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She Got Pregnant on Her Second Ovulation in Period Recovery: Morgan's Story · Nourished Fertility

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Welcome to the Nourishing Women Podcast, your go-to podcast to get
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your peer back and get pregnant.
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I'm Victoria Myers, your peer recovery specialist and fertility, dietician, and
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owner of the Virtual Coaching Practice, nourishing Minds Nutrition, where we work
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together to restore your fertility today.
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I am so excited to share this episode with you because I have a past client, Morgan.
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On the show today to share her personal story.
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What I think you're gonna resonate with so much in Morgan's story is
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the way that being a college athlete coupled with researching and learning
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a lot about the right way to diet and how to eat your healthiest
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led for her two years of peer loss, getting her peer back, getting,
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losing it again, and you'll see the cycle of that in her episode today.
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And she shares with us in this episode how when she was ready to get her period
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back so that she could get pregnant, her doctors really sit her down an
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unhelpful course of immediately jumping to recommending fertility treatments,
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recommending fertility medication,
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and really fear mongering her into believing that something was wrong
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with her fertility, when in fact what she really needed was to heal the
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root cause of her period loss in her case, which is likely true in yours.
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It was related to the years of dieting, the years of over exercising and the
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stress she was putting on her body.
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So not only did we do a root cause investigational, functional labs, and a
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tailored fertility and period comeback plans so that she could both get.
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Her peer back and get pregnant, and you'll learn about that in this episode.
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But it was also customized to help her heal her relationship with food and
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exercise so that not only she could get her peer back now and get pregnant now,
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but also so that she could have a healthy relationship with food and
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exercise in the postpartum to be able to get her peer back thin, get
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pregnant again to get her health back.
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And also just as importantly for Morgan, she wanted to be a really
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healthy role model to these kids.
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She's working so hard to make of what a healthy relationship with
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food and exercise looks like.
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You'll learn all about that and so much more in today's episode.
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Without further ado, let's jump into this incredible guest
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episode with Client Morgan Again.
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Hello Morgan.
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Welcome to the Nourishing Women Podcast.
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I cannot tell you how excited I am that you're here with me today.
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Thank you.
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Me too.
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So Morgan is being so bright today, coming on the podcast.
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I know it's a little intimidating coming on, but we so appreciate you taking the
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time out of your day to share your message because you have such a powerful story.
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And you are also currently 26 weeks pregnant.
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Is that right?
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Yes.
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Yes.
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So we're gonna kind of walk through your, your journey today from, you
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know, it sounds like things started off in college to losing your period
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to then the journey to getting your period back and getting pregnant.
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Pregnant.
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We're gonna talk all through it.
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Let's just start with where do you feel like your relationship with food and
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exercise, when did it begin to change?
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Like what, what moment would you say that things started to be different for you?
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Yeah, I think going into freshman year of college, I was an athlete.
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I played volleyball and right away there's, when you're getting there,
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there's a lot of body comp and just, you become really aware of all the
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numbers and all the nutritional things you're supposed to be following.
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And I think at that point in my life, I had never, I had never really
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read nutrition labels or I wasn't.
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So focus on the calorie and calorie out and what the numbers were saying on the
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body comp that when I was faced with that, that was like where those first
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uh, thoughts start to cre creep in.
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And I think from there it kind of just like grew in my thought pattern.
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And you were also, like you said, you were doing this because you were an athlete.
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Do you think being an athlete also contributed to that?
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Because not only is there body comps in discussion of nutrition,
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but there's also a lot of exercise.
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I would imagine so at least.
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Yeah, definitely.
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So then walk me through then, so it kind of started freshman year of college.
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What was it like to the point where you lost your period?
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'cause I know you shared with me you didn't lose your period
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until a few years later.
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Walk me through kinda what your relationship with food and exercise
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was like leading up to that, and then as you were losing your period too.
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So those first few years before I lost my period, I think I was
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just starting to learn what the so-called like healthy eating was.
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Um, I started becoming familiar with tracking apps like my FitnessPal and
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um, I was just like taking in a lot of.
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Outside information about nutrition that I hadn't previously done.
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And I think those things started to shape like how I was eating,
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the choices I was making in food.
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And I'd say I also felt a little bit of like embarrassment
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at myself prior to this.
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I started thinking, why do you say that?
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I just started noticing like, oh, I can't believe I, you know, I can't believe I
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used to eat that now that I was exposed to different media saying it was bad.
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Um, and I think I just got super into following a ton of Instagram
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pages that were just like the healthy pages that I wanted to pursue.
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And I'd say I did it from a place of wanting, like thinking that it would
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improve my performance in sports.
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So it didn't always start out, um, being about body image.
