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Faith, Fear, And Flow - Healing Through Uncertainty · Ay Mijita ✨ Embrace your raíces. Reclaim your esencia.

• 0:06
  SPEAKER_00: Hi mi hijita.
• 0:07
  SPEAKER_00: Bienvenidos de nuevo.
• 0:09
  SPEAKER_00: I'm your host, Dora Alicia Praxedis.
• 0:11
  SPEAKER_00: In this episode, it's one that I've been feeling deep in my bones.
• 0:16
  SPEAKER_00: You know when life throws you into the unknown, where every plan, every routine, every illusion of control just falls apart.
• 0:24
  SPEAKER_00: That's where I've been lately.
• 0:26
  SPEAKER_00: Between health updates, surgery prep, and then post-surgery, I'm recording this two days after my surgery date, the emotional roller coaster that comes with it all.
• 0:35
  SPEAKER_00: I've had to learn to walk with faith and fear, holding hands.
• 0:39
  SPEAKER_00: Today we're diving into that sacred dance between faith, fear, and flow.
• 0:44
  SPEAKER_00: Because navigating the unknown isn't about eliminating fear, it's about learning to move with it, con gracia, with grace, con surrender, con corazon abierto.
• 0:55
  SPEAKER_00: So grab your cabecito, your journal, maybe light a candle, porque hoy we're going deadropa.
• 1:17
  SPEAKER_00: Let's start here.
• 1:20
  SPEAKER_00: What happens when you don't know what's next?
• 1:23
  SPEAKER_00: When the diagnosis comes, when the relationship ends, when the job shifts, when spirit says it's time, and you're like, but no, I'm not ready.
• 1:34
  SPEAKER_00: The truth is, the unknown is sacred.
• 1:37
  SPEAKER_00: It's the void.
• 1:39
  SPEAKER_00: It's where creation begins, but our human selves, we fear it.
• 1:45
  SPEAKER_00: We fight it.
• 1:46
  SPEAKER_00: We want answers, certainty, and a plan.
• 1:49
  SPEAKER_00: For me, this season has been one of deep surrender.
• 1:53
  SPEAKER_00: Finding out about my health, setting surgery dates, telling my family, it honestly broke me.
• 1:58
  SPEAKER_00: Lloraba un chingo.
• 2:00
  SPEAKER_00: My husband cried in a way I hadn't seen him in years.
• 2:04
  SPEAKER_00: Um, my mom's anxiety went through the roof.
• 2:07
  SPEAKER_00: And Miahuela, I shared with her last Saturday the news.
• 2:11
  SPEAKER_00: I was leading up to it, and I wanted to do it as gently as possible.
• 2:17
  SPEAKER_00: And I was able to share with her, she got to feel my lump and my boob, very intimate things with my grandma, and we laugh, we we cry, we everything, and it's such an amazing feeling that my grandma gets me like that.
• 2:31
  SPEAKER_00: So through it all, I've noticed that spirit keeps whispering to me, Dora, you are safe, even in the unknown.
• 2:38
  SPEAKER_00: No tengas miedo, then confianza, though, and that's where I'm gonna invite you to reflect.
• 2:48
  SPEAKER_00: What unknown are you facing right now?
• 2:51
  SPEAKER_00: How does your body respond to uncertainty?
• 2:54
  SPEAKER_00: Do you freeze, control, avoid, or overdo?
• 3:03
  SPEAKER_00: Let's breathe together.
• 3:04
  SPEAKER_00: Inhale faith and exhale fear.
• 3:20
  SPEAKER_00: It's raw, it's trembling hands, it's crying in the shower, saying, God, I don't know how I'm going to get through this, and then hearing that inner whisper of one day at a time, Mija.
• 3:34
  SPEAKER_00: In my own journey, I've seen faith show up through the people around me.
• 3:39
  SPEAKER_00: The nurses, the clients that send me prayers, the friends that drop off food, or nowadays door dashing, gift cards, or voice notes saying, You got this.
• 3:51
  SPEAKER_00: I've been so overwhelmed and so grateful for all the messages that be via my my text messages, WhatsApp messages, Facebook, Instagram, you name it, smoke signals, anything.
• 4:03
  SPEAKER_00: Faith isn't passive.
• 4:05
  SPEAKER_00: It's an act of devotion to your healing, to your purpose, to divine timing.
