Latest / Voice Notes to the Universe / Voice Note #113— Baby, the sun is shining brightly on you.
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- speaker-0: I'm going out for a walk. I'm just like working through some shit here. And I really have, you know, this such an inner conflict with certain vices, let's say, through the addictions. But my head goes to the right, which somatically tells me that my body, my higher self, is saying, No, that's not true. And so I'm taking a walk and I'm, you know, having a moment, having a conversation with my higher self. And I'm asking her, okay, is there currently any resistance in in our life right now, right? And immediately my head goes to the left, which is my somatic, that's a yes for me, right? And I'm like, okay, great. You know, and so I ask her, I ask my higher self, okay, well can you tell me what the resistance and of course she's like yes and she's like, I hear her say, but you already know, and you already know the answer. And speaker-1: you speaker-0: so I'm like, okay. And then I was guided to kind of go down, like go through a list of a few things going on in my life that I feel like I'm currently battling with, right? And so of course the first question I asked was, you know, am I resisting letting go and am I resisting s to stopping smoking, right? Cannabis, smoking weed. And immediately I heard, no, it's not your resistance and your or your feeling of inability to stop. What's being asked is your relationship with it. How do you view it? How do you guilt yourself, shame yourself? How are you using it? Are you using it with intention? Are you over consuming it? Right? Is your consumption more than your output? You know, how are you utilizing this to your to your best benefit? 'Cause there are benefits of it for me. You know? and so just this idea, but it goes back to this my God, this my feeling of perfection. Right? And that I have to have it all together and everything worked out in my life. But while I also know that I don't want to be perfect. I don't wanna I don't want to achieve even achieve perfection. You know, to be human is to be flawed. To be flawed is to be imperfect. speaker-1: Thanks. speaker-0: You know? imperfection is not a bad thing because speaker-1: you speaker-0: that it to be perfect means that it was it's complete. It's done, it's finished. speaker-1: you speaker-0: And if something's done If it's complete, then that means there's no room for creation. And who doesn't want to create? I don't want to live in a world where I can't create. But I'm in this like speaker-1: you speaker-0: moment of this paradox speaker-1: you speaker-0: and in my mind is paradoxical thinking. I don't know if that's a real word. Paradoxical co co I just might have made that up. Anywho but perhaps both truths can exist at the same time. You know I don't know, I think that is just everything in life. Everything is a spectrum. But there's you know, there's there's a a polar opposite and then the spectrum within it, really, right? And so speaker-1: you speaker-0: It really does all exist at you know, it exists all at once, and it's all true. So perhaps that's really not it. The the issue isn't, do I smoke too much? The question is what is my relationship? Because I'm like a older I'm nothing. You know? And what are the expectations I'm putting on myself? And in turn, using that as a mirror, and what expectations am I putting on other people? I don't know, I've just really I've speaker-1: you speaker-0: just really been trying to like work through some shit. 'Cause baby the sun is shining. You know, this isn't you know, when we go through these things we feel like, my life is horrible like when our shadow self comes up. Especially with things that we think that we've worked speaker-1: you speaker-0: through or we're like annoyed with ourselves 'cause we're like, well like how long is it gonna take me to to figure this shit out? I feel like I'm looping, you know, whatever it may be. I have cotton mouth. I maybe ha had a make out sash with Lady Gonja before I took my walk. But I do regret not bringing a bottle of water with me, darling. Anywho What was I saying? but I don't even remember I almost have to pause this so I can think. In fact I shall. Yeah, I can't really remember what it was I was on a rant about, but I guess I do want to just bring it back to this as that like I don't know, it just it just again is just a new perspective of a different perspective. That spirit gives me, you know. this is what I was going to say. I remember now, darling. Yes. We often think that when, you know, the our shadow comes up. We get upset. We're like, again, right, like are we looping? Or you know, why can't I get through this? Why can't I get over this? Or just whatever. It's about perspective. You know, and this speaker-1: . speaker-0: is where spirit shows me, okay, instead of looking at it like all doom and gloom and depress, switch your perspective and look look above. And see that the reason you're seeing the shadow is because baby the sun is shining brightly on you. The sun is shining brightly on you, baby. speaker-1: you speaker-0: You're on a threshold, you're at this threshold, you're in this space of creation, of manifesting, right? The speaker-1: you speaker-0: sun is shining on you, baby. When the sun shines bright, speaker-1: you speaker-0: sometimes it casts a shadow. And so this is our opportunity to go sit in the shade, take a rest for a minute, and like kind of figure out, okay, speaker-1: you speaker-0: why is this coming up? Let me look at this a little bit deeper, right? So that I can clear the shit out. So I could take a deeper look at this. Because baby, I know, I know this is my sign from the universe telling me, hey, let's get ready. Come on. Your your ship's coming in. Your ship is is sailing in, baby. And so I want to make sure that you're feeling good about yourself, that you're feeling confident, that you're most importantly, that your nervous system is regulated. And so that's what's gonna happen. The universe is gonna start testing you. It's not really a test. So don't look at it as a test. Look at it as a learning experience. and learning and being noticing the cues of your body and how you're reacting to certain things because that's speaker-1: you speaker-0: that is again that's that's it's your you're revving up like you're revving your engine you're getting ready because it's it's your the universe's way of of acclimating you to this new energy right because you're getting these manifestations coming in that's a whole new energy. That's gonna go, it's gonna go quick, it's gonna go, you know, it's gonna go fast. These are big things that perhaps you've been taking I mean some of the shit I'm working on has been years. Fucking years and a lot of hard work. Right, so I know these things are coming in. So these little shadow pieces, these little things are coming up for spirit to say, hey baby. This is a little something I wanna show you, and I'm always humbled by it. I I am, I'm humbled. Because it's like, whew. That doesn't feel real great, but at least now I know, baby. At least now I know, right? And I'm a geek for this kind of shit. I love it. I love to learn about myself. And in speaker-1: . speaker-0: turn I'm able to learn about humanity, learn about the people around me. I it gives me insight. It's gives me compassion. It it helps to expand my my just this understanding, grace, kindness, love. Because I I see myself in everybody I meet. Right? 'Cause I've been through it. That's like shit, yeah, yeah, yeah. And I don't have to tell my experiences. That's not for me to like compare my story to theirs. It's just an inner knowing of yeah. This resonates, right? I owe I I get it, I get it. I have compassion, I have love for this person. Because I see myself and them somewhere, you know, you can see a a similarity, right? So the moral of the story, the more or blah blah blah blah the moral of the story, baby, is when things feel like they're kind of ugh. touchy or touch and go and you're kind of like I'm looping but I do feel like I'm moving forward but I'm still kind of looping. What's wrong with me? Baby nothing's wrong with you. Don't forget to look up and say you know hey that's the sun and the sun is just there to help illuminate to show you your shadow so you can regulate your nervous system and have all these incredibly Amazing manifestations that you've been working on for so long. So anyway, that's what I was thinking about while I was taking my walk. Too loo!