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She Lost Her Period for a Year... Here’s What Finally Healed Her | Carlijn Krijger | Willow Healing Matters · Willow Healing Matters Podcast

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SPEAKER_02: welcome to willowhealing matters the podcast we are so excited
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SPEAKER_03: hey everybody it's katherine cristani with another episode of willow healing matters
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SPEAKER_03: and today i am joined by the beautiful carolyn krieger carolyn has been obsessed
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SPEAKER_03: with health and taking care of bodies from a very young age as a child however
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SPEAKER_03: at 20 she started to have her own issues her period disappeared for
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SPEAKER_03: a year her libido was gone a sudden anxiety kicked in so bad she isolated herself
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SPEAKER_03: from almost any social event
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SPEAKER_03: she had rashes over her face and no matter what she ate she'd always be bloated
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SPEAKER_03: and tired meanwhile on
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SPEAKER_03: the outside it looked like she had everything together she was modeling getting good
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SPEAKER_03: grades in medical university of course the aesthetically pleasing meals
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SPEAKER_03: on instagram couldn't miss after reading plus 40 self-development books spending
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SPEAKER_03: over 30 000 on her health and own development she was able
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SPEAKER_03: to completely heal her body and now and after
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SPEAKER_03: a huge comeback spiritually she's helping other women heal their bodies too
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SPEAKER_03: and get something she calls
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SPEAKER_03: superwoman health so a big welcome to the show carolyn hello hello i'm so happy
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SPEAKER_03: to be here finally i know i know thank you for waiting so beautifully and patiently
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SPEAKER_03: for this time to be connected i'm super happy to be here well
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SPEAKER_03: the first question i have for you carolyn is
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SPEAKER_03: tell us a bit more about your journey because i know what it's like
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SPEAKER_03: to look like you have a perfect life on the outside and inside there's so much going
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SPEAKER_03: on but obviously all the health things compiling on top of each other like that
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SPEAKER_03: where where did you end up going what happened
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SPEAKER_00: so it wasn't it was it was actually very interesting
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SPEAKER_00: when i look back i didn't notice the decline that i was going through until
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SPEAKER_00: a certain point where i was like
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SPEAKER_00: fucking shit like excuse my language but it was really like that and
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SPEAKER_00: so long story short i had a lot of trying to get out
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SPEAKER_00: and trying things trying things seeing things online trying it not working
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SPEAKER_00: and it's this constant cycle i lost my period even for a year and
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SPEAKER_00: at one point i remember very well that i was back at home with my parents actually
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SPEAKER_00: because i couldn't take care of myself and
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SPEAKER_00: lost a lot of friends lost my career went down like everything just crashed
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SPEAKER_00: and i remember me fighting with my mom over some tasks i wanted to do
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SPEAKER_00: when she didn't want to do it or help me or whatever i was a teenager at
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SPEAKER_00: the time yes and at that point in time i was like i just gotta say it and go
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SPEAKER_00: and that's where i decided i go to spain
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SPEAKER_00: because i wasn't i wasn't i'm from the netherlands yes which is kind of cold country
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SPEAKER_00: and i was cold and i was and i just wanted it would be nice to go to the sun and
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SPEAKER_00: that point in time i already did a lot of detoxes and i felt a lot better from
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SPEAKER_00: that i felt mentally clear i felt like i could do something and
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SPEAKER_00: i had a lot of improvements
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SPEAKER_00: but i still didn't have my period back i still felt super swingy
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SPEAKER_00: in my moods one time i would be calm yeah next time i would be screaming with anger
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SPEAKER_00: and like it was not me at all like it was so weird and uh
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SPEAKER_00: so i said i don't care i just go and so i went
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SPEAKER_00: for like two months i had some friends over there and i just visited them and
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SPEAKER_00: within two weeks being there my period was back
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SPEAKER_00: after a year of missing a year and so i was super confused like super happy
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SPEAKER_00: but super like what the fuck is this like i've been doing so much and nothing worked
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SPEAKER_00: and now i'm here and suddenly i have my period
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SPEAKER_00: but not only did i get my period back i felt a lot better like my skin looked
