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Diamonds are a Birthday girls best friend! · Sistas IN Sync

• 0:33
  SPEAKER_02: Hey guys, what's up?
• 0:35
  SPEAKER_02: What's up?
• 0:35
  SPEAKER_02: This is your girl, Ashley, aka Ashley Great.
• 0:38
  SPEAKER_02: Hey y'all, this is Diamond, and you are tuned in to episode 28 of Sisters in Sync.
• 0:45
  SPEAKER_02: And I want to forewarn y'all, this might be a tapping short show because we feel like I don't know.
• 0:52
  SPEAKER_02: It kind of feels like a slow news week.
• 0:53
  SPEAKER_02: It's a lot of stuff that we want to verify before we talk about.
• 0:56
  SPEAKER_02: So while this week might be short, next week probably be two and a half hours long.
• 1:00
  SPEAKER_02: You never know.
• 1:02
  SPEAKER_02: So, sister, how you feeling?
• 1:04
  SPEAKER_02: What you got coming up?
• 1:05
  SPEAKER_02: What you got going on?
• 1:07
  SPEAKER_00: Yes, it's officially, is it officially Leo season?
• 1:11
  SPEAKER_02: Today or tomorrow?
• 1:12
  SPEAKER_02: I think well, it's today.
• 1:16
  SPEAKER_02: No, tomorrow.
• 1:18
  SPEAKER_02: Hold on.
• 1:18
  SPEAKER_02: I I'm looking.
• 1:21
  SPEAKER_00: Is it?
• 1:22
  SPEAKER_00: Am I saying it correctly?
• 1:24
  SPEAKER_00: Um, but yeah, so my birthday's Saturday.
• 1:30
  SPEAKER_00: I'm so excited.
• 1:31
  SPEAKER_00: So I'm super happy.
• 1:33
  SPEAKER_00: It started today.
• 1:34
  SPEAKER_02: So Leo season, it starts today and then it concludes on August 22nd.
• 1:39
  SPEAKER_02: So yeah.
• 1:40
  SPEAKER_02: You're right.
• 1:41
  SPEAKER_00: Yay! Yes, it is Leo season.
• 1:46
  SPEAKER_00: And we are excited and we're happy.
• 1:50
  SPEAKER_00: We're outside.
• 1:51
  SPEAKER_00: And yes, my birthday's Saturday.
• 1:54
  SPEAKER_00: I turned a big 3-5, 35 years old.
• 1:58
  SPEAKER_00: And so yeah, I'm super excited.
• 2:00
  SPEAKER_00: I'm um I'm big on birthdays.
• 2:02
  SPEAKER_00: Like anybody that knows me knows that I love my birthday.
• 2:07
  SPEAKER_00: And I think that's where the Leo in me comes out, is because I normally don't have a lot of Leo traits because I am a July Leo.
• 2:17
  SPEAKER_00: I feel like August and July Leos are different as far as like want to be, yeah, want to be like center of attention.
• 2:24
  SPEAKER_00: You don't meet any strangers.
• 2:26
  SPEAKER_00: Like that's so not me.
• 2:28
  SPEAKER_00: Um, but when it comes to my birthday, it's like bitch, bow down.
• 2:34
  SPEAKER_00: It's just my birthday.
• 2:36
  SPEAKER_00: Like, yes, you better, you better text, call, sing a song, send a postcard.
• 2:44
  SPEAKER_00: You better send a messenger pigeon something.
• 2:48
  SPEAKER_00: You better let me know that you know that I know it's my birthday.
• 2:53
  SPEAKER_00: So I'm super excited.
• 2:56
  SPEAKER_00: Something, SOS, you better send something.
• 2:59
  SPEAKER_00: You need to let me know.
• 3:03
  SPEAKER_02: Girl, and be looking.
• 3:07
  SPEAKER_00: And be looking and be like, who did not post, who did not call me?
• 3:11
  SPEAKER_00: Because baby, bye.
• 3:14
  SPEAKER_02: Every time we film, Manny.
• 3:16
  SPEAKER_02: Every time.
• 3:21
  SPEAKER_00: Manny.
• 3:22
  SPEAKER_00: Oh my god.
• 3:27
  SPEAKER_00: So everybody just came back home because they were out shopping for the birthday trip.
• 3:32
  SPEAKER_00: And now he's like cutting up when everybody comes back in the house.
• 3:36
  SPEAKER_00: So annoying.
• 3:37
  SPEAKER_00: Um, like, dude, you smell everybody, you know it's the same people.
• 3:43
  SPEAKER_00: Like, none of us are different.
• 3:44
  SPEAKER_00: Why are you doing that?
• 3:46
  SPEAKER_00: Um, but yeah, so super excited about my birthday.
• 3:49
  SPEAKER_00: We are going to Florida for my birthday.
• 3:52
  SPEAKER_00: So a little impromptu trip.
• 3:55
  SPEAKER_00: I'm trying to kill two birds with one stone.
• 3:57
  SPEAKER_00: I'm trying to give the kids the summer a little vacay before school starts back, and then I'm also trying to turn up for my birthday.
• 4:04
  SPEAKER_00: So, you know, we're gonna do the little pool, beach, hang out with the kids during the day, and then mommy is gonna have a ball at night and celebrate her birthday.
• 4:17
  SPEAKER_00: I love to so yes, I'm super excited.
• 4:21
  SPEAKER_00: Um, what else is going on?
• 4:24
  SPEAKER_02: What do you think you've learned in year 34 leading into the year 35?
• 4:28
  SPEAKER_02: What's give me something I want to know?
• 4:31
  SPEAKER_02: What did Diamond learn?
• 4:33
  SPEAKER_02: What have you done?
• 4:33
  SPEAKER_00: That is a great question.
• 4:36
  SPEAKER_02: What have I learned?
• 4:38
  SPEAKER_02: What have you achieved, and what are you looking forward to?
• 4:46
  SPEAKER_00: Let's see.
• 4:48
  SPEAKER_00: What I have learned.
• 4:54
  SPEAKER_00: What I have learned.
• 4:55
  SPEAKER_00: I think I've learned that life is extremely short.
• 5:01
  SPEAKER_00: I think that's been the biggest thing in year 34.
• 5:06
  SPEAKER_00: There were a lot of family members who pass at you know my age or younger.
• 5:15
  SPEAKER_00: And so I think that's been the biggest life lesson in year 34 is life is short, and you need to be intentional every day.
• 5:27
  SPEAKER_00: Lead your life with intentions.
• 5:31
  SPEAKER_00: So that's definitely a lesson.
• 5:34
  SPEAKER_00: You said something that I achieved.
• 5:36
  SPEAKER_02: Yeah, so what's something that you've achieved in the last year?
• 5:40
  SPEAKER_00: Something that I have achieved.
• 5:42
  SPEAKER_00: I think the biggest really you can't you can think of a few.
• 5:47
  SPEAKER_00: I want to hear what you say first because I think achievement would have to be reclaiming my physical health.
• 6:00
  SPEAKER_00: I think it's really big.
• 6:02
  SPEAKER_00: Yes.
• 6:03
  SPEAKER_00: That was on my list, but yes, I have officially lost 45 pounds.
• 6:12
  SPEAKER_00: And you got amazing.
• 6:15
  SPEAKER_00: Thank you.
• 6:16
  SPEAKER_00: I have not been this small since probably my senior year of high school, going into my freshman year of college for my undergrad.
• 6:27
  SPEAKER_00: That's right, honey.
• 6:28
  SPEAKER_00: Yes.
• 6:29
  SPEAKER_00: You look good, sis.
• 6:31
  SPEAKER_00: And people are noticing.
• 6:33
  SPEAKER_00: Like I went back to work.
• 6:35
  SPEAKER_02: Even when I watched like old clips of us from I can tell a difference in your face.
• 6:41
  SPEAKER_00: I was like, oh shit, people are really noticing.
• 6:44
  SPEAKER_00: All of my clothes are falling off of me.
• 6:46
  SPEAKER_00: I really need to go shopping really bad.
• 6:49
  SPEAKER_02: Don't you love the shop?
• 6:50
  SPEAKER_02: That's amazing when you can shop or you know, your little sexy fit, something you felt weren't comfortable in.
• 6:55
  SPEAKER_02: Now you're like, ooh, can't wait.
• 6:59
  SPEAKER_00: Yay.
• 7:00
  SPEAKER_00: So I think definitely just achieving and just like being able to just maneuver, you know, like I'm sleeping different.
• 7:08
  SPEAKER_00: I'm not tossing and turning.
• 7:10
  SPEAKER_00: I'm barely using, like barely using my inhaler.
• 7:13
  SPEAKER_00: K-Ron has told me that I'm not snoring as much.
• 7:16
  SPEAKER_00: I love that.
• 7:17
  SPEAKER_00: Um, you know, so I'm able to run around the house and just do things, go up and down the steps.
• 7:25
  SPEAKER_00: I'm just like, I have more energy.
• 7:28
  SPEAKER_00: Like I just feel better.
• 7:30
  SPEAKER_00: I feel better.
• 7:31
  SPEAKER_00: Um, so that's definitely an achievement for this year.
• 7:35
  SPEAKER_00: It's just reclaiming my health back, my physical well-being.
• 7:39
  SPEAKER_00: Um, what was the other one?
• 7:42
  SPEAKER_02: Oh, what are you looking forward to in year 35?
• 7:45
  SPEAKER_00: Year 35.
• 7:48
  SPEAKER_00: Ooh.
• 7:52
  SPEAKER_00: What am I looking forward to?
• 7:56
  SPEAKER_00: I think I want to continue to prioritize my like prioritize me.
• 8:03
  SPEAKER_00: Okay.
• 8:04
  SPEAKER_00: I just like I feel like I'm carving, making sure that I'm carving out space for things that I am interested in, things that bring me joy, things that bring me peace, things that excite me.
• 8:19
  SPEAKER_00: And a lot of times when you are mom and, you know, wife and wearing all these different hats, assistant principals or a leader, all of these things, you forget you.
• 8:31
  SPEAKER_00: And so I just feel like I've been starting to reclaim that back.
• 8:37
  SPEAKER_00: And I'm excited to continue that.
• 8:39
  SPEAKER_00: I just had a conversation with my mom last night about that, and I was telling her, you know, you are the reason why I have made it a point for me to prioritize myself because I saw her for so long give up the things that made her happy and just focus on raising us, you know, and being there for us and pouring into us that she wouldn't get her hair done.
• 9:07
  SPEAKER_00: She wouldn't get her nails done.
• 9:09
  SPEAKER_00: She wouldn't, you know, do the things that excited her.
• 9:13
  SPEAKER_00: Um, and and it's sometimes it's just like the little things.
• 9:16
  SPEAKER_00: Like I enjoy, people think I'm weird, but I enjoy washing my car.
• 9:21
  SPEAKER_00: Like I enjoy leaving out the house by myself, putting on, you know, the black paradigm, riding around, listen to my podcast, go get me some coffee, and washing my car.
• 9:33
  SPEAKER_00: Like those things bring me joy, but it's time that is just to me.
• 9:38
  SPEAKER_00: I also enjoy now at night before I go to bed.
• 9:40
  SPEAKER_00: I like to pull out my coloring book.
• 9:42
  SPEAKER_00: I'm into coloring.
• 9:43
  SPEAKER_00: Like that's something that, you know, soothes my mind.
• 9:46
  SPEAKER_00: It gives me peace.
• 9:47
  SPEAKER_00: It's quiet time.
• 9:48
  SPEAKER_00: So I'm just excited to continue those things that bring me, bring me joy and happiness.
• 9:53
  SPEAKER_00: I think it in our mid to late 30s, it just feels like a lot of things are starting to, I don't know.
• 10:01
  SPEAKER_00: I feel like I'm I'm learning, yeah, I'm really learning who I am.
• 10:05
  SPEAKER_00: And I love that.
• 10:06
  SPEAKER_00: Like I've, or not it learning who I am, but I am, I know who I am.
• 10:12
  SPEAKER_00: Like I know who I am.
• 10:14
  SPEAKER_00: I'm comfortable in my skin.
• 10:17
  SPEAKER_00: And yeah, it just feels people the people that are in my life, I love them.
• 10:25
  SPEAKER_00: They love me.
• 10:26
  SPEAKER_00: I feel like I'm not trying to figure out who should be in my space, who shouldn't be in my space anymore.
• 10:31
  SPEAKER_00: I feel like I've already weeded out the fake ass people.
• 10:36
  SPEAKER_00: Um, so that's really nice.
• 10:39
  SPEAKER_00: And so, yeah, like you, I don't get an invite.
• 10:43
  SPEAKER_00: That's okay.
• 10:45
  SPEAKER_00: You know, that's alright.
• 10:46
  SPEAKER_00: I'd rather be in the house anyway.
• 10:50
  SPEAKER_00: I don't need to be in the streets.
• 10:52
  SPEAKER_00: I like lounging at home.
• 10:55
  SPEAKER_00: I also like simplicity now.
• 10:57
  SPEAKER_00: I like quiet.
• 10:59
  SPEAKER_00: I don't know.
• 11:00
  SPEAKER_00: I'm just excited, man.
• 11:01
  SPEAKER_00: I'm excited.
• 11:01
  SPEAKER_00: This just feels it feels good.
• 11:03
  SPEAKER_00: I feel good.
• 11:04
  SPEAKER_02: Well, I'm gonna rag on you because I remember May 10th of last year.
• 11:12
  SPEAKER_02: You got nominated for 40 out of 40.
• 11:15
  SPEAKER_02: I did.
• 11:16
  SPEAKER_02: You said you I remember you were just like, bro, I'm like, I'm tired of driving.
• 11:21
  SPEAKER_02: You found you the house that you liked, and you moved your whole family to Asheville.
• 11:25
  SPEAKER_02: Like you said you were gonna do things, and I feel like you were mocking shit out of your list.
• 11:29
  SPEAKER_02: You're back in school for your doctorate.
• 11:32
  SPEAKER_02: Yay.
• 11:33
  SPEAKER_02: So don't overlook the other stuff.
• 11:36
  SPEAKER_02: So I'm I'm I'm proud of you.
