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I Didn't Ask For A 12cm Uterine Fibroid....Or Did I? · The MODERN YIN Podcast

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  So this is the episode that you're probably going to want to
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  put the earbuds in if you've got little kiddos, because I'm going
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  to be dropping a few F bombs. Yeah.
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  Hey. Hey.
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  Yinning at Life Gang. It's Kimberly Roberts of the
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  Soulful Yin brand. I'm here to dish out all things
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  about traditional Chinese medicine, yin yoga, reflexology,
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  and of course, I'm here to disrupt your mind.
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  So thanks so much for pressing play on today's episode.
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  Let's do this. I never fucking asked for a 12cm
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  uterine fibroid. I also didn't fucking ask for an
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  enlarged gallbladder lining or six liver cysts.
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  Yeah, and you know what else? I didn't sign up for an abusive
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  alcoholic husband for 25 years. Yeah, didn't sign up for that
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  either. However, I want to tell you
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  something. I actually manifested all of it.
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  All of it. The fibroid, liver cysts, the
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  enlarged gallbladder lining, and the abusive husband.
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  Yep, all of it. I manifested it.
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  And that's what I want to talk about today, the fact that you
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  know what we're always manifesting, whether we are
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  conscious of it or not. So I'm going to dive into how I
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  manifested all of this so that you can really understand just
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  how powerful manifestation is because it is.
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  And when you really understand how powerful manifestation is
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  and that you're always manifesting, you're always Co
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  creating with the universe, you're going to want to start to
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  get really fucking deliberate about what you're asking for.
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  So I'm going to start with, you know, I'm going to start with
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  the alcoholic husband. Yeah, OK.
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  Because that was, you know, 25 years.
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  So when I met my husband, now late husband, I thought he was
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  the cat's meow. Everybody actually thought he
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  was. He was the guy that was always
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  there for you. He would drop at a second to go
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  and help somebody. Now, I don't want to get wrong
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  here in saying that he was a complete asshole because he
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  wasn't. Just because he was an
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  alcoholic, that didn't mean that didn't make him a crappy human
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  being. If anything it was the opposite.
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  It's just his journey, especially his childhood, got
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  the better of him and sadly he was not able to come up with the
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  tools to navigate that trauma and so he chose alcohol as his
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  coping mechanism. But here's the thing, When I met
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  him, I didn't know he had a problem.
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  In fact, he didn't know he had. He didn't even know he had a
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  problem. But literally 2 weeks after we
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  were married, he ended up in the Royal Ottawa Hospital because he
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  had a complete meltdown from drinking too much.
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  And that's when I found out that he had actually been struggling
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  with alcohol for years, but he was what was coined as a
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  functioning alcoholic. And typically a functioning
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  alcoholic, they're functioning. So it's really difficult to see
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  that things are not working for them because they're still
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  managing to do this thing called life.
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  So he was able to go through rehab and then he was sober for
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  eight years and it was an incredible 8 years.
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  We travelled, we laughed, we had fun.
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  Like it was incredible. It was like the dream marriage
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  and then he relapsed and just basically went downhill from
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  there for another 15 years, well, actually 16 years.
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  And then sadly he ended his life.
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  But during the time from that 10 years to the time that I left, I
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  knew he was sick and I chose to stay.
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  I chose to be the brunt, the sounding board, the person he
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  would take it out on. I chose it.
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  I could have walked out, but I chose to stay.
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  So it was a conscious decision on my part to stay.
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  So I manifested that if I had had more strength sooner, I
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  would have left. But it took me a long time to
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  build the courage to leave. So that's the one thing.
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  Now, how did that actually ripple into my body?
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  Well, there was a lot of unworthiness on my part.
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  I used to say to him all the time, I guess I'm not good
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  enough for you if you can't stop drinking.
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  And so I started to say that over and over again, Why can't I
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  be good enough for you to stop drinking?
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  Like, why can't I be enough? And I created a belief system
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  around that. And you see a belief system, all
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  it is, is thoughts that you believe over and over and over
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  again. Thoughts that you repeat in your
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  mind over and over again that eventually become your belief.
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  Or in some other cases, your beliefs are instilled upon you
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  from like your parents, what they believed.
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  So feeling very unworthy, unloved, undeserving, I became
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  to get, I became to get very frustrated, bitter, resentful,
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  angry. I even was raging.