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For me, I think it was more thinking that I was doing something
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healthy and I would notice.
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Um, as I began to lose some weight, I started liking that and getting positive
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reinforcement about it from people.
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And that was kind of where I started to think like, oh, I guess this is better
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for me, better as in like, not truly better, but just like in that moment.
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Um, and I think that pattern just like went on for a few years.
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So I wanna really pick at the point that you shared.
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'cause I think it's really powerful of like, it came from a good place.
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'cause honestly, Morgan's saying like, whenever I started to care
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more about nutrition and health, it came from this really authentic,
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like good place where I was like, I just wanna take care of myself.
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And you mentioned both like the starting to lose weight, but also the positive
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reinforcement that happened as the weight loss occurred, that's when
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things started to shift and it became a little bit more body image focused.
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Can you tell me a little bit more about that?
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Yeah, I, I think I was unfamiliar for a while about like societal views on body.
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I never was exposed to that in high school of just like seeing
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what people thought was pretty.
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Um, and then once it was getting the positive reinforcement, I think that
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started to build me up to think.
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Like, oh, this, this must be what people desire, what people see is
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more beautiful for me in this space.
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And yeah, I, I do think for so long it was out of a place of good.
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It was just trusting like these sources that this was gonna be healthier for me.
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So then it sounds like three years in, you lost your period.
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Tell me about like losing your period.
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What did you think about that?
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Were your habits even more so disordered at that point?
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Were they just like a consistent, like three years of not eating enough?
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Like what was that like losing your period?
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Tell us about that experience.
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Yeah, I think it was a consistent three years of not eating
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enough, but it definitely got.
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Worse as I found different trends of low calorie foods.
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And, um, I just started replacing everything in my diet with those things.
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I went vegan for a while, which I just thought was the healthier
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route for me at that point.
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And I think that contributed a bit to it.
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I was just eating a lot of, uh, fruits and vegetables, which is
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great, but it wasn't, I wasn't really getting carbs or a lot of protein.
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Um.
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And when I lost my period, I brought it up to my sports nutritionist and we just
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talked through it and I got the feedback a lot that it was super normal for athletes.
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Uh, it's nothing to worry about and I, I just let it be,
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it didn't, I was in college.
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It was kind of, it was kind of nice to not have it for a while.
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Um, and I had received that feedback probably three or four times, and
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by the third time, I think I had done my own research and had thought
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like, oh, I think this is because of things I'm struggling with with food.
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But I felt like that on its own also was something for me where
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I was like, oh, this is good.
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Like I'm achieving this even though it wasn't at all.
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But that also serve as like positive reinforcement that
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I was getting what I wanted.
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Yeah.
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No, I so appreciate you saying that I'm over here like nodding my head so much
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because I think there's such truth to how we feel validated losing our period.
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It's like, ugh, I'm, I'm doing this the hardest, the best.
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I lost my period from it.
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And I just think it's important to be like really honest about that.
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Like we all have felt that before.
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Those of us who have lost our periods at least.
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And yeah.
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Um, especially.
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Hearing and knowing, having worked with you, that like no
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one really saw it as a big deal.
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No one really did anything about it.
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It kind of allows, especially at such a young age, for you to really,
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to really not think twice about it.
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I think that's really fair and really, again, honest to
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what most of us experience.
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So what then happens, like after college, what's life like after college?
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Do we continue to have peer loss?
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Walk me through kind of that journey, um, leading up to where you're starting to be
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like, oh shoot, this is an actual problem.
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Yeah, so after college still have period loss for a while.
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I actually moved home to live with my mom for a little bit as I was job searching.
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And in that time, being home, just eating home cooked meals wasn't like meal.
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Prepping my own stuff and uh, less control over the diet.
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Yeah, control.
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After a while, I got my cycle back for maybe three months
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while I was living home and.
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Like, I'll be honest that it hurt me because I knew that it was because
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I was gaining weight, because I had seen the trend of um, like my weight
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going up, getting my period back.
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And then after that I moved away again.
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Once I got a job, moved back to Texas and I was like working out back on my
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own meal planning, I lost my period again and this has ha that that happened.
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One more time.
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Um.
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Where I got my period for two or three cycles and then lost it, and in
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between I'd lose it for a year or two.
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So I did notice that like I could get my period at a higher weight than I
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wanted to be at, but it was never really important to me to get it until I knew
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that I wanted to have kids in like that college and right after college stage.
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Yeah, I mean, I always told it was because I was super fit and that was
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in my mind, good for that season.
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Yeah, I think you're speaking to a, a really common experience
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though, where really, truly, until it affects a big dream of ours.
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Like for you Morgan, I know becoming a mom is something
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that's just so important to you.
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It's a big dream of yours.
