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Pivotando en la Vida — Healing, Humor y la Voz que ya no se Calla · Ay Mijita ✨ Embrace your raíces. Reclaim your esencia.

0:05
SPEAKER_00: Hi Mijita, welcome back to another episode.
0:08
SPEAKER_00: And hoy.
0:10
SPEAKER_00: Hoy si les traigo una actualización of my video that uff.
0:25
SPEAKER_00: So if you don't hang on tight, you're gonna fall like a butt.
0:28
SPEAKER_00: Because these last few months, life didn't just hand me lemons.
0:34
SPEAKER_00: Life threw the whole damn lemon tree at me with the soil and the pot and said, Grow here.
0:45
SPEAKER_00: Like all the all the signs, just you know, pointing to this spot.
0:51
SPEAKER_00: Between surgeries, business pivots, emotional awakenings, and figuring out that my coach and I, we were energetically about as aligned as a water and oil.
1:06
SPEAKER_00: I've been in full transformation season.
1:10
SPEAKER_00: Pero aquí stoy.
1:12
SPEAKER_00: Raw, bruised, soft, stronger, and with way hella more clarity than ever.
1:23
SPEAKER_00: Today we're diving into my two surgeries and what really happened behind the scenes, the spiritual lessons I didn't ask for, but apparently needed, how I found my voice in the middle of everything, pivoting coaches and advocating for myself like a healed toxica, and humor that kept me crying from crying 24-7.
1:47
SPEAKER_00: I was actually crying of laughter to the point where I peed myself.
1:51
SPEAKER_00: I gotta thank my comadre for that one.
1:54
SPEAKER_00: And how this season completely reshaped Mi Essentia.
1:58
SPEAKER_00: And I'm still going through it, don't get me wrong.
2:00
SPEAKER_00: So I know this episode's coming a little late, um, or a day later than I normally would.
2:05
SPEAKER_00: I usually drop it on Thursdays, but today's Friday, November 20th.
2:08
SPEAKER_00: 24st.
2:11
SPEAKER_00: And it's just that my my gracious little Julian, he's been going through the motions of wrestling.
2:18
SPEAKER_00: He started last week and pobrecito, everything hurt.
2:21
SPEAKER_00: Um, he started having some symptoms on Tuesday, but then yesterday he just woke up and he couldn't even let's just say everything hurt to the point where he like his breath hurt.
2:32
SPEAKER_00: And that's where I needed to no joke take back seat because my daughter Josie was the one that drove him to and I to the immediate care.
2:40
SPEAKER_00: And obviously, Mama Bear needs to sign a lot of forms.
2:44
SPEAKER_00: So I was she drove both of us, and I I I legit like I sat back seat in my own car, and I was like, I think I'm gonna cry.
2:55
SPEAKER_00: Actually, I'm gonna cry.
2:57
SPEAKER_00: I'm not gonna I'm not even gonna pause this one because this is where I saw all the seeds I planted, all the seeds that I planted in my two kids, and the outpour of everybody reaching out has been amazing.
3:16
SPEAKER_00: But I'm blown away.
3:29
SPEAKER_00: I'm so blown away.
3:32
SPEAKER_00: And then something magical happened this week, and I know this is all intro, right?
3:36
SPEAKER_00: But before we dig into my my journey and everything, this is part of it, and that's why I think I've needed to process a lot of things.
3:44
SPEAKER_00: And I'm still processing it and I'm like trying to sit beach air in my closet.
3:49
SPEAKER_00: It's like the most hilarious thing ever.
3:51
SPEAKER_00: I'm propped up on two yoga balls, a yoga ball chair and a yoga ball to lift my feet up, and it's just oh my god, I think it's hilarious right now.
4:00
SPEAKER_00: But um I I think I'm trying I'm trying to distract and like come up the energy because this is gonna is another sucker punch for me.
4:11
SPEAKER_00: Is this week I like my husband?
4:19
SPEAKER_00: I'm not gonna lie, he's just been having a rough time with this, um, with my cancer diagnosis and seeing me in pain.
4:26
SPEAKER_00: And I know, I know who you are, those people that have not reached out for your reasons, you have.
4:33
SPEAKER_00: Una porque a lo mejor no saben, and I totally get it.
4:36
SPEAKER_00: It's like, let's just join the no sabo club, but and no hard feelings, and there's no right or wrong.
4:43
SPEAKER_00: But I know there's people out there that it's triggering this whole situation, my breast cancer, it's triggering.
4:50
SPEAKER_00: It's triggering that they had a hot loved one, they have someone cancer survivor or someone that actually died from cancer.
