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EP 7: From Anxiety to Self-Care, Finding What Brings You Peace · Tony & Sarah Unscripted

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Hi. Welcome to Tony and Sarah, unscripted.
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Thanks for joining us again today.
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I am going to be talking with Tony, and we're
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just going to have a conversation about some,
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some things that are kind of important that we both wanted to talk about.
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And I wanted to talk start the conversation with Tony.
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Yeah.
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So you are very open about your life.
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I am,
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even when I don't want to be, very few things that people don't know about you.
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It's kind of the way things are with me at the moment.
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But one thing you and I wanted to talk about is the stigma behind mental health.
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Yeah.
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And getting medications for it or medicating or getting help for it.
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And I wanted to kind of ask you about your experience
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with that and just kind of open up if you're comfortable to talk about.
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Yeah. Yeah, absolutely.
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You know, a lot of people when they post on social media, it's always them smiling.
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And and I'm not like that when I'm suffering and struggling.
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I actually talk about that and how I'm trying to help myself get through this.
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So after everything went down in June,
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I was we were talking
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about this on our first episode, how, you know, had such fight or flight.
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And I had such anxiety for a very long time.
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And even though I, I swear when I think about this,
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I sit with kids inside when they say to me,
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But I'm on this medication and and they, they look like they're so ashamed.
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I always say to them, this medication is medication.
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It's not doesn't define who you are, but you need this right now to be happy
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and whole.
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It's like I need high blood pressure medication.
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Same thing.
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But when it came to me being on medication,
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I struggled with it for a very long time.
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I knew I needed it, but I felt like maybe I was going to betray myself.
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But I kept saying, I can do this on my own.
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I can do this on my own.
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And last month, it got to the point where my anxiety was through the roof,
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why I would take my blood pressure during a episode of anxiety.
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But when my blood pressure was like
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160 over 102 and, you know, a friend of mine,
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I was talking to them about this and they said, tone, listen, you know,
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I'm stressed now too, and I'm trying to figure out a way
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to calm myself down because I don't want anybody
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to have to feed me with a spoon because of other people's bullshit.
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Wow. Okay.
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And I thought about it, and I was like, yeah, what am I doing?
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Like, why am I not putting myself first?
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A lot of times we don't put ourselves first, right?
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We try to take care of everybody else.
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And I've done that for many, many years, not thinking that I needed
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to take care of myself because I felt the work was so fulfilling.
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And it was it is it still is so fulfilling to me that I didn't have to think about,
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you know, my own emotional health.
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Right? But I had to do something.
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So I was speaking with my therapist and I said, listen,
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my concern is I don't want to lose myself in on medication.
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I don't want to.
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When I was younger, very young, I was sent to
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so many psychiatrists and stuff, but they put me on Thorazine.
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And I remember I was in like a dream state for a year.
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I don't even remember, like, it was an awful medication.
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And she was like, I got Thorazine, say, no, that wouldn't put you on Thorazine.
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And so I spoke to my provider and I started medication three weeks ago,
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I thought I was just talking about this.
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I thought it was helping me.
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But lately I'm some struggling with that.
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I don't know how many people
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can relate to this, but I have fight or flight type of symptoms.
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So like my whole body starts shaking and I hate it, I hate it.
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So I really thought we could open up a conversation today about,
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you know, psych meds because it's nothing to be ashamed about and they're needed.
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And I, I'm not ashamed that I needed to start them.
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And I'm at first I was a little disappointed in myself.
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Like, why couldn't you be strong enough?
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And why couldn't
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you use the tools that you know to use to calm yourself your ass down?
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Right?
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And I'm trying to practice to be kind to myself, so, you know.
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But I think that and you're
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how you're talking about it is how a lot of people talk about it.
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A lot of people say that same thing, that they should be able to handle themselves.
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But it's so beyond that.
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It's so it's stuff that's happening
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in your brain that it's sort of a chemical imbalance.
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And when things are okay and balanced, it's it's it's great.
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Yeah.
