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Patrick Durkin | Living In A Real Life Hell · Ryder Lee

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  Speaker 1: But just to set the stage, I was a businessman
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  Speaker 1: at one point. I'm now married, I have children, I'm
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  Speaker 1: becoming very successful in the vacation rental business in South Texas.
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  Speaker 1: And I moved from Boston, Massachusetts down there with my
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  Speaker 1: dad back in two thousand and four, and I started
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  Speaker 1: to have some type of success.
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  Speaker 2: And I'm married now. But I was a full blown alcoholic.
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  Speaker 1: I had a string of bad business deals happen and
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  Speaker 1: I boxed myself in. I lost my career, lost my
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  Speaker 1: family directly after that, and.
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  Speaker 2: Once I didn't have them in my life, I made
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  Speaker 2: a conscious decision.
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  Speaker 1: I just started dabbling with crystal mass and when they
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  Speaker 1: were gone, I moved into my father's house in Corpus Christi, Texas.
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  Speaker 1: The name of the city quite literally means the body
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  Speaker 1: of Christ.
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  Speaker 2: That's where the story was.
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  Speaker 1: The stage was set in this city, and I became
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  Speaker 1: a nighttime cab driver. I'm now a junkie cab driver,
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  Speaker 1: diving deep on a suicide mission, deep into the underworld
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  Speaker 1: of crystal meth amphetamines, crystal meth, And I think this
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  Speaker 1: is why the book is so powerful and so popular
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  Speaker 1: right now. Crystal Meth is a portal to the darkest
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  Speaker 1: places in the spiritual realm. It opens your brain up
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  Speaker 1: to all sorts of evil entities. And on my other
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  Speaker 1: social media pages, thousands and hundreds of thousands of comments.
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  Speaker 2: It's a worldwide phenomenon. So what I was about to.
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  Speaker 1: Experience was directly a result of that. So I started
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  Speaker 1: living a life of crime. I'm in the taxi. It
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  Speaker 1: becomes a rolling felony. I'm doing things to support my
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  Speaker 1: drug habit because it was the perfect venue. So I'm
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  Speaker 1: dealing with pimps, prostitutes, drug dealers, check cashers, money printers.
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  Speaker 2: I'm living an absolute debaucherous life.
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  Speaker 1: I was a I was in an addict of all
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  Speaker 1: things in the flesh, and I started to have major
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  Speaker 1: evil experiences. I started to have vulgar displays of power.
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  Speaker 1: I detailed that in the book. I won't get too
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  Speaker 1: far into that, but I started to experience the spiritual
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  Speaker 1: realm and the turning point of where it all came
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  Speaker 1: to a tur A big turn was there's an accident
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  Speaker 1: photo okay, and I was driving.
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  Speaker 2: I've had been working way too much.
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  Speaker 1: I was driving my taxi and I fell asleep at
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  Speaker 1: the wheel. It was a Bomby October night and I
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  Speaker 1: only had to make it one more exit up the road,
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  Speaker 1: and I found myself falling asleep.
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  Speaker 2: I woke up. I heard a loud crash.
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  Speaker 1: I found myself airborne at about seventy miles an hour,
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  Speaker 1: headed toward the big concrete sign the size of a
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  Speaker 1: redwood tree.
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  Speaker 2: And this is really when.
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  Speaker 1: My spiritual awakening happened. I was sliding towards that big
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  Speaker 1: pole with that sign on top, the tires smoking, and
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  Speaker 1: I had three flashes where I saw it in slow
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  Speaker 1: motion and I said, oh shit, that's concrete. And then
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  Speaker 1: I said I saw my daughter's face. And then right
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  Speaker 1: before impact, I thought I was gonna I thought I
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  Speaker 1: was gonna die. So I accepted my death. I was
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  Speaker 1: at peace. And then the white concussion, so the sign
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  Speaker 1: fell on my head. I watched the inside of the
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  Speaker 1: cab crush around me like a tun can.
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  Speaker 2: That sign fell on top of the taxi.
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  Speaker 1: There was smoke everywhere, and long story short, I took
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  Speaker 1: this photo week later. I actually checked myself out of
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  Speaker 1: the doctor before the X rays even came back, and
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  Speaker 1: I had sought all five ribs in half. My foot
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  Speaker 1: was crushed underneath the front seat. I was grabbing an
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  Speaker 1: old cop car turned taxi. So I took this picture
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  Speaker 1: and this was the beginning of my spiritual awakening later on.
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  Speaker 1: If you take that photo and you zoom into the
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  Speaker 1: top right, I had fallen asleep and I'd crashed into
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  Speaker 1: the sign at the Christian Sleep study Center. God had
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  Speaker 1: dropped a sign directly on my head to get me
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  Speaker 1: to take my foot off the gas.
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  Speaker 2: It's actually up to the right on the building.
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  Speaker 3: I'm trying to get it over there.
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  Speaker 1: Yeah, and you can see that. And that was a
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  Speaker 1: major sign for me. But I did not listen to
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  Speaker 1: the warnings of God, and I kept on going down
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  Speaker 1: the road to hell and ryder.
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  Speaker 2: I can tell you it was covered in ice.
