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Episode #269: Letting Emotions Evolve · Tea Time w/Amie & Bev

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  Speaker 1: Hi, everybody, Welcome to teach time with Amy and Bev.
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  Speaker 1: Good morning, good day. How's been going going quite well?
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  Speaker 1: Lots of magical stuff happening right now. I like it,
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  Speaker 1: you know, I tell you that I just almost it's
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  Speaker 1: been at at least what at least two months or
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  Speaker 1: more that each time we hop on, I have to
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  Speaker 1: mention the numerological number three because it's significant to me
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  Speaker 1: in my life path and it is freaking showing up everywhere.
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  Speaker 2: So fun.
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  Speaker 1: I was gonna say wild, but it's fun.
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  Speaker 2: That's fun.
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  Speaker 1: So I we had a huge fundraiser for my work
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  Speaker 1: and I ate at one of the food trucks and
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  Speaker 1: they gave me my number, and it vibrates when your
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  Speaker 1: order is ready. Twelve. So, for those that don't know,
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  Speaker 1: one plus two is three. We reduce in numerology, reduced
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  Speaker 1: down to one number. I was packing up some electronics
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  Speaker 1: at work, and you know, I had serial numbers on stuff.
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  Speaker 1: They're long. I look down four four four in the
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  Speaker 1: serial number.
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  Speaker 2: Nice.
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  Speaker 1: I get in my boss and I went to a
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  Speaker 1: meeting together and I rode with her. I get in
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  Speaker 1: her vehicle. There's a dying sitting in the seat, like
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  Speaker 1: it's just it's just constant. And yesterday I was just
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  Speaker 1: I had my head down. Saturday, I had my head
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  Speaker 1: down because I was going through paperwork and cleaning up
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  Speaker 1: some piles and stuff, and my stomach. You know, I
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  Speaker 1: had breakfast, but I was like, yeah, I'm kind of
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  Speaker 1: feeling hungry. I look up, it's three thirty three. Suck.
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  Speaker 1: It's just been a lot of fun doing that.
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  Speaker 3: And I've been doing a lot of I've been seeing
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  Speaker 3: a lot of the similar numbers and just constantly writing
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  Speaker 3: the message, you know, reminding myself that the messages, what
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  Speaker 3: the message is for me.
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  Speaker 2: This is just for me, just following the trill of.
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  Speaker 3: The messages all the time because it seems like they're
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  Speaker 3: pretty frequent, and it's fun.
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  Speaker 2: It is fun. It makes it exciting.
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  Speaker 1: It's fun, and I kind of so I was contemplating
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  Speaker 1: this too.
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  Speaker 2: It's like.
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  Speaker 1: I've talked about this before. Deja vous moments to me
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  Speaker 1: are those moments. So we have this life path that
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  Speaker 1: our spirit intends to be on, but our human side
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  Speaker 1: right kind of redirects us and takes the scenic grout,
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  Speaker 1: and then a deja vu moment is like a moment
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  Speaker 1: of you cross your path or you're on your path,
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  Speaker 1: or it's just like a sign post, Okay, I'm doing good.
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  Speaker 1: And I the more I get into the higher vibrational frequency,
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  Speaker 1: the joy of the things that I'm creating, the excitement
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  Speaker 1: and the joys of life. The more I'm in that,
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  Speaker 1: it seems like the more these numbers are showing up
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  Speaker 1: and the dimes are showing up, and it just seems
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  Speaker 1: more consistent. So I'm kind of equating as I'm talking
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  Speaker 1: about it, kind of equating that similar to a deja
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  Speaker 1: vu moment, like they're just like yes, yes, yes, yes,
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  Speaker 1: So just I don't know. To me, that sounds fine
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  Speaker 1: and I'm just gonna roll with it for now.
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  Speaker 2: And that's the whole thing.
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  Speaker 3: We all have to recognize that we're on our own
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  Speaker 3: journeys and everything doesn't mean the same thing as somebody else.
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  Speaker 2: It just doesn't. Yeah, it just doesn't.
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  Speaker 3: And I could bring that into a space of It
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  Speaker 3: was probably about a week ago that I was thinking,
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  Speaker 3: I sure love you, Freeman, and then I felt with
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  Speaker 3: inside myself, I hope he loves me like I love him.
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  Speaker 2: And then I said that out loud, and he says.
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  Speaker 3: You'd said something along the lines, well he would love
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  Speaker 3: me differently because we have different experiences, we've had different programming,
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  Speaker 3: so his love would be maybe, you know, undiluted, you know,
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  Speaker 3: unconditional in mind would have been conditional at that time.
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  Speaker 3: And I was very affected by that conversation because it
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  Speaker 3: was such a realization. It was a realization when I
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  Speaker 3: found out that we all don't see the same color
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  Speaker 3: exactly the same.