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But when there's things that go awry and that imbalance comes in it,
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I don't know that you could
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given if you
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used every single tool you had in the toolbox, I don't know that
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that it would be enough to help you with what you were dealing with
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and what you continue to deal with. Yeah.
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And I think you dealt without it
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for what are we in March now?
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So in March, nine months, eight, nine years.
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Yeah, yeah.
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And I saw you grow up and down with your emotions, but you did you
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you weren't done.
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In fact, I was really surprised, to be honest with you.
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I was really surprised because.
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Was there ever a time, besides when you were really young,
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that you have been on medication?
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No. Oh. So you. Oh, wow.
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No. Never haven't. Okay.
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Oh, I didn't know that. And it wasn't because I.
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I just felt that.
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Dude, you should be.
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After everything you've been through,
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you should be strong enough to handle this, you know?
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And when I started having these really bad anxieties
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after I lost my job,
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I would say to myself, Tony, you're okay.
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You're safe.
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You have a home, you have food and go down the entire list
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of why I shouldn't be anxious right now.
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And little things trigger me.
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Little things trigger me.
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You know, it's when I start thinking about finances.
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Because I've never not worked. Yeah.
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When I was a kid, I didn't work, but I never not worked.
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And I loved my job, you know?
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And it's not like, you know, it's just like, oh, yeah, I got to go to work.
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That wasn't.
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It wasn't like that for me for four and a half years.
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I really enjoyed the work I was doing, and because of
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what happened, it was taken away from me.
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But not only my job, but also everything.
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Like I went from being out there to nothing, nothing.
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And that that really causes a lot of pain for me.
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Well, you had said to me once that this was
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that was some of the most difficult thing that you've ever been to in your life.
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Yeah.
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You've been through a lot of things in your life.
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Yeah.
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So I think that when you got to the point where you realized
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everything you were doing was still not working.
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That's when you thought I had.
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I had to extra help.
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Yeah, because I deserved not to feel that way. Right.
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And you know, what's crazy is, like,
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you know, the things that are causing me anxiety aren't even real.
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The memories of what happened.
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They're not real, right?
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That's not happening right now in my life.
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So when we when we start circling back to the bullshit, put it plain and simple.
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That changes your emotions at the moment.
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But I have to keep reminding myself that it's not true anymore.
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But isn't that is there?
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I think about Cameron with this because
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there's something that they want him to do when he's ready.
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That helps deal with the trauma for him.
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It's that that medical trauma that he went.
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Yeah, yeah, he goes back to those spaces and it's not good.
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I can't remember what it's called.
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Do you know what's called EDM R or something like that MD or something.
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Yeah yeah yeah yeah yeah yeah yeah.
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So you relive it like kind of you keep is it I don't know, I should probably
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look this up beforehand, but but it is to help you when you go back to those,
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those thoughts and those, those things where you're dealing with
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post-traumatic stress basically is what you're dealing.
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Yeah. Yeah.
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It's not happening now, but you're
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constantly you are going back there for some reason.
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And being back at that time
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brings back all those feelings and brings back all that anxiety.
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Yeah.
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And so I think that there's definitely I don't think you're alone in
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that kind of thing.
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But I also think I was happy to hear that you had gone on medication,
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because I think you've been through so much.
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And again, I'm really surprised that you have dealt with everything
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that you've dealt with. Yeah. Without.
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Yeah. So. Well let's be.
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Let me let me be truthful right now.
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Let me be truthful right now because I self-medicate for years.
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Okay. No smoking. Smoking pot.
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You know, if you read my book, you know, I did cocaine.
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There was a lot of stuff I did, so I definitely numb to myself.
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To the point where it was manageable.
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I thought, you know what I mean?
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But not only,
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like, going back to, like, what happened, but how about writing a future
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that is so bad, like losing my home and that that is what I'm was?
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I sit in front of people and I train them on not to do.
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Why not to do that?
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That we suffer far more in our imagination than we do in our reality.
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Because the reality of it is, I'm okay right now. Yeah.
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You know, and, and and that's
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kind of like when I'm sitting in front of my audiences and, you know,
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I'm getting more into the wellness part, you know, because I feel,
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everyone right now needs to be reminded
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because it's a scary time in this world right now or in this country right now.
