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Learning To Live With Sudden Vision Loss · Get It Got It Girl: Midlife Rebuild

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  SPEAKER_00: Life hit me with a deeper and I didn't see it coming.
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  SPEAKER_00: Literally.
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  SPEAKER_00: Not the fun kind either.
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  SPEAKER_00: But even in the middle of it all, I'm still learning how to keep going, keep moving, keep pushing, keep pushing forward, and just keep laughing.
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  SPEAKER_00: If you're going through something heavy, stay with me.
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  SPEAKER_00: Welcome, welcome, welcome.
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  SPEAKER_00: This is Tina.
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  SPEAKER_00: I'm your transformational coach and emotional intelligence strategist.
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  SPEAKER_00: I'm here to help you break pattern.
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  SPEAKER_00: Welcome back.
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  SPEAKER_00: I'm glad that you're here.
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  SPEAKER_00: This week brought me some news I never expected.
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  SPEAKER_00: I found out that I won't be able to drive again.
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  SPEAKER_00: I won't be able to work the way I used to be for either.
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  SPEAKER_00: And my vision topped out at 8 feet, which is great if everything I need is just eight feet away.
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  SPEAKER_00: Oh, it's not a lot, and I'm not going to pretend that it hasn't been.
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  SPEAKER_00: When I first heard I felt like the ground shifted underneath me.
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  SPEAKER_00: I didn't have a brave reaction.
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  SPEAKER_00: I had a human one.
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  SPEAKER_00: I burst into tears at the doctor's office, full of fear, frustration, grief all at once, and anger and betrayal.
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  SPEAKER_00: And if you ever had your life change overnight, you know exactly what that feels like.
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  SPEAKER_00: But here's the thing.
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  SPEAKER_00: Even in the middle of this, I'm still here.
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  SPEAKER_00: I'm in shock and I'm shook, but I'm still here.
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  SPEAKER_00: Learning what tools I have, you know, available to use and realize that I am stronger than I thought.
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  SPEAKER_00: Starting to understand that a new path isn't just the end, it's just something that's different.
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  SPEAKER_00: And I wasn't planning for this.
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  SPEAKER_00: And I the betrayal comes from for three months, my eye doctor let me think that I had a chance and I had hope of recovering.
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  SPEAKER_00: And that's where the betrayal came because I found out that she had known the whole three months that this was going to be the case.
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  SPEAKER_00: And I guess the reasoning is because they want people to heal and focus on healing.
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  SPEAKER_00: Well, I just feel betrayed because I had all this hope in here this whole three months that I've been waiting, anticipating, and dreaming about driving again and making, you know, promises, like selling my soul, and that I would never take things for granted again.
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  SPEAKER_00: And I actually have had my faith necklace on, and right when I found out I just wanted to rip it off and I still still struggle with that.
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  SPEAKER_00: And listen, then if I'm going to bump into things, I might as well laugh about it because I already am bumping into things, walls, people, my bed, the side of the bed, just it's insane.
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  SPEAKER_00: And the other day I saw a tree and I thought it was a woman in a dress.
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  SPEAKER_00: I can't even drive anymore.
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  SPEAKER_00: But have you seen how people drive lately?
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  SPEAKER_00: You know, maybe it's just the universe trying to protect me.
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  SPEAKER_00: I do believe that everything happens for a reason.
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  SPEAKER_00: And I know that I'm being tested right now.