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[16/25] The Flight of the Garuda — Session 14 (Sep 2021) · Lama Lena Teachings

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  SPEAKER_00: There we go.
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  SPEAKER_00: You are live.
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  SPEAKER_01: Good morning.
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  SPEAKER_01: Today we are back in Flight of the Garuda.
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  SPEAKER_01: Yesterday's Q&A was hell of fun.
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  SPEAKER_01: I always like those.
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  SPEAKER_01: People come up with some of the best questions all over the place.
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  SPEAKER_01: I always look forward to doing those.
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  SPEAKER_01: And this.
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  SPEAKER_01: One of my favorite, favorite texts.
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  SPEAKER_01: One of Rinpoche's favorite.
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  SPEAKER_01: So we are continuing here.
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  SPEAKER_01: We are in the chapters of working with emotions.
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  SPEAKER_01: This is working with emotions, short version.
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  SPEAKER_01: For the long version,
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  SPEAKER_01: I do it as a retreat for people and we go more in depth and we have a lot
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  SPEAKER_01: of conversations.
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  SPEAKER_01: But this is the short overview.
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  SPEAKER_01: It will not work for you.
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  SPEAKER_01: Unless you have been going along with us all the way and have learned working
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  SPEAKER_01: with thought,
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  SPEAKER_01: it's extremely important to be able to work with thought
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  SPEAKER_01: because it is
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  SPEAKER_01: the method used to work with emotions.
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  SPEAKER_01: So you need the tool.
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  SPEAKER_01: So once we get started today,
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  SPEAKER_01: I'm going to go over briefly Working with Thought,
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  SPEAKER_01: for those of you who have randomly found yourself here on YouTube.
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  SPEAKER_01: Zogchen Jupe Lama La Suluwadeb,
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  SPEAKER_01: Urgen Pema Juni La Suluwadeb,
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  SPEAKER_01: Durjicham Chitilo Narodam,
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  SPEAKER_01: Marpa Mila Gompo Tsatsapa,
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  SPEAKER_01: Na Pupadang Palden Drupasuk,
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  SPEAKER_01: Kargyo Lama Namla Sol Vadeb,
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  SPEAKER_01: Ochen Lama Namla Sol Vadeb,
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  SPEAKER_01: Drudchen Lama Namla Sol Vadeb,
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  SPEAKER_01: Shakyah, Lama, Namla, Sol,
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  SPEAKER_01: Wa, Dev.
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  SPEAKER_01: Shakyah, Lama, Namla, Sol,
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  SPEAKER_01: Wa, Dev.
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  SPEAKER_01: Nyandudang, Yondran, Lama, Namla, Sol, Wa, Dev.
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  SPEAKER_01: The trick,
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  SPEAKER_01: the key
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  SPEAKER_01: to working with thoughts
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  SPEAKER_01: is to recognize your thoughts
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  SPEAKER_01: for what they really are while thinking them.
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  SPEAKER_01: Recognize, not say to yourself, my thoughts aren't real.
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  SPEAKER_01: Not say to yourself, all thoughts are insubstantial and lack substance.
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  SPEAKER_01: Not add a thought as a layer on top of another thought, but to recognize them.
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  SPEAKER_01: If your brother walked into this room in this moment, you would recognize him.
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  SPEAKER_01: You would know who that was.
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  SPEAKER_01: You wouldn't have to think to yourself, oh, that's my brother.
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  SPEAKER_01: You see him, you know him.
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  SPEAKER_01: Like that.
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  SPEAKER_01: Recognize.
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  SPEAKER_01: While thinking, for example, you'll be thinking right now.
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  SPEAKER_01: You'll be thinking about what I'm saying,
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  SPEAKER_01: how you feel about what I'm saying,
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  SPEAKER_01: what I said in the past, what you thought in the past.
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  SPEAKER_01: You got a whole Google glump, a bilblah.
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  SPEAKER_01: An entanglement of thoughts going on right now while that's happening, not afterwards.
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  SPEAKER_01: See.
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  SPEAKER_01: See means perceive here.
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  SPEAKER_01: It doesn't just mean with your eyes.
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  SPEAKER_01: See them for what they are,
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  SPEAKER_01: which you know perfectly well from having looked for The thinker of the thoughts
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  SPEAKER_01: and not found any such thing.
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  SPEAKER_01: The Inner Mind Nundra,
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  SPEAKER_01: also taught as a retreat,
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  SPEAKER_01: but stated very simply here,
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  SPEAKER_01: is to sit with your channels in alignment, to stop talking to yourself, to shut up,
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  SPEAKER_01: And to follow your thoughts home.
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  SPEAKER_01: Not what you are thinking.
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  SPEAKER_01: What you are thinking is completely irrelevant.
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  SPEAKER_01: Think about shoes.
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  SPEAKER_01: Think about fruit bowls.
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  SPEAKER_01: Think about persimmons.
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  SPEAKER_01: Think about a potted plant or a hat.
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  SPEAKER_01: It doesn't matter.
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  SPEAKER_01: Whatever you are thinking about, where are you doing that?
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  SPEAKER_01: Don't use your intellect.
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  SPEAKER_01: Your intellect is in words, in language, in thinking.
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  SPEAKER_01: Use your attention.
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  SPEAKER_01: Just as you cannot get a stuck bolt loose with a screwdriver, you need a wrench.
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  SPEAKER_01: So you need to put down the screwdriver of your intellect and pick up the wrench
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  SPEAKER_01: of your paying attention to.
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  SPEAKER_01: Relaxedly, gently, Without forcing it, unfocus your eyes.
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  SPEAKER_01: Unfocus your point focus on what you are thinking.
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  SPEAKER_01: And allow your attention to expand into where those thoughts be happening.
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  SPEAKER_01: Just that and exactly that.
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  SPEAKER_01: With your attention on the where rather than the what, the what don't matter.
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  SPEAKER_01: For you will see that every thought without exception arises and vanishes,
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  SPEAKER_01: lacking both duration and substance.
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  SPEAKER_01: You will notice this.
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  SPEAKER_01: Don't think this at it.
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  SPEAKER_01: That's just another thought.
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  SPEAKER_01: Even the very thought that says all thoughts lack substance and duration.
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  SPEAKER_01: Ah,
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  SPEAKER_01: air quality here.
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  SPEAKER_01: Is no different from any other thought of a shoe or a bucket.
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  SPEAKER_01: So open your attention into the where rather than the what of your thinking.
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  SPEAKER_01: And relax there.
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  SPEAKER_01: No thing.
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  SPEAKER_01: Move.
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  SPEAKER_01: Not a place, because it's not inside or outside.
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  SPEAKER_01: It's not to the left or the right.
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  SPEAKER_01: It's not above or below, behind or in front.
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  SPEAKER_01: It's not in any of these ordinary directions.
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  SPEAKER_01: You are opening your attention into another dimension, into another direction.
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  SPEAKER_01: That is not any of your usual ones which can be looked at.
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  SPEAKER_01: You look in, within, and as.
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  SPEAKER_01: This infinite vast openness in which the thoughts arise and vanish.
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  SPEAKER_01: That's you.
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  SPEAKER_01: Your mind is you.
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  SPEAKER_01: You aren't what you're thinking.
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  SPEAKER_01: What you're thinking is always changing is influenced by everything you see and read and hear.
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  SPEAKER_01: Always changing.
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  SPEAKER_01: Nothing you can get a hold of.
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  SPEAKER_01: But the infinite vast openness in which those thoughts occur.
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  SPEAKER_01: That infinitude is you.
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  SPEAKER_01: Identify with it.
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  SPEAKER_01: Recognize your own true face.
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  SPEAKER_01: This is working with thoughts.
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  SPEAKER_01: Do it a lot.
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  SPEAKER_01: It's called practice.
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  SPEAKER_01: Don't think about it.
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  SPEAKER_01: Don't think about doing it.
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  SPEAKER_01: Don't think about what you're doing while you're doing it or do.
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  SPEAKER_01: But recognize,
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  SPEAKER_01: see all those thoughts about what you're doing,
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  SPEAKER_01: about infinite open awareness,
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  SPEAKER_01: about vastness,
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  SPEAKER_01: about where the thoughts arise,
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  SPEAKER_01: about mind itself, about shoes and buckets,
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  SPEAKER_01: people and places.
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  SPEAKER_01: All of those thoughts without exception are of the same nature.
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  SPEAKER_01: Not things.
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  SPEAKER_01: Without thinking about them particularly or paying any attention to whatever
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  SPEAKER_01: the hell you're thinking,
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  SPEAKER_01: which could be anything at all in any given moment,
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  SPEAKER_00: notice this
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  SPEAKER_01: and relax into the noticing as the noticer,
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  SPEAKER_01: which is itself the noticing.
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  SPEAKER_01: There is no subject and object here.
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  SPEAKER_01: This is your mind.
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  SPEAKER_01: Your mind notices itself, sees itself, not with eyeballs,
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  SPEAKER_00: with awareness.
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  SPEAKER_01: And by unfocusing your eyes,
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  SPEAKER_01: since your attention follows the line of your gaze,
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  SPEAKER_01: wherever you look,
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  SPEAKER_01: you pay attention,
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  SPEAKER_01: by unfocusing your eyeballs, it helps you to unfocus your point focus of attention.
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  SPEAKER_01: So that you can allow it to naturally expand into the awareness.
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  SPEAKER_01: This is working with thoughts.
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  SPEAKER_01: This is the tool, the skill you use to work with emotions.
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  SPEAKER_01: The practice of working with emotions is to sit on your cushion
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  SPEAKER_01: and using thoughts arise an emotion.
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  SPEAKER_01: Think about somebody who done you wrong.
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  SPEAKER_01: Arise anger.
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  SPEAKER_01: Think about something you're afraid of.
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  SPEAKER_01: Arise fear.
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  SPEAKER_01: Think about your status in the world.
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  SPEAKER_01: Arise desire to be recognized and seen.
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  SPEAKER_01: Think about things you want.
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  SPEAKER_01: Arise desire.
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  SPEAKER_01: Think about sex.
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  SPEAKER_01: Arise sexual desire, which we are categorizing separately here.
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  SPEAKER_01: From object desire, object desire is I want a piece of chocolate cake.
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  SPEAKER_01: Sexual desire is a whole bilblah of loneliness,
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  SPEAKER_01: urge to merge with another, to be embraced and to embrace it feels different.
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  SPEAKER_01: Arise depression.
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  SPEAKER_01: This is shown as a mandala of the five wisdoms.
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  SPEAKER_01: We're reviewing here what we did last week.
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  SPEAKER_01: Or last month.
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  SPEAKER_01: This mandala of the five wisdoms.
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  SPEAKER_01: Jealousy and status in the north.
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  SPEAKER_01: Desire for objects, stuff,
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  SPEAKER_01: In the south,
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  SPEAKER_01: fear and anger in the east,
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  SPEAKER_01: love, loneliness, and sexual desire in the west.
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  SPEAKER_01: Heartache goes there too,
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  SPEAKER_01: the loss of someone you've loved,
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  SPEAKER_01: your mother's death, your dog's death, or your cat's.
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  SPEAKER_01: This is all Western.
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  SPEAKER_01: And in the center,
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  SPEAKER_01: that sludgy depression where you just can't be bothered and it all ain't worth
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  SPEAKER_01: the damn bit.
