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Put your Own life-mask on first! Sage advice that none of us seem to follow.... · The Kaya Ramjee Show

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  Welcome
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  to
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  a
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  new
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  episode
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  of
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  the
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  She's
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  Electric
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  podcast.
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  This
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  is
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  one
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  of
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  our
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  classic
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  catch
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  up
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  episodes
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  as
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  lots
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  has
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  been
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  going
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  on
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  in
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  both
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  mine
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  and
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  Pia's
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  worlds.
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  So
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  why
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  don't
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  you
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  kick
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  us
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  off,
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  Pia?
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  How
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  are
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  you
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  doing?
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  How's
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  your
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  week
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  been?
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  I
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  am
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  on
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  a
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  high
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  because
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  today
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  is
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  the
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  last
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  day
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  of
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  my
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  client
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  work
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  before
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  I
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  finished
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  up
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  for
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  maternity
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  leave.
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  I
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  know,
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  I'm
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  just
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  like,
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  I'm
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  so
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  exhausted.
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  You're
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  like,
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  I'm
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  on
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  a
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  high
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  and
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  I'm
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  just
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  so
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  exhausted.
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  I,
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  oh
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  my
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  god,
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  I
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  mentally
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  and
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  emotionally
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  just
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  feel
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  beaten
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  up
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  and
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  I
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  just,
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  I
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  am
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  ready
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  to
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  Take
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  my
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  foot
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  off
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  the
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  accelerator.
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  I
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  leave
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  the
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  work
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  stuff
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  behind
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  and
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  start
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  really
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  focusing
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  on
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  getting
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  myself
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  ready
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  for
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  labor,
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  getting
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  my
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  house
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  ready,
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  getting
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  the
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  baby's
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  room
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  ready,
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  all
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  these
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  things
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  that
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  I'm
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  looking
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  forward
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  to
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  getting
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  out
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  of
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  my
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  masculine
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  energy
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  which
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  has
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  been
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  driving
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  me
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  forward
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  to
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  build
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  the
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  business
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  and
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  now
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  I'm
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  going
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  more
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  into
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  my
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  feminine.
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  I
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  just
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  want
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  to
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  celebrate
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  that
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  you've
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  made
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  it!
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  Like
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  you've
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  made
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  it
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  to
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  the
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  last
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  day!
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  I
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  know,
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  I
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  swear
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  to
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  god,
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  Khayat,
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  there
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  were
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  times
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  over
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  the
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  last
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  three
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  weeks.
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  I
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  always
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  knew
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  September
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  was
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  going
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  to
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  be
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  the
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  hardest
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  slog
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  because
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  I
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  had
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  all
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  these
• 1:20
  projects
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  to
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  deliver.
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  And
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  some
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  of
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  them
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  got
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  delayed
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  because
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  we're
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  waiting
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  on
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  grant
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  funding
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  from
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  the
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  Irish
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  government.
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  So
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  things
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  like
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  that,
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  they
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  just
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  get
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  delayed.
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  But
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  then
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  all
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  of
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  my
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  projects
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  that
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  I
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  was
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  hoping
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  to
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  do
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  over,
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  August,
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  September
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  all
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  got
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  moved
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  into
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  September.
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  When
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  people
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  talk
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  about
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  running
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  marathons
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  and
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  you
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  hit
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  that
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  wall
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  and
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  just
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  can't
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  go
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  on.
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  I
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  swear
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  to
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  God,
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  I
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  hate
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  that
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  in
• 1:42
  work
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  where
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  it's
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  I
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  just,
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  I
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  was
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  working
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  late
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  every
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  night.
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  Just
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  trying
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  to
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  get
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  all
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  these
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  client
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  projects
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  over
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  the
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  line
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  and.
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  I
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  ended
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  up
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  getting
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  sick,
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  which
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  of
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  course
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  I
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  just,
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  I
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  wasn't
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  looking
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  after
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  myself,
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  but
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  it's
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  funny,
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  like
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  as
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  my
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  energy
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  went
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  down
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  and
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  as
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  I
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  got
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  more
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  depleted,
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  that's
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  when
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  I
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  noticed
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  those
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  voices
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  in
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  my
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  head,
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  the
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  judge
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  was
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  getting
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  much,
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  much
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  stronger.
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  And
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  ended
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  up
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  with
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  a
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  really
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  bad
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  chest
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  infection
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  and
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  I
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  thought
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  stupidly,
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  when
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  you
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  think
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  you
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  can
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  fight
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  it
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  yourself,
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  I
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  was
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  like,
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  I'm
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  just
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  going
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  to,
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  go
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  to
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  bed
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  early
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  a
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  few
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  nights.
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  I'm
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  going
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  to
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  have
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  ginger
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  shots,
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  And
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  it's
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  it
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  was
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  a
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  really
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  bad
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  chest
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  infection.
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  I
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  woke
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  up
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  one
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  day,
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  I
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  could
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  barely
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  breathe.
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  I
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  put
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  work
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  back
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  so
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  much
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  because
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  I
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  just
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  couldn't
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  get
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  the
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  work
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  done.
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  I
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  had
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  absolutely
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  zero
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  energy.
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  So
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  I
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  went
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  and
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  I
• 2:29
  got
• 2:29
  antibiotics
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  and
• 2:30
  then
• 2:30
  I
• 2:30
  started
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  to
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  slowly
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  get
• 2:31
  better.
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  A
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  little
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  bit,
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  start
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  to
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  feel
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  a
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  little
• 2:33
  bit
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  better,
• 2:34
  but
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  it
• 2:36
  was
• 2:36
  funny
• 2:36
  I'd
• 2:36
  spent
• 2:36
  the
• 2:37
  entire
• 2:37
  weekend
• 2:37
  in
• 2:38
  bed.
• 2:38
  I
• 2:38
  was
• 2:38
  so
• 2:38
  depleted
• 2:39
  of
• 2:39
  energy
• 2:39
  and
• 2:40
  I
• 2:40
  was
• 2:41
  feeling
• 2:41
  terrible.
• 2:42
  And
• 2:42
  that's
• 2:42
  when
• 2:43
  the
• 2:43
  judge
• 2:43
  started,
• 2:44
  talking
• 2:44
  in
• 2:45
  what
• 2:45
  I
• 2:45
  always
• 2:46
  find
• 2:46
  the
• 2:46
  judge
• 2:46
  talks
• 2:47
  in
• 2:47
  really
• 2:47
  ambiguous
• 2:47
  terminology.
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  So
• 2:49
  it'll
• 2:49
  say
• 2:49
  things
• 2:49
  like,
• 2:50
  I'm
• 2:50
  so
• 2:50
  busy.
• 2:51
  Or
• 2:51
  it'll
• 2:52
  be
• 2:52
  like,
• 2:52
  of
• 2:52
  course
• 2:53
  I
• 2:53
  got
• 2:53
  sick,
• 2:54
  or
• 2:54
  it'll
• 2:54
  say,
• 2:55
  I
• 2:55
  have
• 2:55
  no
• 2:55
  time,
• 2:56
  I'm
• 2:56
  never
• 2:56
  going
• 2:56
  to
• 2:56
  finish
• 2:57
  up
• 2:57
  my,
• 2:58
  my
• 2:58
  maternity
• 2:58
  leave
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  on
• 2:59
  time,
• 3:00
  and
• 3:00
  it's
• 3:00
  like,
• 3:01
  what
• 3:01
  I've
• 3:01
  noticed
• 3:01
  about
• 3:01
  the
• 3:02
  judges,
• 3:02
  it
• 3:02
  speaks
• 3:03
  in
• 3:03
  this
• 3:03
  ambiguous
• 3:03
  language,
• 3:04
  which
• 3:04
  makes
• 3:04
  you
• 3:04
  feel
• 3:04
  hopeless.
• 3:06
  I
• 3:06
  was
• 3:06
  lying
• 3:06
  in
• 3:06
  bed
• 3:07
  feeling
• 3:07
  hopeless
• 3:08
  and
• 3:08
  Stephen
• 3:09
  came
• 3:09
  in
• 3:09
  to
• 3:09
  me
• 3:09
  and
• 3:09
  was
• 3:09
  like,
• 3:10
  In
• 3:10
  a
• 3:11
  really
• 3:11
  nice
• 3:11
  way,
• 3:11
  maybe
• 3:12
  you
• 3:12
  should
• 3:12
  just
• 3:12
  get
• 3:13
  out
• 3:13
  of
• 3:13
  bed.
• 3:13
  And,
• 3:13
  sometimes
• 3:14
  when
• 3:14
  you're
• 3:14
  stewing,
• 3:15
  it
• 3:16
  can
• 3:16
  make
• 3:16
  you
• 3:16
  feel
• 3:16
  worse,
• 3:17
  which
• 3:18
  I
• 3:18
  just
• 3:18
  found
• 3:18
  so
• 3:18
  funny
• 3:19
  because
• 3:19
  usually
• 3:19
  Stephen
• 3:20
  calls
• 3:20
  me
• 3:20
  the
• 3:20
  engine.
• 3:21
  I'm
• 3:21
  the
• 3:21
  one
• 3:21
  who
• 3:21
  would
• 3:22
  be
• 3:22
  getting
• 3:22
  people
• 3:22
  out
• 3:22
  of
• 3:22
  bed.
• 3:25
  But
• 3:25
  he
• 3:26
  went
• 3:26
  and
• 3:26
  he
• 3:26
  said,
• 3:26
  Oh,
• 3:26
  look,
• 3:26
  I'm
• 3:26
  going
• 3:27
  to
• 3:27
  take
• 3:27
  Enzo
• 3:27
  away
• 3:27
  for
• 3:27
  a
• 3:27
  few
• 3:28
  hours.
• 3:28
  You
• 3:28
  just
• 3:28
  take
• 3:29
  some
• 3:29
  rest.
• 3:30
  And
• 3:30
  it
• 3:30
  was
• 3:30
  in
• 3:30
  that
• 3:30
  moment
• 3:31
  when
• 3:31
  he
• 3:31
  left,
• 3:31
  I
• 3:31
  was
• 3:32
  like,
• 3:32
  you
• 3:32
  know
• 3:32
  what?
• 3:32
  He's
• 3:32
  absolutely
• 3:33
  right.
• 3:33
  I
• 3:33
  have
• 3:34
  been
• 3:34
  stewing
• 3:34
  here
• 3:35
  for
• 3:35
  the
• 3:36
  last
• 3:36
  few
• 3:36
  days.
• 3:36
  And
• 3:38
  energy
• 3:38
  flows
• 3:39
  where
• 3:39
  energy
• 3:39
  goes.
• 3:39
  And
• 3:40
  I
• 3:40
  was
• 3:40
  putting
• 3:40
  all
• 3:40
  my
• 3:40
  energy
• 3:41
  into
• 3:41
  how
• 3:41
  bad
• 3:41
  I'm
• 3:41
  feeling,
• 3:42
  how
• 3:42
  little
• 3:42
  time
• 3:43
  I
• 3:43
  have,
• 3:43
  how
• 3:44
  many
• 3:44
  client
• 3:44
  projects
• 3:45
  I
• 3:45
  have.
• 3:46
  So
• 3:46
  I
• 3:46
  kicked
• 3:47
  myself
• 3:47
  up
• 3:47
  the
• 3:47
  ass
• 3:48
  and
• 3:48
  I
• 3:49
  said,
• 3:49
  I'm
• 3:49
  just
• 3:49
  going
• 3:50
  to
• 3:50
  do
• 3:50
  one
• 3:50
  thing
• 3:51
  today.
• 3:51
  But
• 3:52
  it's
• 3:52
  going
• 3:52
  to
• 3:52
  make
• 3:52
  me
• 3:52
  feel
• 3:52
  like
• 3:53
  I've
• 3:53
  accomplished
• 3:53
  something.
• 3:54
  And
• 3:55
  so
• 3:55
  I
• 3:55
  went
• 3:55
  and
• 3:55
  I
• 3:56
  just,
• 3:56
  cleaned
• 3:57
  my
• 3:57
  kitchen.
• 3:57
  The
• 3:57
  house
• 3:58
  was
• 3:58
  just
• 3:58
  such
• 3:58
  a
• 3:58
  mess.
• 3:59
  And
• 4:00
  so
• 4:00
  I
• 4:00
  got
• 4:00
  up,
• 4:00
  I
• 4:00
  did
• 4:00
  that.
• 4:01
  I
• 4:01
  made
• 4:01
  a
• 4:01
  really
• 4:01
  nice
• 4:02
  dinner
• 4:02
  for
• 4:02
  us
• 4:02
  all
• 4:03
  clean
• 4:03
  the
• 4:03
  kitchen.
• 4:03
  And
• 4:04
  it
• 4:04
  was
• 4:04
  amazing.
• 4:04
  I
• 4:05
  actually
• 4:06
  was
• 4:06
  starting
• 4:06
  to
• 4:06
  feel
• 4:07
  a
• 4:07
  lot
• 4:07
  better.
• 4:08
  And
• 4:08
  then
• 4:09
  it's
• 4:09
  that
• 4:09
  little
• 4:09
  bit
• 4:09
  of
• 4:09
  energy
• 4:10
  that
• 4:10
  I
• 4:10
  gave
• 4:11
  myself.
• 4:11
  I
• 4:12
  sat
• 4:12
  down
• 4:12
  and
• 4:12
  I
• 4:12
  was
• 4:12
  like,
• 4:13
  okay.
• 4:13
  So
• 4:13
  I'm
• 4:13
  telling
• 4:13
  myself
• 4:14
  all
• 4:14
  these
• 4:14
  lies
• 4:14
  about
• 4:15
  I
• 4:15
  have
• 4:15
  no
• 4:15
  time.
• 4:16
  I
• 4:16
  am
• 4:16
  too
• 4:16
  busy.
• 4:17
  I
• 4:17
  have
• 4:17
  too
• 4:17
  many
• 4:17
  client
• 4:17
  projects.
• 4:18
  How
• 4:19
  can
• 4:19
  we
• 4:19
  separate
• 4:20
  fact
• 4:21
  from
• 4:21
  fiction?
• 4:21
  So
• 4:22
  what
• 4:22
  exactly
• 4:23
  is
• 4:24
  taking
• 4:24
  up
• 4:24
  my
• 4:24
  time?
• 4:25
  What
• 4:25
  exactly
• 4:27
  is
• 4:28
  keeping
• 4:28
  me
• 4:28
  busy?
• 4:29
  What
• 4:29
  do
• 4:29
  I
• 4:29
  have
• 4:29
  to
• 4:30
  do
• 4:30
  between
• 4:30
  now
• 4:30
  and
• 4:30
  the
• 4:31
  30th?
• 4:31
  So
• 4:32
  I
• 4:32
  wrote
• 4:32
  it
• 4:32
  all
• 4:32
  out
• 4:32
  and
• 4:32
  I
• 4:32
  realized
• 4:33
  I
• 4:33
  have
• 4:33
  four
• 4:33
  projects
• 4:34
  to
• 4:34
  deliver,
• 4:35
  but
• 4:35
  most
• 4:36
  of
• 4:36
  the
• 4:36
  work
• 4:36
  within
• 4:36
  those
• 4:37
  projects
• 4:37
  have
• 4:37
  actually
• 4:37
  been
• 4:38
  done.
• 4:38
  I
• 4:38
  just
• 4:38
  needed
• 4:39
  to
• 4:39
  collate
• 4:39
  it
• 4:39
  and
• 4:39
  put
• 4:40
  it
• 4:40
  together
• 4:40
  into
• 4:40
  final
• 4:41
  reports.
• 4:42
  So
• 4:42
  it's
• 4:42
  when
• 4:42
  it
• 4:42
  was
• 4:42
  all
• 4:43
  sitting
• 4:43
  there
• 4:43
  in
• 4:43
  front
• 4:43
  of
• 4:43
  me,
• 4:44
  I
• 4:44
  realized
• 4:45
  I
• 4:45
  wasn't
• 4:45
  as
• 4:45
  busy
• 4:46
  as
• 4:46
  I
• 4:46
  thought.
• 4:46
  And
• 4:47
  I
• 4:47
  did
• 4:47
  have
• 4:47
  more
• 4:47
  time
• 4:48
  than
• 4:48
  I
• 4:49
  was
• 4:49
  telling
• 4:49
  myself
• 4:50
  and
• 4:50
  actually
• 4:50
  the
• 4:51
  situation
• 4:51
  was
• 4:51
  far
• 4:52
  less
• 4:52
  hopeless
• 4:53
  than
• 4:53
  I'd
• 4:53
  previously
• 4:53
  said.
• 4:55
  It's
• 4:55
  really
• 4:55
  interesting
• 4:56
  listening
• 4:56
  to
• 4:56
  you
• 4:56
  recount
• 4:57
  that
• 4:57
  first
• 4:58
  of
• 4:58
  all,
• 4:58
  I'm
• 4:58
  like.
• 4:59
  Stephen
• 4:59
  has
• 5:00
  been
• 5:00
  listening,
• 5:01
  because
• 5:01
  he
• 5:02
  was
• 5:02
  ready
• 5:02
  to
• 5:03
  replay
• 5:03
  back
• 5:04
  to
• 5:04
  you
• 5:04
  your
• 5:05
  sage
• 5:06
  wisdom
• 5:06
  at
• 5:07
  the
• 5:07
  time
• 5:07
  when
• 5:07
  you
• 5:08
  needed
• 5:08
  it.
• 5:09
  I
• 5:09
  needed
• 5:09
  it.
• 5:09
  Actually,
• 5:10
  a
• 5:10
  ginger
• 5:10
  shot
• 5:11
  is
• 5:11
  not
• 5:11
  going
• 5:11
  to
• 5:11
  cut
• 5:11
  it.
• 5:12
  Yeah,
• 5:12
  exactly.
• 5:13
  Had
• 5:13
  a
• 5:13
  chest
• 5:13
  infection,
• 5:14
  but
• 5:14
  it's
• 5:15
  not
• 5:15
  all
• 5:15
  gone
• 5:15
  to
• 5:15
  shit.
• 5:16
  But
• 5:17
  also
• 5:17
  the
• 5:17
  power
• 5:18
  of.
• 5:19
  Identifying
• 5:21
  first
• 5:21
  that
• 5:21
  there
• 5:22
  is
• 5:22
  a
• 5:22
  voice
• 5:22
  and
• 5:22
  what
• 5:23
  the
• 5:23
  voice
• 5:23
  is
• 5:23
  saying
• 5:23
  to
• 5:24
  you
• 5:24
  because
• 5:25
  otherwise
• 5:26
  it's
• 5:27
  almost
• 5:27
  like
• 5:27
  we're
• 5:28
  just
• 5:30
  we're
• 5:30
  absorbing
• 5:31
  everything
• 5:31
  the
• 5:31
  voice
• 5:31
  is
• 5:32
  saying
• 5:32
  to
• 5:32
  us
• 5:32
  and
• 5:32
  it's
• 5:33
  becoming
• 5:33
  the
• 5:33
  truth
• 5:34
  and
• 5:34
  it's
• 5:34
  becoming
• 5:34
  our
• 5:34
  identity
• 5:35
  and
• 5:35
  it's
• 5:35
  becoming
• 5:36
  the
• 5:36
  reality
• 5:37
  that
• 5:37
  our
• 5:38
  reality
• 5:39
  when
• 5:39
  actually
• 5:39
  you
• 5:39
  know
• 5:40
  pulling
• 5:41
  out
• 5:41
  what
• 5:41
  this
• 5:41
  what
• 5:42
  the
• 5:42
  judge
• 5:42
  was
• 5:42
  saying
• 5:43
  you
• 5:43
  can
• 5:43
  then
• 5:44
  work
• 5:44
  through
• 5:44
  those
• 5:44
  questions
• 5:45
  like
• 5:46
  we
• 5:46
  did
• 5:47
  and
• 5:47
  realize
• 5:49
  That's
• 5:49
  what,
• 5:49
  what
• 5:49
  reality
• 5:50
  actually
• 5:50
  exists.
• 5:52
  And
• 5:52
  that's
• 5:52
  it.
• 5:53
  Exactly.
• 5:53
  With
• 5:54
  all
• 5:54
  of
• 5:54
  these
• 5:54
  things,
• 5:54
  it's
• 5:54
  about
• 5:55
  having
• 5:55
  an
• 5:55
  awareness
• 5:56
  that
• 5:56
  you're
• 5:56
  falling
• 5:56
  back
• 5:56
  into
• 5:57
  old
• 5:57
  patterns.
• 5:57
  And
• 5:58
  I
• 5:58
  think
• 5:58
  everybody
• 5:58
  falls
• 5:59
  back
• 5:59
  into
• 5:59
  old
• 6:00
  patterns
• 6:00
  when
• 6:00
  they're
• 6:00
  depleted.
• 6:02
  Which
• 6:02
  is
• 6:02
  why
• 6:02
  it
• 6:02
  is
• 6:03
  so
• 6:03
  important
• 6:03
  that
• 6:04
  we
• 6:04
  all
• 6:04
  manage
• 6:04
  our
• 6:05
  energy,
• 6:05
  because
• 6:05
  if
• 6:06
  we
• 6:06
  don't
• 6:06
  manage
• 6:06
  our
• 6:06
  energy,
• 6:07
  then
• 6:08
  we're
• 6:08
  not
• 6:08
  able
• 6:08
  to
• 6:08
  fight
• 6:09
  these
• 6:09
  behaviors
• 6:10
  and
• 6:10
  these
• 6:10
  patterns.
• 6:10
  And
• 6:10
  it's
• 6:11
  easier
• 6:11
  to
• 6:11
  fall
• 6:12
  back
• 6:12
  into
• 6:12
  that
• 6:12
  way
• 6:13
  of
• 6:13
  thinking,
• 6:14
  it
• 6:14
  took
• 6:14
  a
• 6:14
  lot
• 6:15
  of
• 6:15
  energy
• 6:15
  for
• 6:15
  me
• 6:15
  to
• 6:15
  sit
• 6:16
  down
• 6:16
  and
• 6:16
  be
• 6:16
  like,
• 6:16
  okay,
• 6:17
  I'm
• 6:17
  going
• 6:17
  to
• 6:17
  just
• 6:17
  catalog
• 6:18
  what's
• 6:18
  going
• 6:18
  on
• 6:18
  in
• 6:19
  my
• 6:19
  head
• 6:19
  right
• 6:19
  now.
• 6:20
  Sure.
• 6:20
  Negative
• 6:21
  emotions
• 6:21
  are
• 6:21
  easy,
• 6:22
  like
• 6:22
  going
• 6:23
  into
• 6:23
  that
• 6:23
  place
• 6:23
  because
• 6:24
  it's
• 6:24
  so
• 6:24
  familiar.
• 6:24
  We've
• 6:25
  spent
• 6:25
  so
• 6:25
  much
• 6:26
  time
• 6:26
  there.
• 6:26
  And
• 6:26
  the
• 6:26
  thing
• 6:27
  what
• 6:27
  you're
• 6:27
  reminding
• 6:27
  me
• 6:28
  and
• 6:28
  reminding
• 6:28
  other
• 6:29
  people
• 6:29
  listening
• 6:29
  to
• 6:29
  this
• 6:30
  is
• 6:30
  that
• 6:30
  there's
• 6:30
  no
• 6:31
  kind
• 6:31
  of
• 6:31
  end
• 6:32
  goal.
• 6:32
  There's
• 6:32
  no
• 6:32
  magic
• 6:34
  time
• 6:34
  in
• 6:34
  lala
• 6:34
  land.
• 6:35
  This
• 6:35
  stuff's
• 6:35
  never
• 6:36
  going
• 6:36
  to
• 6:36
  happen
• 6:36
  to
• 6:36
  me
• 6:36
  again.
• 6:37
  this
• 6:37
  is
• 6:37
  a
• 6:37
  life
• 6:38
  practice.
• 6:39
  As
• 6:39
  you
• 6:39
  said,
• 6:40
  it's
• 6:40
  knowing
• 6:40
  that
• 6:41
  when
• 6:41
  you're
• 6:41
  depleted,
• 6:42
  that
• 6:42
  is
• 6:42
  the
• 6:42
  time
• 6:42
  when
• 6:43
  you
• 6:43
  need
• 6:43
  to
• 6:43
  be
• 6:44
  on
• 6:44
  the
• 6:44
  lookout
• 6:45
  for
• 6:46
  the
• 6:46
  saboteurs,
• 6:47
  the
• 6:47
  voices
• 6:47
  in
• 6:47
  your
• 6:47
  head
• 6:47
  that
• 6:48
  are
• 6:48
  going
• 6:48
  to
• 6:48
  be
• 6:48
  tearing
• 6:48
  you
• 6:48
  down.
• 6:49
  You're
• 6:50
  absolutely
• 6:50
  right.
