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Doom Scrolling with Blue Light Blocking Glasses | That Gen X Friend · Military Broadcast Radio | MBR Talk

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  Good morning. Welcome or welcome back to that
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  Gen. X Front podcast.
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  Before I begin, I want to get a shout, give a shout out to H and
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  Tracer for helping me yesterday. It was due to operator error, me
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  being the operator. That's anyways, thank you.
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  And my messages were sent really early because I don't sleep.
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  Anyways, thank you. I appreciate it.
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  Thank you for all the help and all the behind the scenes work
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  that you do. And thanks for putting up with
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  me. So let's get to it, right?
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  I want to talk about something that I think maybe I'll most
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  people know about, but the title kind of says a lot.
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  It's doom scrolling with blue like blocking glasses.
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  So today I'm a little out of source because I'm going to be
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  doing like a live action costume change because and I'm going to
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  be working different screens because I have to read
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  something. I wrote this I think a year
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  maybe two years ago because I have blue like blocking glasses
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  because I I have due to migraines and when I have to
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  stare at screens, it really does trigger migraines more.
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  So thank you to the VA for giving me these glasses that are
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  very helpful. And also usually when I'm
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  recording, I have lights on. I usually just operate in the
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  dark, not at night because I can't really see anything.
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  But you know, when I'm recording all the lights on, usually I
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  will only have the screen as the only light when I'm working on a
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  screen. So bear with me, OK?
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  This is like high tech for me. So I'm going to be reading what
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  I wrote about the blue light blocking glasses and then we
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  will let's talk about it. OK, hold on.
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  Technical changes here. Hold on.
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  Before I do that, you know, this is the costume change.
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  OK, See, these are blue like blocking glasses.
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  They're also my readers. And also the tint is because of
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  migraines for me. I, I don't respond to other
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  colors well, the lens colors. So ready or not, I'm going to
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  try to read this. OK, OK, here we go.
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  I'm going to I'm doing a different screen.
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  So here we go. All right, Doom scrolling with
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  blue like blocking glasses. The stylish digital clock
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  signifies it being too early, too late, working hours, a
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  procrastination countdown, a painkiller reducing the agony of
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  waiting, an empty filler attempting to satiate boredom's
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  hunger, and a drug for the affiliate affiliates and a drug
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  for the afflicted. I can't do this live,
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  apparently. Thank God I'm not a newscaster.
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  That was not part of what I wrote.
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  The familiar screen glows with a swirl of anticipatory
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  trepidation. Possessing infinite access to
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  wishful dreams were dreaded nightmares.
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  Researchers warn that persistent exposure to blue light disrupts
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  the circadian rhythm. This disruption causes a long
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  list of cascading effects on the chemical balancing act that
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  defines the delicate art of homeostasis.
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  Slipping on the widely promoted blue, like blocking glasses,
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  which I have signifying protection and security,
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  justifies the doom scrolling day and night.
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  The signal flashes. The presence of blue light
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  equals denied entry. The perceptibility of the
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  performative protection drops the defenses enough to birth
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  complacency. The invisible world facing sign
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  flashes enter at will, one and all, but the resulting outcomes
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  dominate a flustered dialogue of incredulity.
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  There must have been a glitch with a protection.
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  Or perhaps doom scrolling with blue like blocking glasses is
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  like using a perforated condom while praying for dismissal from
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  the consequences. All right, let's talk about it.
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  I only messed up a few times. Thank you for bearing with me.
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  I'm going to switch now to a different screen.
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  Anyways, thank God I'm not a newscaster.
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  So I'm going to go back to my normal glasses, which makes me
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  pretty blind because they're not my readers.
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  I can see, but that way you can see my face and not trying to be
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  cool or nothing. You know, like Yoko Ono or not
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  that she's cool. I just remember seeing her face
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  like plaster with these glasses or The Beatles.
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  Lennon. Yeah, him wearing those glasses.
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  Anyways, I digress. Let's talk about it.
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  All right, so I was wearing my blue light glasses, blocking
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  glasses. And the reason why I, I wanted
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  to talk about this because one of the reasons why I didn't
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  record yesterday, I usually record on this one particular
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  day is because, well, I didn't sleep at all and I ended up doom
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  scrolling. You know, it is what it is.
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  And I found it just so ironic that I had written about this.
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  It it's like, well, take your own advice dude.
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  Bro, I couldn't, I didn't. That's how I compensate tossing
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  and turning while not sleeping to at least I'm looking at
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  something right? Like it's a pretend
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  productivity. How do you be?
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  I don't know how that even makes sense in my mind, but when you
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  don't sleep it all things make sense.