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SPEAKER_00: so much better my energy levels were
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SPEAKER_00: so much more up my hair grew thicker like everything improved and after
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SPEAKER_00: that i learned
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SPEAKER_00: the reasons why that specifically went that way so yeah
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SPEAKER_03: but that's what actually happened wow what a journey and how how scary
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SPEAKER_03: but like especially as a woman
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SPEAKER_03: the first thing normally we think is oh my god am i pregnant and
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SPEAKER_03: then you're like hang on i can't possibly be pregnant or um
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SPEAKER_03: that doesn't make sense i can't be because and then you go through that fear cycle
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SPEAKER_03: and then when it still doesn't come you're like hang
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SPEAKER_03: on it's been two months it's been three months wise and that here
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SPEAKER_03: but i love that just having following your intuition and going fuck it and move
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SPEAKER_03: into spain with your friends sometimes you just know yeah you just needed
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SPEAKER_03: the warm weather maybe it's so weird
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SPEAKER_03: the image i just got is maybe your ovaries needed to defrost that's
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SPEAKER_00: the image i got yes i'm gonna say that to other people
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SPEAKER_03: it's interesting as i had this client and she was like if she was in
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SPEAKER_03: between menopause and not having menopause like and she wasn't sure what was going
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SPEAKER_03: on and her womb when i was working
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SPEAKER_03: with her energetically her womb said we need fire we need heat it actually said
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SPEAKER_03: that we're frozen we need fire and passion back again and so for her it came through
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SPEAKER_03: as fiery food but for you you just moved to beautiful spain for
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SPEAKER_00: that time being wow how interesting
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SPEAKER_03: yeah it really really is so then so then from there you went to spain and then
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SPEAKER_03: where did the spirituality component came in so
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SPEAKER_03: that you could create superwoman health yeah
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SPEAKER_00: so i've always been quite spiritually interested like i've always known there is
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SPEAKER_00: something there and i've always found it so intriguing and i actually used it
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SPEAKER_00: to get good grades and to get what i want in medical school but
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SPEAKER_00: later so i read a lot of books and all that and that's just how i came into
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SPEAKER_00: that world and then later i learned i got to know
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SPEAKER_00: a guy he's my mentor still his name is mir ezra like everyone can know about it
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SPEAKER_00: but he has helped me crazy like he completely pulled me out of this dwindling spiral
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SPEAKER_00: and he keeps continuing to do so because once you're going up there's no limit to
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SPEAKER_00: that yes
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SPEAKER_00: so spiritualize that's what i did
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SPEAKER_00: and he helped me like no one else did very very very special person very special
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SPEAKER_00: presence but i've always had that link to spirituality for sure it was just that
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SPEAKER_00: after when i got into spain and when i started really moving myself that i had
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SPEAKER_00: the bandwidth to actually implement those things and not just read about it
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SPEAKER_03: yeah you were ready to put the theory into action rather than just idealizing
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SPEAKER_03: about it you were finally inspired and it was scary scary it was
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SPEAKER_00: so confrontational it was very very very scary i feel we've all been
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SPEAKER_03: through these moments on the other side of our spiritual journey and so
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SPEAKER_03: from there how did superwoman health come about what inspired you
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SPEAKER_03: and did you end up finishing medical school or you didn't do that
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SPEAKER_00: so medical school i was in veterinary medicine which i have the bachelor for
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SPEAKER_00: so it's usually a three years bachelor three years master to actually become
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SPEAKER_00: a veterinarian i never did the master like
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SPEAKER_00: after three years i was super sick myself i was like i don't want
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SPEAKER_00: to do this anymore they're like i knew about all of the pharmaceuticals already
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SPEAKER_00: about the
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SPEAKER_00: spiritual about the condition of mankind that's going on like i knew all
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SPEAKER_00: of these things and it was just so wrong for me to look at animals
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SPEAKER_00: and give them some pill to make them easier
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SPEAKER_00: for their owner like that's literally what you do as a veterinarian so