• 6:50
  It's
• 6:50
  a
• 6:50
  life
• 6:51
  practice
• 6:51
  and
• 6:51
  people
• 6:52
  think
• 6:52
  when
• 6:52
  we're
• 6:52
  talking
• 6:53
  about
• 6:53
  these
• 6:53
  things,
• 6:54
  they
• 6:54
  say
• 6:54
  things
• 6:55
  like
• 6:55
  you're
• 6:56
  just
• 6:56
  so
• 6:56
  good
• 6:56
  at
• 6:56
  that.
• 6:57
  No,
• 6:57
  I'm
• 6:57
  not
• 6:57
  so
• 6:58
  good
• 6:58
  at
• 6:58
  this.
• 6:58
  I
• 6:58
  fall
• 6:59
  back
• 6:59
  all
• 6:59
  the
• 6:59
  time,
• 7:00
  but
• 7:01
  there
• 7:01
  is
• 7:01
  a
• 7:01
  pattern
• 7:01
  that
• 7:02
  I
• 7:02
  see.
• 7:02
  If
• 7:02
  I
• 7:02
  don't
• 7:03
  look
• 7:03
  after
• 7:03
  myself,
• 7:04
  if
• 7:04
  I
• 7:04
  don't
• 7:04
  take
• 7:04
  time
• 7:05
  for,
• 7:06
  shutting
• 7:06
  down
• 7:06
  my
• 7:06
  brain
• 7:07
  through
• 7:07
  meditation,
• 7:08
  if
• 7:08
  I
• 7:08
  don't
• 7:08
  take
• 7:09
  time
• 7:09
  for
• 7:09
  a
• 7:09
  bit
• 7:09
  of
• 7:10
  natural
• 7:10
  movement
• 7:10
  throughout
• 7:11
  my
• 7:11
  day,
• 7:11
  if
• 7:11
  I
• 7:11
  don't
• 7:11
  take
• 7:12
  space
• 7:12
  in
• 7:12
  my
• 7:12
  day
• 7:13
  and
• 7:13
  I
• 7:13
  just,
• 7:14
  fill
• 7:14
  everything
• 7:14
  up
• 7:15
  with
• 7:15
  looking
• 7:15
  after
• 7:16
  Enzo,
• 7:16
  looking
• 7:16
  after
• 7:17
  Stephen,
• 7:18
  cooking
• 7:18
  dinners
• 7:18
  for
• 7:18
  the
• 7:18
  house,
• 7:20
  all
• 7:20
  my
• 7:20
  client
• 7:20
  work.
• 7:21
  And
• 7:21
  I
• 7:21
  put
• 7:21
  everybody.
• 7:22
  Else
• 7:22
  in
• 7:23
  front
• 7:23
  of
• 7:23
  me,
• 7:24
  then
• 7:25
  that's
• 7:25
  when
• 7:25
  I
• 7:25
  deplete
• 7:25
  my
• 7:25
  energy.
• 7:26
  And
• 7:26
  that's
• 7:26
  when
• 7:26
  I
• 7:26
  fall
• 7:26
  back
• 7:27
  into
• 7:27
  those
• 7:27
  patterns.
• 7:28
  I
• 7:28
  think
• 7:29
  we've
• 7:29
  we
• 7:29
  talked
• 7:30
  on
• 7:30
  a
• 7:30
  recent
• 7:30
  episode
• 7:31
  about
• 7:31
  the
• 7:31
  value
• 7:32
  of
• 7:32
  asking
• 7:33
  yourself,
• 7:33
  how
• 7:33
  do
• 7:33
  you
• 7:34
  want
• 7:34
  to
• 7:34
  feel
• 7:34
  today?
• 7:35
  And
• 7:36
  my
• 7:36
  three
• 7:36
  favorite
• 7:36
  questions
• 7:37
  for
• 7:37
  just
• 7:38
  really
• 7:38
  basic
• 7:39
  journaling
• 7:39
  are
• 7:40
  like,
• 7:40
  what
• 7:40
  do
• 7:40
  you
• 7:40
  want?
• 7:41
  How
• 7:41
  do
• 7:41
  you
• 7:41
  want
• 7:42
  to
• 7:42
  feel?
• 7:43
  And
• 7:43
  the
• 7:43
  last
• 7:43
  one,
• 7:44
  which
• 7:44
  I
• 7:44
  think
• 7:44
  What
• 7:44
  you're
• 7:45
  talking
• 7:45
  about
• 7:46
  really
• 7:46
  captures
• 7:47
  why
• 7:47
  this
• 7:47
  can
• 7:47
  be
• 7:48
  such
• 7:48
  a
• 7:48
  powerful
• 7:48
  question
• 7:49
  is
• 7:49
  what
• 7:49
  can
• 7:49
  I
• 7:49
  do
• 7:49
  for
• 7:49
  myself
• 7:50
  today?
• 7:51
  And
• 7:51
  often
• 7:52
  we're
• 7:52
  so
• 7:53
  focused
• 7:54
  on,
• 7:54
  the
• 7:54
  work
• 7:55
  that
• 7:55
  we've
• 7:55
  got
• 7:55
  to
• 7:55
  do,
• 7:56
  the
• 7:56
  household
• 7:56
  that
• 7:56
  we
• 7:56
  have
• 7:56
  to
• 7:57
  manage,
• 7:57
  the
• 7:57
  children
• 7:58
  that
• 7:58
  we
• 7:58
  have
• 7:58
  to
• 7:58
  pull
• 7:58
  in,
• 7:59
  pour
• 7:59
  into
• 7:59
  our
• 7:59
  relationship.
• 8:01
  And
• 8:01
  there's
• 8:01
  this
• 8:01
  thing
• 8:02
  over
• 8:02
  here,
• 8:02
  which
• 8:02
  is
• 8:04
  you
• 8:04
  peer,
• 8:04
  you,
• 8:04
  the
• 8:05
  individual,
• 8:05
  like
• 8:06
  you
• 8:06
  yourself.
• 8:07
  And
• 8:08
  every
• 8:08
  single
• 8:08
  day.
• 8:10
  What
• 8:10
  can
• 8:10
  you
• 8:10
  do
• 8:10
  for
• 8:10
  yourself
• 8:11
  today?
• 8:11
  What
• 8:11
  small
• 8:12
  thing
• 8:12
  can
• 8:12
  you
• 8:12
  do
• 8:12
  for
• 8:12
  yourself?
• 8:13
  That's
• 8:13
  not
• 8:13
  about
• 8:14
  moving
• 8:15
  all
• 8:15
  of
• 8:15
  those
• 8:15
  other
• 8:15
  needles.
• 8:16
  That's
• 8:16
  just
• 8:16
  about
• 8:17
  pouring
• 8:17
  into
• 8:17
  you.
• 8:18
  And
• 8:19
  that
• 8:19
  just
• 8:19
  one
• 8:19
  small
• 8:20
  action
• 8:20
  can
• 8:20
  really
• 8:21
  shift
• 8:21
  the
• 8:22
  scales
• 8:22
  and
• 8:22
  it
• 8:23
  can
• 8:23
  make
• 8:23
  you
• 8:23
  feel
• 8:24
  not,
• 8:25
  the
• 8:25
  proverbial
• 8:25
  you,
• 8:26
  the
• 8:26
  you
• 8:27
  for
• 8:27
  all
• 8:27
  of
• 8:27
  us,
• 8:28
  just
• 8:28
  a
• 8:28
  bit
• 8:28
  more
• 8:29
  cared
• 8:29
  for,
• 8:29
  yeah.
• 8:30
  I
• 8:30
  don't
• 8:30
  think
• 8:31
  these
• 8:31
  practices
• 8:31
  are
• 8:32
  difficult.
• 8:33
  Little
• 8:33
  things
• 8:33
  that.
• 8:34
  You
• 8:34
  do
• 8:35
  consistently
• 8:35
  that
• 8:36
  move
• 8:36
  the
• 8:36
  needle.
• 8:37
  So
• 8:37
  whether
• 8:37
  that's.
• 8:38
  In
• 8:38
  the
• 8:38
  middle
• 8:39
  of
• 8:39
  your
• 8:39
  day
• 8:39
  when
• 8:39
  you
• 8:40
  have
• 8:40
  meeting
• 8:40
  after
• 8:40
  meeting,
• 8:41
  stepping
• 8:41
  out
• 8:41
  and
• 8:41
  getting
• 8:42
  outside,
• 8:42
  getting
• 8:43
  some
• 8:43
  sun
• 8:43
  in
• 8:43
  the
• 8:43
  morning
• 8:44
  is
• 8:44
  really
• 8:44
  important.
• 8:46
  What
• 8:46
  I've
• 8:46
  been
• 8:46
  doing,
• 8:47
  and
• 8:47
  it's
• 8:47
  actually
• 8:47
  been
• 8:48
  game
• 8:48
  changing
• 8:48
  for
• 8:48
  me
• 8:49
  is,
• 8:49
  that
• 8:49
  app
• 8:50
  that
• 8:50
  we
• 8:50
  love
• 8:50
  superhuman
• 8:51
  app.
• 8:52
  So
• 8:52
  there's
• 8:52
  a
• 8:53
  morning
• 8:53
  one.
• 8:53
  It's
• 8:53
  nine
• 8:54
  minutes
• 8:54
  long
• 8:54
  and
• 8:54
  it's
• 8:55
  just
• 8:55
  a
• 8:55
  walking
• 8:55
  meditation
• 8:56
  called
• 8:56
  wake
• 8:56
  up
• 8:56
  your
• 8:56
  body
• 8:57
  and
• 8:57
  mind
• 8:58
  it's
• 8:58
  been
• 8:58
  such
• 8:59
  bad
• 8:59
  weather
• 8:59
  in
• 8:59
  Ireland.
• 9:00
  So
• 9:00
  I
• 9:00
  haven't
• 9:01
  been
• 9:01
  getting
• 9:01
  out
• 9:01
  for
• 9:01
  walks,
• 9:02
  but
• 9:02
  I've
• 9:02
  just
• 9:02
  been
• 9:02
  walking
• 9:03
  around
• 9:03
  my
• 9:03
  house
• 9:03
  with
• 9:03
  my
• 9:04
  headphones
• 9:04
  on
• 9:04
  listening
• 9:05
  to
• 9:05
  this.
• 9:05
  It's
• 9:06
  the
• 9:06
  first
• 9:06
  thing
• 9:06
  I
• 9:06
  do
• 9:06
  at
• 9:06
  about
• 9:07
  six
• 9:07
  in
• 9:07
  the
• 9:07
  morning
• 9:08
  and
• 9:08
  I've
• 9:08
  been
• 9:08
  doing
• 9:08
  it
• 9:09
  every
• 9:09
  single
• 9:10
  morning
• 9:10
  and
• 9:10
  it
• 9:10
  just
• 9:11
  gets
• 9:11
  me
• 9:11
  from
• 9:11
  feeling.
• 9:15
  Exactly.
• 9:16
  And,
• 9:16
  she
• 9:16
  has
• 9:17
  you
• 9:17
  focus
• 9:17
  on
• 9:17
  what
• 9:17
  am
• 9:17
  I
• 9:17
  grateful
• 9:18
  for?
• 9:19
  And
• 9:19
  just
• 9:19
  gets
• 9:19
  you
• 9:20
  to
• 9:20
  like
• 9:20
  really
• 9:20
  tune
• 9:20
  into
• 9:20
  your
• 9:20
  body
• 9:21
  and
• 9:21
  slowly
• 9:22
  start
• 9:22
  to
• 9:22
  wake
• 9:22
  it
• 9:23
  up.
• 9:23
  And
• 9:23
  then
• 9:23
  the
• 9:23
  power
• 9:24
  of
• 9:24
  the
• 9:24
  music
• 9:24
  goes
• 9:24
  up
• 9:25
  a
• 9:25
  bit
• 9:25
  more.
• 9:25
  And
• 9:25
  by
• 9:25
  the
• 9:25
  end
• 9:26
  you're
• 9:26
  like
• 9:27
  arms
• 9:27
  in
• 9:27
  the
• 9:27
  air,
• 9:28
  anyone
• 9:29
  would
• 9:29
  think
• 9:29
  I'm
• 9:29
  absolutely
• 9:30
  crazy.
• 9:30
  It's
• 9:30
  completely
• 9:30
  dark
• 9:31
  in
• 9:31
  the
• 9:31
  house
• 9:31
  and
• 9:31
  I'm
• 9:32
  feeling
• 9:32
  super
• 9:32
  duper
• 9:33
  happy
• 9:33
  and
• 9:34
  just
• 9:34
  excited
• 9:34
  for
• 9:34
  my
• 9:35
  day.
• 9:36
  And
• 9:36
  that's
• 9:36
  a
• 9:36
  nine
• 9:37
  minute
• 9:37
  practice.
• 9:38
  Anybody
• 9:38
  can
• 9:38
  do
• 9:39
  things
• 9:39
  like
• 9:39
  that.
• 9:39
  And
• 9:40
  I
• 9:40
  remember
• 9:40
  when
• 9:41
  we
• 9:41
  were
• 9:41
  voice
• 9:41
  noting
• 9:41
  last
• 9:42
  week
• 9:42
  when
• 9:42
  you
• 9:42
  were
• 9:43
  in
• 9:44
  the
• 9:44
  swirls
• 9:44
  of
• 9:44
  everything
• 9:45
  going
• 9:45
  on.
• 9:45
  And
• 9:46
  then
• 9:46
  you
• 9:46
  told
• 9:46
  me
• 9:46
  one
• 9:47
  day
• 9:47
  you
• 9:47
  were
• 9:47
  like,
• 9:47
  I
• 9:48
  got
• 9:48
  out
• 9:49
  and
• 9:49
  I
• 9:49
  went
• 9:49
  down
• 9:49
  to
• 9:49
  the
• 9:49
  beach
• 9:50
  straight
• 9:50
  away.
• 9:51
  And
• 9:51
  so
• 9:51
  funny
• 9:52
  cause
• 9:52
  it's
• 9:52
  so
• 9:52
  often
• 9:53
  when
• 9:53
  I
• 9:53
  hear
• 9:54
  you
• 9:55
  moving
• 9:55
  yourself
• 9:56
  out
• 9:56
  of
• 9:57
  feeling
• 9:57
  hopeless
• 9:57
  what
• 9:58
  you
• 9:58
  do
• 9:58
  is
• 9:59
  it's
• 9:59
  often
• 9:59
  the
• 9:59
  same
• 9:59
  thing.
• 10:00
  You're
• 10:00
  just
• 10:00
  like,
• 10:00
  I
• 10:00
  went
• 10:00
  to
• 10:00
  the
• 10:01
  beach.
• 10:01
  I
• 10:01
  did
• 10:01
  this
• 10:02
  thing
• 10:02
  for
• 10:02
  myself
• 10:02
  first
• 10:03
  thing
• 10:03
  in
• 10:03
  the
• 10:03
  morning.
• 10:03
  It
• 10:03
  wasn't
• 10:04
  about
• 10:04
  getting
• 10:05
  exercise
• 10:05
  and
• 10:05
  it
• 10:05
  wasn't
• 10:06
  about
• 10:06
  this
• 10:06
  thing
• 10:06
  on
• 10:06
  my
• 10:07
  checklist
• 10:07
  got
• 10:08
  to
• 10:08
  do.
• 10:08
  It
• 10:08
  was
• 10:09
  just,
• 10:09
  what
• 10:09
  do
• 10:10
  I
• 10:10
  feel
• 10:10
  like?
• 10:11
  And
• 10:11
  it's
• 10:11
  that's
• 10:12
  like
• 10:12
  a
• 10:12
  coming
• 10:12
  home
• 10:13
  practice.
• 10:14
  And
• 10:14
  it's
• 10:15
  what
• 10:15
  I
• 10:15
  have
• 10:15
  found
• 10:16
  is
• 10:16
  that
• 10:16
  when
• 10:16
  you
• 10:17
  have
• 10:17
  all
• 10:17
  these
• 10:17
  things
• 10:17
  on
• 10:17
  your
• 10:17
  to
• 10:18
  do
• 10:18
  list
• 10:18
  and
• 10:18
  you're
• 10:19
  like,
• 10:19
  no,
• 10:19
  I'm
• 10:19
  not
• 10:19
  leaving
• 10:20
  until
• 10:20
  I
• 10:20
  get
• 10:20
  it
• 10:20
  done.
• 10:21
  You
• 10:21
  end
• 10:21
  up
• 10:21
  just
• 10:21
  sitting
• 10:22
  there
• 10:22
  and
• 10:22
  doing
• 10:22
  this
• 10:23
  half
• 10:23
  ass
• 10:23
  kind
• 10:23
  of
• 10:23
  work
• 10:24
  and
• 10:24
  it's
• 10:25
  not
• 10:25
  good
• 10:25
  quality
• 10:26
  work.
• 10:26
  So
• 10:26
  what
• 10:27
  I've
• 10:27
  really
• 10:27
  gotten
• 10:27
  better
• 10:27
  at
• 10:28
  over
• 10:28
  the
• 10:28
  last
• 10:28
  few
• 10:28
  years
• 10:28
  is
• 10:29
  going,
• 10:29
  okay,
• 10:30
  I've
• 10:31
  hit
• 10:31
  a
• 10:31
  wall
• 10:31
  here.
• 10:32
  I'm
• 10:32
  not
• 10:32
  getting
• 10:33
  anywhere,
• 10:33
  and
• 10:33
  I'm
• 10:34
  feeling
• 10:35
  overwhelmed,
• 10:35
  so
• 10:35
  I'm
• 10:36
  just
• 10:36
  going
• 10:36
  to
• 10:36
  take
• 10:36
  15
• 10:37
  minutes,
• 10:37
  I'm
• 10:37
  going
• 10:37
  to
• 10:37
  go
• 10:37
  down
• 10:37
  to
• 10:37
  the
• 10:38
  beach,
• 10:38
  I'm
• 10:38
  going
• 10:38
  to
• 10:38
  walk,
• 10:38
  I'm
• 10:39
  going
• 10:39
  to
• 10:39
  get
• 10:39
  some
• 10:39
  air,
• 10:39
  and
• 10:40
  I'm
• 10:40
  going
• 10:40
  to
• 10:40
  come
• 10:40
  back
• 10:40
  refreshed,
• 10:41
  and
• 10:41
  with
• 10:42
  new
• 10:42
  ideas.
• 10:43
  And
• 10:43
  that
• 10:43
  always
• 10:44
  works.
• 10:45
  Yeah,
• 10:46
  I
• 10:46
  think
• 10:46
  it's
• 10:46
  a
• 10:46
  lot
• 10:46
  of
• 10:47
  the
• 10:47
  time,
• 10:48
  I
• 10:48
  find
• 10:48
  myself
• 10:49
  falling
• 10:49
  into
• 10:49
  that
• 10:49
  trap
• 10:50
  where
• 10:50
  you
• 10:50
  think
• 10:51
  you
• 10:51
  wake
• 10:51
  up
• 10:51
  in
• 10:51
  the
• 10:51
  morning
• 10:52
  Where
• 10:52
  you
• 10:52
  got
• 10:53
  a
• 10:53
  level
• 10:53
  of
• 10:53
  anxiety
• 10:54
  already
• 10:55
  surging
• 10:55
  through
• 10:56
  you
• 10:56
  and
• 10:56
  you're
• 10:56
  like,
• 10:56
  I've
• 10:57
  got
• 10:58
  to
• 10:58
  go.
• 10:58
  There's
• 10:58
  so
• 10:58
  much.
• 10:58
  And
• 10:58
  actually
• 10:59
  it's
• 10:59
  like
• 10:59
  the
• 11:00
  energy
• 11:00
  that
• 11:00
  you're
• 11:00
  bringing
• 11:01
  into
• 11:01
  the
• 11:01
  way
• 11:01
  that
• 11:01
  you're
• 11:02
  approaching
• 11:02
  your
• 11:02
  work
• 11:03
  and
• 11:03
  approaching
• 11:03
  the
• 11:03
  things
• 11:04
  that
• 11:04
  you've
• 11:04
  got
• 11:04
  to
• 11:04
  do
• 11:05
  is
• 11:05
  like
• 11:05
  hysterical,
• 11:06
  like
• 11:06
  anxiety.
• 11:07
  And
• 11:08
  you
• 11:08
  spend
• 11:09
  the
• 11:09
  time
• 11:09
  by
• 11:10
  going
• 11:10
  on
• 11:10
  a
• 11:10
  walk
• 11:11
  to
• 11:11
  save
• 11:11
  time.
• 11:12
  Cause
• 11:12
  it's
• 11:12
  literally
• 11:13
  like
• 11:13
  you
• 11:13
  never
• 11:13
  get
• 11:14
  back
• 11:14
  from
• 11:14
  a
• 11:14
  walk
• 11:15
  and
• 11:15
  you're
• 11:15
  like,
• 11:15
  why
• 11:15
  did
• 11:15
  I
• 11:15
  do
• 11:16
  that?
• 11:16
  Why
• 11:16
  did
• 11:16
  I
• 11:16
  waste
• 11:16
  the
• 11:17
  time?
• 11:17
  You
• 11:17
  always
• 11:18
  come
• 11:18
  back.
• 11:18
  And
• 11:18
  you're
• 11:18
  like,
• 11:19
  your
• 11:19
  mind
• 11:19
  is
• 11:19
  cleared.
• 11:21
  Let
• 11:21
  some
• 11:21
  of
• 11:22
  that
• 11:22
  energy
• 11:22
  out
• 11:24
  and
• 11:24
  you're
• 11:25
  coming
• 11:25
  back
• 11:26
  with
• 11:26
  a
• 11:26
  higher
• 11:27
  level
• 11:27
  of
• 11:27
  ability
• 11:27
  to
• 11:27
  focus.
• 11:29
  Absolutely.
• 11:29
  And
• 11:30
  this
• 11:30
  is
• 11:30
  why
• 11:30
  I
• 11:30
  think
• 11:31
  the
• 11:31
  practice
• 11:31
  of
• 11:31
  writing,
• 11:32
  I
• 11:32
  know
• 11:32
  you're
• 11:33
  huge
• 11:33
  into
• 11:34
  journaling
• 11:34
  and
• 11:35
  it's
• 11:35
  not,
• 11:35
  a
• 11:35
  practice
• 11:36
  that
• 11:36
  I've
• 11:36
  taken
• 11:36
  on
• 11:37
  consistently,
• 11:38
  but
• 11:39
  when
• 11:39
  my
• 11:39
  brain
• 11:39
  is
• 11:40
  too
• 11:40
  busy,
• 11:40
  that's
• 11:40
  the
• 11:41
  time
• 11:41
  when
• 11:41
  it's
• 11:41
  like
• 11:41
  pen
• 11:42
  to
• 11:42
  paper,
• 11:42
  I
• 11:42
  need
• 11:42
  to
• 11:42
  write
• 11:43
  out
• 11:43
  what
• 11:43
  exactly
• 11:44
  is
• 11:45
  causing
• 11:45
  me
• 11:45
  anxiety
• 11:46
  here.
• 11:46
  What's
• 11:46
  exactly
• 11:47
  is
• 11:47
  making
• 11:47
  me
• 11:47
  feel
• 11:48
  like
• 11:48
  I'm
• 11:48
  busy
• 11:49
  and
• 11:49
  what
• 11:49
  I
• 11:49
  find
• 11:50
  always
• 11:50
  when
• 11:50
  I
• 11:50
  write
• 11:51
  it
• 11:51
  out,
• 11:51
  I
• 11:51
  realized
• 11:51
  there's
• 11:52
  not
• 11:52
  as
• 11:52
  much
• 11:52
  there
• 11:52
  as
• 11:53
  I
• 11:53
  thought
• 11:53
  there
• 11:53
  was
• 11:53
  when
• 11:53
  it
• 11:54
  was
• 11:54
  all
• 11:54
  just
• 11:54
  jumbling
• 11:55
  around
• 11:55
  in
• 11:55
  my
• 11:55
  head.
• 11:57
  You
• 11:57
  hit
• 11:57
  the
• 11:57
  nail
• 11:58
  on
• 11:58
  the
• 11:58
  head.
• 11:58
  I
• 11:58
  think
• 11:58
  like
• 11:59
  our
• 11:59
  mind
• 11:59
  is
• 11:59
  an
• 11:59
  absolute
• 12:00
  mansion.
• 12:00
  It's
• 12:00
  so
• 12:01
  big
• 12:01
  and
• 12:01
  they're
• 12:01
  so
• 12:02
  like,
• 12:02
  yeah,
• 12:02
  everything
• 12:03
  just
• 12:03
  is
• 12:03
  floating
• 12:04
  around
• 12:04
  in
• 12:04
  there
• 12:04
  and
• 12:05
  funnily
• 12:06
  enough,
• 12:06
  a
• 12:06
  lot
• 12:06
  of
• 12:06
  people
• 12:07
  in
• 12:07
  response
• 12:08
  to
• 12:08
  the
• 12:08
  podcast,
• 12:09
  one
• 12:09
  of
• 12:09
  the
• 12:09
  most
• 12:09
  common
• 12:09
  questions
• 12:10
  that
• 12:10
  I've
• 12:10
  been
• 12:10
  getting
• 12:11
  is
• 12:11
  about
• 12:11
  journaling.
