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[3/25] The Flight of the Garuda — Session 1.3 (May 2020) · Lama Lena Teachings

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  SPEAKER_01: We're waiting for the Spanish translator to come online.
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  SPEAKER_00: You're getting readings and Mother's Day wishes.
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  SPEAKER_00: Thank you.
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  SPEAKER_01: It is Mother's Day.
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  SPEAKER_01: Great Mother Ocean of Dharmakaya.
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  SPEAKER_01: Find it.
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  SPEAKER_02: Chukku kunduzong po gompo yi,
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  SPEAKER_02: Dur ji sempa garab dur ji dam,
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  SPEAKER_02: Shere singke bardu shen labdi,
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  SPEAKER_02: De damab zan ta ta tu sum chi, Zog chen du pe lamala sol wa dir,
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  SPEAKER_02: Purgyan Bhema Jonele Sol Vodib,
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  SPEAKER_02: Durjee Chang Chitilo Narudang,
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  SPEAKER_02: Marpa Mila Gompol Tsa Tsapa,
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  SPEAKER_02: Na Pupa Dang Pal Dyan Drupasu, Kha Gyul Lama Nam La Suluwa Deh.
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  SPEAKER_02: O Chen Lama Nam La Suluwa Deh.
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  SPEAKER_02: Nrudchen Lama Namla Sol Vah Dev.
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  SPEAKER_02: Chakchen Lama Namla Sol Vah Dev.
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  SPEAKER_02: Nyeon Jundang Yendulama Namla Soluadeb,
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  SPEAKER_02: Akandujang Deng Yermey Pa, Gangarab Dojijin Chag Pa, So we are in Song 3.
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  SPEAKER_02: Instruction in the Essential Meditations.
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  SPEAKER_01: This is where we reach the basics
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  SPEAKER_01: of how to recognize
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  SPEAKER_01: Great Mother Ocean Dharmakaya
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  SPEAKER_01: in all her lucid luminosity,
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  SPEAKER_01: sparkling with the creativity of phenomena.
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  SPEAKER_01: We're speaking of one thing here, not three.
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  SPEAKER_01: Darmata.
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  SPEAKER_01: Emma Ho, now listen further, all my best beloved sons and daughters.
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  SPEAKER_01: No matter what system of mind training you practice,
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  SPEAKER_01: unless you realize the nature of your mind severing its root,
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  SPEAKER_01: you miss the point of Dzogchen.
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  SPEAKER_01: No matter how good A meditator you are.
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  SPEAKER_01: No matter how excellent the duration of your shinne or how profound your knowledge
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  SPEAKER_01: of texts,
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  SPEAKER_01: no matter how good your visualization in Tantra,
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  SPEAKER_01: how precise, how acute, in all of this,
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  SPEAKER_01: Unless you directly transcend perception in the recognition of the nature of mind,
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  SPEAKER_01: you will miss the point of all of that.
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  SPEAKER_01: The errant aspirant blind to this imperative is like the archer
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  SPEAKER_01: who places his target to the front.
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  SPEAKER_01: Only to turn and shoot off his arrow in another direction.
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  SPEAKER_01: Like the householder who searches the entire neighborhood for the thief while
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  SPEAKER_01: the thief is still hiding within his own house.
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  SPEAKER_01: Like the exorcist who sets up his spirit trap at the west door when the demon lives
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  SPEAKER_01: to the east of the house.
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  SPEAKER_01: Like the poor man who begs Blind to his hearthstone of gold.
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  SPEAKER_01: There is a story that there was a yogi who had a campsite outside a town.
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  SPEAKER_01: A wandering yogi who taught should anyone come by.
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  SPEAKER_01: And a very rich man Came and offered him three big lumps of gold in gratitude
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  SPEAKER_01: for his teachings.
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  SPEAKER_01: And he used them to support the pot on his cook fire for they were just
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  SPEAKER_01: the right size for his little fire of twigs.
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  SPEAKER_01: And after some further time, of course, the gold lumps became blackened by soot.
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  SPEAKER_01: You couldn't even tell what they were anymore.
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  SPEAKER_01: That yogi wandered off as yogis do.
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  SPEAKER_01: Without attachment to the gold, he simply left them there at the fire pit.
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  SPEAKER_01: The next person to camp there was a very poor beggar who propped his cook pot,
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  SPEAKER_01: which had very little in it, on the three black stones of the hearth.
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  SPEAKER_01: Not knowing what they really are, were,
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  SPEAKER_01: and went into town in great hunger,
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  SPEAKER_01: begging for a tiny pittance to cook in his old pot
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  SPEAKER_01: on the lumps
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  SPEAKER_01: of unrecognized gold.
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  SPEAKER_01: Therefore,
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  SPEAKER_01: my beloved children,
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  SPEAKER_01: You who wish to resolve life's frustrations and anxieties by the direct method
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  SPEAKER_01: of discovering the nature of mind, examine your minds in the following way.
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  SPEAKER_01: What we call mind the way we're using that word,
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  SPEAKER_01: The thinker of thoughts,
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  SPEAKER_01: the feeler of feelings,
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  SPEAKER_01: the perceiver of all your multiple perceptions via your sense organs.
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  SPEAKER_01: The experiencer of your experiences.
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  SPEAKER_01: This mind is an insistent chatterer, like a babbling child.
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  SPEAKER_01: Hopping, skipping, and jumping about from one subject to another, from one thing to another.
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  SPEAKER_01: And it won't shut up, will it?
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  SPEAKER_01: Even right now while you're listening to this,
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  SPEAKER_01: you're nattering on to yourself about what is being said,
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  SPEAKER_01: what you think of being said,
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  SPEAKER_01: how you feel about what's being said,
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  SPEAKER_01: your understanding of what's being said,
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  SPEAKER_01: you're retelling it to yourself again and again.
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  SPEAKER_01: In your own words, in different words, changing it slightly so it fits better.
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  SPEAKER_01: That's what we do, us humans.
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  SPEAKER_01: If you try to catch this chatterer, this thinker of your thoughts, it slips away.
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  SPEAKER_01: Changing shape, vanishing, never right there where you're looking.
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  SPEAKER_01: Have you ever stood up too quickly?
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  SPEAKER_01: And had little silver glowy dots drifting across your vision for a moment.
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  SPEAKER_01: And you try to get a look at them and they move.
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  SPEAKER_01: They stay in the corner of your vision.
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  SPEAKER_01: You can never get quite a look at exactly what that dot looks like.
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  SPEAKER_01: That little piece in your vision.
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  SPEAKER_01: Like that they are.
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  SPEAKER_01: For if you try to see a thought,
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  SPEAKER_01: you find yourself thinking about seeing a thought and talking to yourself
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  SPEAKER_01: about seeing a thought and nattering on about thoughts and where they might be
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  SPEAKER_01: and how you're going to do that in a minute.
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  SPEAKER_01: And gee, maybe you'd like another cup of coffee first or to go take a leak, isn't it?
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  SPEAKER_01: Attempt to focus on mind and it will not be still.
