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#54 The Big Leap – a radical Space Shift (en) · Space Shifts

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Hallo ihr lieben, Willkommen zurück zu einer weiteren Podcast
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Episode von Space Shifts. Diesmal wird es ein englisches
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Interview, also wenn du dieser Sprache nicht mächtig bist, ist
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diese Folge vielleicht nichts für dich.
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Wenn du aber Lust hast reinzuhören, würde ich mich sehr
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freuen. Auch in dieser Folge geht es
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natürlich wieder um Space Shifts, also was wir in Räumen
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shiften, was uns shiftet und generell, ihr wisst ja, das
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Hauptthema ist einfach so, Persönlichkeitsentwicklung im
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Raum durch den Raum und umgekehrt, alles ist möglich und
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ich habe hier eine ganz fabelhafte Frau getroffen in
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Portugal, die so einen Ultrakrassen Shift hingelegt hat
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und das wollte ich euch nicht vorenthalten.
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So i will's what in to English now and say hello to many fabian
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who as a very famous movie director and but.
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I was that the people intudes them sells because i don't what
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to say something i can have that or i'm this something so
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welcome. I'm so like it to have you here
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i. Think you for haveing me, i
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think very them is pretty much covers it.
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That's that's everything now, I'm I'm a writer and director
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philmaker and a mom to teenage girls and I'm originally from
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losiandles currently live in London.
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And you I'm mostly of done Comedy, my hole live.
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I'm Barry interested in the spirital space.
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Yeah, that's what i think we have the feeling like to be
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connective kind of you've think I've say you have always but in
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to you more things and i have this and the the feeling that in
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germany like all this comedians are.
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Very funny, but at the sameside very depress and that's why they
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all so funny you know because the the sours comes from ja.
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Will. From drugles.
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You. Have the feeling that this is
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something for you to. With there's i do of a dark
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sensive humer, but i think what it what it coms from is last
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sadness for me last depression, but more truth, there's the
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truth is some times not beautiful and not what we all
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one people that think the truth about who we are it's hard for
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people to except the holness of artery right, we don't want to
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at mit that we are some times. Jeales or paddy or angry or with
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that we have in done things perfic liard of we've make a you
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know a gofalic that's my people love and someone falls down it's
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because they've made in a stak and there's this caperses in you
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know echnologing are a floss and i think that's what good comedy
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this is it shows how valorable we are so some times i think
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depression and sadness. You know sadness is a normal, no
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normal part of the holmness of being a human, but depression
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can some times be like on a loop of something that's not even
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true. It's your brain is telling your
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stories that are an even true will i think of this comedy is
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comedy is for me comedy is truth, there's a was some deeper
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truth an Infekt. That White Hit that's White hits
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so Hard. Ja, i just like just.
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You reckognasial selfin it and then you're oh my god i have to
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take it with you're my oh i will love out like that.
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You're and live all we see in to me like i was the kid that the
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funerals or hallarius i'm not obviously they're sand.
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Surf for the rest of you have. That's what's the chance of you
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what you was sending next. Surprate but I'll fairly all is
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joked three hard times. Yes, ok, all is made.
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Jokes and that's that's how we god true.
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That's how we Stade gloes and main taendar mental will being
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is just beingable to love it things or hard to love out.
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And it's a two to help you true. Yes, and it's also a tool to mic
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out. There's feel ok for a moment
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because if you're a merst in the deepest sadness, it will be you
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you have to be there for as long as you need to be there, but if
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i can make you last for a moment, you get a little relief.
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For i know because you can't be both at the sametime.
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So if you're system steps out of depression only for second, it's
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shows the rest of to system it's possible to step out.
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It's open's a little bit of a window there and i also think
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that lefter is very secret. It's a it's a cut dars us of
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something at to it's an automatic hum beautiful human
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respons it's like or gazum in a way you know it like you feel
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good, it's a release it's so i think it's very secret as well.
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It's super nessesory I'm going to get through live and to get
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through everthing ja, we what's you a movie here what we are in
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this beautiful workation at cas of the setta and noya at the
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agaf that's the place where we met and mandy brata movie here
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that's that like that and we have a goaly fidjama party movie
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night like i we are all brown ups up from the forties you.
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Or maybe that's they more up from the fifties, what every and
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i'm do the chick her and off was such you beautiful evening
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specity because of this movie and that was so many things i
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felt her the protagonist the main protagonist Charakter so
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matter was that I'll my down. That happen to me so off and not
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that happen to me. I was it.
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Yes, all you. Know because when i say that
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happen to me, it's like it happen to me.
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It's not my fall, that's what i that's that's what i don't want
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to see but like you and we all know and i think also win some
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on falls we have because. When we feld the last time to it
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was you know, we get connected like with all selbst and with
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the other people who are a shamed to and that mom and and
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things like that so this will be was so i don't like and the
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think it but you just so the bit of the story befor ja and and
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this hole situation i it i am this will be you have to see.
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It. I don't I don't.
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It's call just plus nan just we'll ling and.
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It's ok and the buy off this episode.
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For shore, i what everyone to see it.
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Yes. We want everyone to see it just
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plus nan if you want to. See.
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Bit of the story without spoilering to not.
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Just it is i love. I Love what you set about what
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you watch people all down like that you know the in makes you
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feel. Save to be valnable right so
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this is an incredible valnable woman who's makeing lots of
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mistaks, and when you have empathy for her, i think you can
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have empathy for your selfine and me mistaks that you make,
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but so it's about a woman, her name is just and she is a very
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reluctant made of onner at her best France weding and off the
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grid weding in the what's we don't going to get to have
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phones and they have to sleep in tens and cabins and.
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It's the College France, we United so she goes and she is
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confronted with her what she feels her waym or successful
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college France everyone is cupleed up she's the only single
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woman and her x grow france is there and she is there.
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Obsessed with her exgrofriend and she made the big is my
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sticker for life. She things leting her go and so
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she wants to get back to get her with her, but the exgrofriend is
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the coord and co. Best Mans of the Grooms Best
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Friend so she's hooping for a reconsilation, but the bride
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because she made such a because the just made such a mass of
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that just not one just to try to get back to get her was sam so.