• 12:12
  So
• 12:12
  this
• 12:12
  is
• 12:13
  a
• 12:13
  good
• 12:13
  opportunity
• 12:14
  to
• 12:14
  just
• 12:14
  expand
• 12:14
  on
• 12:15
  that
• 12:15
  a
• 12:15
  little
• 12:15
  bit.
• 12:16
  A
• 12:16
  couple
• 12:17
  of
• 12:17
  things
• 12:17
  I'd
• 12:17
  love
• 12:17
  to
• 12:17
  say
• 12:18
  here
• 12:18
  is
• 12:18
  that
• 12:19
  if
• 12:19
  this
• 12:20
  is
• 12:20
  something
• 12:20
  that
• 12:20
  you're
• 12:20
  like,
• 12:21
  this
• 12:21
  sounds
• 12:22
  great.
• 12:22
  I
• 12:22
  hear
• 12:22
  people
• 12:22
  talking
• 12:22
  about
• 12:23
  this
• 12:23
  all
• 12:23
  the
• 12:23
  time.
• 12:23
  I'm
• 12:24
  interested,
• 12:24
  but
• 12:24
  I
• 12:25
  don't
• 12:25
  know
• 12:25
  how,
• 12:26
  what
• 12:26
  does
• 12:26
  that
• 12:27
  practice
• 12:27
  actually
• 12:28
  look
• 12:28
  like?
• 12:29
  I
• 12:29
  would
• 12:29
  say
• 12:30
  to
• 12:30
  you
• 12:30
  that
• 12:31
  I've
• 12:31
  got
• 12:31
  three
• 12:31
  tips
• 12:32
  here.
• 12:32
  The
• 12:33
  first
• 12:33
  one
• 12:34
  is
• 12:34
  what
• 12:35
  Pia
• 12:35
  just
• 12:35
  alluded
• 12:36
  to
• 12:37
  just
• 12:37
  doing
• 12:37
  a
• 12:37
  brain
• 12:37
  dump
• 12:38
  in
• 12:38
  the
• 12:38
  morning.
• 12:38
  So
• 12:38
  just
• 12:39
  getting
• 12:39
  everything
• 12:39
  out
• 12:40
  of
• 12:40
  your
• 12:40
  head
• 12:41
  onto
• 12:41
  a
• 12:41
  piece
• 12:41
  of
• 12:41
  paper.
• 12:42
  And
• 12:42
  this
• 12:42
  literally,
• 12:43
  it's
• 12:43
  like
• 12:43
  a
• 12:43
  to
• 12:43
  do
• 12:44
  list,
• 12:44
  but
• 12:44
  without
• 12:44
  it
• 12:44
  being
• 12:45
  a
• 12:45
  to
• 12:45
  do
• 12:45
  list,
• 12:45
  it's
• 12:45
  a
• 12:46
  brain
• 12:46
  dump.
• 12:47
  So
• 12:47
  you
• 12:47
  just
• 12:47
  writing
• 12:48
  down
• 12:48
  all
• 12:48
  of
• 12:48
  the
• 12:48
  things
• 12:49
  that
• 12:49
  are
• 12:49
  floating
• 12:49
  around
• 12:50
  in
• 12:50
  your
• 12:50
  head
• 12:51
  and
• 12:51
  then
• 12:52
  looking
• 12:52
  at
• 12:52
  that
• 12:53
  and
• 12:53
  seeing
• 12:53
  if
• 12:53
  you
• 12:53
  want
• 12:53
  to
• 12:54
  group
• 12:54
  the
• 12:54
  things
• 12:54
  together.
• 12:55
  If
• 12:55
  you
• 12:55
  want
• 12:56
  to
• 12:56
  circle
• 12:56
  a
• 12:56
  couple
• 12:56
  of
• 12:56
  things
• 12:57
  that
• 12:57
  are
• 12:57
  actually
• 12:57
  important.
• 12:59
  That
• 12:59
  is
• 12:59
  a
• 13:00
  useful
• 13:01
  to
• 13:01
  start.
• 13:02
  The
• 13:02
  second
• 13:03
  thing,
• 13:03
  if
• 13:04
  you
• 13:04
  wanted
• 13:04
  to
• 13:04
  take
• 13:05
  it
• 13:05
  a
• 13:05
  step
• 13:06
  deeper
• 13:07
  would
• 13:07
  be
• 13:08
  to
• 13:08
  just
• 13:09
  answer
• 13:09
  those
• 13:09
  three
• 13:09
  questions
• 13:10
  that
• 13:10
  I
• 13:10
  talked
• 13:10
  about
• 13:11
  earlier
• 13:11
  on,
• 13:12
  and
• 13:12
  they
• 13:12
  are,
• 13:13
  what
• 13:13
  do
• 13:13
  I
• 13:13
  want,
• 13:15
  how
• 13:15
  do
• 13:15
  I
• 13:15
  want
• 13:15
  to
• 13:15
  feel,
• 13:16
  and
• 13:17
  what
• 13:17
  can
• 13:17
  I
• 13:17
  do
• 13:17
  for
• 13:17
  myself
• 13:18
  today.
• 13:19
  And
• 13:19
  what's
• 13:20
  really
• 13:20
  powerful
• 13:21
  about
• 13:21
  using
• 13:22
  these
• 13:22
  three
• 13:22
  questions
• 13:24
  repetitively
• 13:24
  over
• 13:24
  a
• 13:25
  kind
• 13:25
  of
• 13:25
  two
• 13:25
  to
• 13:25
  four
• 13:26
  week
• 13:26
  time
• 13:26
  period
• 13:27
  is
• 13:28
  that
• 13:28
  when
• 13:28
  you
• 13:28
  first
• 13:28
  start
• 13:29
  you
• 13:29
  you
• 13:29
  don't
• 13:29
  even
• 13:30
  know
• 13:30
  what
• 13:30
  you
• 13:30
  want
• 13:30
  and
• 13:31
  your
• 13:31
  responses
• 13:31
  will
• 13:32
  change
• 13:33
  on
• 13:33
  a
• 13:33
  day
• 13:33
  to
• 13:33
  day
• 13:33
  basis
• 13:34
  but
• 13:34
  you
• 13:34
  will
• 13:34
  begin
• 13:35
  to
• 13:35
  notice
• 13:36
  some
• 13:36
  themes
• 13:36
  emerging
• 13:38
  and
• 13:39
  That
• 13:39
  will
• 13:39
  be
• 13:40
  very
• 13:40
  powerful
• 13:40
  for
• 13:41
  you
• 13:41
  to
• 13:41
  see.
• 13:41
  I
• 13:41
  think
• 13:41
  that
• 13:42
  a
• 13:42
  lot
• 13:42
  of
• 13:43
  people
• 13:43
  begin
• 13:43
  to
• 13:43
  notice
• 13:44
  that
• 13:44
  there's
• 13:44
  particular
• 13:45
  emotions
• 13:45
  that
• 13:45
  are
• 13:45
  coming
• 13:46
  up
• 13:46
  for
• 13:46
  them
• 13:46
  about
• 13:46
  how
• 13:47
  they
• 13:47
  want
• 13:47
  to
• 13:47
  feel,
• 13:47
  whether
• 13:48
  it's
• 13:48
  peaceful,
• 13:49
  whether
• 13:49
  it's
• 13:50
  calm
• 13:50
  or
• 13:50
  it's
• 13:51
  connected,
• 13:52
  it's
• 13:52
  going
• 13:52
  to
• 13:52
  give
• 13:52
  you
• 13:52
  insight
• 13:53
  into
• 13:54
  what's
• 13:54
  missing
• 13:55
  at
• 13:55
  the
• 13:55
  moment.
• 13:56
  What's
• 13:56
  something
• 13:57
  that
• 13:57
  you
• 13:57
  feel
• 13:58
  drawn
• 13:58
  to.
• 13:59
  And
• 13:59
  then
• 14:00
  that
• 14:00
  last
• 14:00
  bit,
• 14:01
  which
• 14:01
  we
• 14:01
  just
• 14:02
  spoke
• 14:02
  about
• 14:02
  what
• 14:02
  can
• 14:02
  I
• 14:03
  do
• 14:03
  for
• 14:03
  myself
• 14:03
  today?
• 14:04
  That's
• 14:05
  just
• 14:05
  getting
• 14:05
  you
• 14:05
  laser
• 14:05
  focused
• 14:06
  on
• 14:06
  the
• 14:06
  fact
• 14:06
  that
• 14:06
  you're
• 14:07
  a
• 14:07
  person
• 14:07
  who
• 14:07
  deserves.
• 14:09
  time
• 14:09
  and
• 14:09
  attention
• 14:10
  for
• 14:10
  yourself.
• 14:11
  And
• 14:11
  I
• 14:11
  think
• 14:11
  that's
• 14:12
  something
• 14:12
  that
• 14:12
  moms
• 14:13
  often
• 14:13
  forget,
• 14:13
  women
• 14:14
  often
• 14:14
  forget.
• 14:15
  And
• 14:15
  that
• 14:15
  focus
• 14:16
  is
• 14:17
  just
• 14:17
  going
• 14:17
  to
• 14:17
  plant
• 14:18
  a
• 14:18
  seed
• 14:18
  in
• 14:19
  your
• 14:19
  mind
• 14:20
  for
• 14:20
  you
• 14:20
  to
• 14:21
  make
• 14:21
  the
• 14:21
  time
• 14:22
  to
• 14:22
  do
• 14:22
  a
• 14:22
  small
• 14:23
  thing
• 14:23
  for
• 14:23
  yourself
• 14:23
  today.
• 14:24
  Small
• 14:24
  steps
• 14:24
  is
• 14:25
  all
• 14:25
  we're
• 14:25
  looking
• 14:25
  for.
• 14:25
  When
• 14:26
  you
• 14:26
  take
• 14:26
  a
• 14:26
  small
• 14:27
  step
• 14:27
  on
• 14:27
  a
• 14:27
  regular
• 14:28
  basis
• 14:29
  towards
• 14:29
  looking
• 14:30
  after
• 14:30
  yourself,
• 14:31
  towards
• 14:31
  identifying,
• 14:33
  what
• 14:33
  emotions
• 14:34
  you
• 14:35
  are
• 14:36
  lacking
• 14:36
  in
• 14:37
  your
• 14:37
  life
• 14:37
  and
• 14:38
  clarity
• 14:39
  on
• 14:39
  what
• 14:39
  it
• 14:39
  is
• 14:39
  that
• 14:39
  you
• 14:39
  want,
• 14:41
  those
• 14:41
  small
• 14:41
  steps
• 14:42
  do
• 14:42
  move
• 14:43
  you
• 14:43
  forward,
• 14:43
  they
• 14:44
  move
• 14:44
  the
• 14:44
  needle.
• 14:45
  And
• 14:45
  then
• 14:46
  the
• 14:46
  third
• 14:46
  tip
• 14:47
  that
• 14:47
  I
• 14:47
  would
• 14:47
  love
• 14:47
  to
• 14:47
  offer
• 14:48
  is
• 14:48
  that.
• 14:50
  I,
• 14:50
  and
• 14:51
  again,
• 14:51
  I
• 14:51
  think
• 14:51
  we
• 14:52
  talked
• 14:52
  about
• 14:52
  this
• 14:52
  in
• 14:52
  the
• 14:52
  last
• 14:52
  podcast,
• 14:53
  like
• 14:53
  anything
• 14:53
  that
• 14:54
  we
• 14:54
  talk
• 14:54
  about
• 14:54
  on
• 14:54
  this
• 14:55
  podcast,
• 14:55
  we
• 14:56
  do
• 14:56
  not
• 14:56
  have
• 14:56
  any
• 14:56
  sponsors.
• 14:57
  We're
• 14:57
  talking
• 14:57
  about
• 14:57
  the
• 14:57
  things
• 14:58
  that
• 14:58
  we
• 14:58
  use
• 14:58
  and
• 14:59
  we
• 14:59
  love
• 14:59
  for
• 14:59
  real
• 15:00
  in
• 15:00
  our
• 15:00
  lives.
• 15:01
  So
• 15:01
  my
• 15:02
  absolute
• 15:02
  like
• 15:02
  top
• 15:02
  tip.
• 15:06
  is
• 15:06
  this
• 15:07
  app
• 15:08
  called
• 15:08
  superhuman.
• 15:10
  I
• 15:10
  am
• 15:10
  an
• 15:10
  OG
• 15:11
  user
• 15:12
  of
• 15:12
  this
• 15:12
  app.
• 15:12
  I've
• 15:12
  been
• 15:13
  using
• 15:13
  it
• 15:13
  for
• 15:13
  years.
• 15:14
  I've
• 15:14
  turned
• 15:14
  peer
• 15:14
  onto
• 15:15
  it.
• 15:15
  Many
• 15:15
  of
• 15:15
  my
• 15:16
  friends,
• 15:16
  I've
• 15:16
  also,
• 15:17
  and
• 15:17
  clients
• 15:17
  recommended
• 15:18
  it
• 15:19
  too.
• 15:19
  And
• 15:20
  it
• 15:20
  is
• 15:21
  a,
• 15:21
  it's
• 15:21
  an
• 15:22
  investment.
• 15:22
  That's
• 15:22
  for
• 15:22
  sure.
• 15:23
  You
• 15:23
  can
• 15:23
  check
• 15:23
  it
• 15:23
  out
• 15:24
  for
• 15:24
  yourself,
• 15:25
  but
• 15:25
  on
• 15:25
  this
• 15:25
  app,
• 15:26
  it's
• 15:26
  a
• 15:26
  meditation
• 15:26
  app,
• 15:27
  but
• 15:27
  it's.
• 15:27
  so
• 15:27
  much
• 15:27
  more
• 15:28
  than
• 15:28
  that.
• 15:28
  They
• 15:28
  have
• 15:28
  got
• 15:29
  these
• 15:29
  incredible
• 15:30
  journaling
• 15:31
  writing
• 15:31
  meditations
• 15:32
  on
• 15:32
  there.
• 15:33
  And
• 15:33
  these
• 15:34
  are
• 15:34
  the
• 15:34
  kind
• 15:34
  of
• 15:34
  Rolls
• 15:35
  Royce
• 15:35
  of
• 15:36
  journaling.
• 15:37
  They
• 15:37
  have
• 15:37
  got
• 15:37
  cinematic
• 15:38
  music.
• 15:39
  They're
• 15:39
  going
• 15:39
  to
• 15:39
  take
• 15:39
  you
• 15:39
  on
• 15:40
  a
• 15:40
  journey.
• 15:41
  And
• 15:41
  if
• 15:41
  you're
• 15:42
  ready
• 15:43
  to
• 15:43
  take
• 15:44
  this
• 15:44
  practice.
• 15:46
  To
• 15:46
  a
• 15:46
  different
• 15:47
  level,
• 15:47
  this
• 15:48
  is
• 15:48
  a
• 15:48
  form
• 15:48
  of
• 15:48
  self
• 15:49
  coaching
• 15:49
  for
• 15:50
  sure,
• 15:50
  then
• 15:51
  I
• 15:51
  would
• 15:51
  really
• 15:51
  recommend
• 15:52
  giving
• 15:52
  the
• 15:52
  app
• 15:52
  a
• 15:52
  go.
• 15:53
  And
• 15:53
  actually
• 15:53
  you
• 15:53
  can
• 15:53
  try
• 15:54
  it
• 15:54
  for
• 15:54
  free
• 15:55
  and
• 15:55
  at
• 15:55
  the
• 15:55
  moment
• 15:56
  they
• 15:56
  have
• 15:57
  a,
• 15:58
  like
• 15:58
  a
• 15:58
  special
• 15:59
  offer
• 15:59
  on
• 15:59
  where
• 15:59
  you
• 15:59
  can
• 15:59
  get
• 16:00
  six
• 16:00
  weeks
• 16:00
  for
• 16:00
  free
• 16:01
  if
• 16:01
  you
• 16:01
  use
• 16:02
  the
• 16:02
  code
• 16:02
  podcast
• 16:03
  and
• 16:04
  that's
• 16:04
  nothing
• 16:05
  to
• 16:05
  do
• 16:05
  with
• 16:05
  our
• 16:05
  podcast,
• 16:06
  that's
• 16:06
  to
• 16:06
  do
• 16:06
  with
• 16:06
  the
• 16:07
  founder's
• 16:07
  own
• 16:08
  offer
• 16:08
  that
• 16:08
  she
• 16:08
  put
• 16:09
  on
• 16:09
  her
• 16:09
  podcast.
• 16:10
  Even
• 16:10
  if
• 16:10
  you
• 16:10
  just
• 16:10
  go
• 16:10
  on
• 16:11
  the
• 16:11
  app,
• 16:11
  you'll
• 16:12
  easily
• 16:12
  be
• 16:12
  able
• 16:12
  to
• 16:13
  access
• 16:13
  the
• 16:13
  two
• 16:13
  weeks.
• 16:14
  And
• 16:15
  if
• 16:15
  you
• 16:15
  use
• 16:15
  that
• 16:15
  code
• 16:15
  podcast,
• 16:16
  you
• 16:16
  will
• 16:16
  get
• 16:17
  six
• 16:17
  weeks
• 16:17
  for
• 16:17
  free.
• 16:18
  And
• 16:19
  I
• 16:19
  just
• 16:19
  can't
• 16:19
  recommend
• 16:20
  this
• 16:20
  app
• 16:20
  enough.
• 16:21
  Yeah,
• 16:22
  I'll
• 16:22
  just
• 16:22
  caveat
• 16:23
  right
• 16:23
  when
• 16:23
  Kayeth
• 16:24
  put
• 16:24
  me
• 16:24
  onto
• 16:24
  this
• 16:25
  app,
• 16:25
  I
• 16:26
  hated
• 16:26
  it
• 16:26
  at
• 16:26
  the
• 16:27
  start
• 16:27
  because
• 16:28
  I
• 16:28
  just
• 16:28
  felt
• 16:28
  it
• 16:28
  was
• 16:29
  like
• 16:30
  quite
• 16:31
  it
• 16:31
  was
• 16:31
  just
• 16:31
  a
• 16:31
  little
• 16:32
  bit
• 16:32
  lofty
• 16:33
  for
• 16:33
  me
• 16:33
  and
• 16:33
  I
• 16:33
  was
• 16:33
  going
• 16:34
  in
• 16:34
  a
• 16:34
  little
• 16:34
  bit
• 16:34
  more
• 16:34
  cynical,
• 16:35
  but
• 16:35
  one
• 16:35
  thing
• 16:36
  I
• 16:36
  will
• 16:36
  say
• 16:37
  Kayeth
• 16:37
  kept
• 16:37
  saying,
• 16:38
  stick
• 16:38
  with
• 16:38
  it.
• 16:39
  So
• 16:39
  I
• 16:39
  asked
• 16:39
  him
• 16:39
  for
• 16:39
  an
• 16:40
  extension
• 16:40
  on
• 16:40
  the
• 16:40
  free
• 16:40
  trial
• 16:42
  and
• 16:42
  I
• 16:42
  stuck
• 16:43
  with
• 16:43
  it
• 16:43
  and
• 16:43
  once
• 16:44
  I
• 16:44
  was
• 16:44
  doing
• 16:44
  for
• 16:44
  about
• 16:44
  six
• 16:44
  weeks,
• 16:45
  I
• 16:45
  realized
• 16:45
  how.
• 16:46
  Incredible
• 16:47
  it
• 16:47
  is
• 16:47
  it's
• 16:47
  it
• 16:47
  starts
• 16:48
  to
• 16:48
  get
• 16:48
  into
• 16:49
  by
• 16:49
  osmosis
• 16:50
  and
• 16:50
  you
• 16:50
  start
• 16:50
  to
• 16:50
  realize.
• 16:51
  After
• 16:52
  a
• 16:52
  couple
• 16:52
  of
• 16:52
  weeks
• 16:52
  that
• 16:52
  you're
• 16:53
  feeling
• 16:53
  so
• 16:53
  much
• 16:53
  better
• 16:54
  every
• 16:54
  day
• 16:54
  and
• 16:55
  you
• 16:55
  start
• 16:56
  to
• 16:56
  just
• 16:56
  ignore
• 16:57
  the
• 16:57
  kind
• 16:57
  of
• 16:57
  very
• 16:58
  aspirational
• 16:59
  side
• 16:59
  and
• 16:59
  that's
• 17:00
  cynicism
• 17:00
  and
• 17:00
  that
• 17:00
  internal
• 17:01
  judge
• 17:02
  starts
• 17:02
  to
• 17:02
  go
• 17:03
  down
• 17:03
  because
• 17:03
  you
• 17:03
  realize
• 17:03
  just
• 17:04
  that
• 17:04
  it
• 17:04
  is
• 17:05
  working.
• 17:06
  That's
• 17:06
  my
• 17:06
  advice
• 17:07
  is
• 17:07
  to
• 17:07
  stick
• 17:07
  with
• 17:07
  it.
• 17:08
  But
• 17:08
  I
• 17:08
  love
• 17:09
  that
• 17:09
  you
• 17:09
  gave
• 17:09
  those
• 17:09
  tips,
• 17:09
  Kaya,
• 17:10
  because
• 17:10
  to
• 17:10
  me,
• 17:10
  you
• 17:10
  are
• 17:10
  the
• 17:11
  journaling
• 17:11
  expert
• 17:12
  and
• 17:12
  it's
• 17:12
  something
• 17:12
  that
• 17:13
  I
• 17:13
  have
• 17:13
  always
• 17:13
  struggled
• 17:14
  with.
• 17:15
  But
• 17:15
  one
• 17:15
  thing
• 17:15
  I'd
• 17:15
  like
• 17:15
  to
• 17:15
  expand
• 17:16
  on
• 17:16
  there,
• 17:16
  because
• 17:17
  it's
• 17:17
  this
• 17:17
  is
• 17:17
  the,
• 17:18
  how
• 17:18
  this
• 17:18
  showed
• 17:18
  up
• 17:19
  in
• 17:19
  my
• 17:19
  life
• 17:19
  over
• 17:19
  the
• 17:19
  last
• 17:19
  two
• 17:19
  weeks.
• 17:21
  When
• 17:21
  I
• 17:21
  was
• 17:21
  lying
• 17:21
  in
• 17:21
  bed
• 17:21
  in
• 17:22
  a
• 17:22
  heap
• 17:22
  and
• 17:23
  like
• 17:23
  a
• 17:23
  pity
• 17:23
  party
• 17:24
  with
• 17:24
  myself,
• 17:25
  instead
• 17:25
  of
• 17:26
  going
• 17:26
  Oh,
• 17:26
  I
• 17:26
  need
• 17:27
  to
• 17:27
  clean
• 17:27
  the
• 17:27
  house.
• 17:28
  I
• 17:28
  just
• 17:28
  asked
• 17:28
  myself,
• 17:29
  how
• 17:30
  is
• 17:30
  it
• 17:30
  that
• 17:30
  I
• 17:30
  want
• 17:30
  to
• 17:30
  feel?
• 17:32
  And
• 17:32
  I
• 17:32
  was
• 17:32
  like,
• 17:32
  I
• 17:33
  want
• 17:33
  to
• 17:33
  feel
• 17:33
  like
• 17:33
  I
• 17:33
  have
• 17:33
  energy
• 17:34
  again.
• 17:34
  And
• 17:35
  I
• 17:35
  said,
• 17:35
  I
• 17:35
  want
• 17:35
  to
• 17:35
  feel
• 17:36
  like,
• 17:37
  I
• 17:37
  want
• 17:37
  to
• 17:37
  feel
• 17:38
  calm
• 17:38
  in
• 17:38
  an
• 17:38
  uncluttered
• 17:39
  home.
• 17:40
  So
• 17:40
  rather
• 17:41
  than
• 17:41
  telling
• 17:41
  myself
• 17:42
  you
• 17:42
  need
• 17:42
  to
• 17:42
  clean
• 17:42
  the
• 17:42
  house,
• 17:43
  I
• 17:43
  went
• 17:44
  okay,
• 17:44
  so
• 17:44
  how
• 17:44
  could
• 17:44
  I
• 17:44
  cultivate
• 17:45
  that
• 17:45
  feeling?
• 17:46
  And
• 17:46
  I
• 17:46
  was
• 17:46
  like,
• 17:46
  Pia,
• 17:46
  get
• 17:47
  out
• 17:47
  of
• 17:47
  bed.
• 17:48
  And
• 17:48
  just
• 17:48
  do
• 17:48
  something.
• 17:49
  And
• 17:49
  I
• 17:49
  was
• 17:50
  like,
• 17:50
  Oh,
• 17:50
  great
• 17:50
  thing
• 17:50
  to
• 17:51
  do
• 17:51
  would
• 17:51
  be
• 17:51
  to
• 17:52
  actually
• 17:52
  unclutter
• 17:52
  this
• 17:52
  home,
• 17:54
  and
• 17:54
  just
• 17:54
  create
• 17:54
  a
• 17:54
  sanctuary,
• 17:55
  create
• 17:56
  an
• 17:56
  oasis
• 17:56
  of
• 17:57
  calm.