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SPEAKER_00: that was not what i wanted to do i wanted to really really actually help
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SPEAKER_00: and maybe i'll come back to veterinary medicine but no i didn't finish
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SPEAKER_00: the whole thing i i did finish my bachelor
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SPEAKER_00: so when i started to actually heal i had this excitement back for life and i felt it
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SPEAKER_00: in my body like i actually felt it and i don't know how to describe it
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SPEAKER_00: but it's something that's i want other people to feel i want other and i
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SPEAKER_00: the first word that came to me was superwoman like i literally felt like
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SPEAKER_00: a superwoman like i can do anything
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SPEAKER_00: i felt so powerful and yeah that's when i decided okay i need to build something
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SPEAKER_00: that that that has that name because i just love that term so much
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SPEAKER_00: and yeah it's it's really like a superman
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SPEAKER_03: so from my understanding is then it's really about coming back
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SPEAKER_03: to your authentic self right that's that's the whole point
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SPEAKER_03: so you can feel unstoppable and superwoman and everything else exactly exactly
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SPEAKER_03: so what has been a highlight that you've had carolyn with doing the work that you do
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SPEAKER_03: or some of the shifts and and changes you've seen just
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SPEAKER_03: from i guess being more curious about where your health
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SPEAKER_00: issues or disease is coming from yes so it's very interesting
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SPEAKER_00: for my observation i see more and more not just from things that i read or people
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SPEAKER_00: that things that people tell me but really for my own observation that
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SPEAKER_00: your body really mirrors your mental state it really does
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SPEAKER_00: for example i had one client with pelvic issues but with pelvic floor weakness
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SPEAKER_00: and just something there and we came to the like we looked at it together
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SPEAKER_00: and she realized that she was actually not supporting herself
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SPEAKER_00: so she was constantly relying on other people to support her
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SPEAKER_00: and she was not supporting herself so
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SPEAKER_00: for me this pelvic floor was really like a physical manifestation of her not having
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SPEAKER_00: the support because it's basically the the baseline yes it's it's something
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SPEAKER_00: that supports all of the organs on top and it was just so interesting to me
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SPEAKER_00: or this other person that she came to me yes i really have
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SPEAKER_00: to lose weight i really have to that's the way that she said it already i have
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SPEAKER_00: to lose weight and i asked her a couple questions and
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SPEAKER_00: what came up is that for her entire childhood her dad had told her you have
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SPEAKER_00: to lose weight he made her go to the gym he really forced her and since
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SPEAKER_00: the spirit wants to be at cause she said no way that i'm losing weight i don't want
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SPEAKER_00: to lose weight just because you tell me i have to do it now i don't want to do it
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SPEAKER_00: and she
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SPEAKER_00: catherine i swear to you she was on things like ozampic or manjaro
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SPEAKER_00: or any like actual drugs nothing will work for her to lose weight
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SPEAKER_00: and i see more examples of that like yes the physical stuff helps but
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SPEAKER_00: if you really have a problem in the body it's always
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SPEAKER_03: from my observation it's always mental the underlying emotional component
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SPEAKER_03: to what's happened and even i know for me personally that even accidents
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SPEAKER_03: so like you break
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SPEAKER_03: uh a bone or something like that people put it down to coincidence
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SPEAKER_03: when it's like no you've created this because your body needed to scream at you
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SPEAKER_03: because you truly weren't listening to what was going on underneath and let me guess
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SPEAKER_03: when she started to support herself more the weight fell off because she didn't have
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SPEAKER_00: to be as protective yes those were two different people yes
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SPEAKER_00: but two different people yeah with the support yes once you realize you know
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SPEAKER_00: and there's no way that you can subconsciously be
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SPEAKER_00: a robot like automatically reacting to that pattern
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SPEAKER_00: because you've seen you've seen it like there's no way that it can control you
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SPEAKER_00: so there's like an immediate improvement yes there's people
