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[21/25] The Flight of the Garuda — Session 19 (Mar 2022) · Lama Lena Teachings

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SPEAKER_01: You are live.
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SPEAKER_01: Okay.
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SPEAKER_01: Good morning, you all.
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SPEAKER_01: This is a continuation of Flight of the Garuda.
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SPEAKER_01: We've been doing Flight of the Garuda for quite a while.
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SPEAKER_01: So those of you who have just wandered in for the first time,
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SPEAKER_01: if you find it interesting,
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SPEAKER_01: you may want to go back over the videos and enjoy the earlier ones as it is
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SPEAKER_01: a progressive set of teachings.
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SPEAKER_01: So it won't make full sense to you if you haven't had the previous.
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SPEAKER_01: It'll make some sense.
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SPEAKER_01: It'll be a big blessing.
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SPEAKER_01: But you do need some of the previous to really make full sense of it.
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SPEAKER_01: The way this is going to work with the text is you get to type in your questions.
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SPEAKER_01: Stay on topic.
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SPEAKER_01: We have tomorrow for off-topic questions.
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SPEAKER_01: Tomorrow's Q&A.
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SPEAKER_01: Or we can go anywhere you like.
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SPEAKER_01: But for today, Let's stay on the topic that the text brings up for you.
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SPEAKER_01: Fair enough?
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SPEAKER_01: As always, bodhisitta and refuge.
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SPEAKER_01: The basis, the ground, the context of the teaching.
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SPEAKER_01: I like to reinstall,
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SPEAKER_01: remember,
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SPEAKER_01: point at for myself,
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SPEAKER_01: Bodhisitta and Refuge in the form of Guru Yoga, which contains both.
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SPEAKER_01: Juku Kunduzo Mogambo Yen, Dorji Sampagyarab Dorjidam.
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SPEAKER_01: Shirei singe bardushin lepde, Deidam labzantata tusum chi, Zogchen jupelamala so luwadeb.
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SPEAKER_01: Durjichang chitilunarudang, Marpa milagompo tsatsapa, Napupadang paldenrupasop.
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SPEAKER_01: Kargyu Lama Namla Soluadeb.
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SPEAKER_01: Ochen Lama Namla Soluadeb.
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SPEAKER_02: Nruchen Lama Namla Soluadeb.
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SPEAKER_02: Kargyu Lama Namla Soluadeb.
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SPEAKER_02: Thank you.
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SPEAKER_02: Thank you.
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SPEAKER_02: Thank you.
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SPEAKER_02: Thank you.
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SPEAKER_02: Thank you.
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[music]
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SPEAKER_02: Yes, it's a glass this morning.
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SPEAKER_01: I believe we are on song 19.
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SPEAKER_01: The four infallible guiding stars and the four unshakable bolts.
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SPEAKER_01: The bolts that tack your practice to your mind,
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SPEAKER_01: making it inseparable.
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SPEAKER_01: Emma Ho, once again, sons and daughters of my heart, listen with devotion and respect.
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SPEAKER_01: Here is in this instruction on the four infallible guiding stars.
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SPEAKER_01: The infallible guiding star of vision is called a guiding star
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SPEAKER_01: because its unfallible radiance,
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SPEAKER_01: its vivid perception of the here and now, Vision, not just eyes.
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SPEAKER_01: Mind sees.
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SPEAKER_01: Images arise in the mind's eye.
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SPEAKER_01: The seer is the awareness.
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SPEAKER_01: This is what vision points at.
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SPEAKER_01: Don't get all caught up in the words.
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SPEAKER_01: Look where they point.
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SPEAKER_01: The infallible guiding star of meditation is called a guiding star because
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SPEAKER_01: of its unfailing radiance.
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SPEAKER_01: It is the vivid perception of here and now.
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SPEAKER_01: It is open attention,
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SPEAKER_01: not narrowly focused like I have to use glasses to do to read itty bitty words on
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SPEAKER_01: a piece of paper.
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SPEAKER_01: That's a point focus, a narrow focus.
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SPEAKER_01: When I read, My attention is on words.
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SPEAKER_01: When I meditate, my attention is wide open.
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SPEAKER_01: Not blurred, very precise, but not point focused.
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SPEAKER_01: The guiding star of action is called a guiding star.
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SPEAKER_01: Because of its unfailing radiance, its vivid perception of here and now.
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SPEAKER_01: Action.
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SPEAKER_01: The doing.
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SPEAKER_01: When your
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SPEAKER_01: awareness the seer has seen itself in all phenomena as the arising,
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SPEAKER_01: Meditation is all-pervading of this phenomena,
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SPEAKER_01: and even as your attention point focuses on a single word,
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SPEAKER_01: it does not lose its openness, for it's not a come and go, this kind of meditation.
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SPEAKER_01: Action is the spontaneous action that arises, not based on thoughtful decisions.
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SPEAKER_01: But based on spontaneous response to the here and now as it occurs,
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SPEAKER_01: and if vision and meditation have stabilized, digpa does not occur.
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SPEAKER_01: Constriction is what leads to digpa, misunderstandings, misperceptions, and actions upon them.
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SPEAKER_01: Belief systems held tightly rather than simply flowing through as they are wont to.
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SPEAKER_01: The infallible guiding star of the goal is called a guiding star because
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SPEAKER_01: of its unfailing radiance, its vivid perception of the here and now.
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SPEAKER_01: Goal, which we think of as being Sometime in future
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SPEAKER_01: is not sometime in future.
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SPEAKER_01: The merging of the view,
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SPEAKER_01: the meditation,
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SPEAKER_01: the action and the goal as the same thing is what we are talking about referring
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SPEAKER_01: to these guiding stars.
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SPEAKER_01: Questions?
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SPEAKER_01: We're switching now.
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SPEAKER_01: The next bit is on the unshakable bolts,
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SPEAKER_01: which is going to go to the same thing,
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SPEAKER_01: but I want to see if there's anything up on what I just did.
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SPEAKER_00: Could you explain what mixing space and awareness is?
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SPEAKER_00: Is this a Zogchin concept?
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SPEAKER_01: Yes, it is.
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SPEAKER_00: How do we mix space and awareness?
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SPEAKER_01: Awareness is space.
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SPEAKER_01: How do you separate them?
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SPEAKER_01: What do you think awareness is?
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SPEAKER_01: Dharmakaya,
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SPEAKER_01: Sambhogakaya,
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SPEAKER_01: Nirmanakaya,
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SPEAKER_01: the three jewels,
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SPEAKER_01: your refuge, your guru yoga, and the key to the absolute bodhisitta.
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SPEAKER_01: Awareness is naturally space.
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SPEAKER_01: It always has been.
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SPEAKER_01: It's only when you constrict it,
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SPEAKER_01: narrow it down,
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SPEAKER_01: And focus it like through a tube on one tiny little thing
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SPEAKER_01: that you do not recognize its innate and natural spaciousness.
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SPEAKER_01: Just notice.
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SPEAKER_01: Here, sit with your channels in alignment because that makes it ever so much easier.
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SPEAKER_01: And why make it hard for yourself?
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SPEAKER_01: In many other places, I've gone into the details of the position.
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SPEAKER_01: Now, your attention follows your eyeballs.
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SPEAKER_01: That's physiological, neurological.
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SPEAKER_01: So, there's a little muscle on the sides of your eyes that connects to the lens of your eyeball.
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SPEAKER_01: Find it and relax it.
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SPEAKER_01: If you aim your eyes at a space about two meters in front of you in
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SPEAKER_01: which no thing is there,
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SPEAKER_01: this will be easier.
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SPEAKER_01: After a while,
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SPEAKER_01: you may notice that you are equally aware of what is in your peripheral vision
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SPEAKER_01: to what is in your central vision.
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SPEAKER_01: It's not a blurring.
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SPEAKER_01: It's a lack of singular focus.
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SPEAKER_01: From there, relax your attention.
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SPEAKER_01: As you relax those little muscles in your eyeballs,
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SPEAKER_01: Do not attempt to stop thinking.
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SPEAKER_01: Do not follow your thoughts one to the next.
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SPEAKER_01: Look between them, not narrowly, broadly.
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SPEAKER_01: If you cannot look through them as they are by nature transparent,
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SPEAKER_01: I've proved that to you at other times.
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SPEAKER_01: Go watch the tapes.
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SPEAKER_01: The awareness,
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SPEAKER_01: that which it is aware of,
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SPEAKER_01: is creating the awareness which is creating that which it is aware of.
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SPEAKER_01: Not separate.
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SPEAKER_01: And all of that, infinitely open, spacious.
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SPEAKER_01: Not space as in the space-time continuum, which is a mind-made thing.
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SPEAKER_01: A concept.
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SPEAKER_01: Space beyond space.
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SPEAKER_01: In the infinite openness of awareness.
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SPEAKER_01: Just relax there.
