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I couldn’t stand the screaming 😩 My breath work experience · She Rises with Ashy & Tijana

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  Speaker 4: To Hello and Glow.
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  Speaker 1: Oh. Today I'm going to be sharing a breath work
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  Speaker 1: experience that I had. Hi, I'm really excited to And
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  Speaker 1: then I've asked here if she can reshare some of
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  Speaker 1: yours that you had, because we did do a whole
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  Speaker 1: episode on it. But in case you're new to Grow
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  Speaker 1: and Glow, maybe you've missed that episode. We've done quite
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  Speaker 1: a few episodes now, I wonder how many.
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  Speaker 4: We've done over a hundred.
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  Speaker 3: I think it's like around probably one hundred and ten,
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  Speaker 3: maybe more by the time.
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  Speaker 1: Yes, it was a long time ago. You did that episode. Yes,
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  Speaker 1: So yeah, I want to talk about my experience because
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  Speaker 1: breath work, as we spoke about with Levi, it's very
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  Speaker 1: trendy and people talk about it a lot, and you
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  Speaker 1: see on social media a lot. It is honestly incredible
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  Speaker 1: to experience. So I run the Ultimate Girl's day out,
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  Speaker 1: so I'm always holding space for women because breath work
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  Speaker 1: is one of the activities that we do at our
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  Speaker 1: day retreats, but I don't go and do it a
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  Speaker 1: lot myself, and I always get quite envious of the
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  Speaker 1: girls that come to our days because it's just such
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  Speaker 1: a cool day and to watch them have those releases
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  Speaker 1: and have the visions and have the experience, I'm like,
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  Speaker 1: I want to do that. And I've done probably six
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  Speaker 1: or seven breath works and only one of them I've
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  Speaker 1: had another good experience, But like I had an experience
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  Speaker 1: the rest, I fell asleep. I got distracted by the noise.
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  Speaker 1: I just couldn't drop in for whatever reason. So anyways,
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  Speaker 1: I booked myself in to do this breath work session.
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  Speaker 1: It's really good. We did ice bath and they did
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  Speaker 1: like a little meditation beforehand. But I told myself, I
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  Speaker 1: was like, this is your time. To be held. This
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  Speaker 1: is your time, like go hard, Like make sure I
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  Speaker 1: really put everything into it, because the breath is actually work.
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  Speaker 1: You actually have to be so conscious to be breathing
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  Speaker 1: at a certain rate and taking full breath in because
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  Speaker 1: you're trying to release the DMT. You're trying to get
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  Speaker 1: yourself in an altered state. So it's actually quite hard.
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  Speaker 4: And even like my mouth was getting really.
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  Speaker 1: I've got the biggest slayer of lip. But long before
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  Speaker 1: he started, what idea, Yeah, so I'll set the scene.
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  Speaker 1: We all got stage and we walked in and it's
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  Speaker 1: all dark and there's lights and music going, and then
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  Speaker 1: we all lay down in a circle and we're getting
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  Speaker 1: into it, and I start to feel tingly, which is
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  Speaker 1: quite normal, and I was like, yes, we're going there.
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  Speaker 1: And I've done Ayahuascar once and you feel a lot
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  Speaker 1: of tingly and like sensations in your body and that's
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  Speaker 1: when you know what You're starting to get there. As
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  Speaker 1: I'm feeling this and I'm like, yes, about to drop in.
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  Speaker 1: This woman across me screaming. I'm not talking a cry
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  Speaker 1: or a little release like I'm talking screaming like she
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  Speaker 1: is getting chased by a murderer. Wow, and I freak
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  Speaker 1: the fuck out. I pull my eyemask off. I'm literally
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  Speaker 1: ready to get up and run out the door. Oh
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  Speaker 1: my god. And one of the guys that was facilitating it,
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  Speaker 1: he comes and pushes my shoulders back down, is like,
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  Speaker 1: you're safe, You're okay, and I was like, I start
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  Speaker 1: then crying. I don't like this sound. I don't like
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  Speaker 1: the sound like, get me out. I can't handle the screaming.
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  Speaker 1: And as I'm saying this, I'm trying to stay in it.
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  Speaker 1: But I could also hear like the logical part of
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  Speaker 1: me being like you hold space. I've been doing this
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  Speaker 1: all the time, and I'm fine with that. I love
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  Speaker 1: when they scream and have their releases because I'm not
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  Speaker 1: in a vulnerable state when I'm laying there having my
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  Speaker 1: own experience. I was freaking out. I could not handle it.
