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  Speaker 1: Section three of pamela or virtue rewarded this is a
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  Speaker 1: org pamela or virtue rewarded by samuel richardson section three
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  Speaker 1: letter nineteen dear father and mother our john having an
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  Speaker 1: opportunity to go your way i write again and send
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  Speaker 1: both letters at once i can't say yet when i
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  Speaker 1: shall get away nor how i shall come because mrs
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  Speaker 1: jervis showed my master the waistcoat i am flowering for
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  Speaker 1: him and he said it looks well enough i think
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  Speaker 1: the creature had best stay till she has finished it
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  Speaker 1: there is some private talk carried on betwixt him and
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  Speaker 1: mrs jervis that she don't tell me of but yet
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  Speaker 1: she is very kind to me and i don't mistrust
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  Speaker 1: her at all i should be very base if i
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  Speaker 1: did but to be sure she must oblige him and
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  Speaker 1: keep all his lawful commands and other i dare say
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  Speaker 1: she won't keep she is too good and loves me
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  Speaker 1: too well but she must stay when i am gone
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  Speaker 1: and so must get no ill-will she has been at
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  Speaker 1: me again to ask to stay and humble myself but
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  Speaker 1: what have i done mrs jervis said i if i
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  Speaker 1: have been a sauce-box and a bold-face and a pert
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  Speaker 1: and a creature as he calls me have i not
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  Speaker 1: had reason do you think i should ever have forgot
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  Speaker 1: myself if he had not forgot to act as my
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  Speaker 1: master tell me from your own heart dear mrs jervis
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  Speaker 1: said i if you think i could stay and be
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  Speaker 1: safe what would you think or how would you act
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  Speaker 1: in my case my dear pamela said she and kissed
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  Speaker 1: me i don't know how i should act or what
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  Speaker 1: i should think i hope i should act as you
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  Speaker 1: do but i know nobody else that would my master
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  Speaker 1: is a fine gentleman he has a great deal of
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  Speaker 1: wit and sense and is admired as i know by
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  Speaker 1: half a dozen ladies who would think themselves happy in
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  Speaker 1: his addresses he has a noble estate and yet i
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  Speaker 1: believe he loves my good maiden though his servant better
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  Speaker 1: than all ladies in the land and he has tried
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  Speaker 1: to overcome it because you are so much his inferior
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  Speaker 1: and tis my opinion he finds he can't and that
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  Speaker 1: vexes his proud heart and makes him resolve you shan't
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  Speaker 1: stay and so he speaks so cross to you when
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  Speaker 1: he sees you by accident well but mrs jervis said
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  Speaker 1: i let me ask you if he can stoop to
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  Speaker 1: like such a poor girl as me as perhaps he
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  Speaker 1: may for i have read of things almost as strange
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  Speaker 1: from great men to poor damsels what can it be
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  Speaker 1: for he may condescend perhaps to think i may be
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  Speaker 1: good enough for his harlot and those things don't disgrace
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  Speaker 1: men that ruin poor women as the world goes and
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  Speaker 1: so if i was wicked enough he would keep me
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  Speaker 1: till i was undone until his mind changed for even
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  Speaker 1: wicked men i have read soon grow weary of wickedness
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  Speaker 1: with the same person and love variety well then poor
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  Speaker 1: pamela must be turned off and looked upon as a
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  Speaker 1: vile abandoned creature and everybody would despise her ay and
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  Speaker 1: justly too mrs jervis for she that can't keep her
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  Speaker 1: virtue ought to live in disgrace but mrs jervis i
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  Speaker 1: continued let me tell you that i hope if i
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  Speaker 1: was sure he would always be kind to me and
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  Speaker 1: never turn me off at all that i shall have
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  Speaker 1: so much grace as to hate and withstand his temptations
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  Speaker 1: were he not only my master but my king and
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  Speaker 1: that for sin's sake this my poor dear parents have
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  Speaker 1: always taught me and i should be a sad wicked
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  Speaker 1: creature indeed if for the sake of riches or favour
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  Speaker 1: i should forfeit my good name yea and worse than
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  Speaker 1: any other young body of my sex because i can
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  Speaker 1: so contentedly return to my poverty again and think it
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  Speaker 1: a less disgrace to be obliged to wear rags and
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  Speaker 1: live upon rye bread and water as i used to
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  Speaker 1: do than to be a harlot to the greatest man
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  Speaker 1: in the world mrs jervis lifted up her hands and
