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Come Back to Yourself: Trainer Chyna Rae on Motherhood, Creativity & Finding Real Joy · Tone It Down

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  I thought when I had all of these things, I would just be happy, I guess.
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  And yet there was something inside of me that was like,
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  oh my gosh, it's still not working.
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  I'm so used to like kind of being a people pleaser.
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  So that was a big first step of breaking that off.
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  I didn't realize how much I still was looking at outward things to fix
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  whatever the inward thing was inside of me.
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  So working out has really become that moment kind of like a meditation in a way.
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  I have like a newfound appreciation for fitness.
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  I have taken a lot of fitness breaks.
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  That is something that 20-something-year-old me would have been terrified of.
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  It's okay if you take a while off of fitness,
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  and that's how I'm healthfully going to come back to it.
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  I'm really excited to help so many women understand that...
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  Hello, T-I-U team.
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  I hope you're having a beautiful day.
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  It's Karina here.
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  So happy to be back for episode seven.
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  I don't know about you, but I'm really enjoying being able to communicate
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  and connect each week for Tonit Down Tuesday.
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  If you don't know, obviously it's anywhere that you can listen to podcasts.
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  And it's also on the Tonit Up YouTube channel where you can watch the video.
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  So come hang with us.
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  The other thing is, I'm going to be in Palm Springs again,
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  soon filming for your summer series challenge.
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  And while I'm there, I'm doing another AMA.
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  And so you can go to KarinaDawn.com slash message.
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  And you can leave me a voice mail, anonymous or not.
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  And I listen to everyone respond to some when I can,
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  and we play them live on the show.
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  So I love every message.
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  You all are so sweet.
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  So I'm just so excited how this journey has really brought us here.
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  Anyways, I'm currently in Austin, Texas sitting at my kitchen island.
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  Had a great day, had an active rest day.
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  I really try to make sure Sundays I don't work too much.
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  I get outside and some sunshine.
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  Active rest days are my things to just kind of mill around.
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  So hope you are taking your Sundays to take time for you as well.
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  So as I mentioned, I am going to be in Palm Springs
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  next week filming summer series.
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  And guess what?
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  Then the following week is the launch of your trainer Christina Ernest
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  Challenge.
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  So it's a two week thing.
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  Like those of you who have been asking for something a bit more
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  intense, this one's for you.
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  It's evergreen, start whenever you want.
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  It's there just like all of the other thousand plus workouts in your app.
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  Always there.
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  This weekend I did a yoga with Alex on yesterday.
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  My body just wanted a yoga flow on the beach.
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  So I did that.
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  So excited for Christina's program coming out.
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  And of course, as you know, every Monday,
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  there is a new workout.
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  Every Monday when there's not a new program that's being launched,
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  there is a new workout or content in your tone or app.
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  So that's really cool.
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  That's one of the things I really wanted to change
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  is just consistent content.
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  And again, all the old workouts are there.
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  And then a lot of new stuff.
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  So anyways, enough yibber yabberin.
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  Enjoy this discussion with China, your trainer China.
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  So when I was in LA, China came to the hotel room as well.
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  We sat down to have a beautiful conversation about China's journey.
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  She's been in over the past five years.
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  So navigating a life-changing divorce in her 20s,
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  rediscovering who she truly is,
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  to falling in love, getting married, and becoming a mama.
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  And I really love how China opens up about all of it.
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  And together, we dive into the transformative power of creativity
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  as a path of joy and why taking long breaks from fitness helped her build
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  the healthiest relationship with movement she's ever had.
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  And I can totally understand that as well.
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  Now, also talking about how becoming a mother
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  brought her fully into the present moment.
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  Joy isn't found in checking off boxes
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  or achieving the perfect life from the outside in.
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  It lives inside of you and it's time to get unlocked.
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  So whether you're navigating change, stepping into a new season
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  or simply craving more presence and creativity
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  in your everyday life, you are exactly where you need to be.
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  Enjoy this episode.
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  Share it with a friend.
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  I loved one that you think needs to hear it as well.
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  All right, I love you.
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  Welcome back to Tona Down.
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  And today's guest, China.
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  Hello, hello.
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  Hello.
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  Welcome.
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  We've also got Max here for emotional support.
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  We were just talking in China recently lost a puppy
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  and we're like such dog people.
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  It's really hard.
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  It hits you so much harder than you think it would.
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  It's like, like at first I was like, I can't be the sad for dog.
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  And then what am I talking about?
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  I'm really sad.