4:58
SPEAKER_00: And I know my family, my grandfather died of cancer, prostate cancer, and that was fucking hard for everybody to accept because my grandpa was the and I've been actually talking to my grandma every day, although I did miss what was it, Wednesday when I was out to my appointment, to my follow-up, because okay, so on Tuesday, my my my caregiver at the time and I called her, and my husband was in the room, and this again, this is all related back to my husband, but my husband was in the room and it was perceived as we were laughing at my grandmother, which it wasn't that, it wasn't like we were laughing at my grandmother, it was not that.
5:35
SPEAKER_00: No, no, no, no.
5:36
SPEAKER_00: It's just my this person and I just we just look at each other and we just start laughing.
5:44
SPEAKER_00: Like it's that's how we are.
5:45
SPEAKER_00: I see somos, I see somos, and oh my gosh.
5:48
SPEAKER_00: So and and we're and we're loud as fuck, and we're we own it.
5:51
SPEAKER_00: We own it when we're together and we know each other since we were little, we're like soulmates.
5:55
SPEAKER_00: We are like soul, we're soul sisters.
5:57
SPEAKER_00: We're I como te digo, like our birthdays are the same month, like I mean, we everything is very parallel, and she's always been such a big mentor, sister, ever since the beginning, and and I and actually we were mem reminiscing on the fact that when I was pregnant with Josie, like she was the only one that took me to see Philly when my parents were like, no bitch, you can't see your you can't see him, the baby daddy, because he's such such a she's he's such a horrible person and he did this to the family and blah blah blah.
6:24
SPEAKER_00: And she was the only one there that actually understood me because she went through it herself.
6:31
SPEAKER_00: Not the same facet by no means because I'm not I'm not gonna take away from her her suffering and all the things, but I'm just so happy for her because she I'm so proud.
6:39
SPEAKER_00: I'm so proud of her, and she knows who she is, and so back to Feely, it's been really tough, and so and I did apologize to my grandma by the way.
6:48
SPEAKER_00: I did call her yesterday and I was on the phone for about an hour with her and she was sharing me oof some nice stories.
6:53
SPEAKER_00: Um, but with Feely, like it's just it's been tough all around, and and and it was such a magical moment, not yesterday, but the day before on Wednesday night.
7:04
SPEAKER_00: I was explain I was we were sitting in the living room because girl needs to be in a recliner, so we have one downstairs in the living room and one upstairs.
7:12
SPEAKER_00: And they were done.
7:13
SPEAKER_00: My mom came over, she made stuff, and then people, you know, they ate and everything.
7:17
SPEAKER_00: I was in a phone call on Wednesday night.
7:19
SPEAKER_00: I'm not gonna lie, I do doze off, okay?
7:21
SPEAKER_00: Um, I am not all there because of the pain management and pain medications and all that, but I'm off my met my my pay med, my opiates and all.
7:30
SPEAKER_00: But I still fall asleep because my body is just so tired, right?
7:34
SPEAKER_00: Like we're going through so much.
7:36
SPEAKER_00: So I'm in phone calls and stuff.
7:37
SPEAKER_00: I don't know, I don't I my attention span is probably like half an hour of that.
7:40
SPEAKER_00: I will like if I'm watching something, I'll start falling asleep because not that I'm not engaged or it's not juicy enough what I'm watching or what I'm engaged in.
7:49
SPEAKER_00: It's just my body shuts down because I'm I'm just so tired.
7:52
SPEAKER_00: I have not slept since last Monday, November 10th, when I got my surgery.
7:57
SPEAKER_00: Well, the anesthesia, I think that counts, right?
7:59
SPEAKER_00: Like when I was eight hours under.
8:02
SPEAKER_00: But that's where I have not slept.
8:07
SPEAKER_00: So I don't man, this feels not great.
8:12
SPEAKER_00: Um, that I'm not showering every day like I normally would, like, you know, all the crooks and the crannies in the body.
8:17
SPEAKER_00: Yeah, it's been it's been real, and I stink.
8:19
SPEAKER_00: Like my belly button when the gauzes and everything came off.
8:22
SPEAKER_00: Yeah.
8:22
SPEAKER_00: Anyway, I'm getting too far ahead.
8:24
SPEAKER_00: Um, I'll save that for later.
8:25
SPEAKER_00: But back to Feeney, um, and just this tidbit is we were able to have a beautiful conversation as a family for the first time ever, people.
8:35
SPEAKER_00: First time ever.
8:36
SPEAKER_00: And we were all able to talk, and it wasn't uh a you you you, it was a we and an I feel this way, and then it opens up the opportunity for us, and then we sat in the living room, which was a different dynamic.
8:51
SPEAKER_00: Usually we sit around the dining room table, but because I'm not able to like sit for long periods of time, like I've noticed now, um, especially well in this condition, I can't sit for long periods of time around a table, and so in the recliner, and then everybody's on a couch, and then Phoenix in the chair, and we were all talking very beautifully, but that's where he was able to voice finally in a clear, collected manner, what his feelings are and why he feels a certain way.
