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The Relationship Truth You Can't Ignore Anymore · Ay Mijita ✨ Embrace your raíces. Reclaim your esencia.

0:05
Dora: Hey mi gente, welcome back to Ani Gita, Embrace Your Raíces, Reclaim Your Essentia.
0:12
Dora: I'm your host, Doralicia Praxedis, and today's episode, this one is tender, this one is raw, this one is for the part of you that is tired of pretending everything is okay when deep down it's not.
0:27
Dora: And we are talking about the full moon in Libra, because that just happened um last night when this episode drops.
0:35
Dora: And if you're listening to this in the future, definitely writing this energy.
0:41
Dora: And if something comes up during this episode, honor it.
0:45
Dora: And if you've been feeling emotional, reflective, extra sensitive in your relationships, if old wounds have been coming up, if tension has been building, if you've been questioning your role in certain connections, or noticing where you've been overgiving, overcompensating, over-functioning, over-loving, over-explaining, then baby, this moon is already working on you.
1:16
Dora: I've been sitting with my moonology diary, really letting the energy of this lunation speak to me.
1:23
Dora: And the themes that stood out so strongly were intensity, transformation, power struggles, tensions.
1:35
Dora: And let's be honest, those are not light words.
1:40
Dora: Those are not everything is cute and aligned and aesthetic words.
1:44
Dora: Those are words that pull things from the shadows.
1:48
Dora: Those are words that expose what's been quietly pestering.
1:52
Dora: Those are words that make you look in the mirror and ask, what am I tolerating?
1:57
Dora: What am I still carrying?
2:00
Dora: What kind of love have I accepted because it felt familiar?
2:05
Dora: Where have I confused self-sacrifice for intimacy?
2:10
Dora: So today we're going there.
2:12
Dora: We're going into relationships.
2:13
Dora: I'm so excited because I've been waiting to drop this episode in a while.
2:18
Dora: Um, we are in two-year cycles and it's the beginning of a new two-year.
2:23
Dora: Um, and so for those that have not been doing the work, like the inner work, now it's really gonna be prominent what's coming up, especially when it comes to relationships.
2:32
Dora: So we're going into the relationships this time: romantic relationships, family relationships, friendships, the relationship with your own boys, the relationship with your needs, the relationship with truth, the relationship with the version of you that has been slowly dying to be chosen.
2:56
Dora: And before we get into it, I want to remind you that my masterclass is coming up, and this episode is really the doorway into that deeper work.
3:04
Dora: If what I'm sharing today hits you in the chest, in the throat, in the gut like a gut punch, in that place where your body already knows the truth before you want your mind wants to admit it, the masterclass is for you.
3:17
Dora: And later in this episode, I'm going to create space for an oracle card poll.
3:23
Dora: So if you're listening while walking, driving, folding clothes, cleaning the kitchen, laying in bed, crying in the dark, because I do do that in the closet, trying to hold it together, I want you to know this episode is also a little ritual, a little ceremony, a little mirror, a little medicine.
3:46
Dora: So grab your beverage of choice if you want, and let's begin.
3:51
Dora: So full moons illuminate, they reveal, they bring culmination, they bring emotion to the surface, they expose what no longer stays buried.
4:07
Dora: And Libra?
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Dora: On paper, sounds so beautiful, right?
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Dora: Like Libra is balance, it's harmony, Libra is justice, it's beauty, and Libra is partnership, Libra is diplomacy.
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Dora: Libra wants things to feel good, look good, flow beautifully.
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Dora: But what people don't talk about enough is the shadow side of Libra energy.
4:31
Dora: Because when balance becomes obsession, you can lose yourself.
4:36
Dora: When harmony becomes the goal at all cost, you start swallowing truth.
4:42
Dora: When keeping the peace matters more than just being honest, resentment starts to rot you from the inside out.
4:50
Dora: And this is where I need us to get real.
4:54
Dora: How many of us were taught to keep the peace?
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Dora: How many of us learned very early in life that love meant managing other people's emotions?
5:03
Dora: How many of us became the calm one, the understanding one, the forgiving one, the flexible one, the bigger person one, the mature one, the one who get quote unquote gets it, the one who doesn't make things harder, the one who doesn't ask for much or for too much, the one who smooths it over.
5:29
Dora: The one who circles back.
5:33
Dora: The one who always checks in.
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Dora: The one who apologizes first, because I mean that's the right thing to do, right?
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Dora: You kind of like twist your arm.
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Dora: The one who holds the family together.
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Dora: You're the glue.
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Dora: The one who translates pain into silence.
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Dora: That's not just personality.
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Dora: That's conditioning.
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Dora: That's survival.