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It's a it's a funs or to brom watching just triat a ficker out
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we're she balance in all this and she's not a particulity and
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iphone this and my like i was never a girly girl when we would
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do the weddings and the handus and the bachelorette parties and
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all the little details and the i to oh Gott, i was a gesosted by
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the holthing and II was a good i that i don't know how to throw a
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shower. And it's and your standby we
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have all the parties, the engage mit parties, there's a line and
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the movie we're just like to we have to have a gage of or you
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will already engage and the will in the bright like that's not
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the point that's all i feel you know so it was interesting to
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make her the made of onor when she's a terrible made of onor
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she's not do you know? And a made to be on is her go
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friend and not to go from have best friend.
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No it befor. That he's not the best choice
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will. This just she as a another front
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who step sin and fills and all the all the space is.
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But ja. And i think because you road it
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as you that so that's so many pieces of you into it and so
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many a situations. Maybe we all have ones and all
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I've or maybe twice you know, that's what it made it so.
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If it's a connective like and and it helped a bit to stepard
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of being self, the shamed in they'll Citroen because ja this
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of the things we don't tell in you, one of word and being
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shamed is something you do at home alone.
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That try and and we have you know just.
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Goes to the extrem in many ways right, she's yourself with
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masterbate and this is a this is a have it the cheese in and so
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she finds different times to maker selfy all better all on
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the way and the movie she you know really because some of it
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is just because of unfortunate lock and some of it is because
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she's being selfish and some of it is just because she's just
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telling the true, but she makes masses all on the way.
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And i think we all have that moments we're like I'm going to
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self suit myself with masturbation or doing a sudoku
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puzzle or I'm get a call and ex that i probably shouldn call
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because I've have a kind of glasses wine or i'm going to
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drink to with wine that i have that that we all self sued and
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ways that we we're have a mat and so that's part of it for her
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and she and we all made messes that we.
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Then go to i mean to do that that i was that my falled how to
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i you know and i think that's part of what i she goes for the
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extreme because it is a movie, but we all have this moments so
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was very interesting to me to what people what her and it and
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now i'm very competent and it when i for show the movie was
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very valnarble because I've not oh my god everyone in this
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audience is going to judger. They're going to think she's a
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train wreck and she's all to be a rafical on some love.
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Oh oh ok, that can thatthen.com to my mind.
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Ok. So it was just i Bean.
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Your fear of All. Of this charakters have he's is
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of me or examples of my perspektive because it's on the
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rider of them you know. And wendit you ride it was it
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when you lift in LA yes or when you all at a move to London.
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No so actually but that film. That beautiful film tick me to
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and and because i road it in probably ori.
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Begins. Now the story.
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Begin. II Road it in probably twenty
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seventeen twenty a team that's one.
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I do the very first draft and i do mini mini drafts of my movies
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because that's part of the artistic process.
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I ride a draft i have actors readed i find the parts of it
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they go that's the movie i're everything all so way and i
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tride a putmore what that is. I do that proud of.
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Process ja. Many many times and then you
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have to find financing and tride of final way to make the movie
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so we did all of that we made the movie and twenty one and
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then it to can i here to finish it and then we released we we
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primiered in London at the bfi flare Festival.
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We have a world primier and what i was in London.
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I just can't live how wonderful the artians is where i it was so
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they were the bfi was so supportive of me as a filmaker
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and a way that i have never fill supported and i.
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Just was bumps homebody. It was it was so remarkable that
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II just was like. Oh this.
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I think this is how it's suppose to feel you know it's bus to
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feel like desperate and you know like you have to throw I'm pro
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albus and be so competitive and that you have the think about.
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Money you know it's you have to be so like a like everyone's to
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be onest in the. Slags when you find it's have
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just in the right surrounding. Ja and feed like all this can be
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so easy and that was that. This can be so easy.
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And I'm so accepted and it's that.
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What Oh my gosch they got I'm in the statio of to pay all this
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money to maybe maybe get a review from a paper BFI gay of
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my vilm to newspapers and they. Rated it and reviewed it and all
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this people can to see it as a result and i've that's how it to
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go if you do good work, it's a draw people in i can't have to
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face them on $8000 or $10000,00 to see if maybe vaking get one
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person to what my movie that do's a make an e sonst to me
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that's. Feels that's how it is in in the
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US are that's think. Of i just you have a celebrity
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if you have a fame is person. Then typicly people will review
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it because they think they think they're zoom people in the one
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and her. But that's the and.
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But been in London, i was so happy there and i ast everyone
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I'm in i ast so many people. Would a film like or like me,
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but i com and live and and work here i.
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You'd in them that time you didnt live.
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That no. So you were kind of like at a
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movie tourist that they showing just showing your work and then
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heading back to. And the Festival also flue me
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over and put me up in a hotel, so if they have and don that i
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don't know what i will have going I'm in.
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I flue this kind of your first contact with your.
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That's AI can you the the plot twist to to to spoilered it's
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about the big shift is about mandy move for my LA two london
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with her hall family what is such to bigs that and i did not.
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Exact the same big step, but a big step two and all the people
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we're same ack. Oh this is such a big step and i
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was a was thinking like because i was in the Prozess this is not
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one big step, it's one 1000000 time steps so for me it didn
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feld like will, but that was not in ocean in between like between
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cologne and blueback the north of Germany and was like ja was
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big step like it's theme to. If you upserve me, you what's
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feel like that to and like i have the feeling one when you
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tell me the story like you move from at i to london's like a
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graph taking because as not on me, the distance is at total
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different culture or at bigs, it is a culture so not comparable
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to my story because i just moved in Germany is a same language
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and i don't same of the Kind. Culture and things like that so
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i know for my on experience. It's a 1000000 steps and it's
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starts some where i'm not evansure about wen xackly maybe
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you remember this moment and maybe that's what i can get this
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moment like oh because this be a good idea.
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It do was really the path lit up.
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It was it was very I'm in i new in my hit some or in my survival
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lizard brain. I know that that something about
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that themed. Like it was like can that really
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be possible right. I was are you don't just pick up
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and move to a different country like that's what out a job and
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what out in a stability and I'm know in's asking you to go you
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know. But no what's waiting for you
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that but. That's started it.