9:17
SPEAKER_00: And no joke, that was a therapy section right there.
9:20
SPEAKER_00: That was it.
9:21
SPEAKER_00: It wasn't that hard, it was like 40 minutes, and I given I had to get up to go to the potty because again, my bladder is like on like repeat right now, but yeah, so I'm just sharing those things because just a little teaser on what we've been going through, or what I've been going through, and what my perspective is of life right now.
9:41
SPEAKER_00: So take a deep breath, light your palo santo, grab your cafecito, your tecito, or your wine.
9:50
SPEAKER_00: Okay, so no judgment.
9:52
SPEAKER_00: This is going to be a long juicy episode, um, and it's gonna be a corazon cracked open kind of episode.
9:58
SPEAKER_00: So let's begin.
10:11
SPEAKER_00: So let's start with the obvious.
10:15
SPEAKER_00: I now have two major surgeries under my belt, literally and emotionally.
10:20
SPEAKER_00: So surgery number one, the bilateral massectomy, I went into that operating room like a warrior, but then I came out like a catching I was my bustle.
10:30
SPEAKER_00: And what happened to me?
10:32
SPEAKER_00: And surgery number two was reconstruction breast cancer breast reconstruction.
10:36
SPEAKER_00: So they took my it's called the deep flap, D-I-E-P, and then flap L F-L-A-P, where they take the tummy tissue, fat, and they plant it or they um make and mold my boobies, my new chichis, with that.
10:53
SPEAKER_00: And it's pretty impressive stuff because they hook up the blood vessels, so they kind of like take and they did have to cut into my tummy, so my I have a I do have a tummy toxin, so from side to side, so from hip to hip, all through the bikini line, I have a of scar, and then they took out my nipples, right?
11:12
SPEAKER_00: The the the nipple part in the first uh in the first surgery, the bilateral masectomy, and then I didn't have boobies, but then they they I kept some of the skin, and then when they did the second surgery, that's where they transplanted the my fat from my belly over to the top.
11:29
SPEAKER_00: Thank you, and shout out to all those friends of mine and conocidos and stuff that were on the list of of donors.
11:36
SPEAKER_00: Um I did have enough belly fat to cover um a 36C, so we shall see what it actually results to.
11:43
SPEAKER_00: But right now they feel like flipping double D's.
11:46
SPEAKER_00: They feel so big.
11:47
SPEAKER_00: Um, and then I have stitching around the like what would have been the the nipple part, and then inside the nip, like what where the nipple was, it is now skin from my from what my belly tissue was, and then they just like drag all that down.
12:02
SPEAKER_00: They made my new belly button.
12:03
SPEAKER_00: I have that scar.
12:05
SPEAKER_00: And yeah, it's been quite the process with that.
12:08
SPEAKER_00: So I never been so flat, but then again, the inflammation, I'm so swollen right now.
12:13
SPEAKER_00: Um, my legs are so hard on the sides, like the T-band and that.
12:16
SPEAKER_00: So I'm missing my massages, my lymphatic massages.
12:19
SPEAKER_00: I was missing all my pills, like all the vitamins and all the things that I would nourish my body.
12:24
SPEAKER_00: So I finally, because of Wednesday, I went to the post op appointment, I was able to get cleared on I can resume all my vitamins and the goodies that I take on a daily.
12:34
SPEAKER_00: So iron is one of them because that's low and like I'm low energy, but then again, I don't sleep.
12:38
SPEAKER_00: Um, so that attributes to it.
12:40
SPEAKER_00: So there is nothing like trying to reach for a cup and realizing your arm said, you know, girl, sit down.
12:47
SPEAKER_00: Absolutely not.
12:48
SPEAKER_00: Everything hurt, especially with the second surgery.
12:53
SPEAKER_00: My husband had to feed me.
12:55
SPEAKER_00: Um it feed me in my mouth, in my boquita.
12:58
SPEAKER_00: And and he would, it was so it was so cute because he would try to feed me like super fast.
13:03
SPEAKER_00: You know when you get food stuck in your like chest when you don't drink water, that's how it felt like.
13:08
SPEAKER_00: I'm like, okay, slow down.
13:09
SPEAKER_00: And I was and when he was feeding me, I started crying, and he's like, What's wrong with where?
13:13
SPEAKER_00: It's que te duele.
13:14
SPEAKER_00: It's like no, it's que no me duele.
13:16
SPEAKER_00: It's just the the simple fact that I can feel everything in my chest because it's all stretched out.
13:22
SPEAKER_00: And my right arm, like I could not move it whatsoever.
13:25
SPEAKER_00: I felt like I went to the gym and did, I don't know, like a thousand biceps.
13:30
SPEAKER_00: And shout out to all my group instructors um that I'm in their classes for um to work out in that on a on a regular, but yeah, it it was hard like to move my arms, I couldn't reach.