• 11:37
  SPEAKER_02: I am thank you.
• 11:38
  SPEAKER_02: And I truly feel like, you know, you know, that's what, and that, but see, that's what a black woman does.
• 11:45
  SPEAKER_02: That's what a sister does.
• 11:46
  SPEAKER_02: We always show up and show out, but I think the beautiful thing is you get to do it on the platform, your own platform, and you get to show other sisters like, hey, this is what we're doing.
• 11:59
  SPEAKER_02: We succeed over here, we're successful, and it all looks different for everybody.
• 12:04
  SPEAKER_02: So I'm proud of you.
• 12:06
  unknown: Thank you.
• 12:10
  SPEAKER_02: And who's to say you won't get nominated again and again and again?
• 12:12
  SPEAKER_02: Because you still got five, six, five years to get nominated.
• 12:15
  SPEAKER_02: So next time you get nominated, yeah.
• 12:18
  SPEAKER_00: And I hadn't, and I hadn't even been out here.
• 12:20
  SPEAKER_00: I had just moved out to Nashville, so that's even like wow.
• 12:24
  SPEAKER_00: Um, that's super cool.
• 12:26
  SPEAKER_00: So yeah, and then us, you know, are we just celebrated a year here on Sisters in Sync.
• 12:31
  SPEAKER_00: And so we continue to grow and thrive.
• 12:34
  SPEAKER_00: That's super amazing.
• 12:36
  SPEAKER_00: So yeah, I just have a lot.
• 12:38
  SPEAKER_00: I have a lot to be thankful and grateful for.
• 12:42
  SPEAKER_00: Um, but yeah, I appreciate that, sis.
• 12:45
  SPEAKER_01: Thank you.
• 12:46
  SPEAKER_01: Of course, of course.
• 12:48
  SPEAKER_01: Yes, how are you doing?
• 12:50
  SPEAKER_01: Ciao.
• 12:53
  SPEAKER_02: Listen, I'm just going through the motions.
• 12:56
  SPEAKER_02: Life, like I told y'all, life is life in.
• 12:59
  SPEAKER_02: But um, right now, I can't go into much detail, but what I will say is I'm unemployed at the current moment, and it fucking sucks.
• 13:10
  SPEAKER_02: Um that's I mean, y'all know how the job market is.
• 13:15
  SPEAKER_02: Y'all know how the economy is.
• 13:17
  SPEAKER_02: I'm just kind of out here floating.
• 13:19
  SPEAKER_02: I feel like I'm at 32, I'm in another.
• 13:22
  SPEAKER_02: I feel like I'm where I was when I moved from Nashville.
• 13:28
  SPEAKER_02: This is the third, no, this is the fourth time in my adult life that I pivot and I look at it like this.
• 13:36
  SPEAKER_02: I graduated from undergrad in 2016.
• 13:38
  SPEAKER_02: I did it in four years.
• 13:40
  SPEAKER_02: Then, but I stayed in Evansville another year because I got a job for my internship, worked at a news station.
• 13:47
  SPEAKER_02: Absolutely hated it.
• 13:48
  SPEAKER_02: I hated Indiana as a state.
• 13:50
  SPEAKER_02: I'm not a fan of the Midwest like that.
• 13:52
  SPEAKER_02: So I went back home.
• 13:54
  SPEAKER_02: Started my life over again.
• 13:56
  SPEAKER_02: You know, got a job that I loved, worked at a few years, and opportunity presented itself for me to move to Nashville, and I got hired at another job.
• 14:06
  SPEAKER_02: Moved to Nashville at the height of the pandemic.
• 14:09
  SPEAKER_02: That job didn't go well, but I ended up pivoting into something right again.
• 14:13
  SPEAKER_02: Did that job for some years.
• 14:15
  SPEAKER_02: I was in inventory asset management for four years.
• 14:20
  SPEAKER_02: I ended up moving back to Clarksville because my chapter in Nashville had ended.
• 14:24
  SPEAKER_02: I couldn't afford to live there by myself because my roommate um had took an amazing opportunity.
• 14:29
  SPEAKER_02: And she, you know, she was like, you know, I think I want to venture out of my own.
• 14:32
  SPEAKER_02: Understandable.
• 14:33
  SPEAKER_02: And that's my dog.
• 14:34
  SPEAKER_02: I would live with her again.
• 14:35
  SPEAKER_02: That's like through everything, that's my dog.
• 14:39
  SPEAKER_02: But, you know, so my third time, I come back home.
• 14:44
  SPEAKER_02: I established a life for myself again, got back into inventory management, and contract fell through.
• 14:51
  SPEAKER_02: And then I completely didn't want any of my life again.
• 14:54
  SPEAKER_02: I went into case management.
• 14:57
  SPEAKER_02: Did that for two years and now I I would say I feel like this is the lowest that I've been at in all of my pivots and transitions.
• 15:10
  SPEAKER_00: And is it because it wasn't it wasn't a transition that you were making on your own?
• 15:22
  SPEAKER_00: It was kind of like forced upon you.
• 15:23
  SPEAKER_00: Do you think that's what it is?
• 15:25
  SPEAKER_00: Yeah, yeah, definitely.
• 15:27
  SPEAKER_02: But even before, like when I've had contracts in, because being a contractor, that's something I was a contractor for years.
• 15:33
  SPEAKER_02: Even when I was in finance and I've been doing this contractor thing for a very long time.
• 15:38
  SPEAKER_02: So you're you always in the back of your mind, you know, but this wasn't that.
• 15:42
  SPEAKER_02: Um I would say this is definitely my first time not having a backup plan, and just you know, they s you have faith, and I do feel like eventually everything is gonna work out.
• 16:00
  SPEAKER_03: Because I won't.
• 16:02
  SPEAKER_02: But I'm very uncomfortable.
• 16:06
  SPEAKER_02: I have never been this uncomfortable, and I've heard so many fucking no's.
• 16:12
  SPEAKER_02: Like I was telling Diamond before the show started, just from January the first till now.
• 16:20
  SPEAKER_02: Well, technically January the second, because I started the next day applying.
• 16:25
  SPEAKER_02: I've applied to 44 jobs.
• 16:28
  SPEAKER_02: Um, I've already got denied from quite a few of them.
• 16:33
  SPEAKER_02: Um not even my connections that could help me get jobs, nothing is going through.
• 16:39
  SPEAKER_02: So it's just like, okay.
• 16:41
  SPEAKER_02: So in a way, it's like I'm truly a sitting duck.
• 16:45
  SPEAKER_02: And then to not have any distractions, like I'm not dating or having sex or talking to any man.
• 16:52
  SPEAKER_02: So most days I'm sitting there, my phone's empty, like, because everybody's at work.
• 16:58
  SPEAKER_02: That's that's what we do.
• 17:00
  SPEAKER_02: But it's only so much cleaning I can do.
• 17:02
  SPEAKER_02: It's only so much I I just be kind of just sitting there, like, and I don't think I realize how much work tied to your identity because it's like I'm it's even so much, so it's like I'm ashamed to even date because I don't ask from a man what I don't require myself.
• 17:19
  SPEAKER_02: People, like even people that you know and love, because I haven't let any, I haven't let everybody know I'm not working.
• 17:25
  SPEAKER_02: But it's just like to think, damn, I have to move a little bit more frivolous, or I can't do as many things because I ain't got no fucking money.
• 17:34
  SPEAKER_01: I don't got, you know.
• 17:36
  SPEAKER_02: I don't my parents do enough, so it's just like I'm not asking them.
• 17:40
  SPEAKER_02: And it's not like it's something I have to do, but it's just like I don't like not feeling like I can't move how I want.
• 17:46
  SPEAKER_02: I don't like not knowing.
• 17:48
  SPEAKER_02: I don't like, you know, because and people, and it's just a topic, I'm like, what do you do for work?
• 17:53
  SPEAKER_02: Um I don't know how to fucking answer that.
• 17:55
  SPEAKER_02: I've never not had the longest I've ever been unemployed was two, almost two months.
• 18:01
  SPEAKER_02: But that was on my own volition.
• 18:02
  SPEAKER_02: And girl, this was 2019.
• 18:06
  SPEAKER_02: So back then, you could quit a job and get hired.
• 18:09
  SPEAKER_02: And that's just how it happened.
• 18:10
  SPEAKER_02: I got hired.
• 18:11
  SPEAKER_02: Just like the first job I applied for, I remember because I wanted some time off.
• 18:15
  SPEAKER_02: I was so mentally burned out from the job I was doing.
• 18:18
  SPEAKER_02: I remember I applied for a job, got called, got hired the next week, and I started after taking some time off.
• 18:28
  SPEAKER_02: And being that I worked for a nonprofit, you know, and another thing too, this is the first time where I haven't had like the, you know, I could take my money out of 401k because I don't got that.
• 18:43
  SPEAKER_02: You know, so it's just like I'm real bear out here.
• 18:48
  SPEAKER_00: I did not even think about that because when I was let go um from that other charter school out here in Nashville, um, I was able to do the hardship request and I did drill down money from my 401k.
• 19:05
  SPEAKER_00: I didn't even think about that.
• 19:06
  SPEAKER_00: Um, I actually drilled down from that shit twice because I was out of work for six months, six very long months.
• 19:13
  SPEAKER_00: Um, I drilled down from that shit twice, and also because the unemployment was so like they was only giving me what like$200 every week or something like that.
• 19:26
  SPEAKER_00: Like that won't enough or nothing.
• 19:29
  SPEAKER_00: Like, no.
• 19:30
  SPEAKER_01: Definitely soon.
• 19:32
  SPEAKER_00: So I'm just unemployment.
• 19:35
  SPEAKER_00: That shit is a joke.
• 19:36
  SPEAKER_00: Like, unemployment is a joke.
• 19:37
  SPEAKER_00: I'm like, unemployment in Tennessee.
• 19:39
  SPEAKER_02: Unemployment in Tennessee is very horrible.
• 19:41
  SPEAKER_00: Like, yes, I was like, what am I supposed to do with this?
• 19:46
  SPEAKER_00: Like, what is this shit?
• 19:48
  SPEAKER_00: Um, so yeah, I had to drill down from my shit fucking twice.
• 19:52
  SPEAKER_00: Twice I had to take out my fucking 401k.
• 19:55
  SPEAKER_00: Just to fucking like keep my damn car note.
• 19:58
  SPEAKER_00: Like, because my car, I had to pay, I was paying my my car note, my insurance.
• 20:02
  SPEAKER_00: Like it was only so many, so much that, you know, K-Ron could, you know, float, and you know, my in-laws could float while I was out of work.
• 20:12
  SPEAKER_00: So yeah, I had to, I had to suck it up.
• 20:14
  SPEAKER_00: I didn't want to do it, but shit, I ain't had no fucking choice at that point, or I would have lost my damn car.
• 20:20
  SPEAKER_00: Um, but damn, so yeah, you can't even do that because it's a nonprofit.
• 20:24
  SPEAKER_00: They don't have that type of thing.
• 20:27
  SPEAKER_02: And to say that I applied to a gas station to serve pizza and I got denied from that because I'm overqualified.
• 20:33
  SPEAKER_02: Like, bruh, I just need money.
• 20:37
  SPEAKER_02: And it's like, you know, Clarksville has a job market is fucking ass, but I want I've been applied for job Nashville, but it's like I'm not driving to Nashville without the right price because why would I burn all my as high as gas is?
• 20:49
  SPEAKER_02: You think I've been driving to Nashville every day for 16 an hour?
• 20:52
  SPEAKER_02: I'm not doing it.
• 20:53
  SPEAKER_02: Yeah.
• 20:53
  SPEAKER_02: I have to be making the same remote of what I'm making to to even consider that making sense.
• 20:58
  SPEAKER_02: So I'm I'm really just Yeah.
• 21:05
  SPEAKER_01: Yeah.
• 21:07
  SPEAKER_01: Yeah.
• 21:10
  SPEAKER_01: But you know.
• 21:16
  SPEAKER_01: Yeah.
• 21:17
  SPEAKER_00: It's gone, it's gone.
• 21:18
  SPEAKER_00: I know you're tired of hearing it, but it it will.
• 21:20
  SPEAKER_00: It'll get better.
• 21:21
  SPEAKER_00: Something will shake.
• 21:22
  SPEAKER_00: Something will something will something will happen.
• 21:25
  SPEAKER_00: Most definitely.
• 21:27
  SPEAKER_00: Um we are about to get into like well no, that's kind of a ways off.
• 21:32
  SPEAKER_00: I was about to start to say we about to get into seasonal employment too, but you got you got a little bit longer for that, and hopefully you won't be out of work that long anyway.
• 21:41
  SPEAKER_00: Oh, I hope not.
• 21:44
  SPEAKER_02: That's way off.
• 21:45
  SPEAKER_02: Yeah.
• 21:46
  SPEAKER_02: It won't look good for me if I'm off that arm.
• 21:48
  SPEAKER_02: Like, I'm just I just want that one break to make to to get my foot in the door to grow somewhere, and to make like I wanna be making money like my peers.
• 22:00
  SPEAKER_02: Yeah.
• 22:02
  SPEAKER_02: I'm still in like I just made it and I thank God for it.
• 22:06
  SPEAKER_02: But just within the last year, I'm just making And I'm gonna be wrong about I don't give a fuck.
• 22:13
  SPEAKER_02: I'm just getting 50,000 a year.
• 22:16
  SPEAKER_02: Just getting there.
• 22:17
  SPEAKER_02: And you know, comparison is a thief enjoyable.
• 22:20
  SPEAKER_02: When you got like four or five of your homegirls, it's like, girl yeah, I make 70 or more a year.
• 22:24
  SPEAKER_02: I'm just like what I would cage is to be at 60 right about now.
• 22:30
  SPEAKER_02: So I'm really just just trying to do the self-work.
• 22:34
  SPEAKER_02: But I'm a type A.
• 22:35
  SPEAKER_02: I be liking to know shit, and I don't know anything.
• 22:40
  SPEAKER_02: I have no idea about anything.
• 22:44
  SPEAKER_01: Yeah.
• 22:45
  SPEAKER_02: No, I know.