6:01
Dora: And for so many first gen women like myself, so many daughters, so many women of color, and just so many women in general, who were forced to grow up too fast, this energy lands deep.
6:15
Dora: Because we were taught that being lovable often meant being manageable.
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Dora: Not honest, not loud, not full, not needy, not complicated, not angry, not grieving, not inconvenient, manageable, digestible, easy to carry, easy to overlook, easy to use, and Libra energy, especially under a full moon, can bring all of that to the surface.
6:54
Dora: Because the question becomes, at what cost have you maintained harmony?
7:00
Dora: At what cost have you made yourself understandable?
7:04
Dora: At what cost have you made yourself available?
7:09
Dora: At what cost have you called it love when it was really labor?
7:14
Dora: At what cost have you stayed beautiful on the outside while breaking on the inside?
7:20
Dora: This full moon is not just asking whether your relationships look balanced, it's asking whether they are balanced.
7:29
Dora: Not performative balance, not curated balance, not it's complicated, but we're making it work, balance.
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Dora: I'm talking about real balance, that reciprocity, respect, truth, safety, depth, that mutual care for each other.
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Dora: And that can be hard truth to face.
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Dora: When you've built an identity around being the one who makes things work.
8:03
Dora: Again, being that glue that sticks everything together.
8:08
Dora: One of the things that stood out so strongly from the Moonology Reflection was the idea that this full moon in Libra can bring challenge.
8:17
Dora: But that the challenge can actually lead to happier relationships if you're willing to work through the sea the tension.
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Dora: And that right there, that right there is where most people tap up.
8:30
Dora: Because everybody wants the healing.
8:33
Dora: Everybody wants the better relationship.
8:36
Dora: Everybody wants that peace that comes with it, the intimacy, and everybody wants to be seen, loved, understood, cherished, appreciated, but not everybody is willing to sit in the tension long enough to tell the truth.
8:55
Dora: Not everyone is willing to say that hurt me.
8:59
Dora: That didn't sit right with me.
9:02
Dora: I've been feeling alone in the relationship.
9:05
Dora: I need more.
9:08
Dora: I can't keep carrying this by myself.
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Dora: I've been betraying myself to keep this connection intact.
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Dora: I've changed.
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Dora: And that's because tension is uncomfortable.
9:32
Dora: Tension asks you to stop performing peace and start practicing honesty.
9:37
Dora: Honesty with yourself and honesty with those around you.
9:42
Dora: Tension asks you to stop pretending you're okay just because you're functional.
9:47
Dora: Tension asks you to stop smiling with tears behind your eyes.
9:50
Dora: It's like wailing up.
9:53
Dora: Tension asks you to stop spiritualizing your suffering.
9:57
Dora: Tension asks you to stop calling your loneliness maturity, because it's really not.
10:11
Dora: And for people like us, especially those of us who have spent our whole lives being the strong one, the emotionally intelligent one, and of course it took me years to get there, but the bridge builder, the healer, the one who holds space, the one who can see both sides, the fixer.
10:33
Dora: We can become so good at understanding everyone else that we stop making room for ourselves.
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Dora: That's a trauma response, too.
10:43
Dora: And I want to say this clearly.
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Dora: Understanding why someone hurt you does not cancel out the fact that they hurt you.
10:53
Dora: Understanding their childhood does not erase your pain.
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Dora: Understanding their stress does not erase your neglect.
11:03
Dora: Understanding their fear does not erase the impact of their silence, their rage, their inconsistency, their selfishness, their emotional unavailability.
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Dora: You can have compassion and still require accountability of the other person.
11:24
Dora: You can see someone's humanity and still choose yourself.
11:31
Dora: You can understand the wound and still refuse the pattern.
11:34
Dora: That's the Libra medicine too.
11:37
Dora: Not just the softness, but the justice.
11:39
Dora: The balance scale.
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Dora: Balancing on both sides.
11:44
Dora: This is the part that hurts.
11:46
Dora: Because it's easy to point outward.
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Dora: It's easy to say they did this.
11:54
Dora: They said that.
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Dora: They failed me.
11:58
Dora: They disappointed me.
12:01
Dora: They weren't there for me.
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Dora: They chose themselves.
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Dora: They didn't listen.
12:07
Dora: They didn't fight for me.
12:09
Dora: And sometimes all that is true.
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Dora: I'm not gonna lie.
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Dora: All that is true.
12:14
Dora: But the deeper question this moon is asking is where have you always been leaving yourself?
12:23
Dora: And there's a lot of energy moving to this question.
12:26
Dora: So I assure that some of you are really going to go into this question quite deep.
12:33
Dora: Where did you know something was off?
