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You’re Not Behind: Trusting God’s Timing, Seasons & Process | with Desiree Danielle | EP128 · Jess Ask

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Speaker 2: Yes, Glory be to God.
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Speaker 1: If you don't know where you've entered, you've entered the
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Speaker 1: safe space where influencers can decompress, have fun and guess what,
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Speaker 1: Just just ask the girl, Jessica as Smith. And I'm
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Speaker 1: with the best, my best friend, my producer des a
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Speaker 1: rate aid.
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Speaker 3: Rate rate.
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Speaker 1: So it has because we took a break and we did.
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Speaker 1: We took a good we took a wonderful break, okay,
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Speaker 1: and the rest was needed.
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Speaker 3: Yeah, I didn't know I needed the rest.
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Speaker 1: It's so cool because we had a uh this Bible
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Speaker 1: bowld thing at church and uh one of and we
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Speaker 1: started and I started studying in the Creation of Genesis, right,
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Speaker 1: So just walking through those days and watching how the
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Speaker 1: Lord was strategic about everything he did, but he was
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Speaker 1: working like that was working but that last day he
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Speaker 1: was like, Hey, this is good, this is good.
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Speaker 2: But I'm about to sat down on you. I'm about
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Speaker 2: to sat down you.
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Speaker 3: Already in today's conversation. Lord man.
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Speaker 1: No, that is good because sometimes we look at God
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Speaker 1: like we're not supposed to to not mock him in
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Speaker 1: the way of uh disrespect, but copy him, like regard
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Speaker 1: him in the fact that Okay, since God did it
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Speaker 1: this way, I can do it this way.
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Speaker 3: And sometimes we don't.
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Speaker 1: Believe that the power invested in us was to use
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Speaker 1: it to be able to walk as if God himself
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Speaker 1: aka Jesus was here on earth. I was just gonna say,
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Speaker 1: that's the whole purpose of him sending himself in Jesus' form.
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Speaker 3: Yeah, so he looked like us.
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Speaker 2: So it was tangible.
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Speaker 1: Right. So it's like, hey, if you want to know
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Speaker 1: how the X, Y and Z, let's go look what
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Speaker 1: Jesus did. Yes, yes, And so as we have this platform,
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Speaker 1: just as the podcast, I think it's only fair that
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Speaker 1: we talk about, you know, a subject that just keeps
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Speaker 1: coming up around me does a ray And it's so
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Speaker 1: good that you started with that scripture. Because I was
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Speaker 1: talking to a few podcasters shout out to the seven
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Speaker 1: figure podcast community, and we were on the subject of
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Speaker 1: feeling like we are behind as a podcaster, feeling like
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Speaker 1: we are behind and if you feel like you've been
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Speaker 1: behind in whether podcast and creation are building okay, or
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Speaker 1: you're a builder and the Lord has called you to build,
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Speaker 1: you feel like that you're behind in this state, I
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Speaker 1: need you put in a chat. You can put I
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Speaker 1: feel behind. I feel behind. That is real, It's real.
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Speaker 1: But come on, because there's a butt. Because there's a butt,
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Speaker 1: and so DESI ray before I get into it, Like,
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Speaker 1: has there been a time recent recently that you can
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Speaker 1: think of that you felt behind?
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Speaker 2: Yeah?
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Speaker 1: So a little, a little naturally and spiritually okay, right,
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Speaker 1: so naturally because I think if we're not careful with
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Speaker 1: uh scrolling and looking at what everybody's doing in the
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Speaker 1: social webs and what you know, the business spaces and
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Speaker 1: all these things, you'll feel like you're behind.
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Speaker 2: But the truth is you're probably right on time. Come on,
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Speaker 2: you know what I'm saying.
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Speaker 1: Yeah, spiritually, because I feel like I'm still a babing
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Speaker 1: Christ Like I literally feel like my my rebirthing was
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Speaker 1: only in twenty twenty one, so you're only.
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Speaker 2: Talking about four years.
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Speaker 1: You know what I'm saying, And so I'm I'm the
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Speaker 1: Lord has graciously surrounded me around powerful leaders, friends that
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Speaker 1: I get to see, anointed that's walking in these spaces,
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Speaker 1: and I'm like, so.
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Speaker 2: I can carry your.
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Speaker 1: Phone for you know, yeah, just naturally, you just feel like, dang, Lord, like,
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Speaker 1: am I doing enough?
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Speaker 2: Am I where I need to be? X, Y and Z.
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Speaker 1: But the truth of the matter is what I'm learning
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Speaker 1: is everything has a process, Everything has a due day
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Speaker 1: in a season.
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Speaker 2: So we have to be okay.
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Speaker 1: I remember my pastor a last year, and I've just
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Speaker 1: I've just been gtting to settle in that. She's like,
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Speaker 1: you just have to you have to be okay with
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Speaker 1: the path that God has.
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Speaker 3: To tell you.
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Speaker 2: You know what I'm saying.