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They need to be reminded
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that you can have calmness and joy on the side of all of this.
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Right?
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But I almost feel like I'm an imposter
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because I'm very good at talking about it and helping other people.
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But I couldn't help myself.
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And so I'm really it's been hard.
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Again, I'm not I don't sugarcoat stuff.
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It is hard.
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I'm really struggling, you know, with all this,
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not to turn this around about me, but I want to add this one thing in there
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because when everything was happening with Cameron
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coming out, not 30 something,
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and I was starting
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a pride group and starting a nonprofit
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and then having some difficult feelings that I was not expressing
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and not dealing with.
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I would have felt I felt the same way. Imposter.
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Like I'm saying one thing, but struggling with it.
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Yeah. Different way.
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And so I got to the point
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that I said, I need to take care of myself, and it's okay to feel the things
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that I was feeling, and I needed to do what I needed to do to take care of myself
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and get me through what I was going through on an individual basis.
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So sort of, yes, we can sit and we know what the right thing is to say.
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We know how to help people.
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We know, you know,
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you've done this for so many years and you have helped so many people,
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but that doesn't mean that you don't need a little something more
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to help you get through this incredibly difficult time.
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And I think there is such a stigma, particularly with men
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going on anti-anxiety or depression medication, you know, like buck it up.
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Yeah.
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I just feel like and I'd wish that that would change over time.
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And maybe the younger generation, it has changed,
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although I don't see it in my two, my middle of my eldest son.
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I think that there's still that stigma out there that they should be able
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to handle things themselves.
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And if you are on an antidepressant or anti-anxiety medication,
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you're not strong. Yeah, yeah, but
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I've been on them for a long time,
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and I wouldn't say that I'm not a strong individual.
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It's just I knew my limits. Yeah.
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And I,
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I know
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you get to a point where you're like, okay, if I go off them.
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Am I going to be able to deal with X, Y, and Z that's happening in my life?
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Yeah,
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maybe at some point my life will calm down and I won't have all of that happening.
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And at some point that will happen to you. Yeah.
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And maybe then we can say.
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Or you could say,
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because I've been on for a very long time, but hey, let me see how I can do about
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or let me go down. Yeah. Because it's the uncertainty.
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That's what that's what really brings me anxiety.
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Oh, the future. The future. Yeah. The unknown, the unknown.
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Well, you are always.
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You're very much like type A personality, right?
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You are, as we like to say, a
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pre I am
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and it serves me, it serves me.
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But so for you not to know what's going to happen financially
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or will you get a job or what does the next six months look like for you?
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It's it's got to be very, very, very difficult.
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More so for you than some other people who might just be like, you know, whatever.
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Yeah. And I love people say to me, are you looking for work?
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I applied for 137 jobs.
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If you're on unemployment, I'm on unemployment anymore.
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I'm no income now at all.
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Which is more.
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It's kind of adds to the stress.
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No. That's okay.
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Not yet, not yet, not yet.
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But but it's like, you know.
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Yeah, I am trying to find work, even though I'm trying to get back, like,
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I would rather just, you know, I just open up my coaching practice,
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really focusing.
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Well, yeah, focusing on parents and caregivers of trans and non-binary kids.
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But I certainly can coach anyone, anywhere.
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And, you know, I'm I try to develop it so that, you know, I'm
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not pitching, holding people into like a 45 minute coaching session,
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you know, 20 minute moments of pause, which was actually named after
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my workshop, a moment's pause because sometimes that's all people need.
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They don't need this long commitment of, you know, I'm going to sign you up
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for three months of coaching and it's going to be 45 minute sessions every week.
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People don't need that.
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Some people, some people do, but some people just need.
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Hey, listen, I'm really struggling right now.
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I just need to talk to somebody
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to get some clarity and just take a moment to pause and breathe.
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So, you know, I just announced it yesterday,
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so I hope I get some income from that.
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I don't want to not I just don't I don't want to just I'll work for my money.
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Yeah. Of course, you know what I mean.