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SPEAKER_01: You don't have to do anything with it.
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SPEAKER_01: You don't have to hold your mind still in it.
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SPEAKER_01: Just relax.
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SPEAKER_01: If the mind plays, let it play.
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SPEAKER_01: Look through the playfulness.
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SPEAKER_01: Notice the spaciousness.
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SPEAKER_01: Notice the playfulness arising in and as that in no way separate.
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SPEAKER_01: And relax.
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SPEAKER_01: There are no occurrences occurring.
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SPEAKER_01: Nonetheless, one allows that which seems to occur to seem to occur as it will.
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SPEAKER_01: Relax.
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SPEAKER_01: Do not forcefully hold this.
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SPEAKER_01: You'll squish it.
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SPEAKER_01: Do not be distracted from it.
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SPEAKER_01: You'll wander off.
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SPEAKER_01: Like sliding into a hot bath.
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SPEAKER_01: Relax into it.
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SPEAKER_01: Hopefully this has answered your question.
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SPEAKER_01: Are there others on this subject?
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SPEAKER_00: Could you talk more about perceptions from the Dzogchen perspective?
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SPEAKER_00: You said perceptions are the key to magic once.
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SPEAKER_01: Once you understand the nature of perceptions, magic is quite ordinary.
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SPEAKER_01: Understand not in thoughts.
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SPEAKER_01: Grok.
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SPEAKER_01: Stranger in a strange land.
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SPEAKER_01: Good word.
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SPEAKER_01: We need that word.
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SPEAKER_01: Grok.
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SPEAKER_01: Deeper than thoughtful understanding.
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SPEAKER_01: All magic, including ceremonial magic,
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SPEAKER_01: arises from the nature of the perceptions of phenomena
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SPEAKER_01: As mind in mind, not separate from mind.
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SPEAKER_01: With that awareness, all magic ceremonies slide smoothly and are aphasis.
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SPEAKER_01: For the ceremonial aspect of magic is simply one of drawing the attention into
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SPEAKER_01: a certain pattern, which shifts phenomena.
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SPEAKER_01: It is easier to use,
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SPEAKER_01: because you're not as separate as you think you are,
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SPEAKER_01: a well-used pattern,
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SPEAKER_01: well-imprinted,
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SPEAKER_01: well-drawn,
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SPEAKER_01: imprinted in the agreed-upon reality of minds,
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SPEAKER_01: such as Tara,
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SPEAKER_01: to shift using magic, what is occurring.
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SPEAKER_01: I believe in the Atisha lineage, they're talking about the 13th Tara.
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SPEAKER_01: And in Surya Gupta,
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SPEAKER_01: it looked like the 15th or 16th Tara is the one that will be most efficacious
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SPEAKER_01: for dealing with the current war that's going on over in Europe.
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SPEAKER_01: Many of my students are caught in it.
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SPEAKER_01: Some of you out there are probably caught in it in one side or another.
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SPEAKER_01: Nobody except maybe six people
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SPEAKER_01: actually want that war.
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SPEAKER_01: Six very isolated little white men.
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SPEAKER_01: And I think Trump's one of them.
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SPEAKER_01: He finds it exciting.
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SPEAKER_01: He likes watching the guerrillas fight.
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SPEAKER_01: So the rest of us maybe would like to push in a different direction.
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SPEAKER_01: Check out your 21 Taras.
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SPEAKER_01: She is a pattern so deeply inscribed
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SPEAKER_01: for shifting magically seemingly external phenomena
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SPEAKER_01: Chenrezig is more customarily used for shifting magically internal phenomena.
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SPEAKER_01: And if I were standing in front of a Russian tank, I would choose to use Chenrezig.
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SPEAKER_01: I'd want to shift internally the feelings that all participants in the situation were feeling.
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SPEAKER_01: I'd grab Chenrezig, Manny's.
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SPEAKER_01: Most effective at pacifying that which is near and jumping in your face.
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SPEAKER_01: But working at a distance on something that seems so far outside of you,
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SPEAKER_01: if you're not actually standing in the war zone, Tara.
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SPEAKER_01: For things that appear to be body related, Medicine Buddha.
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SPEAKER_01: Now I've taught you, all of you, These three practices.
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SPEAKER_01: And you think, oh, well, they're just common practices.
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SPEAKER_01: They're not fancy.
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SPEAKER_01: You don't need a whole bunch of fancy stuff.
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SPEAKER_01: You have to understand Tibetan culture.
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SPEAKER_01: The most common practices have been chosen because they're the most effective.
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SPEAKER_01: The more esoteric practices are difficult to make work.
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SPEAKER_01: Hard to do, easy to have an accident with.
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SPEAKER_01: So people have not chosen them to use as often.
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SPEAKER_01: So your most common mantra, Om Mani Padme Hum.
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SPEAKER_01: Look at this.
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SPEAKER_02: Feel it.
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SPEAKER_01: Now imagine that song by a beautiful young girl who can carry a tune rather than
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SPEAKER_01: an old lady who can't.
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SPEAKER_01: Do you feel it?
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SPEAKER_01: Here's another one that doesn't require quite as much skill.
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SPEAKER_02: Can you feel the softening of your fears and angers?
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SPEAKER_01: So if I were standing there in the war zone, I'd be using Manny's.
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SPEAKER_01: But from out here, I'll grab for Tara.
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SPEAKER_01: Long distance works better.
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SPEAKER_01: If my focus is on keeping COVID
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SPEAKER_01: From destroying those involved.
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SPEAKER_01: Which it could.
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SPEAKER_01: They're packed into bomb shelters.
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SPEAKER_01: That's a really contagious consideration.
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SPEAKER_01: I don't know what the vaccine levels are there.
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SPEAKER_01: Then I'd go for Medicine Buddha if I wanted to focus on that aspect.
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SPEAKER_01: Maybe if I was a doctor or a nurse,
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SPEAKER_01: Currently, I might choose that aspect to focus on.
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SPEAKER_01: But these things will work ever so much more strongly if you sit in trekture while you do them.
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SPEAKER_01: Trekture is the big word, the broad word, cutting through.
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SPEAKER_01: Because each moment's cut through its connection to the next by not taking
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SPEAKER_01: the active step of following the moments in moments and moments of thought.
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SPEAKER_01: Therefore, it is called cutting through.
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SPEAKER_01: That powers these practices.
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SPEAKER_01: And now enough people in the past,
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SPEAKER_01: skilled yogis,
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SPEAKER_01: Have sat in trepture while doing these specific practices that even
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SPEAKER_01: if you are incapable of that, they'll still work.
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SPEAKER_01: Some of the fancy ones,
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SPEAKER_01: the esoteric practices, don't fall out of trepture while you're doing them.
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SPEAKER_01: There's a few that bite.
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SPEAKER_01: That's why these are common.
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SPEAKER_01: Because the magic is already in there by the repeated lines, by people doing them in Trekja.
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SPEAKER_01: So even if your Trekja's a bit wobbly, they'll still work for you.
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SPEAKER_01: Okay?
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SPEAKER_01: So I taught these three in limited time that I have to teach.
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SPEAKER_01: Any other questions on this before I go on?
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SPEAKER_00: No, let me see.
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SPEAKER_00: Oh yeah.
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SPEAKER_01: After we digressed into magic.
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SPEAKER_01: Everybody likes magic.
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SPEAKER_00: How?
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SPEAKER_00: Let me see if I can reword this.
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SPEAKER_00: How is it different to read something or focus on something like work or cooking
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SPEAKER_00: if one has recognized the nature of mind or not?
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SPEAKER_00: Is it the same focus with less bilblah?
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SPEAKER_01: That would be a way of describing how it feels.
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SPEAKER_01: Now, in the beginning, use a timer if you're cooking.
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SPEAKER_01: Trying to do that when you're not good at it is going to burn your soup.
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SPEAKER_01: And your pot.
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SPEAKER_01: Because you don't know how to
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SPEAKER_01: be in the now without grabbing the next and still function.
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SPEAKER_01: That requires practice.
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SPEAKER_01: Gom, meditation, as mentioned here, is that practice.
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SPEAKER_01: Don't burn the house down.
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SPEAKER_01: That's why we live in caves.
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SPEAKER_01: They don't burn down.
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SPEAKER_00: Next question.
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SPEAKER_00: Is focusing attention on the forehead in the third eye okay to blur the attention?
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SPEAKER_01: No, you'll do.
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SPEAKER_00: I hope we didn't.
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SPEAKER_01: No, that's fine.
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SPEAKER_01: I think we're still on.
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SPEAKER_01: Someone tried to call in on the phone that is filming.
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SPEAKER_01: And I believe it's another one of those car warranty things.
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SPEAKER_01: My car is old enough to vote.
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SPEAKER_01: What was I saying?
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SPEAKER_00: About focusing the attention on the third eye.
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SPEAKER_01: Yes, don't do that.