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  SPEAKER_01: If you attempt to sit still and focus your attention on mind itself,
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  SPEAKER_01: it's not going to just sit there and be looked at.
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  SPEAKER_01: Proliferating, scattering.
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  SPEAKER_01: Try to pin a label and it resolves into unutterable emptiness.
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  SPEAKER_01: But this is the same mind that experiences all of your experience,
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  SPEAKER_01: your feelings, your thoughts, your perceptions.
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  SPEAKER_01: This is the very mind that needs to be discovered,
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  SPEAKER_01: scrutinized and found,
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  SPEAKER_02: wiggly little critter that it
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  SPEAKER_01: is.
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  SPEAKER_01: What is the origin of this mind?
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  SPEAKER_01: How does it occur?
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  SPEAKER_01: Does it arise as an interaction between solid objects and sense organs?
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  SPEAKER_01: Is that what creates it?
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  SPEAKER_01: Look and see.
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  SPEAKER_01: Yes, you can intellectualize about this,
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  SPEAKER_01: but at some point you'll realize
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  SPEAKER_01: that your intellectualization is pure natter made up by mind.
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  SPEAKER_01: See if you can find where those thoughts are happening.
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  SPEAKER_01: Is it independent from external phenomena?
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  SPEAKER_01: If you were to place yourself in one of those tanks that they have in places
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  SPEAKER_01: where you float in salt water and it's dead silent,
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  SPEAKER_01: it's insulated,
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  SPEAKER_01: and so it really totally takes away all your physical sensations,
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  SPEAKER_01: would you still have a mind?
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  SPEAKER_01: Without the perception of external objects to stimulate it.
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  SPEAKER_01: Is it still there?
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  SPEAKER_01: When you are unconscious,
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  SPEAKER_01: in Theta's state of sleep,
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  SPEAKER_01: before the dreams, the early parts of the night usually, do you still have a mind?
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  SPEAKER_01: Look and see.
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  SPEAKER_01: When you dream about all sorts of things that aren't really there.
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  SPEAKER_01: Is that occurring in your mind?
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  SPEAKER_01: Outside of your mind?
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  SPEAKER_01: Is your mind created by it?
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  SPEAKER_01: How do you end up with such a thing as a self, a perceiver?
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  SPEAKER_01: Where is that coming from?
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  SPEAKER_01: Look and see.
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  SPEAKER_01: Asking yourself where the mind comes from.
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  SPEAKER_01: Investigate this thoroughly.
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  SPEAKER_01: Find out first by intellect and when you discover that
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  SPEAKER_01: that really doesn't give you any definitive answers that can be proved true
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  SPEAKER_01: or not true.
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  SPEAKER_01: Merely speculations and fun stories.
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  SPEAKER_01: Try with your feelings.
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  SPEAKER_01: Can you feel it emotionally?
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  SPEAKER_01: The seer of what is seen.
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  SPEAKER_01: The thinker of the thoughts.
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  SPEAKER_01: The feeler of the feelings.
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  SPEAKER_01: Can you feel it?
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  SPEAKER_01: When you find all sorts of feelings occurring in it,
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  SPEAKER_01: but none of them can actually encompass it and feel it,
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  SPEAKER_01: when you become certain of this by your own experience, Then try to perceive it.
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  SPEAKER_01: Try to perceive it with any of your sense organs.
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  SPEAKER_01: Can you see it?
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  SPEAKER_01: Does it have a color or a shape that is visible?
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  SPEAKER_01: Can you see it with your eyes open?
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  SPEAKER_01: Can you see it with your eyes closed?
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  SPEAKER_01: Can you touch it?
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  SPEAKER_01: Does it have a texture, a scent, a taste?
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  SPEAKER_01: Examine it as a perception with your sense organs.
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  SPEAKER_01: See if you can perceive the experiencer of sensory sensations.
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  SPEAKER_01: If you work on this quite a lot,
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  SPEAKER_01: you will not succeed in
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  SPEAKER_01: understanding with your thoughts,
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  SPEAKER_01: feeling emotionally, Or perceiving through your six senses.
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  SPEAKER_01: However, if you persist in attempting to do this again and again, a non-occurrence
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  SPEAKER_01: arises.
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  SPEAKER_01: And sliding between the thoughts,
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  SPEAKER_01: beyond the feelings,
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  SPEAKER_01: outside of perceptible for a moment,
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  SPEAKER_01: your attention in its frustration of looking
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  SPEAKER_01: in all these places finally tries something else which is indescribable.
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  SPEAKER_01: And there,
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  SPEAKER_01: right there,
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  SPEAKER_01: right then,
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  SPEAKER_01: in that there now,
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  SPEAKER_01: which is always now,
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  SPEAKER_01: Which pervades all time and space and is beyond the very idea of time and space.
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  SPEAKER_01: A that for which I have no words to give you.
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  SPEAKER_01: It's not even an occurrence.
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  SPEAKER_01: Beyond perception.
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  SPEAKER_01: Not a seeing.
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  SPEAKER_01: Not a feeling.
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  SPEAKER_01: Not an idea.
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  SPEAKER_01: It's where through direct examination you have driven yourself out of your tiny little mind.
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  SPEAKER_01: And instead of running in your habitual tracks of thinking,
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  SPEAKER_01: feeling, and perceiving, something else.
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  SPEAKER_01: Alternatively,
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  SPEAKER_01: consider whether or not the mind originates from the reproductive fluids
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  SPEAKER_01: of your parents.
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  SPEAKER_01: Do you arise when the sperm enters the egg?
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  SPEAKER_01: When the six or twelve cells implants in the wall of the uterus?
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  SPEAKER_01: How many cells does it take to create a mind?
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  SPEAKER_01: Where within the gestation, within the womb, is there enough complexity for mind to adhere?
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  SPEAKER_01: For mind to arise, does it happen like that?
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  SPEAKER_01: Those of you who have had more than one child,
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  SPEAKER_01: We'll have noticed by now that there's already somebody in there when you get them.
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  SPEAKER_01: They're not the same, both of them.
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  SPEAKER_01: Right at birth, there is somebody there.
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  SPEAKER_01: A personality, a mind, an awareness, a perceiver.
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  SPEAKER_01: How did it get there?
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  SPEAKER_01: Consider this for yourself.
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  SPEAKER_01: But if you find an intellectual answer,
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  SPEAKER_01: understand that you are still intellectually wanking off.
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  SPEAKER_01: If you find an emotional answer the same or a perceptual answer,
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  SPEAKER_01: this is a matter of causing you to go past
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  SPEAKER_01: duality.
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  SPEAKER_01: How does mind emerge in the body?
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  SPEAKER_01: Consider this
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  SPEAKER_01: by thinking about it, by feeling it,
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  SPEAKER_01: and by perceiving among your own memories.
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  SPEAKER_01: Continue this inquiry until it is exhausted.
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  SPEAKER_01: And you can find no origin,
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  SPEAKER_01: whether by intellect, emotion, or perception.
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  SPEAKER_01: And in that not finding, it is possible that a release, a letting go,
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  SPEAKER_01: may occur.