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  So I wrote this like I, like I said, I think a couple years
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  ago, maybe a year ago, because I'm not the only one.
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  Actually, I've seen quite a few social media commercials about
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  blue light, you know, blocking blue light and how it's damaging
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  and you know, and people are selling these glasses that
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  blocks the blue light that radiates from different screens,
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  from our lighting, from our TV screens, from our phones,
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  whatever. Because it does, it does trigger
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  different chemical reactions in our minds, right?
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  Especially when we're doing doom scrolling, when we're doom
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  scrolling at night when we should be sleeping.
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  Because now your eyes are introduced to this light that
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  signifies, hey, it's awake time. You're like, no, man, it's, it's
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  like 1:30 in the morning and I should be sleeping, right?
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  But your body, it's being triggered.
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  Triggered to act a different way and then we wonder why we don't
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  we don't sleep. But I did find that once I did
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  receive these the the pair that I have right now, I've had a
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  like a couple pairs. It almost gave me like, Oh yeah,
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  now now I'm protected. I'm good, you know, I don't
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  know, people tend to, I found that people tend to act more
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  recklessly. Is it reckless?
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  Reckless when they feel safe, Like protected, right?
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  Like, oh, now that I am protected from this, then I can
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  go do more of this because, well, I'm technically protected.
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  And there's an irony to it, like sometimes ha ha, but sometimes
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  it's just like it is. So it almost makes it worse,
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  right? That's why I compare to Forgive
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  me. I had to, I had to write it.
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  There's no other way that I could think in my mind.
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  Maybe it's because I have military, not better mine.
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  I didn't know how else to voices.
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  If you know better, let me know. I I that's why I compared blue
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  like blocking glasses and doom scrolling with them on is as
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  being comparable to using a perforated condom like oh wow, I
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  put this thing on and but there's holes everywhere.
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  Well, I don't know for those who've had children, had
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  children or have had gotten pregnant not deliberately while
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  using protection. I I think you get the gist.
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  And in the same way, I, I believe that using blue light
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  blocking glasses, wow is good. It is protection, right?
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  It, it breeds a certain level of complacency that keeps us doom
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  scrolling like I'm protector, I'm good.
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  But nonetheless, the time on screen while we're scrolling,
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  while we're staring at a screen is longer because, you know,
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  we're not getting that light to trigger our biological chemical
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  reactions in our own body. Well, dune scrolling is no good,
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  right? It's not about the glasses sore
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  if I do believe that if you can have something that blocks the
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  how the light triggers our internal workings, sure, use it.
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  But it should never be used to promote more of this behavior
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  like it does me. Like I'm safe, I'm good.
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  No, no, no 'cause do scrolling has a chemical reaction in and
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  of its own right, even with, with or without the glasses.
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  This is just the the performative protection that we
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  put on, even though it it's more comparable to a perforated
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  condom than we think, right? It's performative.
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  The doom scrolling itself, depending on what you're doom
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  scrolling, sure, you can be doom scrolling, learning stuff.
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  Maybe it's not as bad to your brain because ADHD, what
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  whatever. There's so many things we can
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  talk about how it changes, how our brain functions and then the
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  cascading effects of it, how your brain functions, the
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  chemicals in your brain and how your body functions after the
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  fact or during the fact. So depending on what you can
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  always argue, well, I'm, I'm, I'm reading really, really heavy
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  duty stuff that's teaching me stuff.
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  Great, that's awesome. But staring at the screen for
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  too long, even though you're protected.
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  I'm using error quotes now, even though you're protected.
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  Is being fixated on screen really that great?
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  I mean, there's enough research and experts.
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  All these people are coming out. Oh no, screen time is too much.
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  We should disconnect. Heck, I've done podcasts about
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  disconnecting from screens before.
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  So even in that way, just because you feel comfortable,
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  like I'm not being triggered by the lighting, but I'm going to
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  spend more time staring at the screen, that's not good either,
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  right? And I say this as a doom
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  scroller that sometimes I, I, I don't even use the blue light
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  glasses because these are obviously two different glasses
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  because I cannot handle bifocals.
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  Because you got to contort your head a certain way.
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  You got to tilt your head up to look down.
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  I already have neck issues and back issues.
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  That's why sometimes when I'm picking up the phone and I don't
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  have my blue light blocking glasses near me, I just doom
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  scroll while being blind and guessing at what I'm looking at,
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  which is pretty funny because I'm frowning.
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  I'm making that like and give myself severe wrinkle lines.
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  I hate those commercials. I digress.
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  It is what it is. So that's why I I, I find it.
