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My take on 75 Hard · Mom Gone Mild

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  Hey guys, welcome back to Mom gone mild.
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  If you're new here, you're in for a good episode.
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  If you've been here, OK, I feel like this is a long-awaited one.
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  My take on 75 hard. Yes, a big girl completed that
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  shit. I went from 197 to 170 lbs.
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  Love that, proud of that. But honestly, this just turned
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  into so much more than just weight loss.
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  And I already know this episode is going to be a long 1.
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  So grab an Aulani, grab an iced coffee, wine, whatever your
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  emotional support beverages, go on your girl walks, fold your
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  laundry, clean your kitchen, whatever.
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  Because we have a lot to unpack. Because this isn't just a how I
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  lost weight episode. This is a how I thought 75 hard
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  was literally for the clinically insane.
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  And then somehow I became one of them.
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  Yeah, this is a couch to two workouts a day episode.
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  This is a water should become illegal after this episode.
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  And honestly, somewhere between the gallon of water, crying on
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  day 8, countless outdoor walks, forcing myself through workouts
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  absolutely didn't want to do, I found myself again.
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  So where the hell do I even start with this episode?
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  I've been going back and forth, but let's just get into it.
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  You guys know if you listen to me, in previous episodes, your
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  girl has had a complicated relationship with her weight.
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  I'm just that girl. I'm lucky.
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  At my skinniest I was 115 lbs. You can think drugs for that
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  one. I know, but at my heaviest I
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  shot up to 225 lbs, then maybe I'd get down to 116, then back
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  again and then I'd be motivated, then back down.
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  Your girl was the literal definition of yo-yo dieting.
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  Literally I would do anything except workout.
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  And I think for so long I was obsessed with losing weight, but
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  I wasn't obsessed with changing my lifestyle because I've
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  learned these are two very completely different things.
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  Because I'd hit a goal, be super proud of myself, celebrate, and
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  guess what? I'd be like, I'm going to
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  celebrate with a meal and it would just be absolute trash.
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  Like, yay, I lost weight. I would reward myself.
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  And just it would just be an endless freaking cycle.
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  Like it didn't make sense. And listen, I talk about
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  postpartum depression a lot on this podcast.
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  Don't worry. I promise this episode isn't
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  about that. If you want to go ahead and hear
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  more about my postpartum story, which has a lot to do with this,
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  go on to earlier episodes. Because when you're mentally
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  struggling and checked out, taking care of yourself feels
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  like the hardest thing. Like hard, hard food just meant
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  a lot to me. I felt like we were in a
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  relationship. And those people that said food
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  is fuel, Yeah, I thought that they were crazy.
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  I was like, OK, not to be rude, but shut the hell up.
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  Some naturally skinny person definitely made that saying up
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  because food wasn't just fuel to me.
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  Food was comfort. Food was like celebration.
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  Food was boredom, food was because I was sad, food was
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  because I was having a craving, food was because I had a
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  freaking bad day and I needed to just control something and food
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  was it. Food was everything to me.
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  I know it sounds crazy. DoorDash obsessed cooking.
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  I avoided it at all costs. Sometimes I would literally
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  cook. I hated it.
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  And then I would still order DoorDash.
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  I wanted crumble cookie on a random Wednesday.
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  Your girl got it on DoorDash and it would just show up.
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  Starbucks breakfast was my go to.
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  I literally had so many calories it could feed like 4 people.
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  Lunch probably. DoorDash didn't dinner
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  definitely doordashed it. And the crazy part I genuinely
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  thought like this was normal. I don't know it was just my
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  lifestyle as my go to and mind you I was doing all of this
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  while on Ozempic. Yes I know and let me be really
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  honest about something because I'm a little tired of the
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  conversation around GLP ones. Yes I am on a GLP one.
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  I have never ever hit that fact. I am a big girl with type 2
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  diabetes. Does it help?
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  Sure absolutely. My A1C has dropped but let me
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  tell you something, it never worked for me until I started
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  putting in the work. And what does that mean?
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  Well, I think some people look at it and they're like, oh, it's
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  a cheat code for being skinny. It's a magic shot, girl.
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  Absolutely not. Because if you don't change your
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  habits, if you don't move your body, if you don't work on, you
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  know, your mindset and relationship with food, work on
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  that food noise. Because that was my biggest
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  thing. I always felt freaking hungry.