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  SPEAKER_01: And you're just gonna sit there and doom scroll.
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  SPEAKER_01: Because the world's going to hell in a handbasket and why bother?
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  SPEAKER_01: Had that yesterday.
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  SPEAKER_00: Oops.
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  SPEAKER_00: See, these happen.
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  SPEAKER_01: These feelings.
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  SPEAKER_01: When you pull the rug of thought out from under a feeling, let's play with depression.
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  SPEAKER_01: Can't be bothered.
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  SPEAKER_01: I'm just going to sit here.
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  SPEAKER_01: I've been reading the news.
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  SPEAKER_01: That generally causes it for me.
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  SPEAKER_01: Afghanistan.
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  SPEAKER_01: Texas.
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  SPEAKER_01: All the religions trying to impose themselves on others.
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  SPEAKER_01: When I read history, and the Buddhists did it too, Myanmar recently.
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  SPEAKER_01: Ah, fuck.
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  SPEAKER_01: That's depressing.
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  SPEAKER_01: And you don't even want to be bothered To go online and teach
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  SPEAKER_01: because you're sure it's going to get misunderstood and turn into some kind
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  SPEAKER_01: of fucking religious edifice that tries to pull other people into it
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  SPEAKER_01: and enforce laws and totally misses the point.
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  SPEAKER_00: Yeah.
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  SPEAKER_01: Those are thoughts.
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  SPEAKER_01: Afghanistan is a thought.
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  SPEAKER_01: Your thoughts about Afghanistan.
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  SPEAKER_01: So is Texas.
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  SPEAKER_01: Your thoughts about Texas.
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  SPEAKER_01: So is the wildfires and the mommos.
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  SPEAKER_01: Your thoughts about the patterns.
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  SPEAKER_01: Those are thoughts.
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  SPEAKER_01: Look where they be happening.
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  SPEAKER_01: Remaining is a feeling, an almost sense of exhaustion.
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  SPEAKER_01: It's in your muscles, in your ye.
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  SPEAKER_01: Don't fight it.
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  SPEAKER_01: Don't lay on a bunch of thoughts about you should get up and put the laundry away.
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  SPEAKER_01: Leave it alone.
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  SPEAKER_01: Strip it naked of even its name.
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  SPEAKER_01: Despair.
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  SPEAKER_01: No name.
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  SPEAKER_01: The very word despair dissolves like other thoughts,
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  SPEAKER_01: arising and vanishing without ever obtaining duration or substance.
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  SPEAKER_01: And the feeling itself is accepted,
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  SPEAKER_01: not focused on, not grasped, not rejected, but left exactly as it is.
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  SPEAKER_01: And the central direction opens wide into a
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  SPEAKER_01: spaciousness of the Dharmakaya.
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  SPEAKER_01: Infinite openness.
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  SPEAKER_01: The infinite openness of open awareness.
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  SPEAKER_01: But not just a big dead old nothing.
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  SPEAKER_01: For it is lucid and you are it.
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  SPEAKER_01: Vast.
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  SPEAKER_01: Uncontainable by knowledge, unknowable, but beable.
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  SPEAKER_01: Each of these twisted,
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  SPEAKER_01: constricted,
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  SPEAKER_01: thought-supported negative emotions
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  SPEAKER_01: opens when not resisted,
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  SPEAKER_01: when stripped naked of the thoughts which surround it.
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  SPEAKER_01: Which ride it and support it, naked even of the name you call it.
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  SPEAKER_01: And so loneliness and lust open up into Bodhisitta.
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  SPEAKER_01: Desire opens up into the wish-fulfilling jewel of complete satisfaction within and without
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  SPEAKER_01: Fear and anger open up
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  SPEAKER_01: into the direct seeing wisdom,
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  SPEAKER_01: discerning wisdom that sees things as they are not as you think they are.
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  SPEAKER_01: And jealousy and status Opens up into the natural flow of all accomplishing wisdom.
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  SPEAKER_01: And so the mandala completes itself in the dance.
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  SPEAKER_01: That's how you actually do the practice.
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  SPEAKER_01: Did you see that?
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  SPEAKER_01: If there are questions, type them in now on the how-to of this.
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  SPEAKER_01: If you intuit the nature of your passions in this way,
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  SPEAKER_01: emotional defilement becomes primal awareness.
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  SPEAKER_01: You see, emotions are the liveliness of life.
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  SPEAKER_01: The liveliness of life when undistorted by grabbing or shoving.
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  SPEAKER_01: Arises as the innate and natural dance of the nirmanakaya.
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  SPEAKER_01: And it arises directly out of the sambhogakaya.
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  SPEAKER_01: As that as well, which is the innate vitality, which permeates the infinite open awareness.
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  SPEAKER_01: Because it is lucid and can think, feel, and perceive.
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  SPEAKER_01: How ridiculous to expect to find primal awareness and emptiness
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  SPEAKER_01: after you have suppressed your passions, your vitality, your aliveness.
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  SPEAKER_01: How tragic to spend your life searching for something in a place
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  SPEAKER_01: where it is inconceivable that you should find it because that's not where it is.
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  SPEAKER_01: Did we get any questions on that of interest that seem sensible?
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  SPEAKER_00: There's a couple.
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  SPEAKER_00: One is, do you notice the feeling where it be happening, like with thoughts?
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  SPEAKER_00: Do you try and track down its location?
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  SPEAKER_01: Not concertedly.
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  SPEAKER_01: You do feel it in your body, but you don't dwell on that.
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  SPEAKER_01: You don't obsess with that.
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  SPEAKER_01: You just allow that without grabbing,
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  SPEAKER_01: which would be to obsess on it,
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  SPEAKER_01: Or shoving,
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  SPEAKER_01: which would be to suppress it,
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  SPEAKER_01: not like that feeling and trying to do something to change it.
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  SPEAKER_01: You don't do neither of those things.
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  SPEAKER_01: Next.
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  SPEAKER_00: In an extremely difficult situation,
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  SPEAKER_00: I looked at emotions and became empty awareness while I could act on them.
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  SPEAKER_00: Is this where song 13 leads?
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  SPEAKER_01: Acting on emotions is a very sticky wicket.
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  SPEAKER_01: Although at times impeccable action may involve demonstrating an emotion,
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  SPEAKER_01: it's not acting on the emotion in the same way as an ordinary person.
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  SPEAKER_01: It's quite different It's acting on a wisdom.
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  SPEAKER_01: The emotion has arisen as the wisdom.
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  SPEAKER_01: So although you may perform an action involving status,
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  SPEAKER_01: you are not performing desire to raise your status.
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  SPEAKER_01: You are not performing an action based on jealousy.
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  SPEAKER_01: You are performing a smooth flow of all-encompassing
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  SPEAKER_01: All accomplishing wisdom.
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  SPEAKER_01: When the fear.
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  SPEAKER_01: You ever been shot at and missed?
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  SPEAKER_01: There's a certain way you feel right afterwards,
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  SPEAKER_01: right after the shooting's over and you've got a moment to catch your breath.
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  SPEAKER_01: You know, you've ducked effectively.
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  SPEAKER_01: Whatever's going on, either they're gone
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  SPEAKER_01: Everything is so precise, so bright.
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  SPEAKER_01: All the sounds, all the textures of the universe.
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  SPEAKER_01: There's quite nothing like it.
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  SPEAKER_01: That's why us adrenaline junkies get into doing things that cause that feeling.
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  SPEAKER_01: Once you've had it by accident, it's like, how can I get that again?
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  SPEAKER_01: It's like the first time you accidentally jerk off as a little kid.
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  SPEAKER_01: It's like, wow, what was that?
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  SPEAKER_01: Wow, how'd I do that?
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  SPEAKER_01: Can I make it happen again?
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  SPEAKER_01: Remember that?
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  SPEAKER_01: Most of us had that experience at some point in our preteens.
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  SPEAKER_01: So that is
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  SPEAKER_01: like the moon reflected in water,
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  SPEAKER_01: a limited vision of what
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  SPEAKER_01: The equanimity
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  SPEAKER_01: of
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  SPEAKER_01: discerning wisdom, the direct seeing is all about.
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  SPEAKER_01: That's not it.
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  SPEAKER_01: But it's just a limited view,
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  SPEAKER_01: like right in the moment of orgasm when you are One with your partner and
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  SPEAKER_01: the universe and you're not thinking anymore and it's all the peak.
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  SPEAKER_01: However long that can keep going.
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  SPEAKER_01: That is a limited moon reflected in a mud puddle compared to the night sky view of
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  SPEAKER_01: the bliss of Bodhicitta.
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  SPEAKER_01: So You would not be acting on the emotion.
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  SPEAKER_01: You would be acting.
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  SPEAKER_01: The emotion would have transformed into the wisdom behind it.
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  SPEAKER_01: You might appear to another to be acting on an emotion.
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  SPEAKER_01: But from your side, that's not an emotion now.
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  SPEAKER_01: It's one of the five Dhyani Buddha's wisdoms.
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  SPEAKER_01: Don't confuse that.
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  SPEAKER_01: You see, we act on emotions to try to make them go away, to relieve the feeling.
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  SPEAKER_01: When you get into, say, road rage because somebody cuts you off, you go, ah, motherfucker.
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  SPEAKER_01: What are you making that strong gesture for?
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  SPEAKER_01: Why are you saying those words?
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  SPEAKER_01: To release the energy because they just scared you.
• 28:10
  SPEAKER_01: Fear and anger are really interwoven.
• 28:16
  SPEAKER_01: So, to feel better.
• 28:20
  SPEAKER_01: Once you've cursed them out, you feel better.
• 28:23
  SPEAKER_01: They don't.
• 28:24
  SPEAKER_01: So it's not a win-win.
• 28:29
  SPEAKER_01: You just pass the anger on to somebody else to have it.
• 28:33
  SPEAKER_01: That doesn't work.
• 28:34
  SPEAKER_01: It just goes around, comes around.
• 28:36
  SPEAKER_01: Maybe then they pull out their gun and shoot you.
• 28:38
  SPEAKER_01: We're in America after all.
• 28:40
  SPEAKER_01: That's the custom here.
• 28:45
  SPEAKER_01: Yeah, I've been reading the news too much yesterday.
• 28:47
  SPEAKER_01: Going to take a little bit of a fast on it today.
• 28:57
  SPEAKER_01: What I am saying is it won't feel like the emotion and like acting on the emotion
• 29:04
  SPEAKER_01: if you have really done this process.
• 29:19
  SPEAKER_01: Feels different.
• 29:22
  SPEAKER_01: Anything else on that that seems really worth helping with?
• 29:26
  SPEAKER_00: Yes.
• 29:27
  SPEAKER_00: For very recent heartache,
• 29:29
  SPEAKER_00: like the loss of our cat yesterday,
• 29:32
  SPEAKER_00: how do you work with such a raw, powerful, fresh, and overwhelming feeling?
• 29:37
  SPEAKER_01: The same way as you work with any feeling.
• 29:48
  SPEAKER_01: It was when my cat died.
• 29:50
  SPEAKER_01: It was the first time that I ever actually got this to open up.
• 29:58
  SPEAKER_01: I was quite surprised.
• 30:03
  SPEAKER_01: It was a cat I had had for a very, very long time and was extremely close to.
• 30:18
  SPEAKER_01: Yes, you can work with a raw one.