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Speaker 1: And so there's so I'm settling into like, Okay, Lord,
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Speaker 1: You've given me these things to do.
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Speaker 2: Let me focus on this.
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Speaker 1: Let me extend my hands where my hands need to
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Speaker 1: be extended. But let me just focusing in this season.
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Speaker 1: I've really been focusing in also because my pastor saying, hey, this,
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Speaker 1: you're all over the place. Yeah, you know, and it's
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Speaker 1: not a bad thing. I just think as a creative,
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Speaker 1: like the Lord just gives us so many things to do.
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Speaker 1: But one thing that really stuck with me. What she
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Speaker 1: said was you don't want to be an excellent starter
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Speaker 1: and a horrible finisher.
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Speaker 2: Come on, you know what I'm saying.
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Speaker 1: So that really has helped me to focus in and
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Speaker 1: not saying I'm not going to do all the things,
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Speaker 1: but focusing on what the Lord has calling me to
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Speaker 1: do in this season. And that has helped me to
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Speaker 1: not be so worried about am I behind or not?
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Speaker 1: Because the truth is I'm right on time. You're right
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Speaker 1: on time. And I think that's why it's so important
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Speaker 1: to know what season you're in.
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Speaker 2: Yeah, like what season is?
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Speaker 3: It's in the natural, we have four different seasons.
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Speaker 1: So in our spirit man or in our lives, I
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Speaker 1: believe there are there is at least four different seasons,
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Speaker 1: and the seasons that we get to see in the
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Speaker 1: natural are indication of what we see in the spirit. Right,
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Speaker 1: we go through through our withering seasons, we go through
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Speaker 1: our sunny seasons, we go through the windy seasons, we
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Speaker 1: go through the rising.
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Speaker 3: What season are you in? Right?
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Speaker 1: We have to ask ourselves the right questions, and because
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Speaker 1: we don't, let's write this down because we do not
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Speaker 1: ask ourselves the right questions. We do not know where
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Speaker 1: we're going or where we're supposed to be. And the
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Speaker 1: thing about it is, you can't tell you. How can
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Speaker 1: you tell you that you are behind on you? I'm
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Speaker 1: gonna say that again because I don't think they really
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Speaker 1: hurt me. How are you gonna tell you that you
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Speaker 1: are behind on you?
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Speaker 3: Right?
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Speaker 1: Because if we're talking about individualized journeys, if we're talking
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Speaker 1: about being uniquely and wonderfully made, that means everything about
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Speaker 1: me is about me, Like everything about Jessica is about Jessica,
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Speaker 1: everything about desil Ray is about Desiree, everything about you
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Speaker 1: is about you. And so we get in our own
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Speaker 1: way sometimes in thinking that we're behind. So when we
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Speaker 1: think we're behind, guess what we become behind when we
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Speaker 1: think so a man thinks, as a man thinks, let
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Speaker 1: me correct myself, as a man thinks, so he's he's.
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Speaker 1: So if you think that you are behind on your journey,
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Speaker 1: guess what. Guess what you're gonna keep doing. Being behind
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Speaker 1: it's gonna deflect you from doing what you're supposed to
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Speaker 1: do in the right season. And now you're looking at
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Speaker 1: different seasons like you know what if I if I
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Speaker 1: if I had started this podcast about two years ago,
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Speaker 1: I at least have you don't know what you would have.
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Speaker 1: We're three years in at this point, y'all looking at
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Speaker 1: a I told I told them this. I told them
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Speaker 1: this desiree. I said, we look at stages and in
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Speaker 1: this case season as we look at human develops. I
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Speaker 1: took human development in college. That was my minor, and
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Speaker 1: one of the things I learned is, and even with
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Speaker 1: the other the therapy, you learn the stages of life
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Speaker 1: and where you are in. So they say, typically and
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Speaker 1: stay in the infant stage, which is maybe up to
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Speaker 1: one years old. They're gonna do this and this is
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Speaker 1: what they attach themselves to and this is that like
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Speaker 1: they have all these diaphragms, and then you get to
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Speaker 1: the next stage and the lixt stage is from like
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Speaker 1: one to three toddler like a toddler. So we're technically
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Speaker 1: just asked in Tyler's stages. But guess what, people, some
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Speaker 1: people don't look at us like we're in taler stage.
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Speaker 1: They think that we be expended.
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Speaker 3: You know what I'm saying. The boy jay Z come out,
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Speaker 3: you know what I'm saying, Like we're not jay Z.
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Speaker 1: We are still we just learned how to walk. Literally,
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Speaker 1: we've just.
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Speaker 3: Learned how to walk as podcasters.