• 22:50
  SPEAKER_01: But yeah.
• 22:52
  SPEAKER_02: But this is going to be a fairly, fairly short show because as mentioned, you know, we felt like we didn't have that much to talk about this week.
• 23:01
  SPEAKER_02: Now, next week I feel like we will, but we wanted to verify and wait for some things.
• 23:05
  SPEAKER_02: But I really want to know about these updates you have for Nolan Wells.
• 23:11
  SPEAKER_00: Yes.
• 23:12
  SPEAKER_00: Um, there are a few very strange um things from the autopsy report that is still um extremely questionable.
• 23:26
  SPEAKER_00: It's leave we're left with still so many unanswered questions.
• 23:30
  SPEAKER_00: And uh I've watched, I've watched it now twice.
• 23:33
  SPEAKER_00: I watched it while I was at work, and I watched it when I got home on YouTube.
• 23:41
  SPEAKER_00: And so there was a press conference today.
• 23:45
  SPEAKER_00: Attorney Benjamin Crump and the family went ahead and you know discussed the second autopsy.
• 23:53
  SPEAKER_00: So we're talking about the private autopsy that was paid for, financed by um Colin Kaepernick.
• 24:02
  SPEAKER_00: And this was a uh autopsy that was done in Washington.
• 24:07
  SPEAKER_00: So two, you have to remember, two autopsies have been done.
• 24:11
  SPEAKER_00: The one that has been done in Mississippi, that we still do not have uh all of the information or any information from that one just yet.
• 24:20
  SPEAKER_00: And I have an update about that.
• 24:22
  SPEAKER_00: Okay, and then the private autopsy from today that we do have information on.
• 24:28
  SPEAKER_00: Uh, one of the things I have a list of it right here, so I'm just gonna read it off.
• 24:34
  SPEAKER_00: So this would be considered the second preliminary autopsy findings of Nolan Xavier Wills.
• 24:42
  SPEAKER_00: So, first of all, the cause of death is still undermined and pending further investigation.
• 24:49
  SPEAKER_00: Um, the manner of death is still undetermined.
• 24:54
  SPEAKER_00: Uh, there was found a red discoloration uh was observed on the back of Nolan Will's head.
• 25:03
  SPEAKER_00: So some type of red discoloration across the occipital bone.
• 25:09
  SPEAKER_00: Occipitable bone?
• 25:11
  SPEAKER_00: Something like that.
• 25:11
  SPEAKER_00: I can't.
• 25:12
  SPEAKER_00: Oh, that's a cut.
• 25:12
  SPEAKER_02: That probably like a laceration or something.
• 25:15
  SPEAKER_00: Yes.
• 25:15
  SPEAKER_00: So there was um that discoloration that was found that needs to undergo further testing to determine was there in fact any blunt force trauma.
• 25:28
  SPEAKER_00: The um, it is also said the independent pathologist reportedly could not fully evaluate possible neck or throat trauma because the throat structures had been removed during the first state autopsy in Mississippi.
• 25:46
  SPEAKER_00: So when the body was received, because I made sure to listen to this twice because I was not, I just wasn't understanding.
• 25:54
  SPEAKER_00: So when the body was received by the second autopsy investigator or autopsy, what are they called?
• 26:02
  SPEAKER_00: Like doctor?
• 26:03
  SPEAKER_02: Like a like a medical examiner?
• 26:05
  SPEAKER_00: Okay, yes.
• 26:06
  SPEAKER_00: So when the body was received, the throat and neck structures were not with the body.
• 26:15
  SPEAKER_00: So are you are you talking about like organs?
• 26:18
  SPEAKER_00: Yes.
• 26:19
  SPEAKER_00: This throat and neck structure were not with the rest of the body.
• 26:23
  SPEAKER_00: What type of shit is that?
• 26:25
  SPEAKER_00: Now, here is what the autopsy examiner, the second autopsy examiner says in his report, and Benjamin Crump read this fully.
• 26:34
  SPEAKER_00: He said that this is not, this is something that can happen.
• 26:41
  SPEAKER_00: Like this is not not normal.
• 26:43
  SPEAKER_00: Like this can take place when an autopsy examiner feels like they need to continue to do more research or continue to do more um uh investigative work on a specific part of the body.
• 27:00
  SPEAKER_00: So he says that this is not uncommon.
• 27:02
  SPEAKER_00: That's the word that I'm looking for.
• 27:04
  SPEAKER_00: This can happen.
• 27:06
  SPEAKER_00: However, he has not the first autopsy examiner has not released anything.
• 27:15
  SPEAKER_00: So the first autopsy examiner has not said, hey, the the first autopsy examiner didn't say, hey, um, I'm keeping the throat in the neck because of this.
• 27:42
  SPEAKER_00: No type of reasoning, explanation, nothing.
• 27:51
  SPEAKER_00: Okay, so that uh second um autopsy examiner did not have it, so therefore, we don't know.
• 28:02
  SPEAKER_00: We don't know if there was blunt force trauma, we don't know if there were lacerations on the neck and throat.
• 28:08
  SPEAKER_00: We don't know.
• 28:11
  SPEAKER_00: Okay, um, toxicology.
• 28:14
  SPEAKER_00: This is the last one here.
• 28:16
  SPEAKER_00: Toxicology and other investigative information are still outstanding.
• 28:22
  SPEAKER_00: So we do not have a toxicology report of what was in his in his body.
• 28:28
  SPEAKER_00: Like we don't know if there were drugs or like poisoning or um excessive amounts of you know alcohol.
• 28:39
  SPEAKER_00: We don't have any of that.
• 28:45
  SPEAKER_00: There was also mentioning of the lungs, like the the the uh was he in fact, were his lungs in fact filled with water.
• 28:57
  SPEAKER_00: We don't have any of that yet.
• 29:00
  SPEAKER_02: Um and but she ruled it, wasn't it ruled or drowning though?
• 29:05
  SPEAKER_02: So do you just you just name a shit off to name it at this point?
• 29:09
  SPEAKER_02: It's given that his body was used as a sacrificial land for organs.
• 29:15
  SPEAKER_00: Mm-hmm.
• 29:17
  SPEAKER_00: So there are just so many things.
• 29:20
  SPEAKER_00: Benjamin, attorney Benjamin Crump also said that uh, you know, things were discussed.
• 29:25
  SPEAKER_00: One, you know, there was a person that was out there who said that his body was found face down when he was first found.
• 29:33
  SPEAKER_00: Um but it's just like there's no like, okay, for instance, where is okay, you know when you stumble, we all didn't seen first 48.
• 29:44
  SPEAKER_00: We all have seen, you know, because of these crime shows and stuff, uh, we've all seen like the the examiner's report of like when they come up on a crime scene of the body being, you know, face up and were there like something, yes, the uh forensic and stuff.
• 30:06
  SPEAKER_00: Where is all of that?
• 30:08
  SPEAKER_02: Because it didn't happen.
• 30:13
  SPEAKER_02: It didn't happen.
• 30:16
  SPEAKER_00: There is nothing, I have never seen anything like this in all of my life.
• 30:22
  SPEAKER_00: And I've now let me tell you, I will say this.
• 30:24
  SPEAKER_00: I've seen this, you know.
• 30:27
  SPEAKER_00: If we talk about my birthday twin, who I celebrate his birthday every year because we share the same birthday.
• 30:33
  SPEAKER_00: So just like on Saturday, I will celebrate him.
• 30:36
  SPEAKER_00: That's my birthday twin, Emmett Till.
• 30:39
  SPEAKER_00: You know, now of course back then we would say, you know, that was in what what year was that?
• 30:48
  SPEAKER_00: 19 Lord, I don't know.
• 30:51
  SPEAKER_00: Six no fifty, sixties.
• 30:53
  SPEAKER_02: Um I can't remember right now.
• 30:57
  SPEAKER_00: I'm gonna tell you.
• 31:01
  SPEAKER_00: He was 1955.
• 31:04
  SPEAKER_00: Okay, so we're talking about 1955 and 2026.
• 31:08
  SPEAKER_00: So yeah, you can say in 1955 documents and you know, technology and all that type of shit.
• 31:14
  SPEAKER_00: We don't have those reports.
• 31:15
  SPEAKER_00: It's 2026.
• 31:16
  SPEAKER_00: Where the fuck is the damn investigative reports?
• 31:19
  SPEAKER_00: The shit, I mean, you literally have people who walk up on crime scenes, and that is their job to take pictures, they are making notations and marking shit up on the scene.
• 31:33
  SPEAKER_00: All we have from what Nolan Xavier Wells' mother said was an hour after his he was found, she heard the the sheriff in that county say, Oh, ain't no foul play.
• 31:52
  SPEAKER_00: Accident or accidental drowning.
• 31:54
  SPEAKER_00: And she's like, Yeah, and she's like, whoa, whoa, whoa, wait, wait, wait.
• 32:01
  SPEAKER_00: What you mean?
• 32:02
  SPEAKER_00: Because this is also someone who could swim.
• 32:07
  SPEAKER_00: This is someone who could swim, who was very physically capable, active.
• 32:13
  SPEAKER_00: So what are we?
• 32:14
  SPEAKER_00: It's just not adding up.
• 32:16
  SPEAKER_00: And I continue to go back to if this in fact were was, you know, a uh um an accident or something like that, I still don't understand how these so-called friends of Nolan's would keep this boy's phone and not the first thing I can if some shit went down like that.
• 32:40
  SPEAKER_00: First of all, I'm not gonna leave my friend.
• 32:42
  SPEAKER_00: But the first thing I can think of is you didn't come back and I got your shit.
• 32:47
  SPEAKER_00: I'm gonna call your mama.
• 32:48
  SPEAKER_00: Look, Miss So-and-so, I can't find, I can't find him.
• 32:53
  SPEAKER_00: I got his phone.
• 32:54
  SPEAKER_00: Like, where is that?
• 32:55
  SPEAKER_02: Why did they have to come to the house and get the phone from you?
• 32:59
  SPEAKER_02: And then y'all act like y'all didn't want to give it to his daddy.
• 33:02
  SPEAKER_02: But the thing is that the shit was truly an accident.
• 33:05
  SPEAKER_02: Y'all would have been calling the paramex and the police officer on site.
• 33:11
  SPEAKER_02: I want to read you something.
• 33:13
  SPEAKER_02: So I got this from Revolutionary News 314.
• 33:17
  SPEAKER_02: Stacey Turner, who is the chief medical examiner in Mississippi, needs to be investigated in every case she has ruled accidental, undetermined, or suicide involving black people, needs to be re-examined immediately.
• 33:29
  SPEAKER_02: Trey Reed was found hanging at Delta State College campus.
• 33:34
  SPEAKER_02: She ruled his death he okay.
• 33:37
  SPEAKER_02: Start over.
• 33:38
  SPEAKER_02: Trey Reed, I remember this case, was found hanging at Delta State College campus.
• 33:43
  SPEAKER_02: She ruled his death a suicide, but an independent investigation ruled it homicide after discovering blunt force trauma and bruising all over his body.
• 33:53
  SPEAKER_02: She ruled Nolan Wells' death a drowning almost immediately.
• 33:56
  SPEAKER_02: Like you said, it was an hour after receiving his body.
• 34:00
  SPEAKER_02: The Wells family has since requested an independent investigation, which I thank God for people like Colin Kaepernick to use his money and his celebrity for the right reasons.
• 34:10
  SPEAKER_02: She ruled Damian Cameron's death undetermined after a deadly confrontation with law enforcement left him with eternal neck bleeding.
• 34:19
  SPEAKER_02: Shannon Wilson was embalmed without his family's permission, destroying evidence that could have proven that he was fucking murdered.
• 34:27
  SPEAKER_02: When I make posts about institutional racism, this is a shiny reminder of what it looks like.
• 34:32
  SPEAKER_02: They call us racist for exposing their racism, but think about the family.
• 34:36
  SPEAKER_02: And this is why, this is why we say systemic racism is a thing.
• 34:40
  SPEAKER_02: There's no fucking way you're not telling me, especially.
• 34:46
  SPEAKER_02: I'm talking fast, I'm getting passionate, but two of two of Nolan Wells' friends, one of the mothers is a judge, the other mother is a fucking lawyer.
• 34:56
  SPEAKER_02: So you're not finna tell me that them plus EMT, the medical examiner, all of them motherfucking racists and YFOs are not in cahoots together.
• 35:04
  SPEAKER_02: You're not gonna tell me that.
• 35:06
  SPEAKER_02: I was born at night and I wasn't born last fucking night.
• 35:10
  SPEAKER_02: You're not going to tell me that.
• 35:11
  SPEAKER_02: So systemically, it's looking like it's a bunch of white people that got away with murder in the state of Mississippi and all throughout the South.
• 35:18
  SPEAKER_02: Just all over the all throughout the country.
• 35:20
  SPEAKER_02: But and particularly, we're talking about Mississippi in this case.
• 35:23
  SPEAKER_02: Even when this happened and she ruled in an accident, I thought about Kendra Johnson.
• 35:29
  SPEAKER_02: The little black boy who was rolled up in the gym at, they're gonna say, oh, it was a suicide.
• 35:32
  SPEAKER_02: How the fuck somebody rolled, killed themselves and rolls themselves up in the gym at?
• 35:36
  SPEAKER_02: That doesn't make cat sense.
• 35:40
  SPEAKER_02: Even with Tamela Hartsford in the state of Georgia as well.
• 35:43
  SPEAKER_02: I think it was foresight.
• 35:45
  SPEAKER_02: Yep.
• 35:45
  SPEAKER_02: How somebody she knows it was an accident.
• 35:48
  SPEAKER_02: She was, you know, she fell off the balcony, but she had blood force trauma to the head, naked scratches all over her body.
• 35:54
  SPEAKER_01: Yep.
• 35:56
  SPEAKER_02: So when it comes to us, we don't get proper investigations.
• 36:02
  SPEAKER_00: And I think, and that's that's that's what has been so just watching these press conferences, listening to Nolan's parents, listening to attorney uh Benjamin Crump, I think, you know, the push for equal justice, equal, you know, just fairness across the board.