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  SPEAKER_01: The second question
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  SPEAKER_01: Where is your mind right now?
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  SPEAKER_01: Is it in the upper or the lower part of your body?
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  SPEAKER_01: In your sense organs, your eyes, your nose, your ears?
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  SPEAKER_01: In your lungs or your heart or your brain?
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  SPEAKER_01: If it feels as if it lodges in your heart, what part of the heart?
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  SPEAKER_01: Atrium?
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  SPEAKER_01: Left ventricle, AV node.
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  SPEAKER_01: Be precise.
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  SPEAKER_01: Where is your mind right now?
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  SPEAKER_01: Don't go by hearsay.
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  SPEAKER_01: Hearsay is just rumors.
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  SPEAKER_01: Lots of people around here say many things.
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  SPEAKER_01: You will have noticed if you read the news.
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  SPEAKER_01: Thoroughly investigate the present location of mind.
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  SPEAKER_01: With your intellect, your emotions, and your perceptions one by one.
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  SPEAKER_01: With your intellect,
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  SPEAKER_01: you will not be able to logically prove to yourself that it exists in this place or
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  SPEAKER_01: that place.
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  SPEAKER_01: Oh, you can parrot what they said in this school or this theory.
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  SPEAKER_01: So can a fine gray parrot.
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  SPEAKER_01: When you feel around for it with your emotions,
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  SPEAKER_01: you will have a feeling of it being here or behind your eyes or over there.
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  SPEAKER_01: When you seek it with your perceptions,
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  SPEAKER_01: trying to get a look at it,
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  SPEAKER_01: it will always seem to be just outside of the corner of your vision.
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  SPEAKER_01: Try, try and try again.
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  SPEAKER_01: Go find your mind.
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  SPEAKER_01: Thoroughly investigate the present location of the mind and its characteristics.
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  SPEAKER_01: How big is it?
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  SPEAKER_01: How deep?
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  SPEAKER_01: How broad?
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  SPEAKER_01: Can you find an edge?
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  SPEAKER_01: Can you find a center?
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  SPEAKER_01: What color?
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  SPEAKER_01: The blue of the sky, which is gray today around here.
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  SPEAKER_01: The red of fire.
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  SPEAKER_01: The white of moonlight.
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  SPEAKER_01: What color is it?
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  SPEAKER_01: Have a look.
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  SPEAKER_01: Find out for yourself.
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  SPEAKER_01: No hearsay here.
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  SPEAKER_01: Don't believe me or anybody.
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  SPEAKER_01: Take this like buying gold in Banaras and go check it out yourself.
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  SPEAKER_01: Thoroughly investigate the present location of your mind and its characteristics.
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  SPEAKER_01: Until you're utterly certain intellectually that you cannot find it with your intellect.
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  SPEAKER_01: Until you are utterly certain emotionally that you cannot find it with your emotions.
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  SPEAKER_01: Until you are utterly certain,
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  SPEAKER_01: perceptually, that you cannot perceive it with your sense organs.
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  SPEAKER_01: Try, try and try again.
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  SPEAKER_01: The certainty is what matters.
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  SPEAKER_01: And you'll only have that certainty by your own experience.
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  SPEAKER_01: If I suggested we all go make a camping retreat on an island,
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  SPEAKER_01: Which had been known to have tigers and wild boars.
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  SPEAKER_01: And you said to me, well, not sure this is a good idea.
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  SPEAKER_01: Some people say this island is inhabited by tigers and wild boars, which would be dangerous.
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  SPEAKER_01: But I said to you, oh, don't worry, they're extinct here.
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  SPEAKER_01: That was hundreds of years ago.
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  SPEAKER_01: There's no more.
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  SPEAKER_01: And I talk you into it.
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  SPEAKER_01: Because you believe you're a teacher.
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  SPEAKER_01: And we go there and it's 2 a.m. and you hear a noise outside of your little tent.
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  SPEAKER_01: How you feeling there?
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  SPEAKER_01: You still sure?
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  SPEAKER_01: Did I told you the truth?
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  SPEAKER_01: Or are you wondering, has your heart rate increased?
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  SPEAKER_01: Now, conversely,
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  SPEAKER_01: if I say to you,
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  SPEAKER_01: I am pretty damn sure that that was hundreds of years ago
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  SPEAKER_01: and they are extinct around here,
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  SPEAKER_01: but let's check it out in the daytime first and we take a boat out to the island.
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  SPEAKER_01: All of us together and we search that island, every thicket.
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  SPEAKER_01: It's not a very big island.
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  SPEAKER_01: We search it from top to bottom, behind every bush, into every crack.
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  SPEAKER_01: And we don't even find the spore of anything larger than a squirrel.
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  SPEAKER_01: Now you're sleeping in your tent at 2 a.m.
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  SPEAKER_01: and hear about the same noise and you think to yourself,
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  SPEAKER_01: oh, fuck, he's snoring again.
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  SPEAKER_01: And roll over and go back to sleep.
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  SPEAKER_01: You see the difference.
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  SPEAKER_01: Even if I tell you from now until the cows come home that there is no mind,
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  SPEAKER_01: that's not the same as you having sought it.
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  SPEAKER_01: And become certain by your own experience.
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  SPEAKER_01: That's why actually the doing of this practice is so damn important.
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  SPEAKER_01: Should not be left out.
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  SPEAKER_01: And even if you are most advanced,
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  SPEAKER_01: but are still tripping over the illusion of being something, someone, somewhere.
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  SPEAKER_01: And getting all upset in your life by it.
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  SPEAKER_01: You might want to try it again, this practice.
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  SPEAKER_01: You might not be quite sure enough.
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  SPEAKER_01: You might have skipped over it real fast in the beginning
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  SPEAKER_01: because you thought you were such a good practitioner that you could go on to
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  SPEAKER_01: the advanced stuff.
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  SPEAKER_01: And you did, and that's great, and it worked, mostly.
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  SPEAKER_01: This is the heart of the doorknob that opens the door of Zogchen.
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  SPEAKER_01: Take your time.
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  SPEAKER_01: Turn the knob all the way and push the door wide open.
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  SPEAKER_01: If you get it open far enough, it will never close again.
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  SPEAKER_01: Finally, examine the movement of mind when it moves.
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  SPEAKER_01: Does it pass through your organs or senses, your sense organs?
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  SPEAKER_01: Does it move?
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  SPEAKER_01: In Tibetan,
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  SPEAKER_01: and this is a Tibetan writing,
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  SPEAKER_01: when we say,
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  SPEAKER_01: I am imagining what the house I grew up in looked like,
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  SPEAKER_01: I am remembering it and I am imagining it.
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  SPEAKER_01: I am seeing the image of it in my mind's eye.
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  SPEAKER_01: This is what we say in English.
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  SPEAKER_01: The way you would say that in the Tibetan language is my mind went to
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  SPEAKER_01: the house I grew up in and walked through it.
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  SPEAKER_01: Therefore,
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  SPEAKER_01: because of the linguistic structure Tibetans experience the sensation
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  SPEAKER_01: of their mind moving from this to that.