• 30:20
  SPEAKER_01: Mind you,
• 30:20
  SPEAKER_01: I've been practicing this for quite some time with little openings,
• 30:25
  SPEAKER_01: but the intensity of that when it opened
• 30:32
  SPEAKER_01: was really quite remarkable.
• 30:37
  SPEAKER_01: Anything else there?
• 30:39
  SPEAKER_00: Yes.
• 30:40
  SPEAKER_00: Would you recommend going through each energy slash emotion one by one
• 30:46
  SPEAKER_00: and spending time with each to activate the mandala?
• 30:52
  SPEAKER_01: As practice, yes,
• 30:54
  SPEAKER_01: you definitely would be recommended to practice this on your cushion intentionally
• 31:03
  SPEAKER_01: before you make any attempt to practice it out in the round, out in the world.
• 31:10
  SPEAKER_01: Start at the easy end.
• 31:12
  SPEAKER_01: It's like peeling off a stuck label.
• 31:15
  SPEAKER_01: If one end's easier to get loose, start there.
• 31:19
  SPEAKER_01: Makes the job easier.
• 31:27
  SPEAKER_01: And to take that analogy even further,
• 31:29
  SPEAKER_01: it's even easier if you soak it first,
• 31:32
  SPEAKER_01: which means having a lot of practice working with faults.
• 31:37
  SPEAKER_01: So that that's easy now.
• 31:43
  SPEAKER_01: Anything else?
• 31:45
  SPEAKER_00: No longer speech thoughts, but simple emotions of dissatisfaction.
• 31:51
  SPEAKER_00: How do I release them?
• 31:53
  SPEAKER_00: It's harder than quieting inner speech.
• 32:01
  SPEAKER_01: You don't try to get rid of them when it is just the emotion of dissatisfaction.
• 32:13
  SPEAKER_01: You accept it.
• 32:15
  SPEAKER_01: If there is no story,
• 32:17
  SPEAKER_01: if you've already stripped it naked of the story, it's still wearing its underwear.
• 32:23
  SPEAKER_01: Its underwear is its name.
• 32:25
  SPEAKER_01: You got to strip its underwear off too.
• 32:27
  SPEAKER_01: You got to get it completely naked.
• 32:30
  SPEAKER_01: So the name dissatisfaction needs to be treated exactly the same way as all
• 32:37
  SPEAKER_01: the stories about why you're dissatisfied.
• 32:42
  SPEAKER_01: Having done so, don't fight it.
• 32:48
  SPEAKER_01: Sit there and feel dissatisfied.
• 32:52
  SPEAKER_01: Go right ahead.
• 32:53
  SPEAKER_01: Accept it.
• 32:55
  SPEAKER_01: Don't suppress it.
• 32:58
  SPEAKER_01: Don't grab it and dwell on it and focus on it.
• 33:03
  SPEAKER_01: Relax into the infinite open awareness.
• 33:08
  SPEAKER_01: While that feeling does whatever it will,
• 33:15
  SPEAKER_01: including stay, it's allowed.
• 33:18
  SPEAKER_01: Don't fight it.
• 33:25
  SPEAKER_01: Don't mind that sensation.
• 33:28
  SPEAKER_01: Once you've stripped all the words and names away,
• 33:31
  SPEAKER_01: what you're left with is almost a physical sensation.
• 33:36
  SPEAKER_01: We say in Tibetan that it's a sensation of the Yi,
• 33:39
  SPEAKER_01: which is the sense organ that feels feelings.
• 33:47
  SPEAKER_01: It's like sitting with an itch and not minding that there's an itch.
• 33:54
  SPEAKER_01: It's just a sensation.
• 33:56
  SPEAKER_01: It's not a good sensation.
• 33:57
  SPEAKER_01: It's not a bad sensation.
• 34:03
  SPEAKER_01: I picked itch because I'm having one right now.
• 34:07
  SPEAKER_01: Up on my head.
• 34:12
  SPEAKER_01: I'm having a sensation on my head right about there.
• 34:21
  SPEAKER_01: It's okay, it can be there.
• 34:31
  SPEAKER_01: Just leave it be, it's just a sensation.
• 34:39
  SPEAKER_01: Next question.
• 34:40
  SPEAKER_00: Well, it's a practical question for our translator.
• 34:44
  SPEAKER_00: Yes.
• 34:44
  SPEAKER_00: Where in Flight of the Geruda are you reading from?
• 34:48
  SPEAKER_01: Oh, I'm on page 88.
• 34:50
  SPEAKER_00: And that's still within chapter 13?
• 34:51
  SPEAKER_01: This is where I had put my place marker.
• 34:56
  SPEAKER_01: 14.
• 34:58
  SPEAKER_00: So at the beginning of 14?
• 34:59
  SPEAKER_01: No, I'm on the second page.
• 35:01
  SPEAKER_00: The second page of 14.
• 35:03
  SPEAKER_00: Okay.
• 35:05
  SPEAKER_01: If we have the same copy.
• 35:09
  SPEAKER_01: I am working from Keith's translation.
• 35:16
  SPEAKER_01: It's a pretty good one.
• 35:33
  SPEAKER_01: We call them when they are the
• 35:38
  SPEAKER_01: Bilblah of emotions, the mess.
• 35:48
  SPEAKER_01: Fear, anger, lust,
• 35:51
  SPEAKER_01: loneliness,
• 35:53
  SPEAKER_01: desire for status,
• 35:57
  SPEAKER_01: competition and jealousy,
• 36:00
  SPEAKER_01: always needing more stuff and a vague dissatisfied disgruntled depression in
• 36:07
  SPEAKER_01: the middle.
• 36:09
  SPEAKER_01: We call those the five poisons.
• 36:15
  SPEAKER_01: Once you have truly realized that of the five poisons as emptiness by this method,
• 36:25
  SPEAKER_01: it is unnecessary to examine every passion that arises in moment to moment life
• 36:33
  SPEAKER_01: as described in this introduction.
• 36:36
  SPEAKER_01: There is no need to search for a seat of the passion It's to its present location,
• 36:43
  SPEAKER_01: its eventual destination, its color and shape.
• 36:47
  SPEAKER_01: So you don't have to mess about with it once you've done this and gotten good at it.
• 36:54
  SPEAKER_01: But
• 36:57
  SPEAKER_01: we do best if we actually practice the full mandala round and round,
• 37:03
  SPEAKER_01: back and forth, up and down for quite a time on our cushions.
• 37:08
  SPEAKER_01: And then go out and experience it in daily life and still use the method
• 37:17
  SPEAKER_01: of stripping it naked and leaving it be each time until that becomes a habit.
• 37:27
  SPEAKER_01: It won't make you without feelings.
• 37:32
  SPEAKER_01: It won't make you a passionless, peaceful, Om Shanti, Om Hippie type.
• 37:44
  SPEAKER_01: It will leave you with all the feelings,
• 37:48
  SPEAKER_01: but they will automatically and instinctively transform into their natural state,
• 37:57
  SPEAKER_01: which is the five wisdoms.
• 38:05
  SPEAKER_01: Once you have understood the five poisons as emptiness and gone past understanding
• 38:13
  SPEAKER_01: to truly perceive it, remember understanding isn't enough.
• 38:20
  SPEAKER_01: You have to go past understanding this method to using this method
• 38:24
  SPEAKER_01: to becoming habituated to this method.
• 38:28
  SPEAKER_01: Once you've done that,
• 38:32
  SPEAKER_01: Avoid pursuing your passion from the moment it arises.
• 38:37
  SPEAKER_01: When you have a feeling out and about here and there in life,
• 38:44
  SPEAKER_01: don't wrap it up in a story.
• 38:50
  SPEAKER_01: Or as that begins to happen, see the story for what it is.
• 38:57
  SPEAKER_01: You get faster at it.
• 39:00
  SPEAKER_01: Relax into your own nature, into the nature of mind.
• 39:07
  SPEAKER_01: And without a doubt, those emotions will naturally
• 39:14
  SPEAKER_01: relax into the five wisdoms.
• 39:20
  SPEAKER_01: A translator uses the word subside and vanish, but I disagree with that translation.
• 39:28
  SPEAKER_01: They don't go away.
• 39:30
  SPEAKER_01: They change tone.
• 39:40
  SPEAKER_01: Feelings still arise as feelings.
• 39:44
  SPEAKER_01: They are recognized as the dance of the mandala of the Dhyani Buddhas,
• 39:48
  SPEAKER_01: and so they arise as the dance of the mandala of the Dhyani Buddhas.
• 39:54
  SPEAKER_01: But they don't go away.
• 39:56
  SPEAKER_01: They dance.
• 40:02
  SPEAKER_01: Next time I'm going to look this up in the original Tibetan
• 40:04
  SPEAKER_01: and see what it actually said, but I don't have the Tibetan text in front of me.
• 40:13
  SPEAKER_01: Such is my introduction to initiating recognition and transformation of emotional expression.
• 40:20
  SPEAKER_01: Such is also my instruction in purification through creative emotional efflorescence.
• 40:31
  SPEAKER_01: I swallowed a dictionary.
• 40:36
  SPEAKER_01: Vitality,
• 40:38
  SPEAKER_01: the nature of Sambhogakaya,
• 40:40
  SPEAKER_01: lucidity,
• 40:42
  SPEAKER_01: the clear light of the Dharmakaya,
• 40:45
  SPEAKER_01: all these things,
• 40:47
  SPEAKER_01: shimmers and sparkles with creativity and the emotions in their arising and
• 40:55
  SPEAKER_01: the dance of the Dayani Buddhas is this creativity.
• 41:05
  SPEAKER_01: You see this.
• 41:12
  SPEAKER_01: If you have practiced purification through the creative emotional efflorents by
• 41:19
  SPEAKER_01: the method described herein, henceforth whenever the five
• 41:38
  SPEAKER_01: Page build block.
• 41:55
  SPEAKER_01: Poisons and defiling passion arise by virtue of your habitual reflexive recognition
• 42:04
  SPEAKER_01: of their hidden core.
• 42:06
  SPEAKER_01: Emptiness and primal awareness will arise as one.
• 42:12
  SPEAKER_01: Then the releasing and arising of appearance are simultaneous.
• 42:24
  SPEAKER_01: In the biographies and the teachings of the Llamas of the past,
• 42:29
  SPEAKER_01: the axiom,
• 42:30
  SPEAKER_01: the greater the passion,
• 42:32
  SPEAKER_01: the greater intensity of discursive thought The greater
• 42:37
  SPEAKER_01: the Dharmakaya occurs frequently.
• 42:42
  SPEAKER_01: A big pile of wood makes a big bonfire.
• 42:46
  SPEAKER_01: A little pile of wood makes a tiny little flame.
• 42:49
  SPEAKER_01: You can't even cook beans on it.
• 42:52
  SPEAKER_01: Tibetan saying.
• 42:56
  SPEAKER_01: Passion is the big pile of wood.
• 43:01
  SPEAKER_01: Know that this means exactly what it says.
• 43:09
  SPEAKER_01: For beginners when powerful and intense emotions arise,
• 43:17
  SPEAKER_01: it is best to examine the passion and then rest in equanimity.
• 43:23
  SPEAKER_01: Sometimes when you're starting out,
• 43:28
  SPEAKER_01: you can't actually do this when it's strong enough.
• 43:34
  SPEAKER_01: In that case, that's your alternative.
