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Vocal De Frag Episode 206 Parents Who Never Said I Love You · Arroe Collins Like It's Live

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  Speaker 1: I'm guilty. I'm one of those podcast listeners. Except when
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  Speaker 1: Hey zero, and this is vocal dfragging. Vocal dfragging is
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  Speaker 1: doing what we're doing right here. We're going to ask
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  Speaker 1: some questions and then we're going to question answers. I
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  Speaker 1: do it inside a daily writing journal as well, which
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  Speaker 1: I've been doing since November of twenty seventeen. When are
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  Speaker 1: you going to get this two thousand and maybe twenty seven,
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  Speaker 1: twenty twenty eight when you find it, could be two
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  Speaker 1: thousand and forty five. You see what I mean. What
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  Speaker 1: I'm asking now actually could be affecting worry you are
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  Speaker 1: in twenty thirty because if you take the time to
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  Speaker 1: start asking yourself the questions. That's how you put the
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  Speaker 1: fuel inside the tank. Asking yourself the questions and then
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  Speaker 1: questioning the answers. It seems so easy. It seems so stupid,
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  Speaker 1: it seems so unoriginal, it seems so why am I
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  Speaker 1: doing this? You know what I mean? Because when you
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  Speaker 1: do and you take the time to ask yourself the questions,
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  Speaker 1: because we think we're asking ourselves questions all the time,
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  Speaker 1: that ain't true. You know that's not true. You might
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  Speaker 1: be telling yourself what to do, you might be wishfully
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  Speaker 1: thinking what you want to do, but you aren't really
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  Speaker 1: asking yourself the questions. This is vocal, d Frank, And
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  Speaker 1: I wish my dad would have been that way. I
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  Speaker 1: wish my dad would have asked me more questions. I
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  Speaker 1: look at my dog all the time, and I'll sit
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  Speaker 1: there and I'll say, you know, Jazzy, I wish my
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  Speaker 1: father would have told me one tenth the amount of
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  Speaker 1: times that he loves me as much as I love you,
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  Speaker 1: because I'm endlessly telling her and my birds, I love
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  Speaker 1: you so much. I love you so much. I'm so
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  Speaker 1: grateful that you're a part of my life. Did I
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  Speaker 1: hear anything like that from my dad. No. No. In fact,
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  Speaker 1: I'm even hurt it from my mother as well. But
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  Speaker 1: that's the type of generation that you know, that we
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  Speaker 1: all come from, and we're growing from it. And that
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  Speaker 1: might be the reason why my daughter and my grandchildren
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  Speaker 1: are so much different. They aren't what we did back
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  Speaker 1: in the nineteen sixties, seventies and eighties, because back then
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  Speaker 1: I don't remember seeing anybody, any parents, not even grandparents,
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  Speaker 1: saying God, I love you so much, I can't get
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  Speaker 1: enough of you, I love you so much. So then
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  Speaker 1: when you didn't hear it in the sixties, seventies, and
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  Speaker 1: eighties and even beyond, what did you tell yourself in
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  Speaker 1: the mirror? Boom? There's the question? See when I said
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  Speaker 1: that it could be so easy to ask yourself questions,
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  Speaker 1: but it's not easy, and it sounds so stupid. Does
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  Speaker 1: that sound unique? Ask yourself that question. Why have you
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  Speaker 1: not told yourself inside that mirror? I love you. I
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  Speaker 1: realize things can be tight and tough. People challenge you.
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  Speaker 1: People are constantly leaving your place of business. There's change
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  Speaker 1: at all times. There's uncertainty in the world. But you
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  Speaker 1: still have the strength and the willpower to look at
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  Speaker 1: yourself in the mirror and say it, I love you.
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  Speaker 1: What would the world be like if we would have
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  Speaker 1: had more parental people saying I love you in the
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  Speaker 1: fifty sixty, seventies, eighties and above. And do parents say it?