• 17:58
  And
• 17:58
  just
• 17:58
  by
• 17:59
  changing
• 17:59
  the
• 17:59
  lens
• 17:59
  on
• 18:00
  it,
• 18:00
  that
• 18:00
  little
• 18:00
  bit,
• 18:00
  it
• 18:00
  made
• 18:01
  me
• 18:01
  excited
• 18:01
  to
• 18:01
  do
• 18:02
  it.
• 18:03
  Totally.
• 18:04
  So
• 18:04
  that's
• 18:04
  just
• 18:04
  how
• 18:05
  that
• 18:05
  practice
• 18:05
  shows
• 18:06
  up
• 18:06
  in,
• 18:06
  in
• 18:06
  real
• 18:07
  life.
• 18:07
  It's
• 18:07
  don't
• 18:07
  give
• 18:08
  yourself
• 18:08
  a
• 18:08
  to
• 18:08
  do
• 18:08
  list
• 18:09
  of
• 18:09
  I
• 18:09
  need
• 18:09
  to
• 18:09
  do
• 18:09
  this.
• 18:09
  I
• 18:09
  need
• 18:09
  to
• 18:10
  do
• 18:10
  this.
• 18:10
  I
• 18:10
  need
• 18:10
  to
• 18:10
  do
• 18:10
  this.
• 18:11
  how
• 18:11
  do
• 18:11
  you
• 18:11
  want
• 18:11
  to
• 18:11
  feel?
• 18:12
  I
• 18:12
  love
• 18:13
  that.
• 18:14
  So
• 18:14
  Kaya
• 18:15
  you've
• 18:15
  moved
• 18:15
  to
• 18:16
  Spain.
• 18:17
  So
• 18:17
  can
• 18:17
  you
• 18:17
  give
• 18:17
  us
• 18:17
  an
• 18:18
  update?
• 18:19
  Yeah.
• 18:19
  We
• 18:20
  arrived
• 18:21
  two
• 18:21
  days
• 18:22
  ago.
• 18:22
  I
• 18:22
  think
• 18:22
  we've
• 18:22
  been
• 18:22
  here.
• 18:23
  This
• 18:23
  is
• 18:23
  my
• 18:23
  second
• 18:24
  day.
• 18:25
  And.
• 18:27
  It's
• 18:27
  been
• 18:27
  a
• 18:27
  wild
• 18:28
  old
• 18:28
  ride.
• 18:29
  I
• 18:29
  think
• 18:29
  that,
• 18:31
  it's
• 18:31
  still
• 18:33
  the
• 18:33
  grief
• 18:34
  is
• 18:34
  fresh.
• 18:35
  So
• 18:35
  that's
• 18:35
  still
• 18:36
  something
• 18:36
  that
• 18:37
  is
• 18:38
  a
• 18:38
  journey
• 18:40
  for
• 18:40
  both
• 18:40
  me
• 18:40
  and
• 18:40
  my
• 18:40
  husband.
• 18:41
  But
• 18:42
  these
• 18:42
  experiences
• 18:43
  that
• 18:44
  are
• 18:44
  very,
• 18:47
  big
• 18:47
  life
• 18:48
  experiences
• 18:49
  that
• 18:49
  we
• 18:49
  have,
• 18:50
  or
• 18:50
  that
• 18:51
  happened
• 18:51
  to
• 18:51
  people
• 18:52
  different
• 18:52
  ones.
• 18:54
  It's
• 18:54
  just,
• 18:55
  it's
• 18:55
  so
• 18:56
  unbelievable
• 18:57
  when
• 18:57
  you're
• 18:57
  in
• 18:58
  it,
• 18:58
  what
• 18:58
  the
• 18:58
  actual
• 18:59
  experience
• 18:59
  is
• 18:59
  like
• 19:00
  so
• 19:01
  I
• 19:01
  think
• 19:01
  one
• 19:02
  of
• 19:02
  the
• 19:02
  things
• 19:02
  that
• 19:03
  I've
• 19:03
  been
• 19:03
  experiencing
• 19:05
  in
• 19:05
  the
• 19:05
  last
• 19:06
  kind
• 19:06
  of
• 19:07
  month,
• 19:07
  even
• 19:08
  since
• 19:08
  it
• 19:08
  all
• 19:08
  happened,
• 19:09
  is
• 19:10
  that
• 19:10
  there's
• 19:10
  this
• 19:10
  devastating
• 19:11
  loss.
• 19:12
  Of
• 19:12
  my
• 19:12
  son,
• 19:14
  and
• 19:14
  then
• 19:15
  simultaneously
• 19:16
  happening
• 19:17
  is
• 19:17
  this,
• 19:18
  really
• 19:19
  deep
• 19:19
  connection
• 19:20
  with
• 19:20
  my
• 19:21
  family
• 19:21
  and
• 19:21
  my
• 19:21
  friends.
• 19:23
  And
• 19:24
  it's
• 19:24
  this
• 19:24
  my
• 19:24
  heart's
• 19:25
  broken.
• 19:25
  And
• 19:26
  yet
• 19:26
  there's
• 19:26
  also
• 19:27
  this
• 19:27
  like
• 19:27
  expansive
• 19:28
  filling
• 19:29
  of
• 19:29
  my
• 19:29
  heart.
• 19:30
  And
• 19:31
  in
• 19:32
  the
• 19:32
  lead
• 19:32
  up
• 19:32
  to
• 19:32
  us
• 19:32
  going
• 19:33
  away,
• 19:33
  I
• 19:33
  just
• 19:34
  had
• 19:34
  this
• 19:34
  amazing
• 19:35
  time
• 19:35
  hanging
• 19:35
  out
• 19:36
  with
• 19:36
  my
• 19:36
  family.
• 19:37
  Yeah.
• 19:38
  And
• 19:38
  it's.
• 19:39
  It
• 19:39
  was
• 19:39
  so
• 19:40
  the
• 19:40
  energy
• 19:41
  that's
• 19:41
  like
• 19:41
  in
• 19:42
  my
• 19:42
  family
• 19:42
  at
• 19:42
  the
• 19:42
  moment
• 19:43
  is
• 19:43
  so
• 19:44
  loving
• 19:45
  and
• 19:45
  really
• 19:46
  pure
• 19:46
  and
• 19:46
  supportive.
• 19:48
  And
• 19:48
  that
• 19:49
  is,
• 19:49
  that's
• 19:49
  such
• 19:50
  a
• 19:50
  gift.
• 19:51
  I
• 19:51
  just
• 19:51
  can't
• 19:52
  remember
• 19:52
  the
• 19:52
  last
• 19:53
  time
• 19:53
  that
• 19:53
  I
• 19:53
  felt.
• 19:55
  So
• 19:55
  loved.
• 19:57
  And
• 19:57
  I
• 19:58
  think
• 19:58
  that
• 19:58
  I
• 19:59
  felt
• 19:59
  so
• 20:00
  connected
• 20:01
  with
• 20:02
  each
• 20:02
  of
• 20:02
  the
• 20:02
  individual
• 20:03
  members
• 20:03
  of
• 20:03
  my
• 20:03
  immediate
• 20:04
  family
• 20:04
  and
• 20:04
  that's
• 20:05
  really
• 20:05
  precious
• 20:05
  to
• 20:05
  me.
• 20:06
  I've
• 20:06
  had
• 20:07
  quite
• 20:08
  a
• 20:08
  lot
• 20:08
  of
• 20:08
  time
• 20:08
  with
• 20:09
  my
• 20:09
  mom
• 20:09
  and
• 20:10
  my
• 20:10
  sister,
• 20:11
  and
• 20:11
  my
• 20:11
  dad
• 20:12
  but,
• 20:12
  particularly
• 20:13
  my
• 20:13
  sister
• 20:13
  and
• 20:14
  I
• 20:14
  think
• 20:14
  It
• 20:14
  is
• 20:14
  a
• 20:14
  gift
• 20:15
  that's
• 20:15
  happening
• 20:16
  in
• 20:16
  this
• 20:16
  situation.
• 20:17
  So
• 20:18
  it's
• 20:18
  a
• 20:18
  wild,
• 20:19
  old
• 20:19
  ride.
• 20:20
  I
• 20:20
  think,
• 20:23
  I've
• 20:23
  talked
• 20:23
  about
• 20:23
  it
• 20:23
  multiple
• 20:24
  times,
• 20:24
  but
• 20:25
  having
• 20:25
  the
• 20:25
  hypnosis,
• 20:28
  treating
• 20:28
  that
• 20:28
  trauma,
• 20:29
  like
• 20:30
  sometimes.
• 20:31
  I
• 20:31
  really
• 20:32
  want
• 20:32
  to
• 20:32
  just
• 20:32
  be
• 20:32
  with
• 20:32
  my
• 20:33
  son
• 20:33
  and
• 20:33
  I'll
• 20:33
  spend,
• 20:35
  an
• 20:35
  hour
• 20:36
  just
• 20:36
  looking
• 20:36
  at
• 20:36
  photos
• 20:37
  of
• 20:37
  him.
• 20:38
  And
• 20:39
  if
• 20:39
  you
• 20:39
  looked
• 20:39
  at
• 20:39
  photos
• 20:40
  of
• 20:40
  your
• 20:40
  son,
• 20:40
  they
• 20:41
  made
• 20:41
  me
• 20:41
  feel
• 20:41
  really
• 20:41
  happy.
• 20:42
  And
• 20:42
  every
• 20:42
  time
• 20:42
  I
• 20:42
  look
• 20:43
  at
• 20:43
  his
• 20:43
  face,
• 20:43
  he's
• 20:44
  literally,
• 20:44
  he
• 20:44
  was
• 20:44
  a
• 20:44
  very
• 20:45
  photogenic
• 20:45
  child.
• 20:46
  He
• 20:46
  was
• 20:46
  always
• 20:47
  smiling
• 20:48
  and
• 20:48
  in
• 20:48
  every
• 20:48
  photo,
• 20:49
  he
• 20:49
  just
• 20:49
  looks
• 20:49
  so
• 20:50
  happy.
• 20:51
  And
• 20:51
  I
• 20:51
  think
• 20:52
  that
• 20:52
  it's.
• 20:53
  There
• 20:53
  is
• 20:53
  this
• 20:53
  suction
• 20:54
  that
• 20:54
  happens
• 20:55
  to
• 20:55
  pull
• 20:55
  me
• 20:56
  into
• 20:56
  the
• 20:56
  tragedy,
• 20:57
  like
• 20:57
  the
• 20:57
  trauma
• 20:58
  part
• 20:58
  of
• 20:58
  it
• 20:58
  that,
• 20:59
  that
• 20:59
  always
• 20:59
  exists.
• 21:00
  And
• 21:00
  sometimes
• 21:02
  it,
• 21:02
  it
• 21:02
  does
• 21:03
  suck
• 21:03
  me
• 21:03
  in
• 21:03
  and
• 21:04
  it
• 21:04
  knocked
• 21:04
  me
• 21:04
  out
• 21:05
  last
• 21:05
  week
• 21:05
  for
• 21:06
  a
• 21:06
  good
• 21:07
  three
• 21:07
  days
• 21:08
  and
• 21:08
  they
• 21:08
  were
• 21:08
  three
• 21:09
  really
• 21:09
  challenging
• 21:09
  days
• 21:10
  for
• 21:10
  me.
• 21:11
  And
• 21:11
  on
• 21:12
  those
• 21:12
  days
• 21:12
  it
• 21:12
  was
• 21:12
  just,
• 21:12
  put
• 21:13
  one
• 21:13
  foot
• 21:13
  in
• 21:13
  front
• 21:13
  of
• 21:13
  the
• 21:14
  other.
• 21:14
  And
• 21:15
  it
• 21:15
  was,
• 21:15
  it
• 21:15
  was
• 21:15
  a
• 21:15
  struggle
• 21:16
  to
• 21:16
  get
• 21:16
  out
• 21:16
  of
• 21:16
  bed,
• 21:17
  but
• 21:18
  You've
• 21:18
  just
• 21:18
  got
• 21:19
  to
• 21:19
  get,
• 21:19
  I
• 21:19
  have
• 21:19
  to
• 21:19
  get
• 21:19
  through
• 21:20
  those
• 21:20
  days
• 21:20
  and
• 21:21
  know
• 21:21
  that's
• 21:21
  not
• 21:21
  the
• 21:22
  new
• 21:22
  normal.
• 21:22
  It
• 21:22
  doesn't
• 21:23
  last
• 21:23
  forever.
• 21:24
  And,
• 21:25
  actually
• 21:26
  that's
• 21:26
  not
• 21:26
  the
• 21:27
  main
• 21:27
  place
• 21:27
  where
• 21:27
  I'm
• 21:28
  spending
• 21:28
  my
• 21:28
  time.
• 21:29
  It's
• 21:29
  a
• 21:29
  possibility.
• 21:30
  And
• 21:30
  I
• 21:30
  know
• 21:31
  that
• 21:31
  I
• 21:31
  could
• 21:31
  wake
• 21:31
  up
• 21:31
  feeling
• 21:32
  like
• 21:32
  that,
• 21:33
  but
• 21:33
  I
• 21:33
  also
• 21:34
  know
• 21:34
  that
• 21:34
  I
• 21:35
  have,
• 21:36
  I
• 21:36
  spend
• 21:36
  a
• 21:36
  lot
• 21:36
  of
• 21:36
  time,
• 21:37
  as
• 21:37
  I
• 21:37
  said,
• 21:38
  in
• 21:38
  that
• 21:38
  place
• 21:38
  of
• 21:39
  just
• 21:39
  feeling,
• 21:40
  looking
• 21:41
  at
• 21:41
  my
• 21:41
  son
• 21:42
  and
• 21:42
  just
• 21:42
  feeling
• 21:42
  like
• 21:43
  I
• 21:43
  love
• 21:43
  him
• 21:44
  so
• 21:44
  much
• 21:44
  and
• 21:44
  like
• 21:45
  what
• 21:46
  a
• 21:46
  gift
• 21:46
  he
• 21:46
  was.
• 21:47
  And
• 21:47
  separating,
• 21:48
  I
• 21:48
  think
• 21:48
  in
• 21:48
  the
• 21:49
  hypnotherapy
• 21:49
  process,
• 21:50
  separating
• 21:51
  his
• 21:51
  life
• 21:52
  from
• 21:52
  the
• 21:52
  trauma
• 21:53
  was
• 21:53
  very
• 21:54
  powerful
• 21:54
  because,
• 21:55
  I
• 21:55
  want
• 21:55
  to
• 21:55
  talk
• 21:55
  about
• 21:56
  him.
• 21:56
  I
• 21:56
  want
• 21:56
  to
• 21:56
  look
• 21:56
  at
• 21:57
  him
• 21:57
  and
• 21:57
  I
• 21:57
  want
• 21:57
  to,
• 21:58
  be
• 21:58
  really
• 21:58
  connected
• 21:59
  with
• 21:59
  his
• 22:00
  life
• 22:01
  and
• 22:01
  that
• 22:02
  being
• 22:02
  part
• 22:02
  of
• 22:02
  my
• 22:03
  story
• 22:04
  and
• 22:04
  my
• 22:04
  life.
• 22:05
  But
• 22:05
  want
• 22:05
  the
• 22:06
  trauma.
• 22:06
  I
• 22:06
  don't
• 22:07
  want
• 22:07
  that.
• 22:07
  And
• 22:08
  that's
• 22:08
  something
• 22:08
  that
• 22:08
  I
• 22:09
  need
• 22:09
  to
• 22:09
  treat.
• 22:10
  But
• 22:10
  as
• 22:10
  you
• 22:10
  were
• 22:10
  talking
• 22:11
  earlier
• 22:11
  about
• 22:12
  your
• 22:12
  own
• 22:12
  saboteurs,
• 22:13
  I
• 22:13
  think
• 22:13
  that
• 22:14
  I
• 22:15
  have
• 22:15
  been
• 22:16
  doing
• 22:17
  my
• 22:17
  mental
• 22:18
  fitness
• 22:18
  training
• 22:19
  has
• 22:19
  been
• 22:20
  something
• 22:21
  I
• 22:22
  really
• 22:22
  need
• 22:22
  to
• 22:22
  be
• 22:22
  laser
• 22:23
  focused
• 22:23
  on
• 22:23
  at
• 22:24
  the
• 22:24
  moment.
• 22:24
  And
• 22:24
  I
• 22:25
  need
• 22:25
  to
• 22:25
  be
• 22:25
  doing
• 22:25
  those
• 22:26
  practices
• 22:26
  continually
• 22:27
  through
• 22:27
  the
• 22:27
  day.
• 22:28
  So
• 22:28
  this
• 22:28
  is
• 22:29
  a
• 22:29
  program
• 22:29
  that
• 22:29
  I
• 22:30
  use
• 22:30
  with
• 22:30
  my
• 22:30
  clients.
• 22:31
  I'm
• 22:31
  a
• 22:31
  mental
• 22:32
  fitness
• 22:32
  coach.
• 22:33
  And
• 22:33
  this
• 22:33
  program
• 22:34
  uses
• 22:34
  an
• 22:34
  application.
• 22:35
  To
• 22:36
  basically
• 22:37
  reprogram
• 22:37
  your
• 22:37
  brain.
• 22:38
  So
• 22:39
  neuroplasticity
• 22:40
  is
• 22:41
  about
• 22:41
  the
• 22:41
  fact
• 22:41
  that
• 22:41
  what
• 22:41
  you
• 22:42
  do
• 22:42
  today
• 22:43
  is
• 22:43
  creating
• 22:43
  the
• 22:43
  brain
• 22:44
  that
• 22:44
  you're
• 22:44
  going
• 22:44
  to
• 22:44
  have
• 22:44
  tomorrow.
• 22:45
  And
• 22:46
  so
• 22:46
  I
• 22:47
  have
• 22:47
  been
• 22:47
  the
• 22:48
  voices
• 22:49
  that
• 22:49
  Pierre
• 22:49
  and
• 22:49
  I
• 22:49
  were
• 22:49
  talking
• 22:50
  about
• 22:50
  earlier,
• 22:51
  the
• 22:51
  master
• 22:51
  saboteur
• 22:52
  is
• 22:52
  the
• 22:52
  judge
• 22:53
  for
• 22:53
  everybody,
• 22:54
  but
• 22:54
  there's
• 22:54
  eight
• 22:55
  different
• 22:55
  saboteurs
• 22:56
  and
• 22:57
  victim
• 22:58
  I
• 22:58
  talked
• 22:58
  about
• 22:59
  previously
• 22:59
  has
• 23:00
  been
• 23:00
  showing
• 23:00
  up
• 23:00
  for
• 23:00
  me.
• 23:01
  So
• 23:01
  I've
• 23:01
  been
• 23:01
  doing
• 23:01
  a
• 23:01
  lot
• 23:02
  of
• 23:02
  work
• 23:02
  on
• 23:02
  that.
• 23:02
  It's
• 23:02
  been
• 23:03
  showing
• 23:03
  up
• 23:03
  in.
• 23:04
  Not
• 23:05
  that
• 23:05
  I'm
• 23:05
  a
• 23:05
  victim
• 23:06
  in
• 23:06
  this
• 23:06
  situation
• 23:07
  with
• 23:07
  losing
• 23:08
  my
• 23:08
  son.
• 23:08
  Funnily
• 23:09
  enough,
• 23:09
  it's
• 23:09
  always
• 23:10
  about
• 23:10
  my
• 23:10
  husband.
• 23:10
  I'm
• 23:11
  like
• 23:11
  always
• 23:11
  victimized,
• 23:12
  like
• 23:12
  he's
• 23:13
  wrongdoing
• 23:14
  me.
• 23:14
  But
• 23:15
  the
• 23:15
  other
• 23:15
  one
• 23:15
  that's
• 23:15
  been
• 23:16
  showing
• 23:16
  up
• 23:16
  for
• 23:16
  me
• 23:17
  that
• 23:17
  I
• 23:18
  was
• 23:18
  not
• 23:18
  noticing
• 23:19
  as
• 23:19
  much
• 23:20
  what
• 23:20
  is
• 23:21
  my
• 23:21
  hyperachiever.
• 23:23
  I
• 23:23
  am
• 23:23
  just
• 23:23
  like
• 23:24
  abusing
• 23:24
  myself
• 23:25
  about
• 23:26
  what
• 23:26
  a
• 23:26
  failure
• 23:26
  I
• 23:26
  am.
• 23:27
  I've
• 23:27
  got
• 23:27
  all
• 23:27
  of
• 23:28
  this
• 23:28
  time
• 23:28
  now
• 23:28
  and
• 23:29
  what
• 23:29
  am
• 23:29
  I,
• 23:29
  what
• 23:29
  have
• 23:29
  I
• 23:29
  got
• 23:30
  to
• 23:30
  show
• 23:30
  for
• 23:30
  it?
• 23:31
  What
• 23:31
  am
• 23:31
  I
• 23:31
  the
• 23:31
  fact
• 23:32
  that
• 23:32
  I'm
• 23:32
  not
• 23:32
  on
• 23:32
  top
• 23:33
  of
• 23:34
  work
• 23:34
  stuff.
• 23:35
  And
• 23:35
  I
• 23:35
  think
• 23:36
  that
• 23:37
  it
• 23:37
  was
• 23:37
  actually
• 23:38
  in
• 23:38
  a
• 23:38
  I
• 23:38
  think
• 23:39
  we
• 23:39
  were
• 23:39
  voice
• 23:39
  noting
• 23:39
  last
• 23:40
  week
• 23:40
  and
• 23:40
  I
• 23:41
  was
• 23:41
  probably
• 23:41
  offering
• 23:41
  it
• 23:41
  to
• 23:42
  you
• 23:42
  about
• 23:42
  what
• 23:43
  about
• 23:43
  all
• 23:43
  the
• 23:43
  things
• 23:43
  that
• 23:43
  you
• 23:43
  have
• 23:44
  achieved?
• 23:44
  Yeah.
• 23:45
  And
• 23:45
  it's
• 23:45
  really
• 23:46
  a
• 23:46
  useful
• 23:47
  practice
• 23:48
  for
• 23:48
  everybody.
• 23:49
  I
• 23:49
  do
• 23:50
  this
• 23:50
  as
• 23:50
  part
• 23:50
  of
• 23:50
  weekly
• 23:51
  planning,
• 23:51
  which
• 23:52
  interesting
• 23:53
  that
• 23:53
  my
• 23:54
  hyperachiever
• 23:54
  is
• 23:54
  high
• 23:55
  and
• 23:55
  I
• 23:55
  haven't
• 23:55
  been
• 23:55
  doing.
• 23:57
  Weekly
• 23:57
  planning.
• 23:58
  The
• 23:58
  last
• 23:58
  couple
• 23:58
  of
• 23:58
  weeks
• 23:59
  is
• 23:59
  that
• 24:00
  in
• 24:00
  that
• 24:01
  I'm
• 24:01
  always
• 24:01
  like,
• 24:01
  what
• 24:02
  did
• 24:02
  I
• 24:02
  achieve
• 24:02
  last
• 24:03
  week?
• 24:03
  And
• 24:03
  I
• 24:03
  write
• 24:04
  a
• 24:04
  list
• 24:04
  of
• 24:04
  10
• 24:04
  to
• 24:05
  15
• 24:05
  things.
• 24:06
  And
• 24:06
  when
• 24:06
  I
• 24:06
  write
• 24:06
  that
• 24:07
  list,
• 24:07
  I'm
• 24:07
  always
• 24:07
  like,
• 24:08
  wow,
• 24:08
  like
• 24:09
  you
• 24:09
  got
• 24:09
  so
• 24:10
  much
• 24:10
  stuff
• 24:10
  done.
• 24:11
  Yeah.
• 24:11
  And
• 24:12
  it's
• 24:12
  because
• 24:12
  I'm
• 24:12
  not
• 24:13
  doing
• 24:13
  that.
• 24:14
  If
• 24:14
  I'm
• 24:14
  not
• 24:15
  consciously
• 24:15
  bringing
• 24:16
  my
• 24:16
  mind
• 24:17
  into
• 24:17
  that
• 24:17
  reflection
• 24:18
  and
• 24:19
  encouraging
• 24:19
  it
• 24:19
  to
• 24:20
  look
• 24:20
  at
• 24:20
  the
• 24:20
  things
• 24:20
  that
• 24:20
  I
• 24:20
  have
• 24:21
  done,
• 24:21
  the
• 24:22
  place
• 24:22
  that's
• 24:22
  comfortable,
• 24:23
  the
• 24:23
  place
• 24:23
  that's
• 24:24
  familiar
• 24:24
  is
• 24:25
  reminding
• 24:25
  myself,
• 24:25
  what
• 24:26
  I
• 24:26
  haven't
• 24:26
  done
• 24:26
  and
• 24:26
  what
• 24:27
  I
• 24:27
  am
• 24:28
  and
• 24:28
  how
• 24:28
  lazy
• 24:28
  I
• 24:28
  am
• 24:29
  and
• 24:29
  how
• 24:29
  shit
• 24:29
  I
• 24:29
  am,
• 24:29
  and
• 24:30
  it's
• 24:30
  I'm
• 24:30
  on
• 24:30
  the
• 24:30
  floor
• 24:31
  in
• 24:31
  a
• 24:31
  hopeless
• 24:31
  kind
• 24:32
  of
• 24:32
  mess
• 24:33
  as
• 24:33
  well.
