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Episode 51- Me Minding Your Own Business for 2026. · You Minding Your Own Business

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  Speaker 1: Hello, Hello, Hello everybody. First of all, I want to
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  Speaker 1: wish y'all a very, very merry Christmas. I know for
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  Speaker 1: some of y'all right now, y'all are going through it
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  Speaker 1: right now, and I get it. This recession in the
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  Speaker 1: United States, all the stuff that's going on is crazy
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  Speaker 1: right now. And I want to first.
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  Speaker 2: Say, y'all who lost your jobs, Those of you that
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  Speaker 2: are going through illnesses and diseases right now, Those of
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  Speaker 2: y'all that are really, really really going through it right now,
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  Speaker 2: for divorces, being single mothers, health issues, chronic pain, whatever
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  Speaker 2: you are dealing with.
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  Speaker 1: I am praying for every single last one of y'all.
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  Speaker 1: Welcome to my channels, perfectly imperfection being led to the
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  Speaker 1: slaughter and all of my podcasts. From Darkness to Light
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  Speaker 1: with self respect leads to self love. You minding your
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  Speaker 1: own business, opening Pandora's box. You are what you consume.
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  Speaker 1: You minding your own business, find your inner tranquility. The
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  Speaker 1: old yours is new you. From darkness to light and
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  Speaker 1: a happier you leads to a healthier youth. But I'm
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  Speaker 1: not sure if I'm gonna put this on here.
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  Speaker 2: It just depends on where I go in what direction
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  Speaker 2: I'll go with this particular podcast.
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  Speaker 1: I hope you guys are doing well. Y'all know who
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  Speaker 1: I am by now, and I want to say thank
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  Speaker 1: y'all for joining me for this episode. This episode is
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  Speaker 1: all about you minding your own business for twenty twenty six. Now,
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  Speaker 1: for some of y'all, you're probably gonna say, I do
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  Speaker 1: mind my own business. I'm not worried about everybody else.
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  Speaker 1: I'm doing what makes me happy. Are you really or
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  Speaker 1: are you following the rabbits down the rabbit hole, down
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  Speaker 1: the wonderland, going through a bunch of nonsense and then
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  Speaker 1: finding the Queen of Hearts who represents consequences, rep because
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  Speaker 1: and karma and now you've got to deal with Twenty
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  Speaker 1: twenty six is gonna be rough. Between twenty twenty six
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  Speaker 1: and twenty twenty eight is gonna be very rough. Why
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  Speaker 1: Because this government in the United States is not playing
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  Speaker 1: at this point. They have an agenda, and the agenda
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  Speaker 1: is not about moving forward. The agenda is not about
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  Speaker 1: eliminating racism, discrimination, diversity, or division. That's not what they're
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  Speaker 1: trying to do. Now. I could sit here and talk
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  Speaker 1: about politics all day long. I could do that, but
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  Speaker 1: that's not what today is about. Today's about as a healing,
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  Speaker 1: recovery and addiction coach. I do my podcast based upon
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  Speaker 1: health and wellness and about maintaining your health and wellness.
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  Speaker 1: Today is Christmas. Today is about the Son of God,
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  Speaker 1: which is Jesus that was born in a manger in Bethlehem,
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  Speaker 1: and it's about the fact of his birth. And it's
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  Speaker 1: funny how when I read the Bible about jesus life,
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  Speaker 1: the fact that he gave his life up for all
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  Speaker 1: of us, and we're still saying it's beyond crazy to me.
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  Speaker 1: The fact that we are still going against God every day.
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  Speaker 1: When God gave us his son, and how was he
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  Speaker 1: treated by man. He was crucified, beaten, all of these
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  Speaker 1: negative things, thirty three years, betrayed by Judas. The fact
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  Speaker 1: that you have people that praise the Son of God
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  Speaker 1: and yet you still continue to sin is crazy to me.
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  Speaker 1: I don't, for the life of me understand that logic.
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  Speaker 1: I don't. Jesus gave his life for all of us. Now,
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  Speaker 1: for some of some of y'all who are Muslims, y'all
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  Speaker 1: may look at it a little different. For those of
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  Speaker 1: you that practice other religions, you may look at it differently,
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  Speaker 1: but either way, somebody gave up their life to give
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  Speaker 1: us a connection to a higher power. And how do
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  Speaker 1: we think his sacrifice we end up still continuing to sin. Now,
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  Speaker 1: the one thing that I learned and healing recovery. Now,
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  Speaker 1: if y'all hear me sniffing, please forgive me. I am
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  Speaker 1: under the weather. I don't feel good. But it is
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  Speaker 1: Christmas and we're going to make this about Jesus today
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  Speaker 1: and about everything that Jesus has done in the short
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  Speaker 1: time that he was on this planet. And I love
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  Speaker 1: the walking contradiction of it all. But this isn't just
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  Speaker 1: about Jesus. This is also about your own crucifixions, your
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  Speaker 1: own being judged by people, your own treatment by people
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  Speaker 1: that you thought cared about you, your own treatment as
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  Speaker 1: far as the people who you thought that were your friends,
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  Speaker 1: your family, your romantic relationships, even your employers that have
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  Speaker 1: pulled the rugs from under you over and over and
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  Speaker 1: over again. Now, why is this topic you mind in
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  Speaker 1: your own business? Because this year should be about you
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  Speaker 1: minding your own god for saken business. Stop worrying about
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  Speaker 1: these celebrities. I was looking on social media today and
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  Speaker 1: I noticed that a lot of celebrities did not post
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  Speaker 1: this year for Christmas. This year, I am noticing on
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  Speaker 1: Instagram there is not as many people in celebrities that
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  Speaker 1: are posting like they used to. It used to be
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  Speaker 1: a time where celebrities posted all the time, But now
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  Speaker 1: are you here about it is reality TV stars. You
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  Speaker 1: don't hear about celebrities now. Jordan Woods just got engaged.
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  Speaker 1: Congratulations to her and I'm happy for her. The crazy
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  Speaker 1: part is, y'all are worried about these celebrities, but yet
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  Speaker 1: you're broke. These celebrities can travel around the world, their jobs,
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  Speaker 1: are doing what they love. They're not just working a
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  Speaker 1: rether than nine to five job where they're getting paid
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  Speaker 1: seventeen dollars an hour. These athletes get paid between I
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  Speaker 1: would say two point five million to one hundred and
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  Speaker 1: twenty five hundred and seventy five million dollars within seven years.
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  Speaker 1: Say don't even get those contrasts because they get traded.
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  Speaker 1: But I will say this, y'all worried about make the Stallue,
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  Speaker 1: y'all worried about Cardi b y'all up here. I mean
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  Speaker 1: I heard about Nicki Minaj and what she did, and
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  Speaker 1: my whole thing is, I'm not surprised about what nick
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  Speaker 1: Minaj did. But my whole thing is that's Nicki Minaj's choice,
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  Speaker 1: and that was her decision, and she's got to take
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  Speaker 1: everything that come with it. Twenty twenty six, I am
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  Speaker 1: concerned about my health and wellness. That's all I care about.
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  Speaker 1: Twenty twenty six, I'm worried about everything that's going to
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  Speaker 1: maintain my health and wellness. I could care less about
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  Speaker 1: whether I get married or not, whether or not I
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  Speaker 1: have friends or not. I don't care about any of that.
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  Speaker 1: I just be healthy now. Mind you. I know how
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  Speaker 1: I got sick, But here's a kicker to it all.
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  Speaker 1: Even though yes, I do not feel good right now,
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  Speaker 1: but I know there's a reason why I'm sick right now.
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  Speaker 1: The reason that I am sick right now is because
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  Speaker 1: of the fact of the matter that in this new year,
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  Speaker 1: there's going to be a change, there's going to be
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  Speaker 1: a shift. I don't get sick very often, I really don't.
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  Speaker 1: I got sick when I got off the boat, and
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  Speaker 1: now I'm sick now. But I don't get sick very
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  Speaker 1: often because I always take my vitamins and I always
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  Speaker 1: drink a lot of you know, orange juice and stuff
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  Speaker 1: like that. But I'm sick because last night I was
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  Speaker 1: making some sweet potato pies and they ended up the
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  Speaker 1: gas got into my nose. So I know why I'm sick.
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  Speaker 1: But anyway, long story short, me being sick could be
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  Speaker 1: a good thing because it is basically cleansing out all
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  Speaker 1: of the bacteria, all of the pesticides. And if I
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  Speaker 1: continue to take some drugs, I probably might be fine
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  Speaker 1: in the morning. I don't know. I just know I
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  Speaker 1: ain't working them. I'm just not But twenty twenty six
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  Speaker 1: for me, Number one, I'm relinquishing all of my insecurities,
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  Speaker 1: all of my doubts, all of the things that are
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  Speaker 1: holding me back from my greatness, as far as my
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  Speaker 1: self esteem, self worth, self values, my self respect, me
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  Speaker 1: believing in myself even when no one else, whether they
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  Speaker 1: support me or not, and my confidence. Number two, my
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  Speaker 1: health and wellness. My health and wellness is the most
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  Speaker 1: important thing, the connection between the mind, the body, and
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  Speaker 1: the spirit. I am not letting anything, nothing, no amount
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  Speaker 1: of words, no amount of influences, what I consume, damage
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  Speaker 1: my body any longer. It is no longer going out
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  Speaker 1: here and being intimate with men not knowing whether they
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  Speaker 1: have venereal diseases or whether they don't. I am no
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  Speaker 1: longer going to be eating anything that has chemicals in
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  Speaker 1: it that's going to make me internal. My external is
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  Speaker 1: based on my internal. And so if I am sick
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  Speaker 1: because my body is cleansing out all of the pesticides,
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  Speaker 1: and if I get under a blanket and I sweat
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  Speaker 1: it out the night, I might be fine tomorrow or
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  Speaker 1: at least by Sunday, and at the most I will
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  Speaker 1: be completely okay with that. Now, mind you. Well, like
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  Speaker 1: I said, when it comes down to me minding my
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  Speaker 1: own business, that means I am focused on myself. It
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  Speaker 1: means that I am maintaining everything that I learned that
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  Speaker 1: I need to do to make myself healthy. It is
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  Speaker 1: not about a diet. It isn't a thirty day diet.
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  Speaker 1: It isn't a thirty day. This a thirty day that.
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  Speaker 1: It's a lifetime meaning. I'm going to maintain everything that
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  Speaker 1: works with me. That is what I'm going to do.
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  Speaker 1: So for starters works for me, that is what I'll
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  Speaker 1: be doing the rest of my life. Now, mind you,
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  Speaker 1: when it comes to vitamins and products and different things
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  Speaker 1: like that, those things will change. But when it comes
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  Speaker 1: to exercising, the times that I eat what I eat,
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  Speaker 1: those might be adjusted a little bit. But the one
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  Speaker 1: thing that will not be adjusted is I'm still gonna
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  Speaker 1: be doing those same routines, still eating those same type
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  Speaker 1: of foods, except I might switch them up a little bit.
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  Speaker 1: I might add something to them, might take away something
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  Speaker 1: from it, but it stays the same. I don't know
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  Speaker 1: why people always say these thirty day diets, you're gonna
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  Speaker 1: lose thirty pounds and thirty days. Well, I hate to
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  Speaker 1: be the bearer of bad news about that, but the
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  Speaker 1: law detector that would be a lot. Let me explain
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  Speaker 1: why if you go work out in the morning and
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  Speaker 1: then you turn around and eat, I don't care what
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  Speaker 1: it is that you eat, all those calories that you
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  Speaker 1: just burnt is coming right back into your system, which
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  Speaker 1: is why you can't lose weight. Now here's the kicker
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  Speaker 1: to it all. What I've learned is that if you
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  Speaker 1: work out at night before you two hours before you
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  Speaker 1: go to bed, after you eat your last mill of
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  Speaker 1: the day, work out and then have your last drink
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  Speaker 1: of the day two hours before you go to bed,
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  Speaker 1: and you go to bed and you fast for sixteen hours,
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  Speaker 1: you will actually lose weight and be able to maintain it. Now,
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  Speaker 1: nobody's saying you can't go for a walk, nobody saying
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  Speaker 1: that you can't go and do stretching exercises, mentalises. Nobody's
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  Speaker 1: saying you can't do stretches. But understand that I don't
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  Speaker 1: care how much you go to that gym, if you
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  Speaker 1: eat anything after you work out, you're not losing weight.
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  Speaker 1: You're not. And I know from experience because I used
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  Speaker 1: to go to have been to the gym six days
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  Speaker 1: a week, and I was not losing weight because no
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  Speaker 1: matter what I ate, I gained those calories back. Because
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  Speaker 1: you're not really losing all these calories that you think
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  Speaker 1: because for every one calorie I mean for one pound,
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  Speaker 1: is thirty five hundred calories thirty five hundred. It ain't
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  Speaker 1: three hundred, it ain't thirty it's thirty five hundred calories.
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  Speaker 1: So if you go to the gym and you work
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  Speaker 1: off thirty five hundred calories, you worked off one pound.
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  Speaker 1: You might work off five hundred calories, and by the
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  Speaker 1: time you go eat, you don't get you don't pretty
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  Speaker 1: much put the calories right back on you. Put them
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  Speaker 1: right back on. So what is the purpose of going
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  Speaker 1: to the gym and then turn around and go eat.
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  Speaker 1: That's why you work out at night. Working out at
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  Speaker 1: night is the best time because if you're gonna do
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  Speaker 1: strength training, if you're gonna do anything like that, any
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  Speaker 1: like treadmills, any type of exercise where you going to
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  Speaker 1: the gym, I recommend working out a night. Should you
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  Speaker 1: do mental exercises, should you do yoga, Should you do
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  Speaker 1: any type of exercise where you're doing like you know,
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  Speaker 1: mental exercises, spiritual exercises, then yeah, I still recommend do those,
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  Speaker 1: But I don't recommend doing any physical activities unless you
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  Speaker 1: just ain't gonna eat. Now. If you fast and you're
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  Speaker 1: doing like a three day fast, four day fast, let
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  Speaker 1: me tell you where people mess up at when y'all
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  Speaker 1: do these these twenty four hour or forty eight hour fast.
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  Speaker 1: Let me tell you where you go wrong it y'all
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  Speaker 1: gonna end up eating. Let me tell you some about
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  Speaker 1: how the body works. If you starve the body, you're
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  Speaker 1: gonna eat more because you starved yourself. That's like all
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  Speaker 1: these girls that are bollimic and they starve themselves Inarexic
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  Speaker 1: and they starve themselves. Why do you think they eat
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  Speaker 1: more than what they're supposed to because you're starving yourself.
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  Speaker 1: It's just like anybody that hasn't eaten in about a
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  Speaker 1: week and then they finally able to eat, they gonna
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  Speaker 1: eat more than what they normally would eat because you
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  Speaker 1: didn't eat for seven days. That's why sixteen hour fastest,
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  Speaker 1: twelve hour fast even an eighteen hour faster day, it's
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  Speaker 1: better than you sitting up here doing these two three
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  Speaker 1: thirty day fastest because when you're gonna eat, you're gonna
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  Speaker 1: eat point period you're gonna eat. Why because you haven't
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  Speaker 1: eaten days, you're starving yourself. So you're basically being an
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  Speaker 1: aarection that's not healthy. So if you fast for sixteen
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  Speaker 1: hours from when you go to bed, let's say you
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  Speaker 1: stop eating at between six and eight, right, you may
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  Speaker 1: not eat nothing until twelve o'clock eleven o'clock, so between
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  Speaker 1: twelve and six will be what you eat. So you
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  Speaker 1: might have eggs, you might have you know, protein, and
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  Speaker 1: that's fine. Some people is vegan, that's fine. Some people's pestry,
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  Speaker 1: that's fine. But you are gonna need calcium. You're gonna
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  Speaker 1: need Vitamin B three, vitamin B six. You're gonna need
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  Speaker 1: a megas three, A Mega six, you're gonna need vitamin A.
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  Speaker 1: You're gonna need vitamin E. You're gonna need vitamin C,
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  Speaker 1: vitamin B twelve, vitamin D. So you're gonna need vitamins
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  Speaker 1: no matter what. So that's not what's gonna change. No
• 19:00
  Speaker 1: brand that you use, you may have to switch up
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  Speaker 1: on because you know, the body does get immune to
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  Speaker 1: something if you use it enough, so you may have
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  Speaker 1: to switch. Because every once in a while, I had
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  Speaker 1: to switch brands because I have to, you know, to
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  Speaker 1: make sure the body doesn't get immune or addicted to
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  Speaker 1: it or rejects it. But if your body rejects something,
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  Speaker 1: that means it ain't supposed to be there. Well, if
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  Speaker 1: your body rejects something, then your mind should be able
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  Speaker 1: to accept the same rejection. So for example, I can't
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  Speaker 1: eat seafood in a mom no matter how much I
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  Speaker 1: love it, I can't eat it, and I'm not going
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  Speaker 1: to risk my life trying to eat it. So I
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  Speaker 1: have a friend of mine. They found out she wasn't
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  Speaker 1: a larned to seafood, she was alerted to obey. And
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  Speaker 1: that's how she ended up having an allergy. So it
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  Speaker 1: was never seafood, it was obey. So there are some
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  Speaker 1: people that have allergies and it may may not be
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  Speaker 1: to peanuts, it may not be to what you think.
