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What Do You Do When Your Mind Won't Stop? · Reading Your Own Life with Swami Larry

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SPEAKER_00: Welcome to Reading Your Own Life with Swami Larry.
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SPEAKER_00: We're in season two.
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SPEAKER_00: Meditate right for your personality type.
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SPEAKER_00: Episode six is what do you do when your mind won't stop?
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SPEAKER_00: It's two in the morning and you're awake and you know exactly why.
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SPEAKER_00: You're having a conversation.
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SPEAKER_00: The other person isn't there.
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SPEAKER_00: They may be asleep three times on the way, but the conversation is happening anyway, and you're getting your lines exactly right this time.
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SPEAKER_00: Or you're replaying the thing you said at the meeting, the one nobody else remembers.
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SPEAKER_00: Or perhaps you're rehearsing Thursday.
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SPEAKER_00: Thursday hasn't happened yet, but you've already lived it four different ways.
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SPEAKER_00: And three of them went badly.
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SPEAKER_00: If that's your mind, this one's for you.
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SPEAKER_00: I'm going to call that one the mind that loops.
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SPEAKER_00: This episode is also for its close cousin.
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SPEAKER_00: That's the mind that doesn't loop so much as work, the mind that researched meditation before it ever tried it, compared the apps, checked what the studies said, then sat down and audited the whole thing in real time.
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SPEAKER_00: Is it working?
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SPEAKER_00: Am I doing this right?
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SPEAKER_00: Was that a thought?
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SPEAKER_00: How long has it been?
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SPEAKER_00: So it's two minds then.
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SPEAKER_00: One loops, one works.
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SPEAKER_00: And both of them got told the same thing about meditation.
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SPEAKER_00: Stop thinking, quiet the mind.
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SPEAKER_00: For both of them, that instruction was broken, not the student.
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SPEAKER_00: So let me talk to each of you because the way in for you is different.
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SPEAKER_00: And let me start with the mind that works.
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SPEAKER_00: Then I'll come back to the mind that loops and we'll stay there then.
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SPEAKER_00: Now, for the mind that works, your mind is magnificent.
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SPEAKER_00: And I mean that without sarcasm.
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SPEAKER_00: The analytical mind takes things apart to see how they work.
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SPEAKER_00: It finds the pattern and the noise.
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SPEAKER_00: It asks the question nobody else thought to ask.
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SPEAKER_00: This is the mind people bring their problems to.
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SPEAKER_00: It's probably the mind that built your career.
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SPEAKER_00: And that's not a liability.
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SPEAKER_00: In the right setting, it's very close to a superpower.
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SPEAKER_00: So why did meditation go so badly for you?
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SPEAKER_00: Well, because the standard instructions actually failed you twice.
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SPEAKER_00: First, they're vague, and your mind runs on precision.
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SPEAKER_00: Just be present, simply rest in awareness.
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SPEAKER_00: Well, to a certain temperament, those phrases are soothing, but to you, they're empty.
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SPEAKER_00: Say if a colleague handed you a project brief written like a meditation instruction, you'd probably hand it back.
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SPEAKER_00: Second, and worse, you were told to stop thinking, which means the practice required you to set down the one tool you trust most before you even started.
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SPEAKER_00: A mind like yours cannot watch itself fail to stop thinking without analyzing the failure.
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SPEAKER_00: And I know 20 minutes of that, and anyone would walk away saying meditation isn't for them.
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SPEAKER_00: So here's the reframe: your mind does not need to shut off, it needs to be given a job.
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SPEAKER_00: Every success a mind like yours has with meditation comes the moment the practice acquires three different things: a clear task, honest feedback, and a reason why.
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SPEAKER_00: Structure, precision, understanding.
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SPEAKER_00: Give your mind those and it stops fighting the practice.
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SPEAKER_00: It becomes the practice's best employee.
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SPEAKER_00: So let me teach you the one I prescribed more than any other.
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SPEAKER_00: It's called breath counting.
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SPEAKER_00: Sit comfortably and alert.
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SPEAKER_00: Let your eyes close or lower them to the floor.
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SPEAKER_00: Now breathe normally and count your exhales.
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SPEAKER_00: First exhale, one, next exhale, two, and continue to ten.
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SPEAKER_00: When you reach 10, start again at one.
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SPEAKER_00: And that's the whole method.
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SPEAKER_00: If you lose count, and you probably will, go back to one.
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SPEAKER_00: There's no penal penalty, no judgment, just back to one.
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SPEAKER_00: Now, notice what this has that just be present doesn't.
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SPEAKER_00: It has a task to count.
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SPEAKER_00: It has feedback.
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SPEAKER_00: You cannot fake your way through breath counting.
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SPEAKER_00: The number knows.
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SPEAKER_00: Every trip back to one is one full repetition of the skill.
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SPEAKER_00: Attention wandering, attention noticed, attention returned.
