Why I Felt Single Even During an Affair

The Scarlet Edit: Infidelity, Divorce, Starting Over. · Apr 30, 2026 · 23m

I told one of my girlfriends the other day that despite being in serious relationships, I've always kind of felt single. And she said, me too. This episode is what came out of that.

I'm not talking about single in the fun, hitting-the-town way. I'm talking about feeling like I've never really had a man fully choose me across every defining relationship since college. The marriage. The boyfriends. The affair with a married man. Different relationships, different roles, same feeling underneath all of it.

I get into the elephant in the room — yes, my last relationship was with a married man, so…