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I like a start it of this is we're the beginning of the shift
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have and he've know i did not now it at the time so i have gon
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to paris. My hasman and i want to paris
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and we injoy to beautiful weak you know paras is beautiful
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right a specif, it's just no childer and and we're a walking
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a long this. Is and not a hanymon.
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Oh gush it was beautiful, but win we we're geting are backs
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and going back to the airport. I have the most i was eating a
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chocolate this are i don't know what it was a fondom zur's
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something it was the most beautiful this are have a heat
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and it was like a shock a lighting with do my body and i
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like to my hasbet and i set. Patrick we could move to paris
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and he's he like to me and he was like.
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Oh no no, we're not we're not moving the paris like we don't
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we don't speak french and we can't work here and we're not
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moving the paris and i that no no no we're not moving the paris
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but we go it. Like in not moment the
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posibility that if if i don't have that burning the.
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Idea of the posibility they just channel and to.
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You just noing that like if i will have the passion to learn
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french and get a job and figure out and find in apartment.
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I can do that if i want to i don't one to, but if i want to
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to i i'm so my and that blue my mine i was like oh there's
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infinite potential. I'm chusing not it.
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Like a vanage of it, but that's a very different that i can't do
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it. Yeah so that was the first one
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and that was about five years before the filmfestival.
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And the thing about situation like this is you can't not think
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like before again. Yes.
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It was a shift. You can't pretend to not no that
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it's possible. You can't be the same person
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like before this short channel into you.
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And i the week that i was in London.
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I ast everyone I ast everyone we are you from how to you get her
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can americans.com in live her butwe.com in live in word here
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do you think that's possible and you know that in all the people
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i ast all week not one. Person Set no not one person set
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it's going to be hard if you're just it not one and i sweardy
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with one person it. All of the german's what I'm
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that we're but i you to about this dt finger and i know that
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you have this is this is layer. And I'm like the way a 1000000
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people sins of move to land and have set like white to you.
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Move her White, would you move her like so it was that that's
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what i mean at the path lighting up not one person.
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Hers and set and you think that but and you down in my brains so
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that when i web back to the states, the idea was filly
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formed and for some reason and this is you know my hasven is
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lift he goup in one town and then he move to los Angeles
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thiry five years a go and he has lift in Los Angeles like he
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loves Los Angeles. It is as livestream so when i
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said what you think about us go in the London for a little bit.
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He's at what i don't see it, but if you can make it have and I'm
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not going to stand in the way what's even.
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That and then the store open they.
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Hit the thing yes was like what that was what I'm in up at the.
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Panel the ship is really have to think.
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So then be on that be on the store of permission, the major
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things of. Will it is possible and my
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partner is not go in the standard, my way or interms of
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he's he's ok taking in adventure with me will danage is because
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of that details everything from. You know we're my going to we're
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the fendling and a stay what flights to we taking how to we
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do with the dogs when to the dogs comover what school of they
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going to like it's all there's a live things how to you can a
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phone. But.
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Just things i don't not have a language.
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We're what was very hop for like.
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I think that we've been really heard to me up to contry i do in
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speak the language, but we know that's also you're study a
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language down you learn a language, i we've know I've
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think and not as on obstokal i was so.
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Passion it about the idea of living there, so we do the three
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mont kind of three in a hafmund the experiment and they that
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have. An what a what's going?
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I find and international school for the kids and and this is
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what i mean about the path lighting up two when i like
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they're. Will find a way.
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Will in the States you have a fall Semester and a spring
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semester of scols. There's two big chunks of scol,
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but in the uk, there's. So there's one in the fall,
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there's one from generay to like april and then there's one from
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april to joly so for the generay for April bit that was the bit
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that I found as in International school, we're my kids going for
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that term that go to school i work to out with the school back
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home that they would get kind at and to be on is.
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Evan of they hadent of givenom Credit II would know not on it.
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I what a figured some think out. What about your two children?
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Your two go's that how what do's they i can at one point you have
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to tell them about your ideas. They are such we have kind of
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vined adventers are hole lives and they what just up for it.
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They are you. If you know they had friends of
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cours of for sure that's friends for sure that's the first boy
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friends things going on i don't. Know that'd not happend that'd
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not happend it. I can go to.
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You my all this she will she will be finding a girl friend.
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Oh ok, and that's you know. She was an really dating and he
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but your interested in any crows of that points and it cros you
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know still kind of taking her time with all that what is find
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and then i just didnt have anything like that so there
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we're also remember when we for stid it, we we're going
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performance that was it was a small adventure and it's outed
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really cool we're going to go live in london performance and
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that we're really up for and then we're do side it to go back
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it's because we at all. Fall in the love of it and
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here's what I deside it is well you know a happy life all is all
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is is going to inclued hard things right you're going to
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have AA bodoms and los and struggles and obstrugles that's
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just part of a really happy full life so for me I've I'm building
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my kids resillance is. They're going to struggle
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because i think them to live in london for a here two years.
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What have a i'm find with that as a parent that is it's an
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obstricle and a struggle that i'm really ok with offering to
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them to build strang the of carrer.
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I'm if it what only be for a for a year, that's they and then but
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still in twenty years the have a stories just have.
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Just III can't i Capt wonnever I Backup.
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Andy Time themes and ups to will that at a onling us.
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This is a drag, this is so expensive kind of or this this
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is you know what i can i really live my dogs with the friend for
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years that redict you know all the little things that i have i
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don't i have no idea i you shipst of over still we have to
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most to that we got we have everything in a house we we pow.
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It that that feel. I'm Maze and for me.
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I'm going it was it was scary. The All time i was so clear that
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I'm meted to the in London that all of the little decisions all
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on the way that or heard. I just med them.
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I don't think to what about them because i was check in i've
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something for heard and set and i was really stress.
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I was check in and go do you want to do this like is this the
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right think to do and unaquivity my a voice in my hits at.
25:41
Yes, ja, no. So, it don't feed like a
25:43
sacrifice like oh my god i have to leave so many things he and
25:47
so many friends and things like i think i have the same feeling
25:51
last your when you are so clear about this vision and a feels
25:57
right. And you do it from love and not
26:01
from like. Yes.
26:03
Them. Trust.