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  Speaker 1: had her eyes full of tears god bless you my
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  Speaker 1: dear love said she you are my admiration and delight
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  Speaker 1: how shall i do to part with you well good
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  Speaker 1: mrs jervis said i let me ask you now you
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  Speaker 1: and he have had some talk and you mayn't be
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  Speaker 1: suffered to tell me all but do you think if
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  Speaker 1: i was to ask to stay that he is sorry
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  Speaker 1: for what he has done ay and ashamed of it
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  Speaker 1: too for i am sure he ought considering his high
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  Speaker 1: degree and my low degree and how i have nothing
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  Speaker 1: in the world to trust to but my honesty do
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  Speaker 1: you think in your own conscience now pray answer me
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  Speaker 1: truly that he would never offer anything to me again
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  Speaker 1: and that i could be safe alas my dear child
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  Speaker 1: said she don't put thy home questions to me with
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  Speaker 1: that pretty becoming earnestness in thy look i know this
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  Speaker 1: that he is vexed at what he has done he
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  Speaker 1: was vexed the first time more vexed the second time
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  Speaker 1: yes said i and so he will be vexed i
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  Speaker 1: suppose the third and the fourth time too till he
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  Speaker 1: has quite bruined your poor maiden and who will have
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  Speaker 1: cause to be vexed then nay pamela said she don't
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  Speaker 1: imagine that i would be accessory to your ruin for
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  Speaker 1: the world i only can say that he has yet
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  Speaker 1: done you no hurt and it is no wonder he
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  Speaker 1: should love you you are so pretty though so much
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  Speaker 1: beneath him but i dare swear for him he never
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  Speaker 1: will offer you any force you say said i that
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  Speaker 1: he was sorry for his first offer in the summer-house
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  Speaker 1: well and how long did his sorrow last only till
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  Speaker 1: he found me by myself and then he was worse
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  Speaker 1: than before and so became sorry again and if he
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  Speaker 1: has deigned to love me and you say can't help
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  Speaker 1: it why he can't help it neither if he should
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  Speaker 1: have an opportunity a third time to distress me and
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  Speaker 1: i have read that many a man has been ashamed
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  Speaker 1: of his wicked attempts when he has been repulsed that
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  Speaker 1: would never have been ashamed of them had he succeeded
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  Speaker 1: besides mrs jervis if he really intends to offer no
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  Speaker 1: force what does that mean while you say he can't
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  Speaker 1: help liking me for love it cannot be does it
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  Speaker 1: not imply that he hopes to ruin me by my
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  Speaker 1: own consent i think said i and i hope i
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  Speaker 1: should have grace to do so that i should not
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  Speaker 1: give way to his temptations on any account but it
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  Speaker 1: would be very presumptuous in me to rely upon my
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  Speaker 1: own strength against a gentleman of his qualifications and estate
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  Speaker 1: and who is my waster and thinks himself entitled to
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  Speaker 1: call me bold-faced and what not only for standing on
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  Speaker 1: my necessary defence and that too where the good of
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  Speaker 1: my soul and body and my duty to god and
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  Speaker 1: my parents are all concerned how then mrs jervis said
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  Speaker 1: i can i ask or wish to stay well well
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  Speaker 1: says she as he seems very desirous you should not
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  Speaker 1: stay i hope it is from a good motive for
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  Speaker 1: fear he should be tempted to disgrace himself as well
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  Speaker 1: as you no no mrs jervis said i i have
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  Speaker 1: thought of that too for i would be glad to
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  Speaker 1: consider him with that duty that becomes me but then
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  Speaker 1: he would have let me go to lady davers and
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  Speaker 1: not have hindered my preferment and he would not have
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  Speaker 1: said i should return to my poverty and distress when
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  Speaker 1: by his mother's goodness i had been lifted out of
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  Speaker 1: it but that he intended to fright me and punish
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  Speaker 1: me as he thought for not complying with his wickedness
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  Speaker 1: and this shows me well enough what i have to
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  Speaker 1: expect from his future goodness except i will deserve it
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  Speaker 1: at his own dear price she was silent and i
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  Speaker 1: added well there's no more to be said i must
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  Speaker 1: go that's certain all my concern will be how to
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  Speaker 1: part with you and indeed after you with everybody for