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It is fair to say that like, Hey, it's not that big of a concern.
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What I think is not the problem is not you and you know, our brain's just not.
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Our brains don't have the capacity at 20 years old to
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understand the, the repercussions.
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Right.
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But I feel like the medical team around you should have been like, Hey, no,
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this is, you know, common in athletes.
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However, there are long-term consequences to peered loss, and that's where I feel
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like they did do a disservice there.
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Right.
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Yeah, I agree.
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Yeah.
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So started to become more concerning to you as you were, it was like
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right after you got married.
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Right.
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And so let's kind of like, now that we're at that point, walk us through that.
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'cause that's when things really started to pick up.
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You started seeing doctors about it.
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Let's, let's dig in there.
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Yes.
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So probably three months before my wedding, I was getting my
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period at that time and I decided.
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Like most brides, like I was gonna go through a pretty strict, just like
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exercise a time, eat really healthy.
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Yeah.
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Before the wedding.
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And I did that and I still had my period.
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And then I was someone who wanted to have babies right when I got married.
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So right after we got married, we were gonna start trying and I did
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have my period, but my period went away probably two months into that.
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And I was just convinced I was pregnant.
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I had taken so many pregnancy tests and they were all negative, but I
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was like, well, there's no period.
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I must be.
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And that that was really dark and hard for me, and I went to doctors and they
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would be like, oh, let's test you.
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And I'm like, I don't think I am.
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Like, I think something else is wrong.
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And yeah, I think at that moment it kind of hit me of like, no, this probably
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is just my period going away again.
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Mm-hmm.
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Um.
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And yeah, that was a, that was like a hard shift for me.
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But we, I started seeing a few different doctors kind of
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just searching for answers.
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And in that I was doing so much research of my own.
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So I would go to my primary care provider with a sheet of notes
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and just ask her, Hey, will you run all of these labs for me?
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And um, she did.
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And there was like a little bit of hesitancy, like she had told me.
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Hey, there's really no reason to run these labs.
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And I was like, well, I, I wanna see all these numbers.
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Um, and then she sent me to my ob, which I went to, and um, or I guess my OB, GYN.
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But that doctor also ran some more labs and they had told me my
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hormones were really, really low.
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And the suggestion was, um, to.
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Put me on like a cycle of a ovulation inducer, I think.
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Okay.
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But is that something that's a Yeah, yeah, yeah.
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Okay.
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They like wanted to induce ovulation for you.
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Gotcha.
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Yeah.
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Um, and they told me that they thought my body would just kind of click
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back into, into making the hormones.
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Um, so we tried that and it didn't work and I was just really sad and they.
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Referred me to an endocrinologist and I started going there.
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But every time I went in, I was going weekly and getting sonograms, and every
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time I went in, they had something new to say that was super disheartening to me.
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Like they would tell me, kind of freak out and say, oh, your hormones are so low.
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Like, I don't know what's going on.
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Um.
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They told me right away.
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I had gone in and asked like, I really just wanna figure
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out how to get my period back.
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I'm not necessarily looking to do IVF or anything right now.
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I just wanna figure out my hormones.
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And I think from the start they were telling me like, oh
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you're a great IVF candidate.
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And that really hurt me 'cause I'm a, you know, like a mid 20-year-old
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just trying to get a period.
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But, um.
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Eventually it was every appointment I was coming in and they were telling me
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something else is wrong and just putting me on progesterone or, um, other hormones.
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And I think I got to the point where I felt like we were just like
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throwing a ton of stuff at my body and I like having knowledge of what's
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not working or why it's not working.
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Mm-hmm.
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Versus just that it's not working.
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Um, and in this time I was doing a ton of research about.
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My labs.
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So I got my labs back and I saw that all my numbers were low.
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So I started looking up like what all these low numbers mean and I got to ha and
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I was like doing a ton of Google searching and everything fit what I'd experienced.
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Like one of the common things was like over exercise or
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undereating past eating disorders.
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And I felt like it was everything I'd struggled with was in
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a box right in front of me.
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Then obviously I found your page and started sending you a ton of dms, just
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like asking, and I specifically remember after I'd gone to the appointment
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with the endocrinologist and he was like, you have no uterine lining.
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I remember DMing you and just saying like, Hey, they just told me this.
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I'm freaking out, and being like so scared that I was doomed
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when he had said that, but.
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Just like so reassuring to know there's like a way to get out of it.
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Yeah.
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If I remember those DM conversations correctly, because they were quite
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a while ago, but if I remember, I remember being like, like, okay, how
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do you, how do you tell someone like it's all just because you need to, like
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you have ha and you need to heal that.
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Like why is your endocrinologist not talking to you about something that
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could be so simple to fix and yet, yeah.