• 4:12
  SPEAKER_00: When we say que sea lo que Dios quiera, it's not giving up.
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  SPEAKER_00: It's aligning.
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  SPEAKER_00: It's remembering that divine timing doesn't run on our calendar.
• 4:22
  SPEAKER_00: So what does faith mean to you right now?
• 4:27
  SPEAKER_00: Where in your life are you being asked to trust, even without proof?
• 4:34
  SPEAKER_00: How can you create space for miracles in the midst of fear?
• 4:39
  SPEAKER_00: And so lately I've been really tested in my faith, I feel, but all in all, like I trust God, I trust the doctors, I trust everything around me, the process.
• 4:50
  SPEAKER_00: And it's been quite the show trying to receive, right?
• 4:53
  SPEAKER_00: The love, the affection, el carinho, um genuine people being, you know, coming out, um, visiting me, taking care of me.
• 5:03
  SPEAKER_00: Um, big shout out to my friend and my sister that were there with me yesterday, which was my first day out of like first full day out of surgery.
• 5:12
  SPEAKER_00: And then all the friends that send me their love and their prayers and their thoughts.
• 5:17
  SPEAKER_00: Um I'm on a board at Team Parent Connection.
• 5:20
  SPEAKER_00: They were so nice and gracious enough to send me gift cards for food.
• 5:24
  SPEAKER_00: That was amazing.
• 5:25
  SPEAKER_00: Um, and helping out and supporting me and my family and all those around me.
• 5:30
  SPEAKER_00: And especially one of my friends that I known since high school when I got pregnant with Josie.
• 5:35
  SPEAKER_00: Um, she always stuck by my side, and this time around was no exception.
• 5:39
  SPEAKER_00: She actually brought me pajamas and some fuzzy socks.
• 5:44
  SPEAKER_00: And all those things I take note that it's through love.
• 5:49
  SPEAKER_00: Everything's through love, compassion.
• 5:51
  SPEAKER_00: Um, so far in my journey, I haven't felt anybody feel sorry for me, and if they do, it's like okay.
• 5:56
  SPEAKER_00: Um, and some people don't want to be so open, right, about their medical or challenges going through it.
• 6:02
  SPEAKER_00: But for me, I feel like I'm an open book.
• 6:04
  SPEAKER_00: I've always kind of been like that.
• 6:06
  SPEAKER_00: Um, and I want to be as transparent as possible.
• 6:08
  SPEAKER_00: And I'm not gonna lie, sitting in my closet recording in a chair um is not my ideal, but um I do feel a little sore, and I'm so fortunate that I have people around me.
• 6:18
  SPEAKER_00: Like today, my mom's with me.
• 6:20
  SPEAKER_00: Um, and being able to bond, I know she she's really going through it right now.
• 6:25
  SPEAKER_00: You can see it in her eyes.
• 6:26
  SPEAKER_00: Uh, the woman has cried a lot, and it's just a process that we all go through is that fear and that faith together, right?
• 6:36
  SPEAKER_00: So let's move on to a meditation where we can really kind of anchor ourselves.
• 6:48
  SPEAKER_00: Let's pause for a grounding moment.
• 6:51
  SPEAKER_00: If you're feel safe and you're you're not driving, you may go ahead and make yourself comfy, close your eyes, and place one hand over your heart, and one the other hand over your womb or belly.
• 7:08
  SPEAKER_00: And I want you to whisper.
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  SPEAKER_00: I trust the timing of my life.
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  SPEAKER_00: Even when I don't understand, I choose to have faith.
• 7:25
  SPEAKER_00: Fear, thank you for showing me where I still cling to control.
• 7:32
  SPEAKER_00: And like, let's take a deep breath in and let yourself feel what trust tastes like in your body, and then exhale.
• 7:43
  SPEAKER_00: And keep doing that for a few more.
• 7:58
  SPEAKER_00: Let's talk about fear, okay, Hermosa?
• 8:01
  SPEAKER_00: Fear isn't the enemy, it's the messenger.
• 8:04
  SPEAKER_00: Fear says, I want to protect you, but faith says, I believe you can handle this.
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  SPEAKER_00: Flow says, let's walk together.
• 8:12
  SPEAKER_00: In my case, fear showed up like overthinking, insomnia, like planning every scenario in my head, going through Chat GPT to figure it out.