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  I mean, how many people do this? I can't be the only one,
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  especially when I sell, when I see influencers selling the blue
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  like blocking glasses and they're like, oh, the benefits.
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  They they never really cover real the reality of what humans
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  do. Once we feel safe, we become
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  complacent. We are less vigilant.
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  I'm not saying being paranoid, right?
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  Like a lot of veterans and, and, and also in military community,
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  we're hyper vigilant because we are trained that way and also
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  for other reasons for trauma, whatever.
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  I'm not saying be paranoid, but being aware that we as humanity
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  is as people tend to like become like, oh, now we're protected,
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  we can do more. It is such a it's a fine line
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  between sure, you're protected. Now you can do more, as in, OK,
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  you can probably do more, get more things done because your,
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  your eyes aren't hurting. Like migraines hurt my head and
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  like staring at harsh lighting from the screens really do hurt
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  my eyes 'cause I just can't take all that lighting.
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  You know, there's a fine line between that and thinking it's
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  just, oh, it's just a blue light causing us issues.
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  No, it is a constantly scrolling.
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  OK, my son. I felt kind of insulted.
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  It's like, mom, why do you send me AI slop?
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  I'm like, what are you talking about?
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  So I I recently found this one channel.
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  I guess it's called nobody sausage in in and it does these
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  little clips. That's really funny to me.
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  Like the the first little clip I sent to him was of this 2
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  whatever AI things eating and one was eating really loud,
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  right? And, and the AI was like, no,
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  no, and it focused in and it had food coming out of his mouth And
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  the the other AI character just couldn't take it.
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  They're like, stop it, just stop it.
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  And I sent it to him right. And then I laughed so hard at
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  that. I went to the channel and I doom
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  scrolled. These are just little clips,
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  like 2030 second long. And I doom scrolled and I
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  watched, I swear, years of this channel stuff, which is really
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  funny. You don't have to like what I
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  like, but I just found those like they make human moments
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  really funny. Like we all know that one person
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  that she was really loud, right? And we all know that one person
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  that's just totally disturbed bind is chewing loud and just
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  you just want to rip your hair out.
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  So I ended up doom scrolling that that didn't help me.
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  I don't remember if I had my glasses on.
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  It was near me, but man. That's mine rocked, right?
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  That's what people are saying. So it's not just the the blue
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  light that's causing us to threaten our homeostasis.
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  And it's literally a delicate art, just like the, you know,
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  the universe. If we were 1° off from the sun
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  or the the tilt of the Earth, it was 1° off.
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  We all be extinct, but there will be no life or whatever.
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  That's sort of homeostasis because keeping a balance within
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  our own bodies chemically, emotionally, mentally, all this
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  stuff, right? So sure, the blue light is just
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  one aspect, but once we sort of put the Band-Aid in, in the, the
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  hole in the dam and there's cracks everywhere.
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  I'm like, look, we fixed this one, one spot that's right in
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  front of us that we saw all this water pouring through while
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  ignoring all the other things that are also doing the same
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  stuff or maybe even worse. That's why I sort of had to, I,
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  I had to poke at the irony of it all the almost it.
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  It's sure that we we need to protect our eyes and but we're
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  not protecting our mind. We're we're not protecting the
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  fact that 32nd clips, whether they're funny or not, I don't
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  care if you don't think it's funny.
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  My son didn't. Well, you know what I say about
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  that. He said I was old.
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  Maybe so anyways, it it's not just about the blue light, it's
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  about the ADHD we're getting from the 22nd clips that we we
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  just keep going, keep going. And we, if we don't find what we
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  want to find or we find interesting, we just, so there
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  was a report that came out recently that this kid that made
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  a Bible app, you can doom scroll the Bible, which I think is
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  pretty cool saying on a daily basis, like people do 3 miles of
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  scrolling, just doom scrolling, right?
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  Can you imagine what it does, what it is doing to our mind,
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  the neural pathways that are not being fortified or that's just
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  destroying our concentration, our inability to comprehend
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  because we're just whatever. Sure, it's really not comparable
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  because if you compare like, Oh well, the damage it does, the
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  blue light does to your circadian rhythm, which is it
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  manages your sleep, wake cycles and all that, like all the
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  different hormones that comes during the day and night and all
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  this stuff. Sure, that's that's bad if you
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  trigger different reactions in the improper time, but when we
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  think about the rest of it, when we can't stop doom scrolling,
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  'cause now we got this on it. It's just, it's sad because I
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  use my phone as a coping mechanism, right?
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  I, I listed it, It could be because I'm bored, It, it could
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  be because I don't know, I'm just procrastinating on
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  something like I really need to get this done.