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Speaker 1: Literally, it's so good because I think sometimes there's the
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Speaker 1: fine line. There's like, hey, there's these like you said,
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Speaker 1: there's infants, there's toddler, there's adolescent, adulthood, early whatever, And
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Speaker 1: they had like these mild markers that they have placed
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Speaker 1: within these timeframes to let you know how you're developing
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Speaker 1: along the journey. So what happens is if let's say,
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Speaker 1: because our own journeys are all unique, right, all uniquely different,
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Speaker 1: Let's say you get to a point and by this
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Speaker 1: point the standard the mild marker says, oh, she should
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Speaker 1: be talking by now, right, girl, come on, see by
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Speaker 1: this point right here, because they are two years in,
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Speaker 1: three years in, they should be talking like this by now.
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Speaker 1: They should be developing these types of words by now.
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Speaker 1: But what if you get to this stage and that's
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Speaker 1: not the case. So now what we do is something
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Speaker 1: is wrong. What is wrong with X, Y and Z.
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Speaker 1: I'm behind The development is slow. But the truth of
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Speaker 1: the matter is are you are you? If we if
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Speaker 1: and I keep like so it's really it's really dope.
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Speaker 1: When you really just realize, like life is really just
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Speaker 1: a process and a journey, you know what I'm saying,
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Speaker 1: and im and I'm settling into that and I'm slowing
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Speaker 1: down to enjoy the process. Yeah, instead of like, hey,
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Speaker 1: because I'm big, I'm big picture, big vision, I'm not
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Speaker 1: a very hadn't been a very detailed orientation. So in
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Speaker 1: this in this season, I'm beginning to slow down so.
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Speaker 2: That I can see the details.
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Speaker 3: That's so good.
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Speaker 1: And so if if the Lord says that he has
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Speaker 1: a plan for us, right, plans to prosper us, give
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Speaker 1: us hope in the future, and it's good and like
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Speaker 1: so that means that this too is just a part
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Speaker 1: of his process. Right, So if there if we have
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Speaker 1: a problem with the process, a lot of times what
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Speaker 1: we do is we be trying. We're trying to figure
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Speaker 1: out all the things, but we just got to go
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Speaker 1: back to the I'm gonna go back to the manufacturer,
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Speaker 1: Like if he has already made the manual, let me
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Speaker 1: go back to him and figure out and to stand
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Speaker 1: what's happening right now. That's why I think it's important,
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Speaker 1: like you said, to understand what seasons you are in.
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Speaker 1: I think that's so good and I think that's to
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Speaker 1: the next point. What you just said is our next point,
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Speaker 1: which is examining your process the only way even if
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Speaker 1: you would want to consider being behind, No, you're not behind.
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Speaker 1: You don't know your process, and not knowing your process
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Speaker 1: and living in ignorance to what you need to do
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Speaker 1: in the stages that you need to be in is
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Speaker 1: a hindrance to you, and it will make you feel
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Speaker 1: like you're behind because you haven't written the vision and
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Speaker 1: made it plain. It's one of the things I've said recently.
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Speaker 1: I can't I think I said it to the Safe
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Speaker 1: Space shout out to I say space family, nineteen dollars
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Speaker 1: a month. You can just come in and we meet
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Speaker 1: twice a month. And in one of our meetings recently,
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Speaker 1: we were talking some probably talking about something similar, and
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Speaker 1: the Lord brought to the idea of I always missed
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Speaker 1: this name of tobacco, tobacco two and two or two
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Speaker 1: and two to three, uh huh, something like this in them.
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Speaker 1: But it talks about writing the vision and making it
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Speaker 1: plain so that they could run with it. And so
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Speaker 1: one of the things I love being a podcaster is
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Speaker 1: that it teaches me to interview things that I encounter.
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Speaker 1: So now I'm interviewing the Bible. Okay, who is they?
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Speaker 1: Who is they?
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Speaker 3: All right?
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Speaker 5: Question?
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Speaker 3: Who is they?
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Speaker 1: They could be the people that you are leading, right,
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Speaker 1: they could be the people that you are around. But
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Speaker 1: what if I told you they is the next version
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Speaker 1: of you? What if I told you that you're writing
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Speaker 1: down the vision and making it plain so that the
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Speaker 1: next version of you can run with it.
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Speaker 2: That's good.
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Speaker 1: So that the next version of you can be supported
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Speaker 1: with the vision. So the next version of you can
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Speaker 1: be supported with the plan. And sometimes because we don't
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Speaker 1: know our plan, we don't know our processes, we will
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Speaker 1: lie to ourselves about what's really going on.
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Speaker 2: That's good.
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Speaker 1: I just pulled it up. So this is the Passion translation.
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Speaker 1: So you know, there's many different translations of the Bible.
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Speaker 1: You know, find your flavoring your tea. But I really
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Speaker 1: like the Passion because it just reads almost kind of
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Speaker 1: like the New Living Translation. Yeah, not as because you
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Speaker 1: know what I'm saying, but it still gives you like
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Speaker 1: I can understand it, and then I'll take it sometimes
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Speaker 1: and then I'll go read maybe like the King James,
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Speaker 1: just to kind of compare the two.
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Speaker 2: You know what I'm saying, so this is the habaka.
