Latest / Voice Notes to the Universe / Voice Note #120—Shut up Susan! Nobody likes you anyway!
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- speaker-0: Child. I am walking around the house, cleaning up the house, trying to cleanse the space, cleanse the energy. speaker-1: you speaker-0: You know eating candy corn and ice cream sandwiches and getting ready to heat up last night's ⁓ pizza in the oven. Shut the fuck up, don't you judge me, bitch. You shut up as I shove a candy corn in my mouth. God damn you. ⁓ my god. Whatever, whatever. I've been going through a lot of shit. speaker-1: you you speaker-0: You like that. I'm just like, this is that part of me that I have to talk to. That piece of shame. I feel like this the shame, this little manager. Meh meh meh meh meh. She's the little critic yelling at me all the time. I imagine her name's like fucking Susan. Like, shut the fuck up, Susan. Sit down, Susan. Nobody cares, Susan. Shut the fuck up. I think that that's what her name should be. That inner critic. speaker-1: you you speaker-0: Bitch's name. Susan from accounting. I don't fucking know, man. Is that a bit, maybe somewhere? I don't know. Susan from accounting. I don't know. Or like on a commercial. I don't fucking know. But that's her name. Or at least that's what I've named her today, right now. Anywho. But I was. I was just kinda cleaning up. speaker-1: you speaker-0: having a conversation with spirit. You know, and that's funny because spirit, I I I have this interesting relationship with the universe. But I sometimes I I have these conversations. I'm being I'm being guided, you know. And when I sit in the void speaker-1: you speaker-0: It sometimes it's it's not always like literally like I'm sitting somewhere. Like it could be the void within myself, right? I could be doing something. I could be walking, I could be whatever. Sometimes I'm even driving or like whatever. It's just really like, hey, I wanna talk to you, come listen to me. And so especially when I'm doing kind of my not mindless tasks, because I do my very best to be present in what I'm doing. As much as I can. I'm not perfect, right? speaker-1: you speaker-0: But I sometimes I get these messages from spirit and I'm like, what the fuck? Can you not ever speak to me in in plain English? Like, why are you why do you speak to me in riddles? Cause I swear to God, I'm like, I'm like, what that did that doesn't make that's not helpful. That doesn't make any sense. What is going on here? And like, why do you why why must you speak to me in riddles, you know? And then I hear Spirit saying, because that's the way you asked it to be. I'm like, fuck you. Why would I ever want you? I never said that, you know? And that's when I hear, well, your your soul already chose that. Your soul already decided that. And I'm like, why the fuck would I ever do that? Why? That's dumb. And then I hear spirit say, because you are the riddle, but you are also the the master riddler. That's why you created the riddles. Because you're the master riddler. Ask yourself, and I'm like, fuck you. Fuck you. And I'm like, I kind of dig it all at the same time. Like, god damn it. This is annoying, but I kinda love it. Cause it's like, then I get to go on a fucking scavenger hunt. I get to go on play dates with the universe. And we get to go on scavenger hunts, babies. Babies? I don't even know what I'm saying. But I was thinking about that and I used to love when I was a kid. I like to read Nancy Drew. ⁓ my oven's ready for my pizza. But I used to read Nancy Drew and the Hardy Boys. I love that stuff. Whenever like my favorite movie. speaker-1: you speaker-0: was the Goonies. ⁓ my god, I love the Goonies. but anyway, it just but that's what spirit says to me. And Spirit says, you know what? There's the gift and the curse of of of you. Like of kind of of being an oracle, right? And because I do and I know that when I speak to some people, there's certain people that are just speaker-1: you speaker-0: Because people tell me that, right? People say you're contrarian or you need to pick a lane. And I'm like, well, I can't really, because there's multiple lanes and they all have the right to exist and they all have room to breathe and exist. And you know, it's like it's kinda you know, I I see, you know, the last few years, I mean, I have spent so much time in the void connecting with myself. you know, humbling my ego, doing my shadow work, reconnecting with my body, learning to listen to her and take care of her and connecting with my intuition and and strengthening ⁓ my relationship even with the universe and I'm able to ⁓ hear better and to to listen better and and to also kind of speaker-1: . speaker-0: Mm, I d sometimes it's hard because it's such an internal knowing. But things just make more sense, right? Things begin to click a little quicker, a little easier. You you listen to your intuition quicker. E i it doesn't you don't doubt yourself in the way that you once did, right? 