• 24:34
  If
• 24:34
  I
• 24:34
  listening
• 24:35
  to
• 24:35
  that
• 24:35
  voice.
• 24:36
  Completely.
• 24:37
  And
• 24:37
  what
• 24:37
  you
• 24:37
  described
• 24:38
  there
• 24:38
  is
• 24:38
  just,
• 24:38
  it's
• 24:39
  such
• 24:39
  a
• 24:39
  beautiful
• 24:40
  description
• 24:41
  of
• 24:41
  the
• 24:41
  roller
• 24:42
  coaster
• 24:42
  that
• 24:43
  is
• 24:43
  grief.
• 24:44
  That
• 24:44
  it
• 24:44
  like
• 24:45
  you're
• 24:45
  having
• 24:46
  a
• 24:46
  great
• 24:46
  day
• 24:47
  and
• 24:47
  you're
• 24:47
  laughing
• 24:48
  and
• 24:48
  you're
• 24:48
  connecting
• 24:49
  with
• 24:49
  your
• 24:49
  family.
• 24:50
  There's
• 24:50
  this
• 24:50
  huge
• 24:51
  silver
• 24:51
  lining
• 24:52
  that
• 24:52
  has
• 24:52
  come
• 24:52
  out
• 24:52
  of
• 24:52
  this
• 24:52
  experience
• 24:53
  that,
• 24:53
  and
• 24:54
  I
• 24:54
  really
• 24:54
  saw
• 24:54
  that
• 24:54
  when
• 24:55
  I
• 24:55
  was
• 24:55
  over
• 24:55
  for
• 24:55
  the
• 24:55
  funeral
• 24:56
  that
• 24:57
  your
• 24:57
  family
• 24:58
  decided,
• 24:58
  and
• 24:59
  it
• 24:59
  is,
• 24:59
  it's
• 25:00
  a
• 25:00
  decision.
• 25:01
  to
• 25:01
  lean
• 25:01
  into
• 25:01
  love,
• 25:02
  to
• 25:02
  lean
• 25:03
  into
• 25:04
  telling
• 25:04
  stories
• 25:04
  about
• 25:05
  Luca's
• 25:05
  life,
• 25:06
  instead
• 25:06
  of
• 25:06
  focusing
• 25:07
  on
• 25:07
  the
• 25:07
  trauma
• 25:07
  and
• 25:07
  the
• 25:07
  grief
• 25:08
  of
• 25:08
  his
• 25:08
  death.
• 25:09
  And
• 25:09
  so
• 25:09
  that's
• 25:10
  a
• 25:10
  huge
• 25:10
  silver
• 25:10
  lining,
• 25:11
  but
• 25:11
  then
• 25:11
  in
• 25:11
  the
• 25:12
  same
• 25:12
  week
• 25:12
  you
• 25:12
  can
• 25:12
  be
• 25:13
  pulled
• 25:13
  back
• 25:14
  into
• 25:14
  that
• 25:15
  feeling
• 25:15
  of
• 25:15
  hopelessness
• 25:17
  and
• 25:17
  It's
• 25:17
  just
• 25:18
  like
• 25:18
  when
• 25:18
  I
• 25:18
  was
• 25:18
  run
• 25:18
  down,
• 25:19
  it's
• 25:19
  like
• 25:19
  when
• 25:19
  you
• 25:19
  are
• 25:19
  more
• 25:20
  vulnerable
• 25:20
  and
• 25:20
  you're
• 25:20
  more
• 25:21
  run
• 25:21
  down
• 25:21
  it's
• 25:22
  so
• 25:22
  much
• 25:22
  easier
• 25:23
  to
• 25:23
  default
• 25:24
  back
• 25:24
  into
• 25:24
  those
• 25:25
  negative
• 25:25
  patterns
• 25:26
  because
• 25:26
  as
• 25:26
  you
• 25:26
  said,
• 25:27
  they're
• 25:27
  familiar,
• 25:28
  they're
• 25:28
  easy
• 25:29
  and
• 25:29
  the
• 25:29
  actual
• 25:30
  trick
• 25:30
  and
• 25:30
  the
• 25:31
  difficult
• 25:31
  thing
• 25:31
  is
• 25:31
  to.
• 25:33
  Acknowledge
• 25:33
  them,
• 25:33
  recognize
• 25:34
  that
• 25:34
  this
• 25:34
  is
• 25:35
  happening
• 25:36
  and
• 25:36
  then
• 25:36
  shift
• 25:36
  your
• 25:36
  focus
• 25:37
  on
• 25:37
  to
• 25:38
  how
• 25:38
  is
• 25:38
  it
• 25:38
  that
• 25:38
  I
• 25:39
  want
• 25:39
  to
• 25:39
  feel?
• 25:39
  And
• 25:40
  so
• 25:40
  journaling
• 25:40
  has
• 25:40
  been
• 25:41
  like
• 25:42
  so
• 25:43
  grounding
• 25:44
  and
• 25:44
  powerful
• 25:44
  for
• 25:44
  me
• 25:44
  at
• 25:45
  the
• 25:45
  moment.
• 25:45
  And
• 25:45
  I'm
• 25:46
  really
• 25:46
  into.
• 25:47
  Values
• 25:48
  and
• 25:49
  as
• 25:49
  are
• 25:50
  many
• 25:50
  people
• 25:50
  who
• 25:50
  coach
• 25:51
  because
• 25:51
  we
• 25:51
  understand
• 25:52
  that's
• 25:52
  where
• 25:52
  you
• 25:52
  create
• 25:53
  your
• 25:53
  identity
• 25:53
  from.
• 25:54
  And
• 25:54
  my
• 25:55
  personal
• 25:55
  values.
• 25:56
  I
• 25:56
  think
• 25:57
  for
• 25:57
  anyone
• 25:57
  who
• 25:57
  knows
• 25:57
  me
• 25:57
  they
• 25:58
  know
• 25:58
  me
• 25:58
  as
• 25:58
  somebody
• 25:59
  who
• 25:59
  is
• 25:59
  really
• 25:59
  disciplined.
• 26:01
  And
• 26:01
  that's
• 26:01
  something
• 26:02
  that
• 26:02
  I
• 26:02
  am.
• 26:03
  That
• 26:03
  I
• 26:04
  find
• 26:04
  easy
• 26:04
  that
• 26:04
  I
• 26:04
  know
• 26:05
  that
• 26:05
  other
• 26:05
  people
• 26:05
  find
• 26:06
  hard.
• 26:06
  And
• 26:06
  it
• 26:06
  really
• 26:06
  is,
• 26:07
  the
• 26:07
  essence
• 26:07
  of
• 26:08
  who
• 26:08
  I
• 26:08
  am
• 26:08
  is
• 26:08
  extremely
• 26:09
  disciplined.
• 26:10
  It's
• 26:10
  very
• 26:10
  consistent.
• 26:11
  And
• 26:12
  I
• 26:12
  noticed
• 26:12
  recently
• 26:13
  that's
• 26:13
  always
• 26:13
  going
• 26:13
  to
• 26:13
  be
• 26:14
  a
• 26:14
  part
• 26:14
  of
• 26:14
  me,
• 26:15
  but
• 26:15
  the
• 26:15
  thing
• 26:16
  that
• 26:16
  there's
• 26:17
  a
• 26:17
  couple
• 26:17
  of
• 26:17
  other
• 26:18
  values
• 26:18
  that
• 26:18
  have
• 26:18
  been
• 26:18
  coming
• 26:19
  up
• 26:19
  for
• 26:19
  me
• 26:19
  recently
• 26:20
  on
• 26:20
  repeat.
• 26:21
  And
• 26:21
  one
• 26:21
  of
• 26:21
  them
• 26:24
  is
• 26:24
  When
• 26:25
  visualizing
• 26:25
  my
• 26:25
  life
• 26:26
  for
• 26:26
  the
• 26:26
  future,
• 26:27
  I
• 26:27
  noticed
• 26:27
  that
• 26:28
  I
• 26:28
  really
• 26:28
  struggle
• 26:29
  to
• 26:29
  get
• 26:29
  out
• 26:29
  of
• 26:29
  my
• 26:30
  ego
• 26:31
  and
• 26:31
  my
• 26:31
  ego
• 26:32
  is
• 26:32
  about
• 26:32
  being
• 26:32
  the
• 26:32
  best,
• 26:33
  right?
• 26:33
  It's
• 26:33
  about,
• 26:34
  bigger
• 26:35
  and
• 26:35
  better
• 26:35
  and,
• 26:36
  big
• 26:37
  lofty
• 26:38
  dreams.
• 26:39
  And
• 26:39
  then
• 26:39
  there's
• 26:40
  the
• 26:40
  it's
• 26:40
  again
• 26:41
  connected
• 26:41
  to
• 26:41
  how
• 26:42
  do
• 26:42
  you
• 26:42
  want
• 26:42
  to
• 26:42
  feel?
• 26:42
  And
• 26:42
  it's
• 26:43
  I
• 26:43
  want
• 26:43
  it
• 26:43
  to
• 26:43
  feel
• 26:44
  fun.
• 26:45
  I
• 26:45
  want
• 26:45
  my
• 26:45
  life
• 26:46
  to
• 26:46
  just
• 26:46
  be
• 26:46
  really
• 26:46
  full
• 26:47
  and
• 26:49
  full
• 26:49
  of
• 26:49
  fun.
• 26:50
  And
• 26:50
  I
• 26:51
  think
• 26:51
  been
• 26:52
  really
• 26:52
  a
• 26:52
  great.
• 26:54
  A
• 26:54
  great
• 26:54
  thing
• 26:54
  to
• 26:54
  fall
• 26:55
  back
• 26:55
  on
• 26:55
  is
• 26:56
  when
• 26:56
  I'm
• 26:56
  being
• 26:57
  really
• 26:57
  serious
• 26:58
  and,
• 26:58
  like
• 26:59
  flogging
• 27:00
  myself
• 27:00
  about
• 27:01
  all
• 27:01
  of
• 27:01
  these
• 27:01
  things
• 27:01
  I
• 27:01
  need
• 27:01
  to
• 27:01
  do.
• 27:02
  I'm
• 27:02
  like,
• 27:02
  this
• 27:02
  is
• 27:02
  like
• 27:03
  the
• 27:03
  least
• 27:03
  amount
• 27:03
  of
• 27:03
  fun
• 27:04
  I
• 27:04
  could
• 27:04
  possibly
• 27:04
  have
• 27:05
  is
• 27:06
  chaining
• 27:06
  myself
• 27:07
  to
• 27:07
  my
• 27:07
  desk
• 27:07
  and
• 27:07
  dragging
• 27:08
  myself
• 27:08
  through
• 27:09
  all
• 27:09
  of
• 27:09
  these
• 27:09
  things
• 27:09
  I
• 27:09
  have
• 27:10
  to
• 27:10
  do.
• 27:10
  That's
• 27:11
  not
• 27:11
  fun.
• 27:12
  And
• 27:13
  when
• 27:13
  I
• 27:13
  think
• 27:13
  about,
• 27:14
  just
• 27:15
  making
• 27:15
  everything
• 27:16
  more
• 27:16
  fun
• 27:17
  it's
• 27:17
  bringing
• 27:18
  some
• 27:18
  lightness
• 27:18
  to
• 27:19
  it.
• 27:19
  And
• 27:20
  just,
• 27:21
  Stop
• 27:21
  taking
• 27:22
  myself
• 27:22
  so
• 27:22
  seriously.
• 27:23
  I
• 27:24
  think
• 27:24
  that
• 27:24
  does
• 27:24
  happen
• 27:24
  when
• 27:25
  we
• 27:25
  run
• 27:25
  our
• 27:25
  own
• 27:25
  businesses,
• 27:26
  we
• 27:26
  just
• 27:26
  take
• 27:26
  ourselves
• 27:27
  so
• 27:28
  seriously.
• 27:28
  Everything
• 27:29
  is
• 27:29
  overanalyzed,
• 27:31
  every
• 27:31
  con
• 27:32
  that
• 27:32
  goes
• 27:32
  out,
• 27:32
  every
• 27:33
  interaction,
• 27:34
  every
• 27:34
  proposal
• 27:34
  that
• 27:34
  we
• 27:35
  send
• 27:35
  to
• 27:35
  a
• 27:35
  client,
• 27:36
  it's
• 27:37
  just.
• 27:37
  It's
• 27:38
  cringy
• 27:38
  how
• 27:39
  seriously
• 27:39
  we
• 27:39
  take
• 27:40
  ourselves,
• 27:40
  right?
• 27:41
  I
• 27:41
  think
• 27:42
  it's
• 27:42
  not
• 27:42
  even
• 27:42
  just
• 27:43
  people
• 27:43
  who
• 27:43
  are
• 27:43
  self
• 27:43
  employed.
• 27:44
  I
• 27:44
  think
• 27:44
  in
• 27:45
  business
• 27:45
  and
• 27:45
  in
• 27:45
  the
• 27:46
  workplace,
• 27:46
  we
• 27:47
  just
• 27:47
  make
• 27:47
  it
• 27:48
  so
• 27:48
  serious.
• 27:49
  And
• 27:49
  it's
• 27:49
  something
• 27:49
  that
• 27:49
  I'm
• 27:50
  always
• 27:50
  saying
• 27:50
  to
• 27:50
  my
• 27:50
  clients
• 27:51
  cause
• 27:51
  I'm
• 27:51
  a
• 27:52
  big
• 27:52
  part
• 27:52
  of
• 27:52
  my
• 27:52
  work
• 27:53
  is
• 27:53
  I
• 27:53
  get
• 27:53
  them
• 27:53
  to
• 27:54
  do
• 27:54
  a
• 27:55
  values
• 27:55
  exercise.
• 27:56
  So
• 27:56
  usually
• 27:56
  when
• 27:57
  they
• 27:57
  come
• 27:57
  to
• 27:57
  me,
• 27:57
  their
• 27:57
  values
• 27:58
  are.
• 27:59
  Words
• 28:00
  on
• 28:00
  a
• 28:00
  page,
• 28:00
  like
• 28:01
  authenticity,
• 28:02
  integrity,
• 28:03
  and
• 28:03
  empathy.
• 28:04
  And
• 28:04
  I'm
• 28:04
  like,
• 28:05
  okay,
• 28:06
  so
• 28:06
  what
• 28:06
  does
• 28:06
  that
• 28:06
  mean?
• 28:07
  If
• 28:07
  you're
• 28:07
  bringing
• 28:08
  in
• 28:08
  new
• 28:08
  hires
• 28:08
  into
• 28:08
  the
• 28:09
  business
• 28:09
  and
• 28:09
  they're
• 28:09
  just
• 28:09
  seeing
• 28:10
  the
• 28:10
  word
• 28:10
  empathy,
• 28:10
  what
• 28:10
  that
• 28:11
  means,
• 28:11
  absolutely
• 28:12
  nothing
• 28:12
  to
• 28:12
  them.
• 28:13
  So
• 28:13
  I
• 28:13
  got
• 28:13
  a
• 28:13
  client
• 28:13
  of
• 28:14
  mine
• 28:14
  recently
• 28:14
  to
• 28:14
  do
• 28:14
  this.
• 28:16
  And
• 28:16
  actually
• 28:16
  it's
• 28:16
  something
• 28:17
  that
• 28:17
  I
• 28:17
  want
• 28:17
  to
• 28:18
  do
• 28:18
  even
• 28:18
  in
• 28:18
  my
• 28:18
  own
• 28:18
  household,
• 28:19
  which
• 28:19
  is
• 28:20
  to
• 28:21
  look
• 28:21
  at
• 28:21
  the
• 28:21
  values.
• 28:22
  That
• 28:23
  they
• 28:23
  had
• 28:23
  for
• 28:23
  the
• 28:23
  business
• 28:24
  and
• 28:24
  what
• 28:24
  I
• 28:25
  said,
• 28:25
  I
• 28:25
  want
• 28:25
  you
• 28:25
  to
• 28:25
  go
• 28:25
  to
• 28:26
  every
• 28:26
  single
• 28:26
  department
• 28:27
  and
• 28:27
  every
• 28:27
  department
• 28:28
  lead
• 28:28
  is
• 28:28
  going
• 28:28
  to
• 28:28
  host
• 28:28
  this
• 28:28
  session
• 28:29
  and
• 28:29
  say,
• 28:29
  okay,
• 28:30
  these
• 28:30
  are
• 28:30
  our
• 28:30
  values.
• 28:31
  What
• 28:31
  we
• 28:31
  had
• 28:31
  was,
• 28:32
  words
• 28:32
  like
• 28:33
  innovation,
• 28:33
  but
• 28:34
  then
• 28:34
  I
• 28:34
  took
• 28:34
  it
• 28:34
  a
• 28:34
  step
• 28:34
  further
• 28:35
  and
• 28:35
  I
• 28:35
  created
• 28:35
  a
• 28:35
  sentence
• 28:36
  beside
• 28:36
  it.
• 28:36
  So
• 28:36
  I
• 28:37
  said,
• 28:37
  innovation,
• 28:38
  we
• 28:38
  lead,
• 28:39
  we
• 28:39
  don't
• 28:39
  follow.
• 28:40
  Cause
• 28:40
  this
• 28:40
  is
• 28:40
  a
• 28:40
  food
• 28:40
  brand
• 28:41
  and
• 28:41
  they
• 28:41
  want
• 28:41
  to
• 28:41
  lead
• 28:41
  the
• 28:41
  market.
• 28:43
  So
• 28:43
  I
• 28:44
  gave
• 28:44
  him
• 28:44
  that
• 28:44
  little
• 28:44
  bit
• 28:45
  of
• 28:45
  a
• 28:45
  insight
• 28:46
  into
• 28:46
  what
• 28:46
  the
• 28:46
  word
• 28:47
  meant.
• 28:47
  Translation.
• 28:47
  It
• 28:48
  was
• 28:48
  a
• 28:48
  translation
• 28:49
  and
• 28:49
  then
• 28:50
  everybody
• 28:51
  in
• 28:51
  the
• 28:51
  business
• 28:51
  was
• 28:52
  tasked
• 28:52
  to
• 28:52
  say,
• 28:52
  okay,
• 28:53
  so
• 28:53
  how
• 28:53
  can
• 28:53
  you
• 28:54
  show
• 28:54
  up
• 28:54
  with
• 28:55
  integrity?
• 28:55
  How
• 28:56
  can
• 28:56
  you
• 28:56
  show
• 28:56
  up
• 28:57
  being
• 28:57
  innovative?
• 28:57
  How
• 28:57
  can
• 28:58
  you
• 28:58
  show
• 28:58
  up
• 28:58
  with
• 28:58
  empathy?
• 28:59
  What
• 28:59
  does
• 28:59
  that
• 28:59
  look
• 28:59
  like
• 28:59
  in
• 28:59
  your
• 29:00
  department?
• 29:01
  And
• 29:01
  what
• 29:01
  they
• 29:01
  sent
• 29:01
  me
• 29:01
  back
• 29:02
  was,
• 29:02
  in
• 29:02
  every
• 29:03
  single
• 29:03
  department,
• 29:03
  purchasing,
• 29:04
  hospitality,
• 29:05
  everything.
• 29:06
  All
• 29:06
  the
• 29:06
  values
• 29:07
  of
• 29:07
  how
• 29:07
  they
• 29:08
  were
• 29:08
  going
• 29:08
  to
• 29:08
  show
• 29:08
  up
• 29:08
  and
• 29:08
  how
• 29:08
  the
• 29:09
  team
• 29:09
  was
• 29:09
  going
• 29:09
  to
• 29:09
  show
• 29:09
  up.
• 29:10
  And
• 29:10
  I
• 29:10
  was
• 29:10
  speaking
• 29:10
  to
• 29:11
  my
• 29:11
  client
• 29:11
  there
• 29:12
  and
• 29:12
  he
• 29:12
  just
• 29:12
  said,
• 29:12
  Pia,
• 29:12
  this
• 29:13
  has
• 29:13
  been
• 29:13
  the
• 29:13
  most
• 29:13
  incredible
• 29:14
  exercise.
• 29:15
  It's
• 29:15
  gotten
• 29:16
  certain
• 29:16
  people
• 29:17
  in
• 29:17
  the
• 29:17
  business.
• 29:17
  Really
• 29:18
  excited.
• 29:18
  He
• 29:18
  said,
• 29:18
  other
• 29:19
  people
• 29:19
  have
• 29:19
  been
• 29:19
  dragging
• 29:19
  their
• 29:19
  heels.
• 29:20
  And
• 29:20
  I
• 29:20
  said,
• 29:21
  that
• 29:21
  is
• 29:21
  exactly
• 29:22
  what
• 29:22
  happens
• 29:24
  when
• 29:24
  you
• 29:24
  do
• 29:24
  these
• 29:25
  very
• 29:25
  strong
• 29:25
  values
• 29:26
  exercises
• 29:26
  within
• 29:27
  a
• 29:27
  business.
• 29:28
  It's
• 29:28
  going
• 29:28
  to
• 29:28
  be
• 29:28
  really
• 29:29
  inspiring
• 29:29
  to
• 29:30
  some
• 29:30
  people
• 29:30
  who
• 29:30
  share
• 29:31
  in
• 29:31
  those
• 29:31
  values.
• 29:32
  And
• 29:32
  it's
• 29:32
  going
• 29:32
  to
• 29:32
  feel
• 29:33
  toxic
• 29:33
  to
• 29:33
  people
• 29:34
  who
• 29:34
  don't
• 29:34
  share
• 29:34
  in
• 29:34
  the
• 29:35
  values
• 29:35
  and
• 29:35
  they
• 29:35
  need
• 29:36
  to
• 29:36
  leave.
• 29:36
  And
• 29:37
  they
• 29:37
  need
• 29:37
  to
• 29:37
  leave.
• 29:38
  Absolutely.
• 29:38
  So
• 29:39
  that's
• 29:39
  why
• 29:39
  it
• 29:39
  is
• 29:39
  such
• 29:40
  a
• 29:40
  powerful
• 29:40
  way
• 29:41
  of
• 29:41
  actually
• 29:41
  cultivating
• 29:42
  more
• 29:42
  fun
• 29:42
  in
• 29:42
  your
• 29:42
  business
• 29:43
  because
• 29:43
  you're
• 29:43
  surrounded
• 29:44
  by
• 29:44
  people
• 29:45
  who
• 29:45
  have
• 29:45
  different
• 29:45
  skill
• 29:46
  sets,
• 29:47
  but
• 29:47
  they
• 29:47
  have
• 29:47
  similar
• 29:48
  values
• 29:49
  and
• 29:49
  similar
• 29:49
  attitudes,
• 29:50
  and
• 29:50
  it's
• 29:50
  something
• 29:51
  that
• 29:51
  definitely.
• 29:52
  It's
• 29:52
  a
• 29:52
  really
• 29:52
  good
• 29:53
  barometer
• 29:53
  to
• 29:53
  have
• 29:54
  on
• 29:54
  your
• 29:54
  day
• 29:54
  if
• 29:54
  one
• 29:54
  of
• 29:55
  my
• 29:55
  values
• 29:55
  is
• 29:55
  fun,
• 29:55
  like
• 29:56
  what
• 29:56
  am
• 29:56
  I
• 29:56
  doing
• 29:56
  today
• 29:57
  to
• 29:57
  cultivate
• 29:57
  fun?
• 29:58
  Yeah.
• 29:58
  it
• 29:58
  is
• 29:59
  useful
• 29:59
  because
• 30:00
  I
• 30:00
  think
• 30:00
  as
• 30:00
  you
• 30:00
  were
• 30:00
  saying
• 30:01
  that
• 30:01
  it's
• 30:01
  like
• 30:01
  you
• 30:01
  can
• 30:02
  do
• 30:02
  that
• 30:03
  exercise
• 30:03
  in
• 30:03
  your
• 30:04
  own
• 30:04
  life.
• 30:05
  That's
• 30:05
  not
• 30:05
  just
• 30:05
  for
• 30:05
  businesses.
• 30:07
  And
• 30:07
  I
• 30:07
  like
• 30:08
  to
• 30:08
  think
• 30:08
  about
• 30:08
  this
• 30:08
  too
• 30:09
  as
• 30:09
  a,
• 30:11
  because
• 30:11
  I
• 30:11
  really
• 30:11
  believe
• 30:12
  that
• 30:12
  values
• 30:13
  are
• 30:13
  an
• 30:13
  evolutionary
• 30:15
  thing.
