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From Disconnection to Divine Connection: My Story · Grounded and Guided: Channeled Insight, Real Life Lessons and Spirit Lead Conversations for Transformation and Change

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  Hello world and welcome to Grounded and Guided.
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  I'm your host, Lynette Waltham, and I'm just so glad that you are
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  here in this moment with me today.
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  This episode is all about me introducing myself to you.
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  This is an opportunity for you to get to know me and connect
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  with me on a deeper level.
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  I'm gonna share my story and how I became a channeler and energetic healer.
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  And unlike a lot of other energy workers, healers, this isn't something that I
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  had a connection to at a young age.
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  This is a skill and a passion that I really grew into as I shed, and I
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  healed many layers of my conditionings and my beliefs that didn't serve me.
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  And the more I let go and the more I trusted, I recognize the stronger my
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  channeling and energetic skills become.
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  As a kid, I recognize that I was a feeler, and today I could say
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  that I was probably very empathic.
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  But I was maybe in an environment where feeling and being very,
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  opening and loving wasn't necessarily how I was able to show up.
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  So in a way to kind of protect myself, I realized that I shut
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  down those abilities to really feel and started to put up walls.
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  One of the protection mechanisms that I recognized for myself to help me process
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  big feelings and big emotions that weren't feeling like stable and safe for
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  me was I developed an eating disorder.
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  So I kind of developed a very disconnected relationship with my body at a fairly
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  young age, and that walked me into life from a place where I allowed
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  the external noise to take over and to guide me and create some beliefs,
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  some programmings, some conditionings with me that definitely were not mine.
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  As I moved into my early twenties, I continued to live a life that was
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  quite disconnected from my body.
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  I just allowed those external voices to even become louder than they maybe
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  even were as, as a teenager, and to pull me into numerous different directions.
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  I. Moved into motherhood and I moved into a corporate job, and it's kind of
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  around that time of my early thirties my, beliefs and my conditionings and those
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  programmings that kind of come from a, from the external that were overriding my
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  internal got really, really, really loud, and the summer of 2017, I burned out.
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  I had an emotional breakdown.
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  I burned out because I was fighting myself.
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  I was fighting those beliefs, those programmings and those conditions
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  that I thought were true, but my body was trying to get me to
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  listen that that was not my truth.
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  That was not what I needed.
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  My soul was trying to scream at me to hear what was actually going on internally.
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  And I remember the day that I hit that wall.
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  My body was just like, no, no, no.
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  I can't do this.
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  I can, I can't do this.
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  I cannot go to that job today.
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  My boss was really supportive and, um, we, we had a very honest discussion about
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  where I was at and he gave me some time and I was able to just take a breath and
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  step back and I recognized where I was at.
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  And so about a few weeks into being able to kind of just take some time to regroup,
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  the group that supports that role with mental health reached out to me and, I
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  can remember them asking me questions.
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  I can remember them asking me what my plan was, where I was at, action
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  steps, and I couldn't answer any of it.
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  And what it did is it sent me into a panic attack.
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  So today I know what a panic attack was, but that day I did not know what
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  that panic, what a panic attack was.
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  All I know is that there was tightness in my chest.
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  I started to become so emotionally overwhelmed that I just crashed to
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  the floor and heaved and wept because that is the only thing that my body
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  could do at that point in time.
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  And I stayed on that floor for many minutes and finally I was able to get back
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  up very bewildered about what had happened to me, but just recognizing that there
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  was something big that was going on here.
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  I. I reached out to my doctor and she said to me, Lynette, why can't you just
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  be, and I was thrown back, just be.
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  What is this thing called?
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  Just Be, I never had heard those words from anybody in my entire
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  life, but it shook and it continued to shook and vibrate and move
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  through my body, and eventually it landed and it was permission.
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  Permission that I could take a step back, take a break.
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  Not have a plan take a breath to allow myself to
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  gain some clarity, some understanding of where I was at, and it's around
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  that time that I. Knew that I couldn't go back to the job that I was in.
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  I needed to really take a step back.
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  I needed to really allow myself to dive into all these different pockets
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  that were starting to expose themself.
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  All these different feelings that were starting to come up that I had basically
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  contained and shoved down for years.
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  I remember saying to my mom that it felt like my soul was dying, and I
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  recognize that feeling now because I was just so disconnected from
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  my essence, from my true energy.