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  Speaker 2: Way, because I never never processed that. I never thought
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  Speaker 2: about it.
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  Speaker 3: But then it's like, you think about it, no one
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  Speaker 3: can ever love the same way as the other person.
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  Speaker 3: Not here from this frequency, not here from the earth frequency.
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  Speaker 3: We're going to love differently. We're all going to love
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  Speaker 3: differently from our own programming and experiences, and so that
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  Speaker 3: looks differently.
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  Speaker 2: And then that was for me, that kind of set
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  Speaker 2: me out.
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  Speaker 3: I've been on a lot of emotional stuff, but I
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  Speaker 3: feel like I've come into a space of peace. That's
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  Speaker 3: when we were talking about this this morning too. I
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  Speaker 3: just feel like I've come into a space of I'm
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  Speaker 3: just peaceful. Everything just feels fine on the inside. It
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  Speaker 3: doesn't feel it's kind of crazy, it doesn't feel chaotic,
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  Speaker 3: it doesn't feel like there's no storyline going like there
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  Speaker 3: used to be And it's like I found this book.
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  Speaker 3: It's called Who's Talking, and it's called by It's by
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  Speaker 3: Chris Hinton. The guy came across my feeds on TikTok
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  Speaker 3: and I started listening to the messages that he had
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  Speaker 3: and it's something that I had to really listen to.
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  Speaker 3: I couldn't multitask and listen to. I had to sit
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  Speaker 3: and listen to what he was saying. And it impacted
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  Speaker 3: me in such a way that I've really looked at
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  Speaker 3: a lot of the ways that I've feel things, in
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  Speaker 3: the way that I've thought about things. And it's like
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  Speaker 3: he even talks about trying to control water is like
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  Speaker 3: trying to put a staple into water, or trying to
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  Speaker 3: control it's like trying to put a staple into water.
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  Speaker 3: It's not possible, you know. And it was just another
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  Speaker 3: way of looking at it. But it's just awesome. And
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  Speaker 3: he talks about people. He talks about us having the
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  Speaker 3: narcissistic qualities, but that's these are all our villagers withinside
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  Speaker 3: of us. And each villager you might have anger, you
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  Speaker 3: might have fear, you might have not good enough, you know,
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  Speaker 3: all these things that we've told ourselves in and even
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  Speaker 3: the ego, like all these different words to identify, but
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  Speaker 3: these are all just the villagers, and we're like the
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  Speaker 3: person to be on the outside witnessing that, you know,
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  Speaker 3: watching all this stuff.
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  Speaker 2: We don't observing. We don't have to be those persons,
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  Speaker 2: but we can recognize that we might respond in those ways.
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  Speaker 3: But that's because we've gained that programming at some point
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  Speaker 3: in our lives. And so it's really presented a lot
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  Speaker 3: of ways that I have to look at stuff. I
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  Speaker 3: saw a lot of narcissistic qualities that we needs to
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  Speaker 3: talking about it. How I've had those qualities as well.
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  Speaker 3: I call them qualities, but there have been experiences from
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  Speaker 3: this experience, and if I didn't have it, I wouldn't
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  Speaker 3: have the understanding about it when it comes into my
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  Speaker 3: experience now. So it's just processing so much information that
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  Speaker 3: I just build. Man, every time I turn around I
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  Speaker 3: talk to you, I feel like I'm just a different
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  Speaker 3: person than I was the last time. So it's like
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  Speaker 3: there's been a lot of stuff that's been happening, and
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  Speaker 3: it's sometimes it's super heavy.
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  Speaker 2: But on the other side of that, I'm in a
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  Speaker 2: state of peace now.
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  Speaker 3: I kind of know what I'm doing with my office now,
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  Speaker 3: I kind of you know, I have my plans. I've
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  Speaker 3: been doing steps of processing things and going a different direction.
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  Speaker 3: So it's just recognizing a lot of that stuff and
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  Speaker 3: it's not being in fear of it. And it's also
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  Speaker 3: I've been doing a lot of releasing, a lot of
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  Speaker 3: writing and releasing if lost yesterday was one of my
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  Speaker 3: things was to release inhibitions. I have inhibitions that are
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  Speaker 3: from programming, from a child, from being molested and stuff
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  Speaker 3: like that, and feel like I was naughty or dirtier,
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  Speaker 3: like all these things.
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  Speaker 2: Like all this there's.
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  Speaker 3: Such a full spectrum of things that are processing all
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  Speaker 3: at one time, and so it's taking the time to
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  Speaker 3: just rest. And even this past week it's been I've
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  Speaker 3: been exhausted this past week, like it's just tired. And
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  Speaker 3: then recognizing when I'm around certain people and how draining
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  Speaker 3: their energy can be. Yes, I go in and protect myself,
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  Speaker 3: but also recognizing because I still pick up, I asked
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  Speaker 3: to feel whatever is necessary for the greatest good of all.