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  She was so special.
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  Yeah, but this is so nice to have a little dog right now.
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  All right, so China needs no introduction.
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  You've been working out with her again.
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  And I kind of want to go back
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  to the last time you worked out with Tona,
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  you had just gotten engaged.
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  And I remember that ring.
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  You can wear your own set.
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  And Elsa Gunnows, the old Lululemon store.
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  Okay.
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  And you came in while you were filming.
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  You're like, okay, I don't remember this.
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  And you're like, I'm okay.
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  I remember, I think I remember this.
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  Yeah.
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  Is there like a trailer or something?
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  No.
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  No, okay.
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  Anyways, all right.
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  So let's go way back.
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  Let's talk about where you're from.
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  Well, hello.
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  Okay, this is fun.
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  Yeah, where I'm from like, like where you grew up.
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  Okay, so I ended up in California.
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  Oh, this is fun.
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  I was born actually in California in Camarillo.
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  Okay.
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  So I have a bunch of family out here.
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  Like aunt uncles cousins grandma.
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  We moved to Wisconsin when I was like five years old.
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  So I grew up in the Midwest.
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  My whole life and moved back out here.
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  Right when I started toning up the first time.
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  I know.
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  Yeah, we met when you had just moved out.
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  Yes.
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  I met you for the first time and we're like, we like,
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  we make Midwest.
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  Yeah.
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  And so you got into fitness.
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  How I got into fitness just
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  actually like my whole life.
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  I don't know if it's a Midwest thing or what,
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  but it was really focused on sports and athletic
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  studies from where I'm from and I loved it.
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  So I started out my main three sports.
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  I guess we're track and field volleyball and a dance too.
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  I don't know that you dance.
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  I did.
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  Yeah, I danced for a long time.
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  I forget that for and I was like, you should do a dance video.
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  We should do a dance TikTok since now.
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  But that's literally another life.
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  Like at this point, that's 20 years ago.
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  It was another that's crazy to me.
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  But yeah, I did dance.
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  But track and volleyball, I loved.
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  I was very into sports.
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  So that's where I got into fitness.
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  And I think it was leaving high school for me.
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  I didn't play sports in college.
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  And I was like, well, now what do I do?
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  I'm so used to having practice.
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  I wasn't coaches to tell me what to do.
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  And so that's when a lot of people, I think,
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  start developing their own interest in fitness more personally.
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  So why the move back to California?
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  The move.
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  Oh, well,
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  it's dark and then happy.
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  That's fine.
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  I know the story.
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  The move back was because I actually had a divorce.
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  So my early 20s, I got married.
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  All I want to say is I don't think I really knew myself.
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  I don't think I knew myself.
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  I don't think I knew I was marrying whatever.
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  So I got divorced and right at the time I got divorced,
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  I was recalibrating so much in my life.
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  Just like, I didn't see this coming.
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  Yeah, I remember being like, I didn't think I would be a person that got divorced.
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  That's like how I felt.
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  And if you're comfortable talking about it,
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  I think it's so important because I've gotten a lot of messages from women who are like,
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  yeah, we have moved their marriages through divorce through losses in this nine.
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  And I don't think a lot of people know about that side of you.
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  Yeah, I'm comfortable talking about anything.
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  That's why I love this podcast.
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  It's like, we get to actually talk, you know?
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  Yeah, so I went through divorce and I know you're married now.
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  Yeah, I know where we'll get there.
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  But for someone listening, was there shame around it?
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  Yeah, there was so much confusion on my end of,
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  like I said, the narrative in my head,
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  if I didn't think I would be a person that would do this,
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  which is such a strange thing to say because it's life.
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  It's unexpected.
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  But I think I had shame because to be totally honest,
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  I grew up where just like my faith is really important to me.
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  And then when it comes to, if you get too religious about it,
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  it's like very shameful to get a divorce.
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  I'm not saying that anybody in my family, you know,
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  nobody treated me that way.
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  But I think that was in my head of like, you don't do this.
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  You can't do this.
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  I'm like, but I can't do what I'm doing.
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  Yeah.
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  So that was a big hurdle to overcome other people's thoughts, I guess,
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  about me and about my life.
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  This could take me in another direction because I'm so interested in you talk a lot about
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  the joy of life now and what your purpose is and how in the past was so much about aesthetics
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  and how you're really bringing it home to like who you are.
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  Do you feel like in that last relationship,
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  you are still discovering who you are.
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  You're still growing.
