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- You are mourning a person who doesn't exist yet, and that is why you can't sleep. It is the most exhausting grief in the world because you’re trying to hold onto a shadow. I want you to picture your ex’s apartment right now. Not the one they lived in when you were together, but the one they could have lived in if they had just tried. If they had gone to therapy. If they had picked up a phone call. If they had chosen you, really chosen you, instead of choosing their own comfort zone every single time. That version of them is sitting on your couch right now. They are making coffee. They are listening to you talk about your day with genuine interest. They are holding your hand without checking their watch. You love that person. I know you do. But here is the brutal truth, the kind we need to sit with today: that person is not real. And staying attached to them is keeping you from finding the one who actually is. Let’s get real for a second. We all do this. We take the good moments—the laughter, the intimacy, the way they looked at you across a crowded room—and we use those as bricks to build a house. We construct an entire future in our heads based on potential rather than action. It feels safe because the fantasy never disappoints. In the fantasy, they fix their issues. In the fantasy, they grow. In the reality, they are the same person who ghosted you for three days last month. They are the same person who made you feel small during arguments. When you cling to who they could be, you are essentially refusing to see who they are. And that refusal? That is what keeps you stuck in the pain. You aren’t grieving the breakup; you’re grieving the loss of a project you thought you could complete. Why do we do this? Why do we fall in love with someone’s resume instead of their character? Often, it’s because we confuse intensity with compatibility. We think that if we just love hard enough, explain ourselves clearly enough, or wait long enough, they will finally become the partner we deserve. But let me tell you something I learned after my own messy divorce: people show you who they are. You might hope they’ll show you more later, but they don’t. They show you exactly who they are, over and over again. If you have to convince someone to love you well, they aren’t loving you well. They are performing. And you are tired of watching the show. You need to stop auditioning for a role in someone else’s life where you are always the supporting character to their growth. Staying in love with a ghost costs you everything. It costs you your present. It costs you the ability to say yes to the person who is standing right in front of you, offering you steady, boring, beautiful consistency. Because your heart is busy rehearsing dialogues with someone who isn’t there. You start comparing everyone new to a phantom. You look at a nice guy at coffee and think, 'He’s stable, but he’s not exciting like him.' Or, 'She’s funny, but she doesn’t challenge him like I did.' This comparison trap is a lie. It keeps you blind to actual love because you are looking for a specific set of traits that only existed in your imagination. You are waiting for a miracle that was never promised. And while you wait, your life is happening around you, and you are missing it entirely. So how do you let go? How do you mourn something that never happened? You have to give yourself permission to grieve the loss of the dream. Yes, it hurts. It feels like you are throwing away hope. But hope is not a strategy. Hope without evidence is just delusion. Start by writing down the facts. Write down the times they disappointed you. Write down the promises they broke. Read it every morning. Remind yourself that the person you miss is not the person you knew. You are allowed to outgrow people, even if they are still alive. You are allowed to decide that their potential is not worth your peace. When the urge to reach out comes, ask yourself: am I missing them, or am I missing the idea of being fixed by them? Usually, it’s the latter. And no one can fix you. Only you can do that. Once you release the fantasy, you create space. Space for boredom, maybe. Space for uncertainty. But also space for truth. Real love is not dramatic. It is not a rollercoaster of highs and lows that leaves you exhausted. Real love is quiet. It is showing up. It is being known and still being loved. When you stop chasing ghosts, you start building a foundation on solid ground. You begin to trust your own judgment again. You learn to recognize red flags not as challenges to overcome, but as signs to retreat. You become the protagonist of your own story again, not the sidekick in theirs. And that is terrifying, but it is also incredibly freeing. You realize that you are whole on your own. You do not need someone to complete you. You need someone to complement you. And that requires seeing people clearly, not through the lens of your desires, but through the lens of their actions. Thank you for listening, for feeling, and for being brave enough to face the truth. I’m so proud of you for showing up for yourself today. Until next time, keep your eyes open and your heart guarded until it’s safe to let it bloom. Love you.