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  I don't know. As much as I eat, I still felt
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  hungry and nothing changed. I know because I lived it.
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  One day I won't be on it anymore.
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  And then what? I don't plan on gaining the
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  weight back. So that's exactly why I had to
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  build habits. I had to.
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  I have to just use it for my advantage now because this isn't
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  just like a temporary fix, not a Band-Aid.
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  For me, this is about changing my lifestyle.
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  So no, for me, this was never the easy way out.
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  I don't know. I mean, you can be have your own
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  opinions on GLP ones. I'm very like, if it doesn't
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  really affect me or hurt anyone natively, I really could care
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  less. I mean, you know, Fast forward a
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  little, I remember getting out of the shower just one day and
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  this is probably going to be super vulnerable, but whatever.
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  I've talked to you guys about so many things.
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  So I just remember standing there naked looking at myself in
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  the mirror and just thinking wow who the fuck is this?
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  Not only am I overweight that I have been my almost my whole
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  life. My body has changed after having
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  Axel. Obviously it's natural like
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  really change. Things just sat differently.
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  I had like I couldn't explain it like just like stuff were didn't
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  belong. I just felt disconnected.
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  Just like whose freaking body is this?
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  Because postpartum changes you. I know, here I go again.
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  But that's it's the truth. I was changed mentally,
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  emotionally, physically. Shit, I think I was even changed
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  spiritually because it was just like a lot.
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  And around that time, Randy said he wanted to do something
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  drastic. He wanted to do 75 hard.
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  And immediately my brain was like who does he think he is?
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  Absolutely the fuck not because I had heard about 75 hard years
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  ago. I remember like two of our
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  friends did it and I genuinely remember thinking like these two
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  people that I love so much and I know forever have officially
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  joined a cult. Yes I know.
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  I'm sorry. I thought 2 workouts a day, no
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  alcohol, no cheat meals, reading 10 pages a gallon of water for
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  75 days. Like like who created it sounded
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  like a torture program. Because honestly that sounded
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  miserable to me. It sounded boring.
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  It sounded not fun. It sounded freaking extreme and
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  I just always thought like that could never be me.
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  And somehow just, I remember looking at Randy and said, OK,
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  I'll do it too. In his face.
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  I love him. He believes in me, guys, this is
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  not to do. But he was just in pure shock.
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  Honestly, I shocked myself, 'cause I was like, who?
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  Who said that? I said that.
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  But here's the thing about me, if you don't know already, I
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  have a very addictive personality, hence the drug and
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  food addiction. If I decide I'm doing something,
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  it becomes my entire personality.
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  I know it sounds intense. I am a very intense person and
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  we actually made the decision two months before starting 75
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  hard, which honestly really helped me Because your girl went
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  on research mode. I was like a freaking detective.
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  I watch all the YouTube videos, all the tik toks.
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  I listen to the podcast, I watch people that thrive during 7500.
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  I watch people that failed, I watch people that quit on day
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  73. I really needed to understand
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  what exactly I was signing up for.
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  And the biggest thing for me was figuring out the food, of
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  course, because I already knew there was no way in hell I could
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  like survive on like a keto diet.
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  I could not survive on a low carb diet.
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  And look, if your body thrives that way, beautiful, amazing.
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  I love that for you. But it just it, I've tried it so
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  many times and it's just not me. I needed something that's
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  sustainable because 75 days is a lot of work.
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  That's when I landed on the Whole Foods diet.
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  And honestly, Whole Foods to me just made the most sense because
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  I knew something about myself. If I ever felt restricted, like
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  it's just like it's over. Like imagine like someone tells
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  you you can never do this ever again.
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  Suddenly my mind is like, that's all I want to do.
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  I can't have processed sugar. Cool.
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  Now I want like everything. And to me, it didn't feel like a
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  sad diet like chicken and broccoli.
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  Because honestly, if you really think about it, it's just
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  cleaner ingredients. And when I tell you I became
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  insane about ingredients, I mean insane.
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  I read every single label, everything, everything.
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  I read all the sauces, the seasonings.
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  We only ended up using like one seasoning.
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  It's all together. I can link it for you guys or
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  show it to you guys. The bread, drinks, snacks,
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  sparkling water that would really honestly surprise you.