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  Speaker 3: And then it's helping me identify what direction of my
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  Speaker 3: life I want to go. So like, so much stuff happening, Yeah,
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  Speaker 3: this is all exciting, and enjoy and all that stuff.
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  Speaker 3: It sounds like a lot of that, but mine has
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  Speaker 3: those moments. But it's been it's just been just been
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  Speaker 3: nice to release these ways that I've trapped myself for
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  Speaker 3: so long, from the programming, from the thoughts, from the beliefs,
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  Speaker 3: from from our parents' energies and what their thoughts and
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  Speaker 3: beliefs were, what they thought was right and wrong, all
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  Speaker 3: those things. And it's processing all that just to uncover
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  Speaker 3: who we are, uncover who I am.
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  Speaker 1: Yeah, And this is one of those things where because
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  Speaker 1: I know, past a couple of months, you've been kind
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  Speaker 1: of going through some stuff and and processing and it's
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  Speaker 1: been some heavy stuff for you. And and I totally
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  Speaker 1: understand that because I've been there too, and I still
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  Speaker 1: go through it periodically. But it's those see we reach
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  Speaker 1: to me, we go through some crap and we move
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  Speaker 1: through it and whatever tool, using whatever tools we have,
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  Speaker 1: and then you reach this plateau where you're like, Okay,
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  Speaker 1: I'm good, life is great, everything's cool, We're flowing, and
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  Speaker 1: then something happens, or a belief system creeps in, or
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  Speaker 1: an emotion shows itself, or something happens to get your attention,
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  Speaker 1: and then it's like, what is this And you sit
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  Speaker 1: in it. You sit in it, and you let it
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  Speaker 1: come up, and you you know, question it. You ask
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  Speaker 1: your team or your spirit team guide for guidance and
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  Speaker 1: help and support as you move through it. And it's
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  Speaker 1: not it's not an easy thing to do for the
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  Speaker 1: most part, because you're just caught off guard. Like man,
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  Speaker 1: life was good and I was feeling some peace in
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  Speaker 1: my body and things where I thought I was doing
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  Speaker 1: really well. And now I feel like this. Now I
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  Speaker 1: feel like shit. Now I feel like crap. Now I
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  Speaker 1: feel like I don't want to people. I don't want
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  Speaker 1: to talk to anybody. I don't want to not even
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  Speaker 1: the people you live with, and and and you and
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  Speaker 1: you're not You're just not sure what is coming up
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  Speaker 1: until you sit with it and allow it to just
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  Speaker 1: come and flow. And we've talked about a lot, Grab
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  Speaker 1: a pen and paper and just start writing and see
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  Speaker 1: what comes up. Right and sounds like that's kind of
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  Speaker 1: what you did is did some journaling and processing through
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  Speaker 1: pen and paper. And now you're at that stage where
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  Speaker 1: I'm feeling peace in me because I will say that
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  Speaker 1: that stuff something got stirred in you and and your spirit,
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  Speaker 1: your body, something is saying, Okay, it's time to do
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  Speaker 1: some some more are layers they're gonna come up, and
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  Speaker 1: we don't always know what that looks like. However, each
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  Speaker 1: time we do that, we're in a space of difference,
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  Speaker 1: meaning whatever you process this time, you were in a
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  Speaker 1: different space with yourself than you were six months ago,
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  Speaker 1: two years ago, twenty years ago. And each time we
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  Speaker 1: heal some layers here heal some stuff that comes up.
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  Speaker 1: We're different. We just are the way we process things,
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  Speaker 1: the way we think about things, the way we perceive things. Now,
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  Speaker 1: if this stuff would have come up for you, and
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  Speaker 1: I'm just using you as an example because it's happened
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  Speaker 1: for me as well, that if this same stuff would
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  Speaker 1: have come up ten years ago, you would have sat
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  Speaker 1: in it way longer, like months. Probably. I know I
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  Speaker 1: probably would have and not known what is happening, what
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  Speaker 1: am I supposed to do with this, and to just
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  Speaker 1: stay in the funk and just let it consume me.