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  And where do we hold those emotions?
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  In our body, our liver, our gallbladder.
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  The gallbladder holds the bitterness, the liver holds the
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  rest of those emotions. So I was living with those
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  emotions on the daily and I never processed them.
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  So they stayed in my body and eventually they created disease.
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  Hence the liver cysts and the enlarged gallbladder lining.
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  Until I eventually found the tools to deal with all of those
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  emotions and to let them leave my body.
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  And now I'm healing. My liver is healthy, my
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  gallbladder is stable, and I didn't have to have any of those
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  organs dissected or removed. This is how powerful your
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  thoughts are. They become the belief system
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  that you live by. Now, the fibroid, that's an
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  interesting 1. So in Chinese medicine they say
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  that the kidneys are the emotion, are the organs that
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  hold fear. And also in Chinese medicine,
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  our reproductive organs are part of the kidney and bladder
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  system. So throughout that whole journey
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  of living with my late husband, well, husband at the time, there
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  was a lot of fear. Fear of being abused, fear of
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  being left, fear of living on my own, fear of how am I going to
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  support myself so much fear. And instead of processing the
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  fear, doing the mental work to change the thoughts, to change
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  the emotions and to release them, instead I chose to just
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  shove them back down into my body.
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  And also not feeling worthy and loved made me feel unstable,
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  didn't leave me feeling grounded or with any kind of security at
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  all, which is all tied in with the kidneys and the uterus
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  because the the uterus is part of the kidney system.
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  And so I manifested that. Now it's shrinking.
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  I've got it down to about 7 centimeters and it's shrinking.
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  But originally the doctors wanted to remove my uterus.
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  And I was like, that's not fucking happening.
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  You're not taking that that organ out.
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  Everything in my body is staying.
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  And they were like, yeah, and you're never going to heal all
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  of this. And I'm like, you just watch me
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  because I will. And I have, and I continue to.
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  And it's all because of what I am purposely thinking and
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  choosing to believe and the thoughts that I'm thinking.
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  I'm making really damn fucking sure that I am focusing on the
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  good feeling thoughts and letting them compound in my life
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  so that it raises my vibration, my energy, my frequency that I'm
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  sending out because I'm just a big broadcast channel like we
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  all are. And I'm just constantly
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  broadcasting out to the universe, and the universe is
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  just matching my vibration and giving me back the experiences
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  that match that vibe. So that's the thing.
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  This is how manifestation works. It's all based on your energy,
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  but your energy is produced based on what you believe, and
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  what you believe is based upon your thoughts.
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  So if you're having shitty feeling thoughts or shitty
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  thoughts that are producing shitty feelings in your body,
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  you are going to vibrate at a low level and you're going to
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  send that out. And I hope by now you understand
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  what I talk about. Energy.
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  What is that energy? Everything is energy.
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  Like the ocean is energy, the sky is energy, Your plants are
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  energy, we are energy. Everything vibrates.
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  Like if we could see that we have a vibration within us, it
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  would be a lot easier for us to understand.
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  But a lot of people don't understand that.
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  They don't see like the waves that are moving through our
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  body, but we're just a big broadcast signal and the
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  universe only matches based on our vibe.
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  So knowing all of this, I wonder, are you thinking right
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  now how can I start to manifest and Co create with the universe
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  It helped me rebuild a failing business where I'm now wait
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  listed. It helped me build three other
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  It helped me avoid surgery of having my uterus and my
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  gallbladder removed and my liver dissected.
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  So there's something to it. But with manifestation, and this
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  is what I'm going to leave you with, with manifestation, it's
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  all about consistency. It's not just like I'm going to
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  just do this for a few days and then I've got it nailed.
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  No, I'm going to tell you right now, it's life time, work,
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  always lifetime, Every single day you're going to be doing
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  this work because you got a primal brain that is going to
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  kick in on OverDrive and try and control you.
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  And you know what? You are here to control your
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  life. You are here to create an
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  extraordinary life. And I say this all the time.
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  I am here to help you create an extraordinary life in a flexible
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  Because this is my jam. And now that I am deliberately
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  Co creating my extraordinary life, I want to help you do the
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  notes, get in my world, and let's really rock this yinning
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  at life vibe. Thanks so much for pressing play
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  on today's episode. I'll see you next week, friends.