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  What's in most of them? Like hold on, why does this
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  healthy item that I thought was the healthy is have like 47
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  chemicals? I don't even know how to
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  pronounce. So I immediately made the
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  decision. Your girl was going to cook
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  everything. I know every snack, every meal,
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  everything that we put into our bodies.
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  I just wanted to know exactly what was in it.
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  We never went out to eat. We never ordered.
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  And yeah, I fed meat and Randy, so it was a lot.
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  And the baby because he eats that way too.
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  So, you know, I'm a stay at home mom with an infant.
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  So now I'm trying to just like I'm all over the place, meal
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  prep, cook from scratch, survive motherhood, drink a gallon of
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  water, somehow squeeze in two workouts a day.
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  Who decided to say yes on this? And then I reminded myself,
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  girl, you did. And another huge piece of this
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  is of course, the workouts because people love just saying
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  like, oh, I'll go to the gym. OK, With what?
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  Childcare girl? With what free time?
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  Because if you're a stay at home mom, you know, as well as a
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  working mom, it's not always just like, oh, babe, I'm going
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  to head to the gym now. I'll see you like in an hour or
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  two. No, sometimes your workouts
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  happen while your baby's crying, when your baby wants to be held.
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  And when I first started this, Axel was clingy.
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  I could not put him down. Bluey or Miss Rachel was
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  literally keeping the peace around here.
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  And I know, I know, screen time. Sue me.
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  Honestly, if I had childcare, my treat would honestly be heading
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  to the gym or Pilates. I don't know.
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  It's just like just something for me, but that wasn't my
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  reality every day. My husband and my mother-in-law
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  helped me a lot, but it was definitely not every day.
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  So I had to figure out basically what worked for me, what worked
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  for my schedule, what worked for my baby.
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  And this is where I like fell in love with Grow With Joe.
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  I can honestly say I love this woman because baby Grow with Joe
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  saved me. That woman got me moving in my
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  house. No babysitter, no fancy
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  equipment, no gym anxiety, which I have always kind of struggled
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  with, you know, But it was nice. Like, I didn't have to, like,
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  leave my living room. And then, you know, we had our
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  final hurrah, Randy's 40th birthday.
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  And after that, it was game on. So yeah, so we started 75 hard.
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  And listen, I was prepared. I feel like I was overly
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  prepared, like mentally. Yeah, you're not prepared.
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  I did my research. I meal prep.
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  I had like 20 Pinterest board just prepared.
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  But let me tell you something. Nothing could have prepared me.
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  But I can't even talk for going from literal couch potato to
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  working out twice a day. Nothing my body I feel like was
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  like girl what the fuck are we doing the first week I almost
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  died. I know you guys are like this
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  girl is so dramatic but imagine like literally couch potato to
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  working out. But you know what I don't know
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  my body was like in complete shock.
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  I was so sore like in places I didn't even know existed.
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  I was tired. Your girl was hungry.
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  You know, I just, I feel like I question a lot of the decisions.
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  I question Mr. Andy Frisella because, respectfully, have you
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  seen him? Obviously, we do not live the
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  same kind of lifestyles. I question life.
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  And then day eight, day eight really hit me.
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  This was my first like, oh, shit.
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  Like, I, I, I don't know if I'm going to make it.
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  I remember it so clearly. It was late like maybe like 730
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  and yes, I know 7:30 is late for me.
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  OK, I sleep at like 8. I still had a workout laugh.
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  I had water left. I was freaking exhausted.
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  The baby had been well a lot that day.
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  My body hurt. I was mentally I felt like
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  checked out. I just wanted to sleep.
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  And I remember looking at Randy and just like, I was like
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  crying. I remember like super dramatic.
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  I just felt really defeated. And I told him like, it's fine,
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  I give up. You keep going.
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  And just like very casual, very dramatic, very Lex, very much
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  like I had already accepted my fate.
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  Like Day 8 was it. Well, that man took Axel.
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  He looked at me and he said just absolutely not.
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  There was no sympathy. There was no OK babe, it's fine.
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  There was no enabling. It was just like absolutely not.
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  He gave me this pep talk that honestly I barely even remember
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  because like I was just too busy feeling sorry for myself like I
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  always have in life. But I remember just what
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  happened next. I finished the workout, it was
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  late, I was annoyed. I finished my water, I was
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  sweaty, I was mad I was a complete bitch because of course
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  I just was annoyed with him that he made me, you know, push
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  myself so hard. But you know what?