26:04
All the things i really like used you know sorting things out
26:09
selling things just feels like a relief, but not like sacrificing
26:17
and let go let go. It's more like ja i want to
26:21
travel what last Bagger Jam ja i what to steppen and of course
26:26
and i have this feeling like oh. Something this hit me so hard
26:31
and this pros as this i start and new live chapter.
26:35
This is a fucking home new live chapter yes because for me II
26:40
moved only i mean it's only for in a fifty caluminters, but it
26:45
was the first time i's wap to another city to live in.
26:50
After for to seven year, so some them it hit me so hot what was
26:54
rapping things and organizing things like this is completely
26:58
fucking. Do you know that's that be for
27:01
and i can be some one health who do what to be you know, we some
27:06
them with you zoom out and you're like.
27:09
You get scared but in the in kind of a positive way, it's not
27:14
like a dinf at the feening that this fear keeps me back keeps
27:18
holding me back. It's more like pushing me well
27:22
into like well of amin. My pants will Philip shit to be
27:27
on us, but you go this still. I don't know many body in lübeck
27:31
so but only my two ruhmans and to guizer they but of cost and
27:37
goes it me so stories like that, but ja so still i don't know
27:41
people that I'm like what i just moved to in not the city you
27:45
know i have the feeling I love the City i want to live that
27:49
this is more live quantity that's it no new job no new boy
27:53
friend no new. I don't know what ever it was
27:57
just it just feld right and that was the main engine to bring me
28:03
that i. Saw a like this.
28:07
Is crazy because i'm main the muss of the people deside things
28:10
like that from lack or that move because that new job offer is
28:15
better pate in Shanghai. What the fuck ever like i'm's
28:18
like that and it's like outa situations you're.
28:24
But when it really comes from the deep inside, and then you're
28:31
the total you're a face, you're superclear about it.
28:33
Ja, it was i can it was there was a lot of trust i new, i
28:39
because I'm not really maybe i am this person i new that i what
28:43
rather fail tring to live in London.
28:48
The Never tridalist. They're that.
28:50
II know that i was like Oh i don't can't have bad it gets or
28:53
how offal i feel i want to do this you know it so i really was
28:58
in to frate it andy think that's have a lot of fate that i was
29:01
been guided i just chose to really line up with that go this
29:06
is i've never one it to do i think like this for i was so
29:09
clear and by the way my family was also on word and i think you
29:16
know all this liter. Upstakles they did comcrashing
29:21
in one's i got one's i got there i land it and all of us that and
29:26
it was like because i don't all the little details and i have
29:29
this going down of like what and i do and all of us that and i
29:33
fell all my fear kind of all it ones, but it's still it's still
29:39
so clear that you know i have been guide it that point and so.
29:46
Was like, oh was easier for me to fill fear now that I'm here.
29:49
I don't know i don't have a 1000000 little details to and i
29:52
and i don't think that's a bad ding to you know to to greeve
29:58
you know they're going to be things that are also hard about
30:01
the things that are really words doing and that was.
30:04
I don't you and the mittel of the Prozess you can't get back.
30:08
No and. You know a litting go the stuff
30:10
in my House was really transformative it was i fall it
30:14
everything that show it up, so we we try the rentar house filly
30:17
fornished for one here because that's what everyone in to do.
30:21
That's do you have to take your klose of and yes rap things
30:24
poted in the garage. What have a like as if you would
30:28
be that for your that's so what do you really need?
30:32
Just that's it will, we can't. Like with you and what can you
30:35
live there so this is that. This already feeds like live
30:39
decisions you know. What and the only we right with
30:42
we we resort of like oh this is turning for man adventure to
30:45
feeling like a love and and be people who the only people who
30:49
one of the rentor house one of it for here in a haf and they
30:54
one of it prettima jenty so we really have to hustle and be
30:58
like oh what we really have to crear the stase out now and.
31:03
And it was. What to co incident?
31:05
I mean me that was the best then I'm up and to you that's what
31:09
that that one to that like for the empty.
31:12
I think it's important when you're on a patrick.
31:14
This is special one this driven by face and not by a job a for
31:19
or a partner what if you're just leaping in to the unknown.
31:22
Then you except what coms as a giveed everything that coms an
31:26
is a blessing. I think that's the greatest ding
31:28
about moving for one plays to another is that you are suppose
31:32
to for you're spirital grove i would you want to shift you know
31:38
release all of your all stories and perspective, I'm unless you
31:43
know we you don't have to if you're perficly content live in
31:46
the stories and perspective that you're in you're not the shift
31:49
at all. But but.
31:51
If you there inside of you, so you will carry them.
31:55
It but i do think a change of location of scenery, a physical
32:00
change of culture contry what have a it it?
32:05
Helpes you so. On it shifts your perspektives,
32:08
you're now going to see think that are possible.
32:11
That we're not possible bevor right, i don't know what like as
32:14
like a London when i live to los Angeles I have to go the london
32:18
and see it for myself and there you go will of this is what like
32:21
as like in London, I'm in the hole war of this will with
32:23
infinite posibility that i if i was just stock in my have it and
32:28
do you're sainting over and over and what by the way again
32:32
nothing rong with that that bring the person pies but for
32:35
me. I like to remember that there's
32:38
infinite posibility i like to have something creating my life
32:42
with me. Not just me desiding how things
32:45
or going to go i I'm I'm really been the person who's like I'm
32:51
going to dictate how things or going to go i'm also is or a
32:53
falled a flow and the flow is all is infinity better that and
32:59
you think IQF josin. To so you.
33:03
I think. It's it's and it's last rustleed
33:05
for me to fall in the arms of what is coming in then to trid a
33:11
musal something that i think how i think it's a look and it's
33:15
been berry. Rewarding I'm in that has been a
33:19
massive live shift. A Perspektive change on the hol
33:26
system of live like. As if you really zoomed out and
33:34
like from a ball of like ok, i'm this in that h do we're really
33:39
one to go on like that do i one to tend.
33:44
I don't know your h that time or i don't have no your h now and
33:48
it's i don't know it's not important he but it's.
33:53
Two and we move dover i'm can do for now.