• 36:28
  SPEAKER_00: And, you know, attorney Benjamin Crump continues to say, and I appreciate him saying it, like, if the roles had been reversed, if this was different, you know, there is no way that three black men, three black young men, 18-year-old boys, would have just been able to walk away from this and not have been questioned at all.
• 36:55
  SPEAKER_02: Them boys would have, by the end of that week, they would have got the death penalty or been on death row.
• 36:59
  SPEAKER_02: One, but two, that would have never happened because if it's been so many races of people, even when you think about the one Asian friend that a black group of people have, or the one white friend, we bring our people back safe.
• 37:11
  SPEAKER_02: You leave together, you come together.
• 37:14
  SPEAKER_02: That shit don't happen.
• 37:15
  SPEAKER_02: Even amongst all black friend groups, that has never fucking happened.
• 37:19
  SPEAKER_02: Well, outside of Shankula Robson, but that was the whole, that her friend group was just fine.
• 37:22
  SPEAKER_02: Now you have five people in every race, you have five friend groups in every race, but this is a pattern, and this is what I don't understand about white people and just how they love to play mind games.
• 37:33
  SPEAKER_02: Like, oh, I have black fatigue, they make everything black.
• 37:37
  SPEAKER_02: This is a 200, well, no.
• 37:40
  SPEAKER_02: This is an over 400-year pattern that we've had with y'all.
• 37:43
  SPEAKER_02: Since we were over here, shit like this has been happening.
• 37:45
  SPEAKER_02: So why wouldn't black people be perceptive to the pattern?
• 37:48
  SPEAKER_02: Yeah.
• 37:49
  SPEAKER_02: Why?
• 37:50
  SPEAKER_02: And again, had there been three black boys and a one white dude and one white boy, nine out of ten, this incident would have never happened because that white boy would have came then safe.
• 37:59
  SPEAKER_02: Why do you think most women of other races tell their fucking children, if you get lost, find a black woman because they know, especially white people, that they're not safe for each other or around them kids.
• 38:12
  SPEAKER_02: And I haven't had just heard that from one Asian, it went viral from Indian dude.
• 38:18
  SPEAKER_02: And let's be clear, anti-blackness is everywhere.
• 38:22
  SPEAKER_02: Don't be a black American.
• 38:24
  SPEAKER_02: We are on the island of our own.
• 38:26
  SPEAKER_02: Most of the people in diaspora don't even fuck with us.
• 38:28
  SPEAKER_02: So let's be real clear.
• 38:30
  SPEAKER_02: When we, when our the message we give our children is, hey, you just gotta feel for yourself.
• 38:36
  SPEAKER_02: And if something goes wrong, you need to go through 10,000 lists of things before you can even be considered to be innocent.
• 38:44
  SPEAKER_02: But even when shit's on tape, it's not equal.
• 38:46
  SPEAKER_02: It's we don't have that luxury with anybody else.
• 38:50
  SPEAKER_02: It's incidents here and there, but those are luminous.
• 38:54
  SPEAKER_02: That's not normal.
• 38:55
  SPEAKER_02: So if my child was to get lost, to get hurt, I would, hey, you better look find somebody who looks like you.
• 39:03
  SPEAKER_02: Everybody else in the world can depend on our humanity.
• 39:08
  SPEAKER_02: So again, I say, if there had been three black teenage boys and a white teenage boy, this incident wouldn't ever fucking happen.
• 39:16
  SPEAKER_02: Nine times out of ten.
• 39:18
  SPEAKER_02: But you're not gonna tell me that this shit happened on 4th of July day on the fucking lake.
• 39:24
  SPEAKER_02: And this shit was it's something about this that just gives sacrificial lamb or harvesting organs, but that's just me.
• 39:32
  SPEAKER_00: Yeah.
• 39:34
  SPEAKER_00: Um, I think what else has been mind-blowing and eye-opening also is the other stories that have surfaced because of this.
• 39:44
  SPEAKER_00: Um, Nolan Wells is getting a lot of um, you know, uh media attention, and I'm grateful for that.
• 39:53
  SPEAKER_00: However, there are other cases.
• 39:58
  SPEAKER_00: Yes, yes, yes.
• 40:00
  SPEAKER_00: Two of them today, attorney uh Benjamin Crump mentioned during the press conference about the autopsy.
• 40:07
  SPEAKER_00: One in particular, I had not heard at all, and I'm wondering, Ashley, if you could find this one right now.
• 40:13
  SPEAKER_00: But it's one uh where there was a get together, and it was a black male.
• 40:21
  SPEAKER_00: He's the only one there.
• 40:23
  SPEAKER_00: He almost got decapitated.
• 40:26
  SPEAKER_00: No, this this this guy got shot.
• 40:29
  SPEAKER_00: Shot in the head.
• 40:31
  SPEAKER_00: And they said that they were playing Russian roulette with a gun, and it was an accident.
• 40:37
  SPEAKER_00: However, he was the only black person there, and everybody else was white.
• 40:42
  SPEAKER_02: Girl, it's another, it's another case.
• 40:45
  SPEAKER_02: This white dude had he was a business owner, he had his own tent set up at like some type of venue thing, and he got targeted in the beat up so damn bad.
• 40:53
  SPEAKER_02: His he got damn, they said he got almost 200 stitches around his neck because they tried to decapitate his head from his fucking body.
• 41:00
  SPEAKER_02: I saw that his next I saw that.
• 41:03
  SPEAKER_00: I'm just like, y'all are.
• 41:06
  SPEAKER_00: Wasn't he like uh he wasn't black, was he like Spanish?
• 41:12
  SPEAKER_00: No, this was a black dude.
• 41:13
  SPEAKER_00: Okay, okay, Spanish guy.
• 41:16
  SPEAKER_02: She went to Miami uh vacation or to watch the game.
• 41:21
  SPEAKER_02: She ain't been seen since.
• 41:23
  SPEAKER_02: They're not talking about her on the news or nothing.
• 41:26
  SPEAKER_00: Um, the guy who went fishing or something with the two white guys, and he her now.
• 41:34
  SPEAKER_02: I saw that.
• 41:36
  SPEAKER_02: So it's just, it's just uh at this point, like I said, um it's been a lot of other black people that's been saying this as well.
• 41:46
  SPEAKER_02: Like at this point, we're just getting hunted, and it's it's it's really just it's bad out here.
• 41:54
  SPEAKER_02: It's it's bad out here.
• 41:58
  SPEAKER_00: Yeah.
• 41:59
  SPEAKER_00: It's just happening, it's happening too often.
• 42:01
  SPEAKER_00: It's back to back.
• 42:02
  SPEAKER_00: A lot of shit is being covered up, and I just um I'm just disgusted.
• 42:11
  SPEAKER_00: I'm just very disgusted.
• 42:13
  SPEAKER_00: The grief, the amount of grief and pain, and just, and I think it hits even harder, especially now that I'm a parent.
• 42:21
  SPEAKER_00: I think that is what brings me even more, just I'm just so I just can't imagine.
• 42:29
  SPEAKER_00: I can't imagine standing up there like how Nolan Xavier Wells' parents are, and then all these countless other parents.
• 42:36
  SPEAKER_00: I just can't imagine.
• 42:38
  SPEAKER_00: I know for certain uh that I would not be able to be standing upright right now and being at these press conferences and shit.
• 42:46
  SPEAKER_00: I know that.
• 42:48
  SPEAKER_00: Um I I just can't, I can't even imagine.
• 42:51
  SPEAKER_00: I just can't imagine what's going through there and what's weighing on their heart.
• 42:54
  SPEAKER_00: And like I said, I think it hits home so much more now because I'm a parent myself, and then I'm a parent of a special needs child, and then I'm also a parent of a black boy, and so I think that is kind of like where I am right now, and I see these, like I look at Nolan, and I remember when I watched a Kendrick Johnson documentary, and they called him KJ, and my son's name is KJ, and I'm just like, Jesus Christ, like that could be that could be me, that could be my kids, and so I'm just like it's just a lot, man.
• 43:32
  SPEAKER_00: It's a lot too daily, like right.
• 43:35
  SPEAKER_00: I mean, I think about today I'm at work, like working on student schedules for the upcoming school year and working on professional development sessions.
• 43:43
  SPEAKER_00: But while, you know, I'm at my desk, I'm playing the autopsy, you know, press conference.
• 43:50
  SPEAKER_00: Like, that's the shit that black people are dealing with right now.
• 43:53
  SPEAKER_00: Like, we're trying to maneuver and live our lives and be whole humans out here in this world.
• 43:58
  SPEAKER_00: World's already tough enough.
• 44:00
  SPEAKER_00: While we still dealing with we sitting on pens and needles, we looking for answers too.
• 44:04
  SPEAKER_00: We want to know.
• 44:05
  SPEAKER_00: We want to know what the fuck is going on out here.
• 44:08
  SPEAKER_02: Not to mention, every fucking day y'all are telling us about a new parasite in the East Coast.
• 44:14
  SPEAKER_02: You can't even really drink tap water right now.
• 44:16
  SPEAKER_02: You you know, throughout the United States, you can't really eat fresh vegetables.
• 44:21
  SPEAKER_02: Like in this summer season, everybody wanna, it's just, but again, like I told TJ, and we were talking about paradigm, elections have consequences.
• 44:31
  SPEAKER_02: Hello.
• 44:32
  SPEAKER_02: We virtually don't have a Center for Disease Control at FDA to test.
• 44:35
  SPEAKER_02: Because cyclospora has technically been around since late 1800s, early 1900s, but it never was the issue because people tested and cared for those things and had rules and regulations.
• 44:46
  SPEAKER_02: So now it's just like shit.
• 44:48
  SPEAKER_02: I advise everybody, everybody needs to be growing something.
• 44:52
  SPEAKER_02: I know we grow like peppers and tomatoes, cucumber squash, melons and stuff, but shit, if you grow different things, all of us can kind of, you know, trade, hey girl, I got lettuce, you got tomato lists.
• 45:05
  SPEAKER_02: Yeah.
• 45:05
  SPEAKER_02: Because it's it's just getting hard to trust the government.
• 45:07
  SPEAKER_02: Then it's like you're telling a lot of these stores, people have been buying 3D printed meat and not knowing it.
• 45:13
  SPEAKER_02: It's just our government, being a capitalistic society is terrible.
• 45:18
  SPEAKER_02: Like I was talking to my friend about this the other day.
• 45:21
  SPEAKER_02: Like the world is eating my ass up, but I can truly be like, see myself, and this is just depending on how the world is by 50 in the next 20 years.
• 45:33
  SPEAKER_02: I don't see myself living in the United States.
• 45:35
  SPEAKER_02: I don't know where I'm yet.
• 45:36
  SPEAKER_02: But it's just like everything here is designed to fucking kill us.
• 45:41
  SPEAKER_02: You and I and you know, I think about like I remember me and my friend, we went to lunch in my Usco Chipotle, that's fresh vegetables.
• 45:49
  SPEAKER_02: But here's the funny part about all of this racism is so fucking expensive.
• 45:54
  SPEAKER_02: Y'all told all these no more DEI, and y'all fired all these black who's keeping y'all shit clean?
• 46:02
  SPEAKER_02: But then it's just like, too, y'all were so quick to blame Taco Bell.
• 46:05
  SPEAKER_02: But first of all, Taco Bell don't grow vegetables, they get their shit in from Taylor Farms at everyone.
• 46:11
  SPEAKER_02: And y'all are still out here putting these bags of salads, putting all this shit out in the store.
• 46:16
  SPEAKER_02: Taco Bell doesn't sell ingredients.
• 46:17
  SPEAKER_02: So what are y'all talking about?
• 46:19
  SPEAKER_02: But the guy that's the CEO of Taco Bell is a black man.
• 46:22
  SPEAKER_02: So y'all were so quick to blame a black man, but not the white motherfucker that's over Taylor Farms, whose vegetables go to restaurants, grocery stores, all over the fucking country.
• 46:33
  SPEAKER_02: I haven't ate a salad in about two weeks now.
• 46:38
  SPEAKER_02: Yeah, same.
• 46:38
  SPEAKER_02: Because I mean vegetables, everything.
• 46:41
  SPEAKER_02: Yeah.
• 46:42
  SPEAKER_02: And it's like you, you know, I wanted to get a um Jersey Mike sub the other day.
• 46:47
  SPEAKER_02: I said, shit, I can't.
• 46:49
  SPEAKER_02: That's fresh.
• 46:50
  SPEAKER_02: You know, you just don't know.
• 46:52
  SPEAKER_02: Yeah.
• 46:52
  SPEAKER_00: I had got hooked on um my um Chick-fil-A, my Chick-fil-A grilled chicken salads grilled chicken salads.
• 47:03
  SPEAKER_00: Like that was my go-to like lunch of choice.
• 47:06
  SPEAKER_00: Cause, you know, I love, I just love it.
• 47:08
  SPEAKER_00: It just tastes so good.
• 47:10
  SPEAKER_00: It I usually don't eat the whole thing, so I can have it for lunch and I have the rest for dinner.
• 47:15
  SPEAKER_00: That was just like, it didn't irritate my stomach.
• 47:19
  SPEAKER_00: It was good.
• 47:20
  SPEAKER_00: Because there's not a whole lot of things I can really like eat while on GLP ones that don't like fuck me up.
• 47:26
  SPEAKER_00: And so when I find something that's healthy, you say, Yeah, and now I can't even fucking eat my chick for like sad.
• 47:35
  SPEAKER_02: Yeah, I I love the grilled chicken.
• 47:38
  SPEAKER_02: I always get 12 grilled chicken nuggets.
• 47:40
  SPEAKER_02: Yeah.
• 47:40
  SPEAKER_02: I put it on top of the kale crunch salad with honey and buffalo pepper, buffalo sauce and uh, oh, so damn good.
• 47:48
  SPEAKER_00: Girl, I had a berry parfait the other day.
• 47:49
  SPEAKER_00: I had to pray, I was praying over there.
• 47:51
  SPEAKER_00: I'm like, Lord, my little berries and fruit in here, is that gonna send me to the upper room?
• 47:56
  SPEAKER_02: Listen, I just had one with the chocolate smoothie.