• 43:39
  SPEAKER_01: Take it to heart.
• 43:41
  SPEAKER_01: Some of you may have been using another method in Sutrayana of dealing with passions
• 43:48
  SPEAKER_01: where you apply the band-aid of the antidote to each specific passion.
• 43:53
  SPEAKER_01: So when you experience anger, you apply the band-aid of
• 44:02
  SPEAKER_01: patience.
• 44:06
  SPEAKER_01: When you experience desire you apply the band-aid to it of
• 44:14
  SPEAKER_01: what's the one for desire?
• 44:16
  SPEAKER_01: Generosity and so on.
• 44:20
  SPEAKER_01: You ever play whack-a-mole?
• 44:28
  SPEAKER_01: It's a children's game.
• 44:29
  SPEAKER_01: That's what that kind of feels like.
• 44:32
  SPEAKER_01: Every time you whop it down somewhere, it pops up somewhere else.
• 44:38
  SPEAKER_01: That won't work.
• 44:39
  SPEAKER_01: Not long term.
• 44:40
  SPEAKER_01: It's Band-Aids.
• 44:51
  SPEAKER_01: Let's see what we have in the way of questions
• 44:56
  SPEAKER_01: before we go on to the next song.
• 45:04
  SPEAKER_01: Which changes the subject actually.
• 45:09
  SPEAKER_00: One question is how to feel an emotion without focusing on it.
• 45:16
  SPEAKER_00: Is there a difference between feeling and focusing?
• 45:20
  SPEAKER_00: Oh yes.
• 45:34
  SPEAKER_01: I'm trying to think how to describe that in terms that would be understandable.
• 45:39
  SPEAKER_01: To focus on something is to narrowly look at it.
• 45:45
  SPEAKER_01: For example, I am not focusing on the sensations in my ass, but I can feel the chair under me.
• 45:55
  SPEAKER_01: I could focus on that, but why?
• 46:00
  SPEAKER_01: My mind has decided in its subliminals that that's not particularly important
• 46:05
  SPEAKER_01: to what I'm trying to communicate.
• 46:14
  SPEAKER_00: That's the best I can give you.
• 46:18
  SPEAKER_01: Don't ignore it.
• 46:19
  SPEAKER_01: Don't focus on it.
• 46:20
  SPEAKER_01: Middle way.
• 46:22
  SPEAKER_01: Relax with it and leave it be.
• 46:27
  SPEAKER_01: Just like you do with thoughts.
• 46:29
  SPEAKER_01: Leave them be as they are, which is no thing and nowhere.
• 46:33
  SPEAKER_01: They are that.
• 46:35
  SPEAKER_01: You don't have to make them be that.
• 46:37
  SPEAKER_01: You don't have to pay attention to them.
• 46:43
  SPEAKER_01: They come and go.
• 46:44
  SPEAKER_01: Leave them be that.
• 46:47
  SPEAKER_00: Next question.
• 46:49
  SPEAKER_00: Is this method of working with emotions also good for working with physical pain?
• 47:01
  SPEAKER_01: Somewhat, not particularly.
• 47:11
  SPEAKER_01: You would want sense impressions to be working with sense impressions
• 47:17
  SPEAKER_01: because physical pain is simply a sensation.
• 47:22
  SPEAKER_01: The method for working with sensory input is very similar
• 47:31
  SPEAKER_01: To this method.
• 47:34
  SPEAKER_01: Subtle differences.
• 47:40
  SPEAKER_01: I'll come back to that in a minute because that's my next chapter.
• 47:45
  SPEAKER_00: Next.
• 47:49
  SPEAKER_00: Is it beneficial first to see emotions as a dream and then look at the nature of emotions?
• 47:57
  SPEAKER_01: Nope.
• 47:58
  SPEAKER_01: Not particularly.
• 48:04
  SPEAKER_01: Next.
• 48:05
  SPEAKER_00: We have a number of questions about dealing with specific emotions or situations.
• 48:12
  SPEAKER_01: Give me one.
• 48:13
  SPEAKER_01: Okay.
• 48:13
  SPEAKER_01: Let me see what you're talking about there.
• 48:18
  SPEAKER_00: How to work with fear or emotion arising from very intense and constantly changing
• 48:24
  SPEAKER_00: and aggressive political situations in the country.
• 48:27
  SPEAKER_01: Don't read the news.
• 48:29
  SPEAKER_01: That was a joke.
• 48:32
  SPEAKER_01: Yeah, that's going on.
• 48:34
  SPEAKER_01: In a lot of places, in a lot of countries.
• 48:40
  SPEAKER_01: The same way you work with any fear.
• 48:45
  SPEAKER_01: No different.
• 48:48
  SPEAKER_01: It doesn't really matter if the man with the gun is your government and might come
• 48:53
  SPEAKER_01: towards you and harm you or is standing in front of you and might harm you.
• 49:00
  SPEAKER_01: It's still fear.
• 49:02
  SPEAKER_01: Treat it exactly the same way.
• 49:07
  SPEAKER_01: Strip it naked.
• 49:10
  SPEAKER_01: Relax and allow it to be there.
• 49:13
  SPEAKER_01: Don't grab, don't shove.
• 49:19
  SPEAKER_01: Let me have another one.
• 49:20
  SPEAKER_01: That was a good one.
• 49:21
  SPEAKER_00: Okay.
• 49:24
  SPEAKER_00: There was...
• 49:26
  SPEAKER_00: Here we go.
• 49:30
  SPEAKER_00: How to break the gossiping spirit, working with gossip in this way, or wanting to, I guess.
• 49:39
  SPEAKER_01: Huh.
• 49:44
  SPEAKER_01: Usually that would be considered northern direction.
• 49:48
  SPEAKER_01: Gossip usually has to do with status,
• 49:52
  SPEAKER_01: seeing the stupid things other people do,
• 49:55
  SPEAKER_01: and so feeling like you're better than them.
• 50:01
  SPEAKER_01: Or vying for status by telling stories about each other.
• 50:09
  SPEAKER_01: In the same way competitiveness and jealousy is worked with.
• 50:15
  SPEAKER_01: On the cushion.
• 50:20
  SPEAKER_01: Bring up the juicy gossip.
• 50:21
  SPEAKER_01: Think about it.
• 50:22
  SPEAKER_01: Feel all your feelings around it and your urge to tell someone and all of that.
• 50:28
  SPEAKER_01: Strip it naked.
• 50:29
  SPEAKER_01: There's still a feeling there, an urge.
• 50:36
  SPEAKER_01: Relax and leave it be as it is.
• 50:39
  SPEAKER_01: Allow it to enter the natural flow of the universe,
• 50:43
  SPEAKER_01: which is how the all-accomplishing wisdom feels from inside.
• 50:50
  SPEAKER_00: Next one.
• 50:52
  SPEAKER_00: The more I practice noticing my thoughts,
• 50:55
  SPEAKER_00: my emotions don't stick around as long,
• 50:57
  SPEAKER_00: but ones I'm really attached to feel real big when they happen.
• 51:03
  SPEAKER_00: Do I sit on the cushion and practice those?
• 51:06
  SPEAKER_01: Yes, exactly.
• 51:11
  SPEAKER_01: Next.
• 51:12
  SPEAKER_00: Still identify with thoughts and emotions.
• 51:15
  SPEAKER_00: Should I do Vajrasattva for a period of time before attraction?
• 51:21
  SPEAKER_01: Okay, so how old are you is the first question.
• 51:28
  SPEAKER_01: And wait till we get an answer back and I'll come back to that one.
• 51:33
  SPEAKER_01: Because it will depend on what method I suggest for you.
• 51:39
  SPEAKER_00: Another question is, is this a method that works for warding off laziness and lazy tendencies?
• 51:46
  SPEAKER_01: Laziness is the central direction's depression sloth.
• 51:53
  SPEAKER_01: No, it doesn't make you energized and not lazy.
• 51:58
  SPEAKER_01: You see, you have to accept the sensation of, I just want to sit here.
• 52:04
  SPEAKER_01: I don't want to get up and do that.
• 52:10
  SPEAKER_00: You have to be okay
• 52:11
  SPEAKER_01: feeling that.
• 52:14
  SPEAKER_01: You can't fight laziness and have it be effective.
• 52:18
  SPEAKER_01: Sloth, it's called.
• 52:21
  SPEAKER_01: After that beautiful forest animal that is so graceful and moves so slowly that
• 52:29
  SPEAKER_01: the hunting cats can't see it.
• 52:32
  SPEAKER_01: That's why sloths are like that, you see.
• 52:35
  SPEAKER_01: It's a survival mechanism.
• 52:37
  SPEAKER_01: They're invisible to their predators, which are mostly hunting cats.
• 52:43
  SPEAKER_01: In the forests where they evolve.
• 52:45
  SPEAKER_01: Now, cats have funny eyes.
• 52:47
  SPEAKER_01: They see movement, but not things.
• 52:51
  SPEAKER_01: It's all blurry unless it moves, in which case it's completely clear while it's moving.
• 52:56
  SPEAKER_01: That's why they always see the string you're dangling, because you move it.
• 53:03
  SPEAKER_01: Otherwise,
• 53:04
  SPEAKER_01: they're extremely nearsighted,
• 53:06
  SPEAKER_01: although they can see movement in the bush across the way.
• 53:12
  SPEAKER_01: But not stillness.
• 53:14
  SPEAKER_01: The sloths move so slowly that no matter what they're doing or where they're going,
• 53:20
  SPEAKER_01: they don't set off the motion sensor in the hunting cats.
• 53:25
  SPEAKER_01: So they're actually invisible.
• 53:28
  SPEAKER_01: Lovely creature.
• 53:30
  SPEAKER_01: Beautiful smile.
• 53:33
  SPEAKER_01: Affectionate.
• 53:35
  SPEAKER_01: Slow.
• 53:40
  SPEAKER_01: It's called sloth.
• 53:48
  SPEAKER_01: Don't fight it.
• 53:53
  SPEAKER_01: Use this method.
• 53:54
  SPEAKER_01: It's the central direction.
• 53:55
  SPEAKER_01: It will open into a vast array of spaciousness.
• 54:02
  SPEAKER_00: Next one.
• 54:03
  SPEAKER_01: These are actually good questions.
• 54:04
  SPEAKER_01: They're useful.
• 54:06
  SPEAKER_00: How to deal with suicidal thoughts and hopelessness.
• 54:11
  SPEAKER_01: Call someone immediately.
• 54:16
  SPEAKER_01: If you are suicidal enough to begin making a plan, not just, oh, I wish I was dead.
• 54:24
  SPEAKER_01: I'm having such a terrible day.
• 54:25
  SPEAKER_01: Everything's awful.
• 54:26
  SPEAKER_01: I wish I was dead.
• 54:28
  SPEAKER_01: That happens to everybody.
• 54:31
  SPEAKER_01: But I wish I was dead.
• 54:34
  SPEAKER_01: And I think there is some such and such growing in the garden.
• 54:39
  SPEAKER_01: And if I made a smoothie out of it, I could be dead.
• 54:44
  SPEAKER_01: Shall I or shall I not?
• 54:46
  SPEAKER_01: If it gets that far, and no,
• 54:50
  SPEAKER_01: I didn't name what's growing in the garden,
• 54:51
  SPEAKER_01: because if you don't know, that's just as well.