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SPEAKER_00: that lose two kilograms overnight yeah yeah a lot of people don't realize
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SPEAKER_03: that weight is a protective element and
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SPEAKER_03: when you're holding more weight you're protecting something in yourself yes
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SPEAKER_03: and i know i've had
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SPEAKER_03: even when i when i left my first marriage everyone commented that i'd lost a lot
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SPEAKER_03: of weight i hadn't lost any weight it's just all the stress and
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SPEAKER_03: the inflammation shifted so it was like but i used to joke and say i'd lost 80 kilos
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SPEAKER_03: because that's what my ex weighed but it was you know
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SPEAKER_03: but it it's that contrast of
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SPEAKER_03: who you were who you're becoming and i feel like our body
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SPEAKER_03: tells us so much we've just forgotten how to listen to the signs
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SPEAKER_03: of what our body is trying to tell us and yes it's mental but it's also
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SPEAKER_03: that emotional component that needs to be counter like counted for as well yes yes
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SPEAKER_00: the emotions are from from my point of view let me know how you think about that but
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SPEAKER_00: the emotions is just a response
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SPEAKER_00: to your mental state already how would you what would you say
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SPEAKER_03: so how i got taught was really interesting so emotions aren't good or bad
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SPEAKER_03: so we'll get a feeling and then we can choose to sit in the feeling and let it go
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SPEAKER_03: or we can choose to let it go to a point where it turns into emotion when it turns
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SPEAKER_03: into emotion then it does start to play a part on all those other things and often
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SPEAKER_03: the mental ego or the the thoughts in our head they'll be reflecting those shadows
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SPEAKER_03: within us that we don't want to pay attention to
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SPEAKER_03: so if you're someone that's always self-loathing your head's going to have
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SPEAKER_03: a field day especially when you're tired and you're exhausted
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SPEAKER_03: and things aren't going to plan and then that's going to show up
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SPEAKER_03: in your body you know if you're angry at yourself then your liver's not going
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SPEAKER_03: to be working very well in your gallbladder because that's where anger is stored and
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SPEAKER_03: then you're suddenly going to have an issue detoxing things so i feel
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SPEAKER_03: that they're all connected but most of the time i actually have a book
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SPEAKER_03: on this i'm going to tell about it after the show
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SPEAKER_03: but you can look up an ailment and there's an underlying emotional cause or there's
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SPEAKER_03: an underlying thing underneath it yeah and it doesn't necessarily have
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SPEAKER_03: to be just restricted from
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SPEAKER_03: that mental state often our mental state can tell us what's going on on
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SPEAKER_03: that deeper level but it's that the emotions that we're burying to get to that point
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SPEAKER_03: in the first place
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SPEAKER_00: very interesting very interesting i um know that in
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SPEAKER_00: the lungs there's uh usually sadness grief yeah yes yes very interesting yeah it's
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SPEAKER_03: very much connected to the meridian systems like from traditional chinese medicine
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SPEAKER_03: but it's really interesting when you start to
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SPEAKER_03: draw the correlations and start to see where those things are like if you're always in fear all
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SPEAKER_03: time you're going to have constant kidney infections or utis because your kidneys aren't
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SPEAKER_03: coping with that and again that can come through your head right which is what you were sharing
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SPEAKER_03: it's that mental you know what what's going on there and it's interesting just to say
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SPEAKER_03: what our body can tell us you know my favorite is someone's like my shoulder just
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SPEAKER_03: started hurting i'm like oh yeah which one i went the right one i went okay where's
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SPEAKER_03: a male not supporting you financially in life and they're like oh how did you know
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SPEAKER_03: that and i was like because i've been through that
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SPEAKER_03: so i know what it feels like this is what there are patterns and even
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SPEAKER_03: in our aura like our biomagnetic field
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SPEAKER_03: biofield there are patterns that hold there too which is really interesting
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SPEAKER_00: the more you go into it true true where do you think those emotions are
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SPEAKER_00: a manifestation of because there's something the emotions are physical yes