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  Speaker 1: It could be the chemicals that are on the actual
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  Speaker 1: foods that's making you allergic. So there's a lot of
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  Speaker 1: different things when it comes to your health and wellness
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  Speaker 1: that you have to realize what is going to be
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  Speaker 1: best for you. You are an individual. You came in this
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  Speaker 1: world by yourself, so you are an individual. So everything
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  Speaker 1: you do should be based on you being an individual,
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  Speaker 1: based on what is best for you. Okay, Now, spiritucy wise,
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  Speaker 1: Jesus came into this world and he didn't once lower
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  Speaker 1: himself in any way shape from a capacity. Then he
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  Speaker 1: lower himself to basically essentially build other people up. He assisted,
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  Speaker 1: he guided, he led people, but he never forced anybody
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  Speaker 1: to do anything. Now, years of this man being on
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  Speaker 1: this planet, the way that he was treated should tell
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  Speaker 1: you that as a godly person, you're gonna go through crucifixion,
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  Speaker 1: You're gonna go through negativity. You're gonna go through your
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  Speaker 1: self esteem, self work, or self values being broken, and
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  Speaker 1: you're gonna be crucified. You are gonna be judged worse
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  Speaker 1: than somebody negative, because if you look at them, that
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  Speaker 1: Jesus was crucified. That right there is tell you that
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  Speaker 1: if you are a godly person, you are going to
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  Speaker 1: be crucified by negative people. The whole purpose of negative
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  Speaker 1: people is to break you to where you are going
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  Speaker 1: to go against God, Go against your purpose, go against
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  Speaker 1: your path, go against your journey. Go down the matrix,
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  Speaker 1: go down the rabbit hole, following rabbits down the rabbit hole.
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  Speaker 1: It's just like when I think about the movie The Matrix,
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  Speaker 1: and I think about the fact of the red pill
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  Speaker 1: and the blue pill, and I ask people, I said,
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  Speaker 1: are you gonna walk down the path to the red pill?
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  Speaker 1: Are you gonna walk down the path with the blue pill?
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  Speaker 1: Ninety five percent of people gonna say the red pill
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  Speaker 1: because they want to go down to the journey to
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  Speaker 1: see what's gonna happen, because they knows it, and you
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  Speaker 1: know what to say. You know, when it comes down
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  Speaker 1: to it kills kat. Okay, it just does. Now. The
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  Speaker 1: fact that people don't understand why the blue pill is
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  Speaker 1: so important. The blue pill is for people who have
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  Speaker 1: healed these are people that been down that rabbit hole,
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  Speaker 1: went down one of the land went down the Matrix,
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  Speaker 1: went down the Red Pill, and they're like, I ain't
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  Speaker 1: going down at no more. I don't want to go
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  Speaker 1: down there. I don't feel the need to go down it,
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  Speaker 1: and I just ain't gonna do it. The people that
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  Speaker 1: are on the Blue Pill don't have to go down
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  Speaker 1: the Red Pill to know exactly what's gonna happen, how
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  Speaker 1: much damage and chaos and trauma you're gonna go through.
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  Speaker 1: Because here's the thing. You're gonna go down there rabbit hole.
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  Speaker 1: And first everything gonna seem fine when you first go
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  Speaker 1: down that rabbit hole. But then once you go down
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  Speaker 1: that rabbit hole, you're gonna keep going down that rabbit hole,
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  Speaker 1: and it's just gonna get worse and worse and worse
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  Speaker 1: and worse and worse. Now, once you get down that
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  Speaker 1: rabbit hole, you're gonna find that everything gonna sing fine
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  Speaker 1: aka the Siren phase aka Fantasy World. Then once you
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  Speaker 1: get further in down to darkness, you're gonna see a
• 23:21
  Speaker 1: bunch of characters that are gonna be trying to manipulate
• 23:24
  Speaker 1: to keep you down there. They're gonna try to keep
• 23:27
  Speaker 1: you down there. And that's the one thing about lost
• 23:30
  Speaker 1: soul people is that is to keep them lost. As
• 23:35
  Speaker 1: long as they can manipulate a lost soul, as long
• 23:38
  Speaker 1: as they can break down a positive person and make
• 23:41
  Speaker 1: them negative, make them go against their path and their
• 23:45
  Speaker 1: journey against God, to feed into their desires, feed into
• 23:51
  Speaker 1: the manipulation, bamboos woe, being let a strain, let a monk,
• 23:55
  Speaker 1: and being lied to. You're never gonna come out of it.
• 24:00
  Speaker 1: So when you are trying to heal and recover, the
• 24:03
  Speaker 1: goal is it isn't just to heal and recover. It
• 24:07
  Speaker 1: isn't just these temporary fixes of Okay, I'm going to counseling,
• 24:12
  Speaker 1: right and I'm going to sit there for an hour
• 24:14
  Speaker 1: and I'll talk to a counselor. But yet you're still
• 24:17
  Speaker 1: doing the same behavior. Then you learn nothing. The only
• 24:21
  Speaker 1: way you know that you truly have learn something, what
• 24:28
  Speaker 1: you learn from it if you close the chapters completely
• 24:32
  Speaker 1: and you move on and say these chapters are completely closed.
• 24:37
  Speaker 1: I am no longer going to open these chapters. I'm
• 24:40
  Speaker 1: no longer having the feelings for these people that have
• 24:45
  Speaker 1: hurt me. You can forgive them and never look back.
• 24:52
  Speaker 1: It's like the story of Luck. Once you walk away,
• 24:55
  Speaker 1: you don't look back. But here's the thing about the
• 24:57
  Speaker 1: story of Lot, there's a whole lot more of meanings
• 25:00
  Speaker 1: to that because if you look at why his wife
• 25:04
  Speaker 1: turned into a pillar of salt and why she looked back,
• 25:08
  Speaker 1: she looked back because that's the only thing she knew
• 25:10
  Speaker 1: because she couldn't let go of it. She couldn't let
• 25:13
  Speaker 1: go of sodom Inggamore. And even if it would have
• 25:17
  Speaker 1: been gone, she still would have went back. So a
• 25:20
  Speaker 1: lot of y'all go back because you won't revenge against
• 25:23
  Speaker 1: a person that hurts you. You go back because you
• 25:27
  Speaker 1: still love this person, you still have some type of attachment.
• 25:31
  Speaker 1: Well with healing and recovery, you need to let that
• 25:34
  Speaker 1: go completely. Whatever feelings you have, negatively or positively, you
• 25:41
  Speaker 1: need to let it go, let it go, move on.
• 25:46
  Speaker 1: Why Because if you keep on trying to hold on
• 25:49
  Speaker 1: to these people, good or bad, they still got you.
• 25:54
  Speaker 1: The minute you argue with a negative person, if won,
• 25:58
  Speaker 1: the minute you put your hands because of what they said,
• 26:01
  Speaker 1: they won. The minute they can make you cry because
• 26:04
  Speaker 1: they broke your self esteem, they've won. But if you
• 26:08
  Speaker 1: sit there and you look at him and then you
• 26:13
  Speaker 1: get up and you walk away and you say nothing.
• 26:18
  Speaker 1: What can they say if your child come to you
• 26:22
  Speaker 1: and say, Okay, I'm gonna use my own child. If
• 26:25
  Speaker 1: my child came and said that he was being bullied
• 26:28
  Speaker 1: at school. He's an adult at this point, but when
• 26:31
  Speaker 1: he was a kid, he has autism. If my son
• 26:33
  Speaker 1: will autism came to me and said Mommy, I'm being bullied,
• 26:37
  Speaker 1: there would not even be a hesitation. I'm pulling him
• 26:39
  Speaker 1: out that school point blame period. I'm pulling him out immediately.
• 26:43
  Speaker 1: I'm transferring him. I'm not going to let him stay
• 26:45
  Speaker 1: there and constantly continue to get bullied every single day.
• 26:48
  Speaker 1: I'm just not going to do that. I'm pulling him out.
• 26:51
  Speaker 1: I Am not going to tell him to suck it
• 26:52
  Speaker 1: up and act like that he's not hurt. I'm not
• 26:55
  Speaker 1: doing that. And the fact that you tell your kids
• 26:58
  Speaker 1: to suck it up, go back school, go back to
• 27:01
  Speaker 1: being bullied, go back to the environment that is bullying them,
• 27:06
  Speaker 1: what is wrong with y'all? Why would you send your
• 27:09
  Speaker 1: kid back to an environment where they're being bullied. Why
• 27:14
  Speaker 1: would you send them to a place they don't want
• 27:16
  Speaker 1: to go, Just like your kids when they after six
• 27:20
  Speaker 1: weeks and mom gotta drop them off at daycare because
• 27:23
  Speaker 1: you gotta work. They don't want to go, but guess
• 27:27
  Speaker 1: what you do? You make them go? Why? Because you
• 27:30
  Speaker 1: have to work? And it's understandable you have to work.
• 27:34
  Speaker 1: The problem is your government don't care about that. They
• 27:37
  Speaker 1: want you to have kids, but they don't want you
• 27:39
  Speaker 1: to raise them. But okay, I digress, I digress. So
• 27:47
  Speaker 1: you're in a search situation in this skim a language
• 27:51
  Speaker 1: damned if you do, damned if you don't. Situation. It's
• 27:54
  Speaker 1: a walking contradiction. So first of all, you have to
• 28:00
  Speaker 1: acknowledge the walking contraditions. You have to acknowledge the consequence
• 28:08
  Speaker 1: and repercussions. And can you really take what comes with
• 28:11
  Speaker 1: every choice, every action, ever behavior, and every decision that
• 28:15
  Speaker 1: you do. The one thing about healing and recovery is
• 28:21
  Speaker 1: understanding what comes with every choice, every decision, every action,
• 28:27
  Speaker 1: every behavior that you do. Now, when it comes to
• 28:36
  Speaker 1: your version of yourself, meaning the honest, true version of
• 28:39
  Speaker 1: yourself versus the version that everybody else wants you to be,
• 28:45
  Speaker 1: hold on sid I'm sorry, I am, I'm sick, y'all,
• 28:52
  Speaker 1: but this podcast gotta go on. It's on my brain.
• 28:55
  Speaker 1: But when it comes to self worth, your self value,
• 29:04
  Speaker 1: you believe in yourself when nobody else does. Your self respect,
• 29:11
  Speaker 1: that right there is the hardest thing to heal from,
• 29:16
  Speaker 1: because you have been conditioned to feel like you're not
• 29:21
  Speaker 1: good enough, you're not worthy, you're not deserving, you don't belong,
• 29:26
  Speaker 1: you're not accepted. Nobody loves you, nobody likes you, nobody appreciates,
• 29:30
  Speaker 1: nobody values, nobody wants you, nobody needs you. You're not
• 29:35
  Speaker 1: a part of something, You're not validated. People are telling
• 29:38
  Speaker 1: you because of your flaws and imperfections and your disabilities
• 29:41
  Speaker 1: and mistakes that you made in your past, constantly throwing
• 29:43
  Speaker 1: it back in your face and making it feel like
• 29:45
  Speaker 1: that you are not worthy and you're not deserving because
• 29:48
  Speaker 1: you're unattractive and you got flaws and imperfections that basically
• 29:53
  Speaker 1: because you made mistakes when you were younger. You're not
• 29:55
  Speaker 1: deserving because you're older. You don't deserve to be married,
• 29:59
  Speaker 1: you don't deserve to be in a relationship. Man, I
• 30:01
  Speaker 1: hear this all day, every day, and it's so annoying.
• 30:06
  Speaker 1: And now that people have gotten to the point where
• 30:10
  Speaker 1: y'all have put it in their heads, banged it into
• 30:15
  Speaker 1: their heads so many times that they're not enough, to
• 30:20
  Speaker 1: the point where now they're like, well, okay, since I'm
• 30:24
  Speaker 1: not enough, I guess it ain't meant for me to
• 30:26
  Speaker 1: be married. I guess it ain't meant for me to
• 30:28
  Speaker 1: have children. People are now accepting things for what they are.
• 30:32
  Speaker 1: They are accepting a truth. They're not accepting a lie
• 30:36
  Speaker 1: being a truth. They're accepting a truth being a lie.
• 30:40
  Speaker 1: So they're accepting things for what they are, and they're
• 30:43
  Speaker 1: not trying to change nothing. You tell them no, they're like, Okay,
• 30:47
  Speaker 1: it is what it is. Versus someone that wants to
• 30:51
  Speaker 1: be in love so bad that they're willing to do
• 30:54
  Speaker 1: anything and everything to be in those relationships, including going
• 30:59
  Speaker 1: against everything that is right, to do something wrong, going
• 31:02
  Speaker 1: against your path and your purpose, just because you want
• 31:05
  Speaker 1: to be loved, just because you and your feelings, you're
• 31:09
  Speaker 1: making dumb decisions that's going to impact and affect your life. God,
• 31:14
  Speaker 1: that's just what you're doing now, mind you. Like I said,
• 31:20
  Speaker 1: it isn't about a temporary solution. It's about what you consume,
• 31:26
  Speaker 1: what you acknowledge. It's about researching and educating, educating yourself.
• 31:32
  Speaker 1: It's about weighing the pros and cons critical thinking, comments
• 31:35
  Speaker 1: and the common judgment, morals, values, principles and ethics, research
• 31:39
  Speaker 1: and education, and also consequences because in arma and karma
• 31:45
  Speaker 1: and how what not only would you do, but what
• 31:48
  Speaker 1: somebody else does impacts and affects your life. Now, I
• 31:52
  Speaker 1: know for some people, y'all may think that because something
• 31:57
  Speaker 1: makes you feel good, that you need to be doing whatever.
• 32:04
  Speaker 1: Just because something makes you feel good doesn't mean it's
• 32:06
  Speaker 1: good for you. Just because you want to be somewhere
• 32:11
  Speaker 1: doesn't mean it's meant for you to be there. Just
• 32:13
  Speaker 1: because you want to be with somebody doesn't mean you're
• 32:16
  Speaker 1: supposed to be with these people. Sometimes you're not supposed
• 32:22
  Speaker 1: to be in certain areas, in certain with certain people.
• 32:25
  Speaker 1: Sometimes you need to leave environments and move forward. So
• 32:30
  Speaker 1: when I say you minding your own business, that means
• 32:33
  Speaker 1: exactly what I mean. You mind your own god forsaken
• 32:38
  Speaker 1: business and work on yourself. Whatever is meant for you,
• 32:42
  Speaker 1: let God bring it to you. You shouldn't have to
• 32:45
  Speaker 1: go chasing behind people that don't want you. You shouldn't
• 32:49
  Speaker 1: have to be trying to make somebody love you that don't.
• 32:52
  Speaker 1: You shouldn't have to be captain saberhos, bill dolls, sat fillers,
• 32:56
  Speaker 1: and people. Places you shouldn't have to do. All of that,
• 32:59
  Speaker 1: You shouldn't have to be all of that you really shouldn't.
• 33:04
  Speaker 1: It's just like when it comes down to the old
• 33:07
  Speaker 1: you verse knew you. A lot of y'all cannot let
• 33:11
  Speaker 1: go of the past version of yourselves. A lot of
• 33:13
  Speaker 1: y'all are trying to hold on to these past versions
• 33:16
  Speaker 1: of you that you should have let go of a
• 33:19
  Speaker 1: long time ago. A lot of y'all are trying to
• 33:22
  Speaker 1: relive your golden years instead of letting it go. Instead
• 33:27
  Speaker 1: of that R prefix, you can r e anything, you
• 33:31
  Speaker 1: can read anything, what you need to do with a
• 33:34
  Speaker 1: new perspective and a new way of thinking. When you
• 33:37
  Speaker 1: become the new version of yourself. It's not just about
• 33:40
  Speaker 1: the external part as far as losing weight, being you know,
• 33:44
  Speaker 1: as far as the external part of your health and wellness,
• 33:47
  Speaker 1: or being successful or having a great marriage or a
• 33:49
  Speaker 1: great relationship. It's also about your internal health as far
• 33:53
  Speaker 1: as your mental, psychological, emotional, your heart, your liver, your kidneys.
• 33:58
  Speaker 1: It's about being healthy financially, emotionally, spiritually. If something is off,
• 34:07
  Speaker 1: then it's a problem. Not only that people don't even
• 34:10
  Speaker 1: realize how important their nervous system is and how that
• 34:13
  Speaker 1: plays a very big part of the mind and body
• 34:16
  Speaker 1: and the soul and the spirit community. So all of
• 34:21
  Speaker 1: these podcasts that I do play a very big part
• 34:27
  Speaker 1: of healing and recovery. I just choose not to put
• 34:30
  Speaker 1: them together because if I put them together, then that
• 34:34
  Speaker 1: means that everybody will be confused, and everybody's on different levels.
• 34:39
  Speaker 1: Now everybody's on the same level. Now everybody's on the
• 34:42
  Speaker 1: same frequency. Not everybody's on the same when it comes
• 34:46
  Speaker 1: to being knowledgeable, into intellectual or educator. But at the
• 34:58
  Speaker 1: end of the day, like I said, y'all worried about
• 35:03
  Speaker 1: the wrong things. It don't matter. We have a whole
• 35:06
  Speaker 1: country in the United States where you have to pay
• 35:09
  Speaker 1: for everything. They're now about to put your medical bills
• 35:16
  Speaker 1: back on your credit which something that Joe Biden and
• 35:20
  Speaker 1: Obama took off. Now they're trying to put on, trying
• 35:26
  Speaker 1: to take away your wages. And yet they wonder why
• 35:31
  Speaker 1: so many people are homeless, and they wonder why so
• 35:35
  Speaker 1: many people are saying they're not working. The crazy part
• 35:39
  Speaker 1: about it all is the fact that insurance is about
• 35:42
  Speaker 1: to go up two hundred and something percent. I still
• 35:45
  Speaker 1: got to pay my insurance for my premium for this month.