12:35
Dora: But keep going anyway.
12:39
Dora: Where did your body feel the contraction before your mind could name it?
12:43
Dora: Like, have you did you feel it in your chest, in your throat?
12:47
Dora: Did you feel your eyes getting watery?
12:50
Dora: Where did your intuition whisper and you talked over her?
12:54
Dora: Like you just said, shut up.
12:56
Dora: You let the mind kind of take over and do whatever logically felt made more sense.
13:03
Dora: Where did you shrink your standards?
13:05
Dora: Because you wanted the connection more than the truth.
13:09
Dora: Where did you stay?
13:10
Dora: Because leaving would force you to grieve.
13:13
Dora: Especially grieving that relationship that you had, grieving the the what you know is comfortable, you already know the person, like why not?
13:20
Dora: You know, it's like you already know where this is going or how it ends.
13:25
Dora: Where did you keep giving because giving made you feel worthy?
13:29
Dora: And oftentimes we do that because it makes us feel better, right?
13:34
Dora: Where did you confuse being needed with being loved?
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Dora: Because sometimes we do linger in relationships where they need us so much that we create this codependency.
13:48
Dora: That's a hard mirror.
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Dora: So that's not shame.
13:53
Dora: That's not blame, that's awareness.
13:58
Dora: Because when you've grown up in environments where love was inconsistent, where care came with sacrifice, where your value came from helping, fixing, caretaking, meditating, achieving, staying quiet, being useful, then self-abandonment doesn't always feel dramatic.
14:24
Dora: Sometimes it feels normal.
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Dora: Sometimes it feels like loyalty.
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Dora: Sometimes it feels like being a good woman.
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Dora: Sometimes it feels like being a good daughter.
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Dora: Sometimes it feels like patience.
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Dora: Sometimes it feels like maturity.
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Dora: Sometimes it feels like spirituality.
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Dora: But if you keep disappearing inside your relationships, that's not love.
14:51
Dora: That's erosion.
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Dora: And I know some of you listening know exactly what I mean.
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Dora: You've been in rooms where you felt invisible, in beds where you felt untouched even while being touched.
15:06
Dora: In conversations where you were physically present but emotionally erased.
15:11
Dora: In families where you were needed but not known, or not acknowledged for that matter.
15:18
Dora: In friendships where you were the safe place for everybody else and had nowhere to go with your own ache because no one could hold that space for you.
15:26
Dora: In marriages where your body was present, but your spirit had gone quiet.
15:32
Dora: In communities where your gifts were welcomed, but your grief was just way too much.
15:39
Dora: That's not balance.
15:41
Dora: That is not reciprocity.
15:44
Dora: And that is not enough.
15:46
Dora: And this full moon may bring the unbearable clarity of realizing that some of your sadness has not come from being unloved.
15:56
Dora: It has come from being around people who only knew how to love the version of you that abandoned yourself.
16:03
Dora: So take a deep breath with that.
16:05
Dora: Okay, let's go ahead and breathe in through your nose and out through your mouth.
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Dora: Because that one hits deep.
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Dora: Some people are only comfortable with the version of you that overextends, the version of you that doesn't ask questions, doesn't confront, the version of you that stays available regardless of whatever's going on, the version of you that doesn't require repair, the version of you that can be misunderstood and still keep giving.
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Dora: But when you begin to choose yourself, when you begin to speak, when you begin to need, when you begin to rest, when you begin to set limits, when you begin to say no, and that no is a full sentence, when you begin to tell the truth, the relationship changes.
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Dora: And that's where the grief is.
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Dora: Not just because you're losing something, but because you're seeing what that connection was actually built on, and that is no longer in alignment.
17:24
Dora: Another strong theme from the diary pages were power struggles and intensity.
17:31
Dora: And that makes sense for this donation because relationship tension is not always about yelling or obvious conflict.
17:38
Dora: Sometimes the power struggle is much quieter.
17:41
Dora: It's in who gets to define reality.
17:44
Dora: It's in who is always adjusting, who is always apologizing.
17:50
Dora: It's in who gets emotional space and who doesn't.
17:54
Dora: It's in whose needs take priority.
17:58
Dora: It's in who gets to be messy and who has to stay composed.
18:04
Dora: It's in who can disappear and still be forgiven.
18:09
Dora: It's in who has to earn softness by never breaking down.
18:15
Dora: And when you start to notice those imbalances, it can be devastating.
18:20
Dora: Because sometimes the relationships that hurt the most are the ones where you thought you were safe, the ones where you gave the most, the ones where you hoped your loyalty would finally teach someone how to love you correctly.
18:36
Dora: But loyalty does not transform people who benefit from your silence.