• 30:16
  They're
• 30:16
  not
• 30:16
  fixed
• 30:17
  and
• 30:18
  they're
• 30:18
  not
• 30:19
  just
• 30:19
  about
• 30:19
  who
• 30:19
  you
• 30:20
  are.
• 30:20
  They're
• 30:20
  about
• 30:20
  who
• 30:20
  you're
• 30:21
  becoming.
• 30:22
  And
• 30:22
  so
• 30:23
  when
• 30:23
  you're
• 30:23
  ready
• 30:24
  to
• 30:24
  step
• 30:24
  into
• 30:24
  that
• 30:25
  next
• 30:25
  elevated
• 30:26
  version
• 30:27
  of
• 30:27
  you,
• 30:28
  what
• 30:28
  is
• 30:28
  the
• 30:28
  value
• 30:29
  that
• 30:29
  you
• 30:29
  need
• 30:29
  to
• 30:30
  cultivate?
• 30:30
  And
• 30:32
  whilst
• 30:33
  I
• 30:33
  think
• 30:34
  that
• 30:34
  I
• 30:35
  am
• 30:35
  fun.
• 30:36
  I
• 30:36
  need
• 30:36
  to
• 30:36
  cultivate
• 30:37
  that
• 30:37
  fun
• 30:38
  in
• 30:38
  my
• 30:38
  life
• 30:39
  now.
• 30:39
  It's
• 30:39
  not,
• 30:39
  rippling
• 30:40
  out
• 30:40
  in
• 30:40
  all
• 30:40
  directions
• 30:41
  because
• 30:42
  I
• 30:42
  think
• 30:42
  when
• 30:42
  you
• 30:42
  have
• 30:43
  a
• 30:43
  young
• 30:43
  child
• 30:44
  and
• 30:44
  when
• 30:44
  you
• 30:44
  start
• 30:44
  a
• 30:45
  business,
• 30:47
  you're
• 30:47
  in
• 30:47
  the
• 30:47
  engine
• 30:48
  stage.
• 30:48
  Like
• 30:49
  you're
• 30:49
  all
• 30:49
  about
• 30:50
  action
• 30:51
  and.
• 30:52
  Pushing
• 30:52
  yourself.
• 30:53
  And
• 30:53
  I
• 30:53
  think
• 30:53
  that
• 30:54
  there's
• 30:54
  different
• 30:54
  values
• 30:55
  that
• 30:55
  serve
• 30:55
  you
• 30:56
  at
• 30:56
  that
• 30:56
  time,
• 30:56
  like
• 30:57
  discipline.
• 30:58
  But
• 30:58
  actually,
• 30:58
  like
• 31:01
  the
• 31:01
  tuning
• 31:02
  into
• 31:02
  what's
• 31:03
  this
• 31:03
  new
• 31:03
  elevated
• 31:04
  version
• 31:04
  of
• 31:05
  myself,
• 31:05
  what
• 31:05
  are
• 31:06
  the
• 31:06
  values
• 31:06
  that
• 31:06
  they
• 31:07
  have
• 31:08
  that
• 31:08
  are
• 31:08
  different
• 31:08
  to
• 31:09
  where
• 31:09
  I'm
• 31:09
  at
• 31:09
  right
• 31:10
  now,
• 31:10
  and
• 31:11
  then
• 31:11
  thinking
• 31:11
  about.
• 31:13
  What
• 31:13
  the
• 31:13
  exercise
• 31:14
  that
• 31:14
  you
• 31:14
  just
• 31:14
  described,
• 31:15
  which
• 31:15
  is,
• 31:15
  what
• 31:16
  does
• 31:16
  that
• 31:16
  actually
• 31:16
  mean?
• 31:18
  Yeah.
• 31:18
  So
• 31:18
  what
• 31:18
  is
• 31:18
  an
• 31:18
  expression
• 31:19
  of
• 31:19
  that
• 31:19
  in
• 31:20
  And
• 31:22
  that's
• 31:22
  your
• 31:22
  roadmap,
• 31:23
  isn't
• 31:23
  it?
• 31:24
  That's
• 31:24
  your
• 31:25
  roadmap.
• 31:25
  And
• 31:25
  it's
• 31:26
  I
• 31:26
  literally
• 31:26
  have
• 31:26
  it
• 31:26
  as
• 31:26
  my
• 31:27
  screensaver.
• 31:27
  I'm
• 31:27
  looking
• 31:27
  at
• 31:28
  it
• 31:28
  right
• 31:28
  now.
• 31:28
  I
• 31:28
  can
• 31:28
  see
• 31:29
  my
• 31:29
  vision
• 31:29
  board
• 31:30
  for
• 31:30
  2023
• 31:32
  and
• 31:32
  I
• 31:32
  have
• 31:32
  my
• 31:32
  three
• 31:33
  values,
• 31:33
  which
• 31:33
  is
• 31:33
  kindness,
• 31:34
  freedom
• 31:34
  and
• 31:34
  health,
• 31:35
  and
• 31:36
  it's
• 31:37
  Stephen
• 31:37
  and
• 31:37
  I
• 31:38
  have
• 31:38
  this
• 31:38
  rule
• 31:38
  with
• 31:39
  each
• 31:39
  other
• 31:39
  that
• 31:39
  we.
• 31:40
  Always
• 31:40
  speak
• 31:41
  to
• 31:41
  each
• 31:41
  other
• 31:41
  kindly,
• 31:42
  like
• 31:42
  we
• 31:42
  never
• 31:42
  call
• 31:43
  each
• 31:43
  other
• 31:43
  names.
• 31:43
  It's
• 31:43
  just,
• 31:44
  it's
• 31:44
  something
• 31:44
  that
• 31:44
  we
• 31:44
  just
• 31:45
  don't
• 31:45
  do.
• 31:46
  And
• 31:46
  Enzo's
• 31:46
  kind
• 31:46
  of
• 31:46
  gotten,
• 31:47
  when
• 31:47
  they're
• 31:47
  so
• 31:48
  young,
• 31:48
  he's
• 31:48
  just
• 31:48
  I
• 31:48
  want
• 31:49
  that
• 31:49
  or
• 31:49
  mama,
• 31:50
  give
• 31:50
  me
• 31:50
  that,
• 31:50
  and
• 31:50
  he
• 31:50
  talks
• 31:51
  like
• 31:52
  a
• 31:52
  toddler.
• 31:53
  And
• 31:53
  I'd
• 31:53
  say
• 31:53
  to
• 31:54
  him,
• 31:54
  Enzo,
• 31:54
  in
• 31:54
  this
• 31:54
  house,
• 31:54
  we
• 31:55
  don't
• 31:55
  speak
• 31:55
  to
• 31:55
  each
• 31:55
  other
• 31:56
  like
• 31:56
  that.
• 31:56
  That's
• 31:57
  an
• 31:57
  iteration
• 31:58
  of
• 31:58
  our
• 31:58
  values
• 31:59
  that
• 31:59
  I'm
• 31:59
  trying
• 31:59
  to
• 31:59
  pass
• 32:00
  on
• 32:00
  to
• 32:00
  my
• 32:00
  son.
• 32:00
  And
• 32:01
  that's
• 32:01
  the
• 32:01
  beauty
• 32:01
  of
• 32:01
  these
• 32:01
  things.
• 32:02
  When
• 32:02
  you're
• 32:02
  really
• 32:02
  clear
• 32:03
  about
• 32:03
  these
• 32:03
  things
• 32:03
  in
• 32:04
  your
• 32:04
  family,
• 32:04
  it's
• 32:04
  It's
• 32:04
  creating
• 32:05
  the
• 32:05
  boundaries
• 32:05
  for
• 32:06
  how
• 32:06
  you
• 32:06
  behave
• 32:07
  with
• 32:07
  each
• 32:07
  other.
• 32:08
  Yeah.
• 32:09
  And
• 32:09
  this
• 32:09
  thing's
• 32:10
  just
• 32:10
  come
• 32:10
  into
• 32:10
  my
• 32:10
  mind
• 32:11
  that
• 32:11
  I
• 32:11
  actually
• 32:11
  wanted
• 32:11
  to
• 32:11
  talk
• 32:12
  about
• 32:12
  today.
• 32:12
  Cause
• 32:12
  it's
• 32:13
  been
• 32:13
  it's
• 32:13
  been
• 32:13
  something
• 32:13
  I've
• 32:14
  been
• 32:14
  noticing
• 32:15
  it
• 32:15
  everywhere
• 32:15
  and
• 32:16
  it's
• 32:17
  been
• 32:17
  driving
• 32:17
  me
• 32:17
  a
• 32:17
  little
• 32:17
  bit
• 32:17
  crazy.
• 32:18
  To
• 32:18
  be
• 32:18
  honest
• 32:19
  with
• 32:19
  you
• 32:19
  and
• 32:19
  it's
• 32:19
  this
• 32:20
  thing
• 32:20
  that
• 32:20
  I
• 32:20
  noticed
• 32:21
  people
• 32:21
  doing,
• 32:22
  which
• 32:22
  is
• 32:22
  like
• 32:22
  a
• 32:22
  lot
• 32:23
  of
• 32:23
  judging.
• 32:24
  So
• 32:24
  I
• 32:25
  really
• 32:25
  have
• 32:25
  been
• 32:25
  noticing,
• 32:26
  I
• 32:26
  think
• 32:26
  since
• 32:27
  what's
• 32:27
  happened.
• 32:28
  To
• 32:28
  Stephanie,
• 32:29
  it's
• 32:30
  made
• 32:30
  me
• 32:30
  extremely
• 32:31
  aware
• 32:32
  of
• 32:33
  the
• 32:33
  way
• 32:33
  that
• 32:33
  people
• 32:33
  talk
• 32:34
  about
• 32:34
  other
• 32:34
  people.
• 32:35
  And
• 32:35
  I
• 32:35
  really
• 32:36
  noticed
• 32:36
  what
• 32:36
  a
• 32:36
  tendency
• 32:37
  people
• 32:37
  have
• 32:37
  to
• 32:37
  be
• 32:38
  like
• 32:39
  that,
• 32:39
  they're
• 32:39
  referring
• 32:40
  to
• 32:40
  their
• 32:40
  friends
• 32:40
  and
• 32:41
  then
• 32:41
  they
• 32:41
  give
• 32:41
  you
• 32:41
  a
• 32:41
  headline
• 32:42
  about
• 32:42
  them
• 32:43
  and
• 32:43
  the
• 32:43
  headline
• 32:44
  is
• 32:44
  like,
• 32:44
  Oh,
• 32:44
  they've
• 32:44
  had
• 32:44
  such
• 32:45
  a
• 32:45
  hard
• 32:45
  life.
• 32:46
  Or
• 32:46
  Oh,
• 32:46
  like
• 32:46
  they've
• 32:47
  lost
• 32:47
  both
• 32:47
  their
• 32:47
  children.
• 32:47
  They
• 32:48
  lost
• 32:48
  both
• 32:48
  their
• 32:48
  parents,
• 32:49
  when
• 32:49
  they
• 32:49
  were
• 32:49
  a
• 32:49
  child
• 32:50
  or
• 32:50
  Oh,
• 32:50
  they
• 32:50
  went
• 32:50
  through,
• 32:51
  they
• 32:51
  give
• 32:51
  you
• 32:51
  like
• 32:51
  this
• 32:52
  bad
• 32:52
  news
• 32:53
  headline
• 32:53
  or
• 32:53
  like
• 32:54
  they
• 32:54
  were
• 32:54
  in
• 32:54
  an
• 32:54
  abusive
• 32:54
  relationship.
• 32:55
  And
• 32:55
  I'm
• 32:55
  like,
• 32:55
  that's
• 32:56
  literally
• 32:56
  not
• 32:56
  your
• 32:57
  information
• 32:57
  to
• 32:58
  share
• 32:58
  anyway.
• 32:59
  But
• 32:59
  also
• 33:00
  I
• 33:00
  don't
• 33:00
  want
• 33:00
  people
• 33:00
  to
• 33:01
  be
• 33:01
  like,
• 33:01
  that's
• 33:01
  Kyle
• 33:01
  actually
• 33:02
  lost
• 33:02
  her
• 33:02
  child.
• 33:02
  Because
• 33:03
  it's
• 33:03
  giving
• 33:03
  you,
• 33:05
  it's
• 33:05
  yes.
• 33:06
  And
• 33:07
  that
• 33:07
  did
• 33:07
  happen
• 33:07
  to
• 33:07
  me,
• 33:08
  but
• 33:08
  it,
• 33:09
  why
• 33:09
  are
• 33:09
  we
• 33:09
  telling
• 33:10
  like
• 33:10
  the
• 33:10
  low
• 33:10
  lights
• 33:11
  of
• 33:11
  somebody?
• 33:12
  Why
• 33:12
  are
• 33:12
  we
• 33:12
  saying
• 33:12
  oh,
• 33:13
  they
• 33:13
  really
• 33:13
  struggle
• 33:13
  with,
• 33:14
  they've
• 33:14
  struggled
• 33:14
  with
• 33:14
  depression.
• 33:15
  Like,
• 33:15
  why
• 33:15
  wouldn't
• 33:15
  we
• 33:15
  just
• 33:15
  say
• 33:16
  they're
• 33:16
  an
• 33:16
  amazing
• 33:17
  mother
• 33:17
  of
• 33:17
  three
• 33:18
  or
• 33:18
  whatever
• 33:19
  it
• 33:19
  is,
• 33:19
  I
• 33:19
  think
• 33:20
  people
• 33:20
  should
• 33:20
  just
• 33:20
  tune
• 33:21
  in
• 33:21
  and
• 33:21
  check
• 33:22
  themselves
• 33:23
  when
• 33:23
  they
• 33:23
  are
• 33:24
  talking
• 33:24
  about
• 33:25
  other
• 33:25
  people
• 33:25
  and
• 33:25
  notice
• 33:26
  whether
• 33:27
  it's
• 33:27
  that
• 33:27
  pity
• 33:27
  thing
• 33:28
  again.
• 33:28
  I
• 33:28
  think
• 33:28
  that's
• 33:29
  why
• 33:29
  it
• 33:29
  drives
• 33:29
  me
• 33:29
  so
• 33:30
  crazy
• 33:30
  is
• 33:31
  because
• 33:31
  we
• 33:31
  give
• 33:31
  people,
• 33:32
  we
• 33:32
  give
• 33:32
  this
• 33:32
  label
• 33:33
  of
• 33:33
  somebody
• 33:34
  that's
• 33:34
  basically
• 33:34
  a
• 33:34
  judgment
• 33:35
  of
• 33:35
  pity.
• 33:35
  We're
• 33:35
  like,
• 33:36
  this
• 33:36
  is
• 33:36
  so
• 33:37
  and
• 33:37
  this
• 33:37
  is
• 33:37
  why
• 33:37
  like
• 33:37
  you
• 33:38
  should
• 33:38
  pity
• 33:38
  them.
• 33:39
  You
• 33:39
  know
• 33:39
  what
• 33:39
  I
• 33:39
  mean?
• 33:39
  It's
• 33:40
  setting
• 33:40
  that
• 33:40
  context
• 33:41
  and
• 33:41
  it's
• 33:41
  stopping
• 33:41
  you
• 33:41
  from
• 33:42
  actually
• 33:42
  finding
• 33:42
  out
• 33:42
  about
• 33:42
  the
• 33:43
  person
• 33:43
  because
• 33:43
  somebody
• 33:44
  has
• 33:44
  already
• 33:44
  created
• 33:44
  the
• 33:44
  context
• 33:45
  around
• 33:45
  them.
• 33:46
  And
• 33:46
  I
• 33:46
  always
• 33:47
  used
• 33:47
  to
• 33:47
  hate
• 33:48
  that
• 33:48
  when
• 33:48
  I
• 33:48
  was
• 33:48
  growing
• 33:49
  up
• 33:49
  and
• 33:49
  I
• 33:49
  definitely
• 33:49
  found
• 33:50
  it
• 33:50
  amongst
• 33:50
  girl
• 33:51
  groups
• 33:51
  when
• 33:51
  there
• 33:51
  was
• 33:52
  that
• 33:52
  level
• 33:52
  of
• 33:52
  bitchiness.
• 33:53
  It
• 33:53
  was
• 33:55
  someone
• 33:55
  would
• 33:55
  introduce
• 33:56
  someone
• 33:56
  behind
• 33:56
  their
• 33:56
  back
• 33:57
  and
• 33:57
  say,
• 33:57
  Oh,
• 33:57
  they're
• 33:58
  really
• 33:58
  not,
• 33:58
  they're
• 33:58
  okay,
• 33:59
  but
• 33:59
  they're
• 33:59
  blah,
• 33:59
  blah,
• 33:59
  blah.
• 33:59
  And
• 34:00
  they
• 34:00
  tell
• 34:00
  you
• 34:00
  something
• 34:00
  that
• 34:01
  they
• 34:01
  had
• 34:01
  done.
• 34:02
  And
• 34:02
  I
• 34:02
  remember
• 34:03
  I
• 34:03
  used
• 34:03
  to
• 34:03
  always
• 34:03
  say
• 34:03
  to
• 34:03
  people,
• 34:04
  do
• 34:04
  you
• 34:04
  know
• 34:04
  what?
• 34:04
  I'm
• 34:04
  just
• 34:05
  going
• 34:05
  to
• 34:05
  find
• 34:05
  out
• 34:05
  about
• 34:05
  this
• 34:06
  person
• 34:06
  on
• 34:06
  my
• 34:06
  own
• 34:07
  without
• 34:07
  letting
• 34:08
  that
• 34:08
  cloud
• 34:08
  my
• 34:08
  judgment.
• 34:09
  It
• 34:09
  was
• 34:09
  just
• 34:10
  because
• 34:10
  I
• 34:10
  remember
• 34:10
  it
• 34:10
  had
• 34:11
  happened
• 34:11
  to
• 34:11
  me
• 34:11
  that
• 34:12
  people
• 34:12
  had
• 34:12
  said
• 34:12
  stuff
• 34:12
  about
• 34:13
  me
• 34:13
  and
• 34:14
  then
• 34:14
  people
• 34:14
  decided
• 34:15
  based
• 34:15
  on
• 34:15
  that
• 34:15
  information
• 34:16
  rather
• 34:16
  than
• 34:16
  actually
• 34:16
  meeting
• 34:17
  me
• 34:17
  that
• 34:17
  they
• 34:17
  didn't
• 34:17
  like
• 34:17
  me.
• 34:18
  Yeah.
• 34:18
  And
• 34:18
  the
• 34:18
  thing
• 34:18
  that
• 34:19
  women
• 34:19
  are
• 34:19
  still
• 34:19
  doing
• 34:20
  it
• 34:20
  and
• 34:20
  people
• 34:20
  are
• 34:20
  still
• 34:21
  doing
• 34:21
  it.
• 34:21
  And
• 34:21
  now
• 34:22
  it's
• 34:22
  not
• 34:22
  bitchy.
• 34:22
  It's
• 34:23
  pity.
• 34:24
  Yeah.
• 34:24
  And
• 34:24
  it's
• 34:24
  but
• 34:24
  it's
• 34:25
  the
• 34:25
  same
• 34:25
  negative
• 34:26
  thing.
• 34:26
  You're
• 34:26
  being
• 34:26
  like,
• 34:27
  Oh,
• 34:27
  poor
• 34:27
  them.
• 34:28
  And
• 34:28
  it's
• 34:28
  pity
• 34:28
  that's
• 34:29
  judgment.
• 34:30
  Yeah.
• 34:31
  And
• 34:31
  it's,
• 34:31
  again,
• 34:31
  it's
• 34:31
  like
• 34:32
  noticing.
• 34:33
  Cause
• 34:33
  I
• 34:33
  think
• 34:33
  I
• 34:34
  really
• 34:34
  keep
• 34:34
  my,
• 34:35
  I've
• 34:35
  been
• 34:35
  noticing
• 34:35
  my
• 34:35
  husband
• 34:36
  doing
• 34:36
  it
• 34:36
  when
• 34:36
  he
• 34:36
  talks
• 34:36
  about
• 34:36
  people
• 34:37
  and
• 34:37
  I'm
• 34:38
  like,
• 34:38
  literally,
• 34:38
  I
• 34:38
  can't
• 34:39
  be
• 34:39
  doing
• 34:39
  all
• 34:39
  of
• 34:39
  these.
• 34:40
  You're
• 34:40
  always
• 34:41
  telling
• 34:41
  me
• 34:41
  the
• 34:42
  pity
• 34:42
  story
• 34:42
  and
• 34:42
  then
• 34:43
  I
• 34:43
  meet
• 34:43
  some
• 34:43
  people
• 34:44
  like
• 34:44
  members
• 34:44
  of
• 34:45
  his
• 34:45
  family
• 34:45
  and
• 34:45
  I'm
• 34:45
  like,
• 34:45
  they're
• 34:46
  literally
• 34:46
  amazing.
• 34:47
  But
• 34:47
  like
• 34:47
  the
• 34:47
  story
• 34:48
  that
• 34:48
  like
• 34:48
  you
• 34:48
  and
• 34:48
  your
• 34:49
  rest
• 34:49
  of
• 34:49
  your
• 34:49
  family
• 34:49
  were
• 34:50
  telling
• 34:50
  me,
• 34:50
  I
• 34:50
  just
• 34:51
  don't
• 34:51
  get
• 34:51
  it.
• 34:52
  And
• 34:52
  it's
• 34:52
  because
• 34:52
  it's
• 34:52
  like
• 34:53
  the
• 34:53
  low
• 34:53
  lights.
• 34:54
  Yeah,
• 34:55
  you're
• 34:55
  so
• 34:55
  right.
• 34:55
  Why
• 34:56
  do
• 34:56
  we
• 34:56
  do
• 34:56
  that?
• 34:57
  Because
• 34:57
  we
• 34:57
  think
• 34:58
  that
• 34:58
  pity
• 34:58
  is
• 34:58
  great.
• 34:59
  We're
• 34:59
  always
• 35:00
  pitying
• 35:00
  everybody.
• 35:01
  It's
• 35:01
  like
• 35:01
  a
• 35:01
  acceptable
• 35:02
  form
• 35:03
  of
• 35:03
  judgment.
• 35:03
  Whereas
• 35:04
  like
• 35:04
  bitterness
• 35:05
  isn't,
• 35:06
  it's
• 35:06
  oh,
• 35:06
  poor
• 35:06
  them,
• 35:07
  yeah.
• 35:08
  Yeah.
• 35:08
  It's
• 35:08
  almost
• 35:08
  like
• 35:09
  it's
• 35:09
  a,
• 35:09
  an
• 35:09
  acceptable
• 35:10
  form
• 35:10
  of
• 35:10
  gossip.
• 35:11
  It's
• 35:11
  like
• 35:11
  telling
• 35:11
  you
• 35:12
  their
• 35:12
  kind
• 35:12
  of
• 35:12
  their
• 35:12
  backstory,
• 35:13
  but
• 35:13
  actually.
• 35:15
  And
• 35:15
  like
• 35:15
  what's
• 35:15
  happened
• 35:15
  to
• 35:15
  you
• 35:16
  and
• 35:16
  Steph,
• 35:16
  that
• 35:16
  doesn't
• 35:17
  define
• 35:17
  you.
• 35:18
  It's
• 35:18
  part
• 35:18
  of
• 35:18
  your
• 35:19
  story.
• 35:19
  It's
• 35:19
  part
• 35:20
  of
• 35:20
  your
• 35:20
  journey
• 35:21
  and
• 35:21
  you're
• 35:21
  in
• 35:21
  the
• 35:21
  middle
• 35:21
  of
• 35:21
  it
• 35:22
  right
• 35:22
  now.
• 35:22
  But
• 35:22
  it
• 35:22
  doesn't
• 35:23
  mean
• 35:23
  that
• 35:23
  it's
• 35:23
  this
• 35:24
  is
• 35:24
  Kaya.
• 35:24
  She
• 35:24
  lost
• 35:25
  her
• 35:25
  child.
• 35:26
  Yeah,
• 35:26
  and
• 35:26
  I
• 35:26
  think
• 35:26
  with
• 35:26
  a
• 35:26
  lot
• 35:27
  of
• 35:27
  people,
• 35:27
  and
• 35:27
  I
• 35:27
  really
• 35:27
  notice
• 35:28
  the
• 35:28
  things
• 35:28
  that
• 35:28
  people
• 35:28
  say,
• 35:29
  they
• 35:29
  are
• 35:30
  saying
• 35:30
  things
• 35:30
  that
• 35:31
  are
• 35:31
  not
• 35:31
  their
• 35:31
  business
• 35:31
  to
• 35:32
  say.
• 35:32
  No,
• 35:32
  you're
• 35:32
  right.
• 35:33
  It's
• 35:33
  like
• 35:34
  they
• 35:34
  give
• 35:34
  quite
• 35:35
  as
• 35:35
  if
• 35:35
  like
• 35:35
  behind
• 35:36
  the
• 35:36
  scenes
• 35:36
  details
• 35:37
  that
• 35:38
  are
• 35:38
  negative.