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Speaker 3: Two wait the way that's right, don't gotta put up.
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Speaker 1: Read okay, so this is two two through three in
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Speaker 1: the passion translation.
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Speaker 2: Okay, y'all, it says.
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Speaker 1: Then y'ahwe replied, Write down the revelation, write it legibly
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Speaker 1: on clay tablets, so that whoever reads it may run
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Speaker 1: and explain it to others. The vision still awaits and
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Speaker 1: appointed time. It speaks of the end and will not
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Speaker 1: prove to be false. When the appointed time comes, it
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Speaker 1: will happen with breathless haste. Although it may seem slow,
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Speaker 1: just be patient and wait for it. Surely would come
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Speaker 1: on the right time.
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Speaker 3: That's so good. I love that you said, it says,
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Speaker 3: write it legibly, legibly, Look at the word legibly? What
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Speaker 3: is the what does the this is how? This is how.
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Speaker 1: I and I want you to see what I'm doing.
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Speaker 1: People that study anything, the best thing that you can
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Speaker 1: do is interview that subject. Right. That's how you become
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Speaker 1: a good interviewer. As a podcaster, That's how you become
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Speaker 1: an interview a good a good builder, because you ask
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Speaker 1: the right questions, right, and so what does legibly?
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Speaker 2: It says in the context of handwriting clear enough to.
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Speaker 1: Be read, clear enough that enough word is important. Legibly
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Speaker 1: means it's clear enough to be read, meaning that it's
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Speaker 1: not perfect, but it's understood by the reader. Some of
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Speaker 1: us don't have the right reader. Some of us don't
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Speaker 1: want people to read because the handwriting ain't perfect. Some
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Speaker 1: of us hadn't even made it legible enough to read.
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Speaker 1: We are not making it clear, and so we got
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Speaker 1: to see what's going on with the vision.
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Speaker 3: Thank you, Holy Spirit.
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Speaker 1: We gotta see what's going on with the vision. Have
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Speaker 1: you even attempted to write it down? Have you attempted
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Speaker 1: to say the thing was a thing?
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Speaker 3: Right? All right?
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Speaker 1: If you've tried to write it down or whatever? Is
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Speaker 1: it legible? Is it clear about what's going on? The
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Speaker 1: only way you know how it's clear and watch it
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Speaker 1: is somebody to make it very practical for you. Is
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Speaker 1: your accountability partner. Who is your accountabilit partner? My accountability partner,
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Speaker 1: y'all see her every week? Okay, y'all. She's my business partner.
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Speaker 1: She's my best friend, she's my sister. She is all
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Speaker 1: in my business case in point right. Now we're in
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Speaker 1: the season of getting Jessica's finances together, getting her budget together.
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Speaker 1: And when I tell you she works my last nerve,
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Speaker 1: I'll think I'm making it playing. She'd be like, nope,
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Speaker 1: what's this? What's this? What's this?
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Speaker 3: What? How much you pay for this?
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Speaker 1: And I'm like, ma'am, you're really working my nerves. And
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Speaker 1: I could stay there. I could.
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Speaker 3: Just all right, keep on now, keep on. I'm gonna
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Speaker 3: go cut your camera. I could. I can stay in
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Speaker 3: a state of frustration. Right, that is not clear to her.
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Speaker 1: But she can't run with helping me if I don't
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Speaker 1: make it clear to her about my plan.
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Speaker 3: Right, So I'm leaving stuff out and she can see it.
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Speaker 1: Yeah, that's good because that's exactly what happened. Right, So
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Speaker 1: we know the vision, right, she's giving me the vision
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Speaker 1: and the plan. So with the vision, we've made the plan.
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Speaker 1: And I said, hey, I need with this, we're gonna
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Speaker 1: do it like this and this, right, So Jessica does it,
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Speaker 1: gives me a piece of it.
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Speaker 2: I said, hey, this is amazing.
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Speaker 3: Great. You know you didn't you didn't even compliment me
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Speaker 3: on that.
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Speaker 2: Well, that's what I said, That's what I said in
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Speaker 2: my head. I said, oh, okay, great, she's.
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Speaker 3: On on the move.
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Speaker 2: But I need X, Y and Z.
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Speaker 1: She's like, but you said d da da I said,
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Speaker 1: I did say that, but I need the full thing
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Speaker 1: in order to for us to get there. So it's
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Speaker 1: it's it's like if you if you write it down,
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Speaker 1: you have to write it down legibly enough for your
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Speaker 1: accountability to hold your accountable so that they can run
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Speaker 1: with it.
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Speaker 2: That's what running with it means. That's what running with
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Speaker 2: it means.
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Speaker 1: That's what's so good is even in that my my
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Speaker 1: expectation of what was full to me because you've been
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Speaker 1: there and you know what you're doing. That wasn't the
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Speaker 1: full vision, and you knew that wasn't the full vision
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Speaker 1: or what was needed to carry the vision out to
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Speaker 1: be able to run with it. So in my mind
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Speaker 1: right now, her Holy Spirit said, partial vision, partial blessing.
