manipulations…
Complex PTSD Recovery [Reports]: We Are Traumatized Motherfuckers5.9 Costs of Impression Management
If Facades of Conformity feel a bit much, how about Impression Management strategies? Let's talk about common strategies, the risks vs. rewards, and negative…
Complex PTSD Recovery [Reports]: We Are Traumatized Motherfuckers5.8 Facades of Conformity (FOCs)
It's a summary episode! What have we been talking about lately? Facades of Conformity as they overlap with CPTSD, RSD, and life-destruction. Free Video!…
Complex PTSD Recovery [Reports]: We Are Traumatized Motherfuckers5.7 Rejection Sensitivity Dysphoria (RSD) x CPTSD Life Experiences
The RSD - "typical CPTSD experience" overlap is deep and wide. Let's talk about shutting down life, expression, and healing from heightened rejection…
Complex PTSD Recovery [Reports]: We Are Traumatized Motherfuckers5.6 Pub Ep! Environ-Mental Illness: Fear vs. Anxiety, Stress, Phobia, Paranoia
Video! let's talk about environ mental illness, discussing how external stimuli and personal experiences contribute to psycho-emotional disruptions. Today…
Complex PTSD Recovery [Reports]: We Are Traumatized Motherfuckers5.5 Behaviors for Preventing PTSD
We can't prevent trauma, but we can help ourselves prevent long-term disordering in the aftermath. Here's the ultra brief rundown of behaviors to prevent PTSD…
Complex PTSD Recovery [Reports]: We Are Traumatized Motherfuckers5.4 Practical Ways to Regulate Your Nervous System
FREE VIDEO! Coming off a natural disaster trauma, let's talk about 47 *practical* ways to rebalance your nervous system.... that aren't all "yoga and breathing…
Complex PTSD Recovery [Reports]: We Are Traumatized Motherfuckers5.3 Boundaries to allow compassionate, love, and self-existence
VIDEO (FREEEEEE) Compassion requires protection in the form of relationship-allowing boundaries. read: not relationship-ending rules. What are boundaries, how…
Complex PTSD Recovery [Reports]: We Are Traumatized MotherfuckersCHILL SOUNDS for/from an unchill week
So my CNS has been plugged to a 50amp this week, hburs? Gratefully heard some sounds under the near-full moon that swept a bitta anxiety away Have an immersive…
Complex PTSD Recovery [Reports]: We Are Traumatized Motherfuckers5.2 Trauma Perspectives & Egos
A VIDEO Memories detached from the whole -> views too big or too small which lock the brain into patterned behaviors and outcomes. Talking perspective resizing…
Complex PTSD Recovery [Reports]: We Are Traumatized Motherfuckers5.1 STRESS | Societal Trauma x CPTSD Management Begins
Free Video It's time! To support ourselves by applying everything we've learned in 5 years of research together. Today: stress utilization. On the market for…
Complex PTSD Recovery [Reports]: We Are Traumatized Motherfuckers4.12 Your Haunted Self: DISASSOCIATION
A FULL LENGTH SHARE! Let's talk about the directions of disassociation and what to do about the pattern of continually ditching this bitch. VIDEO HERE HAPPY…
Complex PTSD Recovery [Reports]: We Are Traumatized Motherfuckers4.11 Exploring Yer Haunted self pt 1: STRESS, BIG EMOS, MISALIGNMENTS, EMBARRASHAMING MEMORIES
What waits inside your self? STRESS, BIG EMOTIONS, MISALIGNMENTS, AND HUMILIATING MEMORIES, anyone? Let's summarize these stops on our spooktacular…
Complex PTSD Recovery [Reports]: We Are Traumatized MotherfuckersBONUS Entering Yer HAUNTED self 👻 Choose your own spookventure begins!