13:42
SPEAKER_00: Everything, everything just hurts.
13:44
SPEAKER_00: What can I say?
13:46
SPEAKER_00: So for days I couldn't move.
13:48
SPEAKER_00: I couldn't reach, I couldn't lift, I couldn't do anything without making a noise.
13:52
SPEAKER_00: I didn't know my body could make.
13:55
SPEAKER_00: And humor kept me alive because yo, there were moments where I legit felt like a T-Rex.
14:02
SPEAKER_00: Little arms, no reach, no grab, just vibes.
14:06
SPEAKER_00: And here's the real talk.
14:08
SPEAKER_00: My body forced me to slow down, whether I wanted to or not.
14:11
SPEAKER_00: I realized how much I used to push, ignore, or override.
14:16
SPEAKER_00: But you can't bypass a surgery.
14:18
SPEAKER_00: Like that's cra Right now.
14:20
SPEAKER_00: I'm like, I can't even fake it till I make it.
14:22
SPEAKER_00: You can't gaslight a s a scalpel, you know, like those tools that they use and all that.
14:28
SPEAKER_00: You can't hustle your way through stitches.
14:30
SPEAKER_00: I mean, come on.
14:33
SPEAKER_00: You have to feel it.
14:34
SPEAKER_00: Like I have I have had to go through all this to live it, and then to heal through it, and that's what you're being witness of right now is my process of everything.
14:45
SPEAKER_00: And so my body became my teacher, my healer, my guide.
14:51
SPEAKER_00: And it's been like that through this whole journey for the past eight spiritual years that I've had awakenings in that left and right.
14:58
SPEAKER_00: And my body, she spoke loud and clear rest, receive, allow.
15:07
SPEAKER_00: Three words that used to piss me off, but now they're my commandments.
15:14
SPEAKER_00: Let's be real.
15:15
SPEAKER_00: I'm not myself right now.
15:18
SPEAKER_00: Not the Dora that wakes up and moves mountains before breakfast, not the healer who can hold the world, not the mom who does a million things at once, not the business owner who uh shows up consistently, not even the accountant version of me at work who can keep the numbers and life in order and totally take care of the chaos.
15:40
SPEAKER_00: I am softer, slower, more fragile than I ever wanted to admit.
15:48
SPEAKER_00: And yet, I feel like more grounded than ever.
15:53
SPEAKER_00: Identity gets weird when we you can't do the things you're known for.
15:58
SPEAKER_00: Like I used to think that I was an accountant, that's how I would introduce myself, and it's like, no, I'm Dora Alicia Praxedis, damn it.
16:04
SPEAKER_00: Like I am a person, I'm a mom, I'm a I'm a lot of things, I'm a multifaceted individual.
16:09
SPEAKER_00: But there were days where I cried, not because of the pain, uh, but because I didn't recognize who I was anymore.
16:18
SPEAKER_00: I'm not recognizing who I am.
16:20
SPEAKER_00: Like I am I who who I am, but it's like it's a new me.
16:23
SPEAKER_00: It's like I'm being shaped and transformed to be a different version of me.
16:27
SPEAKER_00: Um, obviously a better version and everything in the works and the bells and whistles whistles, but that's when I started hearing spirit whisper, Mijita, you are not what you do, you are who you are becoming.
16:42
SPEAKER_00: And oh my gosh, that was so it was like a cascade of like light and that warm sunshine light kind of feeling.
16:52
SPEAKER_00: And oof that hit me in my Chi-Cheese, my new ones.
16:59
SPEAKER_00: Let's talk about the big pivot that I had this week, or I've been having actually these past couple months.
17:05
SPEAKER_00: Because in the middle of my healing, I realized something.
17:10
SPEAKER_00: I invested in a program that I'm in.
17:12
SPEAKER_00: I do invest in a lot of different programs actually.
17:14
SPEAKER_00: I'm in in various different collectives.
17:17
SPEAKER_00: But this month specifically, I was expecting more for like coaching and that in my business, and my coach wasn't the right fit for me.
17:27
SPEAKER_00: Like I sensed it from the get-go, but I'm like, no, maybe this is what it is.
17:31
SPEAKER_00: This is the first time I actually dropped some big money on stuff like this.
17:34
SPEAKER_00: And so energetically, emotionally, rhythmically, no functionava.
17:39
SPEAKER_00: Like it wasn't working out.
17:40
SPEAKER_00: Old Dora would have stayed quiet, would have avoided confrontation, would have made herself wrong.
17:47
SPEAKER_00: But new Dora, post-cancer facing, post-surgery, post-ego death Dora, she was like, I know.
17:56
SPEAKER_00: Yeah no.
17:57
SPEAKER_00: I reached out to the Powers at B, the top coach, and I voiced what wasn't working.