• 30:11
  SPEAKER_01: Your attention have been separated.
• 30:14
  SPEAKER_01: So in Tibetan, this does not separate in the same way.
• 30:18
  SPEAKER_01: So to put this exercise into your linguistic cultural context,
• 30:28
  SPEAKER_01: I have to take it back and I actually went and looked this up
• 30:31
  SPEAKER_01: when Rinpoche first taught it because I knew enough of the Tibetan to know
• 30:36
  SPEAKER_01: that it was a linguistic construction.
• 30:39
  SPEAKER_01: So at some point I managed to find out what it actually was in Sanskrit.
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  SPEAKER_01: And that's very interesting because Sanskrit is actually
• 30:51
  SPEAKER_01: in this linguistic construction, similar to our culture.
• 30:57
  SPEAKER_01: So the original of this instruction,
• 31:04
  SPEAKER_01: how
• 31:08
  SPEAKER_01: do you see things that aren't here?
• 31:12
  SPEAKER_01: How does that happen?
• 31:15
  SPEAKER_01: Look and see.
• 31:17
  SPEAKER_01: Imagine the house you grew up in.
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  SPEAKER_01: The front door, the porch, if there was one.
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  SPEAKER_01: The old strange furniture,
• 31:30
  SPEAKER_01: heavy wood furniture in the living room, which was dark and dim, I speak of my own.
• 31:37
  SPEAKER_01: The big backyard with the vacant lot next door and the old fallen log and the goon tree and...
• 31:47
  SPEAKER_01: I can see all of it in my mind's eye.
• 31:53
  SPEAKER_01: How do I do that?
• 31:56
  SPEAKER_01: Where are those pictures happening?
• 31:59
  SPEAKER_01: How does that work?
• 32:03
  SPEAKER_01: Again, approach it intellectually without hearsay,
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  SPEAKER_01: pure logic, not based on what somebody told you.
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  SPEAKER_01: Approach it with emotion because surely the house you grew up in has emotional content.
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  SPEAKER_01: You feel the nostalgia.
• 32:29
  SPEAKER_01: How's that happening?
• 32:34
  SPEAKER_01: Happy, sad.
• 32:38
  SPEAKER_01: Feel.
• 32:39
  SPEAKER_01: How do you see these images?
• 32:44
  SPEAKER_01: It's actually you perceive them, don't you?
• 32:47
  SPEAKER_01: You can see the couch.
• 32:52
  SPEAKER_01: When my mother would pick up the couch cushions to vacuum and
• 32:56
  SPEAKER_01: then go vacuum another part and leave them piled standing.
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  SPEAKER_01: I made mountains out of them and did mountain climbing on them with my little toys
• 33:06
  SPEAKER_01: and climbed the great mountains of the couch cushion.
• 33:09
  SPEAKER_01: My mom never understood why I always wanted to play on the couch when
• 33:12
  SPEAKER_01: the cushions were cattywampus.
• 33:17
  SPEAKER_01: Parents don't understand much.
• 33:22
  SPEAKER_01: It reminded me of where I had lived in my past life in the gray rocks.
• 33:28
  SPEAKER_01: All it needed were the little yellow wildflowers and the pink ones and the blue ones.
• 33:39
  SPEAKER_01: Memory.
• 33:41
  SPEAKER_00: How do you do that?
• 33:46
  SPEAKER_01: How does it happen?
• 33:52
  SPEAKER_01: The Tibetans say,
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  SPEAKER_01: when your mind goes to the house you grew up in and you see it oh so clearly,
• 34:03
  SPEAKER_01: did something go from here to there?
• 34:07
  SPEAKER_01: Did something come from there to here?
• 34:13
  SPEAKER_01: How does that work?
• 34:18
  SPEAKER_01: In Sanskrit, where's the picture?
• 34:22
  SPEAKER_01: Where do you see that image?
• 34:23
  SPEAKER_01: Where is it right now in the moment you perceive it in your mind's eye?
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  SPEAKER_01: Find it.
• 34:35
  SPEAKER_01: Examine the movement of mind
• 34:41
  SPEAKER_01: you understand what that means linguistically.
• 34:44
  SPEAKER_01: When it moves, does it pass through the organs of the senses?
• 34:48
  SPEAKER_01: Are your eyes involved?
• 34:51
  SPEAKER_01: In seeing the kitchen of the house you grew up in.
• 34:59
  SPEAKER_01: Do you remember?
• 35:00
  SPEAKER_01: I remember the smell of the landlady's hands.
• 35:05
  SPEAKER_01: I hated when she used to grab me and pinch my cheeks because she stank of mildew.
• 35:13
  SPEAKER_01: She had a moldy old dishcloth she was always wiping things with and oh man.
• 35:19
  SPEAKER_01: Created in me a great aversion to dishcloths.
• 35:23
  SPEAKER_01: To this day, I use a brush to clean my dishes.
• 35:28
  SPEAKER_01: I won't use a rag.
• 35:30
  SPEAKER_01: Squick.
• 35:32
  SPEAKER_01: Funny childhood memories.
• 35:34
  SPEAKER_01: I remember that smell.
• 35:38
  SPEAKER_01: I remember the musty, dusty smell of the attic on a hot day with the sun baking the dust.
• 35:50
  SPEAKER_01: I remember the smells of sausage and cornbread and chicken foot soup.
• 35:59
  SPEAKER_01: Does something happen in your nose when you smell that?
• 36:04
  SPEAKER_01: Your memories?
• 36:06
  SPEAKER_01: How's that work?
• 36:10
  SPEAKER_01: Find out.
• 36:12
  SPEAKER_01: I'm not gonna tell ya.
• 36:19
  SPEAKER_01: When you see something that is here now.
• 36:27
  SPEAKER_01: And smell it.
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  SPEAKER_01: Taste it and experience the emotion of pleasure at the flavor.
• 36:41
  SPEAKER_01: And think, damn, that's good coffee.
• 36:45
  SPEAKER_01: You have a thought mixed in with a feeling mixed in with a perception.
• 36:51
  SPEAKER_01: And where's that happening?
• 36:53
  SPEAKER_01: In your mouth?
• 36:54
  SPEAKER_01: In your nose?
• 36:55
  SPEAKER_01: In your heart?
• 36:56
  SPEAKER_01: The feeling of pleasure?
• 37:01
  SPEAKER_01: Where's that?
• 37:02
  SPEAKER_01: How's that work?
• 37:07
  SPEAKER_01: When your eyes,
• 37:09
  SPEAKER_01: your sense of smell, Your sense of taste momentarily embraces
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  SPEAKER_01: an external object.
• 37:22
  SPEAKER_01: Is there physical contact?
• 37:30
  SPEAKER_01: Consider this.
• 37:32
  SPEAKER_01: Is it only a mental function?
• 37:36
  SPEAKER_01: Is it different when I sip my coffee and when I remember everything?
• 37:41
  SPEAKER_01: The soup my mother used to make.
• 37:46
  SPEAKER_01: She used to talk the butcher out of free chicken feet.
• 37:51
  SPEAKER_01: The kosher butcher.
