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The Joys of Motherhood · Mom Gone Mild

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  Hi guys, welcome back to Mom Gone mild.
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  I'm your host Lex, and welcome to episode 13 Lucky 13.
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  And funny enough, it is going to be Friday the 13th this week, so
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  I'm super excited about that. Usually me and my best friend,
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  we go, we get matching tattoos. I know, Cliche, whatever, we
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  love it. We have probably like I think 3
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  matching ones. I love her.
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  Shout out to her, Nina. But yeah, so if you're new here,
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  I am a first time mom. I'm a wife.
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  I am a former party girl, someone who's basically trying
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  to just figure out motherhood, dealing with my mental health
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  and life 1 chaotic day at a time.
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  If you've been here from the start, first of all, thank you
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  guys so much. I am always going to be thankful
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  for you guys listening because sometimes I do this podcast and
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  I'm like, who is listening? As you guys know, we've talked
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  about a lot, so go ahead, binge episodes one through 12.
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  And we talk about postpartum, we talk about marriage, we talk
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  about love, we talk about diet culture.
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  Right now I'm in a whole fitness era.
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  So yeah, go back. Binge episodes one through 12.
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  But today, today is a feel good episode.
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  Why? Because I feel good for once.
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  I just not for once because I have been going in this kind of
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  Wellness journey and it's just been helping me just clear my
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  mind getting out of that bunk that I was in because let's be
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  honest, postpartum depression is real and I am climbing my way
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  out of it. If I haven't already scared you
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  away from motherhood with my postpartum stories, let me tell
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  you guys the best parts. Yes, we finally have arrived to
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  the best parts about motherhood. I know 13 episodes in motherhood
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  can be summed up by basically what happened the other day.
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  Me and my husband, we took Axel out for his first time like to a
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  store. We decided to go to Lowe's
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  because I'm trying to build a she shed.
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  Anyways, that's not the point. But you know, he had a full
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  blown meltdown. I'm sure you guys know how that
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  is. You're if you're like leaving
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  the store, you're putting the baby in the car and boom, just
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  crying snot just anger. Like he literally is in like
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  this like new phase where he's just like shakes and it's just,
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  it's like, and then he has like a piercing like low cry and it's
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  just so sad. It just makes me all like
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  emotional. But yeah, why did he cry?
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  Because he was so infatuated with like looking at the flowers
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  he loved, like the ceiling fans. He was obsessed.
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  He was a fan for sure. Comes up perfectly.
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  Motherhood, because motherhood is chaotic.
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  It has its days, it has its UPS, it has its downs just like
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  everything else. It is so random sometimes it
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  makes absolutely no sense, but it's also the best thing I've
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  ever done, honestly. Here I go with the same word.
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  Honestly, I am so sorry that I used that word so many times.
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  I think it's like a nervous little tick that I have.
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  My favorite thing is about motherhood.
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  Basically it is just being able to raise Axel and just being in
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  awe, like wow, I made this tiny little human.
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  He is my built in bestie. We have so much fun at this age.
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  He he's seven months now, so he's just so fun.
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  He had he's getting like his personality and he makes me
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  laugh, he makes me cry. But you know, that's motherhood
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  sometimes. We have our really good days.
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  We have so much fun, we play games and just I'm right now in
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  that kind of trying to entertain him all day because he no longer
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  takes like long naps. So it's literally just playing
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  all day. And I'm trying to cut TV time
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  because I know it's not like the best but honestly if you're not
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  a mom and you're just like I'm so against TV time.
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  Let me tell you when that baby is crying or when you just need
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  like 5-10 minutes to yourself. TV is OK at a certain point.
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  Am I letting him watch it all day?
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  Absolutely not. I'm not for that.
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  TV is not raising my baby. But also, mom needs like a, I
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  mean, sometimes I just need to relax and enjoy my coffee.
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  And like I said, I'm just so excited to be raising Axel.
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  I get to be there for every milestone.
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  I get to be there through all his years of growing up.
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  He's just at such an amazing age right now.
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  The word privilege really hits me sometimes because there were
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  moments in my life where I never thought I'd be a mom.
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  I suffered a loss of a baby. I have issues with my mental
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  health. So there were times where I was
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  like, am I even enough? Can I really be a good mom to
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  this baby that's going to need me constantly and I'm going to
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  have to just give him my all? And the answer is yes, I am.