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SPEAKER_00: so there's something that happens before well that's where you have a feeling
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SPEAKER_03: of something not being in alignment
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SPEAKER_03: right so it's like i'm really angry about that
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SPEAKER_03: because that's not respecting my boundaries or i'm really angry about that
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SPEAKER_03: because i haven't listened to myself or honored myself
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SPEAKER_03: or trusted whatever's happening and instead of getting angry about it
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SPEAKER_03: and expressing it and being your authentic self and saying what's really going
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SPEAKER_03: on i'm going to squish that down and then it's just going to keep building up
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SPEAKER_03: and building it up building up until the point it just explodes yes
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SPEAKER_00: yes very interesting very interesting to hear different ways of looking
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SPEAKER_03: at it well i feel this is the whole point of holistic health right carolyn
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SPEAKER_03: because we can look at a person from so many different dynamics and
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SPEAKER_03: so many different energetic viewpoints that it's really just putting pieces of
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SPEAKER_03: a puzzle together and in the end
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SPEAKER_03: where do you see the shifts like you said you've observed all those mental things
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SPEAKER_03: with people so that's where you see the most shifts happening and that's
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SPEAKER_03: where you aim your work because they're the people being drawn to you maybe to work
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SPEAKER_00: on their mental state exactly uh-huh yeah yes very true i love it
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SPEAKER_03: so what are some tips you might have for people in terms
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SPEAKER_03: of shifting their mental state so they don't get to this point in the first place
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SPEAKER_03: when their health just starts to deteriorate
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SPEAKER_00: so people have to know and this is not to make you even more hopeless but you have
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SPEAKER_00: to realize because fear is just the unwillingness to see yes so if you're constantly
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SPEAKER_00: in fear there's just not something you're confronting and it's important
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SPEAKER_00: that you start looking at what's actually going on with the world right now and
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SPEAKER_00: with mankind and the mental condition people are in and
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SPEAKER_00: you have to know that i'd say 95 percent also in
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SPEAKER_00: the wellness industry is missing something very very very important
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SPEAKER_00: and it's this ability to confront the truth because it's not just about sitting in
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SPEAKER_00: an energy or like from my point of view it's not just sitting about in
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SPEAKER_00: the energy it's not about journaling it's not about looking online
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SPEAKER_00: and seeing some aesthetic toast and making it
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SPEAKER_00: it's about actually confronting and taking responsibility for what happens to you
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SPEAKER_00: so one of the best best tips that i would give to anyone
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SPEAKER_00: and this is something that's going to be hard for people to hear
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SPEAKER_00: but i'm gonna tell it because i'm not someone that is like yeah just wake up for
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SPEAKER_03: the sunrise and go for a walk no you need
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SPEAKER_00: to confront your own condition yes it's it's important and
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SPEAKER_00: so the first thing that i would do is
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SPEAKER_00: with whatever problem you have see how you actually fully created it there is
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SPEAKER_00: something you want to be right about and
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SPEAKER_00: that is something people really don't like confronting but
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SPEAKER_00: if you do you'll be like it will massively improve you all of a sudden and you'll
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SPEAKER_00: never go back to the same you you'll never go back below that if that makes sense
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SPEAKER_00: so you really have to start taking responsibility because this is something huge
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SPEAKER_00: that i see with people is that they say that happened to me because
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SPEAKER_00: the truth is you can choose your emotions you can choose your reactions you can
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SPEAKER_00: choose everything and you actually did choose everything
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SPEAKER_00: that you're having right now just like you say there's no such thing as an accident
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SPEAKER_00: people just drop responsibility and then say ah that was
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SPEAKER_00: an accident it doesn't happen like that everything is very very accurate
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SPEAKER_00: and once you it takes one time to see that and after that you'll never be
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SPEAKER_00: the same person again and that is something that's extremely powerful
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SPEAKER_00: so i highly recommend that people who's anyone who's listening confronts that