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Speaker 3: That was kind of that was that was that.
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Speaker 1: I'm gonna say it again just so you can digest
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Speaker 1: at this time, because that one's strong, partial vision, partial blessing,
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Speaker 1: meaning that if I only write part of it down,
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Speaker 1: I don't know what I need to see for the risk,
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Speaker 1: I don't know what I need to do, I don't
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Speaker 1: know what I need to look forward to and that's okay,
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Speaker 1: tapping into spiritual right, the prophetic right.
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Speaker 3: I know we get.
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Speaker 1: Bits and pieces sometimes, but let me use a dream.
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Speaker 1: Thank you Holy Spirit for giving me clarity on this.
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Speaker 1: So I didn't un fully understand the dream that I
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Speaker 1: had about Tabitha Brown.
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Speaker 3: Now two years ago, it'll be two years when.
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Speaker 1: I had the dream about Tabitha Brown, I thought it
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Speaker 1: was on my podcast.
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Speaker 3: I thought that we had a bigger studio. I thought.
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Speaker 1: I was like, oh my gosh, and I wrote my dream,
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Speaker 1: not even just no, I wrote that dream down. I
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Speaker 1: typed it out in my notes right, So that was
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Speaker 1: December January. She reached out and said, hey, I would
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Speaker 1: love for you to moderate for my Birmingham show. In
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Speaker 1: that moment, I shared my dream with her. I had
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Speaker 1: readen it down, and she was like, well, look at God,
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Speaker 1: you get what I'm saying. We end up running with
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Speaker 1: the dream and not watched it. When I said, oh,
19:28
Speaker 1: I thought it was just gonna be a podcast. Not
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Speaker 1: only did I get the moderation, but now on our
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Speaker 1: one hundredth episode, we get her to be on our episode.
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Speaker 1: So the one dream can tell you a lot about
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Speaker 1: what's happening, right, Because even my thoughts were right, but
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Speaker 1: that was limited.
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Speaker 3: Wo girl.
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Speaker 1: That's where God and the Holy Spirit comes in. When
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Speaker 1: you lean out into your own understanding, when you lean
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Speaker 1: into the will of the Lord and not your own,
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Speaker 1: that's when the greater can show up. Yeah, I'm giving
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Speaker 1: my my I'm I'm giving my portion, right, I'm doing
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Speaker 1: my part. I'm writing it down and some of us
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Speaker 1: thank you Holy Spirit. Some of us think that the
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Speaker 1: vision as builders, we think that the vision is our
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Speaker 1: own to carry. We get that misconstrued, we get it
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Speaker 1: misconstrued with yeah, it's our responsibility. What's your responsibility in
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Speaker 1: this season? That's why you gotta know what season it is.
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Speaker 1: One of the things I loved that we did during
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Speaker 1: the break was that we have a just asked retreat
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Speaker 1: where the m the people that help on camera and
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Speaker 1: off camera are invited to relax, be rejuvenated. Last year
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Speaker 1: was our first year, and I struggled. M I struggled
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Speaker 1: really bad. I felt guilty for being sleep I felt
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Speaker 1: guilty and I was I kept telling Desiraate, that's where
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Speaker 1: we gotta that's where we gotta sit down at the table. Deseray,
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Speaker 1: what time we gonna do s what time we gonna
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Speaker 1: do Desiraate, deserraate Desi Ray when it happened, yeah, and
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Speaker 1: desil Ray was so calm. Desil Ray was j enjoying
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Speaker 1: the faith that she was learning how she can get
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Speaker 1: her own coffee at home. At home she couldn't get
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Speaker 1: she could get fancy coffee home, while I was like, no,
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Speaker 1: but this is what we alloted this time for.
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Speaker 2: So how did this time go?
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Speaker 3: Ma'am?
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Speaker 1: I so Desireate was talking about me because we end up.
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Speaker 1: When we got to the room, the first thing I
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Speaker 1: did was I laid in the bed and I thought
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Speaker 1: I was just gonna lay down and just kind of
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Speaker 1: scroll or whatever.
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Speaker 3: Ma'am was sleep.
21:29
Speaker 1: Ma'am was a knocked out sleep. Ma'am was tagged ma'am.
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Speaker 1: Ma'am did not know she was sleep.
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Speaker 3: Ma'am was sleep sleep. Yeah.
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Speaker 1: And so when I woke up, I woke up several
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Speaker 1: times and went back to sleep like tired. This was
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Speaker 1: probably almost about two hours, real bad like I don't
21:50
Speaker 1: know what she was doing, but I was knocked out.
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Speaker 3: And so when I got up, She's like, Jesse, you
21:56
Speaker 3: were knocked out here. I'm so tired.