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  Speaker 1: all my fellow-servants have loved me and you and they
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  Speaker 1: will cost me a sigh and a tear too now
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  Speaker 1: and then i am sure and so i fell a-crying
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  Speaker 1: i could not help it for it is a pleasant
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  Speaker 1: thing to one to be in a house among a
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  Speaker 1: great many fellow servants and be beloved by them all
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  Speaker 1: nay i should have told you before now how kind
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  Speaker 1: and civil mr longman our steward is vastly courteous indeed
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  Speaker 1: on all occasions and he said once to mrs jervis
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  Speaker 1: he wished he was a young man for my sake
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  Speaker 1: i should be his wife and he would settle all
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  Speaker 1: he had upon me on marriage and you must know
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  Speaker 1: he is reckoned worth a power of money i take
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  Speaker 1: no pride in this but bless god and your good
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  Speaker 1: examples my dear parents that i have been enabled so
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  Speaker 1: to carry myself as to have everybody's good word not
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  Speaker 1: but our cook one day who is a little snappish
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  Speaker 1: and cross sometimes said once to me why this pamela
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  Speaker 1: of ours goes as fine as a lady see what
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  Speaker 1: it is to have a fine face i wonder what
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  Speaker 1: the girl will come to at last she was hot
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  Speaker 1: with her work and i sneaked away for i seldom
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  Speaker 1: go down into the kitchen and i heard the butler
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  Speaker 1: say why jane nobody has your good word what has
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  Speaker 1: mrs pamela done to you i am sure she offends
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  Speaker 1: nobody and what said the peevish wench have i said
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  Speaker 1: to her fool o turn but that she was pretty
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  Speaker 1: they quarrelled afterwards i heard i was sorry for it
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  Speaker 1: but troubled myself no more about it forgive this silly
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  Speaker 1: prattle from your dutiful daughter oh i forgot to say
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  Speaker 1: that i would stay to finish the waistcoat if i
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  Speaker 1: might with safety mrs jervis tells me i certainly may
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  Speaker 1: i never did a prettier piece of work and i
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  Speaker 1: am up early and late to get it over for
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  Speaker 1: i long to be with you letter twenty dear father
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  Speaker 1: and mother i did not send my last letters so
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  Speaker 1: soon as i hoped because john whether my master mistrusts
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  Speaker 1: or no i can't say had been sent to lady
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  Speaker 1: davers's instead of isaac who used to go and i
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  Speaker 1: could not be so free with nor so well trust
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  Speaker 1: isaac though he is very civil to me too so
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  Speaker 1: i was forced to stay till john returned as i
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  Speaker 1: may not have opportunity to send again soon and yet
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  Speaker 1: as i know you keep my letters and read them
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  Speaker 1: over and over so john told me when you have
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  Speaker 1: done work so much does your kindness make you love
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  Speaker 1: all that comes from your poor daughter and as it
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  Speaker 1: may be some little pleasure to me perhaps to read
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  Speaker 1: them myself when i am come to you to remind
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  Speaker 1: me of what i have gone through and how great
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  Speaker 1: god's goodness has been to me which i hope will
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  Speaker 1: further strengthen my good resolutions that i may not hereafter
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  Speaker 1: from my bad conduct have reason to condemn myself from
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  Speaker 1: my own hand as it were for all these reasons
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  Speaker 1: i say i will write as i have time and
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  Speaker 1: as matters happen and send the scribble to you as
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  Speaker 1: i have opportunity and if i don't every time inform
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  Speaker 1: subscribe as i ought i am sure you will always
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  Speaker 1: believe that it is not for want of duty so
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  Speaker 1: i will begin where i left off about the talk
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  Speaker 1: between mrs jervis and me for me to ask to
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  Speaker 1: stay unknown to mrs jervis i put a project as
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  Speaker 1: i may call it in practice i thought with myself
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  Speaker 1: some days ago here i shall go home to my
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  Speaker 1: poor father and mother and have nothing on my back
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  Speaker 1: that will be fit for my condition for how should
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  Speaker 1: your poor daughter look with a silk night-gown silken petticoats
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  Speaker 1: cambric head-clothes fine holland linen laced shoes that were my
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  Speaker 1: lady's and fine stockings and how in a little while
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  Speaker 1: must these have looked like old castoffs indeed and i
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  Speaker 1: looked so for wearing them and people would have said
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  Speaker 1: for poor folks are envious as well as rich see