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  Speaker 1: And then the more I focus on it, the more
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  Speaker 1: I get of it, and the more down or heavy
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  Speaker 1: heavy in the emotions I focus on, the more I
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  Speaker 1: get of it, And so it would have just lingered
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  Speaker 1: and lingered and lingered from probably months, whereas I would
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  Speaker 1: equate this to just weeks that you said in this
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  Speaker 1: which is huge, because that's amazing. Next time it might
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  Speaker 1: be days. Right, So, but every single time we moved
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  Speaker 1: through something like that that feels really heavy in our
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  Speaker 1: body and on our heart, on our mind, it's a
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  Speaker 1: I know when I move through this, I'm gonna feel better,
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  Speaker 1: I'm gonna I'm going to feel lighter, I'm going to
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  Speaker 1: have more clarity. Right. It's so it's just the cloudiness
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  Speaker 1: of the emotions and the mindset and the physical sensations
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  Speaker 1: that we sift through and move through and release and
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  Speaker 1: all the things. And then when we get on the
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  Speaker 1: other side, because we moved through all that and we
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  Speaker 1: took a look at it, like you and I were
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  Speaker 1: in that space where we take a look at what's
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  Speaker 1: happening within ourselves, like we want to under not necessarily
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  Speaker 1: understand it, but we want to process it. We want
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  Speaker 1: to really look at it because I know, for me,
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  Speaker 1: if I could look at something I'm moving through that
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  Speaker 1: feels very heavy, I can generally attach it to so
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  Speaker 1: many other things, and it's like shaken. The's etch a
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  Speaker 1: sketch on that topic like, oh, I got it, I
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  Speaker 1: got it, I got it right, and I can release
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  Speaker 1: all of that stuff for that particular topic, physical sensation,
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  Speaker 1: and it's like I can I can relate it to
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  Speaker 1: several different events in my life, different experiences, and I say, oh,
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  Speaker 1: I see how that's a pattern, and it keeps showing up,
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  Speaker 1: and like recently when I had that, I recognize just
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  Speaker 1: a month ago, two months ago. But when I get overwhelmed,
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  Speaker 1: I get angry because I'm feeling out of control. And
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  Speaker 1: then when I look back, I'm like, yep, I did it.
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  Speaker 1: Then I did it. Then, yep. I can see that pattern.
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  Speaker 1: Now I know it, I can acknowledge it. And when
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  Speaker 1: I can, if I start to feel that in my
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  Speaker 1: body coming up, I'd be like, no, I'm safe, We're okay,
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  Speaker 1: we can handle this. We've moved things through things way
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  Speaker 1: worse than this. It's okay. The more I stay calm,
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  Speaker 1: the better I'm going to be. I'm making decisions right.
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  Speaker 1: And now I can talk myself through it as if
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  Speaker 1: I am talking to a little person to calm them down,
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  Speaker 1: to help them feel safe. And that's what I have
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  Speaker 1: to do for myself, help me feel safe, because that's
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  Speaker 1: my job. It's nobody else is going to do that
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  Speaker 1: for me. I have to feel safe in my own body.
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  Speaker 1: And each time we have these experiences like that, it
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  Speaker 1: just helps us be better and better and better. And
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  Speaker 1: it's it's the better you get, the better you get.
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  Speaker 2: A hundred percent.
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  Speaker 3: And I would say, yeah, I used to go through
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  Speaker 3: things a lot longer, and now it's like I've had
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  Speaker 3: an ask.
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  Speaker 2: I wanted all this, you.
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  Speaker 3: Know, from a spiritual level, I wanted all this. I
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  Speaker 3: wanted all this to purge all this, and it's like
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  Speaker 3: it seems like I've gone through well, first of all
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  Speaker 3: a friend walking out and then letting go of that
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  Speaker 3: friend and now being in a space of I don't
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  Speaker 3: want the friend back. I'm not in that. I'm not
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  Speaker 3: in that energetic space anymore. We're on two different frequencies.
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  Speaker 3: And that's really what it boils down to. It's not
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  Speaker 3: being in that frequency anymore.
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  Speaker 2: We're not the same.
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  Speaker 3: We've just gone different directions, and when that always opens
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  Speaker 3: up the door for other things to come in.
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  Speaker 2: So I've been going through like that.
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  Speaker 3: That was a process, and then abandonment. I've been going
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  Speaker 3: through a lot of stuff, even in my relationship at
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  Speaker 3: home and with the family and the kids and the
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  Speaker 3: dynamic everything. So it's like it's I've been looking at
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  Speaker 3: so much stuff now and it's like it's You're right.
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  Speaker 3: It is so heavy when you're going through it, especially
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  Speaker 3: especially when I because I have called you and I
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  Speaker 3: was pretty upset awesome things, and then it's like I've
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  Speaker 3: gone through that process and work through that part. And
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  Speaker 3: for me, because I think I didn't fill my emotions
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  Speaker 3: most of my life, this has been the opportunity to
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  Speaker 3: fill those emotions. It wasn't too for me to look
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  Speaker 3: at any person, place, experience, or situation as anything. It
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  Speaker 3: was just for me to feel those emotions because I
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  Speaker 3: never allowed myself to fill those emotions when I was
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  Speaker 3: a kid. Ever, so now I've had a lot of
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  Speaker 3: emotional feeling, you know, the crime, the all that stuff,
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  Speaker 3: and of course we're we've moved into the what cancer
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  Speaker 3: right now, and so that changes that shifts things too,
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  Speaker 3: which is also still emotions.