21:58
Speaker 1: I haven't really slept, and you know, between the moving
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Speaker 1: and being consistent with this. It's just as it can
22:05
Speaker 1: be a lot, you know what I'm saying, Like we
22:06
Speaker 1: are hard workers.
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Speaker 3: We work hard.
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Speaker 1: Like, let's let's not get it twisted, okay, we all
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Speaker 1: here outsiding, okay.
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Speaker 3: And so.
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Speaker 1: When that happened, I felt like I was spinning, feel guilty.
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Speaker 1: I said, you know what we got tomorrow. I just
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Speaker 1: that's how I rewarded myself. I said, you know what
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Speaker 1: we got tomorrow, Just chill out or whatever we was
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Speaker 1: waiting on. Keeping in mind we had had driven about
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Speaker 1: four hours. Yeah, by four hours at this point, it's
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Speaker 1: probably like four or five o'clock in the evening.
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Speaker 3: Yeah, you know what I'm saying.
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Speaker 2: So it ain't really a whole lot that's about to happen.
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Speaker 3: Yeah, you know what I'm saying.
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Speaker 1: So it's so interesting that you said, oh, we got tomorrow,
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Speaker 1: Like tomorrow, we ain't gonna be resting too, but we
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Speaker 1: do it. The next day we rested. We rested, and
22:48
Speaker 1: rest doesn't just look like sleeping. Rest looks like we
22:51
Speaker 1: went and got pedicures.
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Speaker 3: Oh that was so beautiful. We shopped, and if y'all
22:56
Speaker 3: know me, I don't shop. It stresses me. Yeah, I
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Speaker 3: actually bought something.
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Speaker 2: On my own.
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Speaker 1: On my own, okay, I was I was decompressed enough
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Speaker 1: to do something that normally makes me anxious, y'all catch
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Speaker 1: it tomorrow. I was decompressed enough to go forward in
23:15
Speaker 1: doing something that really gets my shocks my nerves, and
23:20
Speaker 1: so I was like.
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Speaker 3: Okay, we're gonna do it.
23:23
Speaker 1: We're gonna do you know, We're gonna do it later
23:25
Speaker 1: on or whatever. And that was where it was like,
23:28
Speaker 1: she ended up asking me because I think she knows
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Speaker 1: her friends.
23:30
Speaker 3: She's like, hey, when do you want to when do
23:32
Speaker 3: you want to meet? And I was like, I don't know.
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Speaker 1: I was like, let's let's go back and risk and
23:37
Speaker 1: see how we feel. And the fact that I said
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Speaker 1: that was pretty big because I was being anxious for nothing.
23:44
Speaker 1: That's where that scripture comes in. You have you have
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Speaker 1: to decide that anxiety will not control your decision making
23:50
Speaker 1: good And the only way that anxiety does not control
23:54
Speaker 1: your decision making is if you decide to risk, you
23:58
Speaker 1: can make good decisions or the best decision comes out
24:01
Speaker 1: of be a calm right, you say, how can people
24:05
Speaker 1: be so calm in certain situations because they've practiced breaking
24:09
Speaker 1: up with anxiety. They've practiced not being with anxiety every
24:15
Speaker 1: day of their lives, and so I was as an
24:17
Speaker 1: anxious person because baby type A type type I'm doing
24:23
Speaker 1: so much better. I may kindall get a calendar with
24:28
Speaker 1: specifically for the kids. And we're sharing a calendar now.
24:31
Speaker 1: And she looked at me, she was like, you're very
24:33
Speaker 1: type A, but it's gonna help me out. I was like, yeah,
24:35
Speaker 1: we need to. If I'm gonna help you, I gotta
24:37
Speaker 1: have it on my calendar, and this the kids calendar.
24:40
Speaker 1: So I'm gonna be able to see what you put
24:41
Speaker 1: on here and what you don't put on here. That's
24:43
Speaker 1: the type A that I am. Okay, So so the
24:48
Speaker 1: next day we was like, you know what, We're gonna
24:51
Speaker 1: meet Sunday, Literally, y'all, Breed spoke a word over us.
24:59
Speaker 1: We at basically church on on the beach. It was
25:02
Speaker 1: beautiful at sunrise and we met after breakfast maybe the
25:08
Speaker 1: last hour hour and a half that we had left
25:11
Speaker 1: in our room. Literally as it was a getting done,
25:12
Speaker 1: the folks was knocking on the door, the housekeeping the
25:16
Speaker 1: coming and clean the room because it was check out time.
25:18
Speaker 1: And I'm very clear on the vision, very I didn't
25:22
Speaker 1: leave with unanswered questions. There are some things that we're
25:25
Speaker 1: still gonna tweak and make sense. Y'all are gonna be
25:28
Speaker 1: excited because it's gonna be another opportunity for you guys
25:30
Speaker 1: to work with us. But I left clear. I left
25:36
Speaker 1: clear because I was rested, and so rest benefits you
25:43
Speaker 1: more than you. You know, we were able. I wasn't
25:46
Speaker 1: all of the place, Like what am I trying to say?