18:04
SPEAKER_00: I did all the things, I've done all the things, I haven't been getting the results.
18:07
SPEAKER_00: And I asked for what I needed.
18:11
SPEAKER_00: And I voiced what wasn't working.
18:13
SPEAKER_00: And guess what?
18:15
SPEAKER_00: Nobody died.
18:16
SPEAKER_00: The world didn't end, I didn't get kicked out of the program, they didn't tell me I was too sensitive.
18:22
SPEAKER_00: Instead, support poured in.
18:28
SPEAKER_00: I got switched from a new from I got aligned to a new coach.
18:32
SPEAKER_00: Solutions flowed, accommodations were offered, and I realized it's not that I was too much, it's that I was in the wrong vibration, in the wrong room.
18:43
SPEAKER_00: A room built for the past version of me, not who I am now.
18:48
SPEAKER_00: My voice cracked open something.
18:50
SPEAKER_00: And now no one can shut me up again.
18:54
SPEAKER_00: In the best spiritual way possible.
18:58
SPEAKER_00: And you know what saved me?
18:59
SPEAKER_00: Humor.
19:01
SPEAKER_00: Because let's be honest, healing is dramatic as hell.
19:04
SPEAKER_00: Half the time I felt like a novella character, a whole scene, my room s my robe slipping off one shoulder, hair everywhere whispering, Ay Dios mío, porque yo And then I'd laugh because I'd see myself from above like, girl, eat a snack, hydrate, get the gator read, you're fine.
19:26
SPEAKER_00: Humor became medicine.
19:28
SPEAKER_00: It softened the hubby, it made space for the light.
19:31
SPEAKER_00: Because healing isn't only tears.
19:34
SPEAKER_00: Healing is also laughing at how slow you walk.
19:39
SPEAKER_00: Making fun of your TX rearms.
19:41
SPEAKER_00: Well, my TX arms.
19:43
SPEAKER_00: Telling your husband, I'm fragile, be gentle, like a princess.
19:48
SPEAKER_00: Asking your kids to pass you everything because mommy is delicate right now.
19:53
SPEAKER_00: Laughing at the fact that nothing fits the way it used to.
19:57
SPEAKER_00: Making titty jokes to keep from crying.
20:01
SPEAKER_00: Finding humor in the awkwardness, the pain, the recovery, the weirdness.
20:06
SPEAKER_00: Humor is a coping skill, a spiritual one.
20:09
SPEAKER_00: And spirit?
20:11
SPEAKER_00: She jokes.
20:12
SPEAKER_00: She has jokes too.
20:13
SPEAKER_00: Trust me.
20:14
SPEAKER_00: I mean, and and you can trust me, but if you want to test her, go for it.
20:20
SPEAKER_00: The outpouring of support, oh my god, wow.
20:23
SPEAKER_00: Wow, wow, wow.
20:24
SPEAKER_00: People showed up in ways I never expected.
20:28
SPEAKER_00: In ways I didn't know I deserved.
20:30
SPEAKER_00: In ways I never allowed before.
20:33
SPEAKER_00: And I had to learn how to receive.
20:35
SPEAKER_00: Actually, like receive.
20:37
SPEAKER_00: Not the I'm fine receiving.
20:39
SPEAKER_00: No, no, no.
20:40
SPEAKER_00: Not the oh, you don't have to receiving.
20:44
SPEAKER_00: Not the I can do it myself trauma response.
20:48
SPEAKER_00: But the thank you.
20:49
SPEAKER_00: Oh gracias.
20:51
SPEAKER_00: I needed that.
20:53
SPEAKER_00: Necesitaba yo.
20:55
SPEAKER_00: I received that.
20:56
SPEAKER_00: Lo recibo.
20:58
SPEAKER_00: It cracked me open.
21:01
SPEAKER_00: Because receiving is intimacy.
21:03
SPEAKER_00: It's a connection.
21:03
SPEAKER_00: It's a bond.
21:05
SPEAKER_00: Receiving is surrender.
21:07
SPEAKER_00: Receiving is letting yourself be held.
21:10
SPEAKER_00: Be held by your community, be held by others, be held by your support system in your corner.
21:16
SPEAKER_00: Like that takes doing before shit hits the fan.
21:20
SPEAKER_00: Those are the people you go and call when you need emotionally being regulated.
21:24
SPEAKER_00: When you need someone and you're spiraling out of control.
21:27
SPEAKER_00: Like those are the people you have a person for each maybe area of your life or that.
21:32
SPEAKER_00: And I was so naive to think that it's like my husband needs to be my best friend and my husband's the only one that I can talk to and everything.
21:38
SPEAKER_00: No, that's why you have girlfriends, that's why you have people in your life, coaches, therapists, doctors, nutritionists.