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  Speaker 1: there goody andrews's daughter turned home from her fine place
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  Speaker 1: what a tawdry figure she makes and how well that
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  Speaker 1: garb becomes her poor parents circumstances and how would they
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  Speaker 1: look upon me thought i to myself when they should
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  Speaker 1: come to be threadbare and worn out and how should
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  Speaker 1: i look even if i could purchase homespun clothes to
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  Speaker 1: dwindle into them one by one as i got them
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  Speaker 1: maybe an old silk gown and a linsey-woolsey petticoat and
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  Speaker 1: the like so thought i i had better get myself
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  Speaker 1: at once equipped in the dress that will become my
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  Speaker 1: condition and though it may look but poor to what
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  Speaker 1: i have been used to wear of late days yet
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  Speaker 1: it will serve me when i am with you for
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  Speaker 1: a good holiday and sunday suit and what by a
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  Speaker 1: blessing on my industry i may perhaps make shift to
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  Speaker 1: keep up to so as i was saying unknown to
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  Speaker 1: anybody i bought of farmer nichols's wife and daughters a
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  Speaker 1: good sad-coloured stuff of their own spinning enough to make
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  Speaker 1: me a gown and two petticoats and i made robings
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  Speaker 1: and facings of a pretty bit of printed calico i
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  Speaker 1: had by me i had a pretty good camblet quilted
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  Speaker 1: coat that i thought might do tolerably well and i
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  Speaker 1: bought two flannel undercoats not so good as my swan-skin
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  Speaker 1: and fine linen ones but what will keep me warm
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  Speaker 1: if my neighbor should get me to go out to
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  Speaker 1: help him to milk now and then as sometimes i
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  Speaker 1: used to do formerly for i am resolved to do
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  Speaker 1: all your good neighbors what kindness i can and hope
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  Speaker 1: to make myself as much beloved about you as i
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  Speaker 1: am here i got some pretty good scotch cloth and
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  Speaker 1: made me of mornings and nights when nobody saw me
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  Speaker 1: two shifts and i have enough left for two shirts
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  Speaker 1: and two shifts for you my dear father and mother
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  Speaker 1: when i come home i'll make them for you and
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  Speaker 1: desire your acceptance then i bought of a peddler two
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  Speaker 1: pretty enough round-eared caps a little straw hat and a
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  Speaker 1: pair of knit mittens turned up with white calico and
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  Speaker 1: two pair of ordinary blue worsted hose that make a
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  Speaker 1: smartish appearance with two white clocks i'll assure you and
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  Speaker 1: two yards of black riband for my shift sleeves and
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  Speaker 1: to serve as a necklace and when i had em
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  Speaker 1: all come home i went and looked upon them once
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  Speaker 1: in two hours for two days together for you must
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  Speaker 1: know though i be with mrs jervis i keep my
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  Speaker 1: own little apartment still for my clothes and nobody goes
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  Speaker 1: thither but myself you'll say i was no bad housewife
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  Speaker 1: to have saved so much money but my dear good
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  Speaker 1: lady was always giving me something i believed myself the
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  Speaker 1: more obliged to do this because as i was turned
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  Speaker 1: away for what my good master thought want of duty
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  Speaker 1: and as he expected other returns for his presents than
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  Speaker 1: i wanted to make him so i thought it was
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  Speaker 1: but just to leave his presents behind me when i
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  Speaker 1: went away for you know if i would not earn
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  Speaker 1: his wages why should i have them don't trouble yourself
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  Speaker 1: about the four guineas nor borrow to make them up
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  Speaker 1: for they were given me with some silver as i
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  Speaker 1: told you as a perquisite being what my lady had
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  Speaker 1: about her when she died and as i hope for
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  Speaker 1: no wages i am so vain as to think i
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  Speaker 1: have deserved all that money in the fourteen months since
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  Speaker 1: my lady's death for she good soul overpaid me before
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  Speaker 1: in learning and other kindnesses had she lived none of
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  Speaker 1: these things might have happened but i ought to be
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  Speaker 1: thankful tis no worse everything will turn out for the
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  Speaker 1: best that's my confidence so as i was saying i
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  Speaker 1: have provided a new and more suitable dress and i
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  Speaker 1: long to appear in it more than ever i did
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  Speaker 1: in any new clothes in my life for then i
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  Speaker 1: shall be soon after with you and at ease in
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  Speaker 1: my mind but mum here he comes i believe i
