Voice Note #123—Am I consciously soothing or punishing my body for remembering?

Voice Notes to the Universe · Oct 6, 2026 · 13m · transcript

CONTENT NOTE: This episode contains discussion of childhood abuse, traumatic memories, and coping behaviors.

VOICE NOTE #123 — Am I Consciously Soothing or Punishing My Body for Remembering?

I've been telling myself that I'm consciously soothing.

That after remembering things that have shaken me to my core, I'm giving myself permission to cope however I need to cope.

But this morning, a different question found me:

Am I consciously soothing...

or am I punishing my body for remembering?

Because somewhere along the way, the things that once helped me survive stopped feeling soothing.

They…