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  And now, like, as you've grown, grown as we all do over the years,
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  like how that shift has happened.
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  Totally.
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  I think the first relationship, when I think about it, it's like discovering who you are not
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  knowing who you are.
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  I think my thing was being really scared to be alone deep down.
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  And so there was like this rush or something to be in a relationship because it made me feel
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  I needed someone else to like, completely, complete me.
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  That's like that little cliche of a thing that's, I think that's what it was.
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  And so post divorce and post going through this first, it was like my first big step of like,
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  I have to do something that people might not like.
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  I have to get divorced and people might be upset with me.
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  And I'm so used to like kind of being a people pleaser.
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  So that was a big first step of like breaking that off.
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  And then the step to move out here.
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  And yeah, just this journey to be like, it was my mid 20s of,
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  yeah.
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  Okay, I kind of want to figure out what's going on and how I got here.
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  How did you have the courage to do that?
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  You were in your mid 20s, yes, but even someone in their mid 30s, 40s, 50s,
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  like to have the courage to be like, I think there's something greater for me.
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  How do I go explore that?
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  It's so tough. I don't really know how.
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  I think you just have to go down to the really deep parts of yourself
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  and listen to those parts because a lot of time like, for me personally,
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  I think your gut kind of knows it.
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  Don't mind the train in the background.
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  Yeah, is that a train?
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  A little train in downtown LA.
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  I know.
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  I've middle sunset, boulevard, y'all.
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  We'll work through the sound.
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  But going back to your gut, yes.
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  Yeah, I guess so.
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  I don't know.
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  It's so different for every person.
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  And at the stage that I was in, I just,
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  I don't know.
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  It's like more of a description of this is what happened in my 20s rather than
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  a prescription of like, oh, this is how you know, you know what I mean?
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  I can just speak for myself and my journey with relationships and with knowing
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  that I'm not quite being honest with myself.
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  Yeah.
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  I think.
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  So let's talk about your fitness journey.
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  When we met, you were with Toned Up.
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  You got engaged.
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  We already know.
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  We've all talked about the transitions of Toned Up and, you know, private equity and all of that.
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  And during that time, where was it like five years, we didn't really see each other.
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  He got married.
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  He became a mother.
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  Talk about how all of that has just like,
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  really changed who you are and the importance of what you like to speak about and do.
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  And how I feel like it brought out the artist within you.
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  I've followed you obviously and senior creativity and talk to you on the phone.
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  I feel like you've really come into, like, who you already were.
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  But really having a different confidence.
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  It's so fun that we started talking about my wife like 10 or 10 years ago because I'm just like,
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  I don't even remember what to say because I was so long ago.
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  Like, yeah.
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  And then you, but it's fun remembering it for a second because you can realize, oh my gosh,
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  I've grown so much or I'm just in such a different place and I'm so grateful for that.
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  Like, I'm so grateful to be through the decade of the 20s and early 30s.
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  And I think it's just going to keep getting better too.
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  I'm very excited about that.
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  So, okay, wait, what's the question?
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  Just so in the five years getting married,
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  yeah, becoming a mother, like, how you've transitioned to become this woman that you are,
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  who your focus seems more about is like being creative, having a voice, a voice that you feel
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  true to yourself, that transition of everything.
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  So, yeah, it's been awesome.
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  I'm in the happiest place I have ever been in 100% and I think a lot of it started.
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  I got married and Amar is, I just can't believe there's a human that can love you so unconditionally
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  and so consistently and be so okay with exactly who you are in this moment.
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  And I support you and I see you and I believe in you.
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  And I think there's something about that type of love that did give me just like a confidence
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  because he saw me.
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  I felt like, and when someone can start to see the truth inside of you, it's like it can spark
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  something for you.
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  And with Folly and love with him and getting married, I also, I feel like I just
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  entered this life and I was like, wait, I'm checking off so many boxes of what would be
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  in my dream life and there were so many, like we lived in a place I loved and we had our dogs
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  and we had this love and we got married and all this great stuff.
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  And yet there was something inside of me that was like, oh my gosh, it's still not working.
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  Like I thought when I had all of these things, I would just be happy, I guess,
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  is what it was.
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  I mean, that's an assumption that I think at some point we all make is like when you get to hear
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  and you check those boxes, you have happiness and you have joy, but it has to go way deeper than that.
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  So much deeper and I didn't even realize it.
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  I didn't realize how much I still was looking at outward things to fix whatever the inward
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  thing was inside of me.
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  And so I think that was like a terrifying moment.