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SPEAKER_00: A session with 30 returns to one wasn't bad.
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SPEAKER_00: It was 30 repetitions, honestly logged.
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SPEAKER_00: Now let's get to the other mind.
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SPEAKER_00: The one that loops.
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SPEAKER_00: If your mind replays and rehearses, I want to say three things before we go one step further.
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SPEAKER_00: You're not broken.
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SPEAKER_00: You are in enormous company.
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SPEAKER_00: Far more people around you live this way than probably will ever admit.
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SPEAKER_00: And I am telling you this with real affection.
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SPEAKER_00: Here's something I want to be fair about.
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SPEAKER_00: Show me an overthinker, and I'll show you someone who cares.
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SPEAKER_00: You replay the conversation because the relationship matters to you.
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SPEAKER_00: You rehearse Thursday because you take responsibilities seriously.
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SPEAKER_00: The loop is conscious and thoroughness and empathy.
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SPEAKER_00: These are all real gifts, and they're running without a destination.
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SPEAKER_00: People who don't care about anything seem to sleep just fine.
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SPEAKER_00: So your depth is not the problem.
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SPEAKER_00: The problem is that your depth got stuck circling instead of moving.
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SPEAKER_00: And there's a simple test you can run anytime.
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SPEAKER_00: Ask yourself, has this thinking produced a single new thought in the last 10 minutes?
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SPEAKER_00: If the answer is no, then you're not solving anything.
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SPEAKER_00: You're circling.
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SPEAKER_00: Now, why did quiet setting go so badly for you in meditation?
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SPEAKER_00: Well, think about it, what I actually did.
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SPEAKER_00: All day long, your loop competes for attention against the world, the job, the traffic, the people talking to you.
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SPEAKER_00: The world dampens it.
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SPEAKER_00: Then you sat down to meditate and removed every rival that it had all at once.
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SPEAKER_00: You closed your eyes, you silenced the room, you handed the loop the one thing it needed to run at full volume.
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SPEAKER_00: And that is your complete undivided attention.
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SPEAKER_00: And loops run on attention.
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SPEAKER_00: And that's the most important sentence here.
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SPEAKER_00: The loop you're attending to spins faster.
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SPEAKER_00: So here's the reframe.
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SPEAKER_00: And hold it gently because it runs counter to everything the loop has taught you.
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SPEAKER_00: You cannot think your way out of overthinking.
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SPEAKER_00: You will never out-argue the loop because participating in that debate is the loop itself.
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SPEAKER_00: The way out isn't to fight for the territory, it's to move the capital.
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SPEAKER_00: You quiet a loop by giving your attention somewhere else to live, somewhere real, physical, and current.
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SPEAKER_00: The loop always lives in the past and in the future, in words and scenes.
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SPEAKER_00: It cannot follow you into your senses.
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SPEAKER_00: And the exit from the head is downward into the body.
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SPEAKER_00: And the body always knows.
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SPEAKER_00: And you've actually probably already seen this work earlier in the season.
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SPEAKER_00: Remember, my friend, the one who filled the bur baths every morning, the one who couldn't meditate and wouldn't even try.
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SPEAKER_00: I can tell you now what I didn't tell you then.
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SPEAKER_00: She was an overthinker, a world-class one.
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SPEAKER_00: But every morning, out at the burr baths, she had her eyes on the water.
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SPEAKER_00: Her hands were on the hose.
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SPEAKER_00: And for those minutes, the loop had no fuel at all.
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SPEAKER_00: When I asked her what she thought about when she was out there, she said, I don't think I'm thinking about anything.
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SPEAKER_00: You see, that wasn't an absence.
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SPEAKER_00: That was the fullest her attention got all day.
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SPEAKER_00: So here's your practice.
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SPEAKER_00: And it's the same one underneath both minds.
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SPEAKER_00: Give your attention a home outside the loop.
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SPEAKER_00: For you, that might be a simple, physical, hands-busy task you already do.
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SPEAKER_00: Perhaps washing dishes with your attention on the warm water, or folding laundry.
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SPEAKER_00: Perhaps it's brushing your dog, or even outside pulling weeds.
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SPEAKER_00: Any of these becomes your practice the moment you do it with your attention resting in your hands and senses.
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SPEAKER_00: So for a mind like yours, 10 minutes of that is worth more than an hour of eyes closed combat.
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SPEAKER_00: And one last thing.
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SPEAKER_00: And I'd rather you not think hard about it.
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SPEAKER_00: In your ordinary day, your loop will already go quiet and your attention will come home.
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SPEAKER_00: And it happens so naturally, you never once counted it as anything.
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SPEAKER_00: So that the one question I would probably ask you is where is your birdbath?
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SPEAKER_00: Join me next time for episode seven What if Stillness Doesn't Feel Safe?
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SPEAKER_00: Until then, I'm Swami Larry.