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SPEAKER_03: and i feel it's that whole accountability right like being accountable and
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SPEAKER_03: the question yeah and the question that i heard was instead of saying what happened
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SPEAKER_03: to me why did it happen for me because when you change that mindset of looking
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SPEAKER_03: at it you're not the victim anymore you're now looking
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SPEAKER_03: at how you co-created it exactly like you said and you know even when
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SPEAKER_03: when things happen i was like why would i write this into my spiritual contract
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SPEAKER_03: but here i am
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SPEAKER_00: yeah well i would say nothing like it's not that something happens for me
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SPEAKER_00: because it still implies a little bit that something else caused it if it happens
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SPEAKER_00: to you you are 100 responsible for it also for the other side if i have
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SPEAKER_00: a pain i just decide that i created the whole pain
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SPEAKER_00: because people don't want to be responsible for bad things that's the problem
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SPEAKER_00: because people are basically good which is a good thing yes but it's generally hard
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SPEAKER_00: for people to take responsibility and say about something that they are not proud of
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SPEAKER_00: to say it was actually me so responsibility just means it was me 100% my own actions
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SPEAKER_00: the actions of the other person the whole circumstance everything is me
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SPEAKER_00: and the second that you can do that that's why i say like how do i want
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SPEAKER_03: to be right how do i want to be right yes yeah and i guess this too is where
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SPEAKER_03: that compassion and forgiveness for yourself can come in too right
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SPEAKER_03: because it can be quite confronting when when you are taking responsibility
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SPEAKER_03: for everything in your life especially if your life's not very great at
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SPEAKER_03: the moment you know and yeah and how are you co-creating that
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SPEAKER_03: even you know to the point where people find it difficult
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SPEAKER_03: to realize they chose their parents if their parents haven't been great
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SPEAKER_03: or they chose obviously you chose your parents yes yeah exactly or the home
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SPEAKER_03: that you grew up in or whatever it might be
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SPEAKER_03: and they're like no no i didn't why would i choose
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SPEAKER_03: that i was like i don't know exactly what i mean yes yeah and at the moment
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SPEAKER_00: that you do the moment that you do
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SPEAKER_00: there's no way back very like nuclear powerful i just heard you can't stick your
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SPEAKER_03: head in the sand anymore and throw an image of an ostrich you can't do
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SPEAKER_00: that no that's the problem with it like people know
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SPEAKER_00: that once you see you cannot unsee it you cannot unsee it yeah that's it locked
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SPEAKER_03: in now crap what have i done when did i say yes to that apparently i did whoops yeah
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SPEAKER_03: but
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SPEAKER_03: but i guess this is where you still need to have fun with it too right because
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SPEAKER_00: if we take it so seriously no it's not serious at all and once you see like
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SPEAKER_00: the less serious you are the easier it is for you to take responsibility
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SPEAKER_00: to say like okay i did it and sometimes like with
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SPEAKER_00: the most it's it's actually i don't know if i should say this
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SPEAKER_00: but it's actually funny because with the
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SPEAKER_00: like i i do this process of looking at past lives or looking at things in the past
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SPEAKER_00: that i created some some bad situation because that's usually the point
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SPEAKER_00: where you say like oh i need to make myself smaller so but when you look at that and
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SPEAKER_00: when you take responsibility say like oh okay i did it sometimes you just start
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SPEAKER_00: laughing about killing someone like and and i never killed someone in this life yes
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SPEAKER_00: but in past lives i did and
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SPEAKER_00: you just start laughing like it's it's gone like it's that's it a bit of v
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SPEAKER_03: for vendetta in another life where i i killed my abusive husband and then i went
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SPEAKER_03: and killed any man that was abusive towards a woman right and
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SPEAKER_03: when i actually met my version of my yeah yeah i killed a lot of people in
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SPEAKER_03: that lifetime but when i went and met my version of me in that lifetime
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SPEAKER_03: all she wanted was to hear that i love you and i accept you and then
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SPEAKER_03: that was it like she actually just had never heard those words and just had