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SPEAKER_00: The attention.
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SPEAKER_01: You will seriously do yourself a mischief.
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SPEAKER_01: You will cause rising lung.
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SPEAKER_01: Uh-uh, nope.
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SPEAKER_01: Bad idea.
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SPEAKER_01: There are some systems of yoga
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SPEAKER_01: which move the attention from place to place.
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SPEAKER_01: And there are some practices within this system,
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SPEAKER_01: my system,
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SPEAKER_01: some rushen, nundro practices that move the attention from chakra to chakra.
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SPEAKER_01: But you have to be really careful up here.
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SPEAKER_01: It tends to cause your chi to get stuck in your head,
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SPEAKER_01: causing, if you're lucky, nothing worse than a migraine.
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SPEAKER_01: Don't do it.
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SPEAKER_01: Next question.
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SPEAKER_00: I've been following the path of non-doing for two years,
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SPEAKER_00: and people have started commenting that my physical appearance has changed.
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SPEAKER_00: I wonder if it has something to do with my practice.
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SPEAKER_01: Well, since I can't see you at the moment, I really can't say.
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SPEAKER_01: I know my hair is a lot whiter than it was two years ago, and I'm skinnier.
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SPEAKER_01: Not skinny, just skinnier.
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SPEAKER_01: But how much is caused by COVID lockdown?
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SPEAKER_01: How much is caused by your practice?
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SPEAKER_01: I don't know.
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SPEAKER_01: Talk to me about that next time you're in group, where I can actually see you.
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SPEAKER_01: Next question.
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SPEAKER_00: I often hear you say, do not do anything when there is something stuck.
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SPEAKER_00: Why?
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SPEAKER_00: There are so many tools to release patterns to relieve these energies.
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SPEAKER_01: Well, if you can't not do anything, then you should use one of those tools.
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SPEAKER_01: I think there's a context missing here.
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SPEAKER_01: It would depend on what's stuck.
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SPEAKER_01: So you'll have to clarify further that question as we go on.
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SPEAKER_01: As I'm hearing that I said this,
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SPEAKER_01: I said this in a certain context and you're not quite giving me back
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SPEAKER_01: the right context.
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SPEAKER_01: In many circumstances, no, don't do anything about what's stuck.
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SPEAKER_01: Leave it be and it'll unravel on its own.
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SPEAKER_01: But if you can't not poke it, at least then use some of the tools to poke it.
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SPEAKER_00: One more?
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SPEAKER_00: No?
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SPEAKER_00: Okay, I can go on.
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SPEAKER_00: Excellent.
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SPEAKER_00: I'm sure more will come up.
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SPEAKER_01: Excellent.
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SPEAKER_01: I was waiting for that.
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SPEAKER_01: Here is the instruction on the four unshakable bolts.
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SPEAKER_01: The unshakable bolt of unchangeable vision is vivid perception of the here and now.
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SPEAKER_01: It is called an unshakable bolt because of its permanence through past, present, and future.
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SPEAKER_01: The unshakable bolt of unchangeable meditation is vivid perception of the here and now.
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SPEAKER_01: It is called an unshakable bolt because of its permanence through past, present, and future.
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SPEAKER_01: The unshakable bolt of unchangeable conduct
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SPEAKER_01: is vivid perception of the here and now.
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SPEAKER_01: It is called an unshakable bolt because of its permanence through past, present, and future.
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SPEAKER_01: The unshakable bolt of the unchangeable goal is vivid perception of the here and now.
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SPEAKER_01: It is called an unshakable bolt because of its permanence through past, present, and future.
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SPEAKER_01: Have you heard the term, all Buddhas of the four times?
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SPEAKER_01: Past, present, future, And beyond the time-space continuum, outside of time is the fourth time.
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SPEAKER_01: And in the fourth time,
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SPEAKER_01: all sentient beings, you, me,
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SPEAKER_01: the cat,
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SPEAKER_01: the bugs, the birds, the fish, All life arises as all Buddhas of the four times.
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SPEAKER_01: This is the home of Kuntuzompo, Primordial Buddha.
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SPEAKER_01: This is your home.
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SPEAKER_01: And by your practice, which is a matter of your vision, which means attention.
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SPEAKER_01: Your action, which is that practice.
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SPEAKER_01: And the goal, which is the same as that.
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SPEAKER_01: All arisings are the here and now,
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SPEAKER_01: encompassed by the fourth time.
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SPEAKER_01: There is no past.
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SPEAKER_01: Oh, you have memories.
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SPEAKER_01: When you think of them, they arise as the here and now.
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SPEAKER_01: Please remember the last meal you ate.
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SPEAKER_01: That's now that memory, that thought, that image that comes to mind.
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SPEAKER_01: Please consider what you will do later today, or if it's nighttime, consider going to bed.
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SPEAKER_01: Those thoughts are arising in the here and now.
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SPEAKER_01: They are not future.
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SPEAKER_01: Plans never really happen.
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SPEAKER_01: And memories didn't happen the way you think they did.
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SPEAKER_01: You're always rewriting it.
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SPEAKER_01: Making yourself seem better or worse depending on your mood.
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SPEAKER_01: Making yourself the main character, even if you weren't in somebody else's drama.
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SPEAKER_01: Your experiences, all of them occur in the here and now and always have.
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SPEAKER_01: There is no separation into three times.
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SPEAKER_00: We live the fourth time.
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SPEAKER_01: We create the time-space continuum again and again in each moment,
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SPEAKER_01: pretending to ourselves that there was a real past and a real future and will be
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SPEAKER_01: a real future.
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SPEAKER_01: Maybe you'll never know.
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SPEAKER_01: All you have is now.
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SPEAKER_01: You don't have to make yourself be in the here and now.
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SPEAKER_01: There is nowhere else you can be.
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SPEAKER_01: That's the key to the four bolts.
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SPEAKER_01: It is not possible for it to be other than that.
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SPEAKER_02: Therefore, it is utterly stable.
34:34
SPEAKER_01: Questions on the four bolts?
34:37
SPEAKER_00: Let me see what we can have.
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SPEAKER_01: If anyone put any up.
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SPEAKER_00: Yes.
34:54
SPEAKER_00: For some reason I feel that when you teach without reading it comes through more fluid and easy.
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SPEAKER_00: Why is that?
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SPEAKER_01: I don't know.
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SPEAKER_01: Maybe because I'm looking right at you.
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SPEAKER_01: Maybe because when I'm reading,
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SPEAKER_01: I go into a point focus with my eyes and a little bit of attention to decipher
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SPEAKER_01: the words.
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SPEAKER_01: And when I am just explaining them, I don't have to point focus.
35:27
SPEAKER_01: I don't know.
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SPEAKER_01: It's your experience.
35:30
SPEAKER_01: Why are you experiencing that?
35:32
SPEAKER_01: It's your experience.
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SPEAKER_01: All your experiences are your experience.
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SPEAKER_01: And all your experiences occur in the here and now.
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SPEAKER_01: They never occur anywhere else.
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SPEAKER_01: Another?
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SPEAKER_01: Or not?
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SPEAKER_00: One more.
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SPEAKER_00: I'm enjoying my sitting practice so much I'm finding I don't want to go and socialize.
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SPEAKER_00: Can you give advice on not getting attached to this inner piece?
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SPEAKER_01: I wouldn't worry about that if I were you.
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SPEAKER_01: If it's a come and go, it will go.
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SPEAKER_01: Don't scream when it does.
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SPEAKER_01: If it's not a come and go, it will expand.
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SPEAKER_01: Don't be alarmed when that happens.
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SPEAKER_01: You don't have to socialize that much, just a little bit.
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SPEAKER_01: Occasionally go for a walk, your body needs the exercise, she said to herself.
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SPEAKER_01: To not get attached to something is not to shove it away.
36:56
SPEAKER_01: It's simply to watch it arise and vanish without grabbing or trying to maintain.
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SPEAKER_01: I am guessing that you're doing sine from this question.
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SPEAKER_01: And it is good to, in sine, it is expected that you will go sine without an object.
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SPEAKER_01: In Shinne without an object, it is expected that you will go through this phase.
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SPEAKER_01: It is a signpost on the correct path that says, you're on the right path, keep going.
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SPEAKER_01: Use this experience to extend the amount of time of your sitting
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SPEAKER_01: in Shinne without an object.
37:43
SPEAKER_01: And as you do that,
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SPEAKER_01: and when you get up from that, become absolutely clear to yourself what is moving.
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SPEAKER_01: Pretty much everything.
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SPEAKER_01: And what is the stillness that you sit in so that you do not confuse the thought
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SPEAKER_01: of stillness with the actual stillness.
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SPEAKER_01: The feeling of stillness, peace of mind.
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SPEAKER_01: With the actual stillness peace of mind and the perception of stillness with
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SPEAKER_01: the real stillness.
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SPEAKER_01: Because thoughts, feelings, and perceptions are moving.
