Latest / Voice Notes to the Universe / Voice Note #129 — You Are My King. You Are My Emperor.
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- speaker-0: I am in the process of creating this just beautiful harmonious divine speaker-1: you speaker-0: inner union within myself. I it's incredible to me. I I I speaker-1: Thank speaker-0: really have been just reflecting so much. on what I've been through and how far I've come and this feeling of expansion and of this new sense of groundedness. speaker-1: Thanks. speaker-0: this clarity, speaker-1: you speaker-0: this just complete surrender, right? speaker-1: you speaker-0: to myself, to the process, to the divine, to the somewhat chaos of the universe, right? And It's sh it's it's like it's things are coming almost full circle, right? And I don't know if my experience is like most people. I feel like it's not. It's we all have our own unique path, our own unique reasons for coming to this life. And so it is different for everyone, yes, but I do believe that there are these pockets, these collective of people who share a similar mission in life right and so it's it's you know you can find people and speak with them and and there's a there's this feels like this kinship with them right because it's like god yeah no I went through something really an experience so similar and you can relate just on a deeper level And so for me, there's this been this not just about this healing of childhood trauma and wounding and all that stuff. There's there's also been this this connection with spirit, with the universe, with Mother Gaia, with my psychic abilities. speaker-1: you speaker-0: This has been a huge part of it. And it's all been happening At one time for me. And so I know I recognize that there are, at least this is what I'm shown, right? That there are other people going through a similar experience as myself. Many of us are, you know, and people call it an awakening. And you don't have to be religious. Like an awakening doesn't have to have anything to do with with God if you don't want it to be. really what an awakening is, or at least this is what is shown to me from spirit, is that it's just it's it's you are Remembering, it's this remembrance, and it's it's this expansion of our consciousness, truly is what it is. It's just expanding our mind, our ability to kind of s speaker-1: you speaker-0: soften the edges of what we perceive our reality to be. speaker-1: you speaker-0: Can we open our minds to the possibility of Being curious and asking questions? Can we just exist and ask more questions than then answer or speak? Can we learn to listen in a new way? speaker-1: you speaker-0: Can we learn to connect with our bodies and you know listen to the ancient wisdom that our bodies hold? If we could just slow down. Enough to listen. So can we can we just be here? Can we exist and can we stand here with curiosity, with evergreen eyes? Can we go back to the basics? Like a child, truly, and be more childlike and inquisitive. You know, so speaker-1: you speaker-0: I think these are all things that we forget to do as we get older, as we get lost in the matrix, as they say. speaker-1: you speaker-0: So this was you know, for me and like a lot of other people, you speaker-1: you speaker-0: know, it was This remembrance, this awakening and the going back, yeah, you don't have it doesn't have to be about God. You know, again, then expansion of the of our consciousness, which ultimately when we expand and open up and we have all those questions and we get curious and then we learn to listen, we begin to realize that we are a mirror for each other. And speaker-1: you speaker-0: and and and we it's just about a different perspective. You know, and and looking at things with With different questions, deeper questions. speaker-1: you speaker-0: But I don't know. I'm thinking I'm rambling. my good golly, Miss Molly, I do this all the time. But yes, it doesn't have to do with anything with God. But when you do that, it it connects you then to your to this heart space. And that's really what it is. It's learning, you know, this unconditional love for oneself. speaker-1: you speaker-0: And an unconditional love really means I love you for who you are, exactly how you are, right now in this moment. I've no desire or will or want for you to submit submit to me. nor am I going to judge you for I just accept you exactly who you are, and I don't want to change you. I accept you for who you are right now in this moment with no judgment and only love. True pure love. Now, sometimes people will continue to overstep our our boundaries, you know, and they may be in this somewhat toxic cycle within themselves and then it becomes where they're hurting us in whatever you know form and and it's just it becomes detrimental to