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  Speaker 1: And she went on for a little while, and he
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  Speaker 1: need to hold me the whole time and just get
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  Speaker 1: me back to my breath, so i'd like calm down
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  Speaker 1: on my feet's tapping on the ground. I'm like tapping
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  Speaker 1: my arms. I'm crawling out of the ball. I'm like
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  Speaker 1: playing with my eyemask. I'm just so like agitated and
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  Speaker 1: I just want to go. It is too much anyway,
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  Speaker 1: So you got me back breathing. She starts to quiet
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  Speaker 1: and down. I'm back in my breath. I'm like, okay,
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  Speaker 1: I've got this. She's had her release. Now it's my turn. Breathing, breathing, breathing,
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  Speaker 1: start to get the tingles again, she goes again. I'm like,
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  Speaker 1: it's worse this time. I'm like, no, I can't handle
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  Speaker 1: the screaming, like crying, crying, crying. And then the dean
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  Speaker 1: came up to me, the woman that was running, and
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  Speaker 1: she's like, this is your edge. This is what he
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  Speaker 1: used to do, right. He used to yell at you.
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  Speaker 1: You weren't safe. You're safe now. And then I was like, boom,
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  Speaker 1: that's my little girl. She's so scared. So now my
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  Speaker 1: work is to actually tell my body and show my
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  Speaker 1: body that I'm safe because as a little girl, I
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  Speaker 1: didn't feel safe. I used to run away. I would
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  Speaker 1: literally run bait in the middle of the night, like
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  Speaker 1: if we get into an argument, I would run away
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  Speaker 1: and sit on the side of a street in the dark,
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  Speaker 1: like I would always run away from him because I
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  Speaker 1: was so scared. And she's like, this is your edge.
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  Speaker 1: This is your edge, And in that moment, I was like, Okay,
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  Speaker 1: I have to learn to be okay with the noise
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  Speaker 1: and with the screaming, and no matter what is going
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  Speaker 1: on in the world, whether it's COVID, whether it was
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  Speaker 1: my stepdad, whether it was trolls, whatever noise is going
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  Speaker 1: out there, I am safe in my own body. And
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  Speaker 1: in that moment, I just got back to my breath,
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  Speaker 1: back to my breath. And it happened throughout the whole session,
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  Speaker 1: other women having releases and screaming. My friend next to
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  Speaker 1: me screamed really, really loud, and each time it happened,
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  Speaker 1: I was like, this is my age, this is my age.
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  Speaker 1: You're okay, You're safe, and I'd just get back to
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  Speaker 1: my breath. I'd still had physical reactions, like my feet
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  Speaker 1: would start tapping and I would like grab my thighs
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  Speaker 1: and like it's almost like anxious because it felt really
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  Speaker 1: uncomfortable listening to the screams. And then say they would
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  Speaker 1: settle down. Lots of tears came out, massive, massive tears.
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  Speaker 1: I cried so much, and then there was a really
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  Speaker 1: peaceful moment where I went back into the same timeline
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  Speaker 1: as to when I did my inner child healing with Megan,
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  Speaker 1: which Megsy never call a Megan, that's weird, Mesy. So
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  Speaker 1: she with my inner child healing. She took me through
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  Speaker 1: from as young as I can remember up to as
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  Speaker 1: old as I am now, all of my basically really
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  Speaker 1: traumatic moments, and one of them was in I can
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  Speaker 1: literally remember the details of my bedroom. I had different
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  Speaker 1: colored walls, different colored drawers. It was a whole rainbow
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  Speaker 1: room at a single bed. And I remember one night
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  Speaker 1: Andrew was going crazy yelling at me, Mum wasn't home.
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  Speaker 1: It was awful, smacked me. He went down to my
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  Speaker 1: room and I remember sitting at the top of my
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  Speaker 1: bed like in a ball, like rocking, and there I was.
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  Speaker 1: There's this vision of me there rocking, and then Taj
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  Speaker 1: walks in and sits next to me as a little girl,
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  Speaker 1: and he puts his arm around her and comforts her.