• 35:48
  Speaker 1: They might go ahead and take it out. I don't know,
• 35:50
  Speaker 1: they might automatically take it out. I'm not sure. But
• 35:55
  Speaker 1: there are people losing their jobs left and right and
• 35:57
  Speaker 1: can't even get medicaid because some states have changed the
• 36:01
  Speaker 1: medicaid process. Medicare they barely pay anything. If you go
• 36:07
  Speaker 1: to the doctor. They don't do the extensive tests. They're
• 36:11
  Speaker 1: just quick to give you medications. But there's nothing about
• 36:17
  Speaker 1: holistic treatments, you know. I remember doctor Saby said that
• 36:21
  Speaker 1: he was able to heal herpies in HIV, and people
• 36:25
  Speaker 1: thought that that wasn't possible. There are countries that have
• 36:28
  Speaker 1: been healing cancer in all these different diseases, and the
• 36:32
  Speaker 1: United States won't even consider the type of won't even
• 36:35
  Speaker 1: consider the treatment because the FDA will never approve of it.
• 36:40
  Speaker 1: You don't look in the back of your food and
• 36:42
  Speaker 1: notice that most of your foods are bioengineered or gmode.
• 36:47
  Speaker 1: Even though they say it's non GMO, it is most
• 36:50
  Speaker 1: of your food has chemicals in it that are making
• 36:52
  Speaker 1: you sick. That's causing all this stuff in the earthplace.
• 36:55
  Speaker 1: So like I said, the new version of you, it's
• 37:00
  Speaker 1: gonna have to research everything. The new version of you
• 37:04
  Speaker 1: is going to have to be very careful who you
• 37:05
  Speaker 1: bring in your world. And as Jesus said, you put
• 37:09
  Speaker 1: something out there, those that are meant to come will come.
• 37:13
  Speaker 1: Those that won't they won't at the end of the day.
• 37:17
  Speaker 1: So even though I'm not feeling well, I pulled it off.
• 37:22
  Speaker 1: And now what I'm getting ready to do is go
• 37:23
  Speaker 1: lay down because I am not feeling well and I
• 37:26
  Speaker 1: am under the weather. But I know that there's a
• 37:30
  Speaker 1: reason why I'm under the weather. And it's a not
• 37:33
  Speaker 1: only spiritual thing, but it's also a cleansing thing. And
• 37:38
  Speaker 1: I know when I go to bed and I start
• 37:39
  Speaker 1: because I've been sweating this evening. So I know I'm
• 37:44
  Speaker 1: sweating this out. It's gonna take a day or two,
• 37:47
  Speaker 1: maybe three days, maybe five days to get over it.
• 37:49
  Speaker 1: But I know when I when I get better. That's
• 37:57
  Speaker 1: why I said in January. Now that I know works
• 38:00
  Speaker 1: for me in all aspects of my life, these are
• 38:03
  Speaker 1: the things I'm applying. My self esteem is on fleet
• 38:07
  Speaker 1: and my self esteem cannot be broken under any circumstances whatsoever.
• 38:13
  Speaker 1: I have non negotiables. I have boundaries. I'm not chasing
• 38:19
  Speaker 1: after anybody. I'm not hating on nobody. I don't care
• 38:22
  Speaker 1: who else got what. I don't care about other people
• 38:25
  Speaker 1: business like that. I don't care. I am focusing on
• 38:29
  Speaker 1: my health and wellness and my happiness, and that's it.
• 38:32
  Speaker 1: Everybody either adds to it or distract from it. If
• 38:35
  Speaker 1: it's tracked from and I can't bring in my life.
• 38:37
  Speaker 1: My peace and tranquility is non negotiable. I follow the
• 38:43
  Speaker 1: forty eight laws of power, and I play chess, not checkers.
• 38:50
  Speaker 1: So if you tell me if you reject me, I
• 38:54
  Speaker 1: honestly don't care if you do or don't. You can
• 38:56
  Speaker 1: reject me all day long. It wouldn't matter to me.
• 38:59
  Speaker 1: I wouldn't care. At the end of the day. I'm
• 39:02
  Speaker 1: not worried about what somebody else got. I don't hate
• 39:04
  Speaker 1: on other people because of their success or them getting married.
• 39:07
  Speaker 1: I don't care because some people will be alone, some
• 39:11
  Speaker 1: people will be with people you just never never know.
• 39:15
  Speaker 1: But I'm not gonna sit up here and worry about
• 39:17
  Speaker 1: other people that I don't need to worry about, or
• 39:23
  Speaker 1: I got to sit up here and try to go
• 39:25
  Speaker 1: through all these hoops and bounds to be with people
• 39:27
  Speaker 1: that I shouldn't have to in the first place. I
• 39:30
  Speaker 1: am not trying to do anything to go against path
• 39:32
  Speaker 1: that God put me on. My faith in God does
• 39:35
  Speaker 1: not waiver. I am a godly person. The Holy Spirit
• 39:40
  Speaker 1: is leading and guiding my life. Jesus is adding to
• 39:44
  Speaker 1: my life and assisting me and guiding me into the
• 39:48
  Speaker 1: right direction. So, like I said, I'm not following the
• 39:54
  Speaker 1: yellow big road. I'm not going down the rabbit hole,
• 39:56
  Speaker 1: and I'm certainly not going down the red pill, not
• 39:58
  Speaker 1: doing it down to the matris. I'm not doing none
• 40:01
  Speaker 1: of that. I've already been down there. I don't want
• 40:03
  Speaker 1: to go none more. I've already seen everything I need
• 40:05
  Speaker 1: to see down now, and I don't want to go back.
• 40:08
  Speaker 1: So a person that's hell does not want to go
• 40:10
  Speaker 1: back to all their nonsense. They want peace, and if
• 40:15
  Speaker 1: people around them don't understand the importance of that, I
• 40:18
  Speaker 1: don't know what to tell you. If you are picking
• 40:19
  Speaker 1: people and they're still treating the same way, then it's
• 40:22
  Speaker 1: your environment or is you. You need to change. Y'all
• 40:26
  Speaker 1: need to stop thinking that other people gonna change. Y'all
• 40:28
  Speaker 1: gonna stop knowing yourself to build other people up just
• 40:30
  Speaker 1: to build something for somebody else. Why are you building
• 40:33
  Speaker 1: for somebody else and building somebody else for somebody else
• 40:37
  Speaker 1: when you should be building you. That's why so many
• 40:40
  Speaker 1: people are not where they need to be, because you're
• 40:41
  Speaker 1: building for everybody else except yourself. You're not doing what's
• 40:46
  Speaker 1: best for you. You're not doing what's making you happy.
• 40:49
  Speaker 1: You're not doing what you joy. You're worried about everybody else.
• 40:53
  Speaker 1: A lot of y'all had children because you thought this
• 40:57
  Speaker 1: person loved you, and you let this person take off condom,
• 41:00
  Speaker 1: and now you have baby. Now you're raising them by yourself,
• 41:03
  Speaker 1: and now you're still trying to have your own life
• 41:06
  Speaker 1: and still have kids. Like I said, we got to
• 41:09
  Speaker 1: stop the lies here, all this nonsense and people thinking, Okay,
• 41:13
  Speaker 1: having kids it's cool. No, it ain't. Having kids is
• 41:17
  Speaker 1: a nightmare. Having kids is not as easy as y'all
• 41:21
  Speaker 1: think it is. Having kids is you're able to take
• 41:25
  Speaker 1: care of them financially, you're able to stop doing it.
• 41:31
  Speaker 1: You gotta give up everything for them. You can't just say, Okay,
• 41:36
  Speaker 1: I'm gonna have kids, but I'm still gonna go out
• 41:38
  Speaker 1: to the club. I'm gonna have kids, but I'm still
• 41:40
  Speaker 1: gonna have different men coming in on my life. No,
• 41:42
  Speaker 1: it don't work, but that everything stops when you have kids,
• 41:46
  Speaker 1: everything stops. And for everybody to keep thinking that having
• 41:50
  Speaker 1: kids the breeze, No, it ain't kids gonna bring out
• 41:53
  Speaker 1: the truth, the whole truth, not only about yourself but
• 41:57
  Speaker 1: about your marriage. Kids are going to slow down everything,
• 42:03
  Speaker 1: and we need to start being honest about that, because
• 42:06
  Speaker 1: I hear it all the time where parents say I
• 42:09
  Speaker 1: wish I did not have my kids when I had them.
• 42:13
  Speaker 1: So if y'all sit up here and think that having
• 42:15
  Speaker 1: kids is what y'all keep thinking, they are, no. Having
• 42:20
  Speaker 1: kids means for eighteen years. It is about them, eighteen
• 42:24
  Speaker 1: years of raising them, eighteen years of putting yourself ast,
• 42:29
  Speaker 1: eighteen years of lowering yourself to make sure they're good,
• 42:33
  Speaker 1: giving up everything for them, eighteen years of raising a child,
• 42:39
  Speaker 1: teaching them life skills. It ain't no you gonna go
• 42:44
  Speaker 1: to work. It ain't gonna be about your schedule. It
• 42:46
  Speaker 1: ain't gonna be about you doing what you wanna do.
• 42:50
  Speaker 1: It is not happening, Captain. It just ain't. So we
• 42:53
  Speaker 1: gotta start being a little bit realistic here. But I
• 42:57
  Speaker 1: just wanted to come on here and wish y'all very
• 42:59
  Speaker 1: merricle Ristmas, because here we all have different things that
• 43:04
  Speaker 1: were going on all at the same time. Even though
• 43:08
  Speaker 1: you have the East Coast, the rest of the West coast,
• 43:10
  Speaker 1: Central Standard time, Pacific Standard time, everybody's still going through
• 43:14
  Speaker 1: the same thing, just at different times, just at different moments.
• 43:19
  Speaker 1: But y'all need to start learning from other people what
• 43:21
  Speaker 1: not to do and stop thinking that because you ain't
• 43:25
  Speaker 1: going through it right now, that you won't. There are
• 43:27
  Speaker 1: a lot of people that said they will never go
• 43:29
  Speaker 1: through a lot of things, and they do. I said
• 43:32
  Speaker 1: I wasn't gonna get pregnant. I turn thirty and I
• 43:34
  Speaker 1: was twenty one when I got pregnant. Things happen. There
• 43:38
  Speaker 1: will be things that will be stumbling blocks. There will
• 43:41
  Speaker 1: be things that will try to get you off your path.
• 43:44
  Speaker 1: You gotta stay focused, you gotta stay firm. It is
• 43:47
  Speaker 1: not about thirty eight diets. It's about a lifetime of
• 43:52
  Speaker 1: doing what you need to do to heal yourself, recover,
• 43:57
  Speaker 1: and maintain that healing and recovery. And that is to boundaries,
• 44:00
  Speaker 1: non negotiables, information, understanding that the consequences repercussing karma to
• 44:07
  Speaker 1: your action, behavior, choice and decisions, and how what you
• 44:10
  Speaker 1: do impacts and affects other people. You morals, your values,
• 44:13
  Speaker 1: your principles and ethics, the research, the education, but also
• 44:19
  Speaker 1: weighing the pros and cons. So, like I said, your
• 44:24
  Speaker 1: mind and your body are completely different. Your mind can
• 44:27
  Speaker 1: say all day long, I'm gonna get up and do something.
• 44:29
  Speaker 1: Your body's like absolutely not. Your body's like, no, you're
• 44:33
  Speaker 1: gonna sit down. We are going to get some rest.
• 44:36
  Speaker 1: But because your mind is still racing, you can't get
• 44:39
  Speaker 1: no sleep. Light. Today I was trying to, you know,
• 44:43
  Speaker 1: lay down and get rest, and I was still trying
• 44:46
  Speaker 1: to stay up, still trying to stow a note on
• 44:49
  Speaker 1: social media. Next thing I know, I was knocked out
• 44:51
  Speaker 1: sleep because I was sick. I'm sick on Christmas Day.
• 44:55
  Speaker 1: So again, even though my body wanted to go over
• 44:58
  Speaker 1: there and spend time with my family, my body like,
• 45:01
  Speaker 1: absolutely not, you are going to stay in bed. We're
• 45:04
  Speaker 1: going to sleep. I slept the best sleep of my
• 45:07
  Speaker 1: life and woke up and still was rock and I'm
• 45:10
  Speaker 1: still sick. So the point that I'm trying to make
• 45:13
  Speaker 1: is even though your brain wants to move, move, move, move, move,
• 45:17
  Speaker 1: sometimes it just can't. Even though your brain wants to
• 45:21
  Speaker 1: do a lot of things, your body is like, no,
• 45:24
  Speaker 1: it ain't happen. Sometimes your body does things based on
• 45:27
  Speaker 1: feelings and your brain is like, don't do it. So
• 45:31
  Speaker 1: if one other other is saying no, you need to
• 45:34
  Speaker 1: look into that. You need to figure out why one
• 45:38
  Speaker 1: or the other is saying no. Why is it spiritually
• 45:40
  Speaker 1: that it's wrong? Why is it mentally and emotionally wrong?
• 45:44
  Speaker 1: Why is it financially wrong? Why is it relationship? Why
• 45:47
  Speaker 1: is wrong? Why is it spiritually wrong? You got to
• 45:50
  Speaker 1: realize why and what is going to be affected when
• 45:53
  Speaker 1: it comes to it. So decision making is more than
• 45:58
  Speaker 1: just okay, it feel good. I'm doing it, feels good.
• 46:01
  Speaker 1: I'm gonna do it because I want to, but not
• 46:03
  Speaker 1: even knowing consequence and because of karma of it. But okay,
• 46:08
  Speaker 1: but I just wanted to come on him and do
• 46:12
  Speaker 1: this podcast because, like I said, this is going on
• 46:16
  Speaker 1: all of my podcasts, every single one of them, because
• 46:19
  Speaker 1: it pretty much breaks down all of them. Because even
• 46:23
  Speaker 1: opening Pandora's Box, that's the one I missed, Opening Pandora's Box,
• 46:28
  Speaker 1: and from Darkness to Light, Okay, when it comes to
• 46:32
  Speaker 1: opening Pandora's box. You don't know what's in that box
• 46:35
  Speaker 1: until you open it. And when you open that box,
• 46:39
  Speaker 1: you cannot close that box. So once you walk into
• 46:42
  Speaker 1: that situation and you said okay, i'm we'll walk into
• 46:45
  Speaker 1: this situation and you walk into it, eventually you can't
• 46:50
  Speaker 1: turn around. You too far gone. It's just like with
• 46:53
  Speaker 1: Hansel and Gretel when they Daddy put them out there
• 46:57
  Speaker 1: and they was trying to find their way back, and
• 47:01
  Speaker 1: they used their bread that they were supposed to use
• 47:03
  Speaker 1: his food to try to find their way back. The
• 47:06
  Speaker 1: birds kept eating it. That's why they kept getting lost
• 47:09
  Speaker 1: because every time they try to put something down to
• 47:13
  Speaker 1: find their way back to their parents, they couldn't find
• 47:17
  Speaker 1: their way back. So again, once you get too far
• 47:22
  Speaker 1: gone and you can't find your way back, that's a problem.
• 47:27
  Speaker 1: That's why now I ask God before I do anything,
• 47:30
  Speaker 1: show me whether or not I should do this or not,
• 47:35
  Speaker 1: and if I decide to do it, walk with me
• 47:37
  Speaker 1: through it, Guide me through it, show me which way
• 47:42
  Speaker 1: to go. Because if God says, okay, you can do it,
• 47:46
  Speaker 1: but this is what you're gonna be dealing with, then
• 47:48
  Speaker 1: I'm like, walk me through it. But nobody I have
• 47:52
  Speaker 1: not heard nobody in a prayer ever say walk me
• 47:56
  Speaker 1: through it. I have never heard nobody say that. I
• 47:58
  Speaker 1: have never heard nobody say Jesus walked me through it.
• 48:01
  Speaker 1: I've never said I never heard nobody say God, walk
• 48:04
  Speaker 1: me through it, walk with me. You just tell God
• 48:08
  Speaker 1: to show Some of y'all don't even say God, show
• 48:11
  Speaker 1: me the truth, show me through your eyes? What is
• 48:15
  Speaker 1: wrong in this situation here? Y'all show you? The question
• 48:20
  Speaker 1: is are you ready for it? Some of y'all saying
• 48:23
  Speaker 1: I walk the truth, But then when you get it,
• 48:26
  Speaker 1: you still can't accept it. You still trying to find
• 48:28
  Speaker 1: other ways around it. You got what you asked old.
• 48:32
  Speaker 1: You want to know if that man was cheating, you
• 48:34
  Speaker 1: went looking for it, you found it, and yet you
• 48:35
  Speaker 1: still want to stay with him anyway, So they what
• 48:38
  Speaker 1: was the point of looking for it? If you don't
• 48:40
  Speaker 1: want the truth, then don't look for it. Just continue
• 48:42
  Speaker 1: to be dumb, continue to be a fool. But that's
• 48:46
  Speaker 1: the whole point of being a fool. You don't want
• 48:48
  Speaker 1: to know. Fools never want to know the truth. Fools
• 48:52
  Speaker 1: can never accept the truth. That's why they continue to
• 48:55
  Speaker 1: be a fool, because they can't accept the truth. They're
• 48:59
  Speaker 1: not going to walk away from that man if he cheats.
• 49:01
  Speaker 1: They're not gonna walk away from that woman if she cheats.