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Being so I remember it felt like they were like freaking you out
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about your, you know, oh yeah.
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Your low hormones.
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They kept telling you IVF was like a, a possibility for you.
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And I just felt like no one, I was like, why is no one addressing
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like the elephant in the room?
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Like there's obviously a clear answer as to why this is happening yet no one else
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addressed that with you, is that right?
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Yeah, and I had asked.
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Once I started thinking through and doing my own Google search, I had
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asked my doctor if it could be because of like low body fat, and they had
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told me, no, you're, you look fine.
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Like you're not too skinny.
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And so then I remember like every time, every time it was, ugh.
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Yes.
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So I was like, okay.
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Like I guess, and n none of my doctors really checked.
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About my eating habits, about my exercise habits.
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It was never in the conversation.
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So I think that when I brought it up and they said like, no, that's not
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it, that then I was like, oh, okay.
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Like it made me doubt my own, my own searching.
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But yeah, when in reality you were spot on and you knew.
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Exactly what you had, you discover you're the one who got, you found the answers to
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yourself, and I think that's incredible that you advocated for yourself despite
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almost some like hesitancy from the many doctors that you've seen to like
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really get the support you deserve.
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And I'm, I am kind of curious to hear like what made you finally decide, be
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like, okay, like this is worth actually.
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Investing in this is worth me giving the support.
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What made you decide to go from just like following or just
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researching to being like, no, I need a plan and I need support.
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Yeah.
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Um, so probably two months before we started meeting together, I was trying
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to do it on my own and just like increase the food I was eating and I was using my
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husband as my accountability, which is.
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Really tough as a newly married couple because it puts him in a position
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of having to tell me to eat more.
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But I'm probably gonna get frustrated at him for that, even
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though we want the same thing.
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It's just a tough scenario to be in, and I just feel like it didn't work for us.
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I, I also think my husband's great, but it's hard when he is not around or.
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Doesn't really know what I need to be eating.
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Mm-hmm.
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So like what, I mean he is not a fertility period recovery expert.
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Right.
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Like how would he even know what to tell you to eat?
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Yeah.
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And he was so used to me eating really little that even if I
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increased my plate by a little bit.
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That was looking great to him, but it wasn't actually what I needed.
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And I feel like one of the biggest things when we started working
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together was the food logs.
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Mm-hmm.
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Because I remember maybe a month in, we tried to like tame them out and I was
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like, I, I need the accountability to show like, hey, I'm eating this plate.
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Because to me it was like having the accountability is what actually
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made me eat the food I needed to versus just kind of like.
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Thinking I was, and that is like, I think that's a part of it is when I was
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trying to do my own, I thought I was eating so much, but I really wasn't.
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Yeah, because recover, yeah.
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You were eating so much more than you were before, but you had
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no idea where you needed to go.
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So there's really no way to know, like, yeah, it may be more, but that doesn't
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Now let's get back to today's episode.
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Yeah.
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Definitely.
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And if there's one thing I remember Morgan so vividly about when we first started
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working together, it's like we are, we are not eating enough like that nearly enough.
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How did that feel, to be told, added to receive that kind of information
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and to begin then implementing that?
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Yeah, I think it's weird because you usually know it like coming in, I knew
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I wasn't eating enough, but to have you verbally say it to me, I remember feeling.
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Almost like refreshed, but also kind of like, oh, like you are hiding for
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so long in the shell of how you're doing things and what you make normal.
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But to have someone call you out and say, Hey, you're not eating enough, is like,
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it's, it's good for you, but it hurts a little bit because you feel exposed.
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Yeah.
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Yeah.
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And like you said a little bit ago, like there's just no way.
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Both your husband can know that, but also he can't really support you through that.
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I, right.
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I say it's doubtful that he's ever been through his own disordered eating journey.
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So, you know, I, what I find a lot of times my clients will say
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about their husbands that there's, they're like, why not just gain some
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weight and eat more, but they don't understand how emotionally devastating
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that can be to make those changes.
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And like, having someone who gets that, it's like, yeah, it's, it
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is the worst and here's what we're gonna do about it, and we're gonna
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support you every step of the way.
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It's um, it makes it actually doable, I think.
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Yeah.
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Yes, I agree.
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So what do you think was the biggest changes that working together allowed
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for you to get such quick results?
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'cause you got your peer back in 11 weeks um, okay.
23:57
So I think one, the accountability, I think.
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Also, I'm someone who's always struggled with a bit of health anxiety and just had
24:06
so many questions, and it was so helpful for me to sit on a one-on-one and talk
24:13
through all the things I was feeling.
24:15
And I think, yeah, I don't know if I can share like if this'll,
24:21
but I think one of mine was.