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  Because I have put, I am trying to put in the work.
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  I am trying to be a present mom. There's days where I don't want
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  to get up. There's days where I'm so tired
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  because, you know, he doesn't sleep through the night.
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  But you know what? I'm there every day.
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  I'm present. And that's all that we can do
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  for our babies, to be honest. He's a happy baby.
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  He's healthy, he is perfect. So he's doing good.
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  Trust me. OK.
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  But Speaking of kind of like my old life, because I always like
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  to just go back in time and sometimes just think of not the
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  good old days because good days are now, but like the funner
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  days, you know, the crazier days.
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  You know, I really had a time when I was young, one time in
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  specific. I was just talking to my one
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  friend about this not too long ago.
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  It's so funny. So we were in a lounge and yeah,
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  this was like one of those lounges where people just win
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  and had like, you know, drinks after work, nothing too crazy.
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  And of course, in comes me. People are sitting, people are
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  drinking, people are relaxing, enjoying their day, talking,
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  hanging out, very calm, very normal.
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  In comes Lex. Somehow I end up dancing on a
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  table. Now mind you, it was a glass
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  table, so you can probably already guess where this is
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  going. But I was dancing.
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  People were just like, chilling probably.
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  Look at me like, who is that girl?
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  Well, yeah, I ended up falling through that table.
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  Glass table completely breaks. I fall straight through.
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  The whole lounge is silent. They're all just staring at me.
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  Of course I got kicked out. The party still continued, and
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  that pretty much sums up my life back then.
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  If you want to hear more kind of wild Nights out, I definitely
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  have a few episodes. Go ahead, listen to them.
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  I think they're funny now. Probably, yeah.
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  Just go and listen to them. I hope you'll go ahead and enjoy
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  them. Life is so different now.
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  It's just when I say I had a time, I had a time when I was
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  young. I definitely enjoyed my youth
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  and actually I'm so glad that I did because even though
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  sometimes I look at some videos on, you know, social media, when
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  I see my friends going out, I'm like, Dang, I have some kind of
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  FOMO. But in reality, I have lived
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  that whole life. I've partied, I've stayed out
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  late. I've done pretty much everything
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  that you do when you party. So I feel like that time I'm
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  kind of good, especially when I see my friends out, like past
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  like 10, I'm like, Oh no girl, go back to sleep, what were you
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  thinking? And I'm fine.
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  And I'm just really grateful because now I just get to enjoy
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  motherhood. I just wouldn't trade this life
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  for anything. Even the depression, even the
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  anxiety, everything that came with motherhood.
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  I definitely wouldn't change it because in the end I got the
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  cutest baby. I know.
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  I know everyone says that they have the cutest baby, but I
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  really do No, but in all seriousness, because I got to
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  live my crazy era, my wild nights out.
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  I really just get to enjoy life with, you know, like planning
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  vacations, planning, like going to Legoland and planning to go
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  to Disneyland. And just like, I love how my
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  life looks now. But can we talk about one thing
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  that I just feel like is so chaotic?
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  Spring cleaning. I don't know.
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  Do you guys ever look at your clothes?
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  I was looking at, you know, my dresser today and I was like,
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  Dang, I have a lot of clothes. So I went in and I was like, I'm
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  just going to grab a few things like donate.
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  I ended up donating almost all of my clothes.
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  So I basically only have like, gym clothes, sweats and large
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  T-shirts. Yeah, that's my whole wardrobe
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  right now. But do you guys ever get in like
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  the mood where it's like, Dang, I just want to like, rearrange
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  my whole house? I am no way am I like do I have
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  like the money to do that, but I want to do it like with $100
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  budget. I don't know.
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  Am I the only person that feels like that?
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  I hope not. If you're listening, let me
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  know. Is that how you guys feel during
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  spring cleaning? Like I just want to like get rid
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  of everything and just get everything new.
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  Is that like a millennial thing? I always see kind of like post
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  like millennials like simple things.
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  They don't like clutter. They like it just very
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  minimalistic. And I just feel like, yeah, I'm
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  in that era right now where it's like, I just want, I know like
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  the whole typical grayish Gray is not in, but Gray will always
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  be in for me. I could care less.
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  I do like the Browns. But, you know, is that a
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  millennial thing? I don't know.