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  It was like my second year being married to a mar life was perfect.
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  I have nothing to complain about.
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  And so then I'm just like, why don't I feel this like joy?
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  Like the main thing that I would feel was, okay, I can get excited if something good happens,
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  but otherwise I'm confused.
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  I'm doing like something's not adding up here in life.
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  And so that's when I started going on.
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  I'm like, I got to face whatever this is.
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  And I just went on this whole journey inside of me of like, why isn't what am I doing wrong?
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  Not that it was wrong. It's just a part of the journey.
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  Just what are you missing?
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  What is that thing that connection was self to miss out on the joy?
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  And that's also, I love that joy is such an important word for you because it's also been
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  every year like freedom and joy.
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  Yeah, because you probably have to go on the exact same journey.
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  And it's the greatest feeling when you discover like, it's in where it is in you and you can never
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  lose it. And so for me, that started with opening up the artist and creativity inside of me was
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  really empowering for me because it's something I can always have and I can always do and I can always
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  paint and write and draw whatever else the creative expression is instead of being a product of
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  something. It's like I felt empowered that I get to create things and the level of joy that
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  creating things brought me was crazy. It still is.
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  And you are a great writer. I reposted something that you wrote recently and posted on Instagram.
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  But this is important for someone listening because I feel like art is so important and it comes
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  in so many different forms and a lot of people don't have that freedom to explore it.
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  So your art and how someone can find that and encourage to like discover that and do it.
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  Yeah, well, I didn't realize I had that inside of me. I think that's the thing I'm very passionate
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  about is everybody has this inside of them. And a lot of times you categorize art as
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  painting, writing, whatever, classic artist's stuff. But it can be anything. It can be like
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  how you get excited to host a dinner party and set the table or creative ways that you're
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  scheduling the day with your kids. There's just so many avenues. It's basically just getting out
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  of that logic, reptilian side of your brain and moving into prefrontal cortex where your
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  imagination is. And that can mean everybody has that. And I think that part of your mind,
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  it's like where you can access this joy. So it's finding right now for me. It's actually reading
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  fiction books. I'm not even creating, but it's allowing me to go to that part of my mind and use
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  my imagination. That's where I'm getting that connection to joy. That makes sense. I do love
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  some fiction books too. What are your favorite fiction books? Like what genre of fiction?
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  Okay, well, this is a total surprise. My sister's like, what? You like these, but she got me
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  hooked right now on, okay, I just read Verity. Okay. The house made just like these big classic ones
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  that are kind of like psychological thrillers. That's what I'm into. I was going to say, is it
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  thrillers? Because that's what I like too. They're so fun. Bobby thinks I'm psycho because even like
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  watching shows. Yeah, I love thrillers. Okay. Yeah, we got to read some books. But that's another,
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  it's like, I'm realizing it the last few weeks. I'm like, this is giving me the same feeling
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  as painting. And I think it's just because it's allowing me to turn everything off and go into
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  that creative party mind because you're kind of like forming the story, you know, like picturing
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  the movie. Yeah. And so that's another way to do it. It just bringing me a lot of joy. Yeah.
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  And gals, we have had discussions of a turn up book club. Oh, yeah, yeah. So let us know if you're
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  in for that because that could be really fun. It would be so fun. Oh, my gosh, I could talk about
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  books all day. I usually am a big reader. And I've gone away from that. But that is like that
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  connects that part of the brain where you have to visualize. Yeah, it keeps you alive.
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  I've realized it this last week. I didn't even know that. But I think what it is is doing something,
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  it's realizing that you always have a chance to access that part of your mind. Like I think I was
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  always just upset or offended by a circumstance or a person instead of understanding.
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  Oh, right now I'm empowered to go to a place that makes me happy. Yeah.
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  Let's chat. Motherhood. Oh, yeah. Love how has that journey been? I've met Kai. And once I
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  motherhood has been such a whirlwind. I wasn't somebody who grew up dreaming about the day
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  I would get married and have kids. So it's like an unusual, I'm sure there's so many people like
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  this. But sometimes I feel like unique in that area. So it'd be so interesting if anybody else
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  felt this way. But I never really thought about having kids. And I wasn't much of a babysitter
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  growing up. Like I'm actually pretty uncomfortable with newborns. The first diaper I ever changed
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  may have been Kai's. I can't remember, but I think it might have been. Yeah. And I remember when
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  the nurse like left him in our room right after I gave up. Yeah, after I delivered, I'm like,
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  what are you? How do I know if he's still breathing? So I went on like my sister such a baby
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  babysitter so comfortable with babies. So for me, it was like, man, it's been a total crazy
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  softening of my heart. Because at the same time, as soon as Kai came along, I'm just like,
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  why was I so caught up with like this big purpose I had to do with my life? Like all this stuff,
• 22:08
  he's really helped bring me back to the present moment of like, this is it. Yeah. This is
• 22:14
  everything I've wanted. So it's been unexpected and so transformative in the best ways ever.