'Cause you just know it. You just it's so firmly embedded in your body, right? Because now that you've you've awoken, you've awa o awoken. Is that a word? I don't know, it's a word today, darling. But you you woke up, bitch. You woke up from a slumber and you're like, ⁓ shit, I have the ability to do this, right? And you could do it. But it it's n it's that easy, right? And it's and it's not, you know, maybe not everybody's like into it or no not everybody wants to, or ⁓ that's not everybody's, you know, ⁓ path to walk in this lifetime. But like this is the kind of shit right that could really annoy people about me because I I just I just believe it all has the right to exist and it's all meant to exist, you know, because there is a pl a higher purpose for everything, right? Even if we can't see it, even if we don't understand it, you know, whatever it is, right? ⁓ goodness, darling. But speaker-1: you speaker-0: You know, I even okay, so this one drives people crazy. 'Cause you know, when we talk about things, if if I'm having conversation with somebody and they'll say, Well, you know, you can't really or this could never be a thing because well why? Well because because of free will. And I go, ⁓ yeah, free will. Hmm. Well, I mean, do we really have free will? And then and then that person goes, Well, of course we do. Blah, blah, blah. I could choose you're right, you could choose, right? But are you choosing? Is it you that's choosing? Right? So I I just think that this is like, okay, so dig it. It's like a whole just a different perspective. And maybe other people have thought about this. I don't know if I necessarily thought it quite in this way, but I I I you know I I hear, you know, this is this is what I say. It's I hear Spirit says to me, it's not you know, and so this is what I say. It is not my my job to answer the questions. It is only my job to stand here with curios curiosity to ask the questions. It's it's up to each individual to interpret. speaker-1: you speaker-0: that information in whatever way they need to interpret it, whatever works for them intuitively. How how does it feel in your body? Does it resonate? Right? Like what does that mean for you? Because ultimately at the end of the day, it's the only way we can really truly make change in the world is if we make the change within the the world within ourselves, right? But anyway, that's a whole long thing. So it's not my responsibility to answer the questions. Only to stand here. with curiosity and ask the questions. And so I wonder, you know, when we talk about free will, you know, you do hear some people say, well, ⁓ if you believe in that we live multiple lives, right? And so there's this thought of of, you know, yes, we do live multiple lives, but it's like the vessel is different, but the soul is the same. speaker-1: you speaker-0: Right. And the soul is the embodiment or is the this internal in in the human body, right? And so that sometimes if you meet somebody, right, like, ⁓ my God, they're so familiar, or you know, ⁓ gosh, I feel like I've known you forever. It's probably 'cause you did your soul's, you know, your your humanness is just hasn't woken up to the to the memory of of your soul, right? And so, you know, there's this thought, right, of okay, well We're gonna get together as souls, you know, and and and perhaps some of us will have this red string, right? And where we're just kind of connected and we're like destined and fated to meet serve certain people in our lives to to help us ⁓ get us onto our get us onto our dharmic path, right? To help us in some way. And sometimes the help doesn't feel good. Sometimes the help. Is they do something bad to you. They do something not good to you. That's really not good. But your soul has already decided, has already decided that you in this human form are gonna alchemize this, you're gonna alchemize this trauma. And you're gonna turn you're gonna turn this into something beautiful. You're gonna turn your rage, you're gonna turn that into sacred rage. And you're gonna do something with that helps the collective, that helps other people, right? So God fucking damn it, yes, they are this catalyst for this, for this incredible, beautiful metamorphos of of our humanness and a way for us to connect to our higher consciousness and to our soul. speaker-1: you speaker-0: And to this tap into this, you know, universal existence that we all exist within each other. We are all a fucking mirror. We are all interconnected and intertwined. Whatever, even if we don't think so or we