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  Speaker 1: am c letter twenty one my dear father and mother
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  Speaker 1: i was forced to break off for i feared my
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  Speaker 1: master was coming but it proved to be only mrs
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  Speaker 1: jervis she said i can't endure you should be so
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  Speaker 1: much by yourself pamela and i said i dread nothing
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  Speaker 1: so much as company for my heart was up at
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  Speaker 1: my mouth now for fear my master was coming but
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  Speaker 1: i always rejoice to see dear mrs jervis said she
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  Speaker 1: i have had a world of talk with my master
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  Speaker 1: about you i am sorry for it said i that
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  Speaker 1: i am made of so much consequence as to be
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  Speaker 1: talked of by him oh said she i must not
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  Speaker 1: tell you all but you are of more consequence to
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  Speaker 1: him than you think for or wish for said i
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  Speaker 1: for the fruits of being of consequence to him would
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  Speaker 1: make me of none to myself or any body else
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  Speaker 1: said she thou art as witty as any lady in
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  Speaker 1: the land i wonder where thou gottest it but they
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  Speaker 1: must be poor ladies with such great opportunities i am
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  Speaker 1: sure if they have no more wit than i but
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  Speaker 1: let that pass i suppose said i that i am
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  Speaker 1: of so much consequence however as to vex him if
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  Speaker 1: he be but to think he can't make a fool
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  Speaker 1: of such a one as i and that is nothing
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  Speaker 1: at all but a rebuke to the pride of his
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  Speaker 1: high condition which he did not expect and knows not
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  Speaker 1: how to put up with there is something in that
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  Speaker 1: maybe said she but indeed pamela he is very angry
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  Speaker 1: with you too and calls you twenty perverse things wonders
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  Speaker 1: at his own folly to have shown you so much
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  Speaker 1: favour as he calls it which he was first inclined
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  Speaker 1: to he says for his mother's sake and would have
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  Speaker 1: persisted to show you for your own if you was
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  Speaker 1: not your own enemy nay now i shan't love you
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  Speaker 1: mrs jervis said i you are going to persuade me
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  Speaker 1: to ask to stay though you know the hazards i
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  Speaker 1: run no said she he says you shall go for
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  Speaker 1: he thinks it won't be for his reputation to keep
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  Speaker 1: you but he wished don't speak of it for the
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  Speaker 1: world pamela that he knew a lady of birth just
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  Speaker 1: such another as yourself in person and mind and he
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  Speaker 1: would marry her to-morrow i coloured up to the ears
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  Speaker 1: at this word but said yet if i was a
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  Speaker 1: lady of birth and he would offer to be rude
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  Speaker 1: first as he has twice done to poor me i
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  Speaker 1: don't know whether i would have him for she that
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  Speaker 1: can bear an insult of that kind i should think
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  Speaker 1: not worthy to be a gentleman's wife any more than
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  Speaker 1: he would be a gentleman that would offer it nay
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  Speaker 1: now pamela said she thou carest thy notions a great
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  Speaker 1: way well dear mrs jervis said i very seriously for
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  Speaker 1: i could not help it i am more full of
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  Speaker 1: tears than ever i have only to beg of you
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  Speaker 1: as one of the best friends i have in the
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  Speaker 1: world to say nothing of my asking to stay to
• 19:10
  Speaker 1: say my master likes me when i know what end
• 19:13
  Speaker 1: he aims at is abomination to my ears and i
• 19:17
  Speaker 1: shan't think myself safe till i am at my poor
• 19:19
  Speaker 1: father's and mother's She was a little angry with me,
• 19:23
  Speaker 1: till I assured her that I had not the least
• 19:25
  Speaker 1: uneasiness on her account, but thought myself safe under her
• 19:29
  Speaker 1: protection and friendship, and so we dropped the discourse for
• 19:33
  Speaker 1: that time. I hope to have finished this ugly waistcoat
• 19:37
  Speaker 1: in two days, after which I have only some linen
• 19:40
  Speaker 1: to get up, and shall then let you know how
• 19:42
  Speaker 1: I contrive as to my passage, for the heavy rains
• 19:45
  Speaker 1: will make it sad travelling on foot, but maybe I
• 19:49
  Speaker 1: may get my play to which is ten miles of
• 19:51
  Speaker 1: the way, in Farmer Nichols's close cart, for I cannot
• 19:55
  Speaker 1: sit a horse well at all, and maybe nobody will
• 19:58
  Speaker 1: be suffered to see me on upon the way, but
• 20:01
  Speaker 1: I hope to let you know more, from, etc. Letter
• 20:04
  Speaker 1: XXII my dear father and mother all my fellow-servants have
• 20:11
  Speaker 1: now some notion that i am to go away but
• 20:14
  Speaker 1: can't imagine for what mrs jervis tells them that my
• 20:17
  Speaker 1: father and mother growing in years cannot live without me
• 20:21
  Speaker 1: and so i go home to them to help to
• 20:23
  Speaker 1: comfort their old age but they seem not to believe
• 20:27
  Speaker 1: it what they found it out by was the butler
• 20:30
  Speaker 1: heard him say to me as i passed by him
• 20:33
  Speaker 1: in the entry leading to the hall who's that pamela
• 20:37
  Speaker 1: sir said i pamela said he how long are you
• 20:41
  Speaker 1: to stay here only please your honour said i till
• 20:45