• 35:40
  You
• 35:40
  said
• 35:40
  something
• 35:40
  to
• 35:40
  me
• 35:41
  last
• 35:41
  week,
• 35:41
  which
• 35:41
  I've
• 35:42
  been
• 35:42
  thinking
• 35:42
  about
• 35:43
  this
• 35:43
  word
• 35:43
  over
• 35:43
  and
• 35:43
  over
• 35:44
  again
• 35:44
  in
• 35:44
  my
• 35:44
  head,
• 35:44
  which
• 35:44
  is
• 35:45
  this
• 35:45
  idea
• 35:45
  of
• 35:45
  radical
• 35:46
  responsibility,
• 35:47
  that
• 35:47
  we
• 35:48
  all
• 35:48
  are
• 35:48
  responsible
• 35:49
  to
• 35:49
  ourselves.
• 35:51
  And
• 35:51
  we're
• 35:51
  responsible
• 35:51
  for
• 35:52
  how
• 35:52
  we
• 35:52
  show
• 35:52
  up
• 35:52
  in
• 35:52
  the
• 35:52
  world
• 35:53
  and
• 35:53
  we're,
• 35:54
  and
• 35:54
  I
• 35:54
  really
• 35:54
  feel
• 35:55
  that
• 35:55
  as
• 35:55
  a
• 35:56
  population
• 35:57
  of
• 35:57
  people,
• 35:57
  that
• 35:57
  we've
• 35:58
  actually
• 35:58
  become
• 35:58
  very
• 35:59
  passive.
• 36:00
  We've
• 36:00
  become
• 36:00
  passive
• 36:00
  in
• 36:01
  our
• 36:01
  lives.
• 36:01
  And
• 36:01
  for
• 36:01
  years
• 36:02
  I
• 36:02
  was
• 36:02
  really
• 36:03
  passive
• 36:03
  in
• 36:03
  my
• 36:03
  life.
• 36:04
  I
• 36:04
  hate
• 36:04
  my
• 36:04
  job.
• 36:05
  Yeah.
• 36:05
  I
• 36:05
  have
• 36:06
  anxiety.
• 36:07
  I,
• 36:07
  I
• 36:07
  don't
• 36:08
  have
• 36:08
  enough
• 36:08
  money,
• 36:08
  all
• 36:08
  these
• 36:09
  kinds
• 36:09
  of
• 36:09
  things.
• 36:09
  You're
• 36:09
  a
• 36:09
  victim.
• 36:10
  I've
• 36:11
  totally
• 36:11
  just
• 36:14
  put
• 36:14
  myself
• 36:15
  in
• 36:15
  that
• 36:15
  victim
• 36:15
  mode.
• 36:16
  And
• 36:16
  it's
• 36:16
  my
• 36:16
  life
• 36:16
  has
• 36:16
  completely
• 36:17
  changed
• 36:17
  since
• 36:17
  I
• 36:17
  started
• 36:18
  being
• 36:18
  intentional
• 36:18
  with
• 36:19
  my
• 36:19
  life
• 36:19
  and
• 36:19
  going,
• 36:20
  okay,
• 36:20
  how
• 36:20
  is
• 36:20
  it
• 36:20
  that
• 36:21
  I
• 36:21
  want
• 36:21
  to
• 36:21
  feel?
• 36:21
  What
• 36:21
  is
• 36:22
  it
• 36:22
  that
• 36:22
  I
• 36:22
  want
• 36:22
  to
• 36:22
  have?
• 36:23
  Setting
• 36:23
  myself
• 36:23
  those
• 36:23
  goals
• 36:25
  and
• 36:25
  actually
• 36:26
  getting
• 36:26
  out
• 36:27
  of
• 36:27
  other
• 36:28
  people's
• 36:30
  Cause
• 36:30
  we
• 36:30
  talked
• 36:30
  about
• 36:30
  this
• 36:30
  before
• 36:31
  that,
• 36:31
  I
• 36:31
  would
• 36:31
  always
• 36:31
  try
• 36:32
  and
• 36:32
  inspire
• 36:32
  people
• 36:33
  by
• 36:34
  telling
• 36:34
  them
• 36:34
  what
• 36:34
  to
• 36:34
  do,
• 36:35
  which
• 36:35
  isn't
• 36:36
  that
• 36:36
  is
• 36:36
  not
• 36:37
  get
• 36:37
  in
• 36:37
  your
• 36:37
  own
• 36:37
  lane,
• 36:38
  get
• 36:38
  in
• 36:38
  your
• 36:39
  own
• 36:39
  lane.
• 36:39
  And
• 36:40
  it's
• 36:40
  like
• 36:40
  business,
• 36:41
  fucking
• 36:42
  business,
• 36:42
  stop
• 36:43
  telling
• 36:43
  me
• 36:43
  what
• 36:43
  to
• 36:43
  do.
• 36:43
  I
• 36:43
  know
• 36:44
  it
• 36:44
  worked
• 36:44
  for
• 36:44
  you,
• 36:44
  and
• 36:44
  it's
• 36:45
  I
• 36:45
  have
• 36:46
  actually
• 36:47
  gotten
• 36:47
  so
• 36:47
  much
• 36:48
  closer
• 36:48
  with
• 36:48
  my
• 36:48
  family.
• 36:48
  I've
• 36:49
  gotten
• 36:49
  so
• 36:49
  much
• 36:49
  closer
• 36:49
  with
• 36:49
  my
• 36:49
  sisters.
• 36:50
  I
• 36:50
  have
• 36:50
  noticed
• 36:51
  a
• 36:51
  real
• 36:51
  shift
• 36:52
  in
• 36:52
  the
• 36:52
  energy
• 36:52
  in
• 36:52
  my
• 36:52
  family
• 36:53
  since
• 36:53
  I
• 36:54
  stopped
• 36:54
  getting
• 36:55
  involved.
• 36:56
  And
• 36:56
  just
• 36:56
  started,
• 36:57
  doing
• 36:58
  my
• 36:58
  own
• 36:58
  thing
• 36:58
  and
• 36:59
  they
• 36:59
  can
• 36:59
  see
• 36:59
  the
• 36:59
  benefits
• 37:00
  that's
• 37:00
  brought
• 37:00
  to
• 37:00
  my
• 37:00
  life.
• 37:01
  And
• 37:02
  then
• 37:02
  they
• 37:02
  come
• 37:02
  to
• 37:02
  you,
• 37:02
  people
• 37:03
  come
• 37:03
  to
• 37:03
  you
• 37:03
  with
• 37:03
  questions
• 37:04
  and
• 37:04
  say
• 37:04
  like,
• 37:04
  how
• 37:04
  are
• 37:05
  you
• 37:05
  doing
• 37:05
  this?
• 37:05
  What's
• 37:05
  happening?
• 37:07
  So
• 37:07
  there's
• 37:07
  just,
• 37:07
  there's
• 37:07
  something
• 37:08
  in
• 37:08
  that,
• 37:08
  it's
• 37:08
  just
• 37:09
  this
• 37:09
  whole
• 37:09
  radical
• 37:10
  responsibility.
• 37:10
  I
• 37:10
  am
• 37:10
  responsible
• 37:11
  for
• 37:11
  myself.
• 37:12
  And
• 37:12
  the
• 37:12
  words
• 37:12
  that
• 37:12
  come
• 37:13
  out
• 37:13
  of
• 37:13
  my
• 37:13
  mouth
• 37:13
  and
• 37:13
  it's
• 37:14
  rather
• 37:14
  than
• 37:14
  talking
• 37:15
  about
• 37:15
  something
• 37:15
  else
• 37:15
  that
• 37:16
  somebody's
• 37:16
  going
• 37:16
  through,
• 37:16
  why
• 37:17
  don't
• 37:17
  you
• 37:17
  just
• 37:17
  talk
• 37:17
  about
• 37:17
  what
• 37:17
  you're
• 37:18
  going
• 37:18
  through
• 37:19
  and
• 37:19
  what
• 37:19
  you're
• 37:19
  struggling
• 37:20
  with
• 37:20
  and
• 37:20
  you
• 37:20
  can
• 37:21
  share
• 37:21
  and
• 37:21
  be
• 37:21
  vulnerable
• 37:22
  rather
• 37:22
  than
• 37:22
  judge
• 37:23
  somebody
• 37:23
  else.
• 37:23
  Because
• 37:24
  that's
• 37:24
  the
• 37:24
  only
• 37:24
  thing
• 37:24
  that
• 37:24
  we
• 37:24
  actually
• 37:25
  know
• 37:25
  for
• 37:25
  sure
• 37:25
  is
• 37:26
  what
• 37:26
  our
• 37:26
  experience
• 37:27
  is
• 37:27
  at
• 37:27
  a
• 37:27
  particular
• 37:28
  time.
• 37:28
  And
• 37:28
  I
• 37:29
  know
• 37:29
  that.
• 37:30
  In
• 37:30
  this,
• 37:30
  one
• 37:31
  of
• 37:31
  the
• 37:31
  things
• 37:31
  that's
• 37:31
  I
• 37:32
  think
• 37:32
  interesting
• 37:32
  about
• 37:33
  when
• 37:33
  something
• 37:33
  happens
• 37:34
  to
• 37:34
  you
• 37:34
  that's
• 37:34
  quite
• 37:35
  shocking
• 37:36
  and
• 37:36
  traumatic
• 37:37
  is
• 37:37
  that
• 37:38
  if
• 37:39
  you
• 37:39
  share
• 37:39
  with
• 37:40
  people
• 37:40
  will
• 37:40
  come
• 37:40
  up
• 37:41
  to
• 37:41
  you
• 37:41
  and
• 37:41
  they'll
• 37:41
  tell
• 37:41
  you
• 37:41
  things
• 37:42
  that
• 37:42
  they
• 37:42
  would
• 37:42
  never
• 37:43
  have
• 37:43
  told
• 37:43
  you
• 37:44
  if
• 37:44
  you
• 37:44
  hadn't
• 37:45
  have
• 37:45
  had
• 37:45
  this
• 37:45
  experience
• 37:46
  like,
• 37:46
  yeah,
• 37:47
  if
• 37:47
  you
• 37:47
  share
• 37:48
  with
• 37:48
  people.
• 37:49
  Because
• 37:49
  you
• 37:49
  are
• 37:49
  vulnerable.
• 37:50
  It's
• 37:51
  almost
• 37:51
  like
• 37:51
  it
• 37:51
  gives
• 37:51
  them
• 37:52
  a
• 37:52
  pass
• 37:52
  to
• 37:52
  be
• 37:52
  vulnerable
• 37:53
  too.
• 37:53
  And
• 37:53
  I've
• 37:53
  had
• 37:53
  some
• 37:54
  amazing
• 37:55
  kind
• 37:55
  of
• 37:55
  conversations
• 37:56
  with
• 37:56
  people
• 37:56
  out
• 37:57
  blue
• 37:57
  where
• 37:58
  they've
• 37:58
  just
• 37:58
  reached
• 37:59
  out
• 37:59
  to
• 37:59
  me
• 37:59
  and
• 38:00
  shared
• 38:01
  something
• 38:01
  because
• 38:02
  they've,
• 38:02
  we've
• 38:03
  been
• 38:03
  talking
• 38:03
  about
• 38:03
  it
• 38:03
  or
• 38:04
  they've
• 38:04
  heard
• 38:04
  something
• 38:04
  on
• 38:04
  the
• 38:05
  podcast.
• 38:05
  And
• 38:05
  I
• 38:05
  think
• 38:06
  that's,
• 38:06
  you
• 38:07
  can
• 38:07
  influence
• 38:07
  people
• 38:08
  by
• 38:08
  sharing
• 38:10
  your
• 38:10
  journey
• 38:10
  and
• 38:10
  by
• 38:11
  sharing
• 38:11
  the
• 38:11
  things
• 38:11
  that
• 38:12
  you're
• 38:12
  struggling
• 38:12
  with
• 38:14
  and
• 38:14
  also
• 38:14
  your
• 38:14
  highs,
• 38:15
  right?
• 38:16
  The
• 38:16
  journey,
• 38:17
  just
• 38:17
  being
• 38:18
  in
• 38:18
  life
• 38:18
  with
• 38:18
  people
• 38:19
  and
• 38:20
  when
• 38:20
  you're
• 38:21
  having
• 38:21
  a
• 38:21
  great
• 38:21
  day
• 38:22
  saying,
• 38:22
  I'm
• 38:22
  having
• 38:22
  a
• 38:22
  great
• 38:23
  day,
• 38:23
  this
• 38:23
  happened,
• 38:23
  not
• 38:24
  feeling
• 38:24
  like
• 38:24
  you
• 38:24
  need
• 38:25
  to
• 38:25
  dumb
• 38:25
  yourself
• 38:25
  down.
• 38:26
  And
• 38:26
  equally
• 38:27
  when
• 38:27
  you're
• 38:28
  struggling,
• 38:28
  sharing
• 38:29
  that
• 38:29
  with
• 38:29
  your
• 38:29
  friends
• 38:30
  because
• 38:31
  I
• 38:31
  think
• 38:31
  that
• 38:31
  gives
• 38:32
  permission
• 38:33
  for
• 38:33
  everyone
• 38:34
  to,
• 38:34
  to
• 38:34
  share
• 38:35
  and
• 38:36
  people
• 38:37
  not
• 38:37
  to
• 38:37
  feel
• 38:37
  guilty
• 38:38
  about.
• 38:39
  bringing
• 38:40
  their
• 38:41
  struggles
• 38:42
  and
• 38:42
  also
• 38:42
  not
• 38:43
  to
• 38:43
  feel
• 38:43
  guilty
• 38:43
  about
• 38:44
  bringing
• 38:44
  their
• 38:44
  wins.
• 38:45
  Absolutely.
• 38:46
  And
• 38:47
  human
• 38:47
  beings
• 38:48
  are,
• 38:48
  we
• 38:49
  are
• 38:49
  really
• 38:49
  complex
• 38:49
  creatures.
• 38:50
  And
• 38:50
  I
• 38:50
  saw
• 38:51
  it
• 38:51
  on
• 38:51
  your
• 38:51
  Instagram
• 38:51
  the
• 38:51
  other
• 38:51
  day
• 38:52
  and
• 38:52
  it
• 38:52
  really
• 38:52
  resonated
• 38:52
  with
• 38:53
  me
• 38:53
  that,
• 38:54
  you're
• 38:54
  on
• 38:54
  the
• 38:54
  plane
• 38:54
  to
• 38:54
  Spain
• 38:55
  and
• 38:55
  you
• 38:55
  said,
• 38:55
  I
• 38:56
  am
• 38:56
  heartbroken,
• 38:57
  but
• 38:57
  I'm
• 38:57
  also
• 38:57
  excited.
• 38:58
  And
• 38:58
  you
• 38:58
  mentioned
• 38:59
  all
• 38:59
  those
• 38:59
  different
• 38:59
  emotions
• 39:00
  that
• 39:00
  can
• 39:00
  exist
• 39:01
  in
• 39:01
  the
• 39:01
  same
• 39:01
  space
• 39:02
  in
• 39:02
  time
• 39:03
  in
• 39:03
  one
• 39:03
  human
• 39:04
  brain.
• 39:05
  Do
• 39:05
  you
• 39:05
  know,
• 39:05
  but
• 39:06
  we
• 39:06
  tend
• 39:07
  to
• 39:07
  dumb
• 39:07
  ourselves
• 39:07
  down
• 39:08
  to
• 39:08
  these
• 39:08
  two
• 39:08
  dimensional
• 39:09
  creatures,
• 39:10
  which
• 39:10
  is
• 39:10
  Kai
• 39:10
  is
• 39:10
  grieving
• 39:11
  right
• 39:11
  now.
• 39:11
  So
• 39:11
  she's
• 39:11
  really
• 39:11
  sad
• 39:12
  and
• 39:12
  we
• 39:12
  need
• 39:12
  to
• 39:12
  be
• 39:12
  really
• 39:12
  careful
• 39:13
  around
• 39:13
  her.
• 39:13
  And
• 39:13
  she,
• 39:13
  can't
• 39:14
  be
• 39:14
  happy.
• 39:14
  And
• 39:14
  it's
• 39:14
  no,
• 39:15
  you
• 39:15
  can
• 39:15
  actually
• 39:15
  be
• 39:15
  really
• 39:16
  excited
• 39:16
  about
• 39:16
  this
• 39:17
  next
• 39:17
  move
• 39:17
  in
• 39:17
  this
• 39:17
  next
• 39:18
  chapter,
• 39:18
  but
• 39:18
  you
• 39:18
  can
• 39:18
  also
• 39:19
  be
• 39:19
  heartbroken
• 39:19
  over
• 39:20
  what
• 39:20
  happened.
• 39:21
  So
• 39:21
  what
• 39:22
  would
• 39:22
  you
• 39:22
  say
• 39:23
  from
• 39:23
  this
• 39:24
  week
• 39:24
  have
• 39:24
  been
• 39:25
  your
• 39:25
  highs,
• 39:25
  your
• 39:26
  lows,
• 39:26
  and
• 39:27
  what
• 39:27
  did
• 39:27
  you
• 39:27
  learn?
• 39:29
  So
• 39:30
  my
• 39:32
  highs
• 39:33
  and
• 39:34
  my
• 39:34
  lows,
• 39:35
  I
• 39:35
  think
• 39:35
  my
• 39:35
  low
• 39:36
  was
• 39:36
  really
• 39:37
  just
• 39:37
  that
• 39:38
  moment
• 39:39
  before
• 39:39
  I,
• 39:40
  Stephen
• 39:41
  said,
• 39:41
  I
• 39:41
  think
• 39:42
  you
• 39:42
  should
• 39:42
  get
• 39:42
  out
• 39:42
  of
• 39:42
  bed,
• 39:43
  when
• 39:43
  you're
• 39:43
  like
• 39:44
  in
• 39:44
  the
• 39:44
  worst
• 39:45
  of
• 39:45
  it.
• 39:45
  And
• 39:45
  I
• 39:46
  was,
• 39:46
  the
• 39:46
  antibiotics
• 39:47
  hadn't
• 39:47
  fully
• 39:47
  kicked
• 39:48
  in
• 39:48
  and
• 39:48
  I
• 39:48
  was
• 39:48
  just,
• 39:49
  it
• 39:49
  was,
• 39:49
  I,
• 39:50
  the
• 39:50
  judge
• 39:51
  was
• 39:51
  like
• 39:51
  totally
• 39:52
  running
• 39:53
  the
• 39:53
  show,
• 39:53
  and
• 39:53
  I
• 39:53
  was
• 39:54
  just
• 39:54
  feeling
• 39:54
  absolutely
• 39:54
  shit
• 39:55
  and
• 39:55
  terrible
• 39:55
  about
• 39:55
  myself
• 39:56
  and
• 39:56
  I
• 39:56
  was
• 39:56
  having
• 39:56
  a
• 39:56
  pity
• 39:57
  party
• 39:57
  and
• 39:57
  it
• 39:57
  was
• 39:57
  just
• 39:58
  a
• 39:58
  really
• 39:59
  shit,
• 40:00
  low
• 40:00
  vibration
• 40:01
  emotion
• 40:01
  to
• 40:01
  be
• 40:02
  in
• 40:02
  that
• 40:02
  I'd
• 40:02
  been
• 40:02
  in
• 40:02
  for
• 40:02
  a
• 40:03
  few
• 40:03
  days.
• 40:03
  I
• 40:03
  think
• 40:04
  that
• 40:04
  was
• 40:04
  my
• 40:04
  load.
• 40:06
  And
• 40:06
  my
• 40:07
  high
• 40:07
  was
• 40:08
  right,
• 40:09
  speaking
• 40:09
  of
• 40:09
  radical
• 40:10
  responsibility,
• 40:11
  I
• 40:11
  had
• 40:12
  a
• 40:12
  really
• 40:12
  nice
• 40:12
  interaction
• 40:13
  with
• 40:13
  my
• 40:13
  husband,
• 40:14
  which
• 40:15
  where
• 40:16
  he
• 40:16
  was
• 40:16
  in
• 40:17
  a
• 40:17
  funk
• 40:17
  over
• 40:17
  something.
• 40:17
  So
• 40:18
  we
• 40:19
  had
• 40:19
  ordered
• 40:19
  a
• 40:19
  new
• 40:20
  camera
• 40:20
  for
• 40:20
  my
• 40:21
  office
• 40:21
  set
• 40:21
  up,
• 40:22
  which
• 40:22
  was
• 40:22
  250
• 40:23
  euro
• 40:24
  because
• 40:24
  my
• 40:24
  other
• 40:24
  one
• 40:25
  had
• 40:25
  broken
• 40:25
  because
• 40:25
  the
• 40:25
  battery
• 40:26
  had
• 40:26
  I
• 40:26
  don't
• 40:27
  know,
• 40:27
  it
• 40:27
  had
• 40:27
  short
• 40:27
  circuited
• 40:28
  and
• 40:28
  overheated
• 40:29
  and
• 40:29
  it
• 40:29
  had
• 40:30
  zapped
• 40:30
  my
• 40:30
  other
• 40:30
  camera.
• 40:31
  And
• 40:31
  so
• 40:32
  we
• 40:32
  went
• 40:32
  and
• 40:32
  we
• 40:32
  spent
• 40:32
  250,
• 40:33
  we,
• 40:33
  Stephen
• 40:34
  went
• 40:34
  out
• 40:34
  and
• 40:34
  he
• 40:34
  got
• 40:35
  the
• 40:35
  camera
• 40:36
  and
• 40:37
  He
• 40:37
  was
• 40:37
  just
• 40:37
  busy.
• 40:38
  It
• 40:38
  was
• 40:38
  a
• 40:38
  really
• 40:38
  busy
• 40:38
  morning.
• 40:39
  All
• 40:39
  these
• 40:39
  people
• 40:39
  were
• 40:39
  in
• 40:39
  our
• 40:39
  house.
• 40:40
  Enzo
• 40:40
  was
• 40:40
  there.
• 40:41
  All
• 40:41
  these
• 40:41
  other
• 40:41
  kids
• 40:41
  were
• 40:41
  there.
• 40:42
  I
• 40:42
  think
• 40:42
  Stephen
• 40:43
  was
• 40:43
  just
• 40:43
  overwhelmed
• 40:43
  and
• 40:43
  he
• 40:43
  wasn't
• 40:44
  thinking.
• 40:45
  And
• 40:45
  he
• 40:45
  put
• 40:45
  the
• 40:46
  old
• 40:46
  battery
• 40:46
  into
• 40:47
  the
• 40:47
  new
• 40:47
  camera
• 40:47
  and
• 40:47
  it
• 40:48
  just
• 40:48
  blew
• 40:48
  the
• 40:48
  camera
• 40:49
  immediately.
• 40:49
  So
• 40:49
  it's
• 40:49
  250
• 40:50
  quid
• 40:50
  gone.
• 40:51
  And
• 40:51
  this
• 40:51
  is
• 40:51
  the
• 40:51
  kind
• 40:51
  of
• 40:51
  thing
• 40:52
  that
• 40:52
  drives
• 40:52
  Stephen
• 40:53
  absolutely
• 40:54
  insane.
• 40:54
  He's
• 40:54
  he's
• 40:54
  such
• 40:55
  a
• 40:55
  perfectionist
• 40:56
  around
• 40:56
  technology
• 40:57
  and
• 40:57
  he's
• 40:57
  like
• 40:57
  really,
• 40:57
  this
• 40:58
  is
• 40:58
  his
• 40:58
  area.
• 40:59
  And
• 41:00
  so
• 41:00
  he
• 41:00
  just
• 41:00
  really
• 41:01
  got
• 41:01
  into
• 41:01
  a
• 41:01
  huge
• 41:02
  funk
• 41:02
  and
• 41:04
  I
• 41:04
  didn't
• 41:05
  get
• 41:05
  involved.
• 41:06
  Which
• 41:06
  was,
• 41:07
  and
• 41:07
  it
• 41:07
  was
• 41:07
  a
• 41:07
  really
• 41:08
  amazing
• 41:09
  feeling.
• 41:10
  It
• 41:10
  was
• 41:10
  a
• 41:10
  huge
• 41:11
  win
• 41:11
  because
• 41:11
  usually
• 41:11
  what
• 41:11
  I
• 41:12
  do
• 41:12
  is
• 41:12
  I'd
• 41:12
  be
• 41:13
  like
• 41:13
  trying
• 41:13
  to
• 41:13
  make
• 41:13
  him
• 41:13
  feel
• 41:14
  better.
• 41:15
  And
• 41:15
  then
• 41:15
  when
• 41:15
  he's
• 41:15
  not
• 41:15
  feeling
• 41:16
  better,
• 41:16
  because
• 41:17
  I'm
• 41:17
  trying
• 41:17
  to
• 41:17
  force
• 41:17
  him
• 41:18
  there,
• 41:18
  I'd
• 41:18
  get
• 41:18
  annoyed.