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  I had just let so much of the external override all of my internal
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  knowings that there was such a lostness that had developed within me.
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  So I chose to take it all the way down to the bare foundation and
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  start to get to know myself again.
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  I started to prioritize myself move my body and engage in ways that
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  allowed me to get to know who I was.
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  I started to journal and I just started to interact with anything that was
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  put into my awareness that was fun and different and that allowed me
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  to create a relationship with myself and reconnect back with my body.
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  I did that through exploring yoga, and how there was just such a connection
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  between mind, body, soul, and spirit, and I started to just allow myself
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  to explore that a little bit more.
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  And when I was walking through all these self-discovery,
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  relationship building processes, a trust started to build within me.
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  I had faith that I knew things were going to get better,
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  things were going to change.
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  I was going to feel better.
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  Things were going to shift at some point in time.
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  But the when, the where, the what, the why, the how was totally unknown.
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  I did know that the things that I was doing to build that relationship
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  with myself, they felt good.
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  And it's within that, I found a deep connection with myself.
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  I rekindled a relationship with my soul, and the intuitive being that I am.
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  Because it's important for everybody to recognize that our intuition is a skill.
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  It is an ability that every single one of us has.
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  It's not a special gift that's set aside for the select or the chosen few.
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  It is within each and every one of us.
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  And it's, it's all about how we choose to interact with that,
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  and I chose to interact with that after I had an experience.
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  So a friend asked me to come to a workshop.
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  I read the description, I really knew nothing about what I was getting into.
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  It just kind of sounded cool and my friend invited me, so I went, I had an
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  individual session with the practitioner.
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  And what I recognize now was happening in that session was
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  that space was being held for me.
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  To just be loved.
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  To be loved and allow myself to feel and it something within
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  me just let go and opened up.
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  And I had huge energetic release I moved from that individual
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  session into a group session.
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  And as people were sharing.
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  I recognized that I could feel them letting go and I was like a vacuum and
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  I just sucked that energy towards me and it moved into me and I wept outwardly,
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  just uncontrollably for probably a good like 10, 15, 20 seconds as that
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  energy just moved through me and I could literally see it and feel it.
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  Leave and move.
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  And this happened to me numerous times over the course of this
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  workshop, and I was just blown away.
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  I did not know what was happening, but I knew that I was experiencing something
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  very new, something very different, and something that I needed to explore deeper.
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  From there I was introduced to Reiki.
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  The same friend who took me to that group session said, Hey, we're
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  gonna bring, that facilitator back to teach Reiki, are you in?
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  I did not know what reiki was.
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  I didn't even look it up.
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  I didn't even, um, research it or anything.
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  I just said, yes, this is something that I need to explore more and I just
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  went and that workshop changed my life.
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  I took my Reiki level one and it opened me up to a way that I could deepen
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  that relationship with myself, and I worked on developing a reiki energy
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  healing practice for over two years.
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  Allowing myself to discover the present moment, listen to myself, feel my
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  feelings, and allow them to rise up in my body and be released so that I could heal.
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  So before I ever started working with people, I spent two years of
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  doing deep inner work on myself.
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  And it's in that time that I found a women's dance fitness class that was
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  very mind, body, soul connected, and that became such a healing outlet for
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  me and also another opportunity for me to connect deeper with who I was at my
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  core, my intuition, my soul, my spirit, my essence, my truth, my authenticity,
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  and it led me in a direction of creating a space, a collective space where people
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  could come together to be exposed to various different modalities, teachings,
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  perspectives so that people could really connect with themselves, mind, body, soul,
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  and spirit, and walk their own healing, self-discovery, transformational path.
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  So I created a physical space called the collective of community wellness
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  and it's in that space where I held my women dance fitness classes,
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  and we also had yoga classes and kickboxing , and it kind of started
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  to come together and I was so excited.
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  This was something, when I say it started to come together, it come together very
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  quickly from the moment that I said.
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  Yes, this is something that I want to do.
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  The universe listened and put everything in my path very quickly,
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  and I just had to say yes, just boom, boom, boom, boom, boom.
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  And within probably two months of kind of having the idea and the concept
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  and saying yes to it, I opened.