believe it, we can see that we are a mirror, we can see the light, and we can see the shadow in another. And so fuck me. Even those motherfuckers, sometimes, baby. ⁓ my God. Whew. speaker-1: you you speaker-0: Sometimes those are like the biggest things to get you onto your path. So it's like, okay, so if we've already decided this, if we already decide, maybe it's not us, because we're like a fucking puppet now for our for our soul. Maybe it's not us in our human form that has free will, but perhaps it's our soul that has free will. speaker-1: you speaker-0: Perhaps it's our soul that has free will, and our souls have already decided on whether or not we're gonna fucking enact our our free will. So every time you think you're making a decision, your soul has already just chosen that route for you, right? And I think that's kind of fucking wild. That's just a different perspective. It's just a different way of thinking about free will. Do we really have free will or do we not? Because are we like, you know, are we really just this vessel for the soul? Or are are we just like a puppet, right? And we don't even fucking know it. I think that's kind of fucking crazy and wild to think about like that. You know, and I think about like, I think about manifesting, right? Are we really manifesting what we want? Because I manifest shit and I'm like, where the fuck did that come from? Why is it that I all of a sudden I have this desire? I think I should do this, or I need this, or want this, or need to go this route, or what the fuck am I manifesting? Like, why do I feel this way? Is that me? Or is that somewhere my soul is like an SOS, or maybe not an SOS, but it's like a little message to my humanness of like, I. Over here, over here, over here. So maybe manifestations are really a remembrance. Maybe our manifestations are really a remembrance for our path. to get us on to our dharmic path for us to fulfill our purpose and our mission in this life. Maybe, right? Who the fuck knows? I don't goddamn know. I don't have any answers really. And every time I think I have an answer, every time I think that I know, because I can tell you that the only thing that I know in this life is that I don't know shit. And every time I think I know something, every time I think I've figured it out, that is when speaker-1: Thanks. speaker-0: The hand of God humbles me once again. And sometimes that humbling is a soft, quiet whisper. It's like, ⁓ okay. ⁓ I I see it. And sometimes it's like a motherfucker slap across the face and then they're gonna cross slap you across the other side of the face and then punch you in the face and kick you in the stomach. Like, what the fuck? speaker-1: you speaker-0: But I don't know. Maybe the things that we manifest are are really, you know, we're remembering what it is we we're we're wanting to do in this life, what we're meant to do with this life. You know, and and just like again when when people, you know, when people worry a lot, right? Or they say, you know, you we become the self-fulfilling prophecy. speaker-1: you speaker-0: ⁓ peep some people will say things over, ⁓ you know, ⁓ I'm afraid I'm getting a car accident, I'm afraid of this or that, and then it happens, right? And people say, ⁓ it's a self-fulfilling prophecy, right? Because you've said it so many times, it's like now you've got like this law of of attraction of to your frequency. Now you're going to attract this certain frequency towards you. Because if you were somebody that was really super positive, you know, and goes like, ⁓ I you know, had an uplifting thought and was like, Okay, and kind of rolled you know, with the waves a little bit more, maybe you know, you see those people, they just like attract all this goodness, right? Or all these opportunities, whatever the fuck it is, right? And so we can say, shit, they worried about it so much. That's kind of freaky.. That's a self-fulfilling prophecy. Is it? Is it though? Is it? Or is it a remembrance? Maybe that worry that we have is not because, ⁓ we're worried and we have anxiety and then we create it. Maybe it's because we already fucking know. Because somewhere our humanness has a little bit of, it's been able to a little bit tap into this the plan and the soul, right? Because there's just certain things, maybe like life, big changing things that. Are just fated, we can't control. You know what is in our control? Some things, but not maybe not everything. Who the fuck knows, really? I just think that it's interesting that maybe it's not fear that creates the self-fulfilling prophecy. Maybe it's a remembrance. Maybe it's a remembrance. Bitch, I don't fucking know. All right. This is my evening. Clean the house. speaker-1: you you speaker-0: Voice notes to the universe speaker-1: you