• 49:04
  Speaker 1: They're gonna continue to go back when it comes to
• 49:06
  Speaker 1: domestic violence. So what is the point of y'all asking
• 49:11
  Speaker 1: for change and asking for growth and asking for elevation
• 49:15
  Speaker 1: and asking for all these things in your prayers and
• 49:18
  Speaker 1: you continue to be a fool? Do you think God
• 49:21
  Speaker 1: is gonna give a fool something and they continue to
• 49:24
  Speaker 1: give it to everybody else? You continue to be Captain
• 49:27
  Speaker 1: Savaho and try to save everybody else and try to
• 49:30
  Speaker 1: put everybody else on some other stuff. So why do
• 49:37
  Speaker 1: you want the truth or do you want to lie?
• 49:39
  Speaker 1: Do you really want to heal and remain healed, or
• 49:44
  Speaker 1: do you want to heal temporarily because you want to
• 49:46
  Speaker 1: get married? You healing because you want to lose weight
• 49:49
  Speaker 1: because you want to get a man. Please enlighten me,
• 49:52
  Speaker 1: enlighten me here, Because the one thing I learned to coach,
• 49:56
  Speaker 1: the one thing I learned in my own twenty something
• 49:59
  Speaker 1: year years of healing, was the mistake that I was making,
• 50:04
  Speaker 1: was I was being a godly person the wrong way.
• 50:07
  Speaker 1: I was being captain saber hoop, I was being bille bears,
• 50:12
  Speaker 1: bill dolls, people pleases and see phillis. I was the
• 50:16
  Speaker 1: one that was trying to be If you told me
• 50:20
  Speaker 1: to jump, I say, hi, Hi, I'm giving my body
• 50:23
  Speaker 1: to men that are not worth me because if you
• 50:27
  Speaker 1: love me, you'll have sex with me, because I'm trying
• 50:30
  Speaker 1: to prove why I should be married. But then when
• 50:34
  Speaker 1: I started reading the Bible, when I started reading Jesus,
• 50:36
  Speaker 1: and Jesus was like, he's never lowered himself a day
• 50:40
  Speaker 1: in his life. Why am I lowering myself as a
• 50:43
  Speaker 1: godly person? Why am I making it seem like because
• 50:45
  Speaker 1: this person got money, because this person is attractive, that
• 50:49
  Speaker 1: I have to lower myself. Why do I have to
• 50:52
  Speaker 1: lower myself for a man that got insecurities? Why am
• 50:55
  Speaker 1: I being Captain saber hoo to a non believer that
• 50:58
  Speaker 1: ain't never gonna change. And if when I built him,
• 51:01
  Speaker 1: he's not going to be built for me, He's gonna
• 51:03
  Speaker 1: be built for everybody else. A hole in different area, coach.
• 51:10
  Speaker 1: So I learned through this nice little journey of my
• 51:13
  Speaker 1: health and wellness. When it finally shut down, it didn't
• 51:18
  Speaker 1: shut down because I was doing anything wrong. Physically besides
• 51:22
  Speaker 1: a car accident, multiple SI falls. No, I was sick
• 51:27
  Speaker 1: because I had spiritual weights. I took on everybody else's
• 51:33
  Speaker 1: problems because I was a seat filler, captain, saber hole builder, bears,
• 51:38
  Speaker 1: built dolls, and a people police. I went through what's
• 51:41
  Speaker 1: called post traumatic slave disorder. That's what I went through,
• 51:45
  Speaker 1: post traumatic slave disorder. I because of my low self esteem,
• 51:52
  Speaker 1: low self worth, low self values, because of when I
• 51:55
  Speaker 1: was a kid, was broken. I was looking for love
• 52:01
  Speaker 1: because I didn't know what love was, and because I
• 52:06
  Speaker 1: wanted somebody to love me so bad. The devil used
• 52:08
  Speaker 1: that against me because I wanted to be wanting so bad.
• 52:13
  Speaker 1: I wanted to be accepted so bad. I wanted somebody
• 52:16
  Speaker 1: to value me and know my worth so bad. I
• 52:18
  Speaker 1: wanted to be validated and proving something so bad. I
• 52:21
  Speaker 1: wanted to be validated so bad to the point that
• 52:25
  Speaker 1: people took advantage of that. And even though I have
• 52:31
  Speaker 1: never been somebody that's been about negativity, I've never been
• 52:35
  Speaker 1: somebody about doing something wrong. But still I allowed people
• 52:40
  Speaker 1: to abuse me because that's the only thing that I knew.
• 52:43
  Speaker 1: All I knew was somebody making me feel bad, telling
• 52:46
  Speaker 1: me how ugly I was, how imperfect I was allowing
• 52:51
  Speaker 1: people to put their hands on me and essay me
• 52:54
  Speaker 1: because I didn't think I deserved anything better. See, that's
• 52:59
  Speaker 1: the thing in my story. I went after a sex
• 53:04
  Speaker 1: coat and my whole entire life was flashed before me.
• 53:07
  Speaker 1: I went through un the worst crucifixion on social media
• 53:10
  Speaker 1: that you could ever experience. But yeah, here I am
• 53:13
  Speaker 1: teaching everybody else. So let me break this down for y'all.
• 53:18
  Speaker 1: If you don't stop being captain sable hose and start
• 53:22
  Speaker 1: realizing your worth and do not base your worth on
• 53:24
  Speaker 1: what you have, you base your worth off your character.
• 53:26
  Speaker 1: Because here's noting. When I went through that thing in
• 53:30
  Speaker 1: the sex coat and they got me fired from my job,
• 53:32
  Speaker 1: I was out of work for three months from October
• 53:34
  Speaker 1: to January, and I mean fifteenth of the fifteenth of
• 53:39
  Speaker 1: October to January. I went to my landlord, told what happened.
• 53:43
  Speaker 1: My landlord said, don't worry about it. Pay what you
• 53:45
  Speaker 1: can pay the rest of when you get a job.
• 53:48
  Speaker 1: Well guess what got a job in January. Paid that
• 53:51
  Speaker 1: man back every single dimeond his money. Why because God
• 53:54
  Speaker 1: said I got you. God said I got you. Because
• 54:02
  Speaker 1: God knew. It wasn't my fault what happened. God knew.
• 54:06
  Speaker 1: I was out of work from two thousand and seven
• 54:08
  Speaker 1: to two thousand and nine, I mean in twenty and seventeen,
• 54:10
  Speaker 1: in twenty nineteen. So the fact that I was out
• 54:13
  Speaker 1: of work because I was sick from two thousand and
• 54:16
  Speaker 1: seventeen because they gave me the wrong medication to two
• 54:19
  Speaker 1: thousand and nineteen, I was out of work for pretty
• 54:24
  Speaker 1: much two years. So to get a job and then
• 54:27
  Speaker 1: somebody get me fired because you wanted a sex cult
• 54:31
  Speaker 1: to continue to go on and on and on and
• 54:33
  Speaker 1: mind he do. He's in jail right about now. He
• 54:36
  Speaker 1: ain't getting out. He ain't never gonna get out. He's
• 54:38
  Speaker 1: got life plus ten years in the state of Georgia,
• 54:42
  Speaker 1: in Fullton County. He ain't getting out, ironically. But you
• 54:47
  Speaker 1: know what was funny about it, though, is the fact
• 54:50
  Speaker 1: that even though these people did what they did to me,
• 54:53
  Speaker 1: they finally told them themselves. Ironically, and I wasn't there
• 54:56
  Speaker 1: when it happened, but they did end up telling themselves
• 55:00
  Speaker 1: when it happened. They're trying to make a sem that
• 55:01
  Speaker 1: they didn't do what they did. But I will say this,
• 55:07
  Speaker 1: these people will have you to the point where they're
• 55:10
  Speaker 1: gonna try to make you do something to yourself. People.
• 55:13
  Speaker 1: That's why I said, you don't leave your children in
• 55:16
  Speaker 1: an environment where they're gonna be bullied, where their self
• 55:20
  Speaker 1: esteem is gonna be broken every single day. There is
• 55:23
  Speaker 1: no just sack it up and act like it don't happen. No,
• 55:27
  Speaker 1: I am not gonna never tell my son to suck
• 55:28
  Speaker 1: it up. Now, there's only one way I will tell
• 55:31
  Speaker 1: my son to suck it up if he's the one
• 55:33
  Speaker 1: that did the wrong. Now, when I say suck it up,
• 55:36
  Speaker 1: that means you did something wrong and you're gonna take
• 55:38
  Speaker 1: everything to come with it. Now, if I say suck
• 55:40
  Speaker 1: it up in that aspect, then by all means you're
• 55:43
  Speaker 1: gonna suck it up because you did wrong and you're
• 55:46
  Speaker 1: gonna take everything to come with it. I'm not bailing
• 55:48
  Speaker 1: you out of jail. You're gonna stay your butt right
• 55:50
  Speaker 1: on in it because I'm not bailing you out, especially
• 55:53
  Speaker 1: if I know you and the wrong. I am not
• 55:56
  Speaker 1: bailing you out. But if you the one that it's
• 56:00
  Speaker 1: a victim, I'm never gonna tell you to suck it
• 56:02
  Speaker 1: up in that like it didn't happen. If my daughter
• 56:04
  Speaker 1: came to me and said somebody did something to her,
• 56:06
  Speaker 1: They're going to jail. I am not playing about my kids.
• 56:10
  Speaker 1: It ain't gonna be. No, I'm protecting the family. Ain't
• 56:13
  Speaker 1: doing none of that. It ain't gonna be. I'm paying
• 56:16
  Speaker 1: your bills, but you're telling me not to come to
• 56:18
  Speaker 1: your not to come to my sister's wedding. You're telling
• 56:21
  Speaker 1: me to pay my sister's bills like I'm her child. No,
• 56:26
  Speaker 1: my blessings are mine. My blessings are mine. But at
• 56:30
  Speaker 1: the same time, if God said, look, I want you
• 56:32
  Speaker 1: to go and I want you to have some homeless people,
• 56:37
  Speaker 1: then nashen my money is going. My money is not going,
• 56:40
  Speaker 1: is not going personally to build my family up. I'm
• 56:43
  Speaker 1: not doing that because what they do it for me. No,
• 56:46
  Speaker 1: they would not. It ain't gonna be when I make it.
• 56:50
  Speaker 1: If my parents made me the invisible child, that did
• 56:54
  Speaker 1: not put me on any pedestal, was not there in
• 56:56
  Speaker 1: any capacity, was not there for my graduation, and then
• 57:00
  Speaker 1: come to me and say can I pay your bills?
• 57:02
  Speaker 1: Absolutely not will I do that. So the one thing
• 57:09
  Speaker 1: I'm not gonna do is be responsible for a bunch
• 57:11
  Speaker 1: of people that were never there for me. My blessings
• 57:15
  Speaker 1: are mine. My blessings are mine. And the one thing
• 57:18
  Speaker 1: that I learned, God kept a bunch of my blessings
• 57:21
  Speaker 1: because I kept giving them away to people that didn't
• 57:24
  Speaker 1: deserve me. God was like, these ain't the people that
• 57:27
  Speaker 1: I told you to help. You decided to chase after
• 57:32
  Speaker 1: these people because you were attracted to him lust seven
• 57:37
  Speaker 1: daily Sins. When God said, demn, are not the people
• 57:41
  Speaker 1: I said for you? Them are the people you want
• 57:44
  Speaker 1: it based on your desires. So why in what way
• 57:49
  Speaker 1: did you think that that was your husband. I would
• 57:53
  Speaker 1: never tell this man to make you have sex, and
• 57:56
  Speaker 1: he never wanted you. I wouldn't never want you to
• 57:59
  Speaker 1: be in friends with befits. I would never want you
• 58:02
  Speaker 1: in that. But see, do you really know what God
• 58:07
  Speaker 1: really want for you? No? You know, welcome to welcome
• 58:12
  Speaker 1: doing your recovery for what it really is. Reality. You
• 58:17
  Speaker 1: gonna find out ninety nine point nine percent of the
• 58:22
  Speaker 1: people that's in your life was never supposed to be
• 58:24
  Speaker 1: the annivers one. You gonna find out some very uncomfortable
• 58:29
  Speaker 1: truth that's gonna piss you off. I promise you it will,
• 58:33
  Speaker 1: but you're gonna have to face it. And that's what
• 58:36
  Speaker 1: the matrix is. The matrix is you gonna go back
• 58:41
  Speaker 1: and you're gonna go through your life and you're gonna
• 58:42
  Speaker 1: encounter specific parts of your life where you're gonna sit
• 58:47
  Speaker 1: down with your child the first time you did something
• 58:52
  Speaker 1: that wasn't right, or the first time somebody hurt you.
• 58:57
  Speaker 1: You want to sit there with that that part of
• 59:00
  Speaker 1: you and have that conversation. One of the things that
• 59:03
  Speaker 1: I do and one of the things I'm doing with
• 59:06
  Speaker 1: my clients that I'm gonna do this year coming, is
• 59:09
  Speaker 1: You're gonna have a conversation with yourself. I'm gonna be
• 59:11
  Speaker 1: the version of you that you ain't gonna wanna face,
• 59:16
  Speaker 1: that version of you that you have put it out
• 59:20
  Speaker 1: of your brain. What was done to you? Now mind you.
• 59:24
  Speaker 1: I'm gonna be there with you. I'm gonna cry with you.
• 59:29
  Speaker 1: But when I tell you you go, it's gonna be
• 59:34
  Speaker 1: the hardest part. The little the version of you as
• 59:38
  Speaker 1: a child, and I'm gonna look at you and say,
• 59:42
  Speaker 1: why did you have sex with that boy? Why why
• 59:47
  Speaker 1: did you do this. I'm also gonna be the parent.
• 59:52
  Speaker 1: I'm also gonna be the parent that did what they
• 59:53
  Speaker 1: did to you. Now mind you don't put your hands
• 59:56
  Speaker 1: on me, but you're gonna say everything to me that
• 1:00:02
  Speaker 1: you would have said to your parents, and you're gonna
• 1:00:05
  Speaker 1: relinquish it. Why because I'm not gonna ask you to
• 1:00:07
  Speaker 1: confront your parents. Because you're never gonna get what you want.
• 1:00:10
  Speaker 1: You're never gonna get an apology from these people. These
• 1:00:12
  Speaker 1: people that hurt you are never gonna make amends for
• 1:00:15
  Speaker 1: it because they don't believe in repentance. And that's why
• 1:00:19
  Speaker 1: so many people can't go to heaven because they don't
• 1:00:21
  Speaker 1: repent for their wrongs. They don't make amends to the
• 1:00:24
  Speaker 1: people who they're wrong. If somebody die, you got to
• 1:00:27
  Speaker 1: go to their grave and you've got to make amends.
• 1:00:30
  Speaker 1: You got to go back and make amends. You have
• 1:00:33
  Speaker 1: to talk to their spirit even if they did because
• 1:00:36
  Speaker 1: some people cannot go and move forward as far as
• 1:00:40
  Speaker 1: their souls until whatever it is is finished. That's why
• 1:00:48
  Speaker 1: I believe thoroughly in making amends for my wrongs, making
• 1:00:54
  Speaker 1: right would I've done wrong. I take that very seriously.
• 1:01:00
  Speaker 1: So it isn't just about saying I'm sorry. It's about
• 1:01:03
  Speaker 1: paying people back the money you owe them. It's about
• 1:01:08
  Speaker 1: making amends to the person who you un alive, which
• 1:01:11
  Speaker 1: means you need to have a conversation, which means you
• 1:01:14
  Speaker 1: need to go to that grave and get down on
• 1:01:16
  Speaker 1: your hands and knees, and you need to pay for
• 1:01:18
  Speaker 1: forginness from that spirit and you'll know if that spirit
• 1:01:22
  Speaker 1: forgave you. So it's not just about going to jail
• 1:01:26
  Speaker 1: when you commit a crime. No, you need to pay
• 1:01:29
  Speaker 1: back what you stole. Why do you think they tell
• 1:01:32
  Speaker 1: you when you go to court and you have to
• 1:01:35
  Speaker 1: pay court fees and pay that person back then money
• 1:01:38
  Speaker 1: for whatever it is that you did, Tom, that's repentance.
• 1:01:42
  Speaker 1: Repentance is you make amends for your wrongs. That's what
• 1:01:45
  Speaker 1: you do. But we don't talk about repentance. It's always
• 1:01:51
  Speaker 1: some excuse. No, I don't want to hear your excuses.
• 1:01:53
  Speaker 1: I want you to give me back my money. I
• 1:01:56
  Speaker 1: want you to fix what you're wrong, because some of
• 1:02:01
  Speaker 1: y'all have cause damage the people and now hurt people,
• 1:02:03
  Speaker 1: hurt other hurt people, hurt, people become abusers, and that
• 1:02:09
  Speaker 1: all comes from pain. But see this different between mental
• 1:02:15
  Speaker 1: pain and physical pain. You go through physical pain ain't enough.
• 1:02:19
  Speaker 1: There's not even amount of mental pain you can go through.
• 1:02:22
  Speaker 1: It's gonna hurt, you compare the physical because physical pain
• 1:02:24
  Speaker 1: ain't nothing to play with. It ain't especially we got
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  Speaker 1: chronic pain. Every day, you hurt, honey, have chronic pain,
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  Speaker 1: and then you come talk to me about the stuff
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  Speaker 1: y'all been through. You go through physical pain every day
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  Speaker 1: when you don't even know if you can even get
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  Speaker 1: up out in the bed because you in so much
• 1:02:41
  Speaker 1: pain every day. Your pain moved from one place to another.