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But I love the people who say that because I don't really see myself
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back in manufacturing, going into an office,
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you know, running a manufacturing company or doing being buyer or something.
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I don't see it. I don't see it.
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But if I need to do that, I will do it.
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That's why I keep applying, but I don't.
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And so somebody says, oh, only 137.
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Who else who when in my lifetime as.
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And somebody said to me, they're probably googling you.
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Yeah.
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And it's not like Google you and see the video.
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Right. It's they're going to Google you.
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And what you see is trans trans and like not anything bad
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but like on my website and stuff like that.
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And they're going to be like, this guy is going to bring an agenda in here.
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So, you know, which is sad
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because if I know you, you wouldn't bring in a job.
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No, anywhere unless they were wanting you to.
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Yeah.
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But I do
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think that for you in particular, it's
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just this unknown entity of when is it going to end?
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Yeah, yeah.
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When are you going to to have the comfort of bringing in an income?
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Yeah, but I can't see you in that manufacturing.
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I know I can't.
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21 years, 21 years, I ran,
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you know, right down the street from here.
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You in that role at all?
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I think it would be a huge waste.
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But I'll tell you what I also developed as an employee
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coaching program.
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So, you know, I would go into your company
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if you have employees that have potential, but there's something blocking them.
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It's it's less it's it's more cost effective to have me come in and work
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with them as a coach to try to unblock them, than it is for you
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to spend all the money trying to, you know, hire somebody else.
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Then you got to train them and all that stuff.
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So it's in the works. Now.
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I'm actually going to do a pilot program
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with a couple of companies to see if what needs to be tweaked.
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But again, like, I'm very good at thinking about what's needed.
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Right.
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You know, and I'm and I'm a hard worker, you know, I'm on the board Alex Inc.
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we're doing the event.
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I don't sit around and just feel sorry for yourself.
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Yeah, right. Yeah. And excuse me.
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Even with your previous job, you went above and beyond.
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Yeah. With.
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Excuse me. With. With that.
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Your employers were very, very lucky.
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Yeah. So I think that's what happened to me.
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Like, I'm trying to do everything I can to.
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And just a week ago really started focusing on, okay, what do I have
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control over?
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I have control over how how I treat myself, you know, so I'm walking.
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I'm eating. Right.
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I've dropped some weight already, I feel better, my blood pressure is really good.
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Pulse is great.
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You know, things that I have control over and that makes me feel good.
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But I.
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I'm just glad that I started this, this med, whether it needs to be tweaked
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or whatever, but, I'm not I'm not ashamed.
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And I don't feel.
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I don't feel less than. I don't feel like.
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Oh, man. Tone, you know, you, like, betrayed yourself.
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I don't know, I don't at all, but I did, if that makes sense.
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No, I know you did, because I think it was because you waited so long, right?
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I mean, because this was something you could have gone on.
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Yeah, but you wanted to see if you could get through this yourself.
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And no matter how strong you are, and you're a very strong individual,
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there's just some things that.
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Can't you can't do yourself.
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You just need a little bit.
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It's like if somebody has high blood pressure, you're on medication.
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Yeah.
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Diabetes, cancer, anything where they need medication.
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You know,
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we don't look at it the same way, but it's the same kind of way, right?
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I mean, you can't help what's happening in our mind or in our brain.
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All we know is that it's causing deep hurt
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and aggravation, and it's it's it's not doing what it should do.
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Yeah. And it is again, that imbalance.
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And if you can take something
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that can help that I don't ever understand why somebody wouldn't.
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Yeah. And I've felt with people.
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Yeah yeah yeah I mean listen like I said, you know,
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I mean I sit with kids all the time or I was sending with kids all the time
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and they had such shame around it.
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It was super sad to me.
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Do you think though, like, why is there such shame about it?
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I think it's just society puts shame around it and then we feel it.
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You're like, oh my God, you're on psych meds and means oh my god, like
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that doesn't mean that I can't still function as a human.
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What it means
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is that I'm functioning better as a human and my body is healthier because of it.
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Right?
