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FUCK... Where do we start?
FUCK... Where do we start is the raw, unfiltered podcast where nothing is off-limits. From life's biggest struggles to the messiest tea, we dive deep into trauma, mental health, and everything in between. No sugarcoating, no holding back just real, honest conversations about the things we all think but rarely say. Buckle up, Because this ride is about to get real.
Episodes
- FUCK... Where do we start?
BEIGE — Featuring Kawser 🎙️
Okay, this episode is a little different because we’re talking BUSINESS. 😂 On this episode of FUCK…Where Do We Start?, I sit down with Kawser, the mind behind…
- FUCK... Where do we start?
PEACE — Featuring Jake 🎙️🖤
What the fuck does peace even look like? Because I think we all spend so much of our lives chasing it without really knowing what it means for us. On this…
- FUCK... Where do we start?
🎙️ Dallas — We Ain’t Shit Varsity
Okay, this one is just fucking FUN. 😂 In “We Ain’t Shit Varsity,” I sit down with Dallas while he’s back in Salt Lake City for a stop on his first headlining…
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🎙️ Rebecca — It Could Happen to Anyone
Addiction doesn’t have a type. It doesn’t care what you look like, where you come from, whether you’re a parent, how much potential you have, or what you…
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🎙️ Dr. Jessica Fish — The Alchemy That Followed: Lessons from a Wild Life
Some lives follow a straight line. And then there are the lives that take every unexpected turn imaginable—and somehow turn all of it into something…
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🎙️ Aly Black — If You Only Knew
You can look at someone and have absolutely no fucking idea what their life has looked like behind closed doors. In “If You Only Knew,” I sit down with Aly…
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🎙️ Hailey + Mary — Take Up Some Fucking Space
What happens when you stop trying to make yourself smaller for everybody else? In this episode of FUCK…Where Do We Start?, I sit down with Hailey and Mary for…
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🎙️ Hunter — Fuck It! Let’s Go!
Sometimes you can spend forever thinking about changing your life. And sometimes you just have to say: Fuck it. Let’s go. In this episode of FUCK…Where Do We…
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But, I Love Everyone
In this episode of FUCK…Where Do We Start?, I sit down with Cait for an incredibly vulnerable conversation about mental health, BPD, relationships, parenting…
- FUCK... Where do we start?
How The Fuck Is She Still Smiling?
There is something incredibly powerful about finally getting to tell your story in your own words. In this episode of FUCK…Where Do We Start?, I sit down with…
- FUCK... Where do we start?
Becoming The Lighthouse
Sometimes one family’s story can open your eyes to an entire world you knew nothing about. In this episode of FUCK…Where Do We Start?, I sit down with Jan for…
- FUCK... Where do we start?
You Can Sleep When Your're Dead
What does it really mean to do the work? In this episode of FUCK…Where Do We Start?, I sit down with Vanessa, founder of Girls Do the Work, for one of those…
- FUCK... Where do we start?
Fuck U Thought
What if the people who doubted you became the reason you refused to quit? In this episode of FUCK…Where Do We Start?, I sit down with Dr. Ruby Patterson—a…
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Everything I Didn't Say
Some stories aren't just meant to be heard—they're meant to create change. In this episode of FUCK…Where Do We Start?, I sit down with Brook for one of the…
- FUCK... Where do we start?
Here I Am
Sometimes the people who knew you at the very beginning are the ones who remind you how far you've come. In this episode of FUCK…Where Do We Start?, I sit down…
- FUCK... Where do we start?
The Rebirth of Evan
What if healing starts by changing the way you see yourself? In this episode of FUCK…Where Do We Start?, I sit down with Evan for a conversation that goes far…
- FUCK... Where do we start?
Standing Out
What does it mean to stand out when you've never had the choice to blend in? In this episode of FUCK…Where Do We Start?, I sit down with Mary for a…
- FUCK... Where do we start?
I Think It's Time We Fucking Talking About This
How many times have you stayed quiet just to keep the peace? In this solo episode, I talk about something I think far too many of us experience: knowing…
- FUCK... Where do we start?