21:49
SPEAKER_00: A year ago, I was preparing for this, and that's where I was in that conversation this week with my fam and my husband.
21:56
SPEAKER_00: I was telling him, I'm like, if I didn't a year ago get my tubes tied for not having kids, and told myself, I am gonna get in the best fucking shape of my life, body-wise, like I'm gonna lose the weight because I weighed like that my heaviest actually was 22 was 226.
22:15
SPEAKER_00: I think it was something around there, or 220, let's just say 220 in January, and especially after my surgery, like the first one with the tubes died.
22:24
SPEAKER_00: That's where I started on on in January.
22:27
SPEAKER_00: I went to the doctor and I'm like, hey, like October, November, December went by.
22:30
SPEAKER_00: I'm like, okay, I had my surgery, I've been going to the gym, I've been doing these things for years now, like five years plus, and I'm not losing weight, like I lose the weight, but then I gain it, but then my legs were so hard and like they were heavy, heavy in the in towards the end of the day, and right now they're just heavy overall because I know my lymphatic my lymphatic system is not draining as it should, especially with surgery.
22:54
SPEAKER_00: And so my doctor, and I'm gonna be open about this.
22:58
SPEAKER_00: My doctor prescribed me because we discovered that I am insulin resistant, so he put me at metformin, which is used for diabetes and all that, but I'm using it for a different purpose.
23:10
SPEAKER_00: And again, I'm not a medical professional, I'm disclaimer right here, but I'm just talking about my experience.
23:14
SPEAKER_00: And then he put me on zip bound and he put me on the lowest dosage, and I was I I was injecting myself every week Wednesday, so I was doing going through the motions, and then I in October of 2024, last a year ago, I worked with a nutritionist, and so she's taught me how to eat.
23:32
SPEAKER_00: And she's like, Okay, when you wake up, within the first hour, eat something, and uh, and she called she didn't call it a meal, she called it a meal event.
23:41
SPEAKER_00: Like she called it a food event.
23:43
SPEAKER_00: Like you eat something, you put something in your body.
23:45
SPEAKER_00: So every day when I wake up, I eat.
23:47
SPEAKER_00: Usually my go-to is a banana, or it's like a yogurt, or it's a cutie, or it's uh apple, or it's a something, but usually it's like half a banana because a banana, she told me you have to keep under the 30 grams of sugar or carbs, I'm sorry.
24:01
SPEAKER_00: And so I eat half the banana, that's 15, and then I can mix it with something else.
24:05
SPEAKER_00: And my other favorite now, thank you to one of my good comader friends.
24:10
SPEAKER_00: She, okay, earth-shattering thing.
24:13
SPEAKER_00: I never liked avocado in my life.
24:17
SPEAKER_00: Oh my god, I'm Mexican and I never liked avocados.
24:20
SPEAKER_00: Correct, correct, ding ding, ding.
24:22
SPEAKER_00: You got that right.
24:23
SPEAKER_00: So I always would get made fun of at work.
24:25
SPEAKER_00: Not made fun of, but like people would no, it was it was funny.
24:29
SPEAKER_00: I was laughing too.
24:29
SPEAKER_00: They I I you know, whatever.
24:32
SPEAKER_00: The guacamole would come and the chips, and people that people would devour that guacamole.
24:37
SPEAKER_00: And guess what?
24:38
SPEAKER_00: I never got it.
24:38
SPEAKER_00: Like, I'm like, oh, I hate guapacado, and I just didn't like the consistency, like I didn't like it.
24:44
SPEAKER_00: But then my friend came over last Friday, and she let me just tell you, she's un pan de dios.
24:51
SPEAKER_00: She came over and then and and like okay, she wet my butt.
24:55
SPEAKER_00: As my mom and my sister and feely and my sis, my daughter, like a few people have wiped my butt in my life, and my friend was had the honor to do that for me.
25:06
SPEAKER_00: But before she could do that, she did make me breakfast and she did me an avocado toast with eggs.
25:13
SPEAKER_00: And I've never had an egg over easy, so she was talking.
25:16
SPEAKER_00: Oh my god, she this girl is like amazing when it comes to vitamins and and things.
25:22
SPEAKER_00: She got me on sour soap when for cancer, and I'm taking that back again, like a vitamin and all that supplement.
25:28
SPEAKER_00: She's she's amazing.
25:29
SPEAKER_00: So, shout out to my friend sending you a big kiss.
25:32
SPEAKER_00: Um, so yeah, girl likes avocado now, and it has so many good properties for you.
25:37
SPEAKER_00: So, as I'm rep as I'm as I'm going through like all these motions right now, it's like I have to really pay attention to my body, right?
25:47
SPEAKER_00: And and if it wasn't for a year ago doing all those pivotal things, because every week for six months, I would go get a lymphatic massage.