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You know, and they're also, you know, the one that you're now you're saying
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may be isn't working exactly right or isn't working as it was.
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Yeah. There's so many different medications out there.
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Well, listen, listen, when this first one went down in June
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and I was driving up to New Hampshire, my provider, I'm going to plug her.
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Vanessa Palmer.
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Love her.
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She I said I need something I'm not going to be.
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I haven't slept, you know?
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So she gave me Xanax.
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She gave me 30 pills. Right.
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So it was like two months later, she was like, how you doing?
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She says, do you need another?
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She she goes, how many do you have left?
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I was like 22.
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I, I barely took him.
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I didn't want to.
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I suffered instead of taking this.
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That's what I'm saying.
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Like when I started really thinking about it.
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Why are you suffering when there's something that can help you
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feel more grounded?
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Maybe part of it was that you were going to lose.
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Yeah, it was a for yourself
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I thought I was going to lose, you know, my personality.
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Yeah, yeah.
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And I think that that's a lot of God forbid.
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Yeah, yeah.
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Tweak your personality just a little.
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Just a little.
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I think that a lot of people do worry one of two things.
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One is that they are going to get very sort of comatose. Yeah.
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And that can happen on certain medications that just don't agree with you.
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Yeah.
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Or certain medications for certain things.
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And I remember when I first went on medication, my husband would be laughing.
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And he's like, does anything bother you anymore?
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And I was like, no, I'm good.
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And my kids were really were they were you?
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That's how you felt. Oh yeah. The hell yeah.
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Like they were probably,
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two, four and six.
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Oh, wow.
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And I see now with my, my biological mother that I got to know
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that there is anxiety and depression and very close in my family.
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Yeah, but I remember that he would
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we would sit at my in-laws kitchen and he would just be laughing.
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And he's like, nothing phases you the kids are literally running around.
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Nothing's phasing.
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Whereas before I would just be really so anxious and so like stop to stop that,
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you know, and he's like his mother anytime soon or like,
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oh yeah, let him run around,
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let him touch the stove even though it's hot.
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Screw it. Yeah.
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Obviously
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it's many, many years later now, so lots of changes and stuff.
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But I as I said, I particularly with what goes on in my life right
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now, I'm not sure that I can handle it without being on meds.
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And I and I think that's okay.
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Someday I will go off them and see what it's like to to truly feel.
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I mean, I used to cry all the time at the drop of a hat.
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Oh boy.
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Particularly with ads.
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Anything right now? Yeah.
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How was your crying?
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I cry, I know you do. I cried at the.
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Listen, I wasn't going to watch the Oscars not to get off the track, but I watched
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I turned it on accidentally and it was when they were doing.
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Of course, the, you know, memories and people that have died over the years.
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And Rob Reiner and, and his wife came on.
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So I, I just I felt it like in my throat.
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But I did not cry.
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I'm sitting alone in my, my house, by the way, in my living room.
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And then Barbra Streisand comes out
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and she talks about Robert Redford, and she starts singing The Way We Were.
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I sobbed, okay, now listen, not only did I sob and I'm like,
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looking around like is is any neighbor walking through my oh my God.
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The next morning in the shower, I thought about I started crying again.
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So it was yeah, I, I have no it's good that
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I do I cry I yeah, yeah okay.
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Now nobody judge me because I'm going to share one more thing I.
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I love The Waltons, I watch The Waltons.
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And the other day
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I started crying at The One.
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I'm sorry to get off the subject,
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but I told you.
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I told you
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it was going to be fun anyway, so see how much better I am on my meds.
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Okay, so what's what are you crying at at the Waltons?
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Well, grandma had a stroke, I can't.
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Anyway, so there you go.
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Do if you need meds.
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Don't be ashamed.
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Yeah, they obviously work a little different for me.
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Yeah, a little bit. Yeah? Yeah. Cry at all.
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I mean. Oh, you don't know sometimes.
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Sometimes I do.
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But it's only like if I'm dealing something with something emotional
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or something that I'm dealing with, but never watching something.
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Oh, okay.
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And I used to be able to be like that.
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And I'd like to help someday, hopefully be like that again.