our Whether it be to our safety or to our well-being or to our mental well-being, emotional be you know, whatever it is, we, but we can still love people. But we may just need to love them from a distance. And that's okay too, right? So you know, again, it can just it can all exist. And speaker-1: . speaker-0: as I'm talking about this, honestly, you know, and I think about this. with everything I'm going through and having this whatever, this fucking amnesia is the only this is kind of like it's what it is. And then me having to like, can I do that? You know, 'cause I can say these things and I can I can live pretty close to that, right? I can. But there are certain people now I'm like, wow, can I love that person? Can I just do with that person remembering what it is that they did to me, which was so like not you know what he it's just There are no words. Can speaker-1: you speaker-0: I love you? Can I accept what you did to me? You know, can I can I forgive you? Forgiveness is such a tricky thing. When I first started speaker-1: Thanks speaker-0: to connect with myself, my body, the universe, spirit, God, whatever you want to call it, and opened up really opened up my psychic abilities and and gifts. They're a gift. I'm humbled. to have been a to have been able to tap into this in this lifetime. I I truly am. I have great reverence for it. It sometimes I feel like embarrassed to talk about it because it feels egoic. I'm very mindful because I know I can be egoic. I do recognize that about myself. But I am truly humbled. and sometimes feel don't not worthy to be able to do this, to have this ability. I speaker-1: you speaker-0: don't feel like, God. And and so I take it seriously. I do, I genuinely do. And I'm always speaker-1: you speaker-0: wanna keep myself in check and keep my ego in check. And I wanna remain humble. speaker-1: you speaker-0: And I I wanna always remember these moments speaker-1: Thanks. speaker-0: of And I'm gonna say barely having what I need to get by because I always am provided for. I'm always, always, even if it comes in at the last second, I never go without. I may just be getting my bare necessities made. But I'm I'm grateful for those moments because it allows me, it's actually a privilege. If I can humble the ego and the pain and the despair and the like feeling like the victim and the martyr. If I can really just put all that egoic shit down and sit in the sacred space of that and treating it. as a sacred space, those moments of great struggle and challenge, pain, grief, fear. It's real shit, right? That we're going through, that we can go through. And just when I think about those moments speaker-1: Thanks. speaker-0: and how deep and it's painful and there's all that shit, right? But it allows me to go so deep within myself that it connects me to God in a way that I would never be able to connect. I just wouldn't. It strengthens my relationship within me. It strengthens strengthens my relationship within the universe with spirit. And I think it's all the same. God, universe, spirit, source, gus, whatever. It doesn't matter. It's all the same to me. It all exists. Separately and together. It's all the same. We just call it different names and infuse different energy and the words of man, because it's all the word of men. Everything, even thing I say, or humans, people, whatever. But in the beginning it was the word of man. Let us not forget that. speaker-1: you speaker-0: And I'm not saying that a woman's word is better. I say that we need to harmonize. Our words together and create balance, right? Because again, going back into the that inner divine union. And so what I found is that I was, I'm listen, I am such a feminine, I'm an incredibly feminine woman. I sit, I sit very much in that space. But I was forced for a long time for many different reasons. And it was my choice. And speaker-1: You speaker-0: it was just easier to allow that piece of me, that masculine speaker-1: you speaker-0: energy to kind of take over, right? Because that's what I needed to do to to survive the certain situations in times of my life. speaker-1: you speaker-0: And so in the beginning of this. Remembrance, this inner exploration, this healing, or soul retrieval, whatever you wanna call it. Acceptance, unconditional love. I had to my allow my inner masculine. And when I say these energies because sometimes I talk about energy, people get so angry with me. And it's just a way that we use words. We use there are ways to examine. We use these words because it's easy for people to imagine in their brain. It kind of makes sense to them in a way. And so when we use the word masculine and feminine, the feminine energy it doesn't it's not about our our our gender, right? It's about an energy. And so the the feminine men energy is is a