33:56
Ja. I just comed to this because i
34:00
have this. I think this typical midlaf
34:03
crisis what ever thing short before i turn forty five i of
34:09
them work up and was like well this is the peak of my life
34:15
probably if it's running good well from you and i turn and
34:19
nine to you what ever and hope for you healthy state so this is
34:23
the peak. And I zoomed out so oft in and
34:27
was like do i really one to repeat everything i that until
34:32
here to this point and i have the feeling for me.
34:39
It was really like elitabet like the same like that you that i'm
34:45
moved away from this town, we i was born because mainly i have
34:53
the feeling i. I tried so many things and
34:57
change so many small things that we're on my sign and i was
35:02
capable off, but the main things i've can change i want to to
35:07
create a community and a tried that i want to get into a
35:11
healthy relationship and a tried that of coast a thousand tens i
35:15
want to live in a surrounding what i want to call live with
35:19
people and. At tryed all this in Cologne
35:24
sense was born and i can be a texture Drive and the night like
35:28
Blind it and no all the streets and all the ways and releate was
35:32
like the more more i step to way from the city because that i
35:38
went to way for month i went to way for five weeks and every
35:43
time i can back i Realist. It's not fitting.
35:47
It's not fitting. I'm all this is like old close
35:50
style. This is just not me and i more
35:52
and that but the main thing beside to this i want to level
35:58
up and live in the city that's close it to the see that has
36:02
more water in it and and more nature's ronding what ever and
36:08
things like that and was i consently have the filling that
36:12
my olds ronding hols me back this.
36:17
The City, the halses, the architecture, the structures,
36:22
the dynamics in the friendships in the relationships that's call
36:26
like that with my family with my surround, just my surrounding
36:30
that's call of surrounding. It caped me away from something
36:35
i am. I really true the felt i am and
36:39
at one point i had a feeling i can't express myself for the i
36:43
can't be me the true noracore when i stay that and i go on i
36:51
have to change and go to a city we are really feel myself and
36:57
specialy maybe i don't know nobody that i.
37:01
I think that's a really smart perspektive because.
37:05
You have that to. Ya absolutly and actually have
37:08
and for me a lot with my work because being in los angeles,
37:12
you know hollywood and i really feld have to working there and
37:18
doing my scrips and. You know entrying contest and
37:22
geting chose and for fellerships and being one of the woman
37:24
directors and trying to get a get the best agent or manager
37:29
all of the hussle, hussle, hussle.
37:32
Medal Energy. Y's have really reward it in the
37:36
United States, I'm going to do the business that i do you have
37:41
to hussle and be good it everything and you have to
37:45
network and. You know it's all of that
37:47
relationships and it's all of that asking for what you want
37:50
and never you know you can't a companies you have to be the
37:53
very best of special of your woman because women have at
37:56
hardor and. They're all this.
37:58
And you have to like young and stayyung and be thin and all of
38:02
the things that i really try drag.
38:04
No a most of that massaging, but it was absolut we there was
38:08
it's. Constantly sending you.
38:11
It was you're so. I don't it very difficult for me
38:14
to find myself and my own down in the mids of such a you know
38:20
repeated message like such in environment and a and a for last
38:24
fee that everyone i know have but into they will all surving
38:27
that same. Like soked.
38:30
Yeah and two this. And I struggle.
38:32
Illusion of Happy Life. That was the only think i
38:36
struggle with is i'm like i'll feel like i want to be in
38:39
artist. I am in Artist But II can't love
38:43
my on work and I can't love myself.
38:46
Here i don't feel like i belong in the structure and it is
38:50
geting a firmed for me over and over and i so there was a little
38:54
bit of. I was finding external evidance
38:56
of that there, but also i just i new inside me of like II can't
39:01
get out of this system, it's two strong it's over powering me so
39:06
when i want to london for that week and i was an artist in
39:09
another plays I'd. If i live your for a here and
39:13
learn to breeve and. We're shift.
39:16
Not to love myself and not to feel last an and like I'm not
39:20
annof and I'm not god annof and I'm not talented annof and I'm
39:24
tool and all the things just for a break for a little bit to see
39:29
if i can hole that they's then in a place like los Angeles or
39:33
New York and so, and london is a fantastic city filled with
39:37
inviable beautiful talented. People you're amazing theator
39:42
and filmakers and it's in criment to but II can a prusheed
39:46
all that and i don't feel last down in the face of it.
39:49
We're just in Los Angeles it all was thought like i was to be on
39:53
is like kind of a loser because i was and i was.
39:56
One of a 1000000. I was II was go to all the
39:59
parties and i was think i was every very working exet me what
40:03
what I'm my missing, i am i not an off was really the constant
40:07
so for me. Shifting Location and Shifting
40:11
me energy of location was so important.
40:14
I'm like i need to give myself this give and big you're out how
40:18
not of this is mine coming from insider me that I'm doing to
40:21
myself and how not of it was cultral and social so that i get
40:28
build my string because you're right like i want to have a have
40:32
you live that's my alternate go and i would like to be a do my
40:36
work and so i. I new that i was an a cheving
40:40
both of this things like II was going to happy if i was a
40:43
knoring my work canal hey or like at was the one think that i
40:47
feld like i was a losers, I'm think you know so be is so bein
40:50
here's then really and give so i can be complate i get to i get
40:56
to have all of the elements of who and what i am in London this
41:02
so this is so hit to me, so have a goose boms all will that but
41:06
you like all the time because it's so resonating it's is grazy
41:11
ana have the feeling so many people have executes am, but
41:15
don't get them self the permission.
41:19
I'm there's. To shift because because there a
41:23
so many reasons if you see it like.com that so.
41:26
What it feels very scary, I'm it II it feel scary.
41:31
But i think the important things to the learn or to no the all.
41:34
The think it is save to me is one i am in fear i really really
41:39
try to get conches and remember i don't know you i don't know
41:47
with the best senario is. You just but mayy something is
41:51
in off to just no. I don't want to go back.
41:54
For sure and. All and this this is the only
41:57
think you think i also think. You i also think it's import to
42:01
really trust that you go this and if i'm going to like go of
42:05
when you like go of everything you've known you're create a big
42:10
back you you make a lot of space, we you shit all of your
42:14
physical stuff and your the motive to stuff and all of your
42:18
habits and all of your. All stories even of the stories,
42:22
this is the place i go for mording coffee you like go of
42:25
all of that and you like was big face you are.