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  I feel like because like, back when I was like living with my
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  mom, it was like since I had like, little brothers, little
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  sister, it was just so chaotic. There were so many things all
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  over the place. I just felt very overwhelmed.
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  That might actually be an anxiety thing.
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  I'm not sure. So yeah, realistically, well,
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  honestly, in my perfect world, I would have like the perfectly
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  like, Pinteresty cute aesthetic house.
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  But yeah, that's just not the reality now.
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  And I feel like that's not going to be it for a long time,
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  especially because I am a boy mom.
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  I do know how boys get. I do have little brothers and
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  trust me, they are messy. They're gross.
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  And I'm pretty sure that's how Axel will be too.
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  Of course I'm going to teach him to clean up.
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  But I mean, I am very realistic. Should I have gotten white
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  couches? Probably not, but here we are
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  here we go. So he is starting to kind of be
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  like a little bit more mobile. So we're going to have to start
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  baby proofing the house, which I'm actually a little excited
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  for because I can't wait to have just a little 1 running around
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  here. I just want to clean everything
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  up. I want a fresh start.
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  I want a fresh start mentally. I want a fresh start physically.
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  I I just am in that whole spring era, just new refresh, reset.
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  I love it, really love about being a mother, especially at
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  this age. At seven months, he is not
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  fragile anymore. And I know my baby is a big boy.
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  He is, he's probably like 27 lbs now.
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  But you know, he's just not fragile anymore.
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  And we get to like actually like play around.
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  I get to like, I don't throw him, but you know what I mean?
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  I'm a little bit more rough with him.
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  He starts laughing. He loves it.
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  But also I really miss newborn stage guys.
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  I know, I know, I know. I said I'm one and done and that
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  still is the case. But sometimes I look at newborns
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  and I'm like they are so cute. I just miss having him just here
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  just sleeping all day. Now he's just Wilding out and
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  I'm sure he's going to get more wild as the time comes.
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  Don't like let this fool you because motherhood is great, but
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  teething right now is a bitch. He is such a good boy, but when
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  those he is like he has two little teeth right here one's
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  popping in right now and it's just ah, it's getting to me.
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  I know, and I'm just like, how much longer does this last?
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  I'm assuming like every tooth he's going to be crying like
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  this right For now, we're just enjoying every cuddle, every
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  hug, every kiss. By the way, I am so proud of my
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  baby. He said Mama and yes, he was
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  crying, but obviously he was crying for me.
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  He did say Mama. He says it all the time now when
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  he's crying and it's just like it makes me want to cry.
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  I just feel like motherhood makes me cry all the time.
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  My hormones are so damn up and down.
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  It's crazy. And yeah, we're getting through
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  this together. We're getting through the tears.
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  We're just, we're doing it all. We're full on in mom mode.
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  And I absolutely love it. I want to know what's your
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  guys's favorite part about being a mom?
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  OK, so we're kind of trying, I was trying to do that baby lean
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  what where they basically like feed themselves and it's like
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  solids, but it's just he's not really too into a he's more into
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  purees. He likes when I feed him and you
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  know what, it's fine. Eventually he'll get there.
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  But right now we're just really enjoying kind of trying new
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  foods. He's not a big fan of eggs, just
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  like his mom. But yesterday I fed him yogurt
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  and I made him like a little like blueberry like jam kind of
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  thing, and he loved it. So I'm just excited.
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  I get to see, you know, the world basically through his eyes
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  and everything is just so new. He's just in awe of everything.
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  And I just absolutely adore it. It's like I get to relive all
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  that I have already gone through and I get to just guide him and
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  I just get to be there with him is I have had so many new
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  followers because I am doing this whole 75 hard and yeah.
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  So I just want to give a quick update on that.
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  And if you are a new follower because of that, trust me, we
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  will be getting into that. I talk about it way more on
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  Instagram and stuff like that. But so quick update on 75 hard.
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  I have lost a total of 7 lbs when I am since I'm filming this
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  now it is day 10. When this airs it will be day
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  12. So your girl is down 7 lbs?
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  Dang I know I'm excited. I just I feel energetic.
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  I feel like I have less cravings.
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  I'm not going to lie. I would kill for a coke 0 though
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  if I'm honest. Kill.
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  Yesterday I had like protein pasta and it was all healthy and
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  it was all good and I was like Dang, you know how to feel like
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  really? Even better, a Coke 0.