25:55
SPEAKER_00: Every single week on a on a Friday.
25:59
SPEAKER_00: On a Friday afternoon, I would leave work early and then I would go get my lymphatic massage.
26:04
SPEAKER_00: And then it was and then it was every other week for a while, and then yeah, and then until I went up leading up to my surgery, then that's where I would, you know, I'm in pause on that, and then I'm picking it back up on Wednesday, I have my appointment because I girl needs to need some drainage.
26:21
SPEAKER_00: So March, that's where I got discovered that I went back to the vein doctor and the vein and I had disappeared for three years because you're supposed to go every year.
26:31
SPEAKER_00: And I do have great insurance, don't get me wrong.
26:34
SPEAKER_00: Like I have great insurance, great benefits, but if I'm gonna pay in$30,$50 for every doctor visit and I have to pay a deductible, it's like$3,000.
26:41
SPEAKER_00: I get discouraged because it's like everything goes towards the the deductible, and then they start to pay like 100% or whatever they're gonna pay.
26:48
SPEAKER_00: So I personally think healthcare is a flipping lucrative business.
26:53
SPEAKER_00: I mean, I'm not gonna get political or anything like that.
26:55
SPEAKER_00: I'm just saying like stating the fact.
26:58
SPEAKER_00: So I went to my vein clinic, and that's where um three years ago I had an ultrasound, and like the veins looked fine.
27:05
SPEAKER_00: One of them was a little clogged, like on my left side, but it wasn't such a big deal or whatever.
27:09
SPEAKER_00: But then when I went back, like my left in my pelvic area, it's called Mae Thurner Thunder syndrome or pelvic congestion syndrome, and so my vein in there in my pelvic area, um, it's it's right next to my lower back.
27:25
SPEAKER_00: And so when they put a stent in there because it was blocked 60%, my body created a whole new vein on my right side to keep me alive.
27:34
SPEAKER_00: I didn't even know that.
27:35
SPEAKER_00: I had go figure, and so the stent was put in, and my god, my back hurt for the first five days, actually, 10 actually.
27:45
SPEAKER_00: I went through the tenth day, but the first five days was unbearable pain of sciatica, inflammation, the works.
27:51
SPEAKER_00: And so if it wasn't for all those events, and then now with this surgery and and this diagnosis of cancer, breast cancer, it's like I I I going into this, I went into the into this with the best shape mentally, physically, emotionally, spiritually, energetically.
28:10
SPEAKER_00: I went I I in right now sitting in my closet recording this, I never have felt in the best shape of my life.
28:17
SPEAKER_00: And I know I feel sore and I know I'm all stitched up, I look like Frankenstein, but I've never felt a better, and I've never felt so high on life, and I already was like high on life, and this is just making it even it's elevating it to a whole nother level.
28:32
SPEAKER_00: Like I thought I knew peace and joy, no, mm-mm.
28:36
SPEAKER_00: This new era that I'm living is way better, way better, and it just keeps getting better como el vino.
28:41
SPEAKER_00: Mm-mm, and tequila, mm-mm.
28:43
SPEAKER_00: Okay, and so all these things said, I I've been learning, like, as a first generation and oldest daughter, like this is all learning a new language, like this is beyond the spiritual side, and so that leads me to my next thing about business.
29:04
SPEAKER_00: My business, my work, my purpose, everything is shifting.
29:10
SPEAKER_00: I thought I lost momentum, but in reality, I've been gaining alignment.
29:15
SPEAKER_00: This season slowed me down enough to see what wasn't working.
29:20
SPEAKER_00: What needed to change, what needed to be reborn, and the new moon in this week, and then there's a lot of stuff happening astrolog astrologically.
29:28
SPEAKER_00: It's just getting it's whipping everything into alignment.
29:32
SPEAKER_00: And especially we're in Mercury retrograde, of course.
29:34
SPEAKER_00: It's testing the boundaries.
29:38
SPEAKER_00: But what also needed to be reborn is the big thing, right?
29:43
SPEAKER_00: I'm I I birthed my new Chi Chis, haha.
29:45
SPEAKER_00: Re, right?
29:46
SPEAKER_00: Re because I'm using the same tip tissue.
29:48
SPEAKER_00: It's very symbolic, I'm telling you.
29:50
SPEAKER_00: Like everything in my life right now, and then I had another friend of mine point out, another colleague friend point out that I've been like on it with the numerology, like everything I'm sometimes.
30:00
SPEAKER_00: When I record something, it's four four four, two, two, two, one, one, one.
30:02
SPEAKER_00: Pay attention.
30:03
SPEAKER_00: Like, I'm paying attention to the numbers, damn it.