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  I'm like, I just don't want to, so I'll use my phone as an
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  excuse or to occupy my time. Doesn't that also cause the
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  disruption to our homeostasis? Because when we're
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  procrastinating on things that needs to get done by not
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  stopping this, right? Like just completely all day,
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  every day, 24/7. Doesn't matter what time it is.
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  You could be at work, you can be, I don't know if somebody's
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  talking to you, that causes stress, right?
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  Depending on what situation. And then the stress of the event
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  can also trigger a chemical imbalance in, well, obviously in
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  our lives. So it's not just about internal
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  homeostasis, the chemical balances that we need to
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  maintain so our bodies don't go crazy.
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  It's all it's about also creating an environment that is
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  facilitating to maintaining homeostasis.
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  And obviously I use myself as the example because I'm the best
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  one for so many. I mess up so much all the time.
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  If you can. I don't know if you can say that
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  I'm wise, but I have. The reason if anybody says that
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  I could be wise potentially is because I've messed up and
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  screwed up so much so in my life.
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  I'm like, oh, yeah, yeah, yeah, no, I did that like at least
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  half a dozen times or two dozen times.
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  I learned that this is not the way to go.
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  And this is not the first year I've had these blue light
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  blocking glasses. It's been quite a few years.
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  And I tell you that sense the safety, the safety, you all had
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  it, it sure didn't help my, my not impulsivity, but rather my
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  inability to control my, whatever, my bad behaviour,
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  let's just say because dude, scrolling is really I, I believe
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  is bad behaviour and it's addictive.
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  It's, we are afflicted by this addiction to our screens, our
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  phones, the content. And I talk about it all the time
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  because like I say, I'm not just a member of the club.
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  I am the president. For those of you who remember
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  that commercial. So I, I noticed my behavior, but
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  do I change it when I'm, there are times that I actually stop
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  in my you got to step away. You're, you're doing the crazy
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  that you, you've talked about. But there are times I'm just
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  like, whatever, I just succumb to my own.
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  I don't know if it's laziness or hedonistic behavior.
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  There you go. And it's I just continued to
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  doom scroll while, you know, with my performative protection,
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  thinking like, Oh no, look, I'm being responsible.
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  I am protecting myself with these things.
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  And really, my mind is rotting and I I'm laughing at AI
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  characters doing stupid human stuff where I guess I can laugh
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  my own behavior doing stupid human stuff, but not, you know,
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  I'm doing scrolling through more and more similar channels.
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  Forget that I told you that I'm going to stop doing scrolling.
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  So you know, once that gate is open, it's like a slippery
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  slope. I'm not saying don't enjoy
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  yourself. Like if something really makes
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  you laugh, I don't see the harm in it, whether you agree with my
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  humor or not. But you know there has to be a
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  cut off. Too much is a good thing is a
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  bad thing, right? Let's just keep it at that.
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  So whether we think we are protecting ourselves, we
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  shouldn't just focus what I've learned and we should not focus
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  on this one aspect, 1 little percentage of something that's
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  costing us like the the outcomes, like, oh, well, Lucy,
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  I did this to do that to help me be better here.
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  But we forgot the rest of the dam that's like all cracked.
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  There's water pouring out. We just put, like I said, little
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  Band-Aid on this one little hole that was trickling, thinking
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  that all is well. But I don't want to promote
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  paranoia either. Like sometimes you just got to
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  live life with reckless abandoned, right?
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  There's really dune scrolling. It will will we consider that
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  when we're old and Gray and about to pass on?
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  Will we think that's our lives were lived with the good
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  reckless abandoned? Like go for it if you want to, I
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  don't know, go hike the Appalachian Trail.
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  I, I think there's like this is one of the hardest hiking trails
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  you can do and you're prepared. You're like, well, I'm a little
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  scared, but I'm going to do it because I think I'm going to
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  find myself and you went. I would consider that a little
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  reckless, abandoned, right? Like, so do something like that,
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  like, oh, I want to drive a race car once.
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  And most people are like, well, that's, you know, that's, that
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  could be really dangerous. Well, do your thing, but it's
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  doom scrolling part of it. It's just because you got the
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  blue light blocking glasses on, right.
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  It opens the door. Once we think, I hate to beat a
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  dead horse, once we think we have done something to create
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  advantages. It doesn't need to be protection
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  like from blue lights, but then we have created some sort of
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  advantage protection for whatever situation that we
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  enter. We also have to be mindful of
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  the complacency that comes with it, right?
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  Because it's seldom does life give us these black and white
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  singular issues or whatever events that we can, that we can
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  do one thing and that covers all of it.
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  Like, you know, the, the insurance that covers all of it.