• 54:55
  SPEAKER_01: If it gets that far, you call somebody.
• 55:00
  SPEAKER_01: You call a hotline and you talk it out.
• 55:02
  SPEAKER_01: You see a therapist.
• 55:05
  SPEAKER_01: That's too close to the edge.
• 55:10
  SPEAKER_01: But,
• 55:14
  SPEAKER_01: oh, and let me reassure you, you will die.
• 55:20
  SPEAKER_01: Just be patient.
• 55:22
  SPEAKER_01: The other thing you can do for suicidal thoughts,
• 55:24
  SPEAKER_01: at least which worked for me when I was a teenager, is contemplate patience.
• 55:31
  SPEAKER_01: I remember standing on the bridge with the railing.
• 55:33
  SPEAKER_01: I knew I could climb over real easy.
• 55:37
  SPEAKER_01: So curious about what comes past death.
• 55:42
  SPEAKER_01: I really wanted to know.
• 55:46
  SPEAKER_01: Did I want to know right now?
• 55:49
  SPEAKER_01: Or could I wait for later?
• 55:52
  SPEAKER_01: And only the certainty of my mortality.
• 55:56
  SPEAKER_01: And that I would get a chance to find out.
• 56:01
  SPEAKER_01: For sure, no chance of missing my death.
• 56:05
  SPEAKER_01: Reassured me enough that I went on with life,
• 56:09
  SPEAKER_01: deciding to have a bit of fun in the meantime and find out later.
• 56:17
  SPEAKER_01: So now remember, I'm autistic.
• 56:20
  SPEAKER_01: I'm weird.
• 56:21
  SPEAKER_01: What works for me may not work for you, but that worked for me as a young, inexperienced kid.
• 56:31
  SPEAKER_01: I strongly recommend you talk to someone,
• 56:33
  SPEAKER_01: a counselor,
• 56:35
  SPEAKER_01: For emergencies we have Jan who is trained
• 56:41
  SPEAKER_01: and I recommend you contact her by email
• 56:44
  SPEAKER_01: and if you will put Jan's email in there.
• 56:47
  SPEAKER_00: Yes.
• 56:49
  SPEAKER_01: And either talk to her or let her refer you to someone for this.
• 57:00
  SPEAKER_01: Don't try to go it alone.
• 57:05
  SPEAKER_01: I am not trained in counseling whatsoever except in the Tibetan system,
• 57:10
  SPEAKER_01: which means I'm very good at
• 57:14
  SPEAKER_01: doing talk therapy and things with Tibetans
• 57:20
  SPEAKER_01: who are raised in the Tibetan culture.
• 57:24
  SPEAKER_01: I haven't a clue for Westerners.
• 57:30
  SPEAKER_01: And my own experiences don't transfer to normies.
• 57:36
  SPEAKER_01: So at least not the ones that are basically autism-based.
• 57:45
  SPEAKER_01: So please do talk to Jan or someone else of your choosing.
• 57:52
  SPEAKER_01: But I want you to go pick up the phone and call somebody now, okay, if you're having that.
• 58:03
  SPEAKER_01: You don't want to be alone in that.
• 58:07
  SPEAKER_01: You need to experience the group love of bodhicitta because that is the antidote to it.
• 58:13
  SPEAKER_01: When you realize we're all in here together and we're depending on you to live
• 58:22
  SPEAKER_01: and mature and join us
• 58:27
  SPEAKER_01: in the infinitude beyond the beyond and beyond that as well.
• 58:36
  SPEAKER_01: I can't go there without you.
• 58:40
  SPEAKER_01: And suicide will set you back a damn long time.
• 58:48
  SPEAKER_01: Next question, and that was a good one.
• 58:50
  SPEAKER_00: Okay.
• 58:51
  SPEAKER_00: Well, going back to the person with the question about Vajrasattva and Treksha,
• 58:55
  SPEAKER_00: they replied that they're 52 years old and want to know
• 59:01
  SPEAKER_00: if they should do Vajrasattva for a while before doing Treksha.
• 59:10
  SPEAKER_01: I don't think that is the best solution for them.
• 59:21
  SPEAKER_01: Speech Ruchenne.
• 59:29
  SPEAKER_01: Vajrasattva is a good practice and you should do it sometimes,
• 59:35
  SPEAKER_01: but it's not the practice that untangles this.
• 59:41
  SPEAKER_01: I would recommend you learn and do the speech ruchens, which is a Zogchen Nundro.
• 59:52
  SPEAKER_01: And let's see if by working your way through those systematically and thoroughly,
• 1:00:00
  SPEAKER_01: no hundred thousands, we can get you more
• 1:00:11
  SPEAKER_01: Easy with doing Treksha.
• 1:00:16
  SPEAKER_01: My recommendation.
• 1:00:29
  SPEAKER_01: If you wish to try the Nundro Method, I want you to do all of the Nundro.
• 1:00:35
  SPEAKER_01: Not a hundred thousand of anything.
• 1:00:39
  SPEAKER_01: But I still want you to start with guru yoga and prostrations and use that method.
• 1:00:45
  SPEAKER_01: And I'd say either one will work,
• 1:00:47
  SPEAKER_01: either the full nundro set,
• 1:00:50
  SPEAKER_01: not just one part of it,
• 1:00:53
  SPEAKER_01: or the Zogchen nundro, and I would start you with the speech rushen.
• 1:00:59
  SPEAKER_01: Do it well.
• 1:01:01
  SPEAKER_01: Retreat will be up again soon.
• 1:01:04
  SPEAKER_01: You just check in on the website and go poke them around a bit on the forum
• 1:01:10
  SPEAKER_01: until they put it up again and let people sign up.
• 1:01:14
  SPEAKER_01: I just did one, you see.
• 1:01:16
  SPEAKER_01: So it'll probably be about a month.
• 1:01:18
  SPEAKER_01: Meanwhile, keep working on your treacher.
• 1:01:23
  SPEAKER_01: Next question.
• 1:01:25
  SPEAKER_00: One moment.
• 1:01:25
  SPEAKER_00: Let me find it.
• 1:01:29
  SPEAKER_00: Related to the pain question, somebody asked if should was...
• 1:01:34
  SPEAKER_00: A good practice for helping with physical pain.
• 1:01:41
  SPEAKER_01: Yes, it can be.
• 1:01:43
  SPEAKER_01: Very much so.
• 1:01:59
  SPEAKER_01: Highly recommended for that.
• 1:02:05
  SPEAKER_01: Next question.
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  SPEAKER_00: Which emotion would missing my family and feeling heartache for friends
• 1:02:11
  SPEAKER_00: who are struggling and I'm not in good touch with, which emotion covers that?
• 1:02:18
  SPEAKER_01: That would be lust and loneliness and heartache.
• 1:02:21
  SPEAKER_01: That would be the Western direction.
• 1:02:23
  SPEAKER_01: It opens up into bodicita where there is no separation
• 1:02:30
  SPEAKER_01: or loneliness possible.
• 1:02:34
  SPEAKER_01: And the bliss fulfills the heart.
• 1:02:43
  SPEAKER_01: Next question.
• 1:02:44
  SPEAKER_00: I think we've covered it.
• 1:02:46
  SPEAKER_00: Okay.
• 1:02:47
  SPEAKER_00: Emotion questions for now.
• 1:02:48
  SPEAKER_01: Then let me go on and just begin.
• 1:03:04
  SPEAKER_01: Instruction in working with the sense impressions.
• 1:03:11
  SPEAKER_01: Sensations of the six senses.
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  SPEAKER_00: Vision,
• 1:03:19
  SPEAKER_01: sound,
• 1:03:22
  SPEAKER_01: scent,
• 1:03:25
  SPEAKER_01: taste, touch,
• 1:03:29
  SPEAKER_01: feeling.
• 1:03:31
  SPEAKER_01: I have just pointed to the sense organs.
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  SPEAKER_01: Six.
• 1:03:48
  SPEAKER_01: We brought emotions to the level of sensation
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  SPEAKER_01: and neither grabbed
• 1:04:01
  SPEAKER_01: Nor shoved at them,
• 1:04:03
  SPEAKER_01: leaving them be as they are in a relaxed manner,
• 1:04:10
  SPEAKER_01: allowing them to naturally relax into their natural state,
• 1:04:18
  SPEAKER_01: no longer bound around by the strings of thought,
• 1:04:23
  SPEAKER_01: opening, blooming, and unfolding into the five wisdoms.
• 1:04:30
  SPEAKER_01: First brought them to the level of a sensation of the Yi to do this.
• 1:04:38
  SPEAKER_01: See that?
• 1:04:40
  SPEAKER_01: Now we're going to work with that and other sensations.
• 1:04:48
  SPEAKER_01: I need my glasses today, goodness.
• 1:04:50
  SPEAKER_01: I'm squinting.
• 1:04:52
  SPEAKER_01: I threw them in here.
• 1:04:57
  SPEAKER_00: There we go.
• 1:05:05
  SPEAKER_01: I have one eye that has perfect distance vision and one eye that has perfect close-up vision.
• 1:05:14
  SPEAKER_01: They just did that.
• 1:05:16
  SPEAKER_01: But sometimes I need to see with both eyes.
• 1:05:18
  SPEAKER_01: So, reading glasses.
• 1:05:28
  SPEAKER_01: Once more listen to me, beloved sonnins and daughters, who I treasure like my heart.
• 1:05:35
  SPEAKER_01: Wrap a soft silken cloth around your body.
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  SPEAKER_01: Observe the mind that thinks how soft.
• 1:05:49
  SPEAKER_01: Touch a coarse, rough piece of cloth.
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  SPEAKER_01: Feel it.
• 1:05:58
  SPEAKER_01: Coarse yak wool or sheepskin around your body.
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  SPEAKER_01: Observe the mind that thinks how coarse.
• 1:06:10
  SPEAKER_01: When observing the mind, emptiness is the one taste in both perceptions.
• 1:06:18
  SPEAKER_01: Let's break this down.
• 1:06:21
  SPEAKER_01: Would you hand me that nubbly shawl?
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  SPEAKER_01: Y'all now go get a rough piece of cloth and a smooth piece of cloth.
• 1:06:36
  SPEAKER_01: There we go.
• 1:06:44
  SPEAKER_01: Rough wool.
• 1:06:49
  SPEAKER_01: Smooth rayon.
• 1:06:51
  SPEAKER_01: My summer's in.
• 1:07:01
  SPEAKER_01: We're going to wrap one hand In a rough cloth.
• 1:07:08
  SPEAKER_01: And the other hand in a smooth one.
• 1:07:13
  SPEAKER_01: Press your palms together.
• 1:07:20
  SPEAKER_01: Feel the tactile sensation of rough and smooth.
• 1:07:29
  SPEAKER_01: Put your attention on the smooth one.
• 1:07:34
  SPEAKER_01: Stroke.
• 1:07:36
  SPEAKER_01: Put your attention on the rough one.
• 1:07:41
  SPEAKER_01: Now open your attention by relaxing your eyeballs.
• 1:07:59
  SPEAKER_01: You are dressing the sensation in the liking and disliking feeling of rough
• 1:08:06
  SPEAKER_01: and smooth
• 1:08:10
  SPEAKER_01: in
• 1:08:17
  SPEAKER_01: the liking and disliking feeling and in the names.
• 1:08:22
  SPEAKER_01: Let go of the names.