little softer in a in a in a balanced state. And I'm not gonna 'cause I'm not gonna say healed. That's w there's certain words we use over and over. So we're Really I'm really trying very hard to be thoughtful with the words that I use and how can I change because for me I know there's again certain words that there's been energy put into it. It gets overused and it's just let's rethink. We gotta rethink things. We've gotta look at things differently because things are changing but they're not changing, right? And if we continue to do the same things over and over and over again and it's like not changing, it's stagnant or it's little changes, whatever, then maybe we need to rethink about how we're doing things. Let's do it differently. Right? And so y using being more intentional with our words and listening are two things that every fucking person can do. We can all fucking do that. What an amazing contribution. To the progression of the of the world and of our the expansion of our consciousness collectively. Really just fucking think about that. If we could all do those two things, and it's a practice. It's genuinely a practice, right? speaker-1: you speaker-0: But you know, I I had to okay, so if we so instead of yeah, it's just a balanced state, centered, speaker-1: you speaker-0: not healed, it's balanced. speaker-1: you speaker-0: and so that the the feminine energy that's more of an internal, right? It's it's that's it's it's compassion, it's it's nurture nurturing, it's our flow with life, it's nature, right? It's creation, you know, it's but it's also in its balance state, it's it's devotion to oneself, right? It's love, it's but it's also discernment. It's having healthy boundaries, right? It's knowing to being able to lovingly say no, right? and not have that bother, right? That's the feminine, it's the internal world, it's emotions. So that's the feminine energy. And there, our masculine energy is more external. It's the doing in the world, it is the I'm providing for myself this protection. you know i'm it's it's the you know what we're doing in our career you know sticking up for ourselves enforcing boundaries you know all those things it's the more of the doing the external yeah and so what i've realized excuse me and i think this is interesting because you know we can collectively see so this is i feel it maybe even what the the d the masculines are feeling so because if this is an internal thing within me this is also external and going on in the world around me speaker-1: you speaker-0: so excuse me so it's like okay so I had to allow my my masculine to lead the way and take over so that I could heal speaker-1: you speaker-0: and and my my inner feminine So I could not heal, let's say, let's change. So I could balance her. So I could give her extra love. So I could give her attention. So speaker-1: you speaker-0: that I could I could help her grow and expand. And so my my my masculine energy, I've been sitting in my masculine energy for quite some time. Why? Because sh god damn, like that girl needed a rest, baby. She needed a break. She needed extra love. And so I've I've you know worked through all of this, right? And really have come into touch with that piece of me. And and allowing and giving her softness and compassion speaker-1: you speaker-0: and kindness and grace and space to just exist and just to be. And speaker-1: Okay. speaker-0: Because I and I'm starting to see it in my external world now. You know, there's been a few things that have happened. I was like, gosh. Because again, listen, I sit very strongly in my feminine. And God, I will tell you, I am ready. I am so ready to sit and just exist in in in my in the worldly realm. Right? Like I want. And I know this may be sound like whatever and people can judge me. I don't give a fuck. But I would love for a man to just take care of me. That's so I'm like, good God. Lord, send me a man to just take care of me so that I can just exist. I do. my God. I am so ready to receive. I am So ready to live in that soft girl era. My goddess. I'm ready to embrace my goddess energy. my gosh. my god, yes. I'm ready. I'm ready for that. I'm so ready for that. So so my feminine, that's just a side note. What do you mean? That's just that's that's a side voice note to the universe. my gosh, but it's so true. And I'm waiting for that, right? So I'm just over here weaving my web with intention so that I can catch everything. I can just because I'm just a magnet, right? I'm just like, I'm a magnet. I'm gonna sit here and I'm gonna attract everything. And it's gonna come to me, baby. So I just we I'm the web whisperer, right? So I'm gonna just weave in this web baby so I can catch all my blessings and manifestations. And this I'm using this time for just okay. I'm just loving me. This