42:29
Like an identity shift, but you're be of yourself a new
42:32
identity like give you have a blank paper you know and that's
42:38
scare so what i mean every artist.
42:41
No start on a blank paper on a or on a big white canvas.
42:48
You don't star. That is where you we kinect to
42:51
flow because flow is there. It's just you really have to
42:55
trust. It is it's a conchus you have to
42:57
go here's all the space i am conchusly going to trust
43:01
everything that coms in is a blessing.
43:04
If i get like that of the house, it's a blessing if i don't get
43:08
that job it's a blessing if we think i've now made space for
43:12
blessings and they coming when you see that that way you're
43:16
fear level goes down your stresslevel goes down and flow
43:20
is happening like you're not you're not clanching up and
43:24
stoping flow because you're desiding that that think mc
43:28
caming is a right you go will that's my little small.
43:33
Alled mindsang oh, that's not right.
43:36
How do you know it's not right, how do you know that you're a
43:39
special one's you take and of you'd leap of face and gone i
43:42
can be new you how just was to know what new and better what.
43:46
It's it's like. So Chuck, all of that i say and
43:50
just be open to like what i know is that it's it's all last what
43:56
coms in i surrender i accept and I'm going to find my.
44:03
Complitness in this, i'm going to consestly bring all of myself
44:08
to this moment. And also what i think yes, you
44:14
can kebup and thinking. This is a blessing, this is a
44:17
blessing this the blessing that does a mean that there's not
44:20
fear asided yes, that's right and i think that mons of the
44:25
people, including my post e go was like first have to.
44:32
Get rit of the fear oh you and i Kind of me, one what the truth
44:37
is you have to do it with the fear you together as a cuple
44:42
like oh ok, what i you telling me is this really brockomy ja
44:46
ok, you can bring in thors and they be you you have critisism
44:51
all that feedback for me you think you fear, but do it anyway
44:56
so. I talk to my Fear II rate free
45:00
Pages Everyday, and if I'm feeling brutically fearful that
45:03
they i like myself have a tantrum in there's pages.
45:07
I'm e. Rational.
45:09
Because sometimes i have the feeling like this big shift or
45:12
movement shift like that. Of cours from now have like
45:18
watching at at like from from the you know backwards, it's
45:22
easy to say oh ya i mean i shifted and i was all was in
45:25
balance and blubb of bla like because in the bit of the
45:29
prosit, it's not and some them's people romantesires it a bit in
45:33
there telling so some them bugs just to that's you know.
45:38
When you this end to this and you're resonate to this topic
45:41
like you have to do it anyways and of cores that we there's the
45:45
fear is bigger and you can't to anything in direction of your
45:49
vision and that is find to and then you that back and then
45:52
start over when you have in of energy and this will.com to you
45:56
because it's something is right and from the heart and from a
45:59
deep meaning in purpers and the inside is the energy for that
46:04
will come back so and. One of the things a found out
46:10
when you when a true hard connected vision channels into
46:17
you. You have this what you that it's
46:21
it's clarity and with the clarity that comes a to do list.
46:25
That's what you know it's right because you know exactive the
46:29
next street things to do and then of to you that the next
46:32
street things. When you when it's right the to
46:37
do this comes when it's not right, it's one of your one
46:40
thousand ideas. There's no list in it, so maybe
46:44
you can't a bit for me. It was like this recognition one
46:47
day like when it feels right ja i know ok i have to do this
46:51
phone call of to do this like super cleaner things like like
46:55
to go to the broser resort list like you know you i need and
46:59
that i's and i need this this for this recipy it's.
47:04
Going to get that with the channel of the good idea what
47:07
have that is don't have to be movement like a christi.
47:12
O ship it also small things, small things and like there be
47:15
you have that two with ideas for new a book so what ever but that
47:20
was just a side, not what i want to to as q is you live in London
47:26
now four threers. I think we're biner for two,
47:30
we'll two and a have i think we. Ush you have two.
47:34
So and I'm f cours i want to know I'm know that it's still
47:40
the best ideas of your life, but in in witchways do you feel like
47:47
you are am all complete now you are more yourself this is more
47:52
the rights rounding. It's so interesting because
48:01
there's an. There's a mysterius elimit to it
48:05
i me II don't know family the live in London and was in my
48:08
Home II have you know Watch Theory Episode of Pride and
48:12
projudice I was and you don't know I don't don't know a lot
48:16
about London it was the it was and like a dream I'm had's and i
48:19
was a kid so it's funny to me that i feel so incredible at
48:24
home there it's so that's harry to explain how gity pubble stone
48:32
and streets and all buildings and Victorian terristauses and
48:38
there's the city as so match Green space i really like
48:43
walking that's very good for my body and my heart and i do a lot
48:47
my walking in London that i don't in Los angeles and for me
48:52
it has been well this is my dream and and as a woman who i.
49:00
As a woman who is metriac of a family, there is a real urge to
49:06
what to take her of everyone else before you take her of
49:09
yourself so that this is my passion and have a one nose and
49:13
that i'm willing to do it even of it's going to not be the
49:17
perfixation for everyone else is kind of you like this is me be
49:21
the first time that i have been like well i would like this and
49:25
so me be you all can. From a lot of bit or it's me and
49:29
they're going at they're no and's suffering, but I'm not a
49:32
hundred person shore of this with be they're choice and get
49:36
i'm ok with that and i think that's so taking up space in my
49:40
own family in that way and lot of my desire and vision guidas
49:44
all is new and better the and. It's it's overflowing to a lot
49:50
of things like i'm more companed and how i parents because I'm
49:54
companed that my vision is going to guides in the right way.
49:57
I'm Companed II have a riters lock because all the details of
50:01
really. We're Real Ray stressfall it's
50:04
stressfall. Trasy Shit.
50:06
It really is hard and we've down of for times ands we've in the
50:09
london and it was i'm going to know i'd fits of reach of.
50:12
I don't was all in the fair and i was so it's scared me about
50:15
money so i so going to money in security and so scary, but i I'm
50:23
pass that test now we'll have it and i feel like workwise also
50:28
and this axy happend. Really on, i don't this was part
50:32
of the path lighting up is that i did get an agent and i had an
50:37
meeting that we're really wall and it with like i got the sense
50:40
that i can't i got the sense that i can be professionally
50:44
accepted in london and away that was really exiding but i can't
50:48
make myself do the create of work for mons.