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  SPEAKER_01: Strip the sensation naked of its description.
• 1:08:29
  SPEAKER_01: In the same process you worked with emotions, seeing the thoughts for what they are,
• 1:09:03
  SPEAKER_01: Relax.
• 1:09:13
  SPEAKER_01: Feel the sensation without labels or the clothing of preference.
• 1:09:23
  SPEAKER_01: Accept, relax, don't shove, don't grab, leave the sensation be.
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  SPEAKER_01: Let it open up.
• 1:09:51
  SPEAKER_01: Do you see that?
• 1:10:00
  SPEAKER_01: Now let's see, is there something beautiful and something ugly?
• 1:10:05
  SPEAKER_01: Would you hand me that dead plant that I've been meaning to get rid of?
• 1:10:12
  SPEAKER_01: It must have been waiting for this morning.
• 1:10:19
  SPEAKER_00: Dead plant.
• 1:10:22
  SPEAKER_01: I do not find it beautiful.
• 1:10:31
  SPEAKER_01: My toothpick holder.
• 1:10:33
  SPEAKER_01: I do find it beautiful.
• 1:10:36
  SPEAKER_01: We're working with vision.
• 1:10:42
  SPEAKER_01: Pick two objects.
• 1:10:46
  SPEAKER_01: Look at the beautiful one.
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  SPEAKER_01: Feel your liking for it.
• 1:10:59
  SPEAKER_01: Look at the ugly one.
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  SPEAKER_01: Feel your disliking for it.
• 1:11:12
  SPEAKER_01: And all the thoughts around, oh dear, I really should have watered that.
• 1:11:16
  SPEAKER_01: It was such a tiny little plant and I was going to repot it and put it in with
• 1:11:20
  SPEAKER_01: the bigger plant, which I do remember to water and it would have been fine.
• 1:11:25
  SPEAKER_01: There's your story.
• 1:11:27
  SPEAKER_01: Guilt.
• 1:11:29
  SPEAKER_01: Whole garment of feelings.
• 1:11:32
  SPEAKER_01: And this that I like and the friend who died who gave it to me.
• 1:11:37
  SPEAKER_01: Gift from Ellen.
• 1:11:42
  SPEAKER_01: I think for a birthday.
• 1:11:45
  SPEAKER_01: And all the many different connotations they have.
• 1:11:49
  SPEAKER_01: You see how the two objects are wrapped around.
• 1:11:53
  SPEAKER_01: This one is wrapped with guilt and regret of sloth and
• 1:12:03
  SPEAKER_01: all sorts of emotions
• 1:12:05
  SPEAKER_01: because I forgot to water it and it was so tiny it needed everyday water.
• 1:12:10
  SPEAKER_01: I meant to read that whole story.
• 1:12:13
  SPEAKER_01: And that's all about who gave it to me and how nice it is and how long I've had it.
• 1:12:18
  SPEAKER_01: Okay, those are your stories.
• 1:12:21
  SPEAKER_01: Just as if what we're going to do is take the emotion we feel for the object,
• 1:12:29
  SPEAKER_01: work with it as an emotion.
• 1:12:34
  SPEAKER_01: When it opens up, rest with simply the visual sensation of the object's equivalent.
• 1:12:42
  SPEAKER_01: Does this make any sense to you at all?
• 1:12:46
  SPEAKER_01: I hope so.
• 1:12:47
  SPEAKER_01: Give it a try.
• 1:12:48
  SPEAKER_01: Let's see.
• 1:12:49
  SPEAKER_01: If I bring these back here where you can see them, too.
• 1:12:52
  SPEAKER_01: These are my two objects.
• 1:12:53
  SPEAKER_01: My dead plant.
• 1:12:57
  SPEAKER_01: Oops.
• 1:12:59
  SPEAKER_01: I think we'll just leave it even without its pot, which is kind of nice.
• 1:13:04
  SPEAKER_01: There.
• 1:13:06
  SPEAKER_00: Oops.
• 1:13:08
  SPEAKER_01: Ah.
• 1:13:11
  SPEAKER_01: So, there's a story.
• 1:13:20
  SPEAKER_01: See the story for what it is.
• 1:13:26
  SPEAKER_01: There's a feeling.
• 1:13:34
  SPEAKER_01: I'm trying to slow this down because it happens really fast when you're used to it.
• 1:13:40
  SPEAKER_01: Relax with the feeling, allow it to be what it is.
• 1:13:48
  SPEAKER_01: This liking and disliking of the visual spectrum
• 1:13:55
  SPEAKER_01: actually opens up
• 1:14:03
  SPEAKER_01: in
• 1:14:04
  SPEAKER_01: the same direction as fear and anger.
• 1:14:07
  SPEAKER_01: It's a very liking, disliking is a very mild form of fear and anger.
• 1:14:21
  SPEAKER_01: I'm relaxing around the emotions
• 1:14:28
  SPEAKER_01: and they're opening up into an indescribable perception
• 1:14:36
  SPEAKER_00: of
• 1:14:45
  SPEAKER_01: I'm going to have to leave it as an indescribable perception.
• 1:14:51
  SPEAKER_01: How beautiful this is, the shape, with all the judgments off.
• 1:14:58
  SPEAKER_01: If you were to draw it with a pen and ink, how amazing.
• 1:15:07
  SPEAKER_01: As a shape, a sculpture.
• 1:15:13
  SPEAKER_01: Now I like it.
• 1:15:18
  SPEAKER_01: I can wiggle it around any which way, liking, disliking.
• 1:15:23
  SPEAKER_01: That's just being playful.
• 1:15:39
  SPEAKER_01: Ask questions.
• 1:15:40
  SPEAKER_01: I'm not sure I have communicated this method effectively to you.
• 1:15:48
  SPEAKER_00: One question we have is,
• 1:15:50
  SPEAKER_00: is it okay to have preferences if you can see through them and not lose sight of
• 1:15:57
  SPEAKER_00: the bigger view?
• 1:16:02
  SPEAKER_01: Preferences will not stop arising.
• 1:16:08
  SPEAKER_01: It's fine for them to arise.
• 1:16:12
  SPEAKER_01: It is when you cherish and maintain them.
• 1:16:18
  SPEAKER_01: Constantly wrapping them in stories why they're good or bad
• 1:16:23
  SPEAKER_01: that you actually start creating karma out of them, which just complicates things.
• 1:16:32
  SPEAKER_01: Next.
• 1:16:33
  SPEAKER_00: One comment from YouTube that the plant can be saved or could be saved.
• 1:16:38
  SPEAKER_01: You think?
• 1:16:40
  SPEAKER_00: It says if the leaves are trimmed and it's watered thoroughly,
• 1:16:45
  SPEAKER_00: they had a similar one that's doing okay.
• 1:16:48
  SPEAKER_01: I'll give it a try then.
• 1:17:04
  SPEAKER_01: Anything else there?
• 1:17:08
  SPEAKER_00: Not really on this exercise.
• 1:17:11
  SPEAKER_01: Okay.
• 1:17:12
  SPEAKER_01: Look at the form of a beautiful statue or a great painting.
• 1:17:17
  SPEAKER_01: And observe the mind that thinks how beautiful.
• 1:17:23
  SPEAKER_01: Follow the thoughts home.
• 1:17:26
  SPEAKER_01: Let them be as they are.
• 1:17:30
  SPEAKER_01: Look at the form of a hideous frog.
• 1:17:33
  SPEAKER_01: Doesn't work for me.
• 1:17:34
  SPEAKER_01: I like frogs.
• 1:17:35
  SPEAKER_01: I think they're cute.
• 1:17:37
  SPEAKER_01: And observe the mind that thinks how repulsive.
• 1:17:42
  SPEAKER_01: When looking at the mind,
• 1:17:47
  SPEAKER_01: Emptiness is one taste in both perceptions.
• 1:17:58
  SPEAKER_01: Who wants to try pain?
• 1:18:04
  SPEAKER_01: For those of you who have a pain somewhere,
• 1:18:11
  SPEAKER_01: and some of you may,
• 1:18:16
  SPEAKER_01: use that For those of you who don't,
• 1:18:24
  SPEAKER_01: the worst this is going to do is a small bruise on your forearm.
• 1:18:27
  SPEAKER_01: Pinch yourself until it hurts just a little.
• 1:18:35
  SPEAKER_01: Until it hurts enough that you don't like it.
• 1:18:48
  SPEAKER_01: Do the same thing with that sensation.
• 1:18:54
  SPEAKER_01: I don't like it, it hurts.
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  SPEAKER_01: Those are the thoughts, strip them off, strip it naked.
• 1:19:00
  SPEAKER_01: You're having a sensation.
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  SPEAKER_01: Allow the feelings of liking and disliking that sensation.
• 1:19:17
  SPEAKER_01: Don't shove them.
• 1:19:18
  SPEAKER_01: Don't strip the feeling off and try to make it go away.
• 1:19:22
  SPEAKER_01: Leave it be as it is and accept that you don't like,
• 1:19:26
  SPEAKER_01: accept that you do like, depending on how kinky you are.
• 1:19:45
  SPEAKER_01: It's there, but it doesn't hurt.
• 1:19:50
  SPEAKER_01: Kind of like the effect of morphine.
• 1:19:53
  SPEAKER_01: You know when you have had a surgery or something and they give you morphine in the hospital?
• 1:19:59
  SPEAKER_01: And yeah, the incision hurts, but you don't care.
• 1:20:03
  SPEAKER_01: You're a loopy.
• 1:20:05
  SPEAKER_01: Kind of like that.
• 1:20:08
  SPEAKER_01: That's the closest analogy I can give you to a common experience
• 1:20:13
  SPEAKER_01: that you may have had of having a sensation Which is pain,
• 1:20:19
  SPEAKER_01: but it not being bothersome.
• 1:20:24
  SPEAKER_01: Now I will put the caveat here that I can do this.
• 1:20:28
  SPEAKER_01: You know how pain is given like a scorecard from zero to 10?
• 1:20:34
  SPEAKER_01: With all my vast experience, I can get this to work up to about seven.
• 1:20:43
  SPEAKER_01: And only up to about seven when I'm sitting still.
• 1:20:48
  SPEAKER_01: If I'm trying to move around and do things,
• 1:20:52
  SPEAKER_01: and it's above a five,
• 1:20:56
  SPEAKER_01: I am distracted from the keeping up with looking in this way.
• 1:21:05
  SPEAKER_01: And it doesn't work for me.
• 1:21:09
  SPEAKER_01: I have to actually sit.
• 1:21:12
  SPEAKER_01: With it and do it on the cushion.
• 1:21:14
  SPEAKER_01: Off the cushion, I can go up to five.
• 1:21:16
  SPEAKER_01: There.
• 1:21:17
  SPEAKER_01: Often do.
• 1:21:19
  SPEAKER_01: I'm old.
• 1:21:20
  SPEAKER_01: Things hurt.
• 1:21:23
  SPEAKER_01: But if it gets up around a seven or an eight,
• 1:21:29
  SPEAKER_01: I cannot do stuff
• 1:21:35
  SPEAKER_01: from this perspective of equanimity of sensation.
• 1:21:42
  SPEAKER_01: So if you are going to be working with pain because you have pain
• 1:21:47
  SPEAKER_01: and that's why you asked me that question, start small.