• 22:25
  Yeah. How has that affected your marriage? It's been really cool. Yeah.
• 22:32
  Yeah, it's been really cool to see how, because there's a lot of stuff we didn't talk about
• 22:36
  pre-kids. Yeah. Like, well, how would we do this? How would we do that? And it's just actually
• 22:42
  been really awesome because we're both so respectful with each other and like, we really want to be
• 22:47
  a team about this because it's crazy. Even though it's only one baby, one baby is still just a shock
• 22:54
  to your schedule and to your life. And being able to see Amar as a dad is just the best. And
• 23:03
  yeah, it's been really cool. I'm so happy that Kai has him as a dad.
• 23:08
  Loving motherhood, new experiences, discovering yourself even more and love and joy. And then
• 23:17
  what has your fitness journey been like in the past five years? Oh, five years. Okay. So five
• 23:24
  years ago, that was pre-wedding. It's gone like this. That's what the journey of what's
• 23:29
  fitness has been. It's been intense at times. It's been, I want to look good for my wedding.
• 23:37
  It's been, oh my gosh, I'm having a baby. How do I stay strong and keep my body fit through
• 23:44
  this pregnancy and then post baby? And it's cool because I have taken a lot of fitness breaks.
• 23:52
  And that's something that is something that 20-something year old me would have been terrified of.
• 23:58
  Like that, I'm talking like like months and like months, months, months of just I'm not really
• 24:06
  into working out at the moment. And not saying that that's what everyone should do, but I really
• 24:11
  needed the long breaks to rewire my brain to be like, it's okay. It's okay if you take a
• 24:17
  while off of fitness. And that's how I'm healthily going to come back to it. And that's exactly
• 24:22
  what happened. And I mentioned this before, but like I'm really doing it to stay strong now
• 24:27
  because I notice lifting up chi and things like that. It just like it does take a toll. And if
• 24:32
  I want to get pregnant again. And I'm doing it to connect with my body. Like my brain can be so
• 24:39
  scattered now. And I have to do this, this, this, this, and I'm just kind of living up here.
• 24:45
  So working out has really become that moment kind of like a meditation in a way.
• 24:49
  Yeah, keep you sharp. Keep you present.
• 24:51
  Dorphins, give you energy, all the things. I know we've talked before. It's a lot less about
• 24:57
  the aesthetic, but like what how it makes me feel. Yeah. And my strength to have another child,
• 25:05
  take care of it. Yeah. I have like a newfound appreciation for fitness. It's like an interesting
• 25:10
  relationship. And right now I'm at the point where I'm so grateful that we have this tool to like
• 25:16
  connect with ourselves to be stronger to I really, I'm at the healthiest I've been with that,
• 25:21
  I think. And that doesn't mean I'm going to the gym every day, for sure. Well,
• 25:28
  aesthetically, you look like I also want to give a shout out to you too, because when we were
• 25:34
  filming new, new TIO, you were so sick prior, like eating up to that. I was so, I was the most sick
• 25:42
  I've ever been. I called you and I remember I like couldn't even talk on the phone. I was like,
• 25:47
  I'll try to be here. I can't read it. I know. And everyone's like, whatever you got to do.
• 25:54
  Yeah, you guys were amazing. I just I wouldn't have pushed it if I felt really sick, but it was like
• 26:00
  it was at the tail end of it. But you showed up, we edited out all the hacking. But I just want
• 26:06
  to say, like that shows your strength and your ability and your mental capacity to push through
• 26:13
  things. And you were at the tail end, obviously, we wouldn't have, but there was no pressure put on
• 26:17
  you. Like we can do this another time. But you're like, no, I'm going to show up. I'm going to do
• 26:22
  this and you made it and you powered through. And that's good. That's where it's like, oh yeah,
• 26:29
  the app they did me that I want to keep nurturing to because I like her a lot. Yeah, just having
• 26:34
  that stamina and strength. So now that you're back and teaching workouts and all the things,
• 26:39
  what can we expect from you beyond fitness, like wellness and overall, like what is China now?
