Latest / Voice Notes to the Universe / Voice Note #118—Clarity isn't truth, it's deep brutal honesty with oneself.
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- speaker-1: Hello darling. speaker-0: you speaker-1: So I've been having many conversations with spirit lately. I don't know about lots of things always, but one in particular that's it speaker-0: Thanks speaker-1: kinda hit me a little differently. speaker-0: you speaker-1: And I just kept hearing clarity is not truth. Clarity is honesty. speaker-0: you speaker-1: Clarity is that deep, internal, brutal Honesty with oneself, even when you don't like what you're hearing, even when you don't like the way it feels, even if it's disappointing, like that's honesty. And speaker-0: you speaker-1: truth is different than honesty. Right? You can see the truth about something. But if you're honest speaker-0: you speaker-1: with yourself, like even though the truth is you love them. speaker-0: you speaker-1: if we're honest, this is toxic and it's not working out and I've gotta walk away. Right? Or like, the truth of the matter is as this job is a great job. And I make a lot of money every year, right? And I've got great benefits and, you know, whatever. You've got a four one K, whatever all these things. But if I'm really honest with myself, I'm really unhappy and this is sucking the life out of me and my health is deteriorating because of this this this job that's stressful and where perhaps I'm not being valued in the way that I know I should be, right? So there's this difference between truth and honesty. You know, and and and clarity is not truth. Clarity speaker-0: you speaker-1: is honesty. And I was like, wow shit. That's true, right? That really is true. And I I swear to you these my God, I swear, these are the conversations I have in my mind and I I have these conversations with with spirit. Like I just speaker-0: you speaker-1: I don't know, I I get that nudge, right? And I hear spirits say, Come, you know, come sit with me. Come sit in the void. Come sit with me. You know, I've something to tell you, I've something to show you. And so then I I sit. I sit there and I just like listen. And I just quiet my mind and I just listen when spirit speaks to me. And it's like these beautiful things and these little tidbits of of of wisdom and truth and knowledge even. And I don't know I listen, I don't know how that's how this comes to me. It just comes to me. It's speaker-0: you speaker-1: just I've I've been able to be quiet and be comfortable and the uncomfortableness of the g the of the speaker-0: Thank speaker-1: Like to work through the chatter of my mind until I'm all chattered out and there was nothing but silence and it and it could feel uncomfortable. speaker-0: you speaker-1: You know, but I've just it's been a slow, kind of steady process and it's taken a long time. And I speaker-0: . speaker-1: feel honored, honestly, that I can have this relationship with spirit, with God, universe, spirit source, gus. With Mother Gaia, she speaks to me so much. I'm conversing with her all the time. And the trees and the birds and the water and the wind. And even the sun and the moon. speaker-0: you speaker-1: You know, even the the thunderstorms and the rain, you know. It's just I I feel it. I feel it. I feel the vibration of of everything and everyone. So it's like I'm feeling the energy of people. I can sometimes even hear what they're thinking. You know, like I can. And not everybody believes me, but that's okay. And like I think that that's part of the of going through this process is just being speaker-0: you speaker-1: so secure within myself that it's I'm not gonna say it never bothers me. It does. Like it's a practice. And it's a process and I'm still working through it. You know, but speaker-0: you speaker-1: just learning to just be like, Okay, well, this is what I believe and this is what I feel and speaker-0: you speaker-1: this is, you know, my intuition and I'm gonna follow it, whether or not it even makes not even if it makes sense to you, but not even if it makes sense to me. 'Cause sometimes it doesn't always, but it does. It always does. Like it doesn't but it does. like this compass within me and this just it's a force, it's just something that I can no longer like, you know, deny it and I've gotta listen to it or I feel like I'm gonna die. Like not literally, but it's like speaker-0: you speaker-1: I don't this like I know that sounds dramatic. I remember I had a conversation with my yogini. Like a while ago we were talking about that, about our intuition and just how feminine that is and you know, I mean I'm pretty untethered and I have the ability to, you know, as long as my finances, you know, permit it. And lately I've been kind of I wouldn't say stagnant in one place. speaker-0: you speaker-1: But I've had the honor and the privilege to be able to stay in one place for a while so that I could ground. I was I just shift my perspective and how I was looking at it. I like, my god, I'm stuck. I'm looping. Ba ba ba It was like having a little pity party. No, listen, I was moving through a lot of shit. A lot of healing of past trauma, having memories come back. Like crazy like CPTSD moments and like meltdowns and like speaker-0: you speaker-1: my nervous system really like I mean it's been bad. speaker-0: you speaker-1: so I f I was just in this strange space. But it's like I'm speaker-0: you speaker-1: slowly coming out of the fog, right? And I'm needing to just take care of myself and nourish myself and ground myself and regulate my nervous system. So being in one place, I had to shift my perspective and go, my gosh, I'm so grateful to be here, you know, and to be with with people that are s supportive of me. While, I work through some things, you know, so instead of looking at it as stagnancy, other or or instead of looking at as it being like, I'm in like, you know, time out or I'm in I'm stagnant or I'm stuck. No, speaker-0: you speaker-1: I am blessed and I'm grateful and I'm, you know, appreciative and privileged and honored. That spirit that the universe put me in a space where I can feel safe and vulnerable and good enough and you know, like be one with myself. It and it's not perfect, it's challenging. It is, it's really fucking challenging sometimes because I'm come accustomed to being in my own energy and being by myself. speaker-0: you speaker-1: You know, so like I'm where I am, I'm like sleeping on the couch, not having a lot of privacy. I am working a lot. speaker-0: you speaker-1: You know, but it but I'm I'm finding balance within all of the chaos and becoming more harmonious within myself and then it begins to reflect and the world around me. I don't even know where I'm going with this, darling. goodness. well. I guess that's enough for now. Alright, darling. Toodle-oo