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  Speaker 1: And y'all talking about these relationships. Have chronic pain, and
• 1:02:48
  Speaker 1: tell me how you feel. Break your leg and tell
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  Speaker 1: me how you feel. Do you really think you'll be
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  Speaker 1: worried about some boy or worry about the man some
• 1:02:56
  Speaker 1: woman if you break your leg. No, you ain't gonna
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  Speaker 1: be thinking about it. All you're gonna be thinking about
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  Speaker 1: is you want that pain to stop. Well, guess what
• 1:03:05
  Speaker 1: the only difference is mentally the reason why it won't
• 1:03:08
  Speaker 1: stop because physically you don't feel it. You don't feel
• 1:03:12
  Speaker 1: it physically. You feel it emotionally, and that's because of
• 1:03:17
  Speaker 1: your wants and your desires and what you want and
• 1:03:19
  Speaker 1: what you desire. That's the reason you feel it. But
• 1:03:23
  Speaker 1: it isn't like having chronic pain. It ain't like your
• 1:03:28
  Speaker 1: back hurt where every day you take medication and it
• 1:03:33
  Speaker 1: goes from one extreme to another. So for example, right now,
• 1:03:36
  Speaker 1: on my side hurts and I'm sick. Right now, I
• 1:03:38
  Speaker 1: have a code. I don't know the code or floor,
• 1:03:41
  Speaker 1: I don't even know. The point is I don't feel good. Okay,
• 1:03:44
  Speaker 1: I should be in bed by, but this touched my spirit.
• 1:03:47
  Speaker 1: So we needn't talk about it. So twenty twenty six
• 1:03:51
  Speaker 1: and my coaching, I need people to understand this ain't
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  Speaker 1: No I'm gonna tell you what you want to hear
• 1:03:56
  Speaker 1: as a coach. No, I'm gonna make you cry. I'm
• 1:04:00
  Speaker 1: gonna make you feel things that you have never felt before.
• 1:04:03
  Speaker 1: Why because you are not gonna hope. I am not
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  Speaker 1: gonna tell you to add like what you went through
• 1:04:08
  Speaker 1: didn't exist, because it did. Now, if you did something wrong,
• 1:04:11
  Speaker 1: you gonna own it. Quaint Blayne period. You are going
• 1:04:14
  Speaker 1: to take accountability for what you did, not only what
• 1:04:16
  Speaker 1: you did, what you allowed somebody to do to you.
• 1:04:20
  Speaker 1: So there's two different accountabilities here, what you did to
• 1:04:22
  Speaker 1: somebody else and what you allowed somebody to do to you,
• 1:04:24
  Speaker 1: what you did to yourself, Quaint Blayne period. So even
• 1:04:29
  Speaker 1: though yes, you got your heart broken. But was that
• 1:04:32
  Speaker 1: really the person that God sent to you. No, that
• 1:04:35
  Speaker 1: was the person you desired based on seven daily sins,
• 1:04:38
  Speaker 1: based on once that the devil put in front of you.
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  Speaker 1: See understand, God will give you what you need. The
• 1:04:46
  Speaker 1: devil will give you what you want. That part. God
• 1:04:50
  Speaker 1: is never gonna give you what you desire. That's based
• 1:04:54
  Speaker 1: on the seven dayly sins, never gonna happen. God is
• 1:05:01
  Speaker 1: gonna give you what you need. If you say you
• 1:05:03
  Speaker 1: want a man that's a good man, it's a godly man,
• 1:05:06
  Speaker 1: and you want a man that's this. God ain't gonna
• 1:05:08
  Speaker 1: bring you somebody's attractive. He's gonna bring you somebody that
• 1:05:10
  Speaker 1: may be unattractive, but in every other quality that might
• 1:05:13
  Speaker 1: be what you want. Number two, you want to know
• 1:05:20
  Speaker 1: somebody will love you, not tell them see if they see.
• 1:05:25
  Speaker 1: If they're a selibant as a man. If a man
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  Speaker 1: is willing to go celibate for you and go down
• 1:05:30
  Speaker 1: on the journey with you, then that's your person. If
• 1:05:33
  Speaker 1: that man has cleansed himself for every single woman that
• 1:05:36
  Speaker 1: he's everdated, that is your person. That is your person.
• 1:05:41
  Speaker 1: That man is a man that has done it all
• 1:05:43
  Speaker 1: and he tied he is a man that literally got
• 1:05:47
  Speaker 1: himself together, a man that has the ring, has the house,
• 1:05:52
  Speaker 1: has it all together, and just waiting on you. He
• 1:05:58
  Speaker 1: is not with you because what you look like. He's
• 1:06:00
  Speaker 1: not with you because how you are in bed. He
• 1:06:03
  Speaker 1: is with you because you add to his life, not
• 1:06:08
  Speaker 1: subtracted from it. He's never gonna tell you to stay
• 1:06:11
  Speaker 1: home being a stay at home wife, if that's just
• 1:06:13
  Speaker 1: not who you are. He's a man that's gonna be like,
• 1:06:16
  Speaker 1: I don't care if you build a business in the brand.
• 1:06:19
  Speaker 1: I'm okay with that. This is a man that if
• 1:06:23
  Speaker 1: you tell him you can't afford to get your hair
• 1:06:25
  Speaker 1: and nails done because you can't afford to. Because I'm
• 1:06:26
  Speaker 1: a little testament it. I can't afford it. I can't
• 1:06:30
  Speaker 1: afford it. But if that man, just one day out
• 1:06:33
  Speaker 1: of blue takes me to go get my hair cut,
• 1:06:36
  Speaker 1: takes me to get my hair done, takes me to
• 1:06:39
  Speaker 1: a store, knowing I can't afford none of this stuff,
• 1:06:47
  Speaker 1: next thing I know, I'm in the Bahamas somewhere because
• 1:06:49
  Speaker 1: he took me on vacation. That's your A person that
• 1:06:56
  Speaker 1: will never push you through everything that you worked hard
• 1:07:00
  Speaker 1: to heal because they themselves have healed themselves. You don't
• 1:07:06
  Speaker 1: never date somebody and you have healed from something and
• 1:07:10
  Speaker 1: they damaged, because honey, then the mortal words of algebra
• 1:07:15
  Speaker 1: negative and negative will always equal negative. Negative and positive
• 1:07:18
  Speaker 1: will always equal negative. Positive and positive will always equal positive.
• 1:07:23
  Speaker 1: So if you are a godly person, you cannot date
• 1:07:28
  Speaker 1: a non believer. That's not going to change. You just can't.
• 1:07:32
  Speaker 1: So all it is, and your healing and recovery is
• 1:07:36
  Speaker 1: you finding your way back to God pretty much, and
• 1:07:39
  Speaker 1: you're gonna stay there no more. Doing anything against God
• 1:07:43
  Speaker 1: intentionally in other words, it ain't intentional. In other words,
• 1:07:48
  Speaker 1: if it happens, it has to be an extreme circumstance.
• 1:07:52
  Speaker 1: That person literally gotta put their hands on you or
• 1:07:56
  Speaker 1: you doing something because you're just trying to survive. But
• 1:08:01
  Speaker 1: word of mouth, it ain't nothing. Nobody can say, manipulate,
• 1:08:04
  Speaker 1: bamboozle that you're gonna do that goes against what your
• 1:08:08
  Speaker 1: path is once God puts you on your path during
• 1:08:11
  Speaker 1: your healing and recovery or whatever your spirituality or whatever
• 1:08:14
  Speaker 1: your religion is, because this ain't just for godly People's
• 1:08:16
  Speaker 1: fair about whatever your spirituality is, whatever your religion is,
• 1:08:21
  Speaker 1: whatever path that the Higher Power puts you on. Not
• 1:08:25
  Speaker 1: only are you gonna remain now, but you're gonna do
• 1:08:28
  Speaker 1: everything you can to maintain your health and wellness, to
• 1:08:31
  Speaker 1: maintain your healing recovery. If that means you got to
• 1:08:34
  Speaker 1: lead to the United States because you know it ain't healthy,
• 1:08:36
  Speaker 1: leave leaf lief. If that means you gotta leave your environment,
• 1:08:41
  Speaker 1: If that means you gotta leave your family, If that
• 1:08:43
  Speaker 1: means you gotta leave everything behind, do it. Do it
• 1:08:47
  Speaker 1: because what's more important staying for your family or staying
• 1:08:50
  Speaker 1: for your health and wellness? Because here's the thing. You
• 1:08:54
  Speaker 1: got a bunch of blessings waiting on you. But the
• 1:08:57
  Speaker 1: reason God am gonna give your blessing is because you're
• 1:08:59
  Speaker 1: gonna give the everybody else. And you donna fel like
• 1:09:00
  Speaker 1: you have to share with everybody else. No, you don't.
• 1:09:03
  Speaker 1: God may give you. A matter of fact, this is taken.
• 1:09:06
  Speaker 1: Trip me up, everybody said Simon. Simone said, got a
• 1:09:11
  Speaker 1: question asked to her? She said, person asked, would you
• 1:09:16
  Speaker 1: take ten trillion dollars or ten minutes for God? Now?
• 1:09:20
  Speaker 1: She said that the ten trillion Now, I said, God,
• 1:09:26
  Speaker 1: let me mask Jesus, God, whatever, let me explain why
• 1:09:29
  Speaker 1: I said that number one, God's time is not our time.
• 1:09:33
  Speaker 1: Ten minutes what God could be, thirty years, ten minutes,
• 1:09:38
  Speaker 1: what God could be forever. You may not ever come back.
• 1:09:42
  Speaker 1: You might go. God may take you to the New
• 1:09:44
  Speaker 1: Land and take you there, and may show you what
• 1:09:47
  Speaker 1: the whole new land look like where you're going when
• 1:09:50
  Speaker 1: you die, When Jesus finally comes and gets all of us,
• 1:09:54
  Speaker 1: you won't be the first person that's gonna be there.
• 1:09:58
  Speaker 1: How you know that Jesus ain't gona take you to
• 1:10:00
  Speaker 1: the Holy Lamp, the new world that God has in
• 1:10:04
  Speaker 1: story for us, But you don't take ten trillion dollars,
• 1:10:07
  Speaker 1: not even understanding the devil's the one giving me that
• 1:10:10
  Speaker 1: ten trillion dollars, see, because the devil's the one asking
• 1:10:13
  Speaker 1: you that question. See, that's the part that nobody got
• 1:10:17
  Speaker 1: because I went back to Adam and Eve. God sat
• 1:10:22
  Speaker 1: right there and watched that whole situation play out. God
• 1:10:26
  Speaker 1: didn't intervene because God can't intervene with freedom of towards
• 1:10:29
  Speaker 1: and free will. He can't intervene in that. So if
• 1:10:34
  Speaker 1: you ask me, do I want ten trillion dollars or
• 1:10:38
  Speaker 1: do I want ten minutes with Jesus ten minutes. It
• 1:10:43
  Speaker 1: is because I'm going to the Holy Land. I'm leave
• 1:10:46
  Speaker 1: y'all here. I mayn't get to the Holy Lamb, and
• 1:10:51
  Speaker 1: I might be there by myself. But guess what, I'm
• 1:10:55
  Speaker 1: at peace. I'm a tranquility. I ain't hurting them more.
• 1:10:59
  Speaker 1: I ain't ain't no more. That ten minutes could be
• 1:11:03
  Speaker 1: forty years. I've come back in. Forty years have passed
• 1:11:10
  Speaker 1: and I'm still the same age. God's time is not
• 1:11:15
  Speaker 1: our time. So what you think ten minutes is is
• 1:11:20
  Speaker 1: not Jesus ten minutes. And we all know that because
• 1:11:24
  Speaker 1: back at the beginning of time, there was no time.
• 1:11:27
  Speaker 1: We didn't have no twenty four hours to day, seven days,
• 1:11:28
  Speaker 1: and we just had night and day. That was like,
• 1:11:32
  Speaker 1: So that ten minutes could be an attorney, That ten
• 1:11:35
  Speaker 1: minutes could be him walking you through your life and
• 1:11:38
  Speaker 1: giving you a second chance to go back and do
• 1:11:42
  Speaker 1: things differently. Jesus could prepare you for the world and
• 1:11:48
  Speaker 1: heal you of everything, and you come back and you
• 1:11:51
  Speaker 1: live a thousand years. But you want ten tillion dollars, okay,
• 1:11:59
  Speaker 1: so see how healany and recovery works. You think differently,
• 1:12:07
  Speaker 1: I'm not taking ten trillion dollars ten trillion dollars. That's
• 1:12:11
  Speaker 1: gonna come with some type of negative condition, ten trillion dollars,
• 1:12:14
  Speaker 1: and I'm gonna have to worry about a bunch of
• 1:12:15
  Speaker 1: people trying to underlive me for that money, ten trillion dollars.
• 1:12:23
  Speaker 1: That people will say they're gonna give it to something.
• 1:12:25
  Speaker 1: They don't even do it now. Passes don't even do
• 1:12:28
  Speaker 1: it now, and they make money every day off the
• 1:12:30
  Speaker 1: collection plate and they don't get back now. Okay, you
• 1:12:35
  Speaker 1: are not given ten trillion dollars. You're gonna take that trend,
• 1:12:38
  Speaker 1: that ten trillion dollars and spend it on yourself. And
• 1:12:42
  Speaker 1: then when the devil comes and says I was the
• 1:12:47
  Speaker 1: one that gave you the money, you're thinking that God
• 1:12:50
  Speaker 1: gave you the money. If people should have paid attention
• 1:12:52
  Speaker 1: to the question, if you were given a choice between
• 1:12:58
  Speaker 1: ten trillion dollars and ten minutes with Jesus, you are
• 1:13:03
  Speaker 1: choosing between the love of money, which goes against the seven,
• 1:13:08
  Speaker 1: which goes against ten commandments. Seventy every sayings greed. You
• 1:13:14
  Speaker 1: chose greed, So you chose greed over ten minutes with Jesus.
• 1:13:22
  Speaker 1: Seeing critical thinking, the devil asked you because my first
• 1:13:28
  Speaker 1: question is is who asked a question. Was it somebody
• 1:13:34
  Speaker 1: negative to asked the question, or was it an angel
• 1:13:37
  Speaker 1: asking me the question? That's the first thing. So then
• 1:13:49
  Speaker 1: I'm gonna go back to it. Who sent you? Who's
• 1:13:53
  Speaker 1: giving me the money? Because I am not just going
• 1:13:58
  Speaker 1: just say I'm gonna take ten trus million dollars And
• 1:14:01
  Speaker 1: I don't know if if God is given it to
• 1:14:03
  Speaker 1: me or the devil's given to me. But see how
• 1:14:07
  Speaker 1: I knew the devil was giving the money was because
• 1:14:10
  Speaker 1: he said ten minutes Jesus. That right there tells me
• 1:14:15
  Speaker 1: the devil is the one giving me the money. So
• 1:14:17
  Speaker 1: I will never accept it. I won't never take anything
• 1:14:20
  Speaker 1: for the moment. There's nothing the devil can offer me
• 1:14:24
  Speaker 1: that I won't at all. Ten menus with Jesus is
• 1:14:37
  Speaker 1: this shouldn't even have been a hesitation when that question
• 1:14:41
  Speaker 1: was asked. It wasn't even ans. But maybe's about it.
• 1:14:45
  Speaker 1: Ten mens with Jesus. I'm not choosing Jesus, which means
• 1:14:56
  Speaker 1: I'm not a person of God. Because the Israelites went
• 1:15:01
  Speaker 1: forty years without nothing. Jesus died on the cross and
• 1:15:12
  Speaker 1: was resurrected from the dead. So now ten minutes of Jesus.
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  Speaker 1: It is because I want The first thing I asked
• 1:15:22
  Speaker 1: is Lord, I just want you to heal me, and
• 1:15:28
  Speaker 1: I just want I just want you to prepare me
• 1:15:30
  Speaker 1: for the world, because if you're gonna send me back,
• 1:15:32
  Speaker 1: preparing me for what I'm gonna be facing, prepare me
• 1:15:37
  Speaker 1: for what it is that I was supposed to do.
• 1:15:38
  Speaker 1: So I don't get off off the path no more.
• 1:15:48
  Speaker 1: I've done it because when I went through my healing,
• 1:15:50
  Speaker 1: it wasn't therapy. It was God, Me and God and Jesus.
• 1:15:54
  Speaker 1: That's it. Jesus and God were my more of my
• 1:15:58
  Speaker 1: therapy purpose. Jesus and God were my motivation. So when
• 1:16:05
  Speaker 1: that question was asked I was going through it, I
• 1:16:10
  Speaker 1: chose Jesus. When I was when I had to go
• 1:16:13
  Speaker 1: and have mergency gall Blad surgeon, I chose Jesus. When
• 1:16:16
  Speaker 1: I went through that path to going through that sex code,
• 1:16:18
  Speaker 1: I chose Jesus. When God told me to walk away
• 1:16:22
  Speaker 1: from the situation. You do don't know you can now
• 1:16:25
  Speaker 1: it's trying to walk away. I walked away. So now
• 1:16:29
  Speaker 1: I'm in the ending stage of my healing recovery where
• 1:16:33
  Speaker 1: I'm breaking building my self esteem. Despite the fact that
• 1:16:37
  Speaker 1: I don't fit society standards. I no longer want to
• 1:16:41
  Speaker 1: fit society standards. I don't care about society standards. I
• 1:16:44
  Speaker 1: care about God's standards. I don't care. I don't fit it.
• 1:16:49
  Speaker 1: I don't care. God was there when nobody else was.