• 8:23
  SPEAKER_00: My body was screaming, slow down, slow the fuck down.
• 8:27
  SPEAKER_00: But my mind said, you can't stop now.
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  SPEAKER_00: You keep you can keep on going.
• 8:32
  SPEAKER_00: And that's when I realized sometimes our deepest healing happens when we finally stop resting.
• 8:38
  SPEAKER_00: Fear is a tightness in your chest before the big leap.
• 8:42
  SPEAKER_00: It's the tears before surrender, it's your inner niña saying, Please don't leave me behind.
• 8:48
  SPEAKER_00: So I want you to reflect.
• 8:50
  SPEAKER_00: What is the fear trying to protect you from?
• 8:54
  SPEAKER_00: When was the last time you felt fear but still moved forward?
• 9:01
  SPEAKER_00: What would it look like to thank your fear instead of fighting it?
• 9:07
  SPEAKER_00: And so for me, obviously I was very scared with my surgery.
• 9:11
  SPEAKER_00: I thought I was gonna feel something, or it was gonna be, you know, just I wasn't gonna feel myself again.
• 9:15
  SPEAKER_00: And yeah, no joke, like having two boobies cut out of you, that's that's a that's a big traumatic thing for the physical, right?
• 9:22
  SPEAKER_00: But for my for me, like surrendering everything to God, surrendering to the doctors and everybody around me, and just going through the process, that for me, mentally, I know that there's an end goal, right?
• 9:35
  SPEAKER_00: That that this is only temporary.
• 9:38
  SPEAKER_00: And I've seen so many miracles happen in the past couple months.
• 9:42
  SPEAKER_00: All these all, you know, folks that didn't probably believe in anything are starting to believe that, you know, we're start, we're starting to ask, you know, please let you know, let this healing happen.
• 9:51
  SPEAKER_00: And it's been so wonderful to see all the people reach out to me and receive that that love, right, and that compassion.
• 10:00
  SPEAKER_00: And so next time fear shows up, whisper, gracias for showing me what's ready to be healed.
• 10:06
  SPEAKER_00: That's your cue to slow down and listen to your soul.
• 10:13
  SPEAKER_00: Let's talk about flow.
• 10:15
  SPEAKER_00: Flow isn't passive, it's a partnership with spirit.
• 10:18
  SPEAKER_00: When we're in the flow, we allow life to move through us instead of around us.
• 10:25
  SPEAKER_00: We stop micromanaging the universe, we surrender to the current and say, Okay, Diosito, take me where I'm meant to go.
• 10:32
  SPEAKER_00: In the middle of my journey, with medical appointments, emotions, and uncertainty, I've learned that flow looks like this listening to my body when it says rest, saying no when I need space, asking for help without guilt, and most importantly, not forcing what's not ready.
• 10:55
  SPEAKER_00: And so let's try this somatic practice.
• 10:58
  SPEAKER_00: I want you to go ahead and close your eyes and imagine yourself standing in a river.
• 11:06
  SPEAKER_00: Feel that water flow around your legs, up to your knees.
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  SPEAKER_00: The current represents life.
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  SPEAKER_00: Sometimes fast, sometimes slow.
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  SPEAKER_00: You don't need to swim upstream.
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  SPEAKER_00: Just float.
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  SPEAKER_00: Breathe.
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  SPEAKER_00: Surrender.
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  SPEAKER_00: Let the water carry you to where you're meant to be.
• 11:39
  SPEAKER_00: And repeat out loud.
• 11:42
  SPEAKER_00: I release control.
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  SPEAKER_00: I am guided.
• 11:51
  SPEAKER_00: I am safe in the flow.
• 11:55
  SPEAKER_00: And when you're ready, you can open your eyes and let's reflect.
• 12:02
  SPEAKER_00: What would happen if you stopped forcing and started flowing?
• 12:07
  SPEAKER_00: Where are you still trying to control divine timing?
• 12:11
  SPEAKER_00: So these are questions to reflect upon.
• 12:14
  SPEAKER_00: And for me, it took me a very long time to become in this state, I think, of just going with the flow, right?
• 12:22
  SPEAKER_00: The going through the process.
• 12:24
  SPEAKER_00: And people around me, I'm not so codependent on their emotions anymore.