Don't Give Up. Okay?
Some conversations deserve more than one episode. Candace came back for round two, and somehow this conversation went even deeper than the first. We talked…
- FUCK... Where do we start?
Eat. Pray. Love.
Most people think skincare is about products. This episode is about everything underneath them. Today, we sit down with Utah Master Esthetician Emily to talk…
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Right Person, Right Place
Some people's stories are about what happened to them. Sierra's story is about becoming themselves. In this episode, we talk about confidence, self-advocacy…
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Wild Hearts Cant Be Broken
This episode is one of the most grounded and important conversations I’ve had so far. I sat down with Gina and we talked about veterans, health struggles…
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Success Is What You Make It. OR Can't Stop, Wont Stop
This episode is for the people trying to build something bigger than themselves. I sat down with Grapefruit & Thyme and talked about the real side of building…
FUCK... Where do we start?“Bestie Therapy” ft. My Old Bestie
This episode was recorded almost a year ago… and listening back to it now feels a little surreal. This conversation was with someone who was once one of my…
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Dr. Serena Sterling & SATYA
This episode honestly blew me away. I sat down with Dr. Serena Sterling — doctor, author, and creator of Satya, a dating app rooted in actual human behavior…
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It's Eleanor
This episode is really special to me. I sat down with my daughter for one of the sweetest, funniest, and most genuine conversations I’ve had so far on…
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Taki's Past Life
This episode is a special one for me. I sat down with my longtime friend Taki — someone I’ve known since 3rd grade — and we had a real conversation about what…
FUCK... Where do we start?For Them, For Me- with Christian & Brandon
Men's mental health.. why don't we talk about this more... This episode dives into the reality of being a man trying to hold everything together. Sitting down…
FUCK... Where do we start?Hobby Collector: A Tale Of ADHD in Middle Aged Women
My first in-studio guest episode… and we really just said “fuck it, let’s go there.” Let’s meet the woman who just made history, Candace McBride! • Small…
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So I Became the Villain in Their Story
Going no contact with your family is a different kind of heartbreak. Not because you don’t love them… but because loving them was destroying you. And somehow…
FUCK... Where do we start?If He Wanted To He Would… Right?
We’ve all heard the phrase: “If he wanted to, he would.” But is it always that simple? In this episode, we’re talking about effort in relationships, the…
FUCK... Where do we start?When Your Life Feels Like Chaos… But It Might Be A Turning Point
Sometimes life falls apart before it falls into place. In this episode, I’m talking about those moments when everything feels chaotic — relationships are…
FUCK... Where do we start?Do You Know The Real ME?
At some point in life, many of us realize something uncomfortable — some people never actually knew us. They only knew the version of us that fit their…
FUCK... Where do we start?The Messy Middle: When Life Keeps Fucking Changing
Life doesn’t always fall apart in obvious ways. Sometimes it quietly shifts beneath your feet until you wake up one day realizing everything feels uncertain…
FUCK... Where do we start?Am I Fucking Okay?
At some point in life, you realize something that kind of hits like a truck… you’ve been living your entire life for everyone else. Trying to be the good…
FUCK... Where do we start?Late Night Loneliness
It’s late. I should be asleep. But my brain wouldn’t shut the f*ck up. This is a quiet, solo episode — no big lesson, no perfectly wrapped ending. Just me…
FUCK... Where do we start?Who The Fuck Gave Me Back The Mic?
Hiiii. Allow me to re-introduce myself, join us for the crazy ride coming on SEASON 2! 🖤🖤
FUCK... Where do we start?I Love Myself… But Why Do I Still Feel Like I’m Not Enough?