• 1:17:00
  Speaker 1: So the fact that y'all can't understand that question. Ask
• 1:17:04
  Speaker 1: somebody that's been alone and has just been them and God.
• 1:17:08
  Speaker 1: They'll tell you that that ten minutes could be twenty years,
• 1:17:14
  Speaker 1: as it was for me twenty years because to have
• 1:17:23
  Speaker 1: God emergency, God Blood of surgery. They told me. If
• 1:17:26
  Speaker 1: I even have emergency, God Blood the surgery, I went
• 1:17:37
  Speaker 1: to sleep. I'm still here talking to you. There are
• 1:17:41
  Speaker 1: times I slipped and fell and I was in pain
• 1:17:43
  Speaker 1: so bad. God said, get up. You gotta get up.
• 1:17:48
  Speaker 1: You can't get the pain. You can't do the pain
• 1:17:50
  Speaker 1: when you're gonna have to fight through it. Honey, y'all
• 1:17:53
  Speaker 1: have no idea how every day I fight through pain
• 1:17:55
  Speaker 1: every day. Well, guess what I'm still sitting here talking
• 1:17:59
  Speaker 1: to you. That's what healing and recovery is. Healing. Your
• 1:18:04
  Speaker 1: recovery is elevating, evolving, getting away from that fourth dimension
• 1:18:09
  Speaker 1: and getting away from that Because some people are stuck
• 1:18:12
  Speaker 1: in the fourth dimension. When you start hitting fifth, six, seven, eight, nine, ten,
• 1:18:17
  Speaker 1: twelfth dimension, you ain't going back. Once you get to
• 1:18:21
  Speaker 1: twelfth dimension, you ain't going back. You are not looking back.
• 1:18:23
  Speaker 1: You ain't going back. And if you're going back, you're
• 1:18:26
  Speaker 1: going back to educate, You're going back to teach, you're
• 1:18:30
  Speaker 1: going back to assist, you're going back to God. And
• 1:18:33
  Speaker 1: when you go back, none of it should affect you.
• 1:18:38
  Speaker 1: Nobody should affect you with anything they got going on.
• 1:18:42
  Speaker 1: You can listen, you can give advice, you can give
• 1:18:46
  Speaker 1: them resources, but that's all you do nothing else. If
• 1:18:50
  Speaker 1: you give money, it's not a charity where you give money. No,
• 1:18:55
  Speaker 1: you are actually building something. You're building a hospital. Padd
• 1:18:58
  Speaker 1: Le Belle, build a hospital for homeless people. So instead
• 1:19:01
  Speaker 1: of you building a charity, you are building something. You
• 1:19:04
  Speaker 1: are actually giving people scholarships. That money is actually going somewhere,
• 1:19:11
  Speaker 1: not in your pockets. But at the same time, you
• 1:19:14
  Speaker 1: still have money to live. Your money is not about
• 1:19:19
  Speaker 1: all these expensive cars, spensive houses. It's about your health
• 1:19:22
  Speaker 1: and wellness, the best doctors, best food, best education, traveling
• 1:19:29
  Speaker 1: the world, building something that's going to live past you
• 1:19:35
  Speaker 1: being a profit. Every time you get you don't hold
• 1:19:40
  Speaker 1: you don't hold onto. That's why I said, these pastors
• 1:19:43
  Speaker 1: trip me out because they make all this money and
• 1:19:46
  Speaker 1: yet they don't once give it back. They'll never once
• 1:19:50
  Speaker 1: get involved in things they should be getting involved in.
• 1:19:53
  Speaker 1: But yeah, you got people every day out here helping
• 1:19:55
  Speaker 1: homeless people. People out here helping children, adopting kids. People
• 1:20:04
  Speaker 1: out here that's not worried about being married anymore because
• 1:20:10
  Speaker 1: they're letting God bring the people that are meant to
• 1:20:13
  Speaker 1: be in their life. They're not chasing not they're nothing,
• 1:20:17
  Speaker 1: They're not lonely. They're one with God. That is what
• 1:20:23
  Speaker 1: they are. They're one with God. So if people are single,
• 1:20:28
  Speaker 1: people are alone, that's because you have a purpose. You
• 1:20:32
  Speaker 1: have a purpose, You have a journey, and you have
• 1:20:37
  Speaker 1: a path that you have things you still need to do.
• 1:20:43
  Speaker 1: And when as you go through your path and your journey,
• 1:20:47
  Speaker 1: you will meet your person, not because of what you
• 1:20:51
  Speaker 1: look like, not because sex, not because of money, just
• 1:20:56
  Speaker 1: because they're a godly person for who they are internally.
• 1:21:01
  Speaker 1: It could be somebody you meet when you're sick. They
• 1:21:04
  Speaker 1: work for the hospital, they watch you go through cancer.
• 1:21:08
  Speaker 1: It could be a doctor you're now dating your doctor.
• 1:21:12
  Speaker 1: It could be somebody that you're going through spiritual warfare
• 1:21:15
  Speaker 1: at the church. It could be somebody that you're on
• 1:21:18
  Speaker 1: a cruise with and y'all just have a conversation. Has
• 1:21:23
  Speaker 1: nothing to do with attractions, got everything to do with
• 1:21:25
  Speaker 1: just y'all having a conversation. That's it. It can be
• 1:21:30
  Speaker 1: somebody that you've been friends with forever in the day.
• 1:21:34
  Speaker 1: But it's never because of what somebody looked like or
• 1:21:37
  Speaker 1: because of any of that. It's never ever. That shouldn't
• 1:21:43
  Speaker 1: be never that everybody should be an extension of you.
• 1:21:50
  Speaker 1: Look at it likeness. Here, you're a tree, right, let's
• 1:21:53
  Speaker 1: talk about a tree of life. I'm gonna use Marvel
• 1:21:55
  Speaker 1: for example. Tree of life that those trees don't treat you.
• 1:22:01
  Speaker 1: Life have different dimensions, different paths, different things. But guess
• 1:22:08
  Speaker 1: what connects everything the root. You're the roots. Your soul
• 1:22:14
  Speaker 1: is the root. So you have different chapters, different you know, stories,
• 1:22:26
  Speaker 1: and your story. When you go to heaven on judgment Day,
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  Speaker 1: your story is gonna be told and you're gonna have
• 1:22:34
  Speaker 1: to explain to God, not what, not who, because God
• 1:22:39
  Speaker 1: knows everything you do. It's why why? So if that's
• 1:22:45
  Speaker 1: not the first question that you asked, why because some
• 1:22:48
  Speaker 1: of y'all do why what are you doing? Why? Well,
• 1:22:52
  Speaker 1: guess what? God gone, Why did you do this? What
• 1:22:56
  Speaker 1: was you thinking when you did that? What was going
• 1:23:00
  Speaker 1: through your mind when you did? Then't just what and why?
• 1:23:03
  Speaker 1: That's it? Not how, because he already knows how. It
• 1:23:07
  Speaker 1: is what and why? So if you don't understand why,
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  Speaker 1: that is important, I don't know to tell you. If then,
• 1:23:17
  Speaker 1: if then two questions, don't If there's them, two words
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  Speaker 1: don't come up. I don't know too. If you don't
• 1:23:22
  Speaker 1: think about what and why you're doing something, then don't
• 1:23:26
  Speaker 1: do it right now. Unfortunately, no, So all I'm saying
• 1:23:34
  Speaker 1: y'all think before you do something. Don't do something based
• 1:23:41
  Speaker 1: on your emotions. Now, let me say this, the one
• 1:23:45
  Speaker 1: thing I teach people is how to play chess, not checkers. Now,
• 1:23:51
  Speaker 1: negative people, you cannot be a negative person of emotions.
• 1:23:58
  Speaker 1: It's just not gonna happen. Emotions is not what's going
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  Speaker 1: to be the person. It's just ain't. You're not gonna
• 1:24:07
  Speaker 1: be a negative person by being negative yourself revenge and
• 1:24:13
  Speaker 1: cussing somebody out, explaining yourself. You're not gonna be a
• 1:24:18
  Speaker 1: negative person in any way shape from a fashion that way,
• 1:24:22
  Speaker 1: how you be the person is you give them enough
• 1:24:25
  Speaker 1: rope to hang themselves. And what I mean by that
• 1:24:30
  Speaker 1: is let them go ahead and say whatever they're gonna say,
• 1:24:34
  Speaker 1: and then you pull out the receipts, pull out your evidence,
• 1:24:39
  Speaker 1: post it, leave alone. You don't need to say, oh,
• 1:24:46
  Speaker 1: I'm appreciate it. You ain't got to say nothing. All
• 1:24:51
  Speaker 1: you got to say is are you done? Do you
• 1:24:54
  Speaker 1: feel better now that you said all of that? Because
• 1:24:56
  Speaker 1: you said all of that, like I'm gonna respond to it,
• 1:24:59
  Speaker 1: I'm not have a to day. You find out somebody's cheating,
• 1:25:04
  Speaker 1: this is why you deal with it. Pack yo, staff,
• 1:25:09
  Speaker 1: pack based off and leave. You don't need an explanation.
• 1:25:14
  Speaker 1: They did it because they wanted to. This is what
• 1:25:18
  Speaker 1: healing looks like. Healing is. I don't care why you
• 1:25:23
  Speaker 1: did what you did. I don't even want an explanation,
• 1:25:26
  Speaker 1: because you did it because number one, you had the
• 1:25:29
  Speaker 1: room in the opportunity, two because you wanted to, three
• 1:25:33
  Speaker 1: because you had no respect for me, and four because
• 1:25:36
  Speaker 1: I wasn't there to stop you. You have no self control,
• 1:25:41
  Speaker 1: So you don't need an explanation. You already know because
• 1:25:50
  Speaker 1: that person really loved you. I don't care what woman
• 1:25:53
  Speaker 1: or what man, or whoever did what. Nobody could ever
• 1:25:58
  Speaker 1: influence that person to do something wrong in any way, shape, form,
• 1:26:02
  Speaker 1: or fashion. And if they can, then that's not your person,
• 1:26:08
  Speaker 1: especially if you don't. So you need to find people
• 1:26:13
  Speaker 1: like you who have the same standards. Nothing. This big
• 1:26:20
  Speaker 1: misconception boredom. People say, oh my god, I'm bored. So
• 1:26:25
  Speaker 1: now I'm gonna go out here and just play Russian
• 1:26:26
  Speaker 1: Roulette and destroy everything that you stand on. How stupid
• 1:26:30
  Speaker 1: are you? How you gonna work hard to build something
• 1:26:35
  Speaker 1: just to tear it up. It is just like Chris
• 1:26:38
  Speaker 1: Brown said in Residuals. You build it up, build it up,
• 1:26:42
  Speaker 1: just to let it walk away, just to destroy it.
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  Speaker 1: The whole point of boredom is that you're not going
• 1:26:50
  Speaker 1: through nothing. That everything is fine, everything is good, you happy.
• 1:26:56
  Speaker 1: In the immortal words of little kids, if you have
• 1:26:59
  Speaker 1: then you know it, clap your hands. If you have being,
• 1:27:02
  Speaker 1: you know it, clap your hands. If you have being,
• 1:27:05
  Speaker 1: you know and your face are really short. If you
• 1:27:07
  Speaker 1: have being, you know it, clap your hands. Does it? Now?
• 1:27:11
  Speaker 1: I'm combining all these podcasts into one. That's why it's
• 1:27:13
  Speaker 1: probably gonna be an hour and a half because no,
• 1:27:15
  Speaker 1: ma' I only do this for thirty minutes. But what
• 1:27:18
  Speaker 1: I want people I understand is if you're really happy,
• 1:27:23
  Speaker 1: then boredom comes with that. Boredom is I ain't got
• 1:27:28
  Speaker 1: no problems, I ain't in no pain, I'm at peace,
• 1:27:33
  Speaker 1: I have tranquility, and it's a non negotiable. Now does
• 1:27:38
  Speaker 1: it mean you're actually bored? No, because guess what you're
• 1:27:42
  Speaker 1: doing Where everybody else is sitting up here stressing and
• 1:27:45
  Speaker 1: going through all this stuff. You travel the way out
• 1:27:47
  Speaker 1: of the world and a yah yat, you have enough
• 1:27:50
  Speaker 1: money to do whatever it is that you want to
• 1:27:52
  Speaker 1: and nobody knows nothing because you move in silence any more.
• 1:27:55
  Speaker 1: The words of seven the lost problem. You enjoying your life.
• 1:28:02
  Speaker 1: So just because y'all you got money, you are very successful.
• 1:28:07
  Speaker 1: You've maintained your health and wellness, you have maintained your
• 1:28:10
  Speaker 1: healing and recovery, and you have a great life, and
• 1:28:15
  Speaker 1: yet you want to destroy it because you bored because
• 1:28:21
  Speaker 1: there's nothing going on. See that's what I That's how
• 1:28:24
  Speaker 1: I know you ain't. That's how I know you still
• 1:28:27
  Speaker 1: in that sodom ingamore and you still in that story
• 1:28:30
  Speaker 1: of lot phase of your life. Because why why are
• 1:28:35
  Speaker 1: you trying to cause chaos and there shouldn't be chaos
• 1:28:39
  Speaker 1: in the first place. Why are you trying to destroy
• 1:28:42
  Speaker 1: your marriage? And you act like you don't forget what
• 1:28:47
  Speaker 1: had to go through to get where you at. So
• 1:28:50
  Speaker 1: you want to cause chaos in your marriage. You want
• 1:28:54
  Speaker 1: to cause chaos and destruction in something that you said
• 1:29:00
  Speaker 1: when you made it, you didn't want to go through.
• 1:29:05
  Speaker 1: So because you see these hartlets and second bits in Jezebel,
• 1:29:08
  Speaker 1: because you see all these women that now want you
• 1:29:11
  Speaker 1: but didn't want you when you were broke, and you
• 1:29:13
  Speaker 1: act like you forgot about that, You forgot about all
• 1:29:17
  Speaker 1: the people that didn't believe in you, and now you
• 1:29:19
  Speaker 1: want to help all these people. See that's what I'm saying.
• 1:29:24
  Speaker 1: If you're a true godly person, then you understand that's
• 1:29:29
  Speaker 1: not your job. God didn't send these people the people
• 1:29:36
  Speaker 1: that's meant to be on your journey. Is why you
• 1:29:38
  Speaker 1: own it, not when you make it. Why you own it.
• 1:29:43
  Speaker 1: Those are people supposed to be with you when you
• 1:29:44
  Speaker 1: make it. So, yes you are supposed to have a
• 1:29:47
  Speaker 1: boring life. Yes you are supposed to have a life
• 1:29:50
  Speaker 1: that doesn't have all the chaos you're supposed to have
• 1:29:53
  Speaker 1: a life like that. It is supposed to be born.
• 1:29:56
  Speaker 1: But it's not boring in the way that you think
• 1:29:59
  Speaker 1: it means. It means you have no problems. You're healthy,
• 1:30:05
  Speaker 1: you got a great wife, great husband, beautiful kids. Y'all travel,
• 1:30:10
  Speaker 1: you see the world, you got money, you're doing well.
• 1:30:13
  Speaker 1: Why do you want to play Russian roulette with Harlet's
• 1:30:16
  Speaker 1: jes bills and subjects. Why do y'all want to destroy
• 1:30:23
  Speaker 1: a life that you worked hard for to have peace,
• 1:30:28
  Speaker 1: quiet and tranquility just for y'all because you're bored to
• 1:30:33
  Speaker 1: destroy it. God gave you that. God gave you exactly
• 1:30:40
  Speaker 1: what you want. Me. You said you wanted success, You
• 1:30:43
  Speaker 1: said you wanted a good woman, good man, You said
• 1:30:45
  Speaker 1: you want the kids. You got it. Now you want
• 1:30:48
  Speaker 1: to destroy it because now it's boring now because there's
• 1:30:53
  Speaker 1: nothing going on. Now, I gotta create destruction. So now
• 1:30:57
  Speaker 1: I'm going to go right back down to the gutter.
• 1:31:00
  Speaker 1: So now I'm gonna mess with drugs and alcohol because
• 1:31:03
  Speaker 1: I want to get drunk. I'm gonna do drugs. Okay,
• 1:31:09
  Speaker 1: Please please enlighten me, please, because I'm a little lost.
• 1:31:12
  Speaker 1: Please enlighten me because me me personally I like my
• 1:31:15
  Speaker 1: boring life. I do. I love it because while y'all
• 1:31:20
  Speaker 1: are going through chaos, and even though I don't have
• 1:31:24
  Speaker 1: as much money as these celebrities, which I really don't,
• 1:31:28
  Speaker 1: but I have the one thing they don't have, peace
• 1:31:32
  Speaker 1: and quiet and tranquility. I wake up every morning and
• 1:31:39
  Speaker 1: I'm blessed I can go January. I'll be on a cruise.
• 1:31:43
  Speaker 1: I lose my Joha January ninth, and yet I'll be
• 1:31:48
  Speaker 1: on a cruise January twenty third. And guess what I'm
• 1:31:52
  Speaker 1: gonna do. I'm gonna be on that cruise on January
• 1:31:55
  Speaker 1: twenty third. I'm going to enjoy myself out. Does that
• 1:32:01
  Speaker 1: mean I'm gonna go on there and spend a bunch
• 1:32:02
  Speaker 1: of money. Nope, it just means I'm gonna get on
• 1:32:05
  Speaker 1: that boat and have mail get on time. May not
• 1:32:08
  Speaker 1: be able to spend as much money as I would
• 1:32:09
  Speaker 1: like to, but it's okay. I can go to the buffet,
• 1:32:14
  Speaker 1: I can get off, buy mail a couple of things,
• 1:32:16
  Speaker 1: and come back and get the Internet package. May shaw,
• 1:32:20
  Speaker 1: I don't get sick, come back and get back on it.