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SPEAKER_01: They come and go.
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SPEAKER_01: So do become clear on that as you practice.
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SPEAKER_01: That will help you avoid attaching.
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SPEAKER_01: And I think that was our last question and we can go on?
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SPEAKER_00: Yes.
38:43
SPEAKER_00: Oh wait, there was one more.
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SPEAKER_00: Uh, someone lost track of the name of the fourth bolt.
38:49
SPEAKER_00: They got the first- Goal.
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SPEAKER_00: Goal.
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SPEAKER_00: Okay.
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SPEAKER_01: There are a vast number of different visions,
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SPEAKER_01: but in the self-extential intrinsic awareness of here and now,
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SPEAKER_01: which is pure awareness,
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SPEAKER_01: There is no duality of vision and viewer,
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SPEAKER_01: of done and do-er, of seen and see-er.
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SPEAKER_01: Feel that.
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SPEAKER_01: Do not look at the vision, but look for the viewer.
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SPEAKER_01: Looking at the creator of the vision,
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SPEAKER_01: if you fail to find him, then your vision is at the point of resolution.
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SPEAKER_01: When you see an object,
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SPEAKER_01: do not focus your attention on the object,
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SPEAKER_01: but look and see what sees this, not eyeballs.
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SPEAKER_01: Who sees this?
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SPEAKER_01: And when it becomes obvious that the seer and what is seen are not separate,
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SPEAKER_01: it is at the point of resolution.
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SPEAKER_01: This vision in which there is nothing at all to see But which there is not
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SPEAKER_01: a blank nothingness of ultimate void,
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SPEAKER_01: is vivid and unalloyed perception of the here and now.
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SPEAKER_01: This is the Zogchen vision.
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SPEAKER_01: All the stuff, phenomena,
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SPEAKER_01: perceived by mind,
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SPEAKER_01: And yet arising in mind and dissolving in mind, never other than that.
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SPEAKER_01: No separation between perceiver and perceived.
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SPEAKER_01: And when you recognize this, relax into it.
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SPEAKER_01: Rest down with this harmonious flow.
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SPEAKER_01: Relax.
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SPEAKER_01: You are that.
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SPEAKER_01: Do not separate yourself from your experience,
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SPEAKER_01: the experiencer and the experiencer one and the same.
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SPEAKER_01: Do not disassociate.
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SPEAKER_01: This disassociation that is endemic and epidemic among sentient beings
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SPEAKER_01: Is a mental illness.
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SPEAKER_01: Where we perceive ourselves separate from our perceptions, we separate this out.
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SPEAKER_01: This is the actual foundation of duality and the cause of samsara.
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SPEAKER_01: And we grip it with both hands and our teeth.
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SPEAKER_01: Let go.
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SPEAKER_01: Relax and let go.
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SPEAKER_01: Let it be as it is.
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SPEAKER_01: Here and now,
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SPEAKER_01: no separation between the thinker and the thoughts,
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SPEAKER_01: the feeler and the feelings, the perceiver and the perceptions.
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SPEAKER_01: Rest down in that and allow it to open from an idea, a knowing
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SPEAKER_01: into the Dzogchen vision itself.
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SPEAKER_01: This recognition is a cusp,
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SPEAKER_01: a point
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SPEAKER_01: that arises in time.
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SPEAKER_01: You didn't know it and then you did.
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SPEAKER_01: So you have to go further.
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SPEAKER_01: There are no instructions to go further other than relax into it.
43:59
SPEAKER_01: Don't poke, don't shove, and don't grab.
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SPEAKER_01: Relax.
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SPEAKER_01: There are innumerable dissimilar methods of meditation,
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SPEAKER_01: but in the unobstructed clarity,
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SPEAKER_01: which is ordinary perception of the here and now,
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SPEAKER_01: there is no duality of meditation and meditator.
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SPEAKER_01: That duality arises when you think, I am meditating.
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SPEAKER_01: I am not meditating.
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SPEAKER_01: You're a question,
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SPEAKER_01: person previous who I didn't catch a name for,
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SPEAKER_01: about how not to get attached to the peace of mind.
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SPEAKER_01: You're separating yourself from the peace of mind.
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SPEAKER_01: Therefore, there is someone to grab something.
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SPEAKER_01: Simply don't do that.
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SPEAKER_01: There's no one there to get attached to anything.
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SPEAKER_01: You are the peace of mind that you're sitting in.
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SPEAKER_01: There's nothing but the here and now while you do it.
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SPEAKER_01: There never was.
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SPEAKER_01: Stop making up a separation.
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SPEAKER_01: The separation is created by you
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SPEAKER_01: every moment ongoing by your clutching at samsara.
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SPEAKER_01: You know, samsara would resolve into nirvana if you would just let go of it.
45:42
SPEAKER_01: Work so hard to maintain the illusion of being some specific things separate from other things.
45:52
SPEAKER_01: Just stop working at it.
45:53
SPEAKER_01: That's not doing.
45:55
SPEAKER_01: Not doing does not mean not doing your laundry or taking a walk or putting your children to bed.
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SPEAKER_01: Not doing means not grabbing samsara.
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SPEAKER_01: So you who have been not doing for two years, I hope you've been not doing it right.
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SPEAKER_01: Do not perform meditation, but sitting there seek the meditator.
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SPEAKER_01: Searching for the meditator if you fail to find him.
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SPEAKER_01: Then your meditation is at the point of resolution.
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SPEAKER_00: Relax there.
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SPEAKER_01: Let go.
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SPEAKER_01: Let go of trying to find of the thing you are trying to find and the who be trying to find that.
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SPEAKER_01: They're all the same.
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SPEAKER_01: That's what you let go of.
47:06
SPEAKER_01: And relax into it.
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SPEAKER_01: Again and again and again.
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SPEAKER_01: It's called practice.
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SPEAKER_01: By relaxing into it, should you have created a Mafgewa in the past, it will open.
47:36
SPEAKER_01: This meditation in which there is no meditating whatsoever,
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SPEAKER_01: free of depression and elation,
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SPEAKER_01: free of cloudy vision and sluggishness,
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SPEAKER_01: is the natural radiance and unalloyed perception of the here and now.
47:54
SPEAKER_01: It is meditation fixed in uncontrived,
48:00
SPEAKER_01: I don't like that word as a translation,
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SPEAKER_01: equivalence.
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SPEAKER_01: Sameness, balance, flow.
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SPEAKER_01: That which is both constantly changing and has never changed at the same time,
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SPEAKER_01: no duality or separation between.
48:33
SPEAKER_01: There is an infinite variety of different modes of behavior.
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SPEAKER_01: But in the cosmic seed of intrinsic awareness and pure awareness,
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SPEAKER_01: there is no duality of action and actor.
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SPEAKER_01: Now that's the point of non-doing.
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SPEAKER_01: Without recognizing this, when you have a non-do-er, you're doing a non-doing.
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SPEAKER_01: Do not perform the action, but look for the actor.
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SPEAKER_01: Or while performing a necessary action, look for the actor.
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SPEAKER_01: You got Kusulu, three necessary actions.
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SPEAKER_01: You gotta eat, you gotta sleep, and you gotta shit.
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SPEAKER_01: So next time you're doing one of those necessary actions, who do that?
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SPEAKER_01: Don't think about the question.
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SPEAKER_01: First, Feel around for it.
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SPEAKER_01: Well, you can think it first, but let go of that.
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SPEAKER_01: Then feel around for it with your yi.
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SPEAKER_01: And then attempt to perceive it.
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SPEAKER_01: And then let go of that and yarr it.
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SPEAKER_01: Do you understand the process?
50:05
SPEAKER_01: Because it is a process and there is no process.
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SPEAKER_01: Just as I tried to explain that everything moves and has never moved in
50:16
SPEAKER_01: the intrinsic stillness in which movement arises.
50:22
SPEAKER_01: Nonetheless, there is constant movement.
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SPEAKER_01: Only in duality do those concepts fight.
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SPEAKER_01: Searching for the actor if you fail to find him,
50:47
SPEAKER_01: then your conduct is at the point of resolution.
50:51
SPEAKER_01: This conduct in which there is no activity whatsoever,
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SPEAKER_01: but which is not governed by delusive habits,
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SPEAKER_01: is the unforced natural radiance perception of the here and now.
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SPEAKER_01: This immediate immaculate action where nothing whatsoever is contrived or forced
51:13
SPEAKER_01: And nothing is inhibited or indulged.
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SPEAKER_01: Most people, when they make an attempt at not doing, that's worth a giggle.
51:29
SPEAKER_01: Simply suppress or try to suppress doing.
51:35
SPEAKER_01: No, the only way to get over that hump is to find the doer.
51:47
SPEAKER_01: That's your key.
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SPEAKER_01: There are innumerable goals,
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SPEAKER_01: but in the spontaneously originated effortly accomplished intrinsic awareness of
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SPEAKER_01: the three existential modes, there is no duality of accomplishment.