  Speaker 1: i have done the waistcoat and it is almost finished
• 20:49
  Speaker 1: you might says he very roughly indeed have finished that
• 20:53
  Speaker 1: long enough ago i should have thought indeed and please
• 20:57
  Speaker 1: your honour said i i have worked early and late
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  Speaker 1: upon it there is a great deal of work in
• 21:02
  Speaker 1: it work in it said he you mind your pen
• 21:07
  Speaker 1: more than your needle i don't want such idle sluts
• 21:10
  Speaker 1: to stay in my house he seemed startled when he
• 21:14
  Speaker 1: saw the butler as he entered the hall where mr
• 21:17
  Speaker 1: jonathan stood what do you here said he the butler
• 21:21
  Speaker 1: was as much confounded as i for never having been
• 21:24
  Speaker 1: taxed so roughly i could not help crying sadly and
• 21:28
  Speaker 1: got out of both their ways to mrs jervis and
• 21:31
  Speaker 1: told my complaint this love said she is the d
• 21:36
  Speaker 1: in how many strange shapes does it make people show
• 21:38
  Speaker 1: themselves and in some of the farthest from the hearts
• 21:43
  Speaker 1: so one and then another has been since whispering pray
• 21:47
  Speaker 1: mrs jervis are we to lose mrs pamela as they
• 21:50
  Speaker 1: always call me what has she done and she tells
• 21:54
  Speaker 1: them as above about going home to you she said
• 21:58
  Speaker 1: afterwards to me well pamela you have made our master
• 22:02
  Speaker 1: from the sweetest tempered gentleman in the world one of
• 22:04
  Speaker 1: the most peevish but you have it in your power
• 22:07
  Speaker 1: to make him as sweet-tempered as ever though i hope
• 22:10
  Speaker 1: you'll never do it on his terms this was very
• 22:14
  Speaker 1: good in mrs jervis but it intimated that she thought
• 22:17
  Speaker 1: as ill of his designs as i and as she
• 22:20
  Speaker 1: knew his mind more than i it convinced me that
• 22:23
  Speaker 1: i ought to get away as fast as i could
• 22:26
  Speaker 1: my master came in just now to speak to mrs
• 22:29
  Speaker 1: jervis about household matters having some company to dine with
• 22:32
  Speaker 1: him to-morrow and i stood up and having been crying
• 22:36
  Speaker 1: at his roughness in the entry i turned away my
• 22:39
  Speaker 1: face you may well said he turn away your cursed
• 22:43
  Speaker 1: face i wish i had never seen it mrs jervis
• 22:47
  Speaker 1: how long is she to be about this waistcoat sir
• 22:51
  Speaker 1: said i if your honour had pleased i would have
• 22:54
  Speaker 1: taken it with me and though it would be now
• 22:57
  Speaker 1: finished in a few hours i will do so still
• 23:00
  Speaker 1: and remove this hated poor pamela out of your house
• 23:03
  Speaker 1: and sight for ever mrs jervis said he not speaking
• 23:08
  Speaker 1: to me i believe this little slut has the power
• 23:10
  Speaker 1: of witchcraft if ever there was a witch for she
• 23:14
  Speaker 1: enchants all that come near her she makes even you
• 23:17
  Speaker 1: who should know better what the world is think her
• 23:20
  Speaker 1: an angel of light i offered to go away for
• 23:24
  Speaker 1: i believe he wanted me to ask to stay in
• 23:26
  Speaker 1: my place for all this his great wrath and he
• 23:30
  Speaker 1: said stay here stay here when i bid you and
• 23:34
  Speaker 1: snatched my hand i trembled and said i will i
• 23:38
  Speaker 1: will for he hurt my fingers he grasped me so
• 23:41
  Speaker 1: hard he seemed to have a mind to say something
• 23:44
  Speaker 1: to me but broke off abruptly and said begone and
• 23:48
  Speaker 1: away i tripped as fast as i could and he
• 23:51
  Speaker 1: and mrs jervis had a deal of talk as she
• 23:53
  Speaker 1: told me and among the rest he expressed himself vexed
• 23:57
  Speaker 1: to have spoken in mr jonathan's hearing now you must
• 24:01
  Speaker 1: know that mr jonathan our butler is a very grave
• 24:05
  Speaker 1: good sort of old man with his hair as white
• 24:08
  Speaker 1: as silver and an honest worthy man he is i
• 24:11
  Speaker 1: was hurrying out with a flea in my ear as
• 24:14
  Speaker 1: the saying is and going downstairs into the parlor met
• 24:17
  Speaker 1: him he took hold of my hand in a gentler
• 24:21
  Speaker 1: manner though than my master with both his and he
• 24:24
  Speaker 1: said ah sweet sweet mrs pamela what is it i
• 24:28
  Speaker 1: heard but just now i am sorry at my heart
• 24:32
  Speaker 1: but i am sure i will sooner believe anybody in
• 24:35
  Speaker 1: fault than you thank you mr jonathan said i but
• 24:39
  Speaker 1: as you value your place don't be seen speaking to
• 24:42
  Speaker 1: such a one as me i cried too and slipped
• 24:46
  Speaker 1: away as fast as i could from him for his
• 24:48
  Speaker 1: own sake lest he should be seen to pity me
• 24:52
  Speaker 1: and now i will give you an instance how much
• 24:54
  Speaker 1: i am in mr longman's esteem also i had lost
• 24:58
  Speaker 1: my pen somehow and my paper being written out i
• 25:02
  Speaker 1: stepped to mr longman's our steward's office to beg him
• 25:05
  Speaker 1: to give me a pen or two and a sheet
• 25:07
  Speaker 1: or two of paper he said ay that i will
• 25:11
  Speaker 1: my sweet maiden and gave me three pens some wafers
• 25:15
  Speaker 1: a stick of wax and twelve sheets of paper and
• 25:18
  Speaker 1: coming from his desk where he was writing he said
• 25:22
  Speaker 1: let me have a word or two with you my
• 25:23
  Speaker 1: sweet little mistress for so these two good old gentlemen
• 25:27
  Speaker 1: often call me for i believe they love me dearly
• 25:31
  Speaker 1: i hear bad news that we are going to lose
• 25:33
  Speaker 1: you i hope it is not true yes it is
• 25:37
  Speaker 1: sir said i but i was in hopes it would
• 25:40
  Speaker 1: not be known until i went away what a devil
• 25:44
  Speaker 1: he said ails our master of late i never saw
• 25:47
  Speaker 1: such an alteration in any man in my life he
• 25:50
  Speaker 1: is pleased with nobody as i see and by what
• 25:53
  Speaker 1: mr jonathan tells me just now he was quite out
• 25:56
  Speaker 1: of the way with you what could you have done
• 25:59
  Speaker 1: to him trow only mrs jervis is a very good
• 26:02
  Speaker 1: woman or i should have feared she had been your
• 26:05
  Speaker 1: enemy no said i nothing like it mrs jervis is
• 26:10
  Speaker 1: a just good woman and next to my father and
• 26:13
  Speaker 1: mother the best friend i have in the world well
• 26:16
  Speaker 1: then said he it must be worse shall i guess
• 26:20
  Speaker 1: you are too pretty my sweet mistress and maybe too
• 26:23
  Speaker 1: virtuous ah have i not hit it no good mr
• 26:28
  Speaker 1: longman said i don't think anything amiss of my master
• 26:33
  Speaker 1: he is cross and angry with me indeed that's true
• 26:36
  Speaker 1: but i may have given occasion for it possibly and
• 26:39
  Speaker 1: because i am desirous to go to my father and
• 26:41
  Speaker 1: mother rather than stay here perhaps he may think me
• 26:45
  Speaker 1: ungrateful but you know sir said i that a father
• 26:49
  Speaker 1: and mother's comfort is the dearest thing to a good
• 26:51
  Speaker 1: child that can be sweet excellence said he this becomes
• 26:57
  Speaker 1: you but i know the world and mankind too well
• 27:00
  Speaker 1: though i must hear and see and say nothing and
• 27:04
  Speaker 1: so a blessing attend my little sweeting said he wherever
• 27:08
  Speaker 1: you go and away i went with a curtsey and
• 27:11
  Speaker 1: thanks Now this pleases me, my dear father and mother,
• 27:16
  Speaker 1: to be so beloved. How much better, by good fame
• 27:19
  Speaker 1: and integrity, is it to get every one's good word
• 27:22
  Speaker 1: but one, than, by pleasing that one, to make every
• 27:26
  Speaker 1: one else one's enemy, and be an execrable creature besides.
• 27:31
  Speaker 1: I am, etc. Letter XXIII. My dear father and mother.