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  Speaker 1: Or am I just being weird? When I look at
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  Speaker 1: my grandchildren, my dog, my birds, and I literally will say,
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  Speaker 1: I don't know what I did to deserve this moment,
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  Speaker 1: But you being here is such a blessed. I love
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  Speaker 1: you so much, you are this close to me, and
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  Speaker 1: I still feel like I miss you like nothing else
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  Speaker 1: on this planet. I miss you and you're right here.
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  Speaker 1: That is love. So why aren't we asking ourselves those questions?
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  Speaker 1: Why aren't we seeking answers? And if you come up
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  Speaker 1: with an answer, why aren't you questioning those answers? I
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  Speaker 1: do wish I knew why my father did not say
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  Speaker 1: I love you. No, I do have an answer, I
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  Speaker 1: really do, because I'm not his kid. I'm not I
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  Speaker 1: am a step child. Was I treated like a stepchild? No? No,
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  Speaker 1: I was not my father My stepfather, Ugh, I don't
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  Speaker 1: like that term. Made sure that my mother's first three
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  Speaker 1: children before they got married were taken care of. But
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  Speaker 1: what was missing from all that incredible love that the
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  Speaker 1: two of them shared. They're dancing their building of the future,
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  Speaker 1: the building of the house, they can trips, the motorcycle adventures,
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  Speaker 1: everything that we did going to see all the beautiful
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  Speaker 1: things that Montana had to offer. But did we ever
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  Speaker 1: hear I love you? Never? Never? I can't tell you
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  Speaker 1: one time that my father said that, Nor can I
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  Speaker 1: tell you one time that my mother even said I
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  Speaker 1: love you. And I was freaking close to my mom.
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  Speaker 1: I have been quoted to say in the past one
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  Speaker 1: to two years that I am closer to my mother
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  Speaker 1: today in her absence as a human figure, than I
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  Speaker 1: was when she was on this planet. And it's maybe
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  Speaker 1: because I've matured through spirituality and an understanding with a
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  Speaker 1: relationship with a much higher power than me. That those
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  Speaker 1: people that traveled here before us, they just brought the stones,
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  Speaker 1: the pebbles that become the paths that we are putting
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  Speaker 1: in the earth so that there will be continuation beyond us.
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  Speaker 1: And those before them brought the pebbles and the stones
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  Speaker 1: to create the paths that they needed in order to
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  Speaker 1: get through their world. Now, do I know why my
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  Speaker 1: father never said I love you? No, I don't say
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  Speaker 1: it's true about my mom, but I can come up
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  Speaker 1: with a pretty darn good excuse that they were both
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  Speaker 1: from the silent generation after World War One, where emotion
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  Speaker 1: was very limited. It was about focus, it was about survival,
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  Speaker 1: it was about hope, it was about reaching into areas
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  Speaker 1: of personal growth because we as a nation and as
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  Speaker 1: a globe lost a lot. But when we would question
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  Speaker 1: my mom and dad about such situations, oh son, there's
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  Speaker 1: just certain things we don't talk about. And so the
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  Speaker 1: idea of asking questions and questioning answers was not part
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  Speaker 1: of their situation. My dad would always say, you're doing
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  Speaker 1: nothing but trying to be a know at all, and
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  Speaker 1: in being an oh it all, you're putting yourself in
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  Speaker 1: a position of valley floors and you don't need to
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  Speaker 1: be there because you're not ever going to find the
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  Speaker 1: answer that you're looking for. And if you think you're
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  Speaker 1: going to find that answer, you're going to assume even more,
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  Speaker 1: which is going to create more questions. And no matter
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  Speaker 1: how much energy and time you put into asking those questions,
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  Speaker 1: you are not going to get that time back. Boom,
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  Speaker 1: So Dad, how about and I love you? Hello Dad? Dad. Okay,
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  Speaker 1: let me turn it this way, Jesus God, how about
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  Speaker 1: and I love you? Still not hearing it? Huh hm.
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  Speaker 1: Ask yourself the questions, question the answers. It is here,
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  Speaker 1: that is your gift of love from a greater purpose
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  Speaker 1: and plan. Ask yourself the questions, question the answers. I
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  Speaker 1: call it defragging. I'm Meryl.