18:42
Dora: Let me say that again.
18:44
Dora: Your loyalty does not transform people who benefit from your silence.
18:50
Dora: Your softness does not automatically heal someone who only knows how to receive without reflecting.
18:58
Dora: Your patience does not automatically create emotional maturity in someone who avoids themselves.
19:04
Dora: Your understanding does not automatically create depth in someone committed to distance.
19:10
Dora: And this is why so many people stay stuck in relationship pain for years.
19:15
Dora: Because they're waiting for the other person to become the meaning they attach to this connection.
19:21
Dora: But a full moon brings endings, truths, culminations.
19:25
Dora: It doesn't always mean the relationship physically ends, okay?
19:28
Dora: So it's not like you're breaking up with someone.
19:31
Dora: Sometimes it just means the fantasy ends.
19:34
Dora: It means the denial ends.
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Dora: Sometimes it means the role you played ends.
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Dora: Sometimes it means the version of you who kept settling ends.
19:45
Dora: That version of you, like, just it completes its cycle.
19:50
Dora: And that can feel like a heartbreak.
19:53
Dora: Even when it's a liberation.
19:55
Dora: Especially when it's a liberation.
19:58
Dora: Because liberation is not always glamorous.
20:01
Dora: Sometimes liberation is sobbing in your car after realizing you cannot keep betraying yourself.
20:08
Dora: And liberation is not texting back right away because you're finally listening to your body and you're honoring it.
20:16
Dora: Sometimes liberation is not explaining yourself for the 50th time.
20:22
Dora: Sometimes liberation is seeing the pattern clearly and no longer romanticizing your pain.
20:28
Dora: And sometimes liberation is admitting that you missed them.
20:32
Dora: And still knowing you cannot go back to who you had to be in order to keep them.
20:41
Dora: That's what makes it gut-wrenching.
20:44
Dora: Not because you don't know better, because now you do.
20:48
Dora: Now you know better.
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Dora: And we all have a choice.
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Dora: To either stay where we're at and just be passive about the situation, or we can actually speak up or do something about it.
21:03
Dora: So this is where we notice what we notice about being a bystander in our own life, in our own relationships.
21:13
Dora: I want to pause here because every time we talk about relationships, it's easy to turn all our attention outward.
21:20
Dora: But this full moon in Libra is also bringing us back to the relationship with ourselves.
21:26
Dora: And I need to ask you, how do you speak to yourself when no one is around?
21:32
Dora: How do you hold yourself when you disappoint yourself?
21:39
Dora: How do you treat yourself when you are tired, raw, grieving, emotional, messy in processing something?
21:50
Dora: And I could tell you that for me, I used to talk to myself so bad.
21:54
Dora: I would put myself down every time I would disappoint myself, or I would make a mistake.
21:58
Dora: I would really.
22:00
Dora: Verbally beat myself up.
22:03
Dora: So do you punish yourself for being human?
22:07
Dora: Do you shame yourself for still caring?
22:12
Dora: Do you talk down to yourself for not having it all figured out?
22:19
Dora: Do you abandon yourself emotionally the same way others once did?
22:27
Dora: I know I'm throwing a lot of questions at you.
22:31
Dora: But because some of us are trying to create healthy relationships while still being in an abusive relationship with ourselves, that's why I'm asking.
22:42
Dora: And we're still demanding perfection, still minimizing our pain, still calling ourselves weak when really we are just exhausted, still expecting ourselves to recover quickly, like bounce back, still withholding tenderness from our own becoming.
23:01
Dora: And if that's you, I want you to say this with so much love.
23:08
Dora: You cannot shame yourself into wholeness.
23:13
Dora: You cannot bully yourself into safety.
23:17
Dora: You cannot criticize yourself into peace.
23:22
Dora: You cannot outperform your wounds.
23:26
Dora: This moon, especially in Libra, asks us to rebalance how we relate.
23:32
Dora: Not just to partners, not just to family, not just to your ex's friends or coworkers, but to ourselves.
23:44
Dora: Do you trust yourself?
23:48
Dora: Do you listen when your body says no?
23:53
Dora: Do you let yourself be held?
23:58
Dora: Do you honor your fatigue?
24:04
Dora: Do you tell yourself the truth?
24:08
Dora: Do you believe your needs matter?
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Dora: Because if you don't, every relationship becomes a place where you unconsciously wait for someone else to do what you haven't yet done for yourself.
24:24
Dora: Which is to see you, choose you, protect you, believe you, value you, stay with you, stick by your side.
24:40
Dora: And some of the deepest healing comes when you realize I have been waiting for someone else to rescue the parts of me I've been neglecting.
24:50
Dora: That is not shameful.