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  Speaker 1: About a year into this, I start going into psychosis.
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  Speaker 1: A few months after this photo, I start experiencing all
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  Speaker 1: kinds of evil manifestations. I even start having contact with God.
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  Speaker 1: I was having big moments with God. I would feel
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  Speaker 1: the flame of God next to me sitting in my
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  Speaker 1: trap house.
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  Speaker 2: I was having major.
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  Speaker 1: Experiences with what I believe to be the Lord Jesus Christ.
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  Speaker 3: So would you consider this experience you crashing your car
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  Speaker 3: into this sign a out of body experience or a
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  Speaker 3: near death experience.
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  Speaker 1: I would say, I felt like there was something with
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  Speaker 1: me in the taxi. I detailed it where I felt
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  Speaker 1: something tug on my shirt. I look back in hindsight
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  Speaker 1: and I believe personally that it was some type of
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  Speaker 1: angels or entities of light. And I was not in
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  Speaker 1: psychosis at that time. I was still hustling every day.
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  Speaker 1: I was still I was deeply addicted to methamphetamines, but.
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  Speaker 2: I was not crazy yet.
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  Speaker 1: And then a few months after this, I continued down
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  Speaker 1: the road and I only got worse with my youth,
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  Speaker 1: and I call it the nipe canezer effect. I remember
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  Speaker 1: in the Book of Daniel, there was a story about
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  Speaker 1: a prideful king and he was prophesied he was gonna
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  Speaker 1: go crazy. Long story short, he goes crazy. He's eating
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  Speaker 1: grass like an ox in the fields. He loses his kingdom.
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  Speaker 1: God heals and he comes out the other side, and
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  Speaker 1: whatever he experienced in between made him a believer in
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  Speaker 1: the One True Living God. That's the story in the
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  Speaker 1: Bible anyway, So my story lines up with that very similarly.
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  Speaker 2: So I had that experience.
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  Speaker 1: Then I start going crazy, and I was now wearing
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  Speaker 1: a do rag on my head, my house gets boarded up.
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  Speaker 1: I lost the girlfriend, I lost the taxi job, obviously
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  Speaker 1: after that accident. It's a crazy story, but you know everything.
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  Speaker 1: They board the house up. It's one hundred and ten
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  Speaker 1: degrees in there. I'm living an absolutely hellish life, no
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  Speaker 1: running water, anything, and I'm walking fifteen miles a day.
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  Speaker 2: I was a tortured soul. I was being tormented by
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  Speaker 2: dark entities.
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  Speaker 1: There's no doubt the house had The house was like
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  Speaker 1: a spiritual portal.
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  Speaker 2: I detailed it in the book.
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  Speaker 1: So I'm now insane and I come to a breaking point. See,
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  Speaker 1: my father had spinal cancer at the time. I was
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  Speaker 1: a junkie, but I was also his caretaker.
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  Speaker 2: He disappeared.
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  Speaker 1: And the very last, I'd say, like two months of
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  Speaker 1: my addiction to meth, he disappeared. There was a train
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  Speaker 1: of homeless drug addicts, all kinds of crazy and sanity
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  Speaker 1: going on at the house. And eventually I had had enough.
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  Speaker 1: I walked home a family member and told me my
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  Speaker 1: dad passed away three weeks before. No one told me
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  Speaker 1: because I was so crazy. So I get to the house.
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  Speaker 1: I walked back to the house, I had self inflicted
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  Speaker 1: wounds all over me. I was like the man from Gallerines,
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  Speaker 1: the demon possessed man. I hadn't drank water in five days,
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  Speaker 1: hadn't eaten in over a week, and I had my shirt.
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  Speaker 2: Off, some swim trunks on.
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  Speaker 1: The house is just demolished, drug paraphernalia everywhere, trash. And
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  Speaker 1: I passed out of the bed and I woke up,
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  Speaker 1: and I looked over and I saw a big blade,
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  Speaker 1: the kitchen knife, sitting on one of the old nightstands,
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  Speaker 1: and I remember looking at it, and I picked it up,
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  Speaker 1: and I verbally said this ends now, and I stormed
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  Speaker 1: out of the house. I threw a TV over my
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  Speaker 1: fence and in my neighbor's yard, and I walked down
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  Speaker 1: to a fast food restaurant and.
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  Speaker 2: I poked my head into the door.
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  Speaker 1: The mental health system had failed me. In the months
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  Speaker 1: leading up to this, I was being arrested for public
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  Speaker 1: intoxication almost every three days.
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  Speaker 2: I picked up a ton of those.
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  Speaker 1: It would bring me to the hospital, just your local
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  Speaker 1: mental unit at your regular hospital in Corpus, And then
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  Speaker 1: every three days I was being turned out of the mill.
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  Speaker 1: I also sought drug treatment twice in the months leading
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  Speaker 1: up to this, and was rejected both times. In the
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  Speaker 1: richest country on planet Earth. I couldn't get help when
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  Speaker 1: I really needed it the most. I was a danger
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  Speaker 1: to myself and society as a whole. I was legally
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  Speaker 1: insane from methamphetamine substance abuse. I was in deep methanphetamine psychosis.