• 41:20
  So
• 41:21
  instead
• 41:22
  I
• 41:22
  just
• 41:22
  said.
• 41:23
  I
• 41:23
  understand
• 41:25
  how
• 41:25
  much
• 41:26
  this
• 41:26
  sort
• 41:26
  of
• 41:27
  stuff
• 41:27
  upsets
• 41:27
  you,
• 41:28
  you've
• 41:28
  had
• 41:28
  a
• 41:28
  really
• 41:29
  busy
• 41:29
  day.
• 41:29
  And
• 41:30
  that
• 41:30
  morning
• 41:30
  I
• 41:30
  had
• 41:31
  opened
• 41:31
  the
• 41:31
  car
• 41:32
  and
• 41:32
  I
• 41:32
  crushed
• 41:33
  Enzo's
• 41:33
  fingers
• 41:34
  in
• 41:34
  the
• 41:34
  car
• 41:34
  door.
• 41:35
  And.
• 41:36
  I
• 41:36
  said,
• 41:37
  look,
• 41:37
  you
• 41:37
  need
• 41:37
  to
• 41:37
  take
• 41:38
  a
• 41:38
  nap.
• 41:38
  Go.
• 41:38
  It's
• 41:38
  been
• 41:39
  too
• 41:39
  intense
• 41:40
  go
• 41:40
  take
• 41:40
  some
• 41:40
  space.
• 41:41
  We're
• 41:41
  due
• 41:41
  to
• 41:41
  go
• 41:41
  to
• 41:41
  a
• 41:41
  kid's
• 41:42
  birthday
• 41:42
  party.
• 41:42
  And
• 41:42
  I
• 41:42
  said,
• 41:43
  you
• 41:43
  come
• 41:43
  down
• 41:43
  whenever
• 41:43
  you're
• 41:44
  ready.
• 41:45
  But
• 41:45
  I
• 41:45
  just
• 41:45
  want
• 41:45
  to
• 41:45
  remind
• 41:46
  you
• 41:46
  this
• 41:46
  morning,
• 41:46
  we
• 41:46
  thought
• 41:47
  that
• 41:47
  I
• 41:47
  had
• 41:47
  broken
• 41:47
  those
• 41:47
  fingers.
• 41:50
  So
• 41:50
  I
• 41:50
  was
• 41:50
  like,
• 41:51
  does
• 41:51
  that
• 41:51
  put
• 41:51
  it
• 41:52
  in
• 41:52
  perspective,
• 41:52
  how
• 41:52
  much
• 41:53
  this
• 41:53
  doesn't
• 41:53
  matter?
• 41:54
  And
• 41:54
  he
• 41:55
  just,
• 41:55
  he
• 41:55
  went
• 41:55
  off
• 41:56
  and
• 41:56
  he
• 41:56
  had,
• 41:57
  a
• 41:57
  break.
• 41:57
  And
• 41:58
  then
• 41:58
  when
• 41:58
  he
• 41:58
  came
• 41:58
  back,
• 41:58
  he
• 41:58
  just
• 41:59
  came
• 41:59
  and
• 41:59
  gave
• 41:59
  me
• 41:59
  a
• 41:59
  big
• 41:59
  kiss.
• 42:00
  And
• 42:00
  he
• 42:00
  said,
• 42:00
  thank
• 42:00
  you
• 42:00
  so
• 42:01
  much.
• 42:01
  That's
• 42:01
  what
• 42:01
  I
• 42:01
  needed.
• 42:02
  And
• 42:02
  it
• 42:02
  was,
• 42:03
  just
• 42:03
  a
• 42:03
  really
• 42:04
  nice
• 42:05
  interaction
• 42:05
  that
• 42:06
  in
• 42:06
  the
• 42:07
  past
• 42:07
  could
• 42:07
  have
• 42:07
  been
• 42:07
  a
• 42:07
  very
• 42:07
  negative
• 42:08
  interaction.
• 42:09
  So
• 42:09
  that
• 42:09
  for
• 42:09
  me
• 42:10
  was
• 42:10
  like
• 42:10
  these
• 42:11
  practices
• 42:11
  and
• 42:12
  I've
• 42:12
  learned
• 42:12
  so
• 42:12
  much
• 42:12
  from
• 42:12
  you
• 42:13
  and
• 42:13
  Kaya
• 42:13
  and
• 42:13
  this
• 42:13
  into
• 42:13
  leaning
• 42:14
  into
• 42:14
  high
• 42:14
  vibration
• 42:15
  emotions,
• 42:15
  not
• 42:16
  getting
• 42:16
  involved,
• 42:17
  staying
• 42:17
  in
• 42:17
  my
• 42:17
  own
• 42:17
  lane.
• 42:18
  And
• 42:18
  that
• 42:19
  was
• 42:19
  it
• 42:19
  in
• 42:19
  practice.
• 42:20
  And
• 42:20
  it
• 42:20
  just
• 42:20
  felt
• 42:20
  really
• 42:20
  good.
• 42:21
  High
• 42:21
  fiving
• 42:22
  you.
• 42:22
  So
• 42:22
  what
• 42:22
  did
• 42:22
  you
• 42:22
  learn
• 42:23
  this
• 42:23
  week?
• 42:25
  I
• 42:26
  learned,
• 42:27
  Oh,
• 42:27
  I
• 42:27
  learned
• 42:28
  the
• 42:28
  power
• 42:28
  of
• 42:28
  writing,
• 42:29
  the
• 42:29
  power
• 42:30
  of
• 42:30
  writing
• 42:30
  things
• 42:30
  down
• 42:31
  and
• 42:32
  the
• 42:32
  power
• 42:32
  of
• 42:33
  not
• 42:33
  letting
• 42:33
  the
• 42:33
  judge
• 42:34
  tell
• 42:34
  you
• 42:34
  lies.
• 42:35
  If
• 42:35
  you
• 42:35
  are
• 42:35
  feeling
• 42:36
  overwhelmed,
• 42:36
  write
• 42:37
  down
• 42:37
  what's
• 42:37
  making
• 42:37
  you
• 42:37
  overwhelmed,
• 42:38
  and
• 42:38
  then
• 42:38
  you'll
• 42:39
  realize
• 42:39
  that
• 42:39
  actually
• 42:39
  there's
• 42:40
  not
• 42:40
  as
• 42:40
  much
• 42:40
  there
• 42:40
  as
• 42:40
  you
• 42:40
  thought.
• 42:42
  Amazing.
• 42:43
  What
• 42:43
  about
• 42:43
  you?
• 42:44
  Tell
• 42:44
  me.
• 42:44
  My
• 42:46
  high
• 42:46
  this
• 42:46
  week
• 42:47
  was
• 42:47
  just
• 42:47
  hanging
• 42:48
  out
• 42:48
  with
• 42:48
  like
• 42:49
  my
• 42:49
  OG
• 42:49
  family
• 42:50
  four.
• 42:50
  Yeah.
• 42:51
  So
• 42:51
  like
• 42:51
  my
• 42:51
  mom,
• 42:52
  my
• 42:52
  dad,
• 42:52
  my
• 42:52
  sister,
• 42:53
  and
• 42:53
  our
• 42:54
  little
• 42:54
  dog
• 42:54
  Elvis,
• 42:55
  and
• 42:55
  we
• 42:55
  went
• 42:56
  out
• 42:56
  for
• 42:56
  brunch
• 42:57
  and
• 42:57
  we
• 42:57
  had
• 42:58
  dinner
• 42:58
  together.
• 42:58
  We
• 42:58
  were
• 42:58
  just
• 42:59
  hanging
• 42:59
  out.
• 42:59
  It
• 42:59
  was
• 43:00
  just
• 43:00
  really
• 43:01
  nourishing
• 43:02
  and
• 43:02
  fun.
• 43:03
  I
• 43:03
  think
• 43:03
  the
• 43:03
  word
• 43:04
  is.
• 43:04
  It
• 43:04
  was
• 43:05
  fun.
• 43:05
  And
• 43:06
  it's
• 43:07
  funny
• 43:07
  because
• 43:07
  I
• 43:07
  think
• 43:07
  we
• 43:07
  went
• 43:07
  out
• 43:08
  for
• 43:08
  my
• 43:08
  dad's
• 43:08
  70th
• 43:09
  for
• 43:09
  lunch,
• 43:10
  like
• 43:11
  earlier
• 43:11
  this
• 43:12
  year.
• 43:12
  And
• 43:12
  at
• 43:13
  that
• 43:13
  meal,
• 43:13
  we
• 43:13
  were
• 43:13
  like,
• 43:13
  God,
• 43:14
  it's
• 43:14
  ages
• 43:14
  since
• 43:14
  the
• 43:15
  four
• 43:15
  of
• 43:15
  us
• 43:15
  were
• 43:15
  just
• 43:15
  together,
• 43:16
  cause
• 43:16
  you
• 43:16
  always
• 43:16
  got
• 43:16
  your
• 43:16
  partners
• 43:17
  along.
• 43:17
  And
• 43:17
  I
• 43:17
  think
• 43:17
  that
• 43:18
  it
• 43:18
  was
• 43:19
  really
• 43:19
  nice
• 43:19
  then,
• 43:19
  but
• 43:20
  like
• 43:20
  this
• 43:20
  just
• 43:21
  before
• 43:21
  we
• 43:21
  left,
• 43:21
  I
• 43:21
  had
• 43:22
  these
• 43:22
  couple
• 43:22
  of
• 43:22
  days
• 43:23
  where
• 43:23
  it
• 43:23
  was
• 43:23
  like,
• 43:23
  my
• 43:23
  sister
• 43:24
  lives
• 43:24
  just
• 43:24
  up
• 43:24
  the
• 43:24
  road.
• 43:25
  And
• 43:25
  it
• 43:25
  was,
• 43:25
  I
• 43:25
  was
• 43:25
  staying
• 43:26
  with
• 43:26
  my
• 43:26
  parents
• 43:27
  before
• 43:27
  Steph
• 43:28
  came
• 43:28
  back
• 43:28
  to
• 43:28
  London.
• 43:29
  And
• 43:29
  it
• 43:29
  was
• 43:29
  just,
• 43:29
  it
• 43:29
  was
• 43:30
  really.
• 43:31
  It's
• 43:31
  a
• 43:31
  high.
• 43:32
  I
• 43:32
  think
• 43:32
  my
• 43:33
  low
• 43:33
  this
• 43:33
  week
• 43:34
  was
• 43:35
  being
• 43:36
  in
• 43:37
  overwhelmed
• 43:38
  by
• 43:38
  grief
• 43:38
  and
• 43:39
  having
• 43:39
  that
• 43:40
  kind
• 43:40
  of
• 43:40
  trauma
• 43:40
  coming
• 43:41
  up
• 43:41
  again.
• 43:42
  And
• 43:42
  what
• 43:42
  I
• 43:43
  learned
• 43:43
  is
• 43:44
  that,
• 43:45
  that's
• 43:45
  going
• 43:45
  to
• 43:45
  happen
• 43:46
  on
• 43:46
  this
• 43:47
  journey
• 43:48
  and
• 43:48
  it's
• 43:48
  not
• 43:49
  the
• 43:49
  new
• 43:49
  normal.
• 43:50
  And
• 43:50
  I
• 43:50
  think
• 43:50
  that
• 43:50
  in
• 43:51
  some
• 43:52
  Weird
• 43:52
  way
• 43:53
  being
• 43:53
  in
• 43:54
  that
• 43:54
  real
• 43:54
  low
• 43:54
  was
• 43:55
  helpful
• 43:55
  because
• 43:56
  when
• 43:57
  I
• 43:57
  came
• 43:57
  out,
• 43:57
  I
• 43:57
  literally
• 43:57
  woke
• 43:58
  up.
• 43:58
  It
• 43:59
  lasted
• 43:59
  for
• 43:59
  about
• 43:59
  two
• 43:59
  or
• 43:59
  three
• 44:00
  days.
• 44:00
  And
• 44:00
  when
• 44:00
  I
• 44:00
  woke
• 44:01
  up
• 44:01
  one
• 44:01
  day,
• 44:01
  I
• 44:01
  just,
• 44:02
  it
• 44:02
  was
• 44:02
  gone.
• 44:03
  Really?
• 44:04
  So
• 44:04
  I
• 44:04
  think
• 44:04
  it
• 44:04
  was
• 44:05
  powerful
• 44:05
  to
• 44:06
  know
• 44:06
  that
• 44:06
  even
• 44:07
  if
• 44:07
  I'm,
• 44:07
  even
• 44:08
  if
• 44:08
  I'm
• 44:08
  back
• 44:08
  in
• 44:08
  a
• 44:08
  place
• 44:09
  where
• 44:09
  I'm
• 44:09
  like,
• 44:10
  There
• 44:10
  is
• 44:10
  this
• 44:10
  fear
• 44:11
  that
• 44:11
  is
• 44:12
  this
• 44:12
  the
• 44:12
  new
• 44:12
  normal?
• 44:13
  Just
• 44:13
  knowing
• 44:14
  that
• 44:14
  it's
• 44:14
  not.
• 44:16
  And
• 44:16
  were
• 44:16
  you
• 44:16
  doing
• 44:16
  anything
• 44:16
  during
• 44:17
  those
• 44:17
  three
• 44:17
  days
• 44:17
  to
• 44:18
  get
• 44:18
  yourself
• 44:18
  out
• 44:18
  of
• 44:18
  it
• 44:18
  or
• 44:18
  were
• 44:19
  you
• 44:19
  letting
• 44:19
  yourself
• 44:19
  just
• 44:20
  be
• 44:20
  in
• 44:20
  it
• 44:20
  and
• 44:20
  feel
• 44:21
  it?
• 44:21
  I
• 44:21
  was
• 44:22
  just
• 44:22
  telling
• 44:22
  myself
• 44:22
  that
• 44:22
  you
• 44:23
  just
• 44:23
  have
• 44:23
  to
• 44:23
  get
• 44:23
  through
• 44:23
  the
• 44:24
  day
• 44:24
  and
• 44:24
  it's
• 44:25
  one
• 44:25
  foot
• 44:25
  in
• 44:25
  front
• 44:25
  of
• 44:25
  the
• 44:25
  other.
• 44:26
  And
• 44:27
  I
• 44:27
  was
• 44:27
  forcing
• 44:27
  myself
• 44:28
  out
• 44:28
  of
• 44:28
  bed
• 44:28
  because
• 44:29
  that
• 44:29
  bed
• 44:29
  doesn't
• 44:30
  work
• 44:30
  for
• 44:30
  me,
• 44:30
  like
• 44:30
  lying
• 44:31
  around
• 44:31
  does
• 44:31
  not
• 44:31
  work
• 44:31
  for
• 44:32
  me.
• 44:32
  I
• 44:32
  think
• 44:32
  I
• 44:32
  need
• 44:33
  to
• 44:33
  get
• 44:33
  out
• 44:33
  in
• 44:33
  nature
• 44:34
  movement
• 44:35
  really
• 44:35
  works.
• 44:36
  It
• 44:36
  was
• 44:36
  the
• 44:36
  same,
• 44:37
  like
• 44:37
  when
• 44:37
  Luca,
• 44:39
  like
• 44:39
  just
• 44:39
  when
• 44:40
  he
• 44:40
  had
• 44:40
  died,
• 44:40
  like
• 44:40
  the
• 44:41
  few
• 44:41
  days
• 44:41
  after
• 44:41
  me
• 44:42
  and
• 44:42
  Steph
• 44:42
  were
• 44:42
  walking
• 44:43
  like
• 44:43
  10
• 44:43
  Ks
• 44:43
  a
• 44:44
  day,
• 44:44
  we
• 44:44
  went
• 44:44
  on
• 44:44
  these
• 44:44
  like
• 44:45
  crazy
• 44:45
  hikes
• 44:45
  up
• 44:45
  a
• 44:45
  mountain
• 44:46
  and
• 44:46
  stuff.
• 44:46
  And
• 44:46
  I
• 44:47
  think
• 44:47
  I
• 44:47
  just
• 44:48
  needed
• 44:48
  to
• 44:48
  move
• 44:48
  my
• 44:49
  body.
• 44:49
  I
• 44:49
  needed
• 44:50
  to
• 44:50
  be
• 44:50
  in
• 44:50
  my
• 44:50
  body
• 44:51
  to
• 44:51
  get
• 44:51
  out
• 44:51
  of
• 44:51
  my
• 44:51
  mind.
• 44:52
  I
• 44:53
  know
• 44:53
  that
• 44:54
  I
• 44:54
  don't
• 44:54
  want
• 44:54
  to
• 44:54
  lie
• 44:54
  around,
• 44:55
  makes
• 44:55
  it
• 44:55
  worse.
• 44:56
  The
• 44:56
  two
• 44:57
  things
• 44:57
  that
• 44:57
  really
• 44:57
  worked
• 44:57
  for
• 44:58
  me
• 44:58
  on
• 44:58
  movement
• 44:58
  and
• 44:59
  also
• 44:59
  reading,
• 45:00
  I
• 45:00
  think
• 45:00
  losing
• 45:00
  myself
• 45:01
  in
• 45:01
  some
• 45:01
  really
• 45:01
  good
• 45:02
  fiction,
• 45:03
  which
• 45:03
  I
• 45:03
  have
• 45:04
  received
• 45:04
  in
• 45:04
  abundance
• 45:05
  from
• 45:05
  my
• 45:05
  amazing
• 45:06
  friends
• 45:06
  and
• 45:06
  has
• 45:07
  been
• 45:07
  so
• 45:07
  great
• 45:07
  because
• 45:08
  I've
• 45:08
  got
• 45:08
  so
• 45:09
  many
• 45:09
  good
• 45:09
  books
• 45:09
  and
• 45:10
  I've
• 45:10
  been
• 45:10
  reading
• 45:10
  like
• 45:10
  a
• 45:10
  fiend,
• 45:11
  but,
• 45:12
  reading
• 45:12
  is
• 45:12
  very
• 45:13
  transparent.
• 45:13
  Transport
• 45:14
  it,
• 45:14
  if
• 45:15
  it
• 45:15
  can
• 45:15
  move
• 45:15
  you
• 45:15
  into
• 45:16
  a
• 45:16
  completely
• 45:16
  different
• 45:16
  space
• 45:17
  and
• 45:17
  you
• 45:17
  can
• 45:17
  lose
• 45:17
  yourself
• 45:17
  in
• 45:18
  it.
• 45:19
  And
• 45:19
  I
• 45:19
  think
• 45:20
  at
• 45:20
  those
• 45:20
  times,
• 45:21
  your
• 45:21
  mind
• 45:21
  is
• 45:21
  not
• 45:21
  your
• 45:22
  friend,
• 45:22
  your
• 45:22
  mind
• 45:23
  is
• 45:23
  trying
• 45:24
  to
• 45:24
  pull
• 45:24
  you
• 45:24
  into,
• 45:25
  in
• 45:25
  my
• 45:26
  case,
• 45:26
  it's
• 45:27
  flashbacks
• 45:27
  and
• 45:27
  trauma.
• 45:29
  And
• 45:29
  when
• 45:29
  I
• 45:30
  do
• 45:30
  some
• 45:31
  movement,
• 45:32
  that's
• 45:32
  when
• 45:32
  I
• 45:32
  can
• 45:32
  release,
• 45:33
  I
• 45:33
  can
• 45:33
  cry
• 45:34
  and
• 45:34
  I
• 45:34
  can
• 45:34
  get
• 45:34
  the,
• 45:35
  get
• 45:35
  that
• 45:35
  energy
• 45:35
  moving
• 45:36
  and
• 45:36
  get
• 45:36
  that
• 45:37
  the
• 45:37
  pain
• 45:38
  that.
• 45:38
  That
• 45:39
  I
• 45:39
  am
• 45:39
  happy
• 45:40
  to
• 45:40
  miss
• 45:40
  my
• 45:40
  son
• 45:41
  because
• 45:41
  I
• 45:41
  loved
• 45:41
  him
• 45:41
  so
• 45:42
  much,
• 45:42
  of
• 45:42
  course
• 45:42
  I
• 45:43
  miss
• 45:43
  him
• 45:43
  but
• 45:43
  that's
• 45:44
  different
• 45:44
  again
• 45:44
  it's
• 45:44
  that
• 45:45
  separation
• 45:46
  between
• 45:46
  trauma
• 45:47
  and
• 45:47
  his
• 45:48
  actual
• 45:48
  life.
• 45:49
  And
• 45:50
  so
• 45:50
  on
• 45:50
  that
• 45:51
  note,
• 45:51
  I
• 45:51
  would
• 45:52
  love
• 45:52
  to
• 45:52
  leave
• 45:52
  listeners
• 45:53
  with
• 45:54
  a
• 45:54
  couple
• 45:54
  of
• 45:57
  actions
• 45:58
  or
• 45:59
  uncomfortable
• 45:59
  actions
• 46:00
  that
• 46:00
  I
• 46:01
  invite
• 46:01
  you
• 46:01
  or
• 46:01
  we
• 46:02
  invite
• 46:02
  you
• 46:02
  to
• 46:02
  lean
• 46:02
  into
• 46:03
  this
• 46:03
  week.
• 46:03
  And
• 46:03
  the
• 46:04
  first
• 46:04
  one
• 46:04
  is
• 46:05
  to
• 46:06
  be
• 46:06
  vulnerable
• 46:06
  with
• 46:06
  a
• 46:07
  friend,
• 46:07
  tell
• 46:08
  them
• 46:08
  something
• 46:09
  that
• 46:09
  you're
• 46:09
  struggling
• 46:09
  with
• 46:10
  at
• 46:10
  the
• 46:10
  moment.
• 46:11
  And
• 46:11
  the
• 46:11
  second
• 46:12
  one
• 46:12
  is
• 46:12
  to
• 46:13
  share
• 46:13
  a
• 46:13
  win.
• 46:15
  Tell
• 46:15
  one
• 46:15
  of
• 46:15
  your
• 46:15
  friends
• 46:16
  something
• 46:16
  that
• 46:16
  you
• 46:16
  did
• 46:17
  that
• 46:17
  you're
• 46:17
  really
• 46:17
  proud
• 46:17
  of,
• 46:18
  or
• 46:18
  that
• 46:18
  went
• 46:19
  really
• 46:19
  well,
• 46:20
  because
• 46:21
  that
• 46:21
  is
• 46:21
  how
• 46:22
  we
• 46:22
  start
• 46:22
  to
• 46:22
  change
• 46:23
  the
• 46:23
  energy
• 46:24
  of
• 46:24
  the
• 46:24
  groups
• 46:25
  around
• 46:25
  us,
• 46:25
  is
• 46:26
  by
• 46:26
  making
• 46:26
  these
• 46:27
  things
• 46:27
  more
• 46:28
  normal.
• 46:28
  And
• 46:28
  it
• 46:28
  probably
• 46:29
  won't
• 46:29
  feel
• 46:29
  that
• 46:30
  comfortable
• 46:30
  the
• 46:30
  first
• 46:30
  time
• 46:31
  that
• 46:31
  you
• 46:31
  do
• 46:31
  it
• 46:31
  that
• 46:31
  you
• 46:31
  share
• 46:32
  with
• 46:32
  somebody
• 46:32
  something
• 46:33
  that
• 46:33
  you're
• 46:33
  struggling
• 46:33
  with,
• 46:33
  or
• 46:34
  it
• 46:34
  might
• 46:34
  even
• 46:34
  be
• 46:34
  more
• 46:35
  uncomfortable
• 46:35
  to
• 46:35
  share
• 46:36
  a
• 46:36
  win.
• 46:37
  But
• 46:37
  we
• 46:37
  want
• 46:37
  to
• 46:37
  share
• 46:38
  our
• 46:38
  lives
• 46:38
  with
• 46:38
  people,
• 46:38
  we
• 46:39
  want
• 46:39
  to
• 46:39
  be
• 46:39
  connected
• 46:39
  with
• 46:39
  our
• 46:40
  friends,
• 46:40
  we
• 46:40
  want
• 46:40
  to
• 46:40
  have
• 46:41
  real
• 46:42
  in
• 46:42
  depth.
• 46:42
  Richness
• 46:43
  to
• 46:43
  the
• 46:43
  relationships
• 46:44
  in
• 46:44
  our
• 46:44
  lives
• 46:45
  and
• 46:45
  to
• 46:45
  the
• 46:45
  conversations
• 46:46
  that
• 46:46
  we
• 46:46
  have.
• 46:46
  So
• 46:48
  I
• 46:48
  dare
• 46:48
  you.
• 46:49
  I
• 46:49
  love
• 46:50
  it.
• 46:50
  I'm
• 46:50
  going
• 46:50
  to
• 46:50
  do
• 46:50
  it.
• 46:53
  Thank
• 46:53
  you
• 46:53
  so
• 46:54
  much,
• 46:54
  everybody
• 46:54
  for
• 46:54
  joining
• 46:55
  us.
• 46:55
  Chat
• 46:55
  you
• 46:55
  next
• 46:56
  week.