24:53
Dora: That is just being human.
24:56
Dora: But once you see it, you can't unsee it.
25:00
Dora: It's like those pictures on, you know, like social and stuff.
25:02
Dora: When you see something, you can't unsee it and kind of learn it.
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Dora: And that's where your power begins.
25:10
Dora: So let's bring this down into real life because I know some of you all are just listening, like, okay, Dora, I feel this, but what does this actually look like?
25:22
Dora: So this full moon in Libra may show up as a conversation you've been avoiding finally happens, or is finally happening?
25:29
Dora: A truth surfacing in your marriage, partnership, dating life, or family dynamic.
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Dora: Feeling unusually emotional after being fine for too long, seeing a recurring pattern and realizing you can't normalize it anymore.
25:47
Dora: Recognizing where resentment has built because your needs haven't been spoken or met.
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Dora: Feeling the ache of imbalance.
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Dora: Feeling a stronger desire for honesty, fairness, softness, reciprocity.
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Dora: Realizing that what used to be enough is no longer enough.
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Dora: This moon can also bring up grief.
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Dora: Grief for the relationship you wish you had, grief for the apology you may never got or never get.
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Dora: Grief for the version of you that kept trying.
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Dora: Grief for the years spent making excuses.
26:32
Dora: Grief for the younger you who learned to survive by staying small.
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Dora: Grief for the tenderness you offered people who didn't know how to hold it.
26:44
Dora: And if grief comes up, just let it.
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Dora: Let it go through the motions.
26:51
Dora: Please let it.
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Dora: And this is not because you're weak.
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Dora: It's not because you are behind.
27:00
Dora: Not because you are too emotional or too much.
27:04
Dora: But because grief is often what comes when the truth finally gets permission to breathe.
27:10
Dora: Some of you are not crying because you are dramatic.
27:15
Dora: You are crying because your soul is exhausted from carrying what your mouth never got to say.
27:22
Dora: Some of you are not angry because you are difficult.
27:25
Dora: You are angry because somewhere inside of you, your spirit knows you deserved better.
27:31
Dora: Some of you are not confused because you are broken.
27:35
Dora: You are confused because your intuition has been fighting with the story you keep trying to tell yourself.
27:44
Dora: Let the truth land.
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Dora: Even if it cracks something open.
27:50
Dora: And I'm talking about especially if it cracks something open, because that means there's magic happening.
27:58
Dora: Now, I don't want this episode to just be about exposure and pain, because this moon also carries possibility.
28:06
Dora: The diary message points to the idea that yes, this can be challenging, but there is potential here for happier relationships.
28:15
Dora: And I want to highlight that because some of you may be listening and thinking, damn, is everything falling apart?
28:22
Dora: Not necessarily.
28:23
Dora: Sometimes what's falling apart is the avoidance.
28:26
Dora: So that's the one that's dissipating.
28:28
Dora: Sometimes what's falling apart is the performance that you have in your relationships.
28:33
Dora: Sometimes what's falling apart is the imbalance.
28:35
Dora: Like sometimes maybe something is one-sided.
28:38
Dora: Sometimes what's falling apart is the role you've played that no longer fits the woman you're becoming.
28:44
Dora: So you're kind of putting your foot down, which I like.
28:46
Dora: And when that happens, there's room for healing.
28:49
Dora: I'm talking about real healing.
28:52
Dora: Not fake healing that rushes forgiveness.
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Dora: Not healing that skips accountability.
28:58
Dora: Not healing that asks you to bypass your body.
29:02
Dora: Real healing says, let's tell the truth.
29:06
Dora: Let's name that pattern and let's stop pretending.
29:10
Dora: Let's stop weaponizing silence and stonewalling.
29:14
Dora: Let's stop making one person carry the emotional weight of the whole relationship, like for all sides, in all family, in all other things.
29:22
Dora: Let's create something more honest from here, on out.
29:26
Dora: And yes, that can happen in partnerships too.
29:29
Dora: It can happen in marriages.
29:31
Dora: It can also happen in friendships.
29:34
Dora: It can happen in family relationships.
29:38
Dora: But it requires both truth and willingness.
29:42
Dora: You cannot create neutrality by yourself.
29:46
Dora: You cannot heal a relationship alone.
29:49
Dora: You cannot communicate enough for two people.
29:51
Dora: I mean, come on, if you could just talk to yourself, that would be talking like to the walk, right?
29:55
Dora: To the wall.
29:56
Dora: You cannot self-abandon your way into intimacy.
30:00
Dora: That's why this full moon is such a powerful checkpoint.
30:04
Dora: It's asking, what is self salvageable?
30:09
Dora: What is teachable?