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  Yeah. So even though I have had less
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  cravings, I still crave. But of course, I was so excited
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  to weigh myself. And then my husband weighed
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  himself. Guys, he lost 10 lbs.
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  I'm so jealous of men's bodies. I swear they blink and they lose
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  weight. 75 hard has not been bad.
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  I feel like if you pick a diet that's sustainable, which is the
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  Whole Foods diet, I am definitely going to implement
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  this in my days after 75 hard because I love it.
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  Like I just feel like my guts feeling healthy.
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  I feel like my skin is clearing up.
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  The water of course, is ice or me and water right now are
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  enemies. I know.
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  But, you know, we're doing the thing.
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  We're reading and yeah, basically, I'm really actually
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  enjoying the two workouts a day. I feel healthy.
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  I I just love it. I maybe I'm a freaking weirdo,
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  but maybe also I'm on day 10. I have 65 days left.
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  We'll see at the end of this. So as you guys also know, and if
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  you don't know, I am going to be doing a mud run in September.
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  So I'm starting to train for that.
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  And you guys are like probably like, girl, it's in September.
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  Well, yeah, I just went up a freaking hill that was high.
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  So I need to get my butt to start working, running, doing
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  like some jumble the the jungle gym thing.
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  I need to get on it because September, you guys, the months
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  are passing fast here. But you know, it's awesome
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  because I feel stronger. I feel like my body's getting
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  tighter. I'm getting a lot of compliments
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  from my hubs, so that always feels good.
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  That's making me feel sexy. It's making me feel seen, and I
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  just feel overall like this is going to be a lifestyle change.
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  I feel like everyone says that, but I really do feel like I'm
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  going to implement a lot of the things that I'm doing now into
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  my day-to-day when I'm done with 75 heart.
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  I also took my first Pilates class and yeah, I signed up for
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  three months, so I better be looking snatched.
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  I do see all these Pilates bodies and I'm like, yes, this
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  is exactly how I want to look. So right now, I guess you can
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  say I'm in my Pilates era now. Of course, guys, I'm feeling
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  good, but I still have my days. Those intrusive thoughts kick
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  in. There's some days, like I said,
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  I don't want to do. I don't want to do the two
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  workouts. I don't want to eat healthy.
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  I want to eat a burger. I want to eat a Coke 0.
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  But you know what? I just stopped my brain from
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  spiraling and just literally tell myself, Alexis, you're
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  doing this for yourself and your baby to be healthy because I
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  want Axel to just have a healthy lifestyle.
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  I wasn't really like into health when I was younger.
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  So I feel like right now, that's why I'm really struggling with
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  it because if I was born into this and you know, my parents
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  would have like taken me for runs and made me like walk more,
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  I feel like this wouldn't be such a crazy journey.
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  Will these thoughts ever disappear?
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  Probably not because I've been struggling it with them for my
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  whole life, but I'm definitely not going to obsess over them
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  like I used to. Another thing that I'm doing is
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  I'm trying to get out of my comfort zone and I am going to
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  be joining like mom walks and just like I'm doing like a
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  Pilates class in we ho. So I'm going to be trying to
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  just get out of my comfort zone right now.
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  Right now I'm. Choosing to be present, I'm
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  choosing to be mindful. I am choosing to be active.
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  This feels so good right now because at the end of the day, I
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  am a mom. I'm raising this little human,
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  but I'm also needing, I have to be kind to myself because I just
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  grew a human as well. So it's kind of like a balance
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  that I'm trying to figure out it all out together through the
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  cuddles, through the hard times, through the good times, through
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  the laughs, through the park dates, through just everything.
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  And I absolutely wouldn't trade this for the world.
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  I am active there daily. I do 75 heart updates, I do life
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  a giveaway. It ends March 15th.
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  Please I would love you guys to join this giveaway.
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  It's just a pink hydro jug and it's just like these khaki Sony
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  headphones. I have bought them you guys and
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  I use them everyday. They are so good.
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  I'm obsessed with both. If you are on this journey of
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  mother hood fitness or you're just trying to become the best
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  version of yourself, you're not alone.
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  You have me. I'm doing the exact same thing.
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  Always reach out to me on my DMS. I love making new friends
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  and I am so excited just for the things coming up.
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  I hope that you guys enjoyed this episode and I love you guys
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  and thank you for listening.