We're doing something extra 💀 It's a halloween, election, and holiday season special! 💀 Today we begin exploring our abandoned selves and exorcising awaiting…
Complex PTSD Recovery [Reports]: We Are Traumatized Motherfuckers4.10 Reconnecting with your haunted self
Being with you... isn't an innate skill after trauma. And yet, we must, or we'll never recover. Take this long treat of an episode to start practicing your…
Complex PTSD Recovery [Reports]: We Are Traumatized Motherfuckers4.9 Obstacles to Actual self-Love After Trauma
The filthiest words: love yourself. 🤮 Why does trauma create barriers between us and... not hating us? Talkin' lost relationships, criteria for love, loss of…
Complex PTSD Recovery [Reports]: We Are Traumatized Motherfuckers4.8 Self Compassion; the Daily Battle for Recovery
Education and Responsibility are important for t-recovery... But progress peters when self-punishment predominates. Without self-compassion, regression becomes…
Complex PTSD Recovery [Reports]: We Are Traumatized Motherfuckers4.7 Major Image-Distorting self-Defenses [Splitting and Projective Identification]
When life serves conflictual and confusing information, our brains simplify it to survive... and fuck us over in the long-run. Let's talk about the "ALL GOOD"…
Complex PTSD Recovery [Reports]: We Are Traumatized Motherfuckers4.6. Acting out, Help-rejecting complaining, and Passive Aggression; The (most) Immature Defenses
Ready to learn about the maladaptive tendencies of your most difficult relational partners? When we don't believe we're "entitled" to a need or emotion, we…
Complex PTSD Recovery [Reports]: We Are Traumatized Motherfuckers4.5 Narcs, Defense Mechanisms, & (non)Recovery: Intellectualizing, Rationalizing, and Reactionary Decision Making
We've learned that narcs don't generally recover because of their "creative narration" abilities. Now, let's talk about some of the ways they spin those…
Complex PTSD Recovery [Reports]: We Are Traumatized Motherfuckers4.4. Pathological Structuring of Narcissists (Or, No Integrity without Integration)
They'll shake your hand while pissing on your leg, plead and then pulverize promises, and generally give the sense that they're one hundred people who share a…
- Complex PTSD Recovery [Reports]: We Are Traumatized Motherfuckers
4.3. Healing with "Adaptive Narcissism" and Uniqueness | Leveraging Stigma for Permissive self-Healing
"Just feel good about your authentic self and don't let anyone wreck your recognition of specialness." Right. Let's talk about what may be holding us back from…
- Complex PTSD Recovery [Reports]: We Are Traumatized Motherfuckers
4.2. Filial Obligation Narratives, Ambivalence, Perception, and Guilt
Why is the decision to sacrifice or save our brains so difficult to make? Let's talk about subconscious narratives we probably all carry, the ambivalence-guilt…
Complex PTSD Recovery [Reports]: We Are Traumatized Motherfuckers4.1. Making of a Vulnerable Narcissist
A big 'nouncement; so long TMFRS! Then let's talk about what constitutes a VulNarc versus "a person with CPTSD." Where does the chronic manipulation come from?…
- Complex PTSD Recovery [Reports]: We Are Traumatized Motherfuckers
3.12b. Sex on Parts and Survival Programs
This year we spoke about Intimacy. Now it's time to confront *Intimacy.* Let's look at the discrepant programs that live inside of us, gathered across a…
- Complex PTSD Recovery [Reports]: We Are Traumatized Motherfuckers
3.12a. Transference, Projection, Monkey-barring, Displacement
We're tying up loose ends in our discussion of relationships! Today, discussing the cognitive copy-pastes we accidentally carry out between past and present…
- Complex PTSD Recovery [Reports]: We Are Traumatized Motherfuckers
Self-abandonment vs your best Spanksgiving
Let's cut the brainy shit, the real answer to surviving the holidays is not abandoning yourself. Need more holiday support? Don't we all. For all the other…
- Complex PTSD Recovery [Reports]: We Are Traumatized Motherfuckers
3.11. Ten Destructive Responses that Set Off Trauma Defenses
Back to NonViolent Communication! Here are 10 things the experts say destroy our attempts at vulnerable disclosures and requests. Just in time for the…
- Complex PTSD Recovery [Reports]: We Are Traumatized Motherfuckers
3.10. Chronic deprivation, self-sabotage, psychosomatic illness, and abuse dynamics
We learn to neglect ourselves at an early age and then everything goes to hell forever after. Stuck in unfixable suffering, toiling away with ineffectual…
- Complex PTSD Recovery [Reports]: We Are Traumatized Motherfuckers
3.9b Ending Deprivation and Rehabbing yer Brain with NonViolent Communication