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  SPEAKER_01: Because she was pretty and she smiled at him.
• 37:57
  SPEAKER_01: And when we had nothing else, we did have chicken foot soup.
• 38:00
  SPEAKER_01: And I really liked chicken foot soup.
• 38:03
  SPEAKER_01: And I would try to hide one of the feet in my pocket so I could take it to school
• 38:08
  SPEAKER_01: and scare the other kids with it.
• 38:10
  SPEAKER_01: Because if you can get one while it's still raw, you can pull the tendon and it goes like this.
• 38:15
  SPEAKER_01: So you can chase somebody with it by pulling the tendon and the chicken foot
• 38:19
  SPEAKER_01: if you can steal one from mom before she cooks them.
• 38:22
  SPEAKER_01: And it can grab them.
• 38:24
  SPEAKER_01: It really freaks out the other little kids.
• 38:27
  SPEAKER_01: Yeah, that was fun.
• 38:32
  SPEAKER_01: I wasn't always the nicest child.
• 38:41
  SPEAKER_01: Memory.
• 38:43
  SPEAKER_01: Where are they?
• 38:48
  SPEAKER_01: Did I really steal a chicken foot from my mom?
• 38:52
  SPEAKER_01: Or did I only think about it and plan to do it as a three-year-old, four-year-old?
• 39:03
  SPEAKER_01: And then decided I'd rather eat it or chicken out.
• 39:07
  SPEAKER_01: What really happened?
• 39:09
  SPEAKER_01: Can I know?
• 39:11
  SPEAKER_01: I'll never know.
• 39:14
  SPEAKER_01: Because at that age you don't even really know what's happening, whether it's real or not.
• 39:22
  SPEAKER_01: Can't tell.
• 39:24
  SPEAKER_01: You imagine a bunch of what we called goons,
• 39:27
  SPEAKER_01: which were scribbly monsters, live in a certain tree.
• 39:31
  SPEAKER_01: And then for you they really live there.
• 39:35
  SPEAKER_01: And you have many adventures involving them.
• 39:38
  SPEAKER_01: Running away from them, challenging them, throwing stones at them.
• 39:46
  SPEAKER_01: A whole relationship arises as a child
• 39:52
  SPEAKER_01: without that much external phenomena occurring.
• 39:59
  SPEAKER_01: And how much of that is still happening to you?
• 40:09
  SPEAKER_01: Consider this.
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  SPEAKER_01: How we make up our realities.
• 40:15
  SPEAKER_01: It's not that different than when we were four.
• 40:19
  SPEAKER_01: We've just learned what it's okay to talk about and what it isn't.
• 40:23
  SPEAKER_01: Mostly.
• 40:27
  SPEAKER_01: But we still make up weird shit, like our lovers married somebody else or they're doing this.
• 40:35
  SPEAKER_01: All sorts of stuff gets made up.
• 40:41
  SPEAKER_01: Then we have emotions about what we make up.
• 40:45
  SPEAKER_00: We get all upset.
• 40:48
  SPEAKER_01: By a month later, we've forgotten about it.
• 41:02
  SPEAKER_01: Is memory only a mental function?
• 41:06
  SPEAKER_01: Or are both body and mind involved together?
• 41:12
  SPEAKER_01: I can smell things that I remember.
• 41:18
  SPEAKER_01: The taste of old wooden pencils when you chew on the end.
• 41:24
  SPEAKER_01: I can taste memories.
• 41:26
  SPEAKER_01: Are my sense organs involved in this?
• 41:29
  SPEAKER_01: Or just my mind?
• 41:34
  SPEAKER_01: Find out.
• 41:38
  SPEAKER_01: Investigate the process of perception.
• 41:42
  SPEAKER_01: Both in this moment and as memories.
• 41:49
  SPEAKER_01: And then I want you to plan, when this session is over, to eat a piece of chocolate.
• 42:00
  SPEAKER_01: Can you taste it?
• 42:01
  SPEAKER_01: Can you imagine the taste?
• 42:03
  SPEAKER_01: Can you feel it?
• 42:04
  SPEAKER_01: Are you salivating?
• 42:10
  SPEAKER_01: And that's not even a memory.
• 42:12
  SPEAKER_01: That's a plan.
• 42:16
  SPEAKER_01: If you aren't particularly fond of chocolate, pick something else that you have access to.
• 42:22
  SPEAKER_01: Potato chips.
• 42:28
  SPEAKER_01: A carrot.
• 42:31
  SPEAKER_01: A treat that you very like.
• 42:33
  SPEAKER_01: And imagine it.
• 42:36
  SPEAKER_01: You're going to salivate.
• 42:43
  SPEAKER_01: How's that happen?
• 42:48
  SPEAKER_01: When a thought arises with its attendant emotion,
• 42:52
  SPEAKER_01: because almost all thoughts have subtle emotions wrapped around them, riding them.
• 43:02
  SPEAKER_01: Almost all emotions have subtle thoughts wrapped around them, riding them.
• 43:11
  SPEAKER_01: The interweaving of thinking and feeling is very difficult to separate out.
• 43:25
  SPEAKER_01: When a thought arises with its attendant emotion, first investigate its source.
• 43:33
  SPEAKER_01: Where did the thought you're thinking right now come from?
• 43:37
  SPEAKER_01: Not what is its reason for being there?
• 43:41
  SPEAKER_01: Literally, spatially, where the hell did it come from?
• 43:49
  SPEAKER_01: Where was it before you thought it?
• 43:55
  SPEAKER_01: Where is it while you think it?
• 44:01
  SPEAKER_01: Does it have a color, a shape, or any other attributes?
• 44:06
  SPEAKER_01: Is the thought red, black and white and written on paper, R-E-D?
• 44:11
  SPEAKER_01: Or is it actually read or neither of these?
• 44:20
  SPEAKER_01: Examine it to see.
• 44:24
  SPEAKER_01: This needs to first be sufficiently intellectually understand
• 44:31
  SPEAKER_01: to pacify your argumentative side that will get in your way.
• 44:39
  SPEAKER_01: So you have to be pretty sure of all of these questions intellectually.
• 44:46
  SPEAKER_01: Then you need to feel around for these answers.
• 44:50
  SPEAKER_01: First you contemplate the answers with thinking.
• 44:54
  SPEAKER_01: And in not finding any true proof of one thing or another,
• 45:03
  SPEAKER_01: an intellectual pause occurs.
• 45:07
  SPEAKER_01: And then you feel around for trying to feel where the thoughts are.
• 45:14
  SPEAKER_01: How they happen.
• 45:16
  SPEAKER_01: How it works.
• 45:18
  SPEAKER_01: Feel for it.
• 45:22
  SPEAKER_01: With your mind, not with your fingertips.
• 45:26
  SPEAKER_01: With your feelings, your emotion, your Yi, the sixth sense organ.
• 45:31
  SPEAKER_01: Do that until you become utterly certain by having tried.
• 45:38
  SPEAKER_01: That it cannot be felt in one place more than another emotionally.
• 45:47
  SPEAKER_01: Then seek it perceptually.