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  Speaker 1: And then I walk in as a grown adult and
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  Speaker 1: put my arm around them both, and it was so beautiful,
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  Speaker 1: so made me cry, so beautiful that like had these
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  Speaker 1: two little kids that then, aren't you gonna cry? Don't
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  Speaker 1: you cry? That didn't mean to say don't cry, just.
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  Speaker 4: Because it's good.
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  Speaker 1: We love crying, but it was so beautiful to be
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  Speaker 1: able to hold space for these two little humans and
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  Speaker 1: tell them that they're safe. And I got to give
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  Speaker 1: them in that moment what I would have needed. And
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  Speaker 1: Taj is just like anyone that's metage. He is just
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  Speaker 1: the most beautiful, selfless, caring, loving, so gentle, always thinking
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  Speaker 1: the other person. He's so considerate. He's just such a
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  Speaker 1: beautiful person. And it was so nice to see him
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  Speaker 1: cuddle her because that's what he would like, he would do. Yeah,
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  Speaker 1: he's even got this little friend at school at the moment.
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  Speaker 1: I met her mum a couple of weeks ago and
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  Speaker 1: she said, oh, your son is so beautiful. My little
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  Speaker 1: girls getting bullied at school, and if Taj was not here,
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  Speaker 1: I wouldn't be able to get her here. He's the
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  Speaker 1: only reason that she can show up each day. Now.
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  Speaker 1: I was like, oh, my gosh, So he's just a
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  Speaker 1: beautiful soul. So to watch him put his arm around
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  Speaker 1: my little girl and then me come in and be
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  Speaker 1: able to hold space for them both, it was so beautiful.
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  Speaker 1: It was the best vision, and I just had so
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  Speaker 1: many more tears, but like happiness tears, So the first
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  Speaker 1: tears were like so frightened, scared, wanting to run away
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  Speaker 1: as I always have as little girl growing up, and
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  Speaker 1: then regulating and then being able to have the happiness
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  Speaker 1: of like tears flowing for that. So yeah, it was
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  Speaker 1: really really powerful. At the end when we came out
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  Speaker 1: of it, I think we got about ten minutes to
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  Speaker 1: lay down there more. I really think we should have
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  Speaker 1: had longer. I felt like I was not ready to
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  Speaker 1: come out of that state yet and I needed a
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  Speaker 1: little bit more time just to process and like regulate
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  Speaker 1: in a different way.
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  Speaker 4: Yeah, back to feeling like you're ready to open up.
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  Speaker 1: Yeah, yeah, exactly. So that was quite hard that I
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  Speaker 1: felt a bit rush to come out of it. But
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  Speaker 1: then we all came in a circle and me and
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  Speaker 1: my girlfriend were big talkers and like, does anyone want
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  Speaker 1: to share in me?
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  Speaker 3: Her?
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  Speaker 1: Like yes, And I also wanted to retell it, so
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  Speaker 1: that's fresh in my memory because sometimes you can walk
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  Speaker 1: away from experience like that and it's just like what
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  Speaker 1: the fuck happened? So I wanted to retell it, so
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  Speaker 1: I just like remembered every detail. But yeah, it was
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  Speaker 1: really interesting just how I know I'm noise sensitive, but
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  Speaker 1: when I'm vulnerable and scared, like I just could not
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  Speaker 1: handle when she picked up on that, and it's cool
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  Speaker 1: she must have known a little bit about my history
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  Speaker 1: with my stepdad. When she's like, this is your age
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  Speaker 1: and sort of used to do and you didn't feel safe.
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  Speaker 1: I was like, oh my goodness, yep, this is my
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  Speaker 1: responsibility now. I need to make sure I feel safe
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  Speaker 1: within my own body. So it was amazing, and I
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  Speaker 1: was like, I want to do more of this because
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  Speaker 1: all of that is like leave. I taught us. Trauma
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  Speaker 1: is stress in the body from something that's happened in
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  Speaker 1: our past that we haven't healed through and released out
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  Speaker 1: of our body. We've stored it, we've parked it to
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  Speaker 1: the side because it's too painful, we don't know what
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  Speaker 1: to do with it, and then we've got unhealthy coping
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  Speaker 1: mechanisms along the way. I just think, no matter what
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  Speaker 1: we go on through life, and trauma doesn't have to
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  Speaker 1: be a huge, massive moment. It can just be a
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  Speaker 1: moment where our needs were not met. That is a
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  Speaker 1: form of trauma. So as we grow up and as
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  Speaker 1: we go in our lives, there's so many little microtraumatic
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  Speaker 1: moments that stored in our body. And even though I've
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  Speaker 1: had that release, like I would love to do this,
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  Speaker 1: I don't know, maybe once a quarter or something and
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  Speaker 1: just see what comes up. Definitely, I felt so good
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  Speaker 1: to get rid of that energy and to learn those
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  Speaker 1: lessons and to see those beautiful visuals. I must say,
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  Speaker 1: though I was absolutely exhausted that week.