• 27:38
  Speaker 1: we had a great many neighbouring gentlemen and their ladies
• 27:41
  Speaker 1: this day at dinner and my master made a fine
• 27:44
  Speaker 1: entertainment for them and isaac and mr jonathan and benjamin
• 27:49
  Speaker 1: waited at table and isaac tells mrs jervis that the
• 27:52
  Speaker 1: ladies will by and by come to see the house
• 27:55
  Speaker 1: and have the curiosity to see me for it seems
• 27:59
  Speaker 1: they said to my master when the jokes flew about
• 28:02
  Speaker 1: well mr b we understand you have a servant-maid who
• 28:06
  Speaker 1: is the greatest beauty in the county and we promise
• 28:09
  Speaker 1: ourselves to see her before we go the wench is
• 28:13
  Speaker 1: well enough said he but no such beauty as you
• 28:16
  Speaker 1: talk of i'll assure ye she was my mother's waiting-maid
• 28:20
  Speaker 1: who on her death-bed engaged me to be kind to
• 28:23
  Speaker 1: her she is young and everything is pretty that is
• 28:26
  Speaker 1: young ay ay said one of the ladies that's true
• 28:31
  Speaker 1: but if your mother had not recommended her so strongly
• 28:34
  Speaker 1: there is so much merit in beauty that i make
• 28:37
  Speaker 1: no doubt such a fine gentleman would have wanted no
• 28:39
  Speaker 1: inducement to be kind to it they all laughed at
• 28:43
  Speaker 1: my master and he it seems laughed for company but
• 28:47
  Speaker 1: said i don't know how it is but i see
• 28:50
  Speaker 1: with different eyes from other people for i have heard
• 28:53
  Speaker 1: much more talk of her prettiness than i think it
• 28:56
  Speaker 1: deserves she is well enough as i said but her
• 28:59
  Speaker 1: greatest excellence is that she is humble and courteous and
• 29:03
  Speaker 1: faithful and makes all her fellow-servants love her my housekeeper
• 29:08
  Speaker 1: in particular dotes upon her and you know ladies she
• 29:12
  Speaker 1: is a woman of discernment and as for mr longman
• 29:15
  Speaker 1: and jonathan here if they thought themselves young enough i
• 29:18
  Speaker 1: am told they would fight for her is it not
• 29:22
  Speaker 1: true jonathan troth sir said he and please your honour
• 29:27
  Speaker 1: i never knew her peer and all your honour's family
• 29:30
  Speaker 1: are of the same mind do you hear now said
• 29:34
  Speaker 1: my master' Well,' said the ladies,' we will make a
• 29:38
  Speaker 1: visit to Mrs. Jervis by and by.' and hope to
• 29:40
  Speaker 1: see this paragon i believe they are coming and will
• 29:44
  Speaker 1: tell you the rest by-and-by i wish they had come
• 29:48
  Speaker 1: and were gone why can't they make their game without
• 29:51
  Speaker 1: me well these fine ladies have been here and are
• 29:55
  Speaker 1: gone back again i would have been absent if i
• 29:58
  Speaker 1: could and did step into the closet so they saw
• 30:02
  Speaker 1: me when they came in There were four of them,
• 30:05
  Speaker 1: Lady Arthur at the great white house on the hill,
• 30:09
  Speaker 1: Lady Brooks, Lady Towers, and the other, it seems, a
• 30:12
  Speaker 1: countess of some hard name, I forget what.' So, Mrs. Jervis,'
• 30:17
  Speaker 1: says one of the ladies,' how do you do? We
• 30:20
  Speaker 1: are all come to inquire after your health.'' I am
• 30:24
  Speaker 1: much obliged to your ladyships,' said Mrs. Jervis.' Will your
• 30:27
  Speaker 1: ladyships please to sit down?' but said the countess we
• 30:32
  Speaker 1: are not only come to ask after mrs jervis's health
• 30:35
  Speaker 1: neither but we are come to see a rarity besides
• 30:39
  Speaker 1: ah says lady arthur i have not seen your pamela
• 30:42
  Speaker 1: these two years and they tell me she has grown
• 30:45
  Speaker 1: wondrous pretty in that time then i wished i had
• 30:49
  Speaker 1: not been in the closet for when i came out
• 30:51
  Speaker 1: they must needs know i heard them but i have
• 30:54
  Speaker 1: often found that bashful bodies owe themselves a spite and
• 30:58
  Speaker 1: frequently confound themselves more by endeavouring to avoid confusion why
• 31:04
  Speaker 1: yes says mrs jervis pamela is very pretty indeed she's
• 31:09
  Speaker 1: but in the closet there pamela pray step hither i
• 31:13
  Speaker 1: came out all covered with blushes and they smiled at
• 31:15
  Speaker 1: one another the countess took me by the hand why
• 31:20
  Speaker 1: indeed she was pleased to say report has not been
• 31:23
  Speaker 1: too lavish i'll assure you don't be ashamed child and
• 31:27
  Speaker 1: stared full in my face i wish i had just
• 31:30
  Speaker 1: such a face to be ashamed of oh how like
• 31:33
  Speaker 1: a fool i looked lady arthur said ay my good
• 31:37
  Speaker 1: pamela i say as your ladyship does don't be so
• 31:41
  Speaker 1: confused though indeed it becomes you too i think your
• 31:45
  Speaker 1: good lady departed made a sweet choice of such a
• 31:48
  Speaker 1: pretty attendant she would have been mighty proud of you
• 31:51
  Speaker 1: as she was always praising you had she lived till
• 31:54
  Speaker 1: now ah madam said lady brookes do you think that
• 31:59
  Speaker 1: so dutiful a son as our neighbour who always admired