• 45:54
  SPEAKER_01: You need to convince the three aspects of you of thinking or the three aspects of
• 46:03
  SPEAKER_01: the dance of awareness.
• 46:06
  SPEAKER_01: The three aspects of the sparkle of the clear light nature.
• 46:11
  SPEAKER_01: The three aspects of the manifestation of vitality.
• 46:19
  SPEAKER_01: Thoughts, feelings, and perceptions.
• 46:24
  SPEAKER_01: You need to convince those.
• 46:28
  SPEAKER_01: First, into certainty of not finding.
• 46:37
  SPEAKER_01: Otherwise you'll always wonder at 2am if there's a tiger out there.
• 46:45
  SPEAKER_01: If maybe this thought is solid or real.
• 46:54
  SPEAKER_01: Look long and hard for the answers to these questions.
• 47:00
  SPEAKER_01: Last when thought has subsided into itself and vanished.
• 47:05
  SPEAKER_01: Where has it gone?
• 47:09
  SPEAKER_01: The thought you were thinking a moment ago, where'd it go?
• 47:13
  SPEAKER_01: I'm thinking a different thought now, where's that one?
• 47:17
  SPEAKER_01: That's gone too.
• 47:18
  SPEAKER_01: Where do they go when they vanish?
• 47:22
  SPEAKER_01: See if you can follow one home and see where it lives, where it goes.
• 47:27
  SPEAKER_01: Do your thoughts live anywhere,
• 47:29
  SPEAKER_01: the ones you've already thought, the ones you haven't thought yet?
• 47:33
  SPEAKER_01: Go see, go find them.
• 47:36
  SPEAKER_01: Examine your mind closely for the answers.
• 47:42
  SPEAKER_01: This is another way of phrasing the inner mind rushen from the text Yeshi Lama.
• 47:53
  SPEAKER_01: It is the zogchen nundro.
• 47:57
  SPEAKER_01: It is how you get in to trekship.
• 48:03
  SPEAKER_01: You simply follow these instructions to the best of your ability
• 48:10
  SPEAKER_01: until attempting drives you out of your tiny little mind and then
• 48:23
  SPEAKER_01: just this.
• 48:39
  SPEAKER_01: At the time of death, where do you go?
• 48:43
  SPEAKER_01: Somebody said heaven, hell,
• 48:47
  SPEAKER_01: get reborn,
• 48:48
  SPEAKER_01: disappear forever because you're only a chemical reaction
• 48:53
  SPEAKER_01: that is no longer reacting.
• 48:57
  SPEAKER_01: You who are an ecology,
• 49:00
  SPEAKER_01: not an individual entity,
• 49:04
  SPEAKER_01: With your entire set of experiences interwoven with your biome.
• 49:16
  SPEAKER_01: You, the personality.
• 49:19
  SPEAKER_01: If we can treat certain kinds of madness and depression with probiotics,
• 49:27
  SPEAKER_01: obviously How you think, feel, and behave is affected by your biome.
• 49:34
  SPEAKER_01: It's interwoven.
• 49:35
  SPEAKER_01: Your personality isn't just yours.
• 49:39
  SPEAKER_01: It's a group effort.
• 49:41
  SPEAKER_01: You're an ecology, not an entity.
• 49:46
  SPEAKER_01: When you die, who gets the karma of having lived?
• 49:52
  SPEAKER_01: You or them?
• 49:54
  SPEAKER_01: Which particular bacteria Gets the karma of this or that action done by the full entity.
• 50:06
  SPEAKER_01: What goes forwards in reincarnation?
• 50:11
  SPEAKER_01: What is it?
• 50:13
  SPEAKER_01: Don't take my word for it.
• 50:17
  SPEAKER_01: Have a look.
• 50:19
  SPEAKER_01: Contemplate this.
• 50:20
  SPEAKER_01: Consider this.
• 50:31
  SPEAKER_01: How does mind leave the body if leave the body it does?
• 50:36
  SPEAKER_01: Do all the bits of you die at the same time?
• 50:41
  SPEAKER_01: Or is your corpse eaten by some of the bacteria continuing to live in your gut?
• 50:51
  SPEAKER_01: Decay is alive.
• 50:58
  SPEAKER_01: Corpses can glow in the dark.
• 51:01
  SPEAKER_01: What
• 51:16
  SPEAKER_01: happens when you die?
• 51:19
  SPEAKER_01: If you think you leave your body,
• 51:22
  SPEAKER_01: that you have such a thing as a soul that leaves your body,
• 51:25
  SPEAKER_01: a mind stream, where does it go out?
• 51:28
  SPEAKER_01: Don't go with the hearsay top of your head.
• 51:31
  SPEAKER_01: If it goes out here, it's a bad thing.
• 51:33
  SPEAKER_01: If it goes out here, it's a good thing.
• 51:35
  SPEAKER_01: Try and see for yourself.
• 51:41
  SPEAKER_01: Drop the Buddhist hearsay, the scientific hearsay, the Christian hearsay.
• 51:47
  SPEAKER_01: Don't trust any of that stuff.
• 51:49
  SPEAKER_01: Go look.
• 51:52
  SPEAKER_01: It's important.
• 51:54
  SPEAKER_01: Too important to leave to others telling you rumors.
• 52:01
  SPEAKER_01: Consider these questions in all their ramifications in detail.
• 52:07
  SPEAKER_00: Consider them intellectually
• 52:12
  SPEAKER_01: until you absolutely see that no truth can be proved
• 52:17
  SPEAKER_01: above any other.
• 52:20
  SPEAKER_01: Consider them emotionally.
• 52:24
  SPEAKER_01: Until you absolutely see that you may have preferences for one thing or another,
• 52:32
  SPEAKER_01: but really you cannot feel that one thing is more true than another.
• 52:40
  SPEAKER_01: Consider them perceptually,
• 52:44
  SPEAKER_01: trying to actually directly perceive where your thoughts come from,
• 52:53
  SPEAKER_01: where they be happening.
• 52:56
  SPEAKER_01: And where they go when you're done thinking them
• 52:59
  SPEAKER_01: and all these other ramifications we've suggested.
• 53:04
  SPEAKER_01: See if you can directly perceive the answer and keep at it.
• 53:13
  SPEAKER_01: Until you are absolutely sure enough to hit a pause.
• 53:33
  SPEAKER_01: Between the thoughts, behind the thoughts, all these words are inaccurate.
• 53:45
  SPEAKER_01: Don't believe a word I'm saying.
• 53:49
  SPEAKER_01: Look for yourself.
• 53:58
  SPEAKER_01: Preserve in your careful inquiry, examining the mind.
• 54:03
  SPEAKER_01: Until you become absolutely certain,
• 54:10
  SPEAKER_01: beyond a shadow of a doubt,
• 54:14
  SPEAKER_01: no thing, nowhere, utterly indescribable.
• 54:28
  SPEAKER_01: Don't ask me.
• 54:31
  SPEAKER_01: Is it like this?
• 54:32
  SPEAKER_01: Is it like that?
• 54:36
  SPEAKER_01: You need to get sure for yourself.