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  I finished and that in itself was honestly the first major
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  habit I built. Stop leaving shit for later
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  because procrastinating during 75 hard is the most dangerous
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  game you can play. You think oh I'll do that
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  workout later. Suddenly it's 8:00 PM.
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  Used to have water left. You haven't read, you're tired,
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  the baby is not sleeping well. It's just like you go into this
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  freaking spiral. I don't know, Day.
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  He just felt like a lot for some reason.
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  I just became a do it earlier girl.
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  Workout earlier, water, finished that shit early, reading early.
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  I mean, because day 8 humbled my ass.
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  I was like, damn, I'm going to quit.
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  Day 8. I had already told you guys I
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  was starting and I was like, I can't even imagine having to
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  come on here and doing that. But one of my favorite parts of
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  this whole thing became the outdoor workouts.
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  It was me, Randy, Axel, and the girls.
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  Me and my dogs started doing them together.
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  Now, obviously, life happens. We didn't do every single
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  workout outside together because just, you know, schedules
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  happen. Randy works a few jobs.
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  Reality exists. But most days we were outside
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  walking together and I just felt like it was like such a nice
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  little bonding experience for us.
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  Those walks became so much more than exercise, just forming A
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  deeper connection, Talking, laughing, complaining about how
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  many damn days we had left, complaining about how much water
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  we had to do, just doing something hard together.
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  And yeah, it just felt good. And Speaking of water, because
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  it's a lot a gallon, respectfully, that much water I
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  feel like should be illegal. I mean, like in a way I'm
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  kidding because it made my skin look good and clear.
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  But you know what? I became that girl.
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  I just started drinking. I was not a water girl at all.
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  I had three Coke Zeros a day. I had coffee every single day.
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  I still do. Of course, I would never give
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  that up. But you know what?
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  Just it's just it's a lot. A gallon is a lot.
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  It's traumatizing. I just like it is a lot like I
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  feel like I'm going to PTSD right now.
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  So what I decided to do is buy a 32 ounce hydrogen so I would
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  down to before 1:00 PM and then finish the rest by 7 because if
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  you don't finish like within a certain amount of time you are
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  up all night peeing. Yes, it's so fun and I was done
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  with that. Your body learns to adapt.
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  Look, that was one of the craziest parts.
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  At first I thought this is impossible, but by the end my
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  body just expected the water. Actually I kind of like stopped
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  drinking that much water and now I'm like constantly thirsty.
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  Being this person I didn't even recognize I know let's talk
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  about the reading. Honestly, it was not my favorite
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  part. I feel like a lot of people like
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  love reading and it's just it's not me.
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  I know growth it changes your mindset, it gives you personal
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  development. It's beautiful, people love it.
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  I love that for you if that's you, but finding my like just
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  finding the time to sit and read a physical book as a stay at
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  home mom with an infant that's clinging as hell when because
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  unless you're a mom, you don't understand the art form of what
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  is nap trapped. You got to pee, you're thirsty,
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  you're hungry, your freaking phone's dying.
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  But you know, you learn to adapt.
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  Your baby is sleeping on you like life is depending on it.
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  You literally don't even move. Like sometimes I'm like Dang, I
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  can't even breathe too hard because you'll wake up.
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  So Kindle app became my bestie and before you guys even come
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  for me, no, it's not cheating. Audio books aren't allowed.
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  But I was physically reading just on an app.
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  It's easier for me. It's it's what worked for me.
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  And I feel like that is the biggest thing in 75 hard, you
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  know, it's just you have to adapt it to your lifestyle.
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  I realized something during this challenge, I didn't have the
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  luxury of waiting for the perfect conditions.
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  And I feel like that is a huge thing for me.
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  That was always my excuse because I think so many of us,
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  especially moms, wait for the perfect time when life slows
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  down, when you have more energy, when the baby sleeps better and
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  yeah, when things calm down. But let me tell you something,
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  girl, it's never going to be the right time.
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  Life will keep lifing. It's never going to be the
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  perfect time to start something. Sometimes you have to learn to
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  choose yourself inside the chaos.
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  And that just realization hit me so hard because for so long, I
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  guess I don't know, you know, I loved everyone else.
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  I showed up for everyone else. I took care of everyone else but
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  me. Kind of like was last on that
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  list. I felt like I always chose me
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  last and 75 hard forced me to show up for myself.