• 47:58
  SPEAKER_02: Luckily, I grabbed a, it was a local, local beach.
• 48:02
  SPEAKER_02: It's an online exclusive because it's limited.
• 48:04
  SPEAKER_02: But I, oh, they should make it permanent.
• 48:05
  SPEAKER_02: But anyway, it's literally pineapple, banana, coconut, and um I drunk, I ordered, I was like, oh shit.
• 48:13
  SPEAKER_01: I said, fuck.
• 48:15
  SPEAKER_02: But oh well.
• 48:17
  SPEAKER_02: I I that's so I don't know.
• 48:20
  SPEAKER_02: I'm just everything and then gassed and got hot again.
• 48:24
  SPEAKER_00: I spent$50 on the I'm just like, oh, I drove to I drove to Clarksville today uh to get my hair done.
• 48:32
  SPEAKER_00: I I said, first of all, how the fuck did I do this twice a day?
• 48:35
  SPEAKER_00: That's number one.
• 48:36
  SPEAKER_00: And then secondly, oh, I was on half a tank.
• 48:40
  SPEAKER_00: Girl, I make it back to, you know, Nashville.
• 48:44
  SPEAKER_00: My damn gas light done came on.
• 48:45
  SPEAKER_00: I said, how did I used to do this?
• 48:48
  SPEAKER_00: You should have been gas up while you was here.
• 48:50
  SPEAKER_00: How was I surviving?
• 48:52
  SPEAKER_00: I'm just really trying to figure out like.
• 48:55
  SPEAKER_02: But I mean, even think about like this.
• 48:58
  SPEAKER_02: I like I really want you to, I think about 20, I graduated from undergrad in 2016.
• 49:04
  SPEAKER_02: Now, I'm not saying this because I'm not perfect.
• 49:07
  SPEAKER_02: So even before I turned 21 and I was still in college, I was going to parties, I was drinking, I was in college, going to frat parties.
• 49:15
  SPEAKER_02: You know, I would go to some clubs and, you know, had a fake audience shit.
• 49:20
  SPEAKER_02: But I think about I'm turning 22, I'm out in the real world.
• 49:23
  SPEAKER_02: Even with my little job, sis, I was at the news station.
• 49:26
  SPEAKER_02: I was making, I would get like 38 to 39 hours a week, so they wouldn't make me full-time.
• 49:31
  SPEAKER_02: So I think I was making$15 an hour there.
• 49:36
  SPEAKER_02: And then I had a part-time job at Sears, making like$13 an hour.
• 49:41
  SPEAKER_02: I was able, I had a roommate, but I was paying all my bills, my car note, and I was still able to get my nails, my hair, my eyebrows done.
• 49:49
  SPEAKER_02: And the bitch was going to the club regularly, drinking.
• 49:53
  SPEAKER_02: And like, I'm like, we were making so much less money, but we still was, even I mean, I think about even when I was in college, like, girl, Thursday came to party and began on Thursday at my college.
• 50:05
  SPEAKER_02: So same.
• 50:06
  SPEAKER_02: We would always go to the mall, wet steel, Charlotte Roof, uh, body center, we'd get you a cute little outfit or whatever the theme of the party was.
• 50:14
  SPEAKER_02: And but even in my early 20s, like when I came back to Clarksville, I was working in Enterprise Rental Car.
• 50:20
  SPEAKER_02: Them two years I was at Enterprise, I was every weekend, I was me and my friend group was getting hotels in National.
• 50:27
  SPEAKER_02: We were clubbing, and I was probably bringing in$1,100 every two weeks.
• 50:35
  SPEAKER_02: And I really didn't have bills for oh, but I was outside.
• 50:38
  SPEAKER_02: Then, you know, I think about when I was at the airport, I was the biggest paycheck I've ever received.
• 50:47
  SPEAKER_02: I made off of commission and airport.
• 50:50
  SPEAKER_02: I made$3,500 on one fucking paycheck.
• 50:53
  SPEAKER_02: Bitch.
• 50:55
  SPEAKER_02: My life was so good.
• 50:57
  SPEAKER_02: I would, so I would be like, work me 10 days straight.
• 51:01
  SPEAKER_02: Girl, I'd get five days off.
• 51:03
  SPEAKER_02: I would be in a business suit.
• 51:04
  SPEAKER_02: I had an end with somebody I was talking to that let me park my car for free in one of the lots, and he would watch my car.
• 51:10
  SPEAKER_02: I would go catch the shuttle.
• 51:12
  SPEAKER_02: I would get one of the little shuttles and be riding with the workers because I was cool with all of the um Saudis that worked at the airport, get the shuttle.
• 51:20
  SPEAKER_02: I'd be and I'd work the 12-hour ship.
• 51:22
  SPEAKER_02: Bitch, I would hop on the motherfucking plane, my business suit and my carry-on.
• 51:27
  SPEAKER_02: Go wherever I was going, have a good time, come back to work in another business hood that I packed, drunker than a skunk, and I would do this shit all over.
• 51:35
  SPEAKER_02: I like, and even when I like downsized from that job and went to my first contracting job, making, girl, I was making 622 every two weeks and still was fucking outside.
• 51:47
  SPEAKER_01: Yeah.
• 51:48
  SPEAKER_01: You know what I mean?
• 51:49
  SPEAKER_02: Yeah.
• 51:49
  SPEAKER_02: Like I had a drastic lifestyle change after I left Enterprise and went contracting my first year.
• 51:56
  SPEAKER_02: But I was out of town.
• 51:59
  SPEAKER_02: I was still just doing shit.
• 52:01
  SPEAKER_02: It was just accessible.
• 52:02
  SPEAKER_02: Like it's like the I like the only thing I do feel bad about Gen Z for they'll never like, they'll never understand that.
• 52:08
  SPEAKER_02: But it's like I think social media has ruined the perception of just living because now everybody wants to have more than the next bitch.
• 52:16
  SPEAKER_02: So, you know, that's why I think I'm struggling too with not having it how I'm, you know, like I'm accustomed to or not having as much as others because it's like, um, I'm a brokeie.
• 52:28
  SPEAKER_02: Like, granted, I'm I'm not a type, I'm not a flexor or, but you know, by certain standards, you look, and then it's like you, the media that these kids consume with the baddies and the rest.
• 52:39
  SPEAKER_02: Flex culture is has been at an all-time high and clout at an all-time high for at least the last 10 years.
• 52:45
  SPEAKER_02: Shit that didn't, because even like when you think about your friend group, some girl gonna know, my girl, come on, you let me pay your well shit.
• 52:52
  SPEAKER_02: Back then we women didn't pay to get in the clubs.
• 52:54
  SPEAKER_02: That was one.
• 52:55
  SPEAKER_02: Two, you always had somewhere to park for free.
• 52:57
  SPEAKER_02: There weren't all these parking garages, and you first come, first serve, and you got you a few little drinks and you had a good time.
• 53:03
  SPEAKER_02: Then everybody goes to off, but now it's like, okay, to have a good time now, gas is high, so I'm like, okay, you gotta account for gas.
• 53:11
  SPEAKER_02: When you get to a club or a venue, it's a blessing if they have free parking.
• 53:15
  SPEAKER_02: Because in Nashville now, you're paying anywhere between$40 to$80 a park somewhere for a few hours.
• 53:20
  SPEAKER_02: And once you do that, it's a bitch.
• 53:23
  SPEAKER_02: It's high as fuck.
• 53:24
  SPEAKER_02: And you think Nash Girl, Atlanta's parking.
• 53:26
  SPEAKER_02: I paid a hundred, I went to an event and had to pay a hundred dollars.
• 53:29
  SPEAKER_02: Oh girl, I will never I went to Atlanta.
• 53:32
  SPEAKER_02: I was parking in Atlanta one time and was sick about it, but I was perfect money then, but still I was like, God damn.
• 53:38
  SPEAKER_00: But okay, so you would think I will never go back to Atlanta.
• 53:42
  SPEAKER_00: I went to Atlanta for my birthday.
• 53:44
  SPEAKER_00: I think was that last year or a year before last, I wanted to go to Atlanta.
• 53:48
  SPEAKER_00: First of all, why the fuck is everything valet and shit?
• 53:52
  SPEAKER_00: Where are we?
• 53:52
  SPEAKER_00: Are we on the drive?
• 53:56
  SPEAKER_02: We're gonna have to watch some bills too, because even with me, I've caught them.
• 54:00
  SPEAKER_02: I'm like, it's just two of us.
• 54:01
  SPEAKER_02: Why did you put oh no, you're not getting a tip.
• 54:03
  SPEAKER_02: If you automatically include return, I'm not paying you a tip.
• 54:06
  SPEAKER_03: It was just two of us here.
• 54:08
  SPEAKER_02: So yeah, Atlanta jamming on the bitch.
• 54:11
  SPEAKER_02: But so but that's the only thing I miss about living in Nashville.
• 54:16
  SPEAKER_02: I was right there, so I didn't have to drive and be like, oh, I'm I don't want to get too drunk because I was so that's so you go to Nashville.
• 54:23
  SPEAKER_02: You typically with me, how me and my friend group work, okay, you find a friend group, because it don't make sense for all of us to be driving different cars, because we all go into the same place.
• 54:34
  SPEAKER_02: It's a safety thing too.
• 54:36
  SPEAKER_02: You know, we're all in groups, and then it's just like, okay, it's um financial because typically we're saving, we all saving on glass because everybody helps and contribute to parking because I don't hang out with bracketed people.
• 54:48
  SPEAKER_02: So they always, hey, if you drove, I'm gonna buy you a drink or I'm gonna give you money towards parking.
• 54:53
  SPEAKER_02: That's uh it's a community with us.
• 54:55
  SPEAKER_02: But then it's just like one person who's gonna be the DD or who's gonna be less drunk, everybody else driving everybody back.
• 55:00
  SPEAKER_02: You get to Nashville, you gotta pay$40 to$80 apart.
• 55:04
  SPEAKER_02: Then once you get into that club, if you're gonna eat, if they have food, but then you ain't gonna be able to see because they don't believe in seating them places no more.
• 55:11
  SPEAKER_02: But then it's just like when that last time I went out to like a club club, not the I'm not gonna call Brooklyn Bowl because I go there for events, but like, girl, last time I went to a club, why did I pay$17 for an Angry Orchard?
• 55:26
  SPEAKER_02: I'm not even talking hard liquor or mixing.
• 55:28
  SPEAKER_02: An angry, I'm like 17.
• 55:30
  SPEAKER_02: And the only part of shit, because I was dead thirsty.
• 55:34
  SPEAKER_02: And they and they was like, we got tap water.
• 55:36
  SPEAKER_02: I'm like, I'm not drinking, I don't do tap.
• 55:37
  SPEAKER_02: But I was just like, fine, but I'm like, let me just make this one drink last and calm my ass down because 17 for an angry orchard is fucking nuts.
• 55:45
  SPEAKER_00: Girl, girl, girl.
• 55:46
  SPEAKER_00: Let's not even get started on because me and K Ron like go back and forth because he he would rather go to, he's like, let's go to either um downtown or go to midtown because I don't have to, you don't have to pay to get in and the drinks start cheaper.
• 56:12
  SPEAKER_00: I'm like, okay, but I also don't want to hear, yeah, I don't want to hear honky tonk all fucking night long because then I don't have a buzz.
• 56:22
  SPEAKER_00: So then I'll be like, okay, well, tonight let's go to, you know, a predominantly black club, but then now you're paying to get in and the drinks are sky fucking high, but hey, I can hear good music.
• 56:37
  SPEAKER_00: So it's just like I don't even want to, it's like I don't even want to fucking go.
• 56:41
  SPEAKER_00: Like, let's just stay home.
• 56:42
  SPEAKER_02: That's not like for me, how I have fun every three months.
• 56:46
  SPEAKER_02: I always go to an event.
• 56:47
  SPEAKER_02: So I like going to I follow Nashville.
• 56:50
  SPEAKER_02: I've learned you have to follow the party groups like the creative socialites, the um the uh the Kinesics, I follow them.
• 57:02
  SPEAKER_02: Like whenever they have like the parties that you have to pay for a ticket for on Ticketmaster, that's what I do to have a good time.
• 57:08
  SPEAKER_02: Also, like, you know, I'm Zach Fox was coming.
• 57:11
  SPEAKER_02: Me and my homegirl went to that because I love his DJing.
• 57:14
  SPEAKER_02: More like, you know, one bedroom is coming back in September.
• 57:17
  SPEAKER_02: I want to go.
• 57:18
  SPEAKER_02: So I'm like, okay, let's, or, you know, if with us, we all want to go see Kevin on stage, okay, we're gonna buy the tickets together.
• 57:25
  SPEAKER_02: So being in my 30s, I'm like, I like things like that.
• 57:28
  SPEAKER_02: And I like things where I gotta see for because bitch, I'm not, I'm not standing so I'm not doing it.
• 57:34
  SPEAKER_02: Now, when I did live in Nashville, I will say it will sometimes I'll go to like a sports bar or something because, you know, it's so much more convenient when you're in Nashville, not have to worry about driving and parking, because you can kind of go by the scene and you're only 10 to 20 minutes away.
• 57:48
  SPEAKER_02: But it's like having to come from Clarksville and do all that is too much.
• 57:51
  SPEAKER_02: But yeah, clubbing is is definitely dead.
• 57:56
  SPEAKER_02: But now I think the resurgence of like, because every Tuesday I go line dancing at the bowling alley and I have a good time.
• 58:04
  SPEAKER_02: Um, I'm next not this Friday, but the next Friday, I'm joining my friend at Dream to go line dancing.
• 58:10
  SPEAKER_02: I think black spaces are trying to become a little bit more communal and cheaper just because it's just like, bruh, I feel like I shouldn't have to come out of pocket$200 as a single woman to have.
• 58:21
  SPEAKER_02: Hello.
• 58:21
  SPEAKER_02: Like, damn, what the hell?
• 58:24
  SPEAKER_00: Ugh.
• 58:25
  SPEAKER_00: For one drink, one drink you charge me fucking$40 is ridiculous.
• 58:30
  SPEAKER_00: That's why I don't even give a fuck if it is in a pretty glass or it's in one of the fucking Patrone looking bottle.