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SPEAKER_01: And he who achieves the goal.
52:22
SPEAKER_01: First of all, there is no past and future.
52:25
SPEAKER_01: So goal is a funny word.
52:29
SPEAKER_01: But let's say enlightenment.
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SPEAKER_01: The enlightened one, the Buddha.
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SPEAKER_01: The sentient being striving for enlightenment.
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SPEAKER_01: These are narrow ways of looking
52:51
SPEAKER_01: at simple kun tu zang po.
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SPEAKER_00: You always were.
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SPEAKER_01: Can't not be.
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SPEAKER_01: And all the how to's resolve into this.
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SPEAKER_01: All the little tricks of magic that I teach you to be more comfortable in the here and now.
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SPEAKER_01: Because one cannot
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SPEAKER_01: deny the suffering of being trapped in arisings.
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SPEAKER_01: And because none of this works,
53:56
SPEAKER_01: if enough Gewa has not been added to the great pot,
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SPEAKER_01: not your little collection of Gewa, that's hardly worth anything.
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SPEAKER_01: The great pot is infinite.
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SPEAKER_01: You cast all the Gewa you managed to create by small acts of kindness here
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SPEAKER_01: and there day to day into the great pot.
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SPEAKER_01: And when this is ready to turn over, you sip from it.
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SPEAKER_01: And you have enough.
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SPEAKER_01: And there is no other way to have enough.
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SPEAKER_01: It won't turn over without the realization of absolute bodhicitta.
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SPEAKER_01: It can't.
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SPEAKER_01: Because you see, we are all in this together, not separate.
54:47
SPEAKER_01: You can't get individual enlightenment.
54:54
SPEAKER_01: Well, you can get individual peace of mind that lasts for a large number of eons.
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SPEAKER_01: And then it wears off.
55:03
SPEAKER_01: Been there, done that.
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SPEAKER_02: Man, it fucking hurts when it wears off.
55:12
SPEAKER_01: I speak from experience.
55:19
SPEAKER_01: As fun as it sounds, I don't recommend you getting a ticket on that Ferris wheel.
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SPEAKER_01: No duality between the goal and the achiever of the goal.
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SPEAKER_01: It is Kuntuzangpo who recognizes enlightenment.
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SPEAKER_01: It is you, the Buddha, who recognizes enlightenment.
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SPEAKER_01: Without striving for the goal,
55:57
SPEAKER_01: seek the yogin who strives
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SPEAKER_01: by looking for he who is accomplishing the goal
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SPEAKER_01: and failing to find him.
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SPEAKER_01: You are at the point of achievement of non-achievement.
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SPEAKER_01: The goal in which there is no striving for the accomplishment,
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SPEAKER_01: completely free of renunciation and cultivation of hope and fear,
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SPEAKER_01: is the spontaneous natural radiance of total presence that is the perception of here
56:33
SPEAKER_01: and now.
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SPEAKER_01: Right here, right now, this here and now.
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SPEAKER_01: Don't be storing this up to get it later.
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SPEAKER_01: There is no later.
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SPEAKER_01: This now.
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SPEAKER_01: This here.
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SPEAKER_01: You there.
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SPEAKER_01: Look.
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SPEAKER_01: Who you?
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SPEAKER_01: What you be?
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SPEAKER_01: The looker.
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SPEAKER_01: Ain't nobody doing that looking.
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SPEAKER_01: Relax.
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SPEAKER_01: Don't hope.
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SPEAKER_01: There's nothing to fear.
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SPEAKER_00: Relax into your
57:28
SPEAKER_01: own true nature.
57:36
SPEAKER_01: And when you get there, you will notice that we're all in this together.
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SPEAKER_01: And Bodhicitta isn't, of course.
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SPEAKER_01: This empty natural radiance of the three existential modes of the Buddha manifest.
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SPEAKER_01: It is the ultimate goal.
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SPEAKER_01: It is the current action.
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SPEAKER_01: It is the essence of meditation and the culmination of the view.
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SPEAKER_01: Isness as it is.
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SPEAKER_01: Nonetheless,
58:34
SPEAKER_01: you must strive and practice for as long as you experience
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SPEAKER_01: a separation between
58:43
SPEAKER_01: the striving and the striver.
58:53
SPEAKER_01: You must meditate as long as you experience a separation between the meditating and
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SPEAKER_01: the meditator.
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SPEAKER_01: You must seek the view, Tawa,
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SPEAKER_01: for as long as you experience a separation between the view Tawa and the viewer.
59:29
SPEAKER_01: And in those moments,
59:33
SPEAKER_01: Those here and nows
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SPEAKER_01: in which that separation is not perceived,
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SPEAKER_01: relax into the natural state of business
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SPEAKER_01: and allow the cusp to open.
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SPEAKER_01: Do you understand?
59:58
SPEAKER_01: Questions?
1:00:02
SPEAKER_00: Should be a few by now.
1:00:03
SPEAKER_01: Oh, yeah.
1:00:09
SPEAKER_00: There's no separation between perceiver and the perceived.
1:00:14
SPEAKER_00: But if I talk to people, I have to talk to them as they are individuals separate from me.
1:00:20
SPEAKER_00: And then the duality occurs.
1:00:23
SPEAKER_00: What am I missing?
1:00:24
SPEAKER_01: You don't have to do that.
1:00:27
SPEAKER_01: Just allow that you're separating yourself from the talking and the talk to.
1:00:33
SPEAKER_01: You're creating this separation.
1:00:34
SPEAKER_01: Just allow the flow to occur as it will.
1:00:38
SPEAKER_01: The doer is the deed.
1:00:40
SPEAKER_01: You don't have to separate from them or from talking or from doing.
1:00:45
SPEAKER_01: It just flows.
1:00:48
SPEAKER_01: You stop poking it.
1:00:53
SPEAKER_01: Oh, I see where you're stuck.
1:00:54
SPEAKER_01: God, I was stuck there for so many years.
1:00:58
SPEAKER_01: Trying to figure out the right thing to say,
1:01:00
SPEAKER_01: the right thing to do, the right way to deal with the situation.
1:01:05
SPEAKER_01: Thinking you could get it right if you just understood.
1:01:12
SPEAKER_01: Yeah, that's a hard one.
1:01:24
SPEAKER_02: Hmm.
1:01:27
SPEAKER_01: So I got somehow set up in a situation where something that
1:01:33
SPEAKER_01: to me seemed intolerable was happening to me on a regular basis.
1:01:40
SPEAKER_01: And I couldn't figure out what was going on.
1:01:45
SPEAKER_01: How, why, on what level this was occurring.
1:01:49
SPEAKER_01: But I certainly wasn't getting any sleep.
1:01:51
SPEAKER_01: And I don't do well when I don't get any sleep.
1:01:55
SPEAKER_01: I like sleep.
1:01:56
SPEAKER_01: That's why I do dream yoga.
1:02:00
SPEAKER_01: And Rinpoche, that went on, and I would go to Rinpoche, hysterical, crying.
1:02:06
SPEAKER_01: My God, but just tell me what's going on.
1:02:08
SPEAKER_01: And he'd laugh and laugh and say, well, you know, most girls, red flag, he knew me.
1:02:18
SPEAKER_01: You're putting a red flag in front of a bull when you say most girls.
1:02:22
SPEAKER_01: I'm a guy.
1:02:29
SPEAKER_01: Most girls don't have their cave way up out and beyond where there's no one to rescue them.
1:02:36
SPEAKER_01: If you want, I'll give you a cave down in, you know, among other caves.
1:02:43
SPEAKER_01: Hell no!
1:02:46
SPEAKER_01: Just tell me what's going on so I can figure out how to deal with it.
1:02:55
SPEAKER_01: That a very kind teacher.
1:02:57
SPEAKER_01: Not always nice, but impeccably kind.
1:03:04
SPEAKER_01: Eventually,
1:03:11
SPEAKER_01: out of sheer desperation, I let go.
1:03:16
SPEAKER_01: Spontaneous action occurred.
1:03:19
SPEAKER_01: Problem was solved.
1:03:21
SPEAKER_01: Never did figure out what the fuck was going on there.
1:03:29
SPEAKER_01: Probably never will.
1:03:39
SPEAKER_01: May life kick you in the balls and make you let go.
1:03:45
SPEAKER_01: Not nice, but kind.
1:03:48
SPEAKER_01: I suggest asking Ekezade for a hand, if you dare.
1:03:55
SPEAKER_01: Next question.
1:03:59
SPEAKER_00: Is the original stillness you talk about that stillness that is there
1:04:03
SPEAKER_00: when I am waking up in the morning before thoughts,
1:04:06
SPEAKER_00: feelings, and sensations kick in?
1:04:08
SPEAKER_01: Yes.
1:04:10
SPEAKER_01: Next question.