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I always thought like if I increased food, that would lead to like me
24:26
developing diabetes or something.
24:28
Like if I was eating carbs, I saw them as so bad, and I think we debunked that so
24:34
many times, but it was so helpful to me to just be able to talk through it because
24:39
that was such a big fear of mine and have the support and the knowledge behind like.
24:46
No, this is what we're doing.
24:48
Carbs aren't terrible.
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This is like super helpful for your body.
24:52
Um, just being able to talk through the fears that I felt with it
24:56
because I do think it's really scary to just make this drastic change.
25:01
Yeah, I, I couldn't agree more and I relate on a personal level
25:05
'cause I had a lot of my own health anxiety when I was recovering.
25:08
But Morgan, I definitely, like, I remember so many times the amount of times we
25:12
would talk about the fear of, you know, basically like the worst case scenario,
25:15
what happens if I become this version of myself that I don't even recognize
25:19
and I'm so scared of developing Divi diabetes and all these health issues.
25:24
Um, and I just think that.
25:27
It speaks to not only the need for like a specific plan and the accountability,
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but also the support because for you, as is true for all the people we work
25:35
with, like it's not just like, oh, eating this is easy and normal for me.
25:39
It's like, no, like there's.
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Years, years of anxieties that have been there, that have developed,
25:45
and we didn't get into this too much today and we don't really need
25:47
to, but like your health anxieties weren't just developing in college.
25:51
Like they had really been there for a really long time.
25:53
Um, so we had years, basically a whole lifetime to debunk of what you
25:58
viewed as healthy versus what you didn't view as healthy and really.
26:01
Reframing your perspective on what health meant, including like a nourished body
26:05
and a nourished body that gets a period and your body telling you, Hey, you're
26:09
healthy, you're getting what you need.
26:11
Um, 'cause for you, it was never the exercise, like at the point, at least
26:15
in which we started working together.
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You'd already really cut back on the exercise.
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It was really the food that we had a lot of work to do.
26:22
Right?
26:23
Yeah.
26:24
So what was that like getting your first recovery period?
26:29
Oh, it was amazing.
26:30
I think that starting working with you, I always had the doubt in my mind
26:35
that I would be the person that didn't.
26:37
Yeah, yeah.
26:38
I always hear everyone's always like, I'm gonna be the exception.
26:40
It won't work for me.
26:42
Yeah.
26:42
So that was so scary for me of thinking like, oh, I just think like I might be
26:48
the one that doesn't, and I remember getting close to the 90 days and there's.
26:54
Like some moments where I was like, oh, it just felt like a ticking time of like,
26:58
oh, this is when I should get it back.
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But
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yeah, I just remember like that first day being so excited and
27:06
just relieved of like, okay, you know, like I know this can work.
27:10
And it also just puts like some fruit to all the work of you're like, it is scary.
27:18
I had to put on weight that I was uncomfortable with and just go through
27:23
the motions of like being super full and re trying to, you know, like
27:28
getting new clothes and just not feeling super confident in my growing body.
27:33
But then to see, like, to get a period, it makes it all worth it.
27:38
And then you, I think there's a fear for me of like.
27:42
What if I gain all this weight and that's not the solution to my problem.
27:46
Mm-hmm.
27:46
Um, but once I got my period, I was like, okay, it's, it's all worth it.
27:50
Like this was, this was what I needed to do.
27:54
So I think just seeing the fruit come from the work.
27:56
Yeah.
27:57
Yeah.
27:57
And again, I think you just spoke really beautifully there to like why
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having consistent accountability and support is so necessary because the
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small little things that maybe no, no one else really gets, but we get.
28:10
Because we get each other, you know, the changing of the clothes and
28:13
changing the body and the eating more and dealing with the fullness.
28:16
You just spoke so beautifully to all those little things that can happen
28:19
along the way that I think most people, maybe you even did that first two
28:23
months when you were trying on your own to do, it's like you'll try it,
28:26
but then you kind of come up against an obstacle and it feels so overwhelming
28:29
that you just go right back to old ways.
28:31
And I would almost argue, I don't know how someone gets through that without.
28:36
Right.
28:36
Like I just legitly don't know how that's possible.
28:39
'cause it is at the end of the day about the disordered eating the
28:44
health anxiety as much as it is just simply like we need to eat more
28:47
and, and give our body more rest.
28:49
But that's easier said than done when there's this history and there's
28:53
this anxiety there that exists that really needs to be dealt with and
28:56
confronted in order to make that happen.
28:58
Mm-hmm.
28:59
Yeah.
29:00
So you had something so exciting happen.
29:03
Share with us what happened the second time you ovulated.
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So you ovulated it got period ovulated.
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Then what happened?