• 1:32:26
  Speaker 1: Because here's the thing. God is leading me somewhere. God
• 1:32:31
  Speaker 1: is leading me to kaching. God is God. That tell God,
• 1:32:34
  Speaker 1: I'm tired of the rug being pulled from up under me.
• 1:32:37
  Speaker 1: I don't want the rugb being pulled from up under
• 1:32:39
  Speaker 1: me no more. I'm tired of being the rub being
• 1:32:42
  Speaker 1: pulled from u under me. I don't want it. So again.
• 1:32:48
  Speaker 1: You can sit there all day long and pray, but
• 1:32:52
  Speaker 1: if if you want God to give you what you want,
• 1:32:55
  Speaker 1: then you gonna have to understand what boredom means with that.
• 1:33:00
  Speaker 1: When God give you peace, don't bring chaos. Don't allow
• 1:33:05
  Speaker 1: chaos to come in your life. That's why people didn't
• 1:33:09
  Speaker 1: understand Sinners. I did. I understood what Sinners meant. The
• 1:33:14
  Speaker 1: movie Centers was not just about vampires. It's about who
• 1:33:19
  Speaker 1: you let come into your world in whatever stage that
• 1:33:22
  Speaker 1: you in and destroy it. You went through all of
• 1:33:27
  Speaker 1: this to hell to be with the same type of men,
• 1:33:30
  Speaker 1: same type of women, go through the same type of nonsense.
• 1:33:33
  Speaker 1: So is it the environment that could be your issue? Yep.
• 1:33:40
  Speaker 1: But you're letting people in that's giving you spiritual warfare.
• 1:33:44
  Speaker 1: You're letting people in with a bunch of chaos. That's
• 1:33:47
  Speaker 1: a hurricane coming into your house and destroying everything. You're
• 1:33:53
  Speaker 1: bringing in typhoons and tsunonymis, you're bringing in a bunch
• 1:33:59
  Speaker 1: of vampires. Because that's why I don't have a welcome message.
• 1:34:04
  Speaker 1: Mine says, you calling text first. When you have sex
• 1:34:10
  Speaker 1: with people soul tides, you're consuming stuff that's destroying you.
• 1:34:16
  Speaker 1: In the same same logic, I can consume stuff now
• 1:34:21
  Speaker 1: and will never act on it. Ever, we'll never act
• 1:34:24
  Speaker 1: on it. Why because I don't want you. If a
• 1:34:29
  Speaker 1: man tells me he's having sex with other women, no,
• 1:34:33
  Speaker 1: you're not my person because your community. You know what.
• 1:34:38
  Speaker 1: I am not fighting over any man that got most women.
• 1:34:42
  Speaker 1: I'm not gonna be with a man that's with most women.
• 1:34:44
  Speaker 1: And I stand on that, and I won't because, like
• 1:34:48
  Speaker 1: I told a friend of mine, I have cleansed myself
• 1:34:51
  Speaker 1: internally of illnesses. I'm not going back to being sick.
• 1:34:56
  Speaker 1: So men lose their value in between their legs when
• 1:35:01
  Speaker 1: they sleep with more than one. Woman know differently than
• 1:35:03
  Speaker 1: women do. What makes men different? So y'all got to
• 1:35:09
  Speaker 1: stop with this. Men and women are different. No, they're
• 1:35:13
  Speaker 1: not not going to come to y'all choice decisions. Actually behavior,
• 1:35:16
  Speaker 1: it ain't. You're the same, but it comes to the think, think,
• 1:35:19
  Speaker 1: and process y'all are the same. Men and women are
• 1:35:22
  Speaker 1: the same. We are not raised different when they come
• 1:35:25
  Speaker 1: to thinking processes. We're only raised different when it comes
• 1:35:29
  Speaker 1: to being boys and girls. Far as feminine and masculine,
• 1:35:33
  Speaker 1: that's about it. But there are women that are more
• 1:35:37
  Speaker 1: masculine than men. The gay community is the evidence of that.
• 1:35:43
  Speaker 1: The gay community contradicts a lot of stuff. But that's
• 1:35:47
  Speaker 1: the reason they don't like the gay community. They don't
• 1:35:50
  Speaker 1: like the gay community because the gay community contradicts heterosexuals
• 1:35:55
  Speaker 1: when it comes to male and female. When it comes
• 1:35:58
  Speaker 1: to the whymazon and the X chromosome, men and women
• 1:36:04
  Speaker 1: both have the Y and X chromosome. We both do.
• 1:36:08
  Speaker 1: So there are times where women, if they don't have
• 1:36:11
  Speaker 1: a man, is going to have to feed into their masculinity.
• 1:36:15
  Speaker 1: And there are times that there are men that don't
• 1:36:17
  Speaker 1: have a woman that has to feed into their feminine So,
• 1:36:22
  Speaker 1: I don't know what y'all be talking about. Have tom
• 1:36:25
  Speaker 1: So there are times that you're gonna be alone, that
• 1:36:27
  Speaker 1: you're gonna be doing male and female roles, so you're
• 1:36:31
  Speaker 1: gonna be in both. And then there're gonna be times
• 1:36:34
  Speaker 1: where if you're if you have a man or a woman,
• 1:36:36
  Speaker 1: or you're married, then you'll have that masculine. But the
• 1:36:41
  Speaker 1: reason why it's hard to give up that masculinity as
• 1:36:45
  Speaker 1: a woman is because you've been hurt so many times,
• 1:36:47
  Speaker 1: disappointed so many times. You scared. If you give that
• 1:36:51
  Speaker 1: up and give up your independence, you gonna pick rock bottom.
• 1:36:56
  Speaker 1: See that part rock bottom? Do you know how I mean?
• 1:37:00
  Speaker 1: People hit rock bottom because they let somebody take away
• 1:37:03
  Speaker 1: their independence, then being self sufficient, because you gonna be
• 1:37:07
  Speaker 1: take care of pick me, pick me. See that's the
• 1:37:10
  Speaker 1: thing y'all don't understand. There is a rock bottom. I
• 1:37:14
  Speaker 1: hit rock bottom. I've had the rock pulled.
• 1:37:16
  Speaker 3: From up under me so many times it is not
• 1:37:18
  Speaker 3: even funny how much the rock has been pulled from
• 1:37:20
  Speaker 3: a f under me, not because of what I did,
• 1:37:23
  Speaker 3: but just because that person didn't want me no more,
• 1:37:26
  Speaker 3: or because they got whatever it was that they want.
• 1:37:29
  Speaker 1: When you go back and look at how much money
• 1:37:32
  Speaker 1: you have spent taking care of peace, you gonna be
• 1:37:34
  Speaker 1: pissed off. Some of y'all gonna be mad, some of
• 1:37:37
  Speaker 1: y'all gonna black. You gave a half million dollars of people,
• 1:37:40
  Speaker 1: Then you ain't never gonna see that money no more.
• 1:37:42
  Speaker 1: You ain't never gonna see it. So when healing your recovery,
• 1:37:46
  Speaker 1: it's accepting things for what they are and what you
• 1:37:50
  Speaker 1: allow people to do to you. That's the part that's
• 1:37:53
  Speaker 1: gonna hit home. That's the part that's gonna make you mad.
• 1:37:57
  Speaker 1: That's the part that's gonna be have you crime. That's
• 1:37:59
  Speaker 1: the part that's gonna having a deep depression because you
• 1:38:02
  Speaker 1: ain't gonna you gonna say you're stupid. No, you were
• 1:38:04
  Speaker 1: just a fool. You weren't stupid. You were just a
• 1:38:07
  Speaker 1: fool like it is in the Bible when the Bible
• 1:38:11
  Speaker 1: talks about a fool. You just believed that. James Scott Farron.
• 1:38:19
  Speaker 1: I want what I want. I don't care who and
• 1:38:21
  Speaker 1: what I have to destroy to get it. I don't
• 1:38:24
  Speaker 1: care what negative things did I do or whether I
• 1:38:26
  Speaker 1: have to go against God to go get it. I'm
• 1:38:28
  Speaker 1: just gonna do it. But not once did you say,
• 1:38:33
  Speaker 1: was God the one that gave it to you? Does
• 1:38:36
  Speaker 1: God want this person in your life? Didn't even think
• 1:38:38
  Speaker 1: they asked that question, did you? No? You didn't. You
• 1:38:44
  Speaker 1: don't even know if God won't you to even go
• 1:38:46
  Speaker 1: in this direction or not. You don't know because you're
• 1:38:49
  Speaker 1: never asked not once have I again, Not once in
• 1:38:53
  Speaker 1: any prayer has I have I heard somebody say, show
• 1:38:58
  Speaker 1: me truth through your eyes. Yes, walk with me down
• 1:39:03
  Speaker 1: this path. I'll leave. Use the chesty cat because the
• 1:39:06
  Speaker 1: chest shy cat represents God and the rabbit represents the death. Okay,
• 1:39:13
  Speaker 1: let me break down. Alice wanted to laugh for y'all,
• 1:39:15
  Speaker 1: so it makes sense. Alice in Wonderland is really about
• 1:39:20
  Speaker 1: choices and decisions, and it's about a double edged sword.
• 1:39:27
  Speaker 1: Even though Alice's intentions of why she went down that
• 1:39:31
  Speaker 1: rabbit hole was commendable. The rabbit did drop his watch,
• 1:39:38
  Speaker 1: she did want to return it. But the problem is
• 1:39:43
  Speaker 1: you didn't know where the rabbit was going, why the
• 1:39:47
  Speaker 1: rabb was going down there? What is down the rabbit hole?
• 1:39:51
  Speaker 1: You just went down there when you could have held
• 1:39:54
  Speaker 1: on to the watch, waited until the next time you
• 1:39:57
  Speaker 1: saw him and sent here his watch. But see, no,
• 1:40:02
  Speaker 1: you want to know what's down that rab hole. So
• 1:40:05
  Speaker 1: she went down the rab hole. And when she did
• 1:40:08
  Speaker 1: went down the rabbit hole, first everything was fine and
• 1:40:10
  Speaker 1: everything was beautiful. You know, it's just like that song
• 1:40:15
  Speaker 1: if somebody loves me, everything is beautiful that bart if
• 1:40:20
  Speaker 1: she loves me, man, that time I hear that cry,
• 1:40:23
  Speaker 1: Every time I hear that because I cry because that
• 1:40:26
  Speaker 1: is true. It is true when you first walk into
• 1:40:31
  Speaker 1: something that's gonna beautiful when you first walk into it.
• 1:40:36
  Speaker 1: But behind that siren phase there is chaos. So you
• 1:40:43
  Speaker 1: go down the rabbit hole, and as you walk further
• 1:40:46
  Speaker 1: down in it, you got a gestion. I can't tell him,
• 1:40:49
  Speaker 1: you look turn around and go back, go back. You
• 1:40:54
  Speaker 1: don't need to be down here, go back. But I
• 1:40:57
  Speaker 1: need to give the rabbit his watch. No, I'll give
• 1:41:01
  Speaker 1: it to him. Do you know how many rep You
• 1:41:03
  Speaker 1: know how many kids probably went down that rab home
• 1:41:08
  Speaker 1: falling behind that rabbit. So Alice kept going, eat me,
• 1:41:15
  Speaker 1: drink me, big, small, going to all these different places,
• 1:41:20
  Speaker 1: has no idea that she's walking further into chaos till
• 1:41:26
  Speaker 1: she met the mad Hatter. The mad Hatter represents delusion,
• 1:41:33
  Speaker 1: because that's the one thing about the mad Hatter. It's
• 1:41:36
  Speaker 1: about your delusion and about you believing whatever it is
• 1:41:40
  Speaker 1: that you believe, and him feeding into it. So the
• 1:41:46
  Speaker 1: mad Hatter was about feeding into your hidden inhibitions, your
• 1:41:50
  Speaker 1: hidden desires, and making them happen. But it's an illusion,
• 1:41:55
  Speaker 1: it ain't real, it's temporary, it's not permanent. So as
• 1:42:00
  Speaker 1: she go home, she start firing all these little negative characters.
• 1:42:05
  Speaker 1: But when she got and finally got to that rabbit
• 1:42:09
  Speaker 1: rabbit was like, what are you doing here? Why came
• 1:42:12
  Speaker 1: to return your watch? You should have left it there.
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  Speaker 1: I didn't tell you to follow me down here, And
• 1:42:17
  Speaker 1: he's right, he didn't tell her to follow down the
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  Speaker 1: rabbit hole. She went anyway. So when the Queen of
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  Speaker 1: Hearts came, she represents consequences repercussions in karma. She was
• 1:42:28
  Speaker 1: never the villain. The Queen of Hearts was never the villain.
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  Speaker 1: Alice was because Alice behind shouldn't have went down that
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  Speaker 1: rabbit hole in the first place, but she went, she went,
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  Speaker 1: And so when the Queen of Hearts said, I'm off
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  Speaker 1: your head, that was because you should have been down
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  Speaker 1: in the first worce. And what happened the cheshire cat
• 1:42:51
  Speaker 1: is the reason she got out of it, because she
• 1:42:54
  Speaker 1: finally realized what the ches cat was trying to tell her,
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  Speaker 1: and she finally asks a chess show cat for help,
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  Speaker 1: and that's how she got out. But the whole entire
• 1:43:04
  Speaker 1: time she was down there, that chesty kept telling her,
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  Speaker 1: do you want my help? No? I got it. Finally
• 1:43:12
  Speaker 1: she didn't have no choice but to ask Chessy Cat
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  Speaker 1: to help her get out. So it's the same thing
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  Speaker 1: with God. God ain't gonna help you unless you ask.
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  Speaker 1: God is not gonna walk you through a situation unless
• 1:43:24
  Speaker 1: you ask him to. So if you if you not
• 1:43:30
  Speaker 1: asking God to walk you through from day one, from
• 1:43:33
  Speaker 1: the very beginning of it, walk you through it, or
• 1:43:36
  Speaker 1: to show you whether you should go down the path
• 1:43:38
  Speaker 1: or not, then what is the point. So it isn't
• 1:43:43
  Speaker 1: about I'm just gonna go down the path because I'm
• 1:43:45
  Speaker 1: seeing a rabbit go down a rabbit hole. I'm not
• 1:43:48
  Speaker 1: gonna be like Neo, go down the red pill, go
• 1:43:51
  Speaker 1: through a bunch of chaos that you ain't gotta go
• 1:43:52
  Speaker 1: through when you can go through the blue pill, sit
• 1:43:56
  Speaker 1: back and watch the whole situation and walk through it
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  Speaker 1: and not even be un not even be scathed. Why
• 1:44:02
  Speaker 1: because you've seen everybody else go through it. So when
• 1:44:09
  Speaker 1: it comes down to healing and recovery, it is a matrix.
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  Speaker 1: It is a rabbit hole. But it isn't about temporary solutions.
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  Speaker 1: It's about permanent solutions that you will continue to do
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  Speaker 1: the rest of your life. You may have to alter
• 1:44:27
  Speaker 1: it a little bit. You may have to change it,
• 1:44:30
  Speaker 1: may your body may adapt to it, but you've have
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  Speaker 1: a system that works. If you have to lead the
• 1:44:36
  Speaker 1: United States to be healthy, then you leave the United
• 1:44:39
  Speaker 1: States to be healthy. If you gotta go to the
• 1:44:42
  Speaker 1: United States and out the United States and go somewhere
• 1:44:45
  Speaker 1: to go get health care, and that's what you got
• 1:44:47
  Speaker 1: to do. So if you really determined to get healthy,
• 1:44:52
  Speaker 1: then that's what you're gonna do. If you determined to
• 1:44:56
  Speaker 1: remain healthy, then you're gonna do all the things that
• 1:44:58
  Speaker 1: you're supposed to do to be healthy. There is no
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  Speaker 1: temporary solution because the only thing that's gonna happen is
• 1:45:07
  Speaker 1: you're gonna go right back the way you started because
• 1:45:10
  Speaker 1: you're not gonna know how to maintain it. Anybody can
• 1:45:13
  Speaker 1: lose weight, but can you maintain it weight. There are
• 1:45:16
  Speaker 1: people that go get gas or bypass surgery and end
• 1:45:18
  Speaker 1: up having heart attacks and have more issues the more
• 1:45:21
  Speaker 1: weight they lost, because all the issues you had hid
• 1:45:25
  Speaker 1: behind weight. So don't think because you lose weight that
• 1:45:29
  Speaker 1: you're not gonna have issues. And don't think because somebody
• 1:45:32
  Speaker 1: looks healthy that they're not healthy mentally or any other aspect.
• 1:45:36
  Speaker 1: They may be physically healthy, but that does not mean
• 1:45:39
  Speaker 1: they're mentally healthy, or emotionally healthy, or psychologically healthy, or
• 1:45:43
  Speaker 1: financially healthy, or relationship healthy. Healthy is not just your weight.