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Because my husband's like, you're just like, someday.
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I hope to cry at commercials again.
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Yes, because it's like you feel thing.
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That's the thing that people that's what I was worried about.
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So this medication I'm still feeling thing.
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Yeah. Maybe they can pop it a little bit.
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So you don't feel so much still with The Waltons.
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And listen, I and I love the, I love the, the theme song for The Waltons too.
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And I sway when it plays and I know that's not.
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It's all it's all instrumental.
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It's not I sway.
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This is really bad.
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This is my God.
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Okay. All right.
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So whole point is that if you need it, take it.
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Yeah. If you need to take it.
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And and life can be so hard.
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It can be.
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And and you deserve to take care of yourself.
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It's another it's like.
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Listen, self-care for me used to be massage, sushi and shoe shopping.
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Okay, not that I'm opposed to that, but I consider taking these meds.
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Self-care. Absolutely.
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You know, it's not just about,
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you know, doing the massages, shoe shopping in the sushi.
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Well, right now my I have no income, so I'm trying.
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Yeah.
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It's, you know, every once in a while get a massage, you know, because I really
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my body needs it and I absolutely, definitely get something out of it.
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But you need to stay awake during the massage.
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Yeah, I don't need to. Yeah.
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The last weekend, I went up to New Hampshire
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two weekends ago, and my brother was like,
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oh, you got to go to my massage therapist. You got to go.
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She's great, she's great.
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And I said, well, Jesus, I hope I stay awake.
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Right?
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So I and it couldn't have been ten minutes in.
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I snort, woke up, I snort, woke up, you know what I mean?
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You know what I'm saying?
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I hate that. And then one time.
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One time up towards the end, you know I'm on my back.
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She's massaging me and I know she had my left hand.
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She was like, massaging my left hand. She was holding it up.
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And you're supposed to like, let it go. But whatever.
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I was sleeping and I woke up laughing, like, giggling and.
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And then she looked at me.
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I was like, you're tickling me.
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I didn't know what else to say.
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Oh my God.
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Sorry, Yolanda, if you're listening,
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the funniest stories, they have to.
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Maybe we we need to have a massage therapist
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on the show and talk about their funny experiences.
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Because I don't know that I'd ever go for massage again because I'd be so worried.
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But that happens.
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Like,
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if I fall asleep, I get so mad because, you know, you pay a good amount of money,
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just miss the entire you miss the entire thing.
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I don't most wish that they would nudge me a little bit
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or just give me a big pinch.
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And my brother Nick always tells his massage
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therapist and I started telling mine that snoring is a standing ovation.
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Really good.
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Yeah yeah yeah. Oh my gosh.
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Oh my god. Okay, so one more question because we got to wrap up here.
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But I have I have a pet peeve.
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And I want to know if if what you think about this
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when you go into a restaurant, you know, I have a lot of issues with restaurants,
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okay.
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When you order a salad, shouldn't the waitress then say,
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would you like that chopped?
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I think why I see listen I
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because you could get because usually they don't have chop salads on every menu.
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They do not.
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And if I want to chop salad it should be like okay,
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listen,
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How would you like you.
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Can I have a burger with mayo? Sure.
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How would you like that cooked? It's automatically asked.
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Okay, I feel and listen, if you're watching us or listening to us wherever.
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Like it right now.
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If you agree with me or put it in the comments or make a comment.
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Okay.
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Do you feel that salad should have
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the option of being chopped every time you order it?
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Well, yeah.
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Hey, can I have can I have the Caesar salad?
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Would you like that chopped.
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It's it's not hard for them.
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More work for them because they have to chop it.
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So what.
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Listen people charge me $0.50 more for the salad because you got to chop it.
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And then next time we'll talk about serving me warm bread with hard butter.
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That's.
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That's ridiculous. Anyway.
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Anyway, Tony, thank you for being open and honest.
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Yes, with the Waltons, that was a big one.
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Everyone. That was a big one. Don't tease me. Okay, that was good.
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Thank you so much. Thanks, everyone.
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Have a wonderful question today by.