30:12
Dora: What is workable?
30:14
Dora: What is complete?
30:17
Dora: What needs repair?
30:20
Dora: What needs release?
30:23
Dora: What needs redefining?
30:26
Dora: What needs boundaries?
30:30
Dora: What needs honesty?
30:34
Dora: What needs distance?
30:39
Dora: What needs prayer?
30:42
Dora: What needs grief?
30:46
Dora: These are not easy questions, but they are sacred ones.
30:54
Dora: There are seasons in life where relationships become even more revealing.
30:58
Dora: When your body changes, when your energy changes, when your health shifts, when your capacity shifts, when you can't keep doing what you used to do, when you can't keep being the one who holds everything together.
31:16
Dora: And I know for me, in this season, moving through chemo, moving through fatigue, my bones hurting, that bone pain, moving through changes in my body and energy, it has made relationship truths even louder.
31:31
Dora: Because when you're physically stripped down, when your energy is limited, when your body is asking to be listened to, when your nervous system is already carrying so much, you don't have the same ability to overperform.
31:46
Dora: And that's me right now, especially going through chemo right now every other week.
31:50
Dora: Um, my off weeks, I fail like myself again in a way.
31:54
Dora: But again, I'm going through perimenopause, I sweat like five times in one hour.
31:59
Dora: Like it's all these various things that are changing on a cellular level, no joke.
32:06
Dora: Because for me, right now, it's caused me to have boundaries with the people I love around me because I don't, I can't hold it all anymore.
32:14
Dora: And I've actually learned to delegate, which is a great thing.
32:19
Dora: But you don't have the same ability to overgive, you don't have the same ability to numb out, you don't have the same ability to play roles anymore.
32:29
Dora: And in some ways, that is kind of heartbreaking because especially for me, I'm grieving my old self, and I've dropped episodes on that in the past.
32:40
Dora: And that's something that really hits for me because I'm such a high functioning person on a normal day and a positive person that when I have shitty days, like that's not fun.
32:50
Dora: That's not me.
32:51
Dora: I'm very out of alignment, but I have to go through those motions to see what is coming up for me.
32:57
Dora: And all this because it shows you where you were stretching beyond yourself just to maintain things.
33:05
Dora: But it's also holy, it's sacred because it calls you back to what is real.
33:11
Dora: And that's where I where I face my reality on a daily basis.
33:15
Dora: Because it's who shows up, like who listens to you, who sees you, who honors your humanity, who loves you when you are not producing, not fixing, not smiling, not hosting, and not caring.
33:33
Dora: And maybe for some of you, life has done that too.
33:38
Dora: And maybe it's grief did it?
33:42
Dora: Motherhood, maybe a divorce that you got, a heartbreak you suffered, maybe burnout did it for you.
33:51
Dora: And I remember when I hurt my back nine years ago, that really swiped me under.
33:56
Dora: And that's when I started on my spiritual path journey when I turned 30.
34:01
Dora: I feel like everything starts breaking down after you turn 30.
34:03
Dora: I don't know, that's just a side thought.
34:05
Dora: Maybe it's illness, and that for me too is this illness, right?
34:09
Dora: This breast cancer.
34:10
Dora: I ended up getting a whole uh, you know, certain a surgery, and now I'm gonna have another surgery in June to do touch-ups and stuff.
34:18
Dora: Maybe it's depression that did it for you.
34:23
Dora: Maybe it's losing your spark.
34:27
Dora: Life has a way of bringing us to a point where the things we could once tolerate become unbearable, and that's not failure, that's initiation.
34:38
Dora: That's your soul saying, we cannot go back.
34:41
Dora: So you you're approaching a threshold, and that's where you cross the threshold, and it's like things have to things have to change.
34:50
Dora: Let's let's change them up a bit.
34:52
Dora: And that's what this Libra full moon is all about.
34:56
Dora: I want to pause right here and pull a card for us, for this collective, for every person listening who feels like this full moon is pressing on their heart, for every person who knows something in their relationship is shifting, for every person who is tired of betraying themselves in order to be loved.
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Dora: So take a deep breath with me.
35:16
Dora: Inhale through your nose and exhale through your mouth.
35:24
Dora: What do I most need to know right now about this full moon in Libra and my relationships?
35:30
Dora: And now I'm pulling a card, and the card pulled is from The Guides of the Hidden Realms Oracle by Khalette Baron Reed.
35:40
Dora: I love this deck.
35:42
Dora: Um, and the card number is 36, which is another chance to be.
35:47
Dora: And this one is a blue card and it has octopus on it.
35:50
Dora: It's pretty cool.
