Latest / Voice Notes to the Universe / Voice Note #125 — I'm Just a Curious Being.
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- speaker-0: God, sometimes it feels it feels so hard to be human. ⁓ I've really ⁓ been just thinking. I don't know. Mm I probably think too I probably think too much. But I feel like that's part of why I exist. It's not even that I'm thinking. Mmm I'm like super curious. Just curious about things. And I can go down this rabbit hole of questions and then in my imagination or imagining things or not imagining things but Like when you're walking down the street or you see a a a plane, right? I know I cannot be the only one. And I look up and I go, ⁓ my gosh, I wonder where they're going. Like I wonder, are they going on how many people are on the plane? Are there are are there children on the plane? Are there ⁓ you know ⁓ couple that have been married for thirty years and they're miserable and they hate each other and they wish they could get a divorce or you know, maybe there's newlyweds there or or or or of the tired mother or, you know, I don't know. Or the or the the bachelor and like where are they going and are they going on vacation? Are they going somewhere fine? Are they going somewhere for business? are they going home funeral, you know, and like they hate it and they don't want to, you know, and like all these thoughts go through my mind. I'm like, what are what do you know, and then like I can f see their faces and make up stories and like I go, ⁓ I could get lost in that. I'm just curious. Now I do recognize that some of this is a little ⁓ Like this is how I can disassociate, right? It's just to not have to be in the present moment. So we do have to be mindful of that. I do recognize that. But I'm just a curious being. I am. My father used to say that I was nosy, but I don't I no, I to this my soul rebels. No absolutely not true. I'm just a curious being. And I I think that's good. I think so many of us as we grow older we forget to be curious, like like a kid, you know, innocent and just really wanting to understand, like a genuine want and ⁓ to understand you know for pure knowledge and I I when I learn things I'm like ⁓ and I get it I get so excited I like to learn I like to understand and I don't know if that's just kind of in my nature or if some of that's a little bit of trauma. because felt confusing for me as a as a as a kid, ⁓ you know, things were not clear ⁓ and it was inconsistent. So some of that could be, right? ⁓ because of that. And some of it could be because I'm neurodivergent. And I I just think a little differently and I don't even know what I'm talking about anymore. These are the things that happen. When the moon is almost full, in our midnight confessions of voice notes to the universe. speaker-1: Thanks