30:05
SPEAKER_00: Paying attention to everything my spirit guides and my angels and my everything are sending me because that if it wasn't for all the spiritual journey for the past eight years, like I would have not been able to handle such a diagnosis and be such a positive person and go on social and do all the things and do master classes and and do the challenges and push myself and invest in myself in a program or in different programs and collectives.
30:30
SPEAKER_00: And so I'm not building a business from survival anymore.
30:35
SPEAKER_00: I'm building it from embodiment, from softness, from clarity, from truth.
30:42
SPEAKER_00: Spiritually, I've been cracked open in ways I did not expect.
30:50
SPEAKER_00: My boundaries are sharper.
30:52
SPEAKER_00: My patience is thinner.
30:54
SPEAKER_00: Like my tolerance of things are very, very, very low.
30:59
SPEAKER_00: Um that set me off.
31:00
SPEAKER_00: It's like I need to kind of regroup with myself.
31:03
SPEAKER_00: So my health though is very thin.
31:06
SPEAKER_00: Not toxica thin, just it's it's thinner.
31:09
SPEAKER_00: My vision is clear.
31:12
SPEAKER_00: This version of me, she's building something long lasting, something deeper than content or posts like on Instagram and Facebook and social in general.
31:22
SPEAKER_00: So my purpose is evolving with me.
31:37
SPEAKER_00: Now we're gonna do a somatic practice, guided reflection.
31:45
SPEAKER_00: So we're gonna go ahead and when you're ready, and if you can, um close your eyes, put a hand on your heart, and a hand on your womb, and take a deep breath in into your nose, hold it at the top a little bit, and out through your mouth.
32:07
SPEAKER_00: We'll do that two more times into your nose.
32:11
SPEAKER_00: Hold it and out through your mouth.
32:16
SPEAKER_00: Let's do that one more time in through your nose, hold it and out through your mouth.
32:28
SPEAKER_00: No, if you like, you could definitely keep your eyes open and journal.
32:35
SPEAKER_00: Or you could just see what comes up and keep your eyes closed and see what comes up.
32:39
SPEAKER_00: You can always pause this for reflection.
32:45
SPEAKER_00: So ask yourself the first question is where in my life am I being invited to pivot?
32:53
SPEAKER_00: Where in my life am I being invited to pivot?
33:06
SPEAKER_00: Number two, where have I been silent when I needed to speak?
33:12
SPEAKER_00: Where have I been silent when I needed to speak?
33:23
SPEAKER_00: Number three, where have I been strong when I needed softness?
33:29
SPEAKER_00: Where have I been strong when I needed softness?
33:37
SPEAKER_00: Number four.
33:40
SPEAKER_00: What is my body trying to tell me?
33:44
SPEAKER_00: What is my body trying to tell me?
33:50
SPEAKER_00: Number five, who am I becoming in this season?
33:56
SPEAKER_00: Who am I becoming in this season?
34:02
SPEAKER_00: Number six, what support am I ready to receive?
34:08
SPEAKER_00: What support am I ready to receive?
34:16
SPEAKER_00: Number seven, what truth am I ready to say out loud?
34:22
SPEAKER_00: What truth am I ready to say out loud?
34:25
SPEAKER_00: And when you're done, you can inhale for four, exhale for six, and let that vibration settle in your body.
34:37
SPEAKER_00: And again, you can come back to this part.
34:39
SPEAKER_00: This is homework for you, if you so choose to take it, and just go through the motions.
34:44
SPEAKER_00: And I invite you to bring your journal and journal what comes up and free write what it is.
34:48
SPEAKER_00: And if you need more assistance, you can always reach out to me.
34:51
SPEAKER_00: You can um message me via this podcast down below.
34:55
SPEAKER_00: There's a link for that.
34:55
SPEAKER_00: You can send a text or a voice memo, or you can go ahead and uh reach me out on Instagram at DPraxedis, or you can find me on Facebook at Doralicia Braxedis.
35:32
SPEAKER_00: For listening, for witnessing my journey through pain, humor, pivots, and rebirth.
35:38
SPEAKER_00: If you're in a season of transition, or redefining yourself, of finding your voice again, remember this.
35:47
SPEAKER_00: You are allowed to pivot, you are allowed to rest, you are allowed to heal slow, you are allowed to ask for more, you are allowed to be held.
35:58
SPEAKER_00: Your voice matters, your boundaries matter, your healing matters, you too, you matter.
36:10
SPEAKER_00: Embrace your raises, reclaim your essencia, and let your voice guide you home.
36:15
SPEAKER_00: Alrighty, that wraps us up.
36:17
SPEAKER_00: Nos vemos hasta la próxima.
36:18
SPEAKER_00: Los quiero mucho.
36:19
SPEAKER_00: Un abrazo, a big hug, and un besote.
36:22
SPEAKER_00: Until the next episode.
36:24
SPEAKER_00: Love y'all.
36:25
SPEAKER_00: Have a great, great week.