This one’s for the people who’ve done the work…The ones who’ve fought to love themselves, built themselves back up with tape and glue and still find themselves…
FUCK... Where do we start?When Losing a Friend Breaks You in Ways You Never Knew Possible
In this solo episode, I discuss the hardest kind of grief..losing a friend you thought would be there forever. I talk about loving someone platonically and…
FUCK... Where do we start?I’m Raising Our Son Alone. The Grief, Strength and Reality Of Losing You
Raising my son alone.. the grief, strength and pure heartbreak of our reality. ❣️
FUCK... Where do we start?Hi.. It’s Me. Sorry I Disappeared
I’ve been MIA… I’ve missed you though. ❣️
FUCK... Where do we start?I Dont Trust Myself Anymore... And That Might Hurt The Most
This one’s deep I know… but the reality of this is real. Let’s learn how to trust ourselves again. I love you ❣️
FUCK... Where do we start?I Want To Trust Again But I Fucking Don't Know How
Trust is so fucking hard to rebuild. Let’s talk about the reality of realllllly wanting to trust someone, but just can’t.. ❣️
FUCK... Where do we start?The Hard Truth Is...I Don't Think I'll Ever Feel Good Enough
Something that’s been weighing heavy on me.. I never feel good enough. Can you relate? Let’s fuckin talk about it. ❣️
FUCK... Where do we start?When You Love Someone Who Isn’t Fully Yours (yet)
Judge me all you want for this one. I knooooow I’m not alone on this, just have the balls to talk about it ❣️ if you relate hmu so I don’t feel so alone 🫠🙃
FUCK... Where do we start?Why Am I Always The One Who Cares More?
Feeling like you ALWAYS care more? Let’s rant about it ❣️❣️ I know it’s long babe, just stay till the end 🫠
FUCK... Where do we start?Loving Them From A Distance: Losing Sibling Bonds To Toxic Parents
Grieving the relationship you’ll never have with your younger siblings? Knowing that this wasn’t your choice.. but the choice of others. Let’s talk about it ❣️
FUCK... Where do we start?Say What You Mean or Shut The Fuck Up
This one is definitely a rant. Honestly, unfiltered, I’m tired of this shit rant. Let’s talk about why people can talk the talk, but not walk the walk. ❣️
FUCK... Where do we start?How And When The Fuck To Leave Your Toxic Marriage
Stuck in a toxic marriage and just need a push? Press play ❣️
FUCK... Where do we start?High-Functioning Anxiety: When Your Brain Won’t Shut The Fuck Up
Do you suffer from high-functioning anxiety? Let’s talk about it ❣️
FUCK... Where do we start?So Apparently, I’m Chronically Fucked
Dealing with a chronic illness? Let’s talk about how shitty it is to get diagnosed 🫠
FUCK... Where do we start?Self-Sabotage: Why Do We Keep Fucking Ourselves Over?
Are you a self-sabotager? Let’s talk about the joy that is. ❣️
FUCK... Where do we start?When You Feel Like You Have Fucking No One
Are you deep into loneliness? That’s normal. Let’s talk about how it feels to have fucking no one to turn to. ❣️
FUCK... Where do we start?CPTSD: The Trauma That Doesn’t Just Go Away
Do you have CPTSD or know someone who has it? Let’s talk about the real raw truth of what it’s like to live with. ❣️
FUCK... Where do we start?Your Negative Thoughts Are Fucking Lying
Stuck on a cycle of negative thoughts? Let’s talk about it. ❣️
FUCK... Where do we start?Being Alone Vs. Being Fucking Lonely.
Do you feel alone a lot of the time? Let’s dive into the difference between being alone vs. being fucking lonely! ❣️
FUCK... Where do we start?Loving An Addict The Pain, The Chaos And The Fucking Reality
Let’s talking about the raw and real truth of loving an addict. ❣️
FUCK... Where do we start?Ending The Toxic Generational Curses That FUCKED Us Up
Are you tryin to break these generational curses? Let’s talk about how fucked up this shit is. ❣️
FUCK... Where do we start?Grieving The Parent You Never Had
Hardcore grieving the life you thought you’d have? The one you wished for growing up? Let’s talk about the trauma it gives us when you didn’t grow up with the…
FUCK... Where do we start?The Step-Parents That High Key Treat You Like Shit
Toxic step-parent? Let’s see how that really fucks us up in the long run. ❣️