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  Speaker 2: It's but it feels good.
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  Speaker 3: It feels it was almost an immediate feel good and
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  Speaker 3: even to the point where I sat outside for over
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  Speaker 3: an hour yesterday meditating with the wind being blown around.
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  Speaker 2: But it was so perfect.
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  Speaker 3: It was so dynamic because and it was cool, like
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  Speaker 3: I'd feel the cool air hit against me, and then
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  Speaker 3: I would feel warmth and I would It was just
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  Speaker 3: an amazing day to release so much stuff. And then
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  Speaker 3: it's like I came in even being more open, you know,
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  Speaker 3: just more it's just taking me on this journey.
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  Speaker 2: It's like that one thing.
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  Speaker 3: Created the whole domino effect, and then I was able
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  Speaker 3: to look at so many things where before, if that
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  Speaker 3: one thing, the very first thing that the start of
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  Speaker 3: the domino effect, would have been the thing that did
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  Speaker 3: me in for forever, for a very long time, like
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  Speaker 3: and what it was under what was my village person?
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  Speaker 3: That would have came up anger because that anger was
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  Speaker 3: supporting the fear, you know, trying to protect the fear
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  Speaker 3: from being there. And it's like we've got to grow
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  Speaker 3: through these things. Otherwise there's you.
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  Speaker 2: Don't have growth.
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  Speaker 3: And it's like I couldn't keep pushing it away and
• 18:02
  Speaker 3: you can't. There's only so many boxes. It's all so
• 18:04
  Speaker 3: much shit, Like you run out of space. There's no
• 18:06
  Speaker 3: more room in the addict, right, there's no more room
• 18:08
  Speaker 3: in the basement, or you don't have any room, and
• 18:10
  Speaker 3: so it's like it was just recognizing that it's really processed.
• 18:14
  Speaker 3: I feel like I've processed lifetimes of stuff in the
• 18:17
  Speaker 3: last few months, and it's been phenomenal. Do what Will
• 18:20
  Speaker 3: I experience more of it in the future. Probably I
• 18:23
  Speaker 3: probably will, but it'll be less and less. Like you said,
• 18:26
  Speaker 3: it doesn't feel as heavy. If I would have felt
• 18:28
  Speaker 3: this ten years ago, I don't know. Life kind of
• 18:32
  Speaker 3: seems like it's not worth living sometimes, and that in
• 18:35
  Speaker 3: that moment, even if I didn't remove myself from the planet,
• 18:39
  Speaker 3: I would have focused on so much traumas and everything
• 18:42
  Speaker 3: else and the y me and the victim and.
• 18:44
  Speaker 2: All that stuff that I would have missed them. Mark,
• 18:46
  Speaker 2: I wouldn't have gotten it.
• 18:47
  Speaker 3: I wouldn't have understood ten years ago half the stuff
• 18:50
  Speaker 3: that I'm experiencing right now, or even how to get
• 18:53
  Speaker 3: through it because it felt so bad, or at that time,
• 18:55
  Speaker 3: my way of dealing with it would have been go
• 18:57
  Speaker 3: smoke some pot, because it would have smoked it load
• 19:00
  Speaker 3: my mind down. It would have gave me that time
• 19:02
  Speaker 3: to take a breath of few and I'm not saying
• 19:03
  Speaker 3: there's anything wrong with it. It gave me the opportunity
• 19:05
  Speaker 3: to go through that process but now it's like I
• 19:08
  Speaker 3: don't need that, and so occasionally I'll feel like.
• 19:11
  Speaker 2: Oh God, I need to do I feel like I
• 19:12
  Speaker 2: need to go.
• 19:13
  Speaker 3: There was a day last week that I felt like
• 19:15
  Speaker 3: drinking and I hadn't drank for a few years. Like
• 19:17
  Speaker 3: I don't drink at all, it doesn't do anything for me.
• 19:19
  Speaker 3: But I was feeling that feeling like I wanted to
• 19:21
  Speaker 3: run from these It was the old feelings.
• 19:23
  Speaker 2: I wanted to run from these emotions.