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  Unfortunately, we had a little thing called COVID, so that didn't quite last,
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  and we were shut down I couldn't do fitness, so I needed some other outlet,
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  and that's when it come very strong to me from my heart space that it was time
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  for me to practice Reiki on others.
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  This was very scary.
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  This was a whole other level of fear that was now in my awareness, taking
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  something that had been so like personal and private, and now saying to people in
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  the world, this is something that I do.
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  This is something that I am interested in.
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  This is something that I can help you with.
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  And I put it out to my friends.
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  And it's amazing how people received that and it's in that space.
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  One of those very first moments that I was doing a reiki treatment for
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  a friend that I discovered there, there was something more there.
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  Not only could I move energy for them, but as I was doing it, I started
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  to get visuals in my mind's eye.
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  So I did not see them, how I see my computers, see this
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  microphone, like see things as I see them right now in front of me.
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  I saw them kind of in my mind's eye, very clear, very distinct visuals.
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  And there was just a deep knowing within me that there was truth
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  behind this and that it needed to be shared with my friend.
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  And when I shared that with my friend, she was just blown away, because
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  there was a very distinct physical characteristics that I was pushed to say.
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  And when I told my friend that she could very specifically pinpoint those
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  physical characteristics to someone who was close to her who had passed.
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  And it blew me away that I was making connections in this way, shape, or form.
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  And so as I opened myself up and had other sessions with my friends, the
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  ability to start hearing, seeing, knowing, smelling, tasting, feeling
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  really started to become more prevalent.
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  And with that, there was also fear.
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  Fear of this unknown that I was stepping into.
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  But as much fear as there was, I knew that I needed to move forward.
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  I needed to explore this.
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  I needed to deepen this.
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  And so that drew me to studying, reaching out to others, experiencing
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  various different modalities.
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  And where I kind of went first was with the Akashic records.
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  So if you're not familiar with the Akashic Records, this is the
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  library of our soul's history.
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  It's an energetic modality that we can access.
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  We can, read various records from our soul's history.
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  We can also use the records to do some, some deep healing, go to the root
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  causes of different energies that we maybe are working with in the present.
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  We can use it to help unblock some big blocks that we might be coming up against.
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  We can draw insights from why we might be experiencing what
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  we are experiencing presently.
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  We also can use those Akashic records to help us feel empowered.
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  To help us remember our soul and its essence.
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  So it's kind of exposing myself to learning more about the Akashic records
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  and learning how to work with them, that I met someone who is a medium.
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  And I was, I was set to read him and, and practice on him.
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  And it wasn't until after we'd done our little consult that I found
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  out that he was a medium and I just felt very kind of connected to him.
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  So I explored his work a little bit more and I booked a session with him and that
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  would've been the first experience that I had with a medium and I was blown away.
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  And in that session he told me, Lynette, you can channel and it was just very much
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  this inner knowing that I needed to deepen a channeling practice and skillset and
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  I just to explore that with more formal training over the course of a few years.
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  And it's walking through that process of deepening my channeling practice,
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  that I also deepened my intuitive connection, my relationship with myself
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  and I really did some deep personal healing and that deep personal healing,
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  it just kept drawing me forward.
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  It kept just calling me be that version of myself that I knew was there.
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  That deep healing journey that I stepped through was another
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  very life changing moment for me.
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  It allowed me to shed even more layers of the programmings, conditionings
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  beliefs that kept me so small and, and very contained energetically.
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  It allowed me to release that, so my energetic being could expand and transcend
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  and get to a place where I could hold space for people, to help them heal.
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  And for me, helping people heal has really become my purpose, my passion, my mission,
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  and at its core I realize that my work is about helping people release their trauma,
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  their conditionings, their energetic blocks, so that they can reconnect with
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  their truth, live joyfully and that they can really move from this area of
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  survival into a place of soul alignment.
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  So that is the work that I do today, and that call forward had me realize
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  that it was time to let go of the physical space that I had created.
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  I spent five years in that physical space that I called the collective of
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  community wellness and let go of it so that I could fully, truthfully, 100%
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  step into Lynette Walham energy, and that is the business that I run today.
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  Thank you so much for coming with me on this journey, diving into my
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  story, connecting with me, getting to know me on a deeper level.
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  I feel so honored and blessed, that you chose to spend your time with me.
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  Take care, everybody.
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  Take so much care.
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  Until next time, this is Lynette Walham with Grounded and Guided.