is a time for refinement and for rest, right? But what's happening now is my right, my inner, my div my divine feminine within me, she's like feeling good. She's feeling sexy and and refreshed. And now she's here to support her masculine, her divine, her c her divine counterpart. And that is within me. Because now I'm having to face that part of me, that masculine who's been running, running, running, running the show for so long. And because now we've got my body in the mix too, because we've learned to listen to her. And she really shows she's like and that's part of my feminine part of me. But my body's like, I need rest. Mm, you need to listen to me. But when we rest, there's that p piece of me. That that masculine energy that's like, my God, no, this is uncomfortable. We me need to be doing something. If we're not we've gotta be working. I I need to I need to protect. I need to provide. I need to protect. I need to provide. I've gotta work. I've gotta work harder. I'm not working hard enough. I've gotta wait, I can't be doing this. It's too much fun. I should be working. I need to be working. I need to protect. I need to provide. And it's this goddamn loop. wait, I gotta push through. Nope, I can do it. Nope. I'm good. Let me put one more hour and let me do this. Let me do that. Let me not sit and just relax. Let me think about work when I'm not working. Okay, how can I make money? How can I make more money? No, this is not enough money. my god, that's fucking exhausting. That's exhausting. And that is what I've been doing. Like, you know, we gotta go. We gotta move. We gotta do this. We gotta do that. That is my masculine. And so now my feminine is taking over. My divine feminine. She's like, nope, okay, bullshit. I'm calling your bullshit. Divine masculine. And this is my internal, right? Divine feminine, divine masculine. But perhaps this is happening to the masculine collectively. Those men or women, right? Who know, like, yeah, I'm sitting, I sit, I'm sitting in my masculine energy. That's where I, that's my neutral. That's my like is more heavy in the masculine, right? And so now I'm having to say, baby, no, you've got to listen to you've got to listen to me. Because it's like I look at it too, right? Like the feminine. She's this oracle. Right? And that's how I kind of identify, right? As spirits like you're an oracle, right? And so it's like so I'm I treat my inner, right? Divine masculine And feminine as me externally and my divine counterpart, you know, whoever that may be, right? And so I know that I'm an oracle. This is, you know, I I and I know that my divine counterpart is this very wise grounded king, you know, this king, this emperor, and is just this. man with devotion and these kind of shamanic knowings and and way with the world, right? Just very grounded and in tune, right? And so I know that that's my that is my divine counterpart. So now what would that look like in the external? How do I look at relationships? And I do. I look at that I'm like, okay, you are my and this is how I see it. speaker-1: you speaker-0: Where I operate in a relationship. You are my king. You are my emperor. Like, I'm here to like let's work together, right? And but I I I'm like, it's like, okay, I'm I'm allowing you to take the reins. You know, I want you to lead us, right? But it's also like That man has such a reverence for me because of my Total intuitive nature my being able to be so in my feminine. That I can I can I can speak to the universe in a way where I can give this man guidance. But he respects that, right? You know, he's like, I don't know, like he doesn't make a move until like, okay, y you're my oracle, right? Like, you're my oracle and I have reverence for you, you know, and and so it's it's like kind of always kind of looking to his queen. Always looking to his empress empress for his oracle for guidance. And that's just this beautiful bond. Right? And there's just becomes because you respect each other so much. speaker-1: you speaker-0: You know, and then you have this beautiful flow of creation, of respect, of love. of this beautiful energy and you just you're now just feeding each other. And when I close my eyes, it's like this infinity loop between those two beings, the the masculine, the divine masculine, the divine feminine. And I see see that I see that that infinity, this like golden fire infinity loop between the the heart space and then the sacral, right? And it's just this incredible thing. And so that is what I'm looking for. And that is how I I I treat my relationships. But it needs to be that energetic match. It needs to be reciprocal. Right? speaker-1: you speaker-0: god god. I don't even know what I'm talking about. I went on a fucking rant, bitch. speaker-1: you speaker-0: well, alright. Toodaloo for now.