• 54:40
  SPEAKER_01: Utterly and unequivocably sure.
• 54:47
  SPEAKER_01: The arid assertions and metaphors of others.
• 54:53
  SPEAKER_01: When I say to you something like mind is emptiness,
• 54:58
  SPEAKER_01: This is worse than useless,
• 54:59
  SPEAKER_01: for it makes you think you understand a thing that you don't.
• 55:03
  SPEAKER_01: You're parroting a phrase.
• 55:08
  SPEAKER_01: And yes,
• 55:09
  SPEAKER_01: in most schools,
• 55:10
  SPEAKER_01: you get good marks for parroting a phrase, but that's not what we're doing here.
• 55:19
  SPEAKER_01: Until you know the answer yourself.
• 55:23
  SPEAKER_01: Such statements simply tend to bring about doubt and hesitation.
• 55:30
  SPEAKER_01: It's like the dogmatic assertion.
• 55:34
  SPEAKER_01: The tigers do in fact live in a country where it is generally supposed the tigers are extinct.
• 55:42
  SPEAKER_01: It leaves doubt and uncertainty on the subject.
• 55:50
  SPEAKER_01: After attentively And thoroughly examining your mind and having established
• 56:03
  SPEAKER_01: its nature.
• 56:05
  SPEAKER_01: It is as if you have explored the valleys and hills where the tigers are said to exist.
• 56:12
  SPEAKER_01: And seeing for yourself whether there's any tigers living there now or not.
• 56:17
  SPEAKER_01: You are fully informed.
• 56:22
  SPEAKER_01: Therefore,
• 56:23
  SPEAKER_01: if the question of Tiger's existence in that place arises,
• 56:27
  SPEAKER_01: you will have no doubt as to the truth of the matter.
• 56:33
  SPEAKER_01: You've got to do this practice until you're sure.
• 56:42
  SPEAKER_01: Do you understand?
• 56:46
  SPEAKER_01: Because that's for your homework today.
• 56:51
  SPEAKER_01: I will entertain questions, but not about what you should be finding.
• 57:01
  SPEAKER_01: Only about how to look.
• 57:09
  SPEAKER_01: Are there any?
• 57:14
  SPEAKER_00: Questions about how to look or any questions?
• 57:17
  SPEAKER_01: I'll take anything right now, but I'll refuse anything about what you might be finding.
• 57:22
  SPEAKER_00: Okay.
• 57:24
  SPEAKER_00: It's kind of lengthy.
• 57:25
  SPEAKER_00: Bear with me.
• 57:27
  SPEAKER_00: What is going on with the destructive and harmful actions of individuals and groups?
• 57:32
  SPEAKER_00: Is their manifestation of Rigpa a distortion?
• 57:36
  SPEAKER_00: What would you say it is?
• 57:40
  SPEAKER_01: They are reacting according and behaving according to their Pagchas.
• 57:45
  SPEAKER_01: See, if you do a lot of killing, it gets easier.
• 57:51
  SPEAKER_01: If you do a lot of stealing, it gets easier.
• 57:58
  SPEAKER_01: So the way karma works for most of us, and this is
• 58:07
  SPEAKER_01: a simplification of a more complex subject,
• 58:13
  SPEAKER_01: The karmic imprint left on your mind stream,
• 58:18
  SPEAKER_01: on that which thinks it's you,
• 58:23
  SPEAKER_01: which thinks it has a self and continues to think that and create its next moment
• 58:29
  SPEAKER_01: and its next moment based on that illusion.
• 58:34
  SPEAKER_01: When you perform an action,
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  SPEAKER_01: the result of that action Will arise,
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  SPEAKER_01: but also you will be more inclined to perform it again.
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  SPEAKER_01: You can develop a new habit.
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  SPEAKER_01: Let's say you want to develop a habit of tugging on your right ear.
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  SPEAKER_01: You just remind yourself multiple times for a week or two to tug
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  SPEAKER_01: on your right ear every time you think of it.
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  SPEAKER_01: Pretty soon it just happens.
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  SPEAKER_01: Some of you may recognize that this method is an analogy for a further practice called GOM.
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  SPEAKER_01: When people have begun being afraid,
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  SPEAKER_01: they react often by challenging that which scared them.
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  SPEAKER_01: When a child is bullied a great deal by either their parents or other children,
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  SPEAKER_01: they often become a bully even though they don't realize it.
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  SPEAKER_01: They lack, they do not develop because of their experience of being bullied.
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  SPEAKER_01: They do not develop the inherent kindness,
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  SPEAKER_01: but they perpetuate bullying Either by continuously going about as a victim
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  SPEAKER_01: to be bullied or by learning to enjoy bullying others.
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  SPEAKER_01: I suspect that our poor president was badly bullied as a child,
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  SPEAKER_01: either by his father or by other children in some circumstance.
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  SPEAKER_01: Because one doesn't become that level of bully.
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  SPEAKER_01: Out of blankness.
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  SPEAKER_01: It's karma.
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  SPEAKER_01: I suspect our poor president is very frightened.
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  SPEAKER_01: Because one doesn't show that much anger without an equal amount of fear.
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  SPEAKER_01: Terror.
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  SPEAKER_01: I doubt he sleeps well because of it.
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  SPEAKER_01: A person who is ridden by fear and terror and anxiety will often act out
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  SPEAKER_01: outwardly
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  SPEAKER_01: by causing others to feel those things.
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  SPEAKER_01: A way of sharing it somehow.
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  SPEAKER_01: Some react by withdrawing, some react by reacting.
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  SPEAKER_01: But all of these,
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  SPEAKER_01: when individuals are cruel,
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  SPEAKER_01: those lovely cats I have, they are terribly cruel to mice,
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  SPEAKER_01: torturing them.
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  SPEAKER_01: They do not know that the mice are alive.
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  SPEAKER_01: Some people to protect themselves from the pain of interaction have managed
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  SPEAKER_01: to convince themselves that they are the only real person
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  SPEAKER_01: and nobody else matters.
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  SPEAKER_01: And so when you see
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  SPEAKER_01: A pariah dog with its skin deteriorating, its hair falling out.
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  SPEAKER_01: A young puppy on a dung heap in India, starving.
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  SPEAKER_01: You're looking at a rich man who left his employees in poverty.
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  SPEAKER_01: You have compassion for the puppy.
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  SPEAKER_01: You need to have compassion for the rich idiot too.
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  SPEAKER_01: Nobody means to be who they are.
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  SPEAKER_01: Most people react according to their karma.
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  SPEAKER_01: Their Pogchas,
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  SPEAKER_01: their karmic formations,
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  SPEAKER_01: the cricks in their channels, replaying the patterns again and again
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  SPEAKER_01: And their current experiences,
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  SPEAKER_01: which they tell the story of according to their patterns,
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  SPEAKER_01: creates more patterns which they play out in future.
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  SPEAKER_01: Most people in the wild, and somewhat in the tame, if they're not too lazy.
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  SPEAKER_01: If you feed them enough, they get kind of fat and lazy and don't hunt so much.