25:49
Speaker 1: Cause sometimes I do that? Like what was I about
25:52
Speaker 1: to say? I forgot this? And I know I was
25:54
Speaker 1: very clear in communication. She didn't really If y'all know Deserbray,
25:58
Speaker 1: y'all think I interviewed, there's a ray is an interviewer.
26:01
Speaker 1: She's gonna poke and pride and all this stuff like that.
26:06
Speaker 1: The only thing that she said was Jessica, we need this,
26:08
Speaker 1: this and this all right? And I was able to say, Okay,
26:12
Speaker 1: there's a Ray, I would like to see this, this, this,
26:15
Speaker 1: we need to go back to this.
26:16
Speaker 3: How did we do this? This year? We had we
26:18
Speaker 3: won focused. Last year. Our focus was our.
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Speaker 2: Systems, right systems and consistency.
26:23
Speaker 1: Guess what, Everything ain't perfect, but it's enough, ah that
26:28
Speaker 1: goes back.
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Speaker 3: It's legible enough, for us to pass on.
26:32
Speaker 1: If once we continue to grow our team right with
26:36
Speaker 1: some of the stuff that we're doing now, we won't
26:37
Speaker 1: have to worry about doing later.
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Speaker 3: I'm professing that right now.
26:40
Speaker 1: Next twenty twenty six, we're gonna be like, hey, y'all,
26:43
Speaker 1: this is how we've been doing it.
26:44
Speaker 3: Slide it your way so we can we can focused
26:48
Speaker 3: on this part again, guessed all and stuff like that.
26:51
Speaker 3: But the back end work is solid now.
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Speaker 1: Monetization twenty twenty six making it very clear that means
26:57
Speaker 1: provided offers and opportunities to work with you guys to
27:02
Speaker 1: to build the safe space, you know, which is for builders,
27:05
Speaker 1: people that are that are have been stuck or behind
27:12
Speaker 1: because they're in their own way right. We have plenty
27:15
Speaker 1: of those. I was talking to one of the members
27:17
Speaker 1: yesterday and she was like, Man, I've never been in
27:20
Speaker 1: a community or a space to where did I wasn't
27:24
Speaker 1: the one that was looked upon to do stuff right?
27:27
Speaker 3: I can.
27:27
Speaker 1: I can literally be free and rested and actually soak
27:33
Speaker 1: up information in this space and not and not dwell
27:37
Speaker 1: on me having to be the builder.
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Speaker 3: I can.
27:40
Speaker 1: I can rest in the fact that I'm safe here.
27:43
Speaker 1: I can be vulnerable here and I get what I
27:45
Speaker 1: need so I can move forward. That's the space that
27:48
Speaker 1: we have, right and so there's gonna be more opportunities.
27:54
Speaker 3: They're gonna be more opportunities.
27:56
Speaker 1: I'm just gonna say that we're doing some major things
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Speaker 1: and twenty twenty six, and so I think that I
28:05
Speaker 1: think that's enough for today. Does it where you you
28:08
Speaker 1: got any thoughts? I was just thinking even yesterday I
28:13
Speaker 1: almost had a guilty thought as I had gotten up,
28:17
Speaker 1: did the gym, you know, had some quiet time, you know,
28:22
Speaker 1: did a little few little things, little work things here
28:24
Speaker 1: and there, took a shower. Then I was like, okay,
28:26
Speaker 1: I got do do do do?
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Speaker 3: Do do do?
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Speaker 2: I know I had make up appointment to do, and
28:31
Speaker 2: I know I had some things I need to be
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Speaker 2: working on. Right.
28:34
Speaker 1: I sat down, and I know, maybe like two hours later,
28:39
Speaker 1: I was still on the couch and I was like, dang,
28:43
Speaker 1: this couch just won't let me go. But it just
28:46
Speaker 1: it just made me think that obviously my body needed
28:49
Speaker 1: that because that's not something that naturally normally happens, because
28:52
Speaker 1: I don't give myself the opportunity just to rest and
28:54
Speaker 1: sit down. But having that moment just allowed me to
28:57
Speaker 1: feel refreshed and now like it's a busy weekend, and
29:00
Speaker 1: so now I have the energy, I'm at the capacity
29:03
Speaker 1: to be able to execute what needs to happen on
29:06
Speaker 1: this weekend, going into the weekend at an excellent level without.
29:11
Speaker 2: Being tired and way down.
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Speaker 1: So I'll just say, like one, when you're talking about
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Speaker 1: writing a vision down and I'm just thinking about myself,
29:18
Speaker 1: a lot of times I haven't either written it down
29:22
Speaker 1: or it wasn't legible, because the truth of the matter is,
29:26
Speaker 1: once you come into a revelation of a thing, you're
29:29
Speaker 1: not responsible for what you do with it.
29:31
Speaker 2: Right, So for me, writing it down in a way that's.