"Depression is the reward we get for being good children." NVC helps yer relationships, sure. But it'll also rewire your t-brain trashhabits, emotional…
- Complex PTSD Recovery [Reports]: We Are Traumatized Motherfuckers
3.9a NonViolent (Effective) Communication
Ever feel "unheard"? Well, here's the key to getting your point across and sparking collaboration rather than opposition. Today, we're talking about NonViolent…
- Complex PTSD Recovery [Reports]: We Are Traumatized Motherfuckers
3.8b. Shitpologies (AKA non-apology apologies)
So, how do we apologize "the right way"... Rather than creating MORE damage through half-assed "I'm sorrys"? Today, let's talk about the 5 points for offering…
- Complex PTSD Recovery [Reports]: We Are Traumatized Motherfuckers
3.8a. The Key to Healing Relational Ruptures (and two people)
How DO we heal what's been broken? I've got a short phrase for you - it's what we've all needed to hear all along. And let's talk about the timeless wounds…
- Complex PTSD Recovery [Reports]: We Are Traumatized Motherfuckers
Extra "survival Fs" to give in relationship; Fronting and Feigning
We all know about the 4 survival Fs at this point. But how about the additional F reactions- Fronting and Feigning? Let's talk about learned reactions that…
- Complex PTSD Recovery [Reports]: We Are Traumatized Motherfuckers
3.7. Determining "Are they a good relational partner?" before committing
We've talked a lot about committing fully to relationships and overcoming our conflicts together, through examining the subconscious wounds that actually…
- Complex PTSD Recovery [Reports]: We Are Traumatized Motherfuckers
3.6b Overcoming spiraling conflicts in trauma-impacted relationships
Ever feel like "the issue" isn't really "the issue" in relational conflict? That's because the real issue is buried under layers of protective instincts that…
- Complex PTSD Recovery [Reports]: We Are Traumatized Motherfuckers
3.6a. Lost love and authentic connection; the fragmented brain explanation
Why do we start close relationships and love connections feeling one way... only to watch them disintegrate, become survival-based, and turn into "resentment"?…
- Complex PTSD Recovery [Reports]: We Are Traumatized Motherfuckers
3.5 Shadow parts vs. successful relationships | Internal VIT for healthy connections
We MFs struggle to begin or maintain healthy relationship dynamics, with a lot of externalized finger pointing about why. "Abusers just flock to me." But the…
- Complex PTSD Recovery [Reports]: We Are Traumatized Motherfuckers
Special release | "Ah Hell Naw" Learned obstacles to forming close relationships
Why don't we sign up for close connections anymore? Especially after learning about our CPTSD patterns? It's an episode pulled from the private Fort! Let's…
- Complex PTSD Recovery [Reports]: We Are Traumatized Motherfuckers
3.4 Vulnerability, Intimacy, and Trust Issues in Relationship
"So how do you feel about relationships? Complicated? You want them? You despise them? You fear them? You long for them? You try them? You exit them rapidly?…
- Complex PTSD Recovery [Reports]: We Are Traumatized Motherfuckers
3.3. Subconscious Self-loathing
So you're doing your damndest to be "your best self." Maybe you're confident and comfortable in your identity these days. But, at the same time, you still find…
- Complex PTSD Recovery [Reports]: We Are Traumatized Motherfuckers
Hardening versus Healing
Today, sharing a mini essay I wrote for another platform, where controversial perspectives are the topic of conversation. In so much of this "trauma recovery…
- Complex PTSD Recovery [Reports]: We Are Traumatized Motherfuckers
3.2. Healing self-contradicting brains with Internal Family Systems (IFS) Therapy
Ever feel like you've got a whole household of people contained in one skull? Fighting, just like they did in your family home? Turns out, that's normal…
- Complex PTSD Recovery [Reports]: We Are Traumatized Motherfuckers
3.1. Loneliness and Isolation in CPTSD
Surprise, we're back! Keeping up with the private stream's topic of the month, we're here to talk about Loneliness. Let's discuss the varieties of loneliness…
- Complex PTSD Recovery [Reports]: We Are Traumatized Motherfuckers
2.12. Challenges of breaking the cycle | AKA - generational upset, NC, a new world
Let's talk about the opposition we face during trauma recovery - namely, from our social contacts who aren't ready to have their own histories and perspectives…
- Complex PTSD Recovery [Reports]: We Are Traumatized Motherfuckers
2.11. Forming new lives | AKA - reintegration efforts for lasting change
So we do this painful and energetically expensive inner work. And then what? Return to the same old lives? Naw, Fucker. That's the fastest way to hit "revert…