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- There is a specific kind of silence that settles in when you realize no one at the table quite understands the weight you are carrying. It’s not that they don’t love you; it’s that they have never walked the path you are currently walking. Let’s sit with that for a second. That silence I mentioned isn’t empty. It’s heavy. It’s filled with everything you didn’t say because you knew it would sound like bragging, or worse, like complaining. Maybe you just got promoted to a role where you’re responsible for people who used to be your peers. Or maybe you finally launched that business you’ve been dreaming about since college, and now your weekends look nothing like the brunches you used to share. Or perhaps it’s simpler than that. Maybe you just found a peace within yourself that makes the old drama feel exhausting, and so you pulled away. Whatever the shift, you are moving faster, higher, or deeper than the group you once called your safe harbor. And in that movement, you might feel a strange, hollow ache in your chest. It’s the feeling of being the most successful person in your circle. Not in a way that feels proud, but in a way that feels isolating. You look around at your friends, these women who have known you since you were figuring out who you were, and you wonder if they can still see the real you, or if they only see the version of you that fits into their narrative. You miss them. But you also miss the version of yourself that existed before the success, before the change, before the loneliness set in. We need to talk about guilt. Because when you grow, especially when you grow in ways that change your lifestyle or your daily rhythm, there is this immediate, sharp pang of guilt. It whispers that you’ve abandoned them. It tells you that by choosing your own path, you’re betraying the collective history you shared. I remember when I first started working on community organizing, I was surrounded by people who were fighting for the same causes, but we were at different stages. Some were just starting, full of fire and idealism. Others had been doing it for decades, tired and worn down. I was in the middle, trying to keep up with both my work and my friendships. I felt like I was failing at both. I’d cancel plans because I was too exhausted from the day, and then I’d feel terrible. I’d show up to events but be mentally checked out, thinking about emails I needed to send. I thought I was losing my friends. In reality, I was just navigating the messy transition of becoming someone new. The guilt is a liar. It wants you to shrink back down to fit the mold you used to occupy. It wants you to dim your light so others can see comfortably in the dark. But you weren’t meant to stay small. You were meant to grow. And growth is inherently disruptive. It changes the shape of your relationships. It forces you to ask hard questions about who is coming with you and who is staying behind. So, what do you do? Do you cut them off? Do you try to force the old dynamic back into existence? Neither of those options serves anyone. Instead, we have to ask a different question. What is this friendship asking of you? Not what you are asking of it, but what is it asking of you right now? Sometimes, a friendship asks for nostalgia. It asks for you to remember who you were together, to celebrate the inside jokes, the shared traumas, the early mornings. Other times, it asks for support. It asks for you to be present when they are struggling, even if you are struggling too. But here is the tender truth: a friendship cannot ask for more than it has the capacity to give. If your friend is asking you to be exactly who you were five years ago, and you are no longer that person, then the friendship is asking for something impossible. And that’s okay. It doesn’t mean the friendship is bad. It means it is in a different season. We often mistake change for loss. We think that because things are different, they are broken. But some things are just meant to be seasonal. Like a summer cottage that feels cold in winter. You don’t blame the cottage. You acknowledge the season has changed. You go home. You find warmth elsewhere. This requires a radical honesty with yourself. Admitting that your friend may not understand your current joy or your current pain does not make you arrogant. It makes you human. It acknowledges that we all walk different paths, and while our paths may cross, they rarely run parallel forever. Accepting this is painful, but it is also liberating. It frees you from the performance of pretending you are still the same person you were when you met. Let’s get really honest for a moment. Let’s name the jealousy. Because when you are the most successful person in the room, you might feel jealous of your friends’ simplicity. You might envy their ability to complain about their boss without worrying about your own career trajectory. You might envy their lack of responsibility, their freedom from the weight of leadership. And conversely, they might feel jealous of you. They might see your success as a mirror reflecting their own stagnation. This is a delicate dance. If you are not careful, your success can become a source of tension rather than connection. I’ve seen friendships fracture over promotions, over marriages, over having children. It’s not malicious. It’s just human. We compare ourselves to those closest to us. When someone close to us rises, we subconsciously measure our own height against theirs. If we feel shorter, we feel shame. If you sense that jealousy, don’t retreat. Don’t hide your wins. But do practice humility. Share your struggles alongside your successes. Show them that the crown is heavy. Show them that the view from the top is lonely and scary sometimes. Vulnerability bridges the gap between achievement and empathy. When you share your fears, your doubts, your exhaustion, you invite your friends back into your world. You remind them that you are still the same woman, just carrying a heavier load. This doesn’t mean you should apologize for your success. Never apologize for your growth. But it does mean you should make space for their feelings. Acknowledge that change is hard for everyone, not just for you. Validate their experience of watching you move forward. It’s okay to say, 'I know this must be weird for you too.' That simple sentence can dissolve years of unspoken resentment. So, how do you build a life that honors both your past and your future? You build new tables. You don’t abandon your old friends, but you stop expecting them to fill every cup. You seek out communities that reflect your current values, your current challenges, your current dreams. This might look like joining a mastermind group, taking a class, volunteering in a new capacity, or simply saying yes to conversations with strangers who intrigue you. These new connections will not have the deep history of your childhood friends, but they will have the depth of your present reality. They will understand the language you are speaking now. And here is the beautiful part: these new connections do not replace the old ones. They complement them. Your old friends provide roots. They ground you in your history. They remind you of who you were before the world tried to shape you. Your new friends provide wings. They help you fly into who you are becoming. You need both. You need the safety of the known and the thrill of the unknown. But building these new tables takes courage. It requires you to be vulnerable with people who don’t know your story yet. It requires you to risk rejection. It requires you to trust that there are other women out there who are walking the same path, who are feeling the same loneliness, who are hungry for the same connection. You are not alone in this. There is a whole universe of women who have stood exactly where you are standing, looking out over the horizon, wondering if anyone else sees what you see. Reach out. Signal flare. The response will come. Belonging is not a place you find. It is a practice you cultivate. It is the daily choice to show up as your authentic self, even when it feels risky. Even when it feels like you are the only one doing it. This practice includes setting boundaries with compassion. It means saying no to events that drain you, even if it disappoints your friends. It means saying yes to opportunities that scare you, even if it means being alone for a while. It means trusting that true friendship can withstand distance, difference, and time. If a friendship ends because you grew, let it end with grace. Thank them for the chapter. Honor the memories. But do not cling to the hope that things will return to what they were. They won’t. And that is not a failure. It is a transformation. You are transforming. And transformation is messy. It is uncomfortable. It is lonely. But it is also necessary. You cannot become who you are meant to be without leaving parts of who you were behind. So, be gentle with yourself. Be gentle with your friends. And be brave enough to sit in the loneliness for a little while. Because on the other side of that loneliness is a deeper sense of self. A self that knows its worth without needing external validation. A self that can connect with others from a place of abundance rather than lack. A self that is ready to build a life that is truly, deeply, authentically yours. You are growing. You are changing. And you are loved, exactly as you are, in this exact moment. Until next time, take care of your heart. Kari.