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Speaker 1: Legible means that, hey, this thing's some kind of way
29:39
Speaker 1: is gonna have to happen, and I know that I
29:41
Speaker 1: have a part to play. The issue sometimes is we
29:44
Speaker 1: think that I know. For me, it scares me because
29:49
Speaker 1: I'm looking at this big thing as the version of myself,
29:52
Speaker 1: as this current version of myself, thinking like I know
29:55
Speaker 1: I can't do this, or I'm trying to figure out
29:57
Speaker 1: how to do it on my own according to own strength. Right,
30:00
Speaker 1: So the responsibility is to write it down and to
30:03
Speaker 1: give it back to the Lord, give it back to
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Speaker 1: give it back to the manufacturer and have him to
30:08
Speaker 1: help you walk it out. Now there'll he'll show you
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Speaker 1: the parts. You'll know the parts that you need to do.
30:13
Speaker 1: But you also have to be okay with releasing the
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Speaker 1: parts that you don't have control over. Come on, you
30:17
Speaker 1: know what I'm saying. And so y'all read that Habecca
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Speaker 1: two through three in the Passion translation.
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Speaker 2: I think it's just it's just beautifully written.
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Speaker 1: And let that soak in your spirit, and just ask
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Speaker 1: the Lord to just make clear, make clear.
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Speaker 2: On what season that you're in right now.
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Speaker 3: That's so good.
30:34
Speaker 2: They make clear of what season you're in right now
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Speaker 2: in this in the vision.
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Speaker 1: In the vision right because there's stages, there's a process,
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Speaker 1: and the truth is is that we've decided to believe
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Speaker 1: the lie that we're behind on us, and we're not.
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Speaker 3: We're not. God is not behind on us. He's just
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Speaker 3: waiting us.
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Speaker 1: To come to the realization that we're in the right
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Speaker 1: season at the right time, and we're on to be
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Speaker 1: clear on that because the vision is going to be
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Speaker 1: made legible not just for us, but for all men
31:06
Speaker 1: to see.
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Speaker 3: And so I think it was a good conversation.
31:08
Speaker 1: I think this was a good reminder, especially because we're
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Speaker 1: winding down on twenty twenty five, and so I think
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Speaker 1: that this is a perfect time for you to write
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Speaker 1: that vision, make it plain aka legible, so that you
31:23
Speaker 1: may have clarity on what season that you're in. And
31:26
Speaker 1: so I want to say this really quick. Just it
31:28
Speaker 1: just something that Pastor A Will say. Don't allow you
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Speaker 1: know currently what you're seeing to keep you from writing
31:37
Speaker 1: it down and believing what the Lord that said, because
31:39
Speaker 1: obviously like we think, like, oh, this was a random thought. No,
31:43
Speaker 1: it was placed in their placed in you for a reason.
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Speaker 1: And one thing Pastor A Will always tell us is
31:48
Speaker 1: that the enemy to faith is not a fear, its sight.
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Speaker 1: So I just know we're in a in a It's
31:55
Speaker 1: a lot going on right now in the world that
31:58
Speaker 1: could make you think that this thing won't have Yeah,
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Speaker 1: you know what I'm saying, But you have to state
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Speaker 1: that's why you have to stay in the presence of
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Speaker 1: the Lord. Yeah, and allow him to lead you and
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Speaker 1: guide you and give you directions in this season for
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Speaker 1: that right. Yeah, that's so good. So we want to
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Speaker 1: hear from you, guys, if you've made it to this point.
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Speaker 1: I don't know, for one, if you're not subscribed, what
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Speaker 3: And what are you doing like you.
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Speaker 1: Just playing with yourself at this point, join the family. Secondly,
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Speaker 1: come in below like it does this resonate with you?
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Speaker 1: And if it's already resonated with you, how has it
32:30
Speaker 1: worked for you? Because we only overcome by the the
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Speaker 1: blood of the Lamb and the word of our testimony.
32:34
Speaker 1: And you can testify in the comments, and we want
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Speaker 1: to see your testimony about how you wrote the vision,
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Speaker 1: you made it play and you were clear about the
32:41
Speaker 1: season that you were in. Understanding that you are not behind.
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Speaker 1: We love you here it just as the podcast. So
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Speaker 1: until next time. Until next week, remember life could be
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Speaker 1: much more simple if you just say as.
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Speaker 5: Peace y'all, thank you for tuning in to this week's episode.
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Speaker 1: I know I won't see you back until next week,
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Speaker 1: but until then, remember to love always yourself and always thank.
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Speaker 4: Thank God for one another day. Hey, Hey, I know
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Speaker 4: we could be another way. Hey, pray thank God for
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Speaker 4: another day. Hey, Hey, I'm just thankful for another day. Hey, Hey,
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Speaker 4: another day, Oh, another day wise, another day to get
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Speaker 4: it right, another day to rise up, another day living,
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Speaker 4: another day. We loved ones I always remember hold it
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