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But then I got pregnant, which is amazing and I, I still feel like I'm
29:16
in shock, like it happened so quick, which we talked about was a possibility.
29:21
But again, I. I think I always had just thought like, it's not gonna be me.
29:26
Like, um, also going to the doctor and having them, one of the last
29:31
appointments I had, they had told me I had a ton of scar tissue buildup
29:35
that would like, potentially need to get, um, surgically removed.
29:38
And that was the last appointment I ever went to.
29:40
So I never dealt with that, but I figured like, oh, I'll get my period back.
29:44
And then if I don't get pregnant.
29:47
Then I can address what that is.
29:49
Um, so I think when I got pregnant I was like, oh wow, like this,
29:55
you know, like this worked.
29:57
That fear of like everything that was in my head kinda sunk away, which is amazing
30:03
and I can't believe it happened so fast.
30:05
And I feel like that day, so it was the second time I ovulated,
30:12
but I, I just like didn't think.
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It was my period or it was pregnant at all.
30:18
I thought my period was just coming really late.
30:23
I do remember this.
30:23
I remember being like, um, your basal body temperature continues to rise.
30:26
I think I know what's going on.
30:27
But I was like waiting.
30:28
I was like, think you should go take a pregnancy test.
30:31
Yeah.
30:32
And when you had said that, I was just reading rereading through our messages
30:36
with my husband a few weeks ago.
30:38
'cause we're just talking about how crazy it is that like.
30:42
Every time he's been checking in a ton as I've been pregnant of like, how are
30:46
you feeling with your body changing?
30:47
And I'm like, I feel so great because I know like this was what was necessary.
30:52
Like, I'm so excited to carry this life.
30:54
And like, it just like makes me happy to, to be in a different body than I was
31:01
and to know that my body is like well nourished and that it's, um, growing a
31:05
baby and just like such a cool experience.
31:09
We're reading back in the messages, and I remember flying home to Texas and I
31:14
was supposed to take a pregnancy test that next morning, and you and I were
31:17
gonna meet that afternoon, so I was like, I have to take it, because I told her
31:22
I would, that I really didn't want to.
31:24
And I just remember like going and seeing, it was like immediately the cross line was
31:30
on and I was like, no, this like cannot be real, but it's like the best feeling ever.
31:37
The best feeling ever and all the obstacles and challenges and
31:42
the doctor's appointments and the everything, and made it worth it
31:45
to get to this point in the, yeah.
31:47
Yes.
31:48
Yeah.
31:48
So you are now 26 weeks pregnant.
31:51
You got pregnant on your second OB obligatory period, which
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is not always what happens.
31:56
You're right.
31:56
That was definitely quick, and I just think it speaks to, you
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were such a great implementer.
32:02
Morgan, like I, you did such a phenomenal job of when I gave you the plan,
32:06
you went all in and you went for it.
32:08
Mm-hmm.
32:09
Um, yes.
32:09
I think the accountability and all the layers of support we
32:11
give you helped you with that.
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But you also took action and made that possible.
32:16
Yeah.
32:16
And got the quick results because of that.
32:19
Yeah.
32:20
So how has your pregnancy been thus far?
32:22
Up to 26 weeks, which is where you are now?
32:24
Yeah, it's been really good.
32:26
It's so fun.
32:28
I love.
32:29
Just like tracking along with what happens each week is insane To think of your body
32:35
just builds like a new organ and a baby from scratch and it's, it's just such a
32:40
cool thing and it's so fun to experience and it's been good, I will say still
32:46
have like moments of some health anxiety stuff, but, um, I mean I think that's
32:53
something that I'm like working through.
32:55
Yeah.
32:55
Regardless of ha, but.
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It's been, it's been really good.
33:00
I feel like probably one of the key things right now, except like the benefits of
33:07
working together, not just the being pregnant, but it's, I felt like it has put
33:13
me in such a good place working through.
33:16
Just like my thoughts on body image going into pregnancy, because I can't
33:19
imagine being in this space I was before and seeing my body change so much.
33:25
Right, right.
33:26
Like no one ever talks about that.
33:27
I couldn't agree more where it's like, how do you legitimately gain a lot of
33:31
weight in pregnancy when you're terrified?
33:33
Even gain two pounds in when you're struggling with ha.
33:37
Like, yeah, have to.
33:39
I think you have to go through all of that and really come to terms with
33:42
that before you can truly get pregnant.
33:44
Both from like a. Bodies just safe perspective, but also your mental,
33:48
emotional safety too, right?
33:50
Like, I mean, yeah.
33:51
I just can't imagine if I were to get pregnant when I was
33:53
struggling, like I would've, I would've hated every moment of that.
33:56
And that's, that would've been so sad.