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  Speaker 4: I was gonna ask how you felt.
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  Speaker 1: Oh man, I mean, it was a big week of
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  Speaker 1: a lot of things going on. I think that the
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  Speaker 1: week after I was announcing the closure, baseline had my
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  Speaker 1: surgery date booked in, like there was a lot happening,
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  Speaker 1: but I couldn't even function. Got to to day and
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  Speaker 1: I was like, I'm not even the end of the day.
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  Speaker 1: I remember being in my office. Now I've got to
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  Speaker 1: couch my office and I was sitting at my desk
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  Speaker 1: and I honestly felt like my head could have fallen
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  Speaker 1: on the laptop. I was that tired. I laid down
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  Speaker 1: and put in meditation and had to sleep for twenty minutes.
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  Speaker 1: Was anyone that knows me? That's not me. No, I'm
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  Speaker 1: not even a napper like, but I was so tired
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  Speaker 1: for a good solid week.
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  Speaker 4: What about after that week? Did you feel lighter?
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  Speaker 1: I still feel exhausted, I think just the last couple
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  Speaker 1: of years and months of catching up on me. But
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  Speaker 1: I felt lighter and energetically. I feel so much lighter
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  Speaker 1: and calmer and more compassion for my and also just
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  Speaker 1: once again I said it in that big episode announcing
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  Speaker 1: the closure and all the downloads I've had, I think
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  Speaker 1: it's helped me soften more. I just feel like everything
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  Speaker 1: that's happened is happening at the perfect time to push
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  Speaker 1: me in the direction that is meant for me, and
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  Speaker 1: that is to learn how to soften, learn how to
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  Speaker 1: trust my body more, learn to just do life differently
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  Speaker 1: in a way that feels more aligned to me right now,
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  Speaker 1: and meet my self rome at right now. So it
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  Speaker 1: was huge release, but so incredible beautiful. I wanted to
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  Speaker 1: be there to support your little girl. I actually got to.
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  Speaker 3: Contact off Megsie, contact off Megsic because I was like,
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  Speaker 3: I feel like I want to have another release. Yeah, yeah,
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  Speaker 3: because yeah, I want to find someone as well, the
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  Speaker 3: same as you, where I can go, even if it's
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  Speaker 3: like four times a year, just to have a release
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  Speaker 3: and just move this stored energy.
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  Speaker 1: Definitely. So that's the one you're telling me about, No.
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  Speaker 3: That's a different healer, but then Megsi also sent me one,
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  Speaker 3: but I was going to try the one near me
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  Speaker 3: first because this one's up near your way.
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  Speaker 4: But then also I think.
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  Speaker 3: She did come.
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  Speaker 1: I think she did a couple of weeks ago. Is
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  Speaker 1: it not her car practice, but I think it is. Yes, Yes,
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  Speaker 1: an amazing experience. Yes, so cool.
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  Speaker 3: Yeah, and there's so many different ways we can get
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  Speaker 3: releases breath work.
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  Speaker 4: I mean yeah for me as well, it was such
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  Speaker 4: a beautiful.
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  Speaker 1: Way to try to share a little bit of what you.
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  Speaker 3: Yeah, it's so funny, I said to Actually, I'm like,
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  Speaker 3: it feels like so long ago now, so hopefully my
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  Speaker 3: memories up to scratch.
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  Speaker 4: But I remember the.
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  Speaker 3: Same thing as you. I had the sensations of the
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  Speaker 3: tingles in my fingers and my feet, but instead of
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  Speaker 3: like my body moving, I was curling in. Do you
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  Speaker 3: remember that she was there, so she was actually like
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  Speaker 3: watching me and supporting like all of the girls and
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  Speaker 3: me at the time. But I felt similar as in
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  Speaker 3: the way to fully release and let go, and I
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  Speaker 3: started to feel those feelings and I was just.