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  Because if you don't do it, no one's going to do it for you.
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  Now, let's talk about the food. Yeah, I know.
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  Alright, let's get into it. So you know, no cheat meals for
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  75 days. It sounds psychotic like.
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  I'm sorry. It really does.
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  Especially coming from someone who used to celebrate with food,
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  who found food with like comfort and food just food was
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  everything. And for me that worked with, you
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  know, choosing a Whole Foods diet, staying in a calorie
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  deficit, that just worked for me especially.
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  I don't know, I didn't feel like I was living in a diet.
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  I just adapted and things just, I don't know, became good.
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  I mean, I wanted pad Thai, cool. I'd like use cleaner version,
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  like just cleaner ingredients. I wanted burgers, let's make it
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  pizza. I found ways around it, you
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  know, but still stayed in that Whole Foods and calorie deficit.
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  You get creative because one thing about me, if you tell me I
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  can't have something, I feel like I want it even more.
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  I'm like desperate to get it. And honestly, you'd be shocked
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  how creative you really become. I swear half of 75 hard was me
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  just becoming just a little detective with all the
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  ingredients. I feel like I became a part time
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  chef, you know? But like I still had ground
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  Turkey, ground beef, baked chicken, sweet potatoes on
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  rotation. Your girl fell in love with
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  broccolini and baked salmon. I had that at least once a week.
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  But meal prepping like just in batches literally saved us.
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  And I'm not going to pretend like I'm this healthy influencer
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  content person because I'm not. Sometimes it just has to be
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  simple. Sometimes it's survival mode,
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  sometimes it's like I'm hungry now and if I don't have
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  something meal prepped, then I'm going to cheat.
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  I was just super obsessed with Starbucks.
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  I have it like almost every morning and I can honestly say I
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  have a whole food approved drink just locked down.
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  And if you want it, I'll go ahead and share that with you
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  guys because I don't get keep anything, you know, but it's
• 24:16
  just like the biggest shift. I just started appreciating food
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  differently and I never thought I'd say that because remember I
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  used to hear food is fuel and want to roll my damn eyes
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  because I don't know something during this challenge I just
• 24:33
  started noticing wow, food really effects everything.
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  I mean my energy, my mood, my cravings guys went almost away.
• 24:45
  My workouts just felt better, my sleep, my skin, my inflammation
• 24:51
  when I talk about my skin, my skin was glowing.
• 24:54
  It still is. I I think it was like the whole
• 24:56
  food diet plus the water and it just felt so good Like this
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  wasn't just about losing weight anymore.
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  It's just like, this was about feeling good about myself and
• 25:06
  honestly that just shocked me because I genuinely thought like
• 25:12
  OK, feeling bloated, sluggish, tired, and surviving on caffeine
• 25:18
  was just part of being a normal adult.
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  Apparently not. I was just choosing a lot of bad
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  things for myself. But look, I still survive on
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  caffeine. I'm human.
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  This diet and this 75 heart is not like it's not going to
• 25:34
  change you completely. It just change your habits.
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  And I just like I genuinely now enjoy working out.
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  I know trust me, nobody is more shocked than me because at first
• 25:46
  I just wanted the day to be over.
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  Like cool, let me just survive these workouts so I can move on
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  with my life. Genuinely have started to enjoy
• 25:56
  moving my body, not because of how many calories I'm burning,
• 26:01
  not because of like the punishment that I want to give
• 26:04
  myself, not because I hated myself, because like I finally
• 26:09
  felt good. And that has just new meaning
• 26:12
  for me. I love feeling stronger.
• 26:17
  I love having more energy. And yeah, this Mama can always
• 26:21
  use more energy. I love just watching myself do
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  things I genuinely thought I could not.
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  Like. This body can do hard things.
• 26:33
  This body is freaking capable. Because especially after babies
• 26:38
  feel like we spend so much time being angrier at our bodies,
• 26:42
  just trying to shrink them, trying to fix them, just almost
• 26:46
  like punishing them, just wanting to change be back to how
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  we were. And 75 heart weirdly shifted
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  that for me. Like, yes, I love seeing that
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  physical progress. Obviously I'm human.
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  I mean, I'm just a girl, you know, but what really hit I was
• 27:06
  just realizing my body wasn't failing me.