• 1:21:53
  SPEAKER_01: Take a pill for the big ones.
• 1:21:58
  SPEAKER_01: Slowly work your way up.
• 1:22:02
  SPEAKER_01: Okay?
• 1:22:12
  SPEAKER_01: I put that in because I know that so many of us have chronic conditions in life
• 1:22:18
  SPEAKER_01: or are just fucking old.
• 1:22:21
  SPEAKER_01: And so things hurt.
• 1:22:25
  SPEAKER_01: My thumb hurts.
• 1:22:29
  SPEAKER_01: My butt hurts.
• 1:22:32
  SPEAKER_01: One of my toes hurts.
• 1:22:36
  SPEAKER_01: It's arthritis.
• 1:22:37
  SPEAKER_01: It moves around.
• 1:22:39
  SPEAKER_01: We get a sudden change of weather and I'm like, oh,
• 1:22:43
  SPEAKER_00: I can't
• 1:22:43
  SPEAKER_01: move.
• 1:22:46
  SPEAKER_01: And I don't think that's an uncommon experience for people in their 70s and 80s.
• 1:22:52
  SPEAKER_01: So that's why I wanted to mention pain before we go on.
• 1:23:00
  SPEAKER_01: Again, practice with it, but practice with little ones.
• 1:23:07
  SPEAKER_01: Because it's easier.
• 1:23:09
  SPEAKER_01: And slowly, when you're better at it, work with the bigger ones.
• 1:23:14
  SPEAKER_01: Do we have any particular questions coming in on pain right now?
• 1:23:18
  SPEAKER_00: Let me double check.
• 1:23:21
  SPEAKER_01: I want to stop there because everybody asks me that all the time
• 1:23:24
  SPEAKER_01: because we do have people with chronic illnesses that hurt.
• 1:23:38
  SPEAKER_00: Is it good for mental pain as well?
• 1:23:41
  SPEAKER_01: Mental pain are emotions.
• 1:23:43
  SPEAKER_01: Use the working with emotions method.
• 1:23:50
  SPEAKER_00: I'm just looking for the pain questions.
• 1:23:52
  SPEAKER_00: There are other questions if you want to.
• 1:23:55
  SPEAKER_01: Yeah, I'll take a few.
• 1:23:56
  SPEAKER_00: Okay.
• 1:24:00
  SPEAKER_00: One of them was...
• 1:24:03
  SPEAKER_00: Can you also work like this with situations or is it just something that is visual or tactile?
• 1:24:13
  SPEAKER_01: Situations are complexities and they are made of thought.
• 1:24:18
  SPEAKER_01: You use working with thought to work with situations.
• 1:24:21
  SPEAKER_01: Situations are made of thought because you don't know what the fuck is really going on.
• 1:24:31
  SPEAKER_01: You just have your impression of what the situation is.
• 1:24:38
  SPEAKER_01: And if there are multiple people in the situation,
• 1:24:42
  SPEAKER_01: they will have multiple points of view of what is occurring in the situation.
• 1:24:49
  SPEAKER_01: So situations are made of thought, and you should use the working with thought method.
• 1:24:56
  SPEAKER_01: Sometimes you have feeling about the situation,
• 1:25:00
  SPEAKER_01: but once you've stripped it naked, you just have a feeling, not a situation.
• 1:25:07
  SPEAKER_01: Next.
• 1:25:08
  SPEAKER_00: What about crown chakra pain?
• 1:25:12
  SPEAKER_01: It's physical pain.
• 1:25:13
  SPEAKER_01: It's tactile sensation.
• 1:25:16
  SPEAKER_01: We have looked at visual sensations and tactile sensations.
• 1:25:25
  SPEAKER_01: It doesn't matter.
• 1:25:26
  SPEAKER_01: It could be pinky pain or crown chakra pain.
• 1:25:29
  SPEAKER_01: It's a hurt in the body.
• 1:25:31
  SPEAKER_01: Now, let me better,
• 1:25:32
  SPEAKER_01: I better put in this caveat since I've been a doctor and I know that this goes
• 1:25:37
  SPEAKER_01: in here.
• 1:25:39
  SPEAKER_01: If you have a pain that you do not know what is causing it,
• 1:25:44
  SPEAKER_01: that lasts, please have a physician look at it.
• 1:25:50
  SPEAKER_01: Find out the cause.
• 1:25:51
  SPEAKER_01: All my pains, I know what's causing them.
• 1:25:54
  SPEAKER_01: So I don't have to treat them in some way.
• 1:25:56
  SPEAKER_01: But if you have, say, sudden abdominal pain,
• 1:26:02
  SPEAKER_01: please get it checked out if it lasts.
• 1:26:04
  SPEAKER_01: If it happens and then you throw up and you feel better, don't worry about it.
• 1:26:11
  SPEAKER_01: But a new pain that doesn't resolve itself in a reasonable amount of time,
• 1:26:17
  SPEAKER_01: that you don't know what's causing it, get it checked out.
• 1:26:25
  SPEAKER_01: This is important because pain is also the way the body tells you that something's wrong.
• 1:26:34
  SPEAKER_01: Sometimes your toe hurts because there's something in your shoe.
• 1:26:42
  SPEAKER_01: Some things can be checked out by yourself,
• 1:26:44
  SPEAKER_01: such as removing the shoe and tapping at the heel and seeing what comes out.
• 1:26:54
  SPEAKER_01: But do check out pains that arise to determine the cause.
• 1:26:59
  SPEAKER_01: It's once the cause is not something you're going to try to do anything about other
• 1:27:04
  SPEAKER_01: than practice that you use these methods.
• 1:27:08
  SPEAKER_01: But if you've got a pebble in your shoe, take the pebble out of your shoe.
• 1:27:16
  SPEAKER_01: Let's have some practicality in here.
• 1:27:20
  SPEAKER_01: Next question.
• 1:27:26
  SPEAKER_00: When I work with objects and look through the story of objects, I discover transparency.
• 1:27:33
  SPEAKER_00: Is this what you were trying to show to us?
• 1:27:41
  SPEAKER_01: The story is transparent.
• 1:27:46
  SPEAKER_01: The object does not appear transparent.
• 1:27:59
  SPEAKER_01: If this object appeared transparent,
• 1:28:01
  SPEAKER_01: go ahead and try it, and then tell me if my left eye is open or closed.
• 1:28:13
  SPEAKER_01: Can you tell?
• 1:28:14
  SPEAKER_01: If it were transparent, you could.
• 1:28:20
  SPEAKER_01: The story of where this came from and what I'm doing with it is transparent.
• 1:28:27
  SPEAKER_01: Not the object.
• 1:28:30
  SPEAKER_01: The object is simply in and of itself.
• 1:28:41
  SPEAKER_01: Next.
• 1:28:42
  SPEAKER_00: A follow up on the crown chakra pain.
• 1:28:45
  SPEAKER_00: They experienced the pain after attending POA.
• 1:28:49
  SPEAKER_01: Well, of course.
• 1:28:52
  SPEAKER_01: That's normal.
• 1:28:53
  SPEAKER_01: You got a gap.
• 1:28:56
  SPEAKER_01: You're supposed to put a broom straw in it and walk around, see how long it'll stay open.
• 1:29:00
  SPEAKER_01: It hurts a little bit, not bad.
• 1:29:05
  SPEAKER_01: It'll close up.
• 1:29:08
  SPEAKER_01: Just remember how you got it there so you can do it again when you're dying.
• 1:29:14
  SPEAKER_01: Next.
• 1:29:17
  SPEAKER_00: This seems to be stripping conditioning from our sensations.
• 1:29:21
  SPEAKER_00: How does this relate to wisdom, just seeing how things really are?
• 1:29:28
  SPEAKER_01: Yeah, wisdom is the natural state.
• 1:29:33
  SPEAKER_01: However,
• 1:29:33
  SPEAKER_01: you have distorted your innate and completely natural wisdom of your innate
• 1:29:40
  SPEAKER_01: and completely natural Buddha nature by squishing it,
• 1:29:45
  SPEAKER_01: by constricting around liking and disliking, and so furthering the oops of duality.
• 1:29:57
  SPEAKER_01: And so you cannot,
• 1:30:01
  SPEAKER_01: and all of the Dharma,
• 1:30:03
  SPEAKER_01: every bit of it,
• 1:30:05
  SPEAKER_01: Sutrayana,
• 1:30:07
  SPEAKER_01: Tantrayana,
• 1:30:08
  SPEAKER_01: Vajrayana,
• 1:30:10
  SPEAKER_01: Zogchen, Chogchen,
• 1:30:15
  SPEAKER_01: Ochen, all of it is simply to get you to unsquish and undistort.
• 1:30:28
  SPEAKER_01: Your natural wisdoms.
• 1:30:38
  SPEAKER_01: Next.
• 1:30:40
  SPEAKER_00: I think that's it for the, well, the mental pain question.
• 1:30:44
  SPEAKER_00: Pain caused by guilt coming back all the time, waking me up in the middle of the night.
• 1:30:49
  SPEAKER_00: That level of mental pain.
• 1:30:51
  SPEAKER_01: Now that you use Vajrasattva for.
• 1:31:04
  SPEAKER_01: Use the Vajrasattva full method,
• 1:31:07
  SPEAKER_01: full sadhana, where you
• 1:31:13
  SPEAKER_01: enumerate and admit the things you feel guilty about.
• 1:31:22
  SPEAKER_01: Where you regret the things you, it's four points, you do four things.
• 1:31:30
  SPEAKER_01: Admit, regret, Decide, purify.
• 1:31:38
  SPEAKER_01: You admit the fault, the oops.
• 1:31:43
  SPEAKER_01: Let's do it like this.
• 1:31:44
  SPEAKER_01: Admit the oops.
• 1:31:48
  SPEAKER_01: Regret the oops.
• 1:31:56
  SPEAKER_01: Decide not to repeat the oops.
• 1:32:03
  SPEAKER_01: Clean out the residue left with the mantra.
• 1:32:11
  SPEAKER_01: That will work best as specifics for gilts.
• 1:32:17
  SPEAKER_01: After you do that,
• 1:32:19
  SPEAKER_01: you may be able to do this,
• 1:32:21
  SPEAKER_01: but it is going to be hard in the level you're describing there to use this first.
• 1:32:31
  SPEAKER_01: Because of the entanglement of your energy channels and chakras in it.
• 1:32:40
  SPEAKER_01: You want to wash out the chakra aspects and then use these methods.
• 1:32:46
  SPEAKER_01: And guilt is an emotion.
• 1:32:55
  SPEAKER_01: It is usually in the fear anger group of self anger.
• 1:33:02
  SPEAKER_01: Which is not Tibetan culturally, but very Western.
• 1:33:11
  SPEAKER_01: However, it can be in other areas.
• 1:33:18
  SPEAKER_01: That's our questions.
• 1:33:24
  SPEAKER_01: I think we are good for today.
• 1:33:26
  SPEAKER_01: I've given you a lot to chew on.
• 1:33:30
  SPEAKER_01: And I want to come back to this same topic next time and go into it further.
• 1:33:39
  SPEAKER_01: Here's your simple take home.
• 1:33:44
  SPEAKER_01: What you do to accomplish this practice.