1:04:11
SPEAKER_00: Oh, okay.
1:04:13
SPEAKER_01: And that's why I like to meditate, to sit,
1:04:16
SPEAKER_01: even if it's brief on certain days,
1:04:21
SPEAKER_01: before I speak or look at written matter.
1:04:27
SPEAKER_01: Try it.
1:04:28
SPEAKER_01: Next question.
1:04:30
SPEAKER_00: How to deal with this tendency of always running here and there?
1:04:36
SPEAKER_00: I practice a lot, but the tendency is still strong and tiring.
1:04:46
SPEAKER_01: The tendency is tiring.
1:04:48
SPEAKER_01: Don't you sit down when you get tired?
1:04:51
SPEAKER_01: I mean, I think it's fine if you want to run here and there while practicing.
1:04:56
SPEAKER_01: And then when you're very tired, sit down and keep practicing.
1:05:02
SPEAKER_01: You're poking at it from the wrong side.
1:05:04
SPEAKER_01: It's like,
1:05:04
SPEAKER_01: you know,
1:05:05
SPEAKER_01: when you try to get a label off a glass and it's really stuck on one side,
1:05:09
SPEAKER_01: but if you carefully get your nail under the other side and peel,
1:05:12
SPEAKER_01: it comes right off.
1:05:14
SPEAKER_01: You're trying to peel it from the wrong side.
1:05:16
SPEAKER_01: You're trying to peel it from outer action instead of from inner perception.
1:05:22
SPEAKER_01: So come closer to yourself, euphemism,
1:05:28
SPEAKER_01: And instead of trying to stop running around and getting tired,
1:05:33
SPEAKER_01: make use of your tendency to run around and get tired by noticing tawa
1:05:40
SPEAKER_01: while you run around.
1:05:42
SPEAKER_01: And when you're really tired, sit.
1:05:45
SPEAKER_01: Bench, wall, curb.
1:05:49
SPEAKER_01: Don't care.
1:05:51
SPEAKER_01: Just sit down.
1:05:54
SPEAKER_01: Back straight.
1:05:55
SPEAKER_01: Channels in alignment.
1:06:01
SPEAKER_01: And relax into tawa.
1:06:06
SPEAKER_01: Which is actually easier when you're tired.
1:06:10
SPEAKER_01: So I see no reason to suppress your tendency to run around in circles.
1:06:17
SPEAKER_01: Use it.
1:06:19
SPEAKER_01: Next question.
1:06:26
SPEAKER_00: Please speak to the yogic process of stuff coming up through doing this practice.
1:06:32
SPEAKER_00: For example, loosening of knots in the body leading to adhyam.
1:06:39
SPEAKER_01: So in one way of seeing it, think of this as an analogy.
1:06:50
SPEAKER_01: Your chakras
1:06:54
SPEAKER_01: In good condition, look like a slinky stretched and put end to end.
1:07:00
SPEAKER_01: So they go around like this, but they also go around like this.
1:07:03
SPEAKER_01: That's why we call them wheels.
1:07:06
SPEAKER_01: That's attempting to draw in two dimensions something that is multidimensional.
1:07:12
SPEAKER_01: However,
1:07:14
SPEAKER_01: if you have ever given a slinky to a two-year-old,
1:07:19
SPEAKER_01: For an extended period of time, what comes back to you doesn't look like that.
1:07:29
SPEAKER_01: It's amazing the positions a two-year-old can get a slinky and their hair involved in.
1:07:35
SPEAKER_01: So once you get the slinky out of the two-year-old's hair,
1:07:40
SPEAKER_01: or out of their clothes,
1:07:42
SPEAKER_01: and you look and see the shape of it,
1:07:44
SPEAKER_01: you will see that it no longer looks like that.
1:07:47
SPEAKER_01: So as you do these practices,
1:07:50
SPEAKER_01: slinky analogy,
1:07:52
SPEAKER_01: for those Westerners who know what a slinky is,
1:07:54
SPEAKER_01: I've got to get one so I can show people.
1:07:57
SPEAKER_01: Remind me next time we're in the dollar store.
1:08:06
SPEAKER_01: As you do these practices,
1:08:08
SPEAKER_01: the gnarled up,
1:08:09
SPEAKER_01: wadded, caught on itself, slinky begins to return to its natural position.
1:08:17
SPEAKER_01: Now these are channels, not bits of wire.
1:08:20
SPEAKER_01: They're hollow.
1:08:22
SPEAKER_01: Qi flows through them as you breathe, as you are alive.
1:08:31
SPEAKER_01: That Qi, when it flows through like a crimp or a bend, squeaks.
1:08:44
SPEAKER_01: That squeak is perceived as an experience.
1:08:50
SPEAKER_01: It's going on in your channels,
1:08:52
SPEAKER_01: but because you project all experiences as if they were outside of you,
1:08:57
SPEAKER_01: you will perceive that particular squeak as somebody being angry at you.
1:09:04
SPEAKER_01: Maybe a traffic jam.
1:09:07
SPEAKER_01: Who knows?
1:09:07
SPEAKER_01: You're infinitely creative.
1:09:08
SPEAKER_01: Maybe a paranoid period.
1:09:11
SPEAKER_01: Maybe a blissful period.
1:09:15
SPEAKER_01: It might be a feeling, it might be an emotion, it might be an external perception of stuff.
1:09:20
SPEAKER_01: Who knows what you're gonna come up with to experience the squeak of the chi going
1:09:28
SPEAKER_01: through a crick bit as it slowly opens up.
1:09:32
SPEAKER_01: So the experience ends when it's smooth again and the chi flows naturally.
1:09:37
SPEAKER_01: That was an analogy.
1:09:40
SPEAKER_01: Not an actual clear description of happening, okay?
1:09:46
SPEAKER_01: I can only talk about this in analogies.
1:09:51
SPEAKER_01: So you may expect to experience odd sensations from time to time.
1:09:59
SPEAKER_01: Don't worry about it.
1:10:02
SPEAKER_01: Recognize them as Qi flowing through the channels.
1:10:07
SPEAKER_01: And that they will pass of their own accord if you don't grab them or stroke them
1:10:12
SPEAKER_01: or make them a cup of tea.
1:10:15
SPEAKER_01: And it's one of the reasons we prefer to do some practices in retreat so
1:10:21
SPEAKER_01: that we don't embarrass ourselves by our squeaking among others.
1:10:29
SPEAKER_01: Next question.
1:10:31
SPEAKER_00: When I'm tired, I tend to fall asleep while trying to meditate.
1:10:37
SPEAKER_00: How can one notice Tawa in this situation?
1:10:42
SPEAKER_01: Juniper, or mint, or sweet grass, or sage, as is accessible to you, alive.
1:10:52
SPEAKER_01: Clip a sprig about this long.
1:10:56
SPEAKER_01: Put it leafed down in a glass of ice water.
1:11:01
SPEAKER_01: When you start to fall asleep and are that relaxed,
1:11:04
SPEAKER_01: pick up the sprig of one of these herbs that I've mentioned and flick the water
1:11:10
SPEAKER_01: at your face.
1:11:12
SPEAKER_01: Direct from Rinpoche.
1:11:15
SPEAKER_01: This will wake you up and have you awake but relaxed,
1:11:20
SPEAKER_01: making it actually quite easy to see Tawa until you doze off again,
1:11:24
SPEAKER_01: in which case, flick.
1:11:29
SPEAKER_01: Over there.
1:11:30
SPEAKER_00: Oh, no, I have one.
1:11:32
SPEAKER_01: Okay.
1:11:36
SPEAKER_01: That's Rinpoche's favorite.
1:11:38
SPEAKER_01: Now, if you have juniper, which we had, juniper works great.
1:11:43
SPEAKER_01: If you don't have juniper, mint works well.
1:11:47
SPEAKER_01: Sweetgrass works well if you're by a river and can go pick some.
1:11:51
SPEAKER_01: It's a lovely one to use.
1:11:54
SPEAKER_01: And none of those get some sage or even some rosemary.
1:12:01
SPEAKER_01: Whatever is available live in your garden, take a sprig of that.
1:12:07
SPEAKER_01: About this long.
1:12:07
SPEAKER_01: A lot of leaves on it.
1:12:14
SPEAKER_01: Simple solution, Tibetans are practical.
1:12:17
SPEAKER_01: Next question.
1:12:20
SPEAKER_00: Ah, one moment.
1:12:22
SPEAKER_00: Somebody was looking for the proper spelling of the name of Ekatsadi if they want to.
1:12:27
SPEAKER_01: E-K-A.
1:12:32
SPEAKER_01: Looks like J.
1:12:34
SPEAKER_01: You figure it out.
1:12:36
SPEAKER_01: I can't spell.
1:12:38
SPEAKER_00: Okay.
1:12:39
SPEAKER_00: So in the meantime, the other question.