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  SPEAKER_01: But in the wild,
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  SPEAKER_01: They must kill.
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  SPEAKER_01: And you cannot go about killing and eating others without in some way failing
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  SPEAKER_01: to recognize the aliveness
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  SPEAKER_01: of those you kill and eat.
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  SPEAKER_01: I think enough on that question.
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  SPEAKER_01: I think I gave you some answers to think about.
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  SPEAKER_00: Next question.
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  SPEAKER_00: Rigpa is said to be the fourth time, being beyond both time and space.
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  SPEAKER_00: Yesterday we said we are space.
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  SPEAKER_00: Could you please comment further?
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  SPEAKER_01: Go find your mind.
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  SPEAKER_01: And you will know beyond a shadow of doubt exactly what is meant
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  SPEAKER_01: by both those statements in their context.
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  SPEAKER_00: Next question.
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  SPEAKER_00: What is the effect of saying a mantra less than perfectly?
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  SPEAKER_01: If it is said with faith.
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  SPEAKER_01: And gonzo, joyous enthusiasm, it will work just fine anyway.
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  SPEAKER_01: The key to getting anything to work
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  SPEAKER_01: is the gonzo of joyful enthusiasm in which it is done.
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  SPEAKER_01: Without that doesn't work nearly as well.
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  SPEAKER_01: Next question.
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  SPEAKER_00: If my heart begins to overflow with gratitude how should I keep it in check so that
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  SPEAKER_00: the object of my gratitude doesn't drown in it?
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  SPEAKER_01: A feeling does not require you to express it.
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  SPEAKER_01: You will only drown the object of your gratitude if you insist in bothering them
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  SPEAKER_01: with it, telling them about it, et cetera, et cetera.
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  SPEAKER_01: You don't have to do that.
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  SPEAKER_01: You can just feel it.
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  SPEAKER_01: And that's fine.
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  SPEAKER_01: And by the way, where are you feeling that gratitude?
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  SPEAKER_01: The feeling, the sensation called gratitude.
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  SPEAKER_00: What's it made of?
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  SPEAKER_01: Where's it happening?
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  SPEAKER_01: Is it really in your heart?
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  SPEAKER_01: Could it really overflow?
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  SPEAKER_01: It's in your meat heart, your heart chakra.
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  SPEAKER_01: How big is that?
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  SPEAKER_01: Your gratitude will overflow it.
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  SPEAKER_01: I don't know.
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  SPEAKER_01: Go check again.
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  SPEAKER_01: Next question.
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  SPEAKER_00: How can we change these cricks in the channels and karmic traces?
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  SPEAKER_01: The most effective and fastest way to unravel the cricks and karmic traces is treacherous.
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  SPEAKER_01: If you are capable of it.
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  SPEAKER_01: And we'll actually do it, the real thing.
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  SPEAKER_01: Second most effective method is Tantra.
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  SPEAKER_01: Try Vajrasattva.
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  SPEAKER_00: Next.
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  SPEAKER_00: Is Vajrayana Nundra necessary for everyone?
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  SPEAKER_01: I don't know.
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  SPEAKER_01: It certainly was for me.
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  SPEAKER_01: Have it actually, well, no, yes, a Chick Jawa might not need it.
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  SPEAKER_01: Like I talked to you the other day, I saw one once.
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  SPEAKER_01: Once.
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  SPEAKER_01: And I'm old now.
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  SPEAKER_01: So, not everybody, but most everybody,
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  SPEAKER_01: You need to be sure.
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  SPEAKER_01: To develop absolute certainty is the third vital point.
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  SPEAKER_01: This is a method of doing that.
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  SPEAKER_01: Because as long as you have doubts, you're going to look for the real reality.
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  SPEAKER_01: Must be someone in, somewhere in there, somewhere a real reality.
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  SPEAKER_01: Maybe this thought actually describes reality.
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  SPEAKER_01: No, not this idea.
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  SPEAKER_01: Maybe that one?
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  SPEAKER_01: Is this one real?
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  SPEAKER_01: Is that one real?
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  SPEAKER_01: Go find your mind.
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  SPEAKER_01: Next question, and I'm going to say just another couple of questions.
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  SPEAKER_00: Okay.
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  SPEAKER_00: Are there situations which are specifically helpful and effective to see the mind?
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  SPEAKER_01: Yes.
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  SPEAKER_01: Leaving your home and family and going to a hermitage is highly recommended.
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  SPEAKER_01: Stopping distracting yourself with all sorts of other weird busynesses is highly recommended.
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  SPEAKER_01: Things like that.
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  SPEAKER_01: Partly, if you get bored enough, you'll actually do the practice.
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  SPEAKER_00: Next question.
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  SPEAKER_00: Can you give us the lung for Manjushri's mantra?
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  SPEAKER_01: Which Manjushri?
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  SPEAKER_01: No.
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  SPEAKER_01: No, that's not what's happening today.
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  SPEAKER_01: And I don't know which one you want,
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  SPEAKER_01: and the one that comes to mind is a golden Manjushri in the Galupa lineage,
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  SPEAKER_01: but goodness, there's so many.
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  SPEAKER_00: Next.
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  SPEAKER_00: How does this Buddhist investigation...
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  SPEAKER_00: Relate to the neuroscientific views of what thoughts are.
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  SPEAKER_01: Whose neuroscientific views?
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  SPEAKER_01: I believe there is quite a great deal of
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  SPEAKER_01: different neuroscientific views going about out there.
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  SPEAKER_01: And they're always coming up with new ones too.
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  SPEAKER_01: Thoughts ride the chi.
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  SPEAKER_01: Chi moves in the channels.
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  SPEAKER_01: Thoughts ride the electrical impulses which move between the neurons chemically.
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  SPEAKER_01: You might be able to draw some analogies there in the descriptions.
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  SPEAKER_01: I sometimes do.
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  SPEAKER_01: But you're not hitting the nail on the head with it.
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  SPEAKER_01: You're a bit off.
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  SPEAKER_01: Your nail's going to go in crooked if you put too much dependence on analogies.
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  SPEAKER_00: Next.
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  SPEAKER_01: And this is the last.
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  SPEAKER_00: How to fall asleep the Zogchin way.
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  SPEAKER_02: Relax.
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  SPEAKER_02: Enter Treksha.
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  SPEAKER_01: Remain in Treccio while sleeping.
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  SPEAKER_01: Nge-wan-di-nyur-du-dal-jee-jee-
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  SPEAKER_01: To be continued, I'm going to give you all a week or two to do this practice.
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  SPEAKER_01: And then I am going to reschedule and come back.
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  SPEAKER_01: In a public teaching to take this further.
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  SPEAKER_01: Not too fast.
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  SPEAKER_01: But don't worry, it won't be too slow either.
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  SPEAKER_01: Keep an eye on my calendar when we have decided when it will be.
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  SPEAKER_01: I will post it up there.
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  SPEAKER_01: Practice.
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  SPEAKER_01: Go.
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  SPEAKER_01: Find your mind.
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  SPEAKER_01: And in the not finding, rest there.
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  SPEAKER_01: Without making anything out of it.