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SPEAKER_03: to drop she just dropped the knife kind of thing that was the thing
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SPEAKER_03: but again i'm like all right fair enough i was like on a vendetta
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SPEAKER_03: and avenging women apparently
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SPEAKER_03: but it's exactly like you said you just go oh okay i just accept it this is how it
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SPEAKER_00: is yeah it's actually very easy to confront but people fight
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SPEAKER_00: fight you but you you not you won't believe the amount of resistance that i get
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SPEAKER_00: from someone if i ask how did you create it it takes sometimes months for someone
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SPEAKER_03: to even look at it then that's where beautiful divine timing comes in right and
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SPEAKER_03: then it's just yeah it's they're meant to accept it when they do accept it
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SPEAKER_03: because again they've created that they've created the resistance they've created
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SPEAKER_00: that yes yes exactly exactly
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SPEAKER_00: and then it turns out that they were in a hospital and
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SPEAKER_00: that they made their mom wrong for not being longer
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SPEAKER_00: with them like something super small something really small and they're like is
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SPEAKER_03: that it yeah i had an incident where i asked my mom to cut the sandwiches
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SPEAKER_03: a square shape instead of a triangle shape and that meant i could never ask her
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SPEAKER_03: for helping it so small yeah so small see we laugh about it now we can't
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SPEAKER_03: and i asked the guests that come on the show carolyn that if you could heal
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SPEAKER_00: or change something in the world what would it be i'd say i'd actually say
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SPEAKER_00: that responsibility and that honestly honesty i've always been quite authentic
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SPEAKER_00: but i've also lied yes but i would say that i would really want people
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SPEAKER_00: to be more authentic in the sense of being actually responsible
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SPEAKER_00: and to not blame another person for their own condition
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SPEAKER_00: because you're making someone wrong
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SPEAKER_00: who did nothing it was all it was you it was it's a lie
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SPEAKER_00: to blame someone else it always is and i'd say like if there's one thing
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SPEAKER_00: that i would change in this world it's it's that that people actually see that
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SPEAKER_00: because there can be no bad situations there can be no crime
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SPEAKER_00: because everyone's taking responsibility for their own side and
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SPEAKER_00: i don't want to sound like a fairy tale
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SPEAKER_00: but everything will be beautiful let's be honest so yeah
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SPEAKER_03: a hundred percent take responsibility
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SPEAKER_03: what a different world we would be living in right now and if people want to can
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SPEAKER_03: and find you carolyn or connect with you where are the best places
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SPEAKER_00: that they can head to just reach out to me on any platform i always respond
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SPEAKER_00: to all my messages so you can reach out to me on instagram
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SPEAKER_00: which is my full name tiktok is my full name linkedin is my full name you can go
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SPEAKER_00: on my youtube and that would be
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SPEAKER_00: the best my website right now is superwoman.cc i'm not planning to change that
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SPEAKER_00: but if you want to get a hold of me just send me a message that would be
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SPEAKER_03: the best way to speak to me beautiful and i'll make sure to pop all those details in
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SPEAKER_03: about what carolyn does and if you're ready to just accept responsibility
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SPEAKER_03: and stop allowing situations to control your life so thank you carolyn
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SPEAKER_03: for sharing your journey and also
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SPEAKER_03: how you're helping women have superwoman help thank you catherine
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SPEAKER_00: for having me i really enjoyed the conversation
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SPEAKER_02: that was really nice hey beautiful souls and i wanted to have a chat with you about
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SPEAKER_02: a really amazing
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SPEAKER_02: cacao that i drink to help me get in ceremony to help me ground but also just
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SPEAKER_02: because it tastes freaking good so if you're curious and want to know
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SPEAKER_03: about drinking something other than coffee
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SPEAKER_03: or your standard tea why not check out creation cacao i love this with a bit
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SPEAKER_02: of honey and cinnamon sprinkled in and
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SPEAKER_02: just letting it brew and having that whole intention as you create this cup so if you're
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