33:59
Yeah.
33:59
And we even talk about just being in a place where I'm so excited to
34:03
nourish the baby and eat foods that I know are just like helping grow and.
34:09
We think back to like, oh, if I was in that place, I think
34:12
that would've been hard for me.
34:13
Even though it's like you care so much about the life inside of
34:17
you, but those that is like such a heavy weight on your shoulders.
34:21
To be able to work through that in the middle of like the emotions of being
34:26
pregnant and all the hormones and yeah, it's just, it's like served us really
34:30
well and just been such a relief.
34:33
We didn't even talk that much about that, but, um, yeah, the, the fertility,
34:37
nutrition and the foods we encourage consuming the supplements and the
34:41
hair, tissue mineral analysis, like all those things are why to, you probably
34:45
are having such a phenomenal pregnancy and feeling really good 'cause your
34:48
body is truly nourished in every way possible from the ha recovery, from
34:53
the foods that you're consuming.
34:55
Like just every piece of the puzzle was addressed so that you
34:57
can feel the way you do right now.
34:59
Yeah, and one of the other huge things I think is amazing is when we
35:04
were working together and introduced a ton of fear foods of mine.
35:10
Well, my first trimester pregnancy, I lived off of my old fear foods like
35:15
the pasta and just bread and butter.
35:18
All of those foods are really the only things that I could eat and.
35:24
I was just like, if I hadn't gotten over these Fear Foods before, this
35:28
would be really, really hard for me to go through first trimester.
35:32
So that was, I mean, that was just awesome to not have to.
35:38
Feel that like guilt or fear about eating?
35:41
The only thing that's like sitting in your stomach, girl, same.
35:45
My first trimester of both pregnancies so rough, I lit off like bread,
35:49
pasta and like fruit and like sour.
35:52
That was all I could eat.
35:53
And I same as you Morgan.
35:55
Every time I'd be like, I don't know how I would've done this if I still
35:59
had disordered eating because I am just living off of straight carbs.
36:03
Oh, same.
36:04
As I, I always say to my clients, and I'll say to anyone listening who fears
36:07
that is like, you have to trust your body.
36:09
If it's telling you just to eat carbs in the first trimester, you listen.
36:12
Like there's a reason why it happens.
36:14
And again, it's that another layer in trust.
36:17
It also makes me think, and you're not quite there yet,
36:20
Morgan, but the postpartum, right?
36:21
Like can you imagine going through the body image?
36:25
Changes that are inevitable in the postpartum because your body is changing.
36:30
You just gave birth to human life.
36:31
I mean, it's so incredible what your body just did.
36:34
Yeah.
36:34
Your body's gonna change.
36:35
Like imagine going through that without having first dealt with your
36:38
relationship with your body, right?
36:41
Yeah.
36:43
What would you say to someone who's listening, who's like,
36:45
okay, I am ready to get my period back so that I can get pregnant.
36:49
Like I wanna be pregnant now, but this, I'm scared.
36:53
What would you say to them?
36:56
Um, I mean, I would just say it's so worth it when you see the
37:00
fruit of the work that you do.
37:02
It's, it is scary from the front end, but if you can just think about like
37:08
what it'll feel like to get your period back or what it'll feel like to be
37:12
pregnant and what it'll feel like to hold a baby, which I'm not there yet,
37:16
but I, I think that is like my biggest place of gratitude and I just think
37:21
of it all the time, like this is.
37:24
Truly what I have done in our marriage so far that has like put me in the best
37:30
place for what I feel like my purpose is.
37:35
And like we've always wanted to have a family with a lot of kids and I felt like
37:40
right when we got married and then seeing like, oh, C can this happen was so scary.
37:46
But just being able to be like.
37:49
It can with the work is so motivating and just like encouraging to like
37:56
look and be like, okay, people have done this and this works.
37:59
And to have someone that walks alongside you.
38:01
So I think, I think the best thing, or like my biggest piece of advice is just
38:05
to think about like what can be, because it is hard in the beginning and then don't
38:12
wait too long, like re-get your favorite clothes in the bigger size because.
38:18
It's just, you don't need to keep trying to put on your favorite pair
38:21
of sweatpants that don't fit anymore.
38:23
Just get them in a bigger size and you'll be so happy.
38:27
It'll be so worth it.
38:29
Yes.
38:29
Yeah.
38:30
What would you say to someone who's like, okay, I want the support, I want
38:35
the experience that you had, but I feel.
38:38
Almost like I'm scared to trust someone to join me in the journey.
38:41
I'm scared to let someone in.
38:42
I'm scared to invest in myself because like you said, Morgan, you
38:45
were, there was a little bit of that like what if I'm the exception?