• 32:02
  Speaker 1: what his mother loved does not pride himself for all
• 32:05
  Speaker 1: that he set at table in such a pretty maiden
• 32:09
  Speaker 1: she looked with such a malicious sneering countenance i can't
• 32:12
  Speaker 1: abide her lady towers said with a free air for
• 32:16
  Speaker 1: it seems she is called a wit well mrs pamela
• 32:20
  Speaker 1: i can't say i like you so well as these
• 32:22
  Speaker 1: ladies do for i should never care if you were
• 32:25
  Speaker 1: my servant to have you and your master in the
• 32:27
  Speaker 1: same house together then they all set up a great
• 32:30
  Speaker 1: laugh i know what i could have said if i
• 32:34
  Speaker 1: durst but they are ladies and ladies may say anything
• 32:39
  Speaker 1: says lady towers can the pretty image speak mrs jervis
• 32:43
  Speaker 1: i vow she has speaking eyes oh you little rogue
• 32:47
  Speaker 1: said she and tapped me on the cheek you seem
• 32:50
  Speaker 1: born to undo or to be undone god forbid and
• 32:54
  Speaker 1: please your ladyship said i it should be either i
• 32:58
  Speaker 1: beg said i to withdraw for the sense i have
• 33:02
  Speaker 1: of my unworthiness renders me unfit for such a presence
• 33:06
  Speaker 1: i then went away with one of my best courtesies
• 33:09
  Speaker 1: and lady towers said as i went out prettily said
• 33:12
  Speaker 1: i vow and lady brookes said see that shape i
• 33:16
  Speaker 1: never saw such a face and shape in my life
• 33:19
  Speaker 1: why she must be better descended than you have told
• 33:22
  Speaker 1: me and so they run on for half an hour
• 33:25
  Speaker 1: more in my praises as i was told and glad
• 33:29
  Speaker 1: was i when i got out of the hearing of
• 33:30
  Speaker 1: them but it seems they went down with such a
• 33:34
  Speaker 1: story to my master and so full of me that
• 33:37
  Speaker 1: he had much ado to stand it but as it
• 33:39
  Speaker 1: was very little to my reputation i am sure i
• 33:42
  Speaker 1: could take no pride in it and i feared it
• 33:45
  Speaker 1: would make no better for me this gives me another
• 33:48
  Speaker 1: cause for wishing myself out of this house This is
• 33:52
  Speaker 1: Thursday morning, and next Thursday I hope to set out,
• 33:56
  Speaker 1: for I have finished my task, and my master is
• 33:58
  Speaker 1: horrid cross, and I am vexed his crossness affects me so.
• 34:03
  Speaker 1: If ever he had any kindness towards me, I believe
• 34:06
  Speaker 1: he now hates me heartily. Is it not strange that
• 34:10
  Speaker 1: love borders so much upon hate? But this wicked love
• 34:14
  Speaker 1: is not like the true virtuous love, to be sure.
• 34:17
  Speaker 1: that and hatred must be as far off as light
• 34:20
  Speaker 1: and darkness and how must this hate have been increased
• 34:24
  Speaker 1: if he had met with such a base compliance after
• 34:27
  Speaker 1: his wicked will had been gratified well one may see
• 34:31
  Speaker 1: by little what a great deal means for if innocence
• 34:35
  Speaker 1: cannot attract common civility what must guilt expect when novelty
• 34:39
  Speaker 1: has ceased to have its charms and changeableness has taken
• 34:43
  Speaker 1: place of it thus we read in holy writ that
• 34:46
  Speaker 1: wicked amnon when he had ruined poor tamar hated her
• 34:50
  Speaker 1: more than he ever loved her and would have turned
• 34:53
  Speaker 1: her out of door how happy am i to be
• 34:56
  Speaker 1: turned out of door with that sweet companion my innocence
• 35:00
  Speaker 1: oh may that be always my companion and while i
• 35:04
  Speaker 1: presume not upon my own strength and am willing to
• 35:07
  Speaker 1: avoid the tempter i hope the divine grace will assist
• 35:10
  Speaker 1: me forgive me that i repeat in my letter part
• 35:14
  Speaker 1: of my hourly prayer i owe everything next to god's
• 35:17
  Speaker 1: goodness to your piety and good examples my dear parents
• 35:21
  Speaker 1: my poor dear parents i say that word with pleasure
• 35:25
  Speaker 1: for your poverty is my pride as your integrity shall
• 35:29
  Speaker 1: be my imitation as soon as i have dined i
• 35:33
  Speaker 1: will put on my new clothes i long to have
• 35:35
  Speaker 1: them on i know i shall surprise mrs jervis with
• 35:39
  Speaker 1: them for she shan't see me till i am full
• 35:41
  Speaker 1: dressed john has come back and i'll soon send you
• 35:45
  Speaker 1: some of what i have written i find he is
• 35:47
  Speaker 1: going early in the morning and so i shall close
• 35:50
  Speaker 1: here that i am your most dutiful daughter Don't lose
• 35:54
  Speaker 1: your time in meeting me, because I am so uncertain.
• 35:58
  Speaker 1: It is hard if, somehow or other, I can't get
• 36:01
  Speaker 1: passage to you. But maybe my master won't refuse to
• 36:05
  Speaker 1: let John bring me. I can ride behind him, I believe,
• 36:08
  Speaker 1: well enough, for he is very careful and very honest.
• 36:13
  Speaker 1: And you know John as well as I, for he
• 36:15
  Speaker 1: loves you both. Besides, maybe Mrs. Jervis can put me
• 36:19
  Speaker 1: in some way. End of Section 3