• 58:38
  SPEAKER_00: I don't give a fuck about that.
• 58:40
  SPEAKER_00: Can I just get like a decent drink?
• 58:42
  SPEAKER_00: You can like put that shit in a plastic cup.
• 58:44
  SPEAKER_00: I don't need the fanfare and pleasing.
• 58:50
  SPEAKER_02: That's why, like, that's the only reason why I do like going to Legion sometimes is that you can make$20, get two drunk, or drink with go to the gay clubs and get cheap, good ass drinks and get some cheap food.
• 59:00
  SPEAKER_02: But like, that's why like people make fun of me to be like I'll bitch you cheap.
• 59:05
  SPEAKER_02: My go-to drink when I'm in most clubs.
• 59:07
  SPEAKER_02: But see, I don't like being blackout drunk when I'm in that setting either.
• 59:11
  SPEAKER_02: The only time I get like blackout drunk is if I'm with like a really big group of people that I trust, or if I'm at like a house party or a function of people that I fuck with.
• 59:19
  SPEAKER_02: But like when I'm at clubs or parties and I'm buying for myself, Malibu pineapple me, please.
• 59:26
  SPEAKER_02: Or I'll get like a seltzer or something.
• 59:28
  SPEAKER_02: But like that typically tends to be the cheaper things.
• 59:30
  SPEAKER_02: But I remember I went out one time and got a lemon drop.
• 59:33
  SPEAKER_02: They were, I paid$25.
• 59:36
  SPEAKER_02: This was this was in Atlanta.
• 59:38
  SPEAKER_02: I paid$25 for a four-ounce lemon drop.
• 59:43
  SPEAKER_00: Okay.
• 59:44
  SPEAKER_02: When I saw that bill, and again, it is different when you go to varying cities, but like Nashville, Nashville is trying to become like Atlanta, but I'm like, oh my God.
• 59:53
  SPEAKER_02: But Atlanta's been in Atlanta for a long time.
• 59:55
  SPEAKER_02: So you gotta think this was like 2021.
• 59:58
  SPEAKER_02: I went to Atlanta for my birthday.
• 1:00:00
  SPEAKER_02: And I was like, I ordered two lemon drops, and I'm just drinking, having a good time.
• 1:00:04
  SPEAKER_02: I said, bitch,$70.
• 1:00:06
  SPEAKER_02: I ordered five boneless wings, a set of fries, two lemon drops,$70.
• 1:00:12
  SPEAKER_02: That shit is ridiculous.
• 1:00:14
  SPEAKER_02: That didn't even never it didn't even include like now.
• 1:00:17
  SPEAKER_02: I go to Atlanta all the time.
• 1:00:18
  SPEAKER_02: One of my best friends lived there, so she kind of knows and she keeps us like, all right, bitch, I know this is for free this night.
• 1:00:25
  SPEAKER_02: I know this person here.
• 1:00:25
  SPEAKER_02: She's very connected.
• 1:00:27
  SPEAKER_02: So she does a very good job with cultivating a good experience for as cheap as we possibly can.
• 1:00:34
  SPEAKER_02: She is extremely connected.
• 1:00:35
  SPEAKER_02: So she knows like people in high places.
• 1:00:37
  SPEAKER_02: She's like, bitch, I got us a free table.
• 1:00:38
  SPEAKER_02: We gotta go now.
• 1:00:40
  SPEAKER_02: Like we're gonna be here from eight to three, but bitch, we're gonna have a good time.
• 1:00:43
  SPEAKER_02: But it's free table.
• 1:00:44
  SPEAKER_02: I'm down.
• 1:00:45
  SPEAKER_02: But you know, every once in a while, it's okay to treat yourself to the expense of, you know.
• 1:00:50
  SPEAKER_02: But I feel like you pay for your experiences sometimes.
• 1:00:52
  SPEAKER_02: But it's just like, damn, but bitches wouldn't go shake a little ass.
• 1:00:55
  SPEAKER_02: I done came out two, three hundred dollars.
• 1:00:57
  unknown: Ow.
• 1:01:00
  SPEAKER_02: But that's why it's just like sometimes, uh ugh, I hate to agree with a man, but I never was one, and I just maybe this just me with how I was raised.
• 1:01:10
  SPEAKER_02: I never was one of them bitches that's using niggas for free meals or free drinks.
• 1:01:14
  SPEAKER_02: Cause I'm like, shit, being a man now is a lot more expensive.
• 1:01:17
  SPEAKER_02: But back then, like a nigga will buy you, you want all your girls a drink because it was cheaper.
• 1:01:22
  SPEAKER_02: Yeah.
• 1:01:22
  SPEAKER_02: But see, yeah, these new niggas I feel bad for these girls too, because these new niggas, they ain't even getting you a drink without getting some head or something.
• 1:01:30
  SPEAKER_02: Like you, you can't get nothing out of these.
• 1:01:33
  SPEAKER_02: But you ain't buying your ass shit.
• 1:01:34
  SPEAKER_02: On the same, on the on the other side, that's like, well, shit, I kind of understand.
• 1:01:38
  SPEAKER_02: Because shit.
• 1:01:39
  SPEAKER_00: And you know they charge you no more to get in the club than what they're charging women.
• 1:01:44
  SPEAKER_02: Just like I didn't realize men were paying as much money for fucking haircuts.
• 1:01:49
  SPEAKER_02: Oh yeah.
• 1:01:50
  SPEAKER_02: I said, Oh yeah.
• 1:01:51
  SPEAKER_02: Cause I I remember I was talking to my well, the last dude I was messing with, this was last year.
• 1:01:57
  SPEAKER_02: I remember we had set up an appointment.
• 1:02:00
  SPEAKER_02: He said, Well, I'm gonna call you once I've he was like, I'm gonna call you once I finish my haircut, I'm gonna go home and shower, then you can come over.
• 1:02:06
  SPEAKER_02: And we were just talking, and I was like, Okay, you get your haircut, you're gonna be looking fine, blah, blah, blah.
• 1:02:11
  SPEAKER_02: He was just like, I'm gonna be looking fine.
• 1:02:12
  SPEAKER_02: My pockets ain't 75 fuck.
• 1:02:15
  SPEAKER_02: I was like, Where have I?
• 1:02:17
  SPEAKER_02: I said, have niggas always been paying, I remember haircuts was like$25,$30.
• 1:02:22
  SPEAKER_02: But now they got all these fees.
• 1:02:23
  SPEAKER_02: Oh yeah, bruh.
• 1:02:24
  SPEAKER_02: If I, you know, if you want to cut the line to$25.
• 1:02:28
  SPEAKER_02: I said, niggas are paying barber's deposits.
• 1:02:31
  SPEAKER_02: Oh yeah.
• 1:02:31
  SPEAKER_02: I'm like, what y'all doing getting happy in this?
• 1:02:34
  SPEAKER_02: It's all now.
• 1:02:35
  SPEAKER_02: I see my J Cut is out.
• 1:02:36
  SPEAKER_02: I I was like, you pay$75 for a haircut.
• 1:02:40
  SPEAKER_02: I've had hair appointments cheaper than that.
• 1:02:42
  SPEAKER_02: Yeah, and I have actual hair on my head.
• 1:02:45
  SPEAKER_02: It's a whole thing.
• 1:02:47
  SPEAKER_02: And I I said, He's like, Yeah.
• 1:02:50
  SPEAKER_02: Then I asked my other homeboy, I said, just for shits and giggles.
• 1:02:54
  SPEAKER_02: I said, not even trying to hear about it.
• 1:02:55
  SPEAKER_02: I said, I'm just how much you pay for a haircut?
• 1:02:57
  SPEAKER_02: He said, Well, I'm going to my nigga for like 10 years, so he gave me a discount.
• 1:03:03
  SPEAKER_02: I said, Well, how much you pay?
• 1:03:04
  SPEAKER_02: He said, Shit, I only pay the nigga$40 and I always tip him$15 so$55 every two weeks.
• 1:03:12
  SPEAKER_02: For a man for a haircut is crazy.
• 1:03:16
  SPEAKER_00: Yeah, it's a whole thing.
• 1:03:17
  SPEAKER_00: And I just I didn't even know Cairon was paying the amount he was paying to get his hair retwisted and style.
• 1:03:24
  SPEAKER_00: He's paying the same amount as me.
• 1:03:26
  SPEAKER_00: And I was like, why?
• 1:03:27
  SPEAKER_00: Like, your hair is shorter than mine, you shouldn't be paying that much.
• 1:03:31
  SPEAKER_00: And he was like, Well, she's charging me to because he likes to get a two-strand twist, and he likes to get his hair two-strand twisted and cornrolled, and so she's charging him for two styles.
• 1:03:49
  SPEAKER_00: Capitalism.
• 1:03:51
  SPEAKER_00: And his hair is you see K-Ron's hair, his hair is like up here, like it's short as fuck.
• 1:03:58
  SPEAKER_00: And my hair is at my ass.
• 1:04:00
  SPEAKER_00: And you're charging him the same amount as me because you two strand twisting it and braiding it.
• 1:04:08
  SPEAKER_02: But the two strands twist, to me, that's just a retwist, but the style comes with the fucking retwist.
• 1:04:14
  SPEAKER_00: Like what?
• 1:04:14
  SPEAKER_00: So you're retwisting at the root, but then he likes to get his hair two-strand twisted.
• 1:04:21
  SPEAKER_00: Cause his braids last longer.
• 1:04:22
  SPEAKER_02: Like I know to talk about saying, like girl, two-style, that's two separate styles.
• 1:04:31
  SPEAKER_00: When K-Ron told me this yesterday, I said, wait, wait, wait.
• 1:04:34
  SPEAKER_00: How much you I said, but on the thing when we are like booking your appointment, she's doing it by length, so you shouldn't be paying that.
• 1:04:44
  SPEAKER_00: He was like, Yeah, I asked her about it.
• 1:04:46
  SPEAKER_00: And because I wanted two strand twists and for her to braid braid them back, she was like, That's two styles.
• 1:04:54
  SPEAKER_00: I said, yo, what the fuck?
• 1:05:01
  SPEAKER_02: That's why it's just like, you know, I I gave up getting my nails done, and I can do my own lashes when I want to.
• 1:05:11
  SPEAKER_02: That saved me some money, but I was like, girl.
• 1:05:18
  SPEAKER_00: But that's why I will say, coming out of the pandemic, like as far as nails, I think that is where I that's really was one of the first places where I began to um really start doing my own nails.
• 1:05:31
  SPEAKER_00: And I think so.
• 1:05:32
  SPEAKER_00: Coming out of the pandemic, too, I think I was just like, I can do this shit myself.
• 1:05:38
  SPEAKER_00: Like I started like researching, and then too, it was I I've told you this before and I've said it up here too.
• 1:05:44
  SPEAKER_00: The quality started declining, the shit that I really wanted, because people just were like nickel and diamond me for every fucking thing, every stone, every um gel color.
• 1:05:56
  SPEAKER_02: Or you like, oh, ten dollars a cut down.
• 1:06:00
  SPEAKER_02: Part of just filling in, you know what I'm saying?
• 1:06:02
  SPEAKER_02: Yeah.
• 1:06:02
  SPEAKER_00: And then who the fuck wants a design on just their ring finger?
• 1:06:07
  SPEAKER_00: Like, bitch, how old are we?
• 1:06:08
  SPEAKER_00: Like, motherfucker, what?
• 1:06:10
  SPEAKER_00: Like, no, I want the designs on all 10 fucking fingers.
• 1:06:14
  SPEAKER_00: Like, what are you talking about?
• 1:06:15
  SPEAKER_02: Meanwhile, you know, when we was in middle school, we used to have a well, it wasn't a chop shop back then.
• 1:06:21
  SPEAKER_02: Well, it's a chop shop now.
• 1:06:22
  SPEAKER_02: Glamour nails.
• 1:06:23
  SPEAKER_02: Girl, I wouldn't even send a dead person to get their nails done in there now.
• 1:06:26
  SPEAKER_02: But glamour nails, you used to get your nails airbrushed on a design on every finger for$30.
• 1:06:33
  SPEAKER_02: Yes.
• 1:06:34
  SPEAKER_02: And I'm not talking like short as I was wearing nails.
• 1:06:37
  SPEAKER_02: No, my nails were long.
• 1:06:39
  SPEAKER_02: My nails were long.
• 1:06:42
  SPEAKER_02: And then, you know, I had my nails were cut.
• 1:06:45
  SPEAKER_02: Matter of fact, I think I have a picture of my nails that I wore in my seventh grade yearbook photo.
• 1:06:55
  SPEAKER_02: See if I can find it real quick.
• 1:06:57
  SPEAKER_02: And my mom was like, girl, look at you with your nails.
• 1:06:59
  SPEAKER_02: I said, I know, girl.
• 1:07:00
  SPEAKER_02: I keep getting cold chills.
• 1:07:02
  SPEAKER_00: Ooh, Lord, mercy.
• 1:07:04
  SPEAKER_00: Um, but yeah, I just I can't.
• 1:07:07
  SPEAKER_00: I can't with the nickel and dime in me.
• 1:07:09
  SPEAKER_00: I also can't with, I was just talking to somebody about this too, about when I bring you a photo and you say, Yeah, yeah, uh-huh, uh-huh.
• 1:07:19
  SPEAKER_00: And then, you know, I look down at my nails, and bitch, that is not what I asked you for.
• 1:07:24
  SPEAKER_00: Like, I got tired of that shit.
• 1:07:26
  SPEAKER_00: I got tired of, matter of fact, I was just in the nail salon because I still get pedicures and I get my eyebrows done.
• 1:07:33
  SPEAKER_00: I was just in the nail salon and a girl came in there and she was fucking livid.
• 1:07:37
  SPEAKER_00: She went in there, she went to the front, um, to the little desk at the front and was like, look, I was in here last night and my nail popped off.
• 1:07:44
  SPEAKER_00: What y'all gonna do about it?
• 1:07:45
  SPEAKER_02: I was like, Meanwhile, some shit I did at the house, not being professional, could stay on for three weeks.