50:52
Yeah, i go, it's it to we get in satteled and i.
50:55
Can't job to do all the movement organisation to do all the.
50:58
No just x and i have to trust. That it's two kids not to forget
51:02
and. And to trust it taking that time
51:05
that not of it was going to go right.
51:06
I don't have to hustle that i can trust that it was important
51:10
that i find my way back to my work because that was clear that
51:14
that was something i want it and that now that i have.com back to
51:18
my work II feel. Like I'd can't can't be have
51:24
unblocked i am that i wasen tick specting that i feel so much
51:29
more positive and so no last. I'm not as judgmental of myself
51:34
is i was and Los Angeles. Selfix supentia it's it's so to
51:39
big. I it's the oning we i can
51:42
disribit is i feel now like it's ok for me and actually it is a
51:46
central for me to take up space. It's time for me to take up
51:52
space in my life and i don't think up when clear about that
51:57
or a lot of myself to do that or i have the face a lot of demons
52:01
to do it. I have a rocky your last, your
52:04
may i was so the Prost. I'm i when down and i did
52:09
nothing but tantrum every they and IA bad things and i.
52:15
Right all they if i one in to and.
52:17
I but still i'd get you didnt think in this month that it was
52:21
a bad. I dear to move to London.
52:23
Oh no. That's what i want to do say I'm
52:26
you to get back to this because this is what people a last me
52:29
like oh you have a depressive episode do you think that was a
52:34
bad, i dear to and i'm like ha this is not no this is not
52:38
connect to you chiller i'm in no that was my best life decision
52:42
ever but still as we say. At before i take my face with
52:47
me, i take my depressive moments with me.
52:49
I take my cycles with me, I'm I'm still Nora, You're still
52:53
nendy so yeah you've for us the old things we can't get rid of
52:59
all the old things that things of be out but.
53:02
Also i would in by this perspektive because my
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experience have it was it was all things, but i was looking at
53:09
them in a new he way because i have a white.
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And. And handle is me be in a new.
53:15
Right because i was in a new place, we i've have a little
53:18
more supported. I think new, I don't new so i
53:22
was able to really identifie more clary what's old what is
53:27
still surving me and what is not surving me, but just can you
53:31
don't deside something is an surving you and them clear it
53:33
i'm not think you have to really like that you have to.
53:36
Grable with it, but it we're in a safe place or we're in the new
53:40
place and your lauging all this new support and new energy
53:45
to.com in some times that new energy has to go to a phasing
53:49
your old. It's not fun.
53:52
All a time. No no, but it's I'm in i feel a
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thousand powns later. You know I'm go all go for it
53:59
again, I'm shure but i was i willing we about my hit to that
54:03
so like thank god because this these gamens that I'm likeing
54:07
out they just live with me in los and liz i do there of the
54:10
surface all they every they and i'm never face them so to get
54:15
the london and beable the really look in the i and go what's go
54:18
one on here kids what what a we doing.
54:21
It was it was just so to ja, and this is i think this is one of
54:25
the main things to. Get clearer about this so what
54:30
hols you back is not what's really holding you back so that
54:35
is no reason not to do it. Ja in Germany we have a quote
54:39
that's as if you really want to do something you find ways if
54:44
you don't want to do something you have a reasons.
54:48
Hahaha, boah is in that. Trump, this is in your face, I'm
54:53
in that's what I'll like i love clarity this is one of the
54:56
course i love and this is always my end, so when people i like ja
55:01
what about the workshop and i'm not sure because i have and that
55:03
and i'm like if you don't feel it don't do it if you have only
55:08
reasons to not do it then you not then it's not the right
55:13
thing for you ja just. If it's right for you, just go
55:16
you don't ask is if it's right it just feel it and is more
55:21
about energy and feelings and things like that and i mean ja
55:25
still i think this is the main thing what is all about so but
55:29
and you. Know you know we're.
55:30
It's i get it. Wow Fifty fumbit it.
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I was. Long but so interesting but
55:36
still i have so many questions left, but i think one of the
55:43
main things is like. You don't people are listening
55:46
to this not a be crowd, but it's get it better, but because of
55:52
they think i think they follow me and listen to be because
55:56
they're thinking about moving changing things not on the
56:01
fernator me be and things like that's so if you have that and
56:06
mind and from your perspektive and your experience.
56:13
What what you tell some one who is in the state before like this
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ideas in my mine and i don't know some in the reasons not to
56:24
do it, but i feel it's right what could help this person with
56:29
at bice or cooled a what have a two take the next lieb.
56:37
You know i would say. Well, I'm this is going to time
56:42
so cheesy, but i really what recoment doing a workshop like
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years. I know the really II think i
56:52
think that for me i all was dreamed i know in my head that
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I'll was dreamed of sitting at a computer and writing and they're
57:01
can out of a beautiful you that was soning that just was a
57:04
picture that it. Gon in my head over and I don't
57:08
right my holt like i was an actor and i but the vision the
57:12
captary a curing was an nasseserity acting, it was i was
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sitting at a computer riting and that there was a beautiful view
57:20
and that was a thing that poled me soy, it's they if there
57:24
thinking of of making a move you know there.
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It's really i can't be really fun to a lot of to do exercise
57:34
is like a vision board or to think of if i like to finish
57:37
sentenses like if i don't have to worry about monnie i was
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blank or the last time i fell really free to be myself i was
57:49
blank finish those senites like really get in touch with the
57:54
feeling of the. The dings that make you feel the
57:58
you're complete so right, you're bestself what what space you
58:03
know for some people like that's how they know that down to
58:06
apartner that works for them is that they feel like there
58:08
bestsels when there with them, so what space or function or
58:13
culture make you feel like your bestself and like just think on
58:19
that because the details of it will.