• 27:10
  I felt good like I was my body was carrying me.
• 27:15
  I didn't have like all these like pains and I don't know that
• 27:19
  just got emotional. ANYWAYS, I signed up for harder
• 27:22
  Pilates classes. I stepped away from the cardio
• 27:25
  machines at the gym. I don't know if you guys know,
• 27:28
  but that is just like such a big win.
• 27:30
  When you finally enter the weight room, you just like if
• 27:33
  you know, you freaking know. It could be terrifying.
• 27:37
  Discuss the one fail I had, which was jump roping because
• 27:41
  apparently doing 75 hard wasn't enough for just me being such an
• 27:46
  overachiever. No, your girl decided.
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  You know what would be even more fun is a 30 day challenge of
• 27:53
  jump roping while still doing 75 hard.
• 27:59
  That was a fail because I had to try new things.
• 28:02
  I just felt like extra activated and then on day 64 of 75 hard,
• 28:08
  day 11 of like jump roping of 30 days, my knee said absolutely
• 28:14
  not girl. It gave out.
• 28:17
  I had so much pain I literally couldn't even put too much
• 28:22
  weight on it. I was in full panic mode because
• 28:26
  immediately my brain went from Oh my God how am I going to
• 28:32
  finish this 75 hard challenge? Because when you're literally
• 28:38
  deep into it, quitting doesn't even feel like an option
• 28:42
  anymore. And honestly, that moment taught
• 28:46
  me something super important. You cannot do everything.
• 28:51
  You literally just can't. Sometimes simple wins.
• 28:55
  Sometimes it's just enough is enough.
• 28:59
  Sometimes you just have to listen to your body.
• 29:02
  And my body was very loud and saying, girl, pick one challenge
• 29:07
  at a time. You don't know like who the hell
• 29:10
  are you? So I stopped.
• 29:12
  I know I have like a thing on TikTok.
• 29:14
  I haven't even taken it down or whatever.
• 29:16
  It was just like, it was just the right choice for me because
• 29:19
  like I always say, this adapted to your lifestyle.
• 29:23
  Discipline matters, but so does listening to your body.
• 29:27
  And honestly, by the end of 75 hard, I feel like I have learned
• 29:30
  so much. I learned you know that your
• 29:34
  mind is way stronger than you think and your body is 2.
• 29:40
  Your body really adapts. Your body surprises you in ways
• 29:45
  just like that you never knew existed.
• 29:47
  Your body carries you through things you swore you couldn't
• 29:51
  do. I learned healthy habits and
• 29:53
  actually I'm making them. Habits.
• 29:56
  I know. Groundbreaking, I know.
• 29:59
  Like I've been told this so many times.
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  But until you finally get it in your head, that's when it'll
• 30:04
  stick. But if I'm being really honest,
• 30:06
  there's one realization that hit me.
• 30:08
  Harder than a weight loss. Harder than the physical
• 30:11
  changes. Harder than fitting into smaller
• 30:13
  clothes. I don't know, Somewhere between
• 30:16
  the gallon of water, the outdoor walks, the meal prep, crying on
• 30:22
  day 8, just the discipline, showing up for myself every
• 30:26
  single day, I realized something.
• 30:30
  I beat postpartum depression. Not overnight, definitely it was
• 30:35
  not overnight. It was not perfect.
• 30:37
  It was ugly. Not like poof, suddenly like I
• 30:41
  healed. But little by little I started
• 30:44
  finding myself again. Workout by workout, meal by
• 30:48
  meal. I just felt like walk by walk.
• 30:51
  I just started choosing myself again and I felt so good and
• 30:57
  just that just I feel like meant more than any number on the
• 31:00
  scale ever could. So yes, I will say loud and
• 31:06
  fucking proud. A big girl completed 75 hard,
• 31:10
  going from 197 to 170. I am so proud of that.
• 31:16
  But the biggest win is that I proved to myself that I can do
• 31:21
  hard things, that I'm stronger than I thought, that I'm capable
• 31:25
  of actually sticking to something.
• 31:28
  And I feel like I had some people, like, not like haters,
• 31:32
  but they just have known me for so long that they didn't think
• 31:35
  that I could do it. And yeah, that girl that thought
• 31:38
  75 hard people were literally insane, she kind of became one
• 31:43
  of them. And now me and Randy are
• 31:45
  starting officially 75 soft on Monday, May 26th.