• 1:45:51
  Speaker 1: Healthy is all the way around. So if you able
• 1:45:56
  Speaker 1: to deal with stress, and you're able to say accept
• 1:46:00
  Speaker 1: things for what they are, accept rejection for what it is,
• 1:46:04
  Speaker 1: accept your flaws and turn them into strengths. Don't worry
• 1:46:08
  Speaker 1: about your embarrassing moments, just laugh about it, and most importantly,
• 1:46:13
  Speaker 1: don't let nobody break the self estece self work and
• 1:46:15
  Speaker 1: self value, self respect, self conscious self confidence, and believe
• 1:46:19
  Speaker 1: in me so even when nobody else does so. Healing
• 1:46:25
  Speaker 1: and recovery is not simple. Addiction is not just going
• 1:46:29
  Speaker 1: to rehab It acts as a lot more to it
• 1:46:32
  Speaker 1: than that. There are stages. There are twelve stages, and
• 1:46:37
  Speaker 1: those stages are harder than the next. So even though yes,
• 1:46:43
  Speaker 1: I am still going through my internal healing, but I'm
• 1:46:49
  Speaker 1: better than what I was and have been for years.
• 1:46:54
  Speaker 1: Am I coming out of my cocoon hibernation and isolation stage. Yes,
• 1:47:02
  Speaker 1: But when I come into the world, I am well
• 1:47:04
  Speaker 1: aware of what the world is. I am well aware
• 1:47:09
  Speaker 1: that I can't change other people. I can only change me.
• 1:47:12
  Speaker 1: I am well aware that when I get in that
• 1:47:16
  Speaker 1: car there are people that can't drive. I am well
• 1:47:20
  Speaker 1: aware of the times that I need to go out
• 1:47:22
  Speaker 1: in one time I need to stay behind the house.
• 1:47:26
  Speaker 1: I am well aware of the fact the truth about
• 1:47:28
  Speaker 1: these jobs or tu buy society, the truth about government.
• 1:47:33
  Speaker 1: Why because God showed me all of that. So now
• 1:47:36
  Speaker 1: I see what's going on. It's just like everything that's
• 1:47:38
  Speaker 1: going on with all of this stuff, as far as
• 1:47:43
  Speaker 1: you know, paying putting stuff on your credit, them trying
• 1:47:47
  Speaker 1: to garnish your wages. The only thing that's gonna happen
• 1:47:51
  Speaker 1: is nobody's gonna be able pay for nothing. Everybody gonna
• 1:47:53
  Speaker 1: be broken, everybody gon be homes. This what's gonna happen.
• 1:47:56
  Speaker 1: What's gonna happen is is that people are gonna have
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  Speaker 1: to wake up and realize they're either going to have
• 1:48:01
  Speaker 1: to stop they don't have to live within their means,
• 1:48:04
  Speaker 1: meaning you're gonna have to get rid of some things,
• 1:48:06
  Speaker 1: which means you may have to get rid of social media,
• 1:48:10
  Speaker 1: you may have to get rid of a lot of
• 1:48:11
  Speaker 1: things to pay off your student loans. So here's a
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  Speaker 1: kicker to it. All they doing stuff not thinking about
• 1:48:18
  Speaker 1: the consequences of it. So let me break down what
• 1:48:22
  Speaker 1: happens if everybody in the United States stops shopping. And
• 1:48:26
  Speaker 1: I'm not talking about your groceries, your necessities, but if
• 1:48:30
  Speaker 1: y'all stop shopping, if y'all stop buying all this expensive stuff,
• 1:48:35
  Speaker 1: and y'all were to shop rationally, meaning you go to roses,
• 1:48:40
  Speaker 1: you go to these discount of stores, you get everything,
• 1:48:44
  Speaker 1: all the clothes you need. And let's just say you
• 1:48:48
  Speaker 1: have clothes that last you for three years. Let's say
• 1:48:53
  Speaker 1: nobody shops except for the necessities. You go ahead on
• 1:48:59
  Speaker 1: and you turn in your car, turn in your car,
• 1:49:04
  Speaker 1: and you and you stay home. Nobody works, Everybody stay home.
• 1:49:12
  Speaker 1: Nobody's at work, everybody's stay home. So let's say you
• 1:49:19
  Speaker 1: go to work. Let's say while you're working, you're building something, right,
• 1:49:24
  Speaker 1: whether you be writing a book, whether it be clothing, sewing,
• 1:49:28
  Speaker 1: whatever it is that you're doing. So now you are
• 1:49:32
  Speaker 1: creating while you're working, creating a chop of fy TikTok whatever.
• 1:49:39
  Speaker 1: And now you're selling your products. You don't tell your
• 1:49:43
  Speaker 1: job that you're doing it. You don't even use your
• 1:49:46
  Speaker 1: government name. Just sell your products. That's it now, you're
• 1:49:51
  Speaker 1: making twenty thousand dollars a month. You wait about two
• 1:49:55
  Speaker 1: years and you maintain that, then quit your job. Now
• 1:50:02
  Speaker 1: you move in silence. If everybody stopped going to concerts,
• 1:50:07
  Speaker 1: If everybody, if everybody, the only thing they did was
• 1:50:12
  Speaker 1: travel outside of the United States, meaning you don't travel
• 1:50:16
  Speaker 1: nowhere in the United States at all, not New York,
• 1:50:19
  Speaker 1: none of that. You just travel at least once a year.
• 1:50:23
  Speaker 1: Let's just say you start paying fifty dollars on your
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  Speaker 1: student loans. They can't say it's in default. If you're
• 1:50:30
  Speaker 1: paying fifty dollars a month. If that's all you got,
• 1:50:33
  Speaker 1: that's all you got, that's it. You can only pay
• 1:50:36
  Speaker 1: what you can. They can do whatever. But here's the thing.
• 1:50:41
  Speaker 1: When you pass away and they give your kids, give
• 1:50:46
  Speaker 1: your death certificate, they write all that stuff off. See
• 1:50:50
  Speaker 1: that part. Let me tell y'all. I notice I know
• 1:50:52
  Speaker 1: this because I'm a medical billy. You have no idea
• 1:50:56
  Speaker 1: how much stuff they write off. So I'm gonna go
• 1:50:58
  Speaker 1: ahead and tell y'all some very uncom truth here. Number One,
• 1:51:02
  Speaker 1: when you die they write it off. It don't go
• 1:51:03
  Speaker 1: to your kids. They can't put it down to your kids.
• 1:51:07
  Speaker 1: Dad be like saying you know, for example, my dad's house,
• 1:51:10
  Speaker 1: which we we financed, and let's say he passed away,
• 1:51:14
  Speaker 1: God forbid. I hope people have another twenty years. But
• 1:51:16
  Speaker 1: if that's not the case, let's just say, for example,
• 1:51:19
  Speaker 1: the house. The house is not in my name, the
• 1:51:22
  Speaker 1: house is not in my sister's name, the house is
• 1:51:24
  Speaker 1: not in my mother's name. If we don't refinance that house,
• 1:51:28
  Speaker 1: the house goes back, It goes back to the bank.
• 1:51:33
  Speaker 1: The house is gone. All my daddy's credit. We send
• 1:51:38
  Speaker 1: it back saying he's dead. They have to write it off.
• 1:51:41
  Speaker 1: It does not go down to your kids. I remember
• 1:51:44
  Speaker 1: they tried to say, with my student loans that it
• 1:51:47
  Speaker 1: would go to my son, and I said, how's it
• 1:51:48
  Speaker 1: gonna go to my son he's autistic. Well, it'll be
• 1:51:51
  Speaker 1: just going to the person that take care of him.
• 1:51:53
  Speaker 1: You can't do that. That's against the law. They can't
• 1:51:55
  Speaker 1: do that. They are playing y'all faces. And here's you
• 1:52:02
  Speaker 1: have an option, and it's a very simple option. Move. Move.
• 1:52:12
  Speaker 1: If you move out of the country and you become
• 1:52:16
  Speaker 1: a citizen somewhere else, your debt is gone. You don't
• 1:52:21
  Speaker 1: have to pay it. You're no longer and you're no
• 1:52:23
  Speaker 1: longer a citizen. It's just like all these people that
• 1:52:27
  Speaker 1: get that left the United States. You think they didn't
• 1:52:29
  Speaker 1: leave with debt. All these people are going the ice
• 1:52:33
  Speaker 1: is being kicked out. You think they not they don't
• 1:52:35
  Speaker 1: have debt. Of course they do. But because they're kicking
• 1:52:39
  Speaker 1: them out the United States, and because they're not a
• 1:52:41
  Speaker 1: US citizen, then that debt they collect it doesn't matter.
• 1:52:47
  Speaker 1: Here's also the kicker. Black people are not citizens because
• 1:52:51
  Speaker 1: we've never done all this stuff to become citizens. We're
• 1:52:55
  Speaker 1: technically not citizens. That part again, checkers. That's why information
• 1:53:05
  Speaker 1: is so important. There are ways around this system that
• 1:53:11
  Speaker 1: I can sit there and tell you about all they more.
• 1:53:13
  Speaker 1: There are ways to make money that you don't even
• 1:53:15
  Speaker 1: have to even you don't even have to, in all
• 1:53:18
  Speaker 1: honesty go and even register for taxes if you don't
• 1:53:21
  Speaker 1: want to. You can sell products and not even have
• 1:53:26
  Speaker 1: have to worry about it. You can get an LLC.
• 1:53:29
  Speaker 1: And like I said, all it is is the reason
• 1:53:36
  Speaker 1: they don't want to get rid of it is because
• 1:53:38
  Speaker 1: that will give people the chance to move. They don't
• 1:53:41
  Speaker 1: want you to elevate, They don't want you to evolve,
• 1:53:44
  Speaker 1: they don't want you to grow and They don't want
• 1:53:46
  Speaker 1: you to evolve, they elevate, evolve and grow. They don't
• 1:53:48
  Speaker 1: want you to They say they do, but they don't.
• 1:53:54
  Speaker 1: You're not You're not getting the tools that you need
• 1:53:57
  Speaker 1: to survive. And the only gonna get those tools is
• 1:54:00
  Speaker 1: if you buy yourself and you do your own research,
• 1:54:03
  Speaker 1: Like when you turn eighteen. The whole goal is for
• 1:54:07
  Speaker 1: you to be able to figure out if what your
• 1:54:09
  Speaker 1: parents taught you was right. It's about going to therapy
• 1:54:13
  Speaker 1: and getting help from your family issues and healing from that.
• 1:54:19
  Speaker 1: Then you can focus on marriage. Then you can focus
• 1:54:21
  Speaker 1: on all these things. But until you deal with your
• 1:54:24
  Speaker 1: family issues, you can't have a relationship with anybody else.
• 1:54:27
  Speaker 1: And I know it sounds crazy, but this is what
• 1:54:30
  Speaker 1: I learned in my own journey. So there will be
• 1:54:34
  Speaker 1: people that will be alone the rest of their lives
• 1:54:37
  Speaker 1: because they're never gonna be chosen. They're gonna be sea fillers,
• 1:54:41
  Speaker 1: they're gonna be Captain Saberholds, they're gonna be you know,
• 1:54:44
  Speaker 1: people for eaither than save fillers. But they're never gonna
• 1:54:48
  Speaker 1: be chosen for who they are. Society is about the external,
• 1:54:53
  Speaker 1: not about the internal. They don't care about the internal.
• 1:54:57
  Speaker 1: They will destroy the internal because the external is easier
• 1:55:02
  Speaker 1: to control than the internal. You can control somebody's feelings,
• 1:55:06
  Speaker 1: but you can't control somebody's mind. So if a person
• 1:55:11
  Speaker 1: is a thinker and a person is somebody that always
• 1:55:15
  Speaker 1: thinks all the time, you can't easily manipulate them. But
• 1:55:19
  Speaker 1: if that person has been through a lot of trauma,
• 1:55:23
  Speaker 1: then they can be manipulated because they want love, even
• 1:55:27
  Speaker 1: though they're very intelligent, even though they have critical thinking,
• 1:55:30
  Speaker 1: common sense in common judgment, but because that person is
• 1:55:35
  Speaker 1: feeding into those feelings, and they feed into that because
• 1:55:38
  Speaker 1: even though that person doesn't trust that person completely or
• 1:55:42
  Speaker 1: they don't trust them, they don't trust them to the
• 1:55:47
  Speaker 1: point of where they're completely trusting, they still trust them enough.
• 1:55:53
  Speaker 1: So if a person that is a thinker has been
• 1:55:56
  Speaker 1: through a lot as a kid, and a person find
• 1:56:00
  Speaker 1: takes a weakness like that and they use it against
• 1:56:03
  Speaker 1: you as a weapon, yes they can. They can take
• 1:56:06
  Speaker 1: you down for that. That's how most people get a
• 1:56:09
  Speaker 1: thinker because when we start talking about our past, I
• 1:56:15
  Speaker 1: always tell a person repeat that what I just said.
• 1:56:19
  Speaker 1: The reason I have to repeat that what I said
• 1:56:21
  Speaker 1: is because by then repeating back what I said, that
• 1:56:23
  Speaker 1: means that they heard what I said. If they didn't,
• 1:56:28
  Speaker 1: then I know that's not my person because I just
• 1:56:31
  Speaker 1: wasted my time telling you about my past and yet
• 1:56:34
  Speaker 1: and still you didn't listen. And the reason they didn't
• 1:56:38
  Speaker 1: listen because that's what they're gonna use against you, to
• 1:56:40
  Speaker 1: throw it back in your face. That's just what they're
• 1:56:43
  Speaker 1: gonna do. So there's a lot in this. So I
• 1:56:48
  Speaker 1: combined it all of my podcasts to do this episode.
• 1:56:52
  Speaker 1: That's why it's so long. Norly I'll do one, but
• 1:56:55
  Speaker 1: because I wanted to incorporate all my podcast into this episode,
• 1:57:03
  Speaker 1: because each podcast deals with one of these issues. But
• 1:57:09
  Speaker 1: in the end, it's not about how you fall, asify
• 1:57:12
  Speaker 1: how you rise. But I am getting ready to get
• 1:57:15
  Speaker 1: some sleep.
• 1:57:16
  Speaker 4: Because I am sick. I do not feel good and
• 1:57:21
  Speaker 4: I need to sweat this out, this thing. I need
• 1:57:24
  Speaker 4: to go downstairs an send the drink because I'm dehydrated.
• 1:57:27
  Speaker 1: So I love y'all. I appreciate y'all. Without y'all, there
• 1:57:32
  Speaker 1: is no mean I'll be absolutely nothing without y'all. And
• 1:57:35
  Speaker 1: I appreciate y'all more than words could ever ever ever say.
• 1:57:41
  Speaker 1: And like I said, my podcast is on speaker dot com.
• 1:57:45
  Speaker 1: iHeartRadio Amazon, Google, Spotify, and multiple other streaming companies. I
• 1:57:54
  Speaker 1: am a certified recovery life coach about helping people in
• 1:57:57
  Speaker 1: their past and their journeys to a new and better
• 1:58:00
  Speaker 1: version of you, and all my podcasts are all about
• 1:58:04
  Speaker 1: healing and recovery and addiction. Also, if you want one
• 1:58:09
  Speaker 1: on one coaching, want me to promote products for on
• 1:58:12
  Speaker 1: my channel, your guest on my podcast, or you resonate
• 1:58:17
  Speaker 1: with these podcasts and you send me an email, you
• 1:58:20
  Speaker 1: can send me an email at a s h A
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  Speaker 1: dot M A r I A M A zero one
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  Speaker 1: at gmail dot com. This's a s h A dot
• 1:58:29
  Speaker 1: M A r I A M A zero one at
• 1:58:32
  Speaker 1: gmail dot com. So I don't do my podcasts all
• 1:58:39
  Speaker 1: on the same one podcast because, like I said, I
• 1:58:43
  Speaker 1: like to separate them because each healing process for each
• 1:58:47
  Speaker 1: one is different. They're not the same mental, psychological, emotional, spiritual,
• 1:58:55
  Speaker 1: financial relationships and health and wellness internally and externally is
• 1:59:03
  Speaker 1: not the same. They're all different. The way you go
• 1:59:06
  Speaker 1: about healing for each one is different. All ten of
• 1:59:10
  Speaker 1: them is different. The last two that I haven't done
• 1:59:13
  Speaker 1: yet is what happens when you heal from alternities? What
• 1:59:18
  Speaker 1: is that new version of you gonna look like, and
• 1:59:20
  Speaker 1: I ain't done that yet. I'm not doing that right
• 1:59:24
  Speaker 1: now because right now I want to get people in
• 1:59:27
  Speaker 1: a place of healing, but not only healing, but maintaining
• 1:59:31
  Speaker 1: the healing, maintaining what you've learned, maintaining doing the right thing,
• 1:59:37
  Speaker 1: maintaining your purpose, your path, and a journey of what
• 1:59:39
  Speaker 1: it is that you're meant to do. So with that
• 1:59:42
  Speaker 1: being said, I love y'all. I appreciate y'all. Without y'all,
• 1:59:48
  Speaker 1: there is no mean I'll be absolutely nothing without y'all.
• 1:59:52
  Speaker 1: So with that being said, until next time, I will
• 1:59:55
  Speaker 1: talk to you guys later. Hopefully when I talk to
• 1:59:59
  Speaker 1: y'all next time, I'll be feeling better. There are some
• 2:00:02
  Speaker 1: upcoming podcasts, so I definitely am gonna be excited for
• 2:00:10
  Speaker 1: you guys hearing some free conversations and actual podcast conversations,
• 2:00:14
  Speaker 1: so I'm looking forward to that. I'm looking forward to
• 2:00:17
  Speaker 1: twenty twenty six doing motivational speaking events, teaching, coaching, training,
• 2:00:23
  Speaker 1: stuff like that. Looking forward to it. So with that
• 2:00:26
  Speaker 1: being said, I will see you guys later. Until next time,
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  Speaker 1: We'll talk soon. B