• 19:25
  Speaker 3: And it's like I really had to stop sat and
• 19:27
  Speaker 3: feel it, which makes me even now I'm now on
• 19:30
  Speaker 3: the other side of that. Now I'm saying this, if
• 19:32
  Speaker 3: I tune into someone, if I say their name or anything,
• 19:35
  Speaker 3: I'm picking up stuff so fast, Like it's so fast
• 19:38
  Speaker 3: I could look I could look over at one of
• 19:39
  Speaker 3: my dogs and like, oh, realize it. I start itching
• 19:42
  Speaker 3: on my body and they're having an allergy reaction. It's
• 19:45
  Speaker 3: like so quick, it's faster than it's ever been. But
• 19:48
  Speaker 3: it's only because it's stuff is cleared out. It's only
• 19:51
  Speaker 3: allowed me to be able to be this vessel.
• 19:52
  Speaker 1: Now.
• 19:54
  Speaker 3: It's it's been fun, but there's been a lot of
• 19:57
  Speaker 3: shit in that that fun.
• 19:58
  Speaker 2: And there was days of it.
• 20:00
  Speaker 3: I might have maybe only a couple of minutes of
• 20:02
  Speaker 3: where it could breathe and it felt light and I
• 20:04
  Speaker 3: felt good for a minute. Next thing, you know, I've
• 20:05
  Speaker 3: been ringing back in it again. It's like, oh no, no,
• 20:08
  Speaker 3: you're not getting away from us that easily. We're going
• 20:10
  Speaker 3: to release this stuff because this has been my desire.
• 20:13
  Speaker 3: It's been my desire to evolve, and I can't. I
• 20:16
  Speaker 3: don't feel like I could evolve with all that.
• 20:18
  Speaker 2: Stuff on me.
• 20:18
  Speaker 3: Still, Yeah, it's been awesome now from this point where
• 20:24
  Speaker 3: I'm at right this moment, it's been awesome. It's been
• 20:26
  Speaker 3: awesome for me to even stop and fill those emotions,
• 20:30
  Speaker 3: to just feel that stuff and see whatever comes up.
• 20:33
  Speaker 3: And I have been doing a lot of writing, and
• 20:35
  Speaker 3: I've been burning a lot because it needs to be
• 20:38
  Speaker 3: even good stuff, even like writing a letter to my
• 20:41
  Speaker 3: higher self, like all these things. It's like all it's
• 20:44
  Speaker 3: just all part of the process, and it's all right
• 20:46
  Speaker 3: for me. It's all right because it's like we second
• 20:50
  Speaker 3: guess ourselves and everything that comes into us is information for.
• 20:54
  Speaker 2: Us that's going to benefit us. We might try to
• 20:57
  Speaker 2: run it by somebody else.
• 20:57
  Speaker 3: And as soon as we do that You've now taken
• 21:00
  Speaker 3: from inside of you to outside of you, and you're
• 21:02
  Speaker 3: looking for information or somebody's response outside of you to
• 21:07
  Speaker 3: give you information to soothe you. And we can't. I
• 21:10
  Speaker 3: can't do that anymore. I have to be within in
• 21:13
  Speaker 3: order for me to process this stuff. And so even
• 21:16
  Speaker 3: recognizing when I get excited about stuff and I'm like, oh,
• 21:18
  Speaker 3: I want to share this real quick. No, I've got
• 21:21
  Speaker 3: to sit in with that energy and just feel that
• 21:24
  Speaker 3: excitement of it instead of just sharing it. Because what
• 21:27
  Speaker 3: happens a lot of times when you share your information
• 21:29
  Speaker 3: with someone else, they don't have the same enthusiasm, the
• 21:31
  Speaker 3: same excitement, and then you're like feeling like, oh, I
• 21:34
  Speaker 3: guess it really wasn't a big deal, and it's like
• 21:36
  Speaker 3: you almost negave a positive experience. And so I'm learning
• 21:40
  Speaker 3: to just be within myself and to process that stuff
• 21:43
  Speaker 3: and be excited about that stuff.