• 1:07:52
  SPEAKER_02: Crazy.
• 1:07:53
  SPEAKER_00: So where is the and I really wanted to do that?
• 1:07:56
  SPEAKER_00: I wanted to be, but she was pissed, and I was like, I'm not getting people business.
• 1:07:59
  SPEAKER_00: But I really wanted to be like, lady, that's why you should stop.
• 1:08:03
  SPEAKER_00: Like, get some press-ons.
• 1:08:04
  SPEAKER_00: But even people that I meet just out and about, like, I'll be out and about, and people ask me, like, oh my god, your nails are so nice.
• 1:08:12
  SPEAKER_00: Who did them?
• 1:08:12
  SPEAKER_00: And I'm like, uh, me, press-ons.
• 1:08:15
  SPEAKER_00: And they're like, What?
• 1:08:17
  SPEAKER_00: Yeah.
• 1:08:17
  SPEAKER_00: And then they I exchange information with them.
• 1:08:19
  SPEAKER_00: They be like, what glue, what nails?
• 1:08:22
  SPEAKER_00: I have no problem.
• 1:08:23
  SPEAKER_00: I have no problem with putting other people on because times out here is fucking hard.
• 1:08:28
  SPEAKER_00: Money.
• 1:08:28
  SPEAKER_02: And I even have to sacrifice feeling like a person or having dignity because I don't got money for upkeep.
• 1:08:36
  SPEAKER_02: Like, I just I just don't think that's fair.
• 1:08:38
  SPEAKER_02: That's why I hang with people like, oh, well, you're gonna get your nails done.
• 1:08:40
  SPEAKER_02: Yeah, bitch, I'm struggling.
• 1:08:41
  SPEAKER_02: I'm not sitting here looking fucking desolate.
• 1:08:44
  SPEAKER_00: Yeah.
• 1:08:44
  SPEAKER_00: Like you shouldn't have, you don't have to.
• 1:08:46
  SPEAKER_00: You don't have to.
• 1:08:47
  SPEAKER_00: It's too, it's too easy now to go online and get the shit and do it yourself.
• 1:08:52
  SPEAKER_00: Like, it's just too easy.
• 1:08:53
  SPEAKER_00: Like, I got my own drill, I got my like all that shit.
• 1:08:58
  SPEAKER_00: Like all of that shit.
• 1:09:00
  SPEAKER_02: And this ain't my picture, but this is an example.
• 1:09:04
  SPEAKER_02: You remember you can get some shit like this on every nail,$30.
• 1:09:07
  SPEAKER_02: Yes.
• 1:09:09
  SPEAKER_02: Like, yes, and all that's coming back too, because they got personal nails that look just like.
• 1:09:13
  SPEAKER_02: So even with that, this girl, she got her nails.
• 1:09:16
  SPEAKER_02: I was like, and I she was a young girl.
• 1:09:18
  SPEAKER_02: I was out one of the errands.
• 1:09:20
  SPEAKER_02: I said, Let me see your nails.
• 1:09:21
  SPEAKER_02: She was like, I said, How old are you?
• 1:09:22
  SPEAKER_02: She's like, I'm 19.
• 1:09:23
  SPEAKER_02: I said, I, and it was so funny because in my seventh grade, I don't have the picture on my phone.
• 1:09:28
  SPEAKER_02: If I find it, I'm gonna show you.
• 1:09:30
  SPEAKER_02: My seventh-grade year with photo, I had on the member the short jean jacket.
• 1:09:34
  SPEAKER_02: Yeah, yeah.
• 1:09:35
  SPEAKER_02: I was posing on top of 07, and I had on like um, I had my cell phone clip and my I had my razor on my belt.
• 1:09:43
  SPEAKER_02: I had my nameplate belt on, a tank top, and some baby fat Capri jeans.
• 1:09:47
  SPEAKER_02: No, some I had baby fat jeans on, and my short jean jacket was baby fat.
• 1:09:52
  SPEAKER_02: And I think my nails were like this long, but I had a blue tip and I had like pink, purple, silver, and gold on each nail design with the rhinestone.
• 1:10:02
  SPEAKER_02: I said, I literally had my nails done just like this when I was seventh grade.
• 1:10:05
  SPEAKER_02: So she was, she was like, How old are you?
• 1:10:07
  SPEAKER_02: So I'm 32.
• 1:10:08
  SPEAKER_02: So we were just talking.
• 1:10:09
  SPEAKER_02: I said, but how much do you pay?
• 1:10:10
  SPEAKER_02: I said, if you don't mind me asking how much you pay for nails.
• 1:10:13
  SPEAKER_02: What did she say, actually?
• 1:10:14
  SPEAKER_02: She said for$100.
• 1:10:16
  SPEAKER_00: See, that's fuck, that is ridiculous.
• 1:10:19
  SPEAKER_00: For what?
• 1:10:21
  SPEAKER_00: That's ridiculous.
• 1:10:22
  SPEAKER_00: And I'm gonna tell you, there is no way when that shit started happening, I was like, there's no way I can afford to pay that and get my hair done.
• 1:10:32
  SPEAKER_00: If my hair is already over$100, like I pay like$135 for my hair, it's no way in hell I'm gonna be able to afford to now give you$120,$125 for some.
• 1:10:43
  SPEAKER_00: Maintenance for a woman is already expensive.
• 1:10:45
  SPEAKER_00: Three weeks.
• 1:10:46
  SPEAKER_02: Like I'm not doing that.
• 1:10:48
  SPEAKER_02: Maintenance for a woman is already expensive as hell anyway.
• 1:10:51
  SPEAKER_00: Like, fuck no.
• 1:10:52
  SPEAKER_00: I'm not doing that shit.
• 1:10:53
  SPEAKER_00: And then to then to do that and then potentially get some shit that I don't even fucking like or some shit that breaks very quickly, like, absolutely not.
• 1:11:03
  SPEAKER_00: So, yep, I just had to stop.
• 1:11:04
  SPEAKER_00: I had to stop.
• 1:11:05
  SPEAKER_02: But see, like, you know, it is one thing to pay for quality and good nails, because that's why I like going to nail tests, because I've had black nail techs, excuse me, because I felt like I always ran into that problem with the Asian or Vietnamese.
• 1:11:20
  SPEAKER_02: Well, Vietnamese sorry, Asian people, that was stupid, but they can never design how I like.
• 1:11:25
  SPEAKER_02: But I kind of find out, according to this Vietnamese girl I met in the nail shop.
• 1:11:29
  SPEAKER_02: Me and I was talking, she was a I was like, Oh, you you're Vietnamese?
• 1:11:32
  SPEAKER_02: She was like, Yeah, she was like, girl, let me tell you a secret.
• 1:11:34
  SPEAKER_02: Her husband is black and she's from LA.
• 1:11:37
  SPEAKER_02: We were just, and I said, Well, how are you here?
• 1:11:39
  SPEAKER_02: She was like, military.
• 1:11:40
  SPEAKER_02: I said, Oh, it makes sense.
• 1:11:42
  SPEAKER_02: She was just like, I see you.
• 1:11:43
  SPEAKER_02: She was like, they do your nails because they look really good.
• 1:11:46
  SPEAKER_02: I said, No, I did my own.
• 1:11:47
  SPEAKER_02: And she said, God damn it.
• 1:11:48
  SPEAKER_02: So I told her, the sister my and the guy that was doing my feet was kind of pissed at me.
• 1:11:52
  SPEAKER_02: She's she was just like, girl, a lot of people that you see, especially in like the South, only one of the people in the shop, which is the owner, is the only one with the license.
• 1:12:04
  SPEAKER_02: Half of the, like, majority of people that work in these nail shops don't even be fucking licensed.
• 1:12:08
  SPEAKER_02: I believe it.
• 1:12:09
  SPEAKER_02: That's why they don't have on, you know, they don't, you, and you don't see enclaves and nail shops no more.
• 1:12:14
  SPEAKER_02: If I don't see enclaves in your nail shop, I'm not going.
• 1:12:17
  SPEAKER_01: You don't believe it.
• 1:12:18
  SPEAKER_02: I know that's why they can't design or they don't got technique.
• 1:12:21
  SPEAKER_02: That's why the shit be looking messed up.
• 1:12:22
  SPEAKER_02: She said, girl, they don't eat like I said.
• 1:12:25
  SPEAKER_00: I believe it.
• 1:12:25
  SPEAKER_00: I believe it because I've gone to salons.
• 1:12:27
  SPEAKER_00: There was one in particular, I'll never forget, out in Clarksville, right off uh exit one where I used to live, right by the fucking uh exit, by the Sonic.
• 1:12:37
  SPEAKER_00: I can't think of the name of it right now.
• 1:12:39
  SPEAKER_00: I know exactly what nail shock you're talking about.
• 1:12:41
  SPEAKER_00: And I thought I had found me a decent nail salon because the first time, because see, this is what they do in them nail salon.
• 1:12:47
  SPEAKER_00: The first time you go in there, they give you, I think they give you the licensed person or the best person in it.
• 1:12:52
  SPEAKER_00: It's like they know it'll be your first time.
• 1:12:54
  SPEAKER_00: Yeah, and you be like, oh shit, I done found me somewhere good.
• 1:12:58
  SPEAKER_00: Girl, the next, the next time I went in there to get the fill-in, nails looking all crazy.
• 1:13:03
  SPEAKER_00: Cause they sent me to the next person, the other person.
• 1:13:07
  SPEAKER_00: Some other person.
• 1:13:09
  SPEAKER_02: Yeah, yeah, because the other one is busy because they actually do good fucking work.
• 1:13:12
  SPEAKER_02: Now it's the best nail tech, the Asian nail tech I've ever had.
• 1:13:16
  SPEAKER_02: She was the first woman to do my nails.
• 1:13:18
  SPEAKER_02: Her name was Miss Yu.
• 1:13:20
  SPEAKER_02: No, I'm sorry, Miss Young.
• 1:13:22
  SPEAKER_02: Miss Young.
• 1:13:23
  SPEAKER_02: She was in the PX on post.
• 1:13:25
  SPEAKER_02: Old school.
• 1:13:27
  SPEAKER_02: Miss Yu retired and got remarried and moved.
• 1:13:30
  SPEAKER_02: She did my nails from the time I was 11 to about 13, 14.
• 1:13:35
  SPEAKER_02: That was, I mean, and I don't, and if I'm not mistaken, I don't even think Miss Yu was Vietnamese.
• 1:13:41
  SPEAKER_02: Miss Yu was uh Miss Yu was either Korean, I think Miss Yu was actually Korean.
• 1:13:49
  SPEAKER_02: But Miss Yu, Miss Yu, don't let nobody touch your nails at those chop shops.
• 1:13:54
  SPEAKER_02: She used to, the only person touched my nails for years, she was my very first guest.
• 1:14:00
  SPEAKER_02: So once Miss Yu retired, she I was so sad.
• 1:14:02
  SPEAKER_02: Miss Yu retired.
• 1:14:04
  SPEAKER_02: And she was, I remember one time I and this is how good she was.
• 1:14:07
  SPEAKER_02: I broke a nail and it was oh, I'm not doing this.
• 1:14:10
  SPEAKER_02: You let that heal.
• 1:14:11
  SPEAKER_02: When we're not doing that, you get affection.
• 1:14:13
  SPEAKER_02: And she told me what to do.
• 1:14:14
  SPEAKER_02: So then two weeks later, because she took all my nails out, she said, take it off.
• 1:14:18
  SPEAKER_02: She took that shit off, put a band-aid on it.
• 1:14:20
  SPEAKER_02: She's like, This is what you do.
• 1:14:21
  SPEAKER_02: You come back to me when this is healed.
• 1:14:24
  SPEAKER_02: And then you didn't have to make appointments either.
• 1:14:26
  SPEAKER_02: So I remember when Missy finally retired after she had done my nails for like three, four years.
• 1:14:31
  SPEAKER_02: I was going to glamour nails where everybody in Clarkson was going.
• 1:14:34
  SPEAKER_02: So all the girls in the high schools and colleges was going to glamour.
• 1:14:37
  SPEAKER_02: At that time, alright, I didn't, I'm in high school now, so I'm getting long, color, hairbrush, swirl, whatever.
• 1:14:43
  SPEAKER_02: Then I go to, I transitioned to Nails for You because glamour started not doing good work.
• 1:14:52
  SPEAKER_02: So at the time, the best nail salon at the time was VIP nails, but they was just always too busy for me.
• 1:14:59
  SPEAKER_02: So I started going to a nail shop called Nails for You.
• 1:15:03
  SPEAKER_02: It was a guy that I'm in high school with, his grandmother owned it.
• 1:15:06
  SPEAKER_02: I went to Nails for You, and I would come home.
• 1:15:10
  SPEAKER_02: This is how serious it was about my nails when I was in college.
• 1:15:12
  SPEAKER_02: I would still come home every two, two to three weeks to get my nails done because Amazon, Indiana, I don't like their nail shops, I don't like their hair.
• 1:15:20
  SPEAKER_02: It's a chop up there.
• 1:15:21
  SPEAKER_02: So every time I would come back, who do your nails?
• 1:15:23
  SPEAKER_02: Who do your hair girl?
• 1:15:24
  SPEAKER_02: I go back to Tennessee, get my shit done.
• 1:15:26
  SPEAKER_02: So by the time I go to nails from you from 2012 to about 2018.
• 1:15:37
  SPEAKER_02: Six years.
• 1:15:39
  SPEAKER_02: Now I'll never forget it was tax time.
• 1:15:44
  SPEAKER_02: I was getting, I'm a person I get my nails and feet done every two.
• 1:15:47
  SPEAKER_02: I get my feet done once a month because I get gel polished and I get my nails done every two to three weeks.
• 1:15:53
  SPEAKER_02: This lady knows me.
• 1:15:55
  SPEAKER_02: Right?
• 1:15:56
  SPEAKER_02: Did my nails to my prom, had known me for years.
• 1:16:00
  SPEAKER_02: This particular time it was tax season, so I took, I took my mom and I was making this like one of the things.
• 1:16:05
  SPEAKER_00: Yes, you told me this.
• 1:16:06
  SPEAKER_00: Yes.