1:12:42
SPEAKER_00: Can you say anything about intense, manic, or overexcited states?
1:12:47
SPEAKER_00: I sometimes have them and can have headaches or even skin rashes as a result.
1:12:52
SPEAKER_00: I also get over-energized in the morning often.
1:12:56
SPEAKER_01: Well, first of all, how much coffee are you drinking for the morning one?
1:13:01
SPEAKER_01: Second of all, you should see a doctor.
1:13:04
SPEAKER_01: Apparently,
1:13:04
SPEAKER_01: whatever is going on is causing inflammation,
1:13:08
SPEAKER_01: and you really should get that checked out.
1:13:11
SPEAKER_01: It might be allergies.
1:13:13
SPEAKER_01: It could be caused by an allergy pill.
1:13:16
SPEAKER_01: So you really want to check whatever meds, and I include coffee as a med, you are taking.
1:13:22
SPEAKER_01: You really want to get checked out to see if you cycle with manic depression,
1:13:27
SPEAKER_01: which is a chemical imbalance,
1:13:30
SPEAKER_01: and if If everything checks out within normal limits and not requiring medication,
1:13:38
SPEAKER_01: then simply schedule your day to make use of it.
1:13:44
SPEAKER_01: If you're in the Bay Area and you're manic, you want to come clean my house?
1:13:49
SPEAKER_01: Weed my garden?
1:13:52
SPEAKER_01: I'll help you.
1:13:54
SPEAKER_01: Simply take those manic times and notice them,
1:13:57
SPEAKER_01: recognize them,
1:13:59
SPEAKER_01: And use them to get stuff done which does not require interacting with others.
1:14:06
SPEAKER_01: Because you can get yourself into a lot of odd things if you shop.
1:14:12
SPEAKER_01: Like overbuy groceries and things in a manic state.
1:14:15
SPEAKER_01: Or overbuy, you just overdo everything when you're manic.
1:14:19
SPEAKER_01: So overclean your bathroom, it won't do any harm.
1:14:23
SPEAKER_01: So focus your manic at things that won't leave residual harm.
1:14:29
SPEAKER_01: Say mornings.
1:14:31
SPEAKER_01: And maybe you want to do your sitting meditation later in the day.
1:14:37
SPEAKER_01: Best I can give you.
1:14:39
SPEAKER_01: We all have energy cycles.
1:14:41
SPEAKER_01: It's good to know our own.
1:14:44
SPEAKER_01: But do get that checked out.
1:14:46
SPEAKER_01: It sounds as if it might be a medical issue to be treated by a doctor.
1:14:53
SPEAKER_01: I would also suggest That if Western allopathic doctors find nothing wrong,
1:15:02
SPEAKER_01: that you try a traditional Chinese doctor for that, for balancing those energies.
1:15:10
SPEAKER_01: Sounds like a medical question to me,
1:15:12
SPEAKER_01: and I'm not taking on patients when I'm not actually able to see them.
1:15:17
SPEAKER_01: I can't do it like this.
1:15:20
SPEAKER_02: Next question.
1:15:25
SPEAKER_01: We finished the chapter.
1:15:26
SPEAKER_01: We're just working on questions now.
1:15:33
SPEAKER_00: Since all things are interdependent,
1:15:36
SPEAKER_00: how can we truly free ourselves from samsara if infinite numbers
1:15:41
SPEAKER_00: of sentient beings are still suffering?
1:15:44
SPEAKER_01: Fourth time.
1:15:48
SPEAKER_01: You cannot free yourself from samsara.
1:15:53
SPEAKER_01: Go find that self you're trying to free and see what you think is there.
1:16:00
SPEAKER_01: That's what we've been talking about.
1:16:03
SPEAKER_00: Who are you?
1:16:08
SPEAKER_01: Next question.
1:16:11
SPEAKER_00: If you were to summarize the flight of Garuda in just a few words, what would those words be?
1:16:19
SPEAKER_01: Garobdorges.
1:16:27
SPEAKER_01: To decide on one thing is the first vital point, tawa.
1:16:44
SPEAKER_01: Continuously at all times and on all occasions recognize
1:16:48
SPEAKER_01: the already known dharmakaya nature of mind, meditation, gong.
1:16:58
SPEAKER_01: To develop absolute certainty.
1:17:01
SPEAKER_01: That's what we're on in this chapter.
1:17:05
SPEAKER_01: Here's the third vital point.
1:17:07
SPEAKER_01: Soba.
1:17:10
SPEAKER_01: I would summarize it in those words of Garib Dorges.
1:17:14
SPEAKER_01: His summary.
1:17:16
SPEAKER_01: The rest is commentary.
1:17:19
SPEAKER_01: His commentary on it and other people's commentary on it.
1:17:25
SPEAKER_01: Next question.
1:17:27
SPEAKER_00: Since everything happens in the here and now,
1:17:30
SPEAKER_00: this is one of our Spanish speakers, so it's been through some translation.
1:17:35
SPEAKER_00: Since everything happens here and now, does that mean childhood memories have never happened?
1:17:42
SPEAKER_01: Not the way you remember them.
1:17:48
SPEAKER_01: You've rewritten it any number of times.
1:17:52
SPEAKER_01: Did I really have a pet ostrich that could fly?
1:17:55
SPEAKER_01: A magical ostrich?
1:17:58
SPEAKER_01: I remember it.
1:18:02
SPEAKER_01: We used to fly all over the place and go play in the clouds.
1:18:06
SPEAKER_01: I remember it.
1:18:10
SPEAKER_01: There was a portal behind the dresser.
1:18:14
SPEAKER_01: Anything that went down there was never seen or heard from again.
1:18:17
SPEAKER_01: I was always terrified of rolling into that crack to be never seen or heard from again.
1:18:25
SPEAKER_01: And behind the mirror,
1:18:26
SPEAKER_01: which had a beveled edge,
1:18:28
SPEAKER_01: It was a world where everything was doubled and the dog had four eyes and two mouths
1:18:33
SPEAKER_01: and so did I. I was quite afraid of falling in there too.
1:18:39
SPEAKER_01: I have a lot of childhood memories.
1:18:43
SPEAKER_01: The demons my father used to hire as babysitters to keep me to stay in my room all night.
1:18:53
SPEAKER_01: The thing at the end of the hall so that I wouldn't go down to the kitchen and make a mess.
1:19:02
SPEAKER_01: That he called through a magical device he built and installed there.
1:19:12
SPEAKER_01: Made it very difficult to get to the stairway and not get knit.
1:19:17
SPEAKER_01: These are my childhood memories.
1:19:19
SPEAKER_01: Did they happen that way?
1:19:21
SPEAKER_01: These are the early ones, like before three years old.
1:19:26
SPEAKER_01: Before two years old.
1:19:30
SPEAKER_01: No, I think the ostrich was between three and four.
1:19:40
SPEAKER_01: Those are my memories.
1:19:43
SPEAKER_01: Did they really happen?
1:19:45
SPEAKER_01: Didn't my dad really hire demons to look after me overnight so he could get
1:19:49
SPEAKER_01: a full night's sleep without me crawling into the bed?
1:19:54
SPEAKER_01: Maybe.
1:19:55
SPEAKER_01: It's the kind of thing my dad would have done.
1:19:58
SPEAKER_01: He fancied himself a sorcerer, or so I remember from his stories.
1:20:06
SPEAKER_01: He died when I was eight, so I don't have an adult's memory of him.
1:20:11
SPEAKER_01: So look back on your childhood memories.
1:20:14
SPEAKER_01: It probably didn't happen the way you think it did.
1:20:17
SPEAKER_01: All you have in the here and now is the memory of what you thought was happening at the time.
1:20:27
SPEAKER_01: You were having physical sensations which you interpreted with your thought process
1:20:34
SPEAKER_01: at two or three years old in the context of what you knew about reality
1:20:42
SPEAKER_01: and what you believe to be true, like Santa.
1:20:50
SPEAKER_01: So you had a belief system at the time that you created about what was happening.
1:20:56
SPEAKER_01: That's an experience,
1:20:59
SPEAKER_01: a mix of physical sensations with thoughts describing them into a perception
1:21:08
SPEAKER_01: with emotions about that perception.
1:21:16
SPEAKER_01: And then you remember all that later.
1:21:21
SPEAKER_01: Just as even in the here and now we often misinterpret circumstances.
1:21:31
SPEAKER_01: We don't know what's real from what is not in the here and now.
1:21:37
SPEAKER_01: How shall we know that in the there and then?
1:21:44
SPEAKER_01: You may enjoy your childhood memories.
1:21:46
SPEAKER_01: They make up the story of who you are.
1:21:50
SPEAKER_01: But I wouldn't think they were real any more than I would the thoughts that I think now.
1:21:58
SPEAKER_01: Thoughts aren't real.
1:22:00
SPEAKER_01: They have no solidity.