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  Speaker 4: Like holding on, like you can feel that holding on feeling.
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  Speaker 3: Hey, We're like no, keep it in, give it in,
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  Speaker 3: give it in. And then you came up to me
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  Speaker 3: and you were like, I think you said, just let
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  Speaker 3: it out, put your.
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  Speaker 1: Hands on my shoulders.
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  Speaker 3: And as soon as you said it, like I just
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  Speaker 3: let loose. I just had the biggest sob ever. And
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  Speaker 3: it's like, the crying isn't what you think? The crying,
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  Speaker 3: well what I thought in my head. I thought it
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  Speaker 3: would just be like, oh, like geers flowing down crying.
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  Speaker 3: It's like proper so wailing. That's only the best way
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  Speaker 3: to say it, because it's noisy, it's messy, it's vulnerable,
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  Speaker 3: and yeah, it's so releasing though, like such a beautiful
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  Speaker 3: feeling to have a cry like that.
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  Speaker 1: Isn't it? Because we just don't allow it. We don't
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  Speaker 1: allow ourselves and give ourselves permission to do that anymore.
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  Speaker 1: Watched Tyler, She lets it all out. Oh yeah, to
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  Speaker 1: your girlfriend, you feel comfortable and safe. You don't have
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  Speaker 1: any shame around that stubs your toes. Like, but we
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  Speaker 1: somewhere along the line just push it all down. I know. Yeah.
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  Speaker 3: In my experience, I was in the cupboard. I was
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  Speaker 3: a little girl in my cupboard. I remember I had
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  Speaker 3: my knees tucked up into my chest. I'm trying to
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  Speaker 3: visualize it, so I'm moving myself into the position, and
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  Speaker 3: I was rocking back and forth, and I remember opening
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  Speaker 3: my eyes and I was peeking out the hole like
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  Speaker 3: the crack through the sliding door of the cupboard. And
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  Speaker 3: I can't remember exactly what happened, but I do remember
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  Speaker 3: at one point I came in and I got down
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  Speaker 3: onto their level, like my own level as me as
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  Speaker 3: a little girl, and I put my arms out and
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  Speaker 3: I said like, come here, I've got you. There was
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  Speaker 3: something to a light, and she went to walk towards
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  Speaker 3: the light first, I think, and then I was like, no, no.
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  Speaker 1: I've got you. I've got you, and she ran back
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  Speaker 1: and cuddled me.
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  Speaker 3: But yeah, it's just one of those experiences in life
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  Speaker 3: that is so transformational, and until you actually experience it,
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  Speaker 3: it sounds.
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  Speaker 1: Quite woo woo. It does.
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  Speaker 4: It sounds quite.
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  Speaker 1: Out of time, comfortable and scary.
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  Speaker 3: Yeah, And you don't know what's gonna come. You don't
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  Speaker 3: know what you're going to feel in those moments. But
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  Speaker 3: I remember afterwards I did feel quite exhausted, quite drained
• 14:40
  Speaker 3: and tired. But it was like only two days or
• 14:42
  Speaker 3: so late for me, and I was like, oh my gosh,
• 14:43
  Speaker 3: I just feel like there was like a weight lifted
• 14:46
  Speaker 3: off my shoulders and mine was at the Ultimate Girl's
• 14:48
  Speaker 3: day Out, And I feel like the timing of the
• 14:51
  Speaker 3: way that you guys do it there is amazing. I
• 14:53
  Speaker 3: feel like, you know, you get to know everyone, you
• 14:56
  Speaker 3: get really comfortable with everyone. You do a yoga session,
• 14:58
  Speaker 3: you you know, vulnerable with your art therapy, so you
• 15:02
  Speaker 3: feel really safe in this environment.
• 15:04
  Speaker 1: In when you're body because of the dance class. Yeah,
• 15:07
  Speaker 1: I don't think people realize, but like the way Leaver
• 15:09
  Speaker 1: and I structured that day is actually very intentional like that, yes,
• 15:13
  Speaker 1: because each activity that we do is designed to help
• 15:15
  Speaker 1: you drop in and create safety within the environment and
• 15:18
  Speaker 1: the group that when it comes to the breath work,
• 15:20
  Speaker 1: there's no ego, there's no wall, there's complete safety, not
• 15:24
  Speaker 1: only with us as the facilitators, but with the girls
• 15:26
  Speaker 1: that you've bonded with all day. And that's why we
• 15:29
  Speaker 1: have such incredible transformational releases because of that level of safety.