• 26:48
  What is she now? She is very focused on being as present as possible because I have spent way too
• 26:58
  much life on autopilot. That is literally my goal at the moment is how do I get in my body,
• 27:06
  not let life just pass me by, just see everybody that I'm with. And like, I know this is a very abstract
• 27:13
  answer, but that is where I'm at at the moment. And I'm more of the like practical side loving being
• 27:20
  a mom to Kai. And I just finished writing a book and tell you that. Okay, what's it about,
• 27:28
  when's it coming out? I don't know how much I'm saying it because literally it's ironic,
• 27:33
  but this morning I finished and I'm only through like the first complete draft. And I just feel so
• 27:42
  proud of the accomplishment. Yeah, I've been working on it. I don't want to tell you so long.
• 27:46
  It took me five years to write a bit more. Five years. Okay, I see. And it's not that it's like,
• 27:51
  oh, you're writing for five years. It's more of like the rhythm with life. And then honestly,
• 27:58
  it's a fiction that I'm writing. And so just the story is like unfolding. And it's been a really
• 28:04
  cool practice for me just like having this anchor throughout the last five years. And it's another
• 28:10
  big reason why I'm really excited to help so many women understand the creative power that's inside
• 28:16
  of them because I think it's kind of saved me. I love that and I can't wait to read it. Yeah,
• 28:21
  that's amazing. Yeah, I'm really excited. Going back to your presence, if someone's listening
• 28:28
  in there on autopilot and just doing the day to day, just getting through it so they can get to
• 28:36
  the end of the day, what are some tips on how you can become present and take care of you first or
• 28:43
  whatever, maybe. Yeah, I know it's so tough. It's I think definitely for me getting outside and
• 28:51
  going on a walk or something with no audio. So no like not listening to anything is really
• 28:59
  healthy. I just get to like connect with myself and focus on where I am in life today so that the
• 29:07
  day doesn't just like pass by. Right. Kind of just like getting in nature, hearing the sounds,
• 29:13
  seeing what's around you, feeling the breath, like the temper, like, yeah, just staying present then.
• 29:18
  Yeah, like noticing it in your body. For me, it's like a macro level thing where I've just been like,
• 29:24
  why do I live up here? Like that's not where life exists. It doesn't exist in the future.
• 29:30
  Doesn't exist in the past. And just like getting to this place of like, oh, life is right here
• 29:35
  right now today. I think I spent 90% of my time before thinking about the past, thinking about the
• 29:40
  future. And so it's really realizing how true that is. And what do people do? Yeah. So that's
• 29:46
  been anxiety. Yeah. Exactly. And it's just like so much of it is unnecessary suffering. It's like
• 29:55
  worrying about things that we don't know aren't going to happen. So you're kind of like worrying
• 30:00
  times too for no reason. So it's just like going to the root of those lies of like, why am I
• 30:05
  up here? I want to come back here. Kai has been a huge part of it because I don't want to be like,
• 30:11
  wait, it's childhood just go by instead of I'm just trying to really take in each day of like his
• 30:17
  little changes and be with him as much as I can. And he's easy to do it on. I think it's harder with
• 30:23
  like life and adult relationships. I'm just like, now how do I do this with everyone around me?
• 30:29
  Yeah, it is hard. We're having more workouts from China. We have workouts. Yes, yes, yes.
• 30:35
  And what is the like your favorite workout to teach? Absolute favorite for sure is something that's
• 30:43
  about 15 minutes long. That's high intensity interval type of workout. It's like my body just is
• 30:52
  like, this is me. And I love it. And it's worked. Yeah. No, I agree. I'm into I'd like to come work
• 30:58
  out snacks like 10 to 20 minutes. And just like really having an impact and it feels so good. Yeah.
• 31:06
  So yeah, that's the go too. Well, any last final words, funny stories and let's find a funny story.
• 31:14
  Something weird that happened lately that I have to just think of something weird that happened.
• 31:20
  I mean, I know so many weird things that happened. I asked stuff this and she had a story but
• 31:26
  she's like, you gotta ask Corey because she has so many funny stories. Yeah, let's save them all
• 31:31
  for Corey because she'll be like, oh my gosh, yesterday. This and this and this and this.
• 31:36
  All right. Well, last words for this podcast. Just so happy to be back and to be able to just
• 31:42
  talk about life with everybody. And yeah, really grateful to be here and really excited for what's
• 31:48
  coming. Yeah. Thank you, Diana. Of course.