• 21:47
  Speaker 1: Yep. And it's all worth it. In the moments, it suck,
• 21:52
  Speaker 1: It sucks bad, Yeah, it sucks. However, when you get
• 21:58
  Speaker 1: on the other side of it. You know, I've been
• 22:02
  Speaker 1: watching Bev move through this and in some of the
• 22:05
  Speaker 1: videos she's she's you tell the energy is not heavy,
• 22:10
  Speaker 1: but just not where she is today. So if you
• 22:13
  Speaker 1: went back and watched a couple of videos prior to this,
• 22:16
  Speaker 1: you may notice that. And and she knew it. So
• 22:20
  Speaker 1: it's like I can bring that up. She knew it,
• 22:23
  Speaker 1: and she was doing the best so she could in
• 22:25
  Speaker 1: those moments to show up to have these conversations, to
• 22:29
  Speaker 1: do these recordings, and also knowing the reason why we
• 22:35
  Speaker 1: have these conversations is helpful for us. So this is
• 22:40
  Speaker 1: our own therapy session, and so we just share it
• 22:42
  Speaker 1: with everybody else. And so, uh so you get to
• 22:49
  Speaker 1: you get to notice, like now she's like, oh my gosh,
• 22:52
  Speaker 1: I feel so much peace and calmness. Well, it's because
• 22:54
  Speaker 1: she's released some of the heaviness out of our body,
• 22:57
  Speaker 1: the heaviness of the experiences, the oceans, the words, the
• 23:02
  Speaker 1: thoughts that were stored in her body because of the
• 23:05
  Speaker 1: past experiences that she's had. And I say, she, I've
• 23:08
  Speaker 1: done it too. I still do it every once in
• 23:11
  Speaker 1: a while. And it's an ongoing thing because you have
• 23:14
  Speaker 1: to think about all the information that we've taken in
• 23:17
  Speaker 1: over all these years that you've been alive from conception
• 23:21
  Speaker 1: that all that energy of everything that's ever been that
• 23:26
  Speaker 1: we have stored within our body, and every time we
• 23:31
  Speaker 1: clear some of that out, we feel lighter and lighter
• 23:34
  Speaker 1: and lighter. But it's the clearing process that feels very
• 23:37
  Speaker 1: heavy and very daunting and just absolutely sucks. And there's
• 23:44
  Speaker 1: beauty in it. There's beauty and sitting in it. There's
• 23:47
  Speaker 1: beauty and sitting with yourself. There's beauty in the process.
• 23:50
  Speaker 1: And when you get on the other side, it's like
• 23:52
  Speaker 1: this big, huge weight's been lifted off and you can
• 23:54
  Speaker 1: breathe and you're just like, wow, that feels amazing. It's
• 23:58
  Speaker 1: just no different than shedding the pounds physically. You notice
• 24:02
  Speaker 1: that when when you reduce your weight that it's easier
• 24:06
  Speaker 1: to get up and down. It's you just feel lighter,
• 24:09
  Speaker 1: you feel different, maybe your clothes don't fit, is tight, like,
• 24:13
  Speaker 1: it's just a lightness. And that's where the goal would be,
• 24:17
  Speaker 1: is to be able to feel that within yourself on
• 24:21
  Speaker 1: a regular basis and knowing that when you are faced
• 24:25
  Speaker 1: with another obstacle, then you know you're going to get
• 24:31
  Speaker 1: through it. It's just a matter of going through the
• 24:34
  Speaker 1: process like okay, here we go again.
• 24:37
  Speaker 2: It's okay.
• 24:38
  Speaker 3: And it was so nice that I got to talk
• 24:40
  Speaker 3: to you about when I was going through a moment
• 24:42
  Speaker 3: that you were saying, Yeah, you went through the same
• 24:44
  Speaker 3: thing too, and it's like it does make it and
• 24:48
  Speaker 3: you expressed a lot of stuff that made a difference.
• 24:50
  Speaker 2: And that's why we're having this conversation.
• 24:52
  Speaker 3: It's because the listener needs to know that you're okay,
• 24:56
  Speaker 3: and sometimes it feels like you're totally not okay. But
• 24:59
  Speaker 3: this is something that you need to hear because you're
• 25:00
  Speaker 3: probably going through the same stuff and not having understanding
• 25:04
  Speaker 3: about why you're going through these things and feeling all
• 25:06
  Speaker 3: these things and being able to talk to someone else
• 25:09
  Speaker 3: about this stuff makes a big difference.
• 25:11
  Speaker 2: It Actually, it really comforted me.
• 25:13
  Speaker 3: It really felt good, not because you went through it,
• 25:17
  Speaker 3: but because you definitely definitely had an understanding about what
• 25:21
  Speaker 3: I was experiencing and you had gone through it already.
• 25:24
  Speaker 3: And it's like that heapness of it, when you're going
• 25:26
  Speaker 3: through that heavy part, it does.
• 25:28
  Speaker 2: Feel like it'd be easy to not be here anymore.
• 25:30
  Speaker 3: And I'm so thankful that I decided to day anyways,
• 25:34
  Speaker 3: you know, keep going through it because I've when you
• 25:37
  Speaker 3: said taking a breath, I feel like I can take
• 25:39
  Speaker 3: a breath deeper than I've ever been able to take
• 25:41
  Speaker 3: a breath.
• 25:42
  Speaker 2: I can. It's all right for me to get emotional.
• 25:44
  Speaker 2: It's all right, from my eyes to water. It's all right.
• 25:47
  Speaker 2: It's okay for us to feel these emotions and stuff.