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  Speaker 1: Later on Discovery, how.
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  Speaker 3: Did sorry, I don't mean to interrupt. How did other
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  Speaker 3: people around you respond to your psychosis? Were they around
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  Speaker 3: you also using meth amphetamine? Or how were regular people
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  Speaker 3: that weren't on drugs responding to you being in the
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  Speaker 3: psychosis the.
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  Speaker 1: Time, anyone outside the drug world was terrified of my lifestyle.
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  Speaker 1: The meta amphetamine lifestyle is the most evil, debaucherous, sinful
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  Speaker 1: life that a person could live.
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  Speaker 2: It's the craziest lifestyle a person can live.
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  Speaker 1: It's just around the clock sexual deviancy, I mean anything
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  Speaker 1: you can imagine. It's out there, absolute crime. People were terrified.
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  Speaker 2: But the drug addicts in my life at the very end,
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  Speaker 2: once my.
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  Speaker 1: Dad disappeared, they swarmed in and they played into my
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  Speaker 1: delusions and they acted like I believed I was in
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  Speaker 1: a hidden camera movie at one point, being filmed by satellites.
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  Speaker 1: I thought I was going to be the biggest comedic
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  Speaker 1: actor on the planet. I thought I was selected for
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  Speaker 1: this movie like The Truman Show, only it was like
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  Speaker 1: a reboot, a reality TV version, And you could not
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  Speaker 1: tell me that I was not in this real life
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  Speaker 1: Hollywood movie being filmed right there in the city of
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  Speaker 1: Corpus my dad. There's so many stories that I based
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  Speaker 1: in the book off of that. I was convinced I
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  Speaker 1: was living in an absolute alternate universe. It was very spiritual.
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  Speaker 1: It was very very spiritual. I started having downloads of
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  Speaker 1: all different types. I mean, it really changed me as
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  Speaker 1: a person. I started to you know, I went into
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  Speaker 1: the McDonald's as a cry for help. I couldn't take anymore.
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  Speaker 1: I was absolutely broken in every way. I felt like
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  Speaker 1: I was going to die and I needed to take
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  Speaker 1: my life back by it.
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  Speaker 2: How did you break that delusion or did it break itself?
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  Speaker 1: Well, I'll get to that in the next part, the
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  Speaker 1: very next part. So what happened was is and this
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  Speaker 1: is the fascinating part about the story about psychosis and everything.
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  Speaker 2: So I went into McDonald's. I told them this is
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  Speaker 2: not a robbery. Everybody get out of here. There was
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  Speaker 2: four employees. They ran out the back door.
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  Speaker 1: I threw the knife on the floor, walked around. I
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  Speaker 1: grabbed a burger, I poured me a coke. I took
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  Speaker 1: one bite of it, and then the cops show up.
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  Speaker 1: I just sat down peacefully and the guy came up
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  Speaker 1: the with a twelve gate shotgun cocked. Someone had called
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  Speaker 1: it an active shooter, and he told me afterwards in
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  Speaker 1: the cop car, he said, I was going to un
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  Speaker 1: alive you.
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  Speaker 2: And that was a scary moment. I could feel him
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  Speaker 2: wanting to end my life.
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  Speaker 1: So I was on the floor. I surrendered peacefully. I
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  Speaker 1: went I was facing some very extreme charges. Now I'm
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  Speaker 1: in the state of Texas. It's the toughest state on
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  Speaker 1: crime in the nation, so that cry for help.
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  Speaker 2: Because I took real property.
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  Speaker 1: And because I had a weapon, I faced aggravated armed
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  Speaker 1: robbery five to ninety nine years.
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  Speaker 2: I faced three counts of aggravated assault with a deadly
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  Speaker 2: weapon two to twenty years each. That's one hundred and
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  Speaker 2: fifty six years stacked. They ended up having me look
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  Speaker 2: at about a fifteen year prison sentence.
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  Speaker 1: So I'm now in Nuaces County Jail, one of the
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  Speaker 1: toughest county jails in the United States to do time in.
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  Speaker 3: I'm absolutely we have We have a clip here really
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  Speaker 3: quickly that I want to show before we get into
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  Speaker 3: the next part of the story.
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  Speaker 2: Yeah, go ahead and show that clip. I'm sorry.
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  Speaker 1: Scary moments for customers inside of a local McDonald's. Police
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  Speaker 1: were called to a McDonald's on Saratoga near Weber just
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  Speaker 1: last night to the report of a shirtless man inside
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  Speaker 1: holding a knife and yelling at customers, and he also
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  Speaker 1: took food without pain. The man was arrested after officers
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  Speaker 1: were able to convince him to lay down his knife
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  Speaker 1: and after the incident. Luckily, no one was hurt, but
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  Speaker 1: that man has now been identified as thirty six year
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  Speaker 1: old Patrick Christopher Durkin. He's charged with robbery and aggravated
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  Speaker 1: assault with a deadly weapon. Police say that he'd tried
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  Speaker 1: to force he'd tried to force his way into a
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  Speaker 1: nearby home earlier in the evening, and then he'd actually
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  Speaker 1: broken into another home where he stole a flat screen television.