35:52
Dora: And I'm gonna go ahead and read from the book that accompanies it, which key concepts are regeneration, reclamation, reconstruction, second chances, rebirth, rebuilding, emotional healing, peace, and opportunities after releasing.
36:08
Dora: And many and the card reads, many species on our planet can naturally regenerate.
36:14
Dora: An octopus restores a limb when injured, a dormant tree awakens in the spring with new leaves, now you too are invited to experience the revival of something in your life.
36:24
Dora: It may have been on hold, or something you had to repair, or something you thought was lost, but now it can be reborn in a new form.
36:32
Dora: The universe is giving you the gift of a second chance.
36:35
Dora: If the renewal is of a relationship, it can be a beautiful thing.
36:40
Dora: After a challenge and disconnection, you now have a better understanding of each other's needs.
36:45
Dora: Then you can make the conscious decision to move forward and evolve together, perhaps with changes to the shape of the relationship.
36:52
Dora: In any situation, the rebirth isn't something you stand by and just watch.
36:57
Dora: It will take some effort on your part, but the results will be more than worth it.
37:01
Dora: Mistakes may have been made on your manifestation journey, but you learn from them and you regroup.
37:08
Dora: Now is the time to reclaim your faith, your vision, and your hope.
37:12
Dora: No matter your question, a second chance is assured.
37:15
Dora: And I really needed to hear that because not only from the relationship part, but this also was definitely speaking on like having that second chance.
37:25
Dora: Like people and things and us to serve a second chance.
37:29
Dora: So just sit with that.
37:30
Dora: And again, remember, how do you talk to yourself when you make a mistake?
37:34
Dora: When we prove that we're not perfect and we're actually human, that's where we definitely go through the motions.
37:39
Dora: So hopefully this card resonated with you.
37:42
Dora: Let me know.
37:43
Dora: You can definitely reach out, you know where to find me on social and via email down in the show notes.
37:49
Dora: So, how do we move through this energy without completely unraveling?
37:54
Dora: Here's what I would offer.
37:56
Dora: First, tell the truth somewhere.
37:58
Dora: If not to the person yet, then to yourself.
38:01
Dora: It could be in a journal, you could do this through prayer, voice notes, in a walk, or you can cry it out like I love my crying sessions, so in tears, or in your body, like take a body scan and see from top to bottom what's going on.
38:19
Dora: So tell the truth somewhere.
38:21
Dora: Second, notice where your body contracts.
38:24
Dora: So Libra is mental, relational, reflective energy.
38:29
Dora: But your body knows where your mind catches up.
38:32
Dora: So think about who drains you?
38:35
Dora: What feels heavy?
38:37
Dora: Where do you brace in your body?
38:41
Dora: Where do you feel anxiety instead of peace?
38:45
Dora: Where do you feel overresponsible?
38:48
Dora: Where do you feel unseen?
38:52
Dora: Now, number three is stop negotiating your needs just because someone else is uncomfortable with them.
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Dora: Your need for honesty is not too much.
39:03
Dora: Your need for a reassurance is not too much.
39:06
Dora: Your need for reciprocity is not too much.
39:10
Dora: Your need for rest is not too much.
39:12
Dora: You need to honor that, okay, girl.
39:13
Dora: You need to go take a break, take a little nap if you need to.
39:22
Dora: So always being the one that the one to step forward and initiate stuff.
39:27
Dora: Yeah, it's not too much.
39:31
Dora: Number four, be willing to release the fantasy.
39:34
Dora: Not every relationship is meant to become what you hoped it would be.
39:38
Dora: Some relationships just stick around for a little bit, and then that's their, I mean, they do their part and then they're kind of bow out, like the end of end of scene.
39:46
Dora: Not every but not every person is going to meet you where you stand or see eye to eye where you are.
39:53
Dora: Not every bond actually survives your healing.
39:56
Dora: Sometimes you just break away.
39:59
Dora: That doesn't mean the love wasn't real, though, or the relationship wasn't real.
40:03
Dora: It just means the lesson is changing and the lesson was learned, or whatever it needed to be for both sides, it just happened.
40:11
Dora: Number five, practice forgiveness carefully.
40:15
Dora: And when I say forgiveness, I don't mean immediate reconciliation because I know sometimes we have fights and all that just to get, you know, like just happier again or reconcile.
40:27
Dora: I don't mean bypassing your pain at all.
40:30
Dora: I don't mean pretending it didn't matter.
40:32
Dora: Sometimes forgiveness simply means I'm no longer going to let this pattern keep defining me.
40:39
Dora: I'm no longer waiting for someone else to become who I needed.
40:43
Dora: I am no longer carrying this like it's my fault.
40:47
Dora: Number six, choose yourself in one tangible way.