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  I don't think there's such a thing.
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  Am I wrong? But I, I do find that once I
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  give myself a pat on the back, like, look, oh, you adult today
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  and you did something good for yourself.
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  Now I subconsciously increase my hedonistic behavior like like
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  100 times more because the little bit of something that I
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  did good. So I used blue light blocking
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  glasses 'cause now it's the big thing.
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  Science is behind it and all this stuff and many people
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  either use it or know about it and the benefits of it.
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  I use this as as the example of the gateways that we open for
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  ourselves into I guess more allowing ourselves more leeway
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  to do what we were doing before. But now we can show people
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  either show us like you don't have to prove to people like,
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  oh, I have blue light blocking glasses and that's why I'm doing
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  scrolling more even to justify to ourselves.
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  We open that gateway to potentially a lot more harmful
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  stuff if we didn't go and do this performative.
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  I'm not saying this is performative for me, but a lot
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  of the things that we do are performative to justify more of
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  a certain behavior because, well, I did this so I can do
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  that more of that. So this is a that Simpsons kid
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  goes, I think this bully. I sort of laugh at myself, point
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  out the absurdity of life and how, man, how we we can lose
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  control so quickly of the when we open the door by doing
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  something good for us and then heaping on a garbage load of bad
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  stuff because then one little thing that we did good for us.
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  Like, sure, you, you can go on a diet, right?
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  You're like, well, I've dieted for like a month now.
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  I'm going to go out and have a one of those days, the freebie
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  days or a freebie. I'm going to have a freebie week
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  and just load yourself up with everything.
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  The little bit of good promoted, the justification for the heap
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  of bad. It is what it is and it
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  definitely isn't what it isn't. So that's what I wanted to
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  share. Sure, I think these glasses are
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  a good thing, especially if you have migraines like I do and
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  have light sensitivity, but don't let it be the slippery
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  slope of increasing what you were trying to change or trying
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  to protect yourself from. So like I said, I'm actually
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  president of the club and I have noticed as as I continue to get
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  older that I'm more aware and I do beat myself up enough because
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  I'm also OCD about beating myself up about my bad
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  behaviors. I do beat myself up more about
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  like, hey, just you got to stop, walk away.
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  As hard as it is, it is. It is for me to do.
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  I do pull myself away because I don't want to.
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  I don't want to. Not because of the blue light,
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  which is bad for me, but also spend all of my time on little
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  screens, big screens, medium screens, looking at stuff that
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  really don't interest me, where I can go do something like
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  listening to music. That's always awesome.
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  Go do something that interests me, that triggers the chemicals,
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  the feel good chemicals that even if I laughed at really hard
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  at that one little clip that the music is speaks me differently,
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  right? That sort of thing is
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  incomparable. No little clip can actually
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  compare to what music can do for me on on a regular right all the
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  time. So I don't know if if you find
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  yourself using blue light, blocking glasses or whatever is
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  comparable to whatever you're doing as the justification to
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  increase what in your head, you know what isn't right?
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  Pull yourself away. Maybe don't beat yourself up
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  like I do in my own mind. Yeah, 'cause I hate to.
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  I would love to have a conversation with people.
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  And most of the time when I go outside, which I am not a free
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  roaming chicken, I am in my own space 'cause I like it that way.
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  So, but when I do go outside, it is hard to find anybody and
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  sometimes they're walking or whatever, they're not looking
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  down, doom scrolling. And that's an environmental
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  homeostasis that only we as a collective can change.
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  All right, enough of my enough of my dune scrolling, sharing of
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  my observances of observances, observations of life, the the
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  absurd stuff that I do. Yeah.
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  Well, I hope some of you guys can relate.
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  If so, just be aware of it. Awareness is the first step to
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  making the change, right? So I'm aware of it.
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  And I, I, I will try not to. No, you know what?
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  There is no try. In the words of Yoda, I will
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  decrease my doom scrolling, especially when I'm using these
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  very protective glasses that that does mean some good.
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  So hopefully I can have a, you know, conversation with people
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  or a conversation that actually makes sense in my head.
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  They're all little clips now of people chewing their food
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  loudly. I think they're funny.
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  So like I said, you don't have to like my humor.
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  All right, that's enough of beating that dead horse.
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  Anyways, I pray for you guys all the time.
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  I really do. I hope you're doing well and
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  enjoying the fall season and I will see you 2 weeks from now
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  hopefully. I would have gotten some sleep
• 39:38
  and operator error is at a minimum.
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  Thank you for putting up with my inability to read and tripping
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  all of my words. So I will see you guys two weeks
• 39:50
  from now. Have a blessed day.
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