38:49
What if this doesn't work for me?
38:50
What would you say to that person?
38:53
Yeah.
38:54
I feel like one, honestly, that's a good question, but, but what
39:01
if you're the exception that is like such a hard thing and.
39:06
I do like, do you know what percentage of people get their period back?
39:11
95%. Okay.
39:14
Yeah.
39:15
So I feel like you have to get out of the, like you have to think of it as
39:20
like, okay, 95% get their period back and like imagine yourself in that 95%.
39:25
'cause I catch myself, even in pregnancy when I hear something
39:28
that's like, you know, 95%.
39:31
Of this.
39:32
And then I still think like, oh, what if I'm the 5%?
39:35
Mm-hmm.
39:36
And I think that speaks to just like the ha mind, right?
39:38
The perfectionist, the a, the like the things that we all struggle with.
39:42
Those of us who've been through this at least have.
39:44
Yeah.
39:45
Um, but this is, I think going in wanting to be pregnant, going into it, this is the
39:52
best investment you can make for yourself.
39:54
Because, I mean, my stance is if you're going to a doctor and.
40:01
Supplemented hormones to get pregnant.
40:03
You'll probably have to do it in your next one.
40:05
I don't know if, I don't know if that's accurate.
40:07
Statistically true, very true.
40:10
Yep.
40:10
Yeah.
40:10
But if you heal the like e disordered eating that you struggle with the
40:16
over exercise or these things, it's just like nice to know and see.
40:20
Your body is capable of healing and just like trust that
40:24
your body knows how to heal.
40:26
Um.
40:27
Yeah.
40:28
I, I just think investing in that part of it is, and just like being able
40:32
to see like, oh, my body's capable of this and my body's capable of
40:36
having a period and getting pregnant and reproducing, and just like being
40:42
able to discover that is so cool.
40:44
Yeah, the power of your beautiful body.
40:46
A nourished body is a powerful one as we always say.
40:49
And you know, I think, um, I don't wanna point out something you said right there
40:52
'cause I think it was really powerful.
40:54
You know, whether it's fertility medication, I-U-I-I-V-F, it can't solve
40:59
the root cause of your period loss and.
41:02
The thing that I always think about as someone who works exclusively with
41:05
HA women is, you know, like, yes, you could do it to get pregnant one time,
41:09
but then we're talking about what do we do after every other pregnancy?
41:12
What do we do to get our period back in the postpartum?
41:14
What do we do life after kids?
41:17
What do we do about bone loss and the impacts to our, not only our
41:20
bones, but our brain, our heart?
41:23
Her relationship with food, the relationship, then we pass on to our
41:26
kids because they're watching us.
41:28
Um, just how you feel on a daily basis, like truly solving one problem solves
41:33
basically every problem in your life.
41:36
And if you can look at it from that perspective, it really is a case
41:39
of like, there's nothing to lose, but only to gain from doing this.
41:45
Yeah.
41:46
And going to the bathroom.
41:48
It's like, that one's huge too.
41:52
Yeah.
41:52
We didn't even talk about that, Morgan.
41:54
Yes, I know.
41:55
Gonna, the bathroom is so much easier for you now too.
41:57
Yes.
41:58
Yeah.
41:58
It's so much easier.
42:00
Um, even in the pregnancy too, has that been true for you?
42:03
No, not so much during pregnancy, but I can say a difficult one.
42:07
Yeah.
42:08
I think that's just, it wasn't the, like, once I entered my second
42:12
trimester, it got kind of hard, but I mean, I used to live on laxatives.
42:18
Prior to like doing our work, and that was, I just remember like being able to go
42:23
to the bathroom, being so excited because that was so frustrating for so long.
42:28
But I definitely, like, I don't live on laxatives at all right now.
42:33
Like I can go but.
42:35
Pregnancy, constipation is real too.
42:37
Yes.
42:37
Yep.
42:38
There's only so much you can do about the raging hormones that's
42:40
causing the constipation you're experiencing right now, but afterwards,
42:45
your body will be good to go.
42:46
Well, Morgan, this conversation has been incredible.
42:49
Thank you so much for taking the time out of your day to share your story.
42:52
I appreciate it so, so much.
42:54
Thank you.
42:54
Thanks for having me.
42:55
I.
42:56
Morgan, thank you so much for coming on the podcast today.
42:58
Thank you, my incredible community for listening to today's episode.
43:02
If you feel so inspired by listening to Morgan's story and you want
43:06
this experience for yourself, you are ready to get your peer back
43:09
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43:24
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It is so much closer than you think.
43:28
Thank you so much for listening to today's podcast episode.
43:32
As always, we'll be back for another episode next week.
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Until then, Nova, a nourished body is a powerful one.