40:51
Dora: So choose one boundary, one honest conversation, one on follow maybe on social, one night of rest, for those of you who can't sleep, like myself, like that's important.
41:05
Dora: One moment of not explaining, one prayer, one act of self-respect, one journal entry where you stop censoring yourself and you just free free flow and just write, one decision that honors your peace.
41:23
Dora: That is moon work too.
41:27
Dora: Now, if you want to go grab your journal, now would be the time, or you can pause it and come back if you're driving in that or doing something where it requires your full attention.
41:37
Dora: But if you're journaling with this moon, here are some questions I want you to sit with.
41:44
Dora: What relationships in my life need healing or rebalancing?
41:50
Dora: How can I transform current power struggles or conflict into opportunities for deeper connection?
41:58
Dora: What old emotional patterns am I ready to release so I can create healthier dynamics?
42:07
Dora: Where have I been making myself smaller to keep the peace?
42:13
Dora: What truth have I been avoiding because I'm afraid of what it will change?
42:19
Dora: What does reciprocity actually look and feel like for me right now?
42:26
Dora: Who am I becoming in love, in friendship, in family, in self-trust?
42:33
Dora: And take your time with those.
42:34
Dora: You could definitely pause after every question and journal.
42:38
Dora: I don't want you to rush to answer them from the mind.
42:42
Dora: I want your body to speak to you.
42:45
Dora: I want your soul to go through the motions of answering the questions and see what comes up and get curious with it.
42:56
Dora: And this right here is exactly why I created my masterclass because so many of us know intellectually that we need better boundaries, healthier relationships, deeper self-trust, more nervous system safety, more alignment.
43:12
Dora: But knowing is not the same as embodying.
43:16
Dora: Knowing you deserve better is not the same as actually choosing better.
43:20
Dora: Knowing the pattern is not the same as interrupting it.
43:23
Dora: Knowing you need to speak up is not the same as feeling safe enough to do it.
43:28
Dora: And if this full moon is showing you where things are off, where your relationships are asking for truth, where your spirit is craving rebalance, where your body is tired of holding what your mouth won't say, then I want you to invite you into my masterclass.
43:45
Dora: Because that space is for women who are ready to stop abandoning herself, ready to understand what's happening beneath the surface, ready to reclaim her voice, ready to create safety within herself, ready to move from a Awareness into transformation.
44:02
Dora: If this episode feels like me reading your mail, that's your sign.
44:08
Dora: The link is in the show notes, so come join me.
44:22
Dora: Before we close, I want you to place a hand on your heart if you can.
44:28
Dora: And I want you to breathe.
44:30
Dora: Just breathe.
44:31
Dora: Normal.
44:35
Dora: And I want you to remember, not every rupture is punishment.
44:42
Dora: Not every ending is failure.
44:46
Dora: Not every tension means something is broken beyond repair.
44:52
Dora: Sometimes tension is where truth enters.
44:56
Dora: Sometimes grief is what love feels like when it can no longer survive inside illusion.
45:04
Dora: Sometimes the relationship changing is the very thing that saves you.
45:10
Dora: Sometimes the heartbreak is not that you lost them.
45:14
Dora: It's that you finally found yourself.
45:18
Dora: This full moon in Libra is asking you to look at love honestly.
45:22
Dora: Not the fantasy, not the role, not the performance, not the version of you that kept surviving.
45:31
Dora: The real thing, the truth, the ache, the longing, the lesson, the release.
45:43
Dora: And if you cry under this moon, let it be holy.
45:48
Dora: If you journal under this moon, let it be honest.
45:54
Dora: If you set a boundary under this moon, let it be clean.
45:58
Dora: If you let go under this moon, let it be loving.
46:04
Dora: If you choose yourself under this moon, let it be without apology.
46:09
Dora: Because you were never meant to be the place where everyone or everybody else finds comfort while you remain empty.
46:19
Dora: You were never meant to disappear inside your relationships.
46:23
Dora: You were never meant to call self-abandonment love.
46:28
Dora: This is your invitation to come back to yourself slowly, tenderly, truthfully.
46:37
Dora: And that Mihita, that is sacred.
46:41
Dora: So thank you for being here with me.
46:44
Dora: Thank you for letting this conversation meet you where you are.
46:47
Dora: If this episode spoke to you, share with someone who needs it.
46:50
Dora: And don't forget to join me for the masterclass coming up on Saturday.
46:54
Dora: I would love to hold space for you there.
46:56
Dora: Until next time, embrace your raises, reclaim your essentia.
46:59
Dora: This is Dora Pakseli, sending you so much love and a big kiss.
47:03
Dora: Bye.