1:22:01
SPEAKER_01: They're not made out of any matter.
1:22:03
SPEAKER_01: My table.
1:22:05
SPEAKER_01: At least I can set my coffee cup on it.
1:22:08
SPEAKER_01: You want to see what happens when I try to set it on a mental thought?
1:22:12
SPEAKER_01: Neither do I.
1:22:19
SPEAKER_01: Next question.
1:22:20
SPEAKER_01: And then we're going to be towards the end, I think.
1:22:23
SPEAKER_00: What does it mean to say we recognize the spontaneous expression of
1:22:29
SPEAKER_00: the mind's nature as fulfillment of the Bodhisattva vow?
1:22:41
SPEAKER_01: You who asks this, if you actually want the answer,
1:22:48
SPEAKER_01: Go do the Chenrezig sadhana that I have taught intensively for a week
1:22:56
SPEAKER_01: and
1:22:57
SPEAKER_01: then ask me again if it hasn't become clear.
1:23:01
SPEAKER_00: Can you do that?
1:23:08
SPEAKER_01: Because I don't think I can clarify the answer for you in words
1:23:14
SPEAKER_01: without distorting it to some extent.
1:23:18
SPEAKER_01: And I don't want to distort it for you.
1:23:27
SPEAKER_01: Allow your memories of unequivocal love to water the coiled chakra in your heart so
1:23:36
SPEAKER_01: that it relaxes and the thousand petal lotus blooms,
1:23:42
SPEAKER_01: sending out a thousand rays of love and light.
1:23:48
SPEAKER_01: Love as light, light as love.
1:23:51
SPEAKER_01: And watering the chakras in the hearts of a thousand living beings whose coiled,
1:24:00
SPEAKER_01: frightened lotus,
1:24:03
SPEAKER_01: scritched, holding bud,
1:24:07
SPEAKER_01: relaxes and blooms and opens out into a thousand petals.
1:24:13
SPEAKER_01: A thousand rays of light and love and aliveness The vitality of
1:24:20
SPEAKER_01: the universe spreading by thousands.
1:24:24
SPEAKER_01: Some rays return to your heart.
1:24:27
SPEAKER_01: Some rays go further out, thousands by thousands into numbers.
1:24:35
SPEAKER_01: And all of that
1:24:38
SPEAKER_01: with you
1:24:42
SPEAKER_01: arises as the bliss of the Sambhogakaya.
1:24:49
SPEAKER_01: With the dance of creativity of Nirmanakaya.
1:24:56
SPEAKER_01: As the sparkle of your light and the infinite openness in which the light dances.
1:25:05
SPEAKER_01: Dharmakaya.
1:25:07
SPEAKER_01: As the context of your light.
1:25:12
SPEAKER_01: And it's not yours, it's shared.
1:25:18
SPEAKER_01: Infinite nodes of light.
1:25:22
SPEAKER_01: The light which is the bliss of the Sambhogakaya nature of mind.
1:25:28
SPEAKER_01: The bliss of the union of sunyata and bodhisitta, the symbol of the yabhyam.
1:25:39
SPEAKER_01: You go bidat.
1:25:44
SPEAKER_01: See if it answers your question.
1:25:49
SPEAKER_01: Next question.
1:25:51
SPEAKER_00: Would it be right to say that true meditation or gom only happens after you've had
1:25:58
SPEAKER_00: a real recognition of Rigpa or the nature of mind?
1:26:04
SPEAKER_01: Yes.
1:26:05
SPEAKER_01: You need to find Tawa,
1:26:08
SPEAKER_01: which is the intrinsic nature of mind, the view, Rigpa, seeing, the seer sees,
1:26:19
SPEAKER_01: So yes, you cannot do gam,
1:26:21
SPEAKER_01: which is to return to that already known Dharmakaya nature of mind again and again
1:26:26
SPEAKER_01: at all times and on all occasions until you have found that Dharmakaya nature
1:26:31
SPEAKER_01: of mind.
1:26:33
SPEAKER_01: Hence, we have the inner mind rushen, a practice designed to introduce you to that.
1:26:45
SPEAKER_01: How many more questions we got?
1:26:48
SPEAKER_00: Just a couple.
1:26:49
SPEAKER_01: Okay.
1:26:51
SPEAKER_01: Go with the next.
1:26:52
SPEAKER_00: Okay.
1:26:54
SPEAKER_00: Nonduality, well, wait, this is another.
1:27:00
SPEAKER_00: Is nonduality,
1:27:04
SPEAKER_00: does that mean that phenomena and perceiver are nondifferent,
1:27:09
SPEAKER_00: both without separate existence, or does it mean they are exactly the same?
1:27:14
SPEAKER_01: The former.
1:27:17
SPEAKER_01: Next question.
1:27:22
SPEAKER_00: Is there any energy original cause for nonstop lipomas appearing in the body
1:27:30
SPEAKER_00: and growing in size?
1:27:32
SPEAKER_01: That's annoying.
1:27:33
SPEAKER_01: Yes.
1:27:37
SPEAKER_01: It's a hassle to remove them one by one.
1:27:39
SPEAKER_01: Go see a Chinese doctor.
1:27:40
SPEAKER_01: There may be there's stagnation causing phlegm in your channels.
1:27:46
SPEAKER_01: There may be an acupuncture method of speeding the flow of the chi along
1:27:52
SPEAKER_01: the channels where they have a tendency to form,
1:27:55
SPEAKER_01: which would keep them from forming as much.
1:27:58
SPEAKER_01: Part of it's genetic, but you may be able to treat that with acupuncture.
1:28:03
SPEAKER_01: Go see a good professional,
1:28:05
SPEAKER_01: and you know what they call the guy who graduates bottom of his class
1:28:09
SPEAKER_01: from medical school.
1:28:12
SPEAKER_01: Doctor.
1:28:14
SPEAKER_01: So check out who you're going to see.
1:28:15
SPEAKER_01: Make sure they have a good rep.
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SPEAKER_01: Okay?
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SPEAKER_01: Next question.
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SPEAKER_00: Does bodhicitta arise spontaneously when in the constant stream of non-dual awareness?
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SPEAKER_00: If not, how can we increase bodhicitta while in non-dual awareness?
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SPEAKER_01: I can't imagine how you would have non-dual awareness without Bodhisitta.
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SPEAKER_01: Do Chenrezig practice in non-dual awareness.
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SPEAKER_01: Continue to function and perform action for the benefit of all life as you can.
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SPEAKER_01: Generosity.
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SPEAKER_01: Practice the six parameters From the perspective of non-duality,
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SPEAKER_01: best I can give you, I don't think you can get there without bodhicitta.
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SPEAKER_01: Don't think it would work.
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SPEAKER_01: Don't quite imagine how you could experience that without the bodhicitta being
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SPEAKER_01: an integral part of it.
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SPEAKER_01: You better give me another one.
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SPEAKER_01: I didn't have a good answer for that one.
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SPEAKER_00: Okay, because that was the end of the question.
1:29:43
SPEAKER_01: Oh, well, we're going to leave you with the one I didn't have a good answer for.
1:29:47
SPEAKER_00: Well, Q&A is tomorrow.
1:29:49
SPEAKER_01: Q&A is tomorrow.
1:29:50
SPEAKER_01: We'll do some more.
1:29:51
SPEAKER_01: You don't have to be on subject for Q&A.
1:29:54
SPEAKER_01: Here we tried to just do the questions that were on what the text was talking about.
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SPEAKER_01: We have now completed 19, and I don't want to start 20 today.
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SPEAKER_01: It's not long.
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SPEAKER_01: But nonetheless, I want you to digest 19.
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SPEAKER_01: Remember,
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SPEAKER_01: I am using Song of the Geruda,
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SPEAKER_01: Flight of the Geruda,
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SPEAKER_01: as a teaching text to slowly,
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SPEAKER_01: over a couple of years,
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SPEAKER_01: take you along with me from the very beginning of Dzogchen and finding Dawa,
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SPEAKER_01: which was in the first chapters,
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SPEAKER_01: all the way through to the recognition of non-duality.
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SPEAKER_01: So there's a reason for going slow.
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SPEAKER_01: You have to really work on the practice in between to actualize the best effect of this text.
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SPEAKER_01: Okay, so we have a month between chapters.
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SPEAKER_01: This gives you time to go back to get the chapters you've missed.
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SPEAKER_01: To lead up to it,
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SPEAKER_01: to do the practice,
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SPEAKER_01: to focus on it for enough time to actually chew,
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SPEAKER_01: swallow, and digest what was taught.
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SPEAKER_01: That's important.
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SPEAKER_02: Nge, Wandi,
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SPEAKER_02: Nir, Duda,
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SPEAKER_02: Che, Che, Sa, La,
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SPEAKER_02: Go, Pa, Shu.
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SPEAKER_01: May all beings wake up.
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SPEAKER_01: We are complete for today.