• 15:33
  Speaker 1: And that's why I haven't had that in the other
• 15:36
  Speaker 1: times I've done it. I think because I've just like
• 15:37
  Speaker 1: rocked up to do this breathwork session. I don't even
• 15:39
  Speaker 1: know the facilitator, and I don't think I can drop in, yeah,
• 15:42
  Speaker 1: because I think you have to go to a day
• 15:44
  Speaker 1: like this where you get that connection and level of safety.
• 15:46
  Speaker 1: It's really important.
• 15:47
  Speaker 4: It's beautiful and even at the end too.
• 15:50
  Speaker 1: I like that for ages.
• 15:51
  Speaker 3: Yeah, after my breathwork session, I remember when I first
• 15:54
  Speaker 3: opened my eyes up, I was like all I realized
• 15:56
  Speaker 3: was like, holy Doly. We had these imaarks on, which
• 15:58
  Speaker 3: are amazing too. They block out everything, but I was like,
• 16:01
  Speaker 3: they are drenched. I remember I sat up and I
• 16:03
  Speaker 3: could like ring them out.
• 16:05
  Speaker 4: You had so many tears.
• 16:07
  Speaker 3: But then it was beautiful and even when we did
• 16:10
  Speaker 3: decide to finally sit.
• 16:11
  Speaker 4: Up, you could just sit there.
• 16:12
  Speaker 3: Yeah, take your te and like you're right, you do
• 16:14
  Speaker 3: need that after a breath Yeah.
• 16:16
  Speaker 1: So much. So hey, uh huh, it's so amazing. I
• 16:20
  Speaker 1: just think it's so cool if everyone wants to experience that.
• 16:22
  Speaker 1: And you might be listening thinking I don't have any trauma.
• 16:25
  Speaker 1: You do? You do? Everyone has stress. Like I said,
• 16:29
  Speaker 1: it doesn't have to be one big significant event like
• 16:31
  Speaker 1: you might have had a great childhood, but there is
• 16:33
  Speaker 1: micro moments of storage stress in your body. Definitely, you
• 16:37
  Speaker 1: feel so much lighter and the lighter you feel, the
• 16:39
  Speaker 1: more that you get to clear it just helps you
• 16:42
  Speaker 1: gain clarity on who you are, what you want on life,
• 16:45
  Speaker 1: how you're showing up, what's working, what's not, and then
• 16:48
  Speaker 1: you can make more aligned decisions. Yeah, which in the
• 16:50
  Speaker 1: end that's so important. Definitely. So as you keep just
• 16:53
  Speaker 1: showing up, out of pattern, out of habit, out of
• 16:56
  Speaker 1: what you know you think you should be doing, you're
• 16:58
  Speaker 1: not as conscious. Yeah, you kind of sleep walking through life.
• 17:01
  Speaker 4: Definitely.
• 17:02
  Speaker 3: Once you become conscious, it's very hard to become unconscious
• 17:04
  Speaker 3: of you.
• 17:04
  Speaker 1: Yeah. Yeah, you can't once you're away, you can't go
• 17:07
  Speaker 1: back to sleep walking through life. No, no, no. Yeah.
• 17:10
  Speaker 4: And would you want to know exactly so much a purpose?
• 17:13
  Speaker 1: Definitely not so. Yeah, I'm really excited to do more
• 17:16
  Speaker 1: shes just finding the right places to do it.
• 17:18
  Speaker 4: Ultimate Girls Day Out was amazing.
• 17:20
  Speaker 1: Honestly, Yeah, it is really good. I don't want to
• 17:23
  Speaker 1: toot our own horn, but like, honestly, I've been to
• 17:25
  Speaker 1: so many days and just no one does it like us. Yeah,
• 17:28
  Speaker 1: it's incredible, really, Like I've been to a couple and
• 17:31
  Speaker 1: they've been okay, and some of the activities of love
• 17:34
  Speaker 1: someone like mah, but what we do there. It is
• 17:37
  Speaker 1: next level and the whole day's jampack like that. Like
• 17:40
  Speaker 1: I felt like this when I went to It was
• 17:42
  Speaker 1: really good, but there was a lot of like sit
• 17:43
  Speaker 1: down talking and stuff where I don't know, Yeah, I
• 17:46
  Speaker 1: feel like there could have been.