• 12:28
  SPEAKER_00: I know I did that with my husband before, and now it's like I have to worry about me 100%, slow down, rest, be careful or be mindful of what I put my energy into.
• 12:40
  SPEAKER_00: And that's where I try to control the divine timing because I wanted everything to happen super fast, right?
• 12:47
  SPEAKER_00: With like surgeries and things of that nature, um, in this position in my medical situation.
• 12:53
  SPEAKER_00: But it's all panning out for the greater good for myself and for the collective.
• 12:58
  SPEAKER_00: And that's what I always ask for isito, dame lo que más me comenga, because I don't even know what's convenient for me.
• 13:07
  SPEAKER_00: We can't talk about faith without ritual.
• 13:10
  SPEAKER_00: Rituals are anchors.
• 13:13
  SPEAKER_00: They ground us when life feels uncertain.
• 13:15
  SPEAKER_00: So here's the here's your faith and flow ritual for this week.
• 13:19
  SPEAKER_00: Number one, create a sacred space.
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  SPEAKER_00: You can light a candle, place a glass of water, maybe some flowers or a photo of your ancestors.
• 13:29
  SPEAKER_00: Number two, write a letter to your fear.
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  SPEAKER_00: Thank it for protecting you, ask what it needs, then release it.
• 13:35
  SPEAKER_00: Burn it, bury it, or tear it into tiny pieces.
• 13:39
  SPEAKER_00: And right now, the full moon is still happening.
• 13:42
  SPEAKER_00: Um, and that's where this is a perfect ritual to do outside in the underneath the mother moon and burn.
• 13:48
  SPEAKER_00: Number three, write a second letter to faith.
• 13:51
  SPEAKER_00: Speak it, speak to it like it's your best friend.
• 13:54
  SPEAKER_00: Tell faith what you're ready to co-create.
• 13:57
  SPEAKER_00: What are we ready to go for?
• 13:58
  SPEAKER_00: Right?
• 13:59
  SPEAKER_00: Let's do this, faith.
• 14:00
  SPEAKER_00: And then number four is close with this prayer.
• 14:05
  SPEAKER_00: May I move with courage even when I cannot see.
• 14:08
  SPEAKER_00: May I trust the unseen hands that guide me.
• 14:12
  SPEAKER_00: May I surrender to the flow of divine timing.
• 14:15
  SPEAKER_00: Now you could definitely plug in here, I'm always gonna plug in my limpias in here, but you could do an optional limpia where you have a webbo and an herb, okay, so an egg or herb, and you can pass it over your body gently while repeating.
• 14:33
  SPEAKER_00: With love and faith, I release the fear and I am confident on this path.
• 14:41
  SPEAKER_00: Then dispose of the huevo, the egg, or herbs with gratitude.
• 14:46
  SPEAKER_00: And the egg you can actually dump it outside, or you could dump it out of the toilet.
• 14:50
  SPEAKER_00: You could do either of those things, and then also with herbs.
• 14:54
  SPEAKER_00: Mijita.
• 14:55
  SPEAKER_00: The truth is we're all walking each other home through the unknown.
• 15:00
  SPEAKER_00: Faith, fear, and flow are not enemies.
• 15:05
  SPEAKER_00: They are sacred teachers to ourselves.
• 15:07
  SPEAKER_00: As I walk into this next chapter of my own healing, I want you to remember, you don't have to be fearless to be faithful.
• 15:15
  SPEAKER_00: You just have to be willing to keep showing up for yourself.
• 15:20
  SPEAKER_00: If you're navigating uncertainty, I invite you to check out my website and if there's anything I can do to assist you, and willing to go deep into what your soul is trying to show you.
• 15:32
  SPEAKER_00: So let's move from that fear into flow, from confusion into clarity.
• 15:36
  SPEAKER_00: And again, you can find me at www.dorapraxedis.com.
• 15:41
  SPEAKER_00: And if this episode spoke to your heart, please share it.
• 15:44
  SPEAKER_00: Tag me at on Instagram at DPraxedis, or you can find me on Facebook, and let me know what part hit for you the hardest.
• 16:07
  SPEAKER_00: Until next time, embrace your races, reclaim your essencia, and as always, always trust the flow.
• 16:13
  SPEAKER_00: Los quiero mucho, un besote, y hasta la próxima