• 1:33:48
  SPEAKER_01: Become skillful at seeing the nature of thoughts while thinking
• 1:33:54
  SPEAKER_01: by practicing
• 1:33:57
  SPEAKER_01: resting in the open awareness While the thoughts arise and vanish,
• 1:34:05
  SPEAKER_01: recognizing that not a single one of them,
• 1:34:11
  SPEAKER_01: not the thoughts of a bucket or a shoe or a lamppost,
• 1:34:19
  SPEAKER_01: not the names of feelings or anything else,
• 1:34:23
  SPEAKER_01: have in the least bit even an ert of duration Or substance.
• 1:34:33
  SPEAKER_01: They arise in mind and they vanish in mind.
• 1:34:38
  SPEAKER_01: And they were never made of anything other than mind.
• 1:34:42
  SPEAKER_01: And mind itself is simply a vast, indescribable, infinite open awareness.
• 1:34:54
  SPEAKER_01: Alive with the clear,
• 1:34:57
  SPEAKER_01: transparent, luminous lucidity And sparkling with the shimmer of creativity.
• 1:35:07
  SPEAKER_01: Which creates all those thoughts out of no thing in nowhere.
• 1:35:15
  SPEAKER_01: Become very accustomed to perceiving this.
• 1:35:21
  SPEAKER_01: Then sit on your cushion and arise a feeling.
• 1:35:25
  SPEAKER_01: This is done by telling yourself a story.
• 1:35:30
  SPEAKER_01: Like who done you wrong or who you done wrong to.
• 1:35:35
  SPEAKER_01: It's usually why you should feel that.
• 1:35:39
  SPEAKER_01: Why I should want a new car.
• 1:35:44
  SPEAKER_01: Why I should want to be respected by people.
• 1:35:51
  SPEAKER_01: Why love and family is important.
• 1:35:57
  SPEAKER_01: Why I wish to have sex.
• 1:36:02
  SPEAKER_01: Because I'm a horny bitch.
• 1:36:06
  SPEAKER_01: All of these.
• 1:36:09
  SPEAKER_01: How terrible I am for not getting it all done.
• 1:36:12
  SPEAKER_01: Sloth.
• 1:36:14
  SPEAKER_01: Bring up one of them, not all of them.
• 1:36:17
  SPEAKER_01: Pick them off one by one.
• 1:36:19
  SPEAKER_01: It's easier.
• 1:36:22
  SPEAKER_01: Tibetans usually find fear and anger easiest.
• 1:36:29
  SPEAKER_01: Bring up one.
• 1:36:32
  SPEAKER_01: Tell yourself the story that brings the feeling to happen until you are
• 1:36:37
  SPEAKER_01: so fucking pissed off at.
• 1:36:41
  SPEAKER_01: Texans?
• 1:36:48
  SPEAKER_01: Taliban?
• 1:36:54
  SPEAKER_01: Religious extremists?
• 1:36:56
  SPEAKER_01: I'm just picking mine.
• 1:37:03
  SPEAKER_01: Now look through the thoughts and see them for what they are.
• 1:37:20
  SPEAKER_01: Feel the feeling.
• 1:37:25
  SPEAKER_01: No grabbing, no shove.
• 1:37:27
  SPEAKER_01: Don't focus on it.
• 1:37:28
  SPEAKER_01: Don't focus away from it.
• 1:37:31
  SPEAKER_01: Leave it be as it is, let it relax.
• 1:37:38
  SPEAKER_01: The very vitality of the infinite open awareness.
• 1:37:44
  SPEAKER_01: The luminosity of the clear light nature.
• 1:38:04
  SPEAKER_01: And sitting in that, notice a sensation.
• 1:38:07
  SPEAKER_01: I have a pain in my back.
• 1:38:21
  SPEAKER_01: Relax with the sensation.
• 1:38:25
  SPEAKER_01: Strip it of its name, pain.
• 1:38:27
  SPEAKER_01: I have a sensation in my back.
• 1:38:31
  SPEAKER_01: Don't grab it, don't shove it, don't try to make it stop by adjusting your position.
• 1:38:38
  SPEAKER_01: Leave it be as it is.
• 1:38:44
  SPEAKER_01: And so the flow of the cunni, the dharmata,
• 1:38:59
  SPEAKER_01: Through time and outside of time is intrinsic to the existence of all life.
• 1:39:11
  SPEAKER_01: Thoughts
• 1:39:16
  SPEAKER_01: in their ultimate emptiness remind one of Dharmakaya.
• 1:39:21
  SPEAKER_01: Feelings in their ultimate vitality remind one of Sambhogakaya.
• 1:39:31
  SPEAKER_01: Sensations
• 1:39:34
  SPEAKER_01: in their infinite multiplicity remind one of Nirmanakaya.
• 1:39:50
  SPEAKER_01: This is the dance of stillness.
• 1:39:54
  SPEAKER_01: The infinite open awareness Vital and alive with the sparkle of the creativity of
• 1:40:01
  SPEAKER_01: the sensations of the sense organs.
• 1:40:11
  SPEAKER_01: And we're all in this together.
• 1:40:15
  SPEAKER_01: We all are this.
• 1:40:26
  SPEAKER_01: Nge-wan-di-hir-nyur-du-da-che-che-sa-la-ngo-pah-shu.
• 1:40:56
  SPEAKER_01: To be continued next month with chapter or song 14, The One Taste of Sense Impressions.
• 1:41:08
  SPEAKER_01: We will be beginning on page 89.
• 1:41:13
  SPEAKER_01: If you wish to keep track of that, I'm putting a doohickey in there.
• 1:41:23
  SPEAKER_01: See you all next time.
• 1:41:26
  SPEAKER_01: Let's see, what's coming up?
• 1:41:28
  SPEAKER_01: This week I've got the Canadian retreat.
• 1:41:31
  SPEAKER_00: Yes, that begins on Wednesday.
• 1:41:33
  SPEAKER_01: So beginning Wednesday we have a retreat.
• 1:41:37
  SPEAKER_01: You are welcome to join us.
• 1:41:40
  SPEAKER_01: Contact Jan.
• 1:41:42
  SPEAKER_01: It's going to be over Zoom.
• 1:41:47
  SPEAKER_01: And there's no real limit, I think, on people on this one.
• 1:41:51
  SPEAKER_00: This is through the Dharma Center of Canada.
• 1:41:52
  SPEAKER_01: This is through the Dharma Center of Canada, so you can also contact them.
• 1:42:00
  SPEAKER_01: There's no charge for the teachings.
• 1:42:07
  SPEAKER_01: It'll be four days of a root text by Guru Rinpoche.
• 1:42:12
  SPEAKER_01: Hmm.
• 1:42:19
  SPEAKER_01: It is the similar subject matter to Flight of Garuda, but different, different words.
• 1:42:28
  SPEAKER_01: We're about halfway through.
• 1:42:30
  SPEAKER_01: I was teaching it every year in person in Canada,
• 1:42:34
  SPEAKER_01: but due to COVID lockdown and circumstances at the moment,
• 1:42:39
  SPEAKER_01: although we had planned to do this in person,
• 1:42:43
  SPEAKER_01: strictures and travel was such that that was not yet possible.
• 1:42:48
  SPEAKER_01: So not yet for an in-person retreat.
• 1:42:52
  SPEAKER_01: We've moved it on to online.
• 1:42:54
  SPEAKER_01: Can you put either the contact for Jan or for the Dharma Center for those who wish
• 1:43:00
  SPEAKER_01: to participate in this?
• 1:43:04
  SPEAKER_00: Let's see.
• 1:43:06
  SPEAKER_00: Let me get the info up for that.
• 1:43:08
  SPEAKER_00: I also wanted to mention that because of that retreat,
• 1:43:12
  SPEAKER_00: Normally there would be a beginning treacherous group on Wednesday except
• 1:43:16
  SPEAKER_00: that will be canceled to give room for this.
• 1:43:18
  SPEAKER_01: Right, so beginning treacherous postponed and hopefully that's gone up on the calendar.
• 1:43:27
  SPEAKER_01: You might have fun with this.
• 1:43:31
  SPEAKER_01: Or you might not.
• 1:43:32
  SPEAKER_01: It's entirely up to you.
• 1:43:35
  SPEAKER_01: Now for those of you who have heard this in a language other than English,
• 1:43:40
  SPEAKER_01: I really want to ask you to support your translator.
• 1:43:46
  SPEAKER_01: Your translator, and we have several in different languages.
• 1:43:52
  SPEAKER_01: I don't know who's on today.
• 1:43:53
  SPEAKER_00: Uh, Martin for Spanish.
• 1:43:55
  SPEAKER_01: Martin's on in Spanish.
• 1:43:57
  SPEAKER_01: Didn't we, do we have Russian on today?
• 1:43:59
  SPEAKER_00: I don't believe so.
• 1:44:00
  SPEAKER_01: Okay, so we just have Spanish today.
• 1:44:02
  SPEAKER_01: We usually have Spanish.
• 1:44:04
  SPEAKER_01: We sometimes have Russian or Portuguese.
• 1:44:09
  SPEAKER_01: And if any of you are translators out there,
• 1:44:11
  SPEAKER_01: you can always come volunteer if you want to add another language on.
• 1:44:18
  SPEAKER_01: It takes a bit of training.
• 1:44:20
  SPEAKER_01: You have to do simultaneous, but that's okay.
• 1:44:23
  SPEAKER_01: You can learn.
• 1:44:25
  SPEAKER_01: Anyway, I got digressing again.
• 1:44:28
  SPEAKER_01: Please support your translator.
• 1:44:30
  SPEAKER_01: Please go make a donation to them via their PayPal button.
• 1:44:34
  SPEAKER_01: They work hard and they have to eat.
• 1:44:37
  SPEAKER_01: And your Spanish translator, who is excellent and makes this all possible, has a baby.
• 1:44:43
  SPEAKER_01: And babies are expensive.
• 1:44:47
  SPEAKER_01: So please do be kind on my website.
• 1:44:51
  SPEAKER_01: Go to the donation page.
• 1:44:54
  SPEAKER_00: Oh, we do have Russian.
• 1:44:56
  SPEAKER_01: We do have Russian.
• 1:44:57
  SPEAKER_01: Okay, Russian translator's on too, and I'm sure he needs it too.
• 1:45:02
  SPEAKER_01: So go to the donation page on the website.
• 1:45:06
  SPEAKER_01: And express your gratitude to the translators that make this possible.
• 1:45:12
  SPEAKER_01: I don't want to be on just one culture, one language.
• 1:45:17
  SPEAKER_01: It's why I encourage them.
• 1:45:21
  SPEAKER_01: Infinite diversity and infinite combination is what I'm going for with my Sangha,
• 1:45:28
  SPEAKER_01: which means y'all as you are.
• 1:45:35
  SPEAKER_01: All the cultures and the richness of the multiferous manifestation of the Nirmanakaya.
• 1:45:46
  SPEAKER_01: The wealth of the sensations of the world,
• 1:45:50
  SPEAKER_01: wish-fulfilling jewel, the relaxation of the southern direction.
• 1:46:03
  SPEAKER_01: Let's make it so.
• 1:46:08
  SPEAKER_01: I will see you again soon, at least next month, for Continuing Flight of the Garuda.
• 1:46:14
  SPEAKER_01: And if you are in one of my practice groups,
• 1:46:17
  SPEAKER_01: which you sign up for on the website, I'll see you in a practice group.
• 1:46:24
  SPEAKER_01: Bye-bye.