• 17:47
  Speaker 4: There's so much value in one way.
• 17:49
  Speaker 3: Yeah, yeah, being someone who's like gone and attended and
• 17:52
  Speaker 3: had the whole experience, like you literally wake up at
• 17:55
  Speaker 3: sunrise and from sunrise till literally nighttime, like the amount
• 17:59
  Speaker 3: of knowledge that you learn. Like I remember going home
• 18:02
  Speaker 3: and just being like I need to just like write
• 18:03
  Speaker 3: everything down here because it's just so much even art
• 18:06
  Speaker 3: therapy and I still do that to this day, like
• 18:08
  Speaker 3: my painting, and like I love art therapy.
• 18:11
  Speaker 1: I feel like art therapy is one of the moments
• 18:13
  Speaker 1: where the women get most vulnerable, and that's where we
• 18:15
  Speaker 1: learn so much about them. That the stories they share
• 18:18
  Speaker 1: and how much they learn about themselves through art, it
• 18:20
  Speaker 1: blows my mind every time. When Levi first suggested to
• 18:23
  Speaker 1: me about art therapy putting it in there, I was like,
• 18:26
  Speaker 1: what the hell is that? Like I'd never done it,
• 18:28
  Speaker 1: and I just trusted his leader. I was like, okay,
• 18:30
  Speaker 1: because his mum runs it and every single time it
• 18:33
  Speaker 1: blows my mind. I loved it. It's so cool. Yeah,
• 18:36
  Speaker 1: very special.
• 18:37
  Speaker 4: So when is your next ultimate girls day out?
• 18:39
  Speaker 1: Yes, it's happening August eleventh, and this is our first
• 18:42
  Speaker 1: one in Brisbane. Oh yes. So we've done like I
• 18:44
  Speaker 1: think five or six on the Gold Coast. We've done
• 18:47
  Speaker 1: one in Melbourne, one in Adelaide, and Brisbane's next. We'd
• 18:50
  Speaker 1: like to do a Sydney one. I'm just going to
• 18:52
  Speaker 1: see how the rest of the year pans out. But yeah,
• 18:54
  Speaker 1: Brisbane August eleventh is so exciting, life changing day, life changing.
• 18:59
  Speaker 1: If you can get yourself there, it's one of the
• 19:01
  Speaker 1: best days of your life that it'll just be a
• 19:02
  Speaker 1: core memory.
• 19:04
  Speaker 3: And it's also like really great place to start your journey,
• 19:06
  Speaker 3: I feel like, because you go there and you learn
• 19:08
  Speaker 3: so much for any area of your journey, Like whenever
• 19:10
  Speaker 3: you want to go have a releaser. I think it's amazing.
• 19:12
  Speaker 3: But especially if you're like, oh, I don't know, it's
• 19:14
  Speaker 3: like no, if you're not sure, like yeah, go do it.
• 19:16
  Speaker 1: And if you wanted to surround yourself with like minded people,
• 19:19
  Speaker 1: because everyone's there wanting the same things, they're on that
• 19:21
  Speaker 1: similar vibration of wanting to grow and expand and unpack
• 19:25
  Speaker 1: and be around women that can hold them. You know.
• 19:28
  Speaker 1: I think that's really special, and that's really hard to
• 19:30
  Speaker 1: find adult friendships and people that on that same page.
• 19:32
  Speaker 3: Definitely well aligned friendships.
• 19:34
  Speaker 1: Yeah, so looking for a sign to do it. This
• 19:38
  Speaker 1: is it.
• 19:39
  Speaker 3: Thanks for sharing your experience to ability.
• 19:41
  Speaker 4: It's awesome here. I've been waiting to hear, waiting for
• 19:44
  Speaker 4: the podcast.
• 19:45
  Speaker 1: I want to tell you to go on there. I
• 19:47
  Speaker 1: was like, oh wait, oh, so freaking cool. All right, well,
• 19:50
  Speaker 1: we'll see you guys. Don't forget. We have a little
• 19:52
  Speaker 1: short episode on Friday. Otherwise, we'll see you next week
• 19:55
  Speaker 1: on Monday.
• 19:55
  Speaker 4: See you then, Fine,