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What If Calm Is Not Nothingness · Get It Got It Girl: Midlife Rebuild

• 0:37
  SPEAKER_00: Okay, I think this might be my last episode for today.
• 0:44
  SPEAKER_00: And it's kind of interesting because I feel calm right now.
• 0:58
  SPEAKER_01: And I'm not used to that.
• 1:05
  SPEAKER_00: I just noticed I've been in this very activated space lately, thinking, recording, moving, and processing.
• 1:19
  SPEAKER_00: And now that I've stopped for just a second, I feel different.
• 1:25
  SPEAKER_00: I can actually hear or not hear.
• 1:31
  SPEAKER_00: It is a very interesting, quiet feeling.
• 1:39
  SPEAKER_01: Is this what it feels like when people say they're regulated?
• 1:47
  SPEAKER_00: This is very eye-opening to me.
• 1:51
  SPEAKER_00: I can't remember the last time I felt this way.
• 1:56
  SPEAKER_01: I really am not sure when the last time I felt this way was.
• 2:29
  SPEAKER_00: I can't even explain this.
• 2:30
  SPEAKER_00: Well, I guess I am.
• 2:32
  SPEAKER_00: The space that I'm in, the place that the head space, the mind space, the mindset is new to me.
• 2:41
  SPEAKER_00: I, for the first time in a very long time, feel calm.
• 2:55
  SPEAKER_00: So I guess when things slow down, part of me almost wants to fill it again.
• 3:02
  SPEAKER_00: And that's that loop of going and going and going.
• 3:07
  SPEAKER_00: This is a great way to end my podcast recordings before I go on the vacation with my sister and see my family back home.
• 3:28
  SPEAKER_01: You know, I don't think I need to fill it.
• 3:30
  SPEAKER_01: I like this.
• 3:31
  SPEAKER_01: I could get used to this.
• 3:35
  SPEAKER_01: I'm just gonna sit here and let it exist.
• 3:45
  SPEAKER_01: That feels so new for me.
• 3:52
  SPEAKER_00: I used to feel like calm meant that nothing was happening, but I think calm might just mean I'm not in reaction anymore.
• 4:06
  SPEAKER_00: I made some decisions that have stopped some of the spiraling this week.
• 4:15
  SPEAKER_00: This is it, guys.
• 4:16
  SPEAKER_00: This is real time.
• 4:17
  SPEAKER_00: This is these are the moments that I like to catch that I can share with you because they're real.
• 4:27
  SPEAKER_00: They're actual real moments in time.
• 4:31
  SPEAKER_00: So as it's unfolding in my mind, I am sharing it with you, and that's why I think I have to pause more because I don't even quite understand this.
• 4:44
  SPEAKER_00: I haven't been here in a very long time, and I I could get used to this.
• 4:54
  SPEAKER_00: So I'm just noticing that, and I'm gonna let it be that.
• 5:02
  SPEAKER_00: And with this, I hope if your life is full of chaos and reacting and spiraling, that you feel this way, that you reach this place, and when you do, don't try to fill it up with anything.
• 5:27
  SPEAKER_00: Thank you so much.
• 5:32
  SPEAKER_00: Get it, got it, girl.
• 5:34
  SPEAKER_00: Oh, I'm getting it.