• 25:49
  Speaker 3: And so it's like it's it's it's it actually facilitated
• 25:53
  Speaker 3: me in my growth, So thank you.
• 25:56
  Speaker 2: But so that's why I feel like it's such a
• 25:57
  Speaker 2: benefit for.
• 25:58
  Speaker 3: Others to hear the problems that we're going through and
• 26:01
  Speaker 3: how we are managing things and see pick up whatever
• 26:04
  Speaker 3: resonates with each person that's out there. You know, whatever
• 26:07
  Speaker 3: you feel good, whatever we're saying, and maybe it's maybe
• 26:09
  Speaker 3: it's not something that we're saying, but maybe experience guiding
• 26:12
  Speaker 3: you to something else.
• 26:13
  Speaker 2: And it's just being open to listen to it.
• 26:15
  Speaker 3: And note that when you have a reaction that's a
• 26:17
  Speaker 3: nut jerk reaction like I'm not listening to the shit,
• 26:20
  Speaker 3: you probably need to listen to it.
• 26:23
  Speaker 1: Yep, especially when them numbers and dime Star show.
• 26:26
  Speaker 3: That's right, and I would say the same, but they
• 26:30
  Speaker 3: have been. So it's most of my journaling lately is
• 26:33
  Speaker 3: writing down the numbers. And I might write down the
• 26:34
  Speaker 3: numbers over and over and over and over again, and
• 26:37
  Speaker 3: write down whatever I feel is the was the message
• 26:40
  Speaker 3: during that message, and then I'll go back and read
• 26:41
  Speaker 3: it for the stuff that I'm keeping. The other stuff,
• 26:44
  Speaker 3: I'm just burning it.
• 26:45
  Speaker 1: Yeah, I'm just releasing it nice all right, friends. Bottom line,
• 26:51
  Speaker 1: You're not alone. We all go through it. I can
• 26:54
  Speaker 1: tell you. I probably guarantee every spiritual teacher an influencer
• 26:59
  Speaker 1: have gone has gone through the same thing. I go
• 27:01
  Speaker 1: through a spurt of heaviness, move through it. Things are good,
• 27:06
  Speaker 1: things are lighter, things are more peaceful, and then another
• 27:10
  Speaker 1: something else comes. So you're not alone in this. You
• 27:13
  Speaker 1: just you keep going and keep showing up. And to me,
• 27:16
  Speaker 1: it's a it's a clearing and cleansing of not only
• 27:20
  Speaker 1: the stored experience in this lifetime, but also history, ancestry,
• 27:26
  Speaker 1: ancestral stuff. It's a process of all of it because
• 27:29
  Speaker 1: we are clearing energy collectively, and we are all connected
• 27:34
  Speaker 1: in this the conscious conscious awareness of the universe. And
• 27:40
  Speaker 1: so the more work we do on ourselves that affects
• 27:43
  Speaker 1: everybody on a way different level than we could probably
• 27:48
  Speaker 1: even imagine or fathom or even process. So just keep
• 27:52
  Speaker 1: moving forward, and you're doing great no matter where you're at.
• 27:56
  Speaker 1: And and again, this is why Bev and I come here.
• 28:00
  Speaker 1: We do these conversations because it's helpful for the two
• 28:04
  Speaker 1: of us. We hardly ever talk in between these sessions,
• 28:07
  Speaker 1: and so when we come together, we get to share
• 28:12
  Speaker 1: what we've been going through and provide that for you
• 28:16
  Speaker 1: as a listener. So you do the same. When you're
• 28:19
  Speaker 1: going through something and you find something that works, then
• 28:23
  Speaker 1: share it with whoever is seeking the information. It could
• 28:27
  Speaker 1: be a coworker, somebody in the grocery line. I always
• 28:31
  Speaker 1: use a grocery store for a reason or for some reason,
• 28:33
  Speaker 1: I don't know. I don't know anyway, but I'm always
• 28:37
  Speaker 1: like dig in the grocery store line. And so anyway,
• 28:41
  Speaker 1: it could be anybody at any time that is seeking
• 28:44
  Speaker 1: information like this. So whether you share our content or
• 28:47
  Speaker 1: somebody else's be a resource for the information doesn't mean
• 28:52
  Speaker 1: you have to teach it. We're found on many platforms.
• 28:56
  Speaker 1: We're on YouTube, social media, Facebook, Instace, Graham, uh Speaker, Spotify, iHeartRadio,
• 29:04
  Speaker 1: and podcast Attic. So share the information. Got any final
• 29:12
  Speaker 1: words on this topic?
• 29:14
  Speaker 2: You got this? You got this.
• 29:23
  Speaker 1: All right? Friends, Thanks for hanging out with us. Tea
• 29:25
  Speaker 1: time with Amy and Bed and we'll see you on
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