• 1:16:07
  SPEAKER_02: I was at Enterprise, so I was making good ass money for somebody.
• 1:16:11
  SPEAKER_02: You know, I was making good ass money at 23 years old.
• 1:16:14
  SPEAKER_02: So I told my mama, I said, girl, I want to get your nails and your feet done on me.
• 1:16:18
  SPEAKER_02: Get whatever you want.
• 1:16:20
  SPEAKER_02: So it was me and my mama, it was like three other black girls, and it was two Hispanic girls.
• 1:16:26
  SPEAKER_02: It was two Puerto Rican girls and the Mexican girl.
• 1:16:28
  SPEAKER_02: The nail shop was packed.
• 1:16:29
  SPEAKER_02: And it was one white girl in there.
• 1:16:32
  SPEAKER_02: So me and my mom had gotten our nails done.
• 1:16:36
  SPEAKER_02: We both in the uh pedicure, we're about to get our feet done.
• 1:16:39
  SPEAKER_02: We're in the chair, sitting there getting our massages and whatever.
• 1:16:42
  SPEAKER_02: So the white woman comes in, and I have seen her a couple of times because over the years I've seen her get her nails done.
• 1:16:47
  SPEAKER_02: And you know, she white.
• 1:16:48
  SPEAKER_02: She was at the time, this is when white women wasn't getting all the designs and colors.
• 1:16:52
  SPEAKER_02: They would just even get solid color fresh and she'd get her little French tip.
• 1:16:56
  SPEAKER_02: And she was like, oh, wow.
• 1:16:58
  SPEAKER_02: And she didn't say it with no message.
• 1:16:59
  SPEAKER_02: Oh, y'all are packed today.
• 1:17:00
  SPEAKER_02: I'm came at the right time.
• 1:17:01
  SPEAKER_02: So the owner of this nail shop goes, you know how they do when it's tax season, they all come.
• 1:17:08
  SPEAKER_02: When I say you can hear a fucking pin drop, me and my mama looked at each other.
• 1:17:14
  SPEAKER_02: The other black girls in the shop, we looked at each other.
• 1:17:16
  SPEAKER_02: The Mexican girl who was getting her nails done right next was looking at me.
• 1:17:19
  SPEAKER_02: I'm looking at the Puerto Rican girls like this.
• 1:17:23
  SPEAKER_02: And I said this will, and I went up to pay.
• 1:17:26
  SPEAKER_02: I said this will be the, and at the time I had, I was working at Enterprise, so we had a solid nail.
• 1:17:32
  SPEAKER_02: Well, I was still getting designs.
• 1:17:33
  SPEAKER_02: I wasn't initially talking about, but I paid like$50 for me and my mom's fee, so that's$100.
• 1:17:39
  SPEAKER_02: I was getting the fill-in.
• 1:17:41
  SPEAKER_02: So I think my fill-in at the time was$40, that's$140.
• 1:17:44
  SPEAKER_02: My mom got a fresh set that was$60.
• 1:17:46
  SPEAKER_02: So$205 plus I tipped at 25%.
• 1:17:50
  SPEAKER_02: So I think I had gave her like$250.
• 1:17:54
  SPEAKER_02: But again, I was I was banking.
• 1:17:56
  SPEAKER_02: So I gave her$250.
• 1:17:57
  SPEAKER_02: I said, this will be the last fucking time you get my money.
• 1:18:00
  SPEAKER_02: What the no, no, what are you talking about?
• 1:18:02
  SPEAKER_02: I said, they all come to retire.
• 1:18:04
  SPEAKER_02: I said, I've been coming to you for 60.
• 1:18:05
  SPEAKER_02: I said, but that's how you feel about the people that keep your shop open?
• 1:18:08
  SPEAKER_02: Because that's because white women didn't start really getting their nails done until and it's the younger generation because they want to look like us to keep up with what the fuck we're doing.
• 1:18:16
  SPEAKER_02: But white girls are never in a nail shop like that.
• 1:18:18
  SPEAKER_02: And again, when a white woman used to go to nail shops, she would go and get her feet done or she would go get a friendship.
• 1:18:23
  SPEAKER_02: White women rarely got fucking color on their nails.
• 1:18:26
  SPEAKER_02: Yeah, the the cheap shit is we were spending the big books all week.
• 1:18:34
  SPEAKER_02: Even when I was in high school, when I was working, I started when I had my first job.
• 1:18:38
  SPEAKER_02: Girl, I was up in the nail shop every two weeks.
• 1:18:40
  SPEAKER_02: I was once done with them talking about it about it.
• 1:18:42
  SPEAKER_00: Because now, I mean, because now that I even think about it, back when that when people were getting airbrushed, when you go to the airbrush table, won't no white women at their airbrush table?
• 1:18:52
  SPEAKER_02: And I couldn't tell you, I was a white girl in the nail salon for real.
• 1:18:56
  SPEAKER_02: No.
• 1:18:57
  SPEAKER_02: Until I was grown.
• 1:18:59
  SPEAKER_02: Because again, yeah, that's not that was.
• 1:19:26
  SPEAKER_02: Y'all didn't even get y'all fucking nails done.
• 1:19:28
  SPEAKER_02: It wasn't until now everybody gets their nails done.
• 1:19:31
  SPEAKER_02: Correct.
• 1:19:31
  SPEAKER_02: And again, the younger generation of white women, they be so busy trying to take our stand and now they're getting long.
• 1:19:38
  SPEAKER_02: A white woman.
• 1:19:40
  SPEAKER_02: It was not a fucking thing.
• 1:19:41
  SPEAKER_00: That was not a thing.
• 1:19:42
  SPEAKER_00: That was not a thing.
• 1:19:42
  SPEAKER_02: So I'm just like, we the motherfuckers that's been keeping you open for you.
• 1:19:45
  SPEAKER_02: And that was the I think that was the last fucking time I went to an Asian salon.
• 1:19:53
  SPEAKER_02: Well, actually, no.
• 1:19:54
  SPEAKER_02: I ended up having to go to one, buy them all.
• 1:19:57
  SPEAKER_02: But I was going to after her, I found a Puerto Rican girl, she was doing my nails good for two fucking years.
• 1:20:05
  SPEAKER_02: Yeah.
• 1:20:06
  SPEAKER_02: But her husband got deported.
• 1:20:09
  SPEAKER_02: He wasn't, he was Mexican.
• 1:20:11
  SPEAKER_02: So they ended up, they had to pack up shop and move.
• 1:20:15
  SPEAKER_02: But, and then after her, I went to my boo Kay.
• 1:20:19
  SPEAKER_02: Kayla, who was my first black nail tech, went to her.
• 1:20:23
  SPEAKER_02: She was freaking amazing.
• 1:20:25
  SPEAKER_02: And then Kayla's husband, they got PCS because he was in the military.
• 1:20:29
  SPEAKER_02: Then when I moved to Nashville, no, then I was going to Michaela.
• 1:20:34
  SPEAKER_02: Mm-hmm.
• 1:20:35
  SPEAKER_02: And I ended up when I was in Nashville, I couldn't get back to her because I was working seven days a week.
• 1:20:40
  SPEAKER_02: So I found a black girl.
• 1:20:41
  SPEAKER_02: Shout out to Jennifer.
• 1:20:43
  SPEAKER_02: Amazing.
• 1:20:44
  SPEAKER_02: And then I when I moved back to Nashville, Clarksville, shout out to Michaela at bombshells.
• 1:20:49
  SPEAKER_02: But it just, especially when I wasn't making the money, I was just, I'm not, this is getting expensive.
• 1:20:54
  SPEAKER_02: But I think what I will do is book her for my next pedicure, just because I miss her and want to see her.
• 1:21:00
  SPEAKER_02: But like, I always trying to find a black girl nail tech or a Hispanic one because I never had any issues.
• 1:21:05
  SPEAKER_02: But like, yeah, she, yeah, you know how they do when the taxes come in.
• 1:21:12
  SPEAKER_02: Girl.
• 1:21:13
  SPEAKER_02: I said, oh, and I and I told I said, this will be the last fucking time you get a dime from me.
• 1:21:18
  SPEAKER_02: If y'all was the last nail shop to ever, just I would never get my nails done no more.
• 1:21:23
  SPEAKER_01: Girl.
• 1:21:24
  SPEAKER_02: Shirley did.
• 1:21:25
  SPEAKER_00: I just, I love the convenience.
• 1:21:28
  SPEAKER_00: I love getting what I want.
• 1:21:30
  SPEAKER_00: I love the options.
• 1:21:33
  SPEAKER_00: I love the time back.
• 1:21:35
  SPEAKER_00: I don't have to go anywhere, sit down in front of anybody.
• 1:21:39
  SPEAKER_00: It's just, I mean, it's just convenient.
• 1:21:41
  SPEAKER_00: It's convenient, and I'm keeping money in my pocket.
• 1:21:44
  SPEAKER_00: So I don't, I don't foresee me uh getting my actual nails done at a salon anytime soon.
• 1:21:50
  SPEAKER_00: I still get a pedicure, I still get my eyebrows done.
• 1:21:54
  SPEAKER_02: But see, my eyebrows, I can't get waxed.
• 1:21:58
  SPEAKER_02: Most waxes break my face out.
• 1:22:00
  SPEAKER_02: So I've been getting my eyebrows threaded since I've been 14.
• 1:22:04
  SPEAKER_02: So I let the Indian girls do my eyebrows.
• 1:22:06
  SPEAKER_02: Now for a while, there was a black estheticianist who was her eyebrows was beautiful, but she just fucking stopped.
• 1:22:14
  SPEAKER_02: So I went back to, I go to the Indian girls in the mall.
• 1:22:17
  SPEAKER_02: They're sweet.
• 1:22:18
  SPEAKER_02: I have no ad no nothing from them.
• 1:22:20
  SPEAKER_02: I get every three weeks, I get my eyebrows threaded and I get 10.
• 1:22:24
  SPEAKER_02: They still look.
• 1:22:25
  SPEAKER_02: But I let the I let my I let my India Asian babies do me for that.
• 1:22:29
  SPEAKER_02: But when I did have a black girl session, I was going to her, yeah.
• 1:22:33
  SPEAKER_02: Her work was really good.
• 1:22:39
  SPEAKER_02: And then I've obviously always had black uh women do my hair.
• 1:22:44
  SPEAKER_01: Oh yeah.
• 1:22:44
  SPEAKER_01: Oh yeah.
• 1:22:47
  SPEAKER_01: Oh, sis.
• 1:22:48
  SPEAKER_01: We've been talking, talking.
• 1:22:50
  SPEAKER_02: We have Oh so my my at this is incoming new.
• 1:23:03
  SPEAKER_02: My sister just texted him, she said, bitch.
• 1:23:05
  SPEAKER_02: So we're we're probably we're not gonna talk about it till next week, but there was a rumor, well, there was a something that dropped today about Nikki and Landria breaking up, but said, bitch, I think it's a false alarm.
• 1:23:17
  SPEAKER_02: She said Nick and Alandria both just unfollow People magazine and talking about suing them, so they're not thinking that is true.
• 1:23:23
  SPEAKER_00: Oh shit.
• 1:23:25
  SPEAKER_00: Okay.
• 1:23:26
  SPEAKER_00: Hello.
• 1:23:31
  SPEAKER_00: Yeah, we gotta talk about that next week.
• 1:23:33
  SPEAKER_00: Hopefully, more will unfold um in the next several days.
• 1:23:37
  SPEAKER_00: So when I come back from this trip, we can um we can definitely cover that.
• 1:23:42
  SPEAKER_02: Um TT supposed to just drop the YouTube channel.
• 1:23:53
  SPEAKER_00: We also gotta talk about uh coming up next week too.
• 1:23:56
  SPEAKER_00: We gotta talk about the woo lady and all that crazy ass shit.
• 1:24:00
  SPEAKER_00: Um so yeah, we will have a jam pack a jam-packed episode next week, I promise y'all.
• 1:24:08
  SPEAKER_00: Um, but let me just let me uh you know celebrate this 35th this weekend and come on back.
• 1:24:16
  SPEAKER_00: Yeah, come on, come on back home to y'all, and uh we will have a jam-packed episode um next week, definitely.
• 1:24:26
  SPEAKER_00: So tune in, tune in.
• 1:24:28
  SPEAKER_00: It will be worth the wait.
• 1:24:31
  SPEAKER_00: Worth the wait.
• 1:24:32
  SPEAKER_02: Yes, um, we love y'all.
• 1:24:34
  SPEAKER_02: I want to end this episode with happy diamond.
• 1:24:36
  SPEAKER_02: Uh happy diamond.
• 1:24:38
  SPEAKER_02: Happy diamond day.
• 1:24:41
  SPEAKER_02: Happy birthday, diamond.
• 1:24:42
  SPEAKER_02: That's what I was trying to say.
• 1:24:45
  SPEAKER_02: Thank you.
• 1:24:47
  SPEAKER_02: 35 blessings in the next 35 days towards you.
• 1:24:51
  SPEAKER_02: I pray you have an amazing birthday trip.
• 1:24:53
  SPEAKER_02: It's all that you want, and I'm excited to see what 35 looks for you, sister.
• 1:24:58
  SPEAKER_00: Yay, thank you.
• 1:25:00
  SPEAKER_00: Thank you, sis.
• 1:25:01
  SPEAKER_00: I'm so excited.
• 1:25:02
  SPEAKER_00: I'm so happy, I'm so excited, I'm blessed.
• 1:25:04
  SPEAKER_00: Obviously, when you come back, you gotta tell us about your trip.
• 1:25:07
  SPEAKER_00: Yes, definitely.
• 1:25:10
  SPEAKER_02: But all right, sugar boogers.
• 1:25:12
  SPEAKER_02: This has been Ashley and this is Diamond.
• 1:25:16
  SPEAKER_02: And we are closing out on this episode of Sisters and Saint.
• 1:25:19
  SPEAKER_02: Love y'all.
• 1:25:20
  SPEAKER_02: We'll see y'all next week.
• 1:25:21
  SPEAKER_02: Bye.
• 1:25:22
  SPEAKER_02: Bye.