58:21
Will or rise if you get in to the feeling of it and then ones
58:26
your in touch with that feeling. I think that feeling is what
58:30
gets you through the dots and the fears and not oh my god of i
58:35
have to call this moving company, one time and rise is so
58:37
hard of i got nine those and it's two much i don't just want
58:40
you know all the details that are so frustrating that feeling
58:45
of. Like for me, seeing my soft
58:47
riding and it will the beautiful space or feeling like no, but i
58:51
see my soft going to pub fidor that's mixed me so happy i will
58:56
do really think i will you know call of energy company nine
59:01
times to get an account setup so that i can go to my pub fidor
59:06
and i think i think of the feeling of it will of the ardy
59:10
specificy no what they one. Or if they have a quite figed
59:14
out what that is there's a good do's a really good tools and
59:18
also think of you're life in terms of you do to grate thing
59:20
we you're a five going, oh there's like have of a left II
59:24
live in Los Angeles for twenty three here's happoli very
59:28
happoli i we i don't goate life there and still live a lot of
59:31
people there i was an a wear of even a lot of things i've talk
59:36
to about this part guest i don't know i don't know i we're a lot
59:40
of things that i don't know. But i did realies that if it
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didnt or go if i move to wheely and it up going for six monters
59:51
six years or you know fifteeners.
59:54
It don't it don't matter because i are you spend so what time in
59:57
Los Angeles and live is short. You know how it was to live that
1:00:02
like as an expert. Yes and you.
1:00:06
Can know what's go back? I'm in this is so, so ascendance
1:00:08
or what that have to me, you can know what's go back you's for
1:00:11
the back and means back. Right.
1:00:14
Not for so and it does and it is.
1:00:18
To step back is for me, what never be a choice.
1:00:22
I'm never getting stepping Back never in my hole Life.
1:00:26
I always that a frequency leep more up to even of it that and
1:00:33
look from the outside but for me was always like ok what's the
1:00:36
next positive thing to step and and what came to a man to what a
1:00:42
always tryed to guide my client to.
1:00:48
And also worked out the best for me was to reallies be in that
1:00:53
space like with your holebody system like not only in your
1:00:58
hand in this vision, but if you can try out and you're able to
1:01:04
live somewhere for a month if it's for and shirt and you can
1:01:10
rent out you're flat or what have or a house.
1:01:12
If it's possible to take your animals with you or naves can
1:01:16
take it or what ever like if you have the deep feeling of one to
1:01:22
live somewhere else, just be there a while i think a month is
1:01:28
a good cycle and land to check in because that does a feel like
1:01:34
being and tourist and. Ja, we i purpusly to my fanly to
1:01:40
London in this dick of winter because I've not if we can like
1:01:45
london during winter that will love it is are out.
1:01:51
Chalenging ja. Ja and I'm was very.
1:01:54
I was really am aware of that because Los Angeles is Sony all
1:01:57
your so i want to see how to we do with call the and dark and
1:02:01
all of that and it was find. It was going to just in you sand
1:02:04
up because i get to know lou back in summa and felt in love
1:02:09
of that in summa will have a get the first them a drove inside
1:02:13
the city. People with shorts and boots,
1:02:17
we're crossing the street and i was like what the fuck.
1:02:21
I was to live there what i they do the was a regatta we can't
1:02:25
you know that that have a sail. I don't know if this if you say
1:02:30
it, this you're say we got to two and i know that all the
1:02:34
things before but II get to know it in summer, but i move there
1:02:39
in winter so and I'm really have the feeling like are for it and
1:02:45
i don't know when you going to not so so if this is like the
1:02:49
final destination it's that like that that this is totally fine,
1:02:53
what's still. I love to live in the North on
1:02:57
Part. I always have that i live i used
1:02:59
to live in in Hamburg what i was in the beginning of my twenties
1:03:03
I'm still friends with my boss from them and every time i go to
1:03:08
hamburg i have this second home feeling like what you explained
1:03:13
like this to feel home i think this is the main sign to follow
1:03:21
follow the red rabbit. Think you're and don't stop and
1:03:26
we ja a for. It i don't like your brain talk
1:03:28
you out of that like i you don't don't like your brain to you all
1:03:32
the reasons like it's you're like home and there's a
1:03:35
differents between it's a bit like you can they a lot of
1:03:39
people and even love a lot of people, but you can't build a
1:03:42
life of all of them. No right.
1:03:44
So. I want to date perras, I Love
1:03:47
Dating perras perras was sexy and amazing and gorjas but i
1:03:51
don't want to build a life with perras.
1:03:53
It's so funny because last some. I was telling all the people I'm
1:03:57
dating lubeck. I go for date to lubek.
1:04:02
We have an not a date like this time i will paddle round and
1:04:06
that was like and then people was think why don't to date
1:04:08
lüneburg and i was like because i date Lübeck i what do you i
1:04:12
mean if i was in to do you person they I'm dating Peter we
1:04:17
i what you as me to date stefan I'm sorry like no I'm dating
1:04:22
Lübeck so I'm try to live there and try it out for the winter
1:04:27
and notsure i what to stay that that longger what may be this
1:04:31
that in turn out into a zero isolationship that's have a
1:04:34
look, but at lease it was a nice of car and there still will keep
1:04:40
it in my heart but have the feeling i will get back to that
1:04:44
place to that because it's bit to timing for me i think but i
1:04:48
keep you'll people up who a listining so about all this
1:04:53
movement, shift and shift and. Shifting Spaces so I think i
1:05:02
have the most questions enterd do you want to say some think in
1:05:08
the end? I i're really aploted any one
1:05:14
who is even thinking of makeing a shift.
1:05:17
It's a brave thing and i really do for for my experience.
1:05:23
It is the stop of a good live. Is being open to things
1:05:27
changing. I'm it everything changes and
1:05:31
being able to a love for change and to find your happiness in
1:05:37
the mids of things changing is a musal, i i'm carague to exercise
1:05:45
II really it give you're soft a lot of credit for evening open
1:05:49
to shifting it's remarkable it's brave and human and glorious and
1:05:54
that's i. Thank you so my oh that was so
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it's piring it's som rate the native you like.
1:06:00
God. We have so many like same
1:06:03
feeling is and thoughts and doing this life process I'll.
1:06:08
Just think we're going to be questions they can retown to me
1:06:11
on yeah, instagram. I will Link it.
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I will link all your and have be to insta question and what this
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movie. Oh just play is that's.
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What thank you.