• 31:49
  So we're going to be a little slightly softer, still
• 31:52
  intentional, still discipline. It's still 145 minute workout a
• 31:57
  day, 80 ounces of water. We're doing the Whole Foods diet
• 32:02
  again because it's my favorite. It just makes me feel so good.
• 32:04
  But it's more like, you know, like you can have one cheat
• 32:08
  meal, you know, you can do the reading or podcast timing.
• 32:12
  Because this time it's just not about proving I can survive
• 32:16
  something. I've already proved that.
• 32:18
  I don't have to prove it to anybody else.
• 32:20
  And it's just about building a lifestyle.
• 32:22
  I feel like I can actually just keep up with that.
• 32:25
  I actually want. It's about getting stronger,
• 32:28
  being an active parent, showing up for myself, showing up for
• 32:32
  Axel, showing up for Randy. And listen, I announced this on
• 32:37
  Instagram already, but you know, I'm putting together A-75 soft
• 32:41
  kind of accountability group. I don't know, encouragement,
• 32:44
  meal prep ideas, motivation, real life support, just because
• 32:51
  I know like doing this, it's hard for people.
• 32:55
  It's a huge decision, it's huge lifestyle change.
• 32:59
  So I'm thinking maybe like something like a WhatsApp group
• 33:01
  or maybe like on Instagram or whatever want to start and you
• 33:05
  just want to message me privately.
• 33:06
  Go ahead, do that too. I would love to be your
• 33:08
  accountability buddy. It just doesn't matter.
• 33:11
  I feel like the hardest part is starting.
• 33:14
  I mean, whether you start messy, whether you start nervous,
• 33:17
  overwhelmed, motivated, just start because honestly, that is
• 33:21
  the hardest part in itself. If you're listening to this
• 33:25
  thinking 75 hard could never be me.
• 33:30
  Listen, I thought that way too. I remember reading somewhere
• 33:35
  only around like 5 to 10% of people who actually started 75
• 33:41
  hard actually completed it, meaning like 90 to 95% don't
• 33:47
  finish. And honestly, I get it because
• 33:50
  this challenge is no joke. I mean, but you know what?
• 33:55
  I can proudly say I did it. I did it as being a big girl.
• 34:01
  I did it and I completed it. I am going to give myself a pat
• 34:06
  on the back because I murdered that shit.
• 34:08
  Not perfectly, not without crying.
• 34:12
  I'm a crybaby sometimes, and that's OK.
• 34:15
  Not without complaining, Not without whining, not without
• 34:17
  bitching. Not without like a dramatic
• 34:20
  meltdown on day 8 thinking like, what the hell, who the hell am I
• 34:25
  thinking that I could do this. But you know what?
• 34:27
  I did it. And honestly, the biggest flex
• 34:30
  for me isn't even the weight loss.
• 34:33
  I mean, it feels good. But the biggest flex is that I
• 34:35
  showed up for myself every single day because on the other
• 34:39
  side of consistency, I found trust in myself again.
• 34:43
  And that changed my life. OK, well, I do want to let you
• 34:48
  guys know I love you guys. You know, you guys have been
• 34:51
  there through a lot of things. If you, you know, you made it
• 34:54
  all the way through this episode.
• 34:56
  I know it's a long one. You're a real one.
• 34:59
  But make sure you subscribe, leave a review, share this with
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  your gym bestie, your hot mom, your hot mom friends, your I'll
• 35:08
  start Monday friends. Send it to somebody who needs
• 35:11
  it. We've got so many exciting
• 35:13
  things coming up for Mom Gone mild.
• 35:15
  I'm doing a 1K giveaway coming up real soon.
• 35:19
  It's actually like the post will be up on May 26th.
• 35:22
  So yeah, upcoming guests. I know, I know you guys are
• 35:26
  going to love it and you guys are actually going to freak out.
• 35:28
  We're growing, we're evolving, we're becoming her.
• 35:32
  So I do want to say follow me on Instagram at Mongong Mild under
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  score podcast because there's so many things coming up, you guys,
• 35:40
  I'm so excited. And of course, the giveaway I
• 35:42
  want to you, you guys just got to follow me on Instagram and
• 35:46
  you guys, I swear will love it. But as always, same time, same
• 35:51
  place next week. Bye.