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Stop drifting. Start living on Purpose - the audiobook. The Prologue · The Daily Reset Podcast

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  SPEAKER_00: stop drifting start living on purpose by laurel quinn prologue
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  SPEAKER_00: the night everything changed I had just been made CEO the party that night was for
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  SPEAKER_00: the outgoing CEO a send-off a celebration a handover the room was full
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  SPEAKER_00: of people congratulating me on paper it was one of the best nights of my career by
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  SPEAKER_00: the end of it I couldn't walk home I want to be honest with you about the morning
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  SPEAKER_00: after because the morning after is where this book really begins I woke up with
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  SPEAKER_00: the fear
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  SPEAKER_00: not a hangover i knew hangovers this was different this was the cold specific fear
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  SPEAKER_00: of a woman who had just been handed the top job and could not account for the end
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  SPEAKER_00: of her own evening and here's the thing i was not naive i had read
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  SPEAKER_00: the books i had listened to hundreds of hours of podcasts about habits and health
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  SPEAKER_00: and high performance i could have given you a talk on any of it none
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  SPEAKER_00: of it had changed how i actually lived
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  SPEAKER_00: i had a life coach at the time she had 15 years of sobriety behind her
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  SPEAKER_00: when i told her what had happened she didn't lecture me she didn't reassure me
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  SPEAKER_00: either she said you need to get to a meeting i called a helpline that day i sat
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  SPEAKER_00: in my first 12-step meeting the following day that decision changed my life just not
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  SPEAKER_00: in the way i expected because here's what i discovered slowly in the years
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  SPEAKER_00: that followed alcohol was one of the ways i escaped myself it was never
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  SPEAKER_00: the only one my dad died when i was 15
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  SPEAKER_00: i didn't have the words for grief back then so i found other ways to feel okay ways
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  SPEAKER_00: to feel confident ways to feel enough and somewhere
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  SPEAKER_00: in those years i developed what i've come to call
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  SPEAKER_00: a more problem more excitement more achievements more shopping more success more
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  SPEAKER_00: every one of them made the same promise the next one will do it
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  SPEAKER_00: the next accomplishment the next purchase the next promotion the next company
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  SPEAKER_00: the next milestone
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  SPEAKER_00: that's the one
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  SPEAKER_00: that will finally make you feel complete it never did nothing you could put in do
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  SPEAKER_00: or buy could fix it it was an inside job when i got sober i thought i'd solve
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  SPEAKER_00: the problem what i'd actually done was remove the loudest escape and reveal all
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  SPEAKER_00: the quieter ones work busyness proving achieving from
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  SPEAKER_00: the outside these don't look like escapes they look like ambition they get you
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  SPEAKER_00: promoted people admire them nobody stages an intervention
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  SPEAKER_00: because you answered emails on a plane
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  SPEAKER_00: so i kept going built the career built companies won the awards said yes
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  SPEAKER_00: to everything and for years it worked right up until it didn't the rest of
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  SPEAKER_00: the stories surfaced in layers the way these things do a senior role where
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  SPEAKER_00: the strategies that had carried me for decades work harder push
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  SPEAKER_00: through stay one step ahead simply stopped working menopause quietly pulling down
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  SPEAKER_00: scaffolding i didn't know i'd built
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  SPEAKER_00: a company i loved and fought for that didn't survive and a wave of shame out
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  SPEAKER_00: of all proportion to the facts and then in my early 50s an adhd diagnosis
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  SPEAKER_00: that explained more of my life than any book i'd ever read each of these felt like
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  SPEAKER_00: a new problem each was the same problem wearing a different cloak
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  SPEAKER_00: because i had spent my whole life misdiagnosing the problem i thought
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  SPEAKER_00: the problem was other people my circumstances or being a single parent
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  SPEAKER_00: it wasn't i thought the problem was failing it wasn't i thought the problem was
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  SPEAKER_00: that i wasn't working hard enough it wasn't i thought the problem was me it wasn't
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  SPEAKER_00: the problem was that i was running on
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  SPEAKER_00: an operating system i had never consciously installed one built-in childhood wired
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  SPEAKER_00: by grief and upgraded over decades with fear perfectionism people pleasing
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  SPEAKER_00: and proving an operating system whose core belief was simple you are not enough
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  SPEAKER_00: and more will fix it
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  SPEAKER_00: it ran my career it ran my relationships it ran my weekends my spending my sleep my
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  SPEAKER_00: self-talk
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  SPEAKER_00: and i called it my personality that's what drift really is not laziness not weakness
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  SPEAKER_00: a life being quietly run by patterns you can't see
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  SPEAKER_00: while you stay busy keep achieving and tell everyone you're fine
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  SPEAKER_00: the most dangerous place to be isn't unhappy it's fine this book is
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  SPEAKER_00: the operating system i wish i'd had decades earlier it won't ask you
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  SPEAKER_00: to become someone else
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  SPEAKER_00: i spent years believing i needed to become someone else
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  SPEAKER_00: to be enough more successful more disciplined more accomplished more everything
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  SPEAKER_00: the work was never becoming more the work was coming home to myself
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  SPEAKER_00: in these chapters i'll show you the system i built to do that how to see
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  SPEAKER_00: the drift reset design a life that's actually yours and build the daily practices
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  SPEAKER_00: that hold it in place drift reset
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  SPEAKER_00: design systems alignment and i want to be clear about something
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  SPEAKER_00: before we start i am not writing this from a mountaintop i'm a work
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  SPEAKER_00: in progress i use every framework in this book myself every single day because
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  SPEAKER_00: the old patterns don't disappear they still reappear they just don't get
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  SPEAKER_00: to drive anymore your life is not created in big moments it's created in your days
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  SPEAKER_00: and your day creates your life this is the story of how i learned the hard way and
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  SPEAKER_00: the system that means you don't have to