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Why You’re Still Avoiding It | EP161 · Jess Ask

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  Speaker 2: as simple as that sounds. Just grateful to be here
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  Speaker 2: because we're just in a time where it's just a
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  Speaker 2: lot happening, you know, and if nothing else, I'm just
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  Speaker 2: grateful to be here. Yeah, yeah, to not only be here,
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  Speaker 2: but to be present like because I think that sometimes
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  Speaker 2: we are grateful to have the SS but not do
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  Speaker 2: anything with the excess. And to be present in the
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  Speaker 2: excess means that you are moving according to the the
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  Speaker 2: manufactor of you, like the build of you. You know,
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  Speaker 2: we haven't talked brought up our next word of the
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  Speaker 2: year is builder. Build by the word is the word? Listen, listen.
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  Speaker 2: We're going on to two months, going on two months
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  Speaker 2: of about May. First we settled it increased media. Uh,
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  Speaker 2: this this episode is brought to you by increased media. Media,
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  Speaker 2: but that's our business. But I'm really excited about today
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  Speaker 2: to say today's episode because the Lord. You know, I've
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  Speaker 2: been on my journey, y'all, journey, journey. Pray for your girl,
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  Speaker 2: your girl, pray for you, Pray for me. You see,
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  Speaker 2: this shirt is a little lose for a reason. Listen.
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  Speaker 2: But this journey has been interesting, it's been different. And
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  Speaker 2: I'll go ahead and shay it. I've been fasting. By
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  Speaker 2: the time y'all see this, I'll probably be done with
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  Speaker 2: the fast unless the Lord extended but I pray the Lord,
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  Speaker 2: you know, to have your way. Lord. But but been
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  Speaker 2: fasting and this fast has been definitely different the type
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  Speaker 2: of fast that we've been doing or I've been doing,
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  Speaker 2: because it's been me. That was a week. It's been me.
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  Speaker 2: And the Lord told me I was gonna do this
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  Speaker 2: in April, Thank you Holy Spirit. The Lord told I
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  Speaker 2: was gonna do this in April, and I didn't understand why.
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  Speaker 2: I'm still right now in the situation fully understanding the
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  Speaker 2: why behind it. But I can't justify disobeying God in
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  Speaker 2: this because I don't know the reason why I'm doing it.
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  Speaker 2: You know what I'm saying, Like, that's what we do.
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  Speaker 2: He'd be like, I don't know what that means. Is
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  Speaker 2: this is me. That's why sometimes I just have to
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  Speaker 2: once I hear it, I may ask Lord maybe for
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  Speaker 2: some clarity instructions, and even if I don't get understanding
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  Speaker 2: on it, I just have to still just move on
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  Speaker 2: it because otherwise I'll be in disobedience. Yeah, I will
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  Speaker 2: be in disobedience.
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  Speaker 1: Yeah.
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  Speaker 2: I think that's another opportunity for us as believers. And
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  Speaker 2: I think I feel like it ties into what I
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  Speaker 2: heard the Lord say that we just need to lean
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  Speaker 2: into this morning. So it's just this is a flow,
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  Speaker 2: this is this, this is a morning, this is a flow.
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  Speaker 2: It so I already told you so I heard the
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  Speaker 2: I heard the Lord talk to me this morning, and
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  Speaker 2: he was just I did a TikTok yesterday, and on
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  Speaker 2: that TikTok, I expressed that I felt led to go
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  Speaker 2: to watch Omar's episodes yesterday and the ones we recorded.
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  Speaker 2: So I was already watching the Men of God. And
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  Speaker 2: if y'alln't know who I'm talking about, our Elta Cory,
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  Speaker 2: we'll put the episodes, the episodes that we did with him,
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  Speaker 2: so y'all can have reference. But Omar Elta Corey is
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  Speaker 2: a phenomenal man of God. We got to interview him
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  Speaker 2: content to Cash King, I like to keep it short
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  Speaker 2: for him. But if you need help on your platform,
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  Speaker 2: especially like YouTube and learning how to engage your audience
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  Speaker 2: through teaching and webinars, you might want to check him out.
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  Speaker 2: So we were, we were discussed. I was watching Omar
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  Speaker 2: Omar's episode on his platform and I went to rewatch ours. Now,
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  Speaker 2: I haven't rewatched it since I first watched it last year,
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  Speaker 2: and it was because of the rebuke. Let me see
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  Speaker 2: if y'all heard us, we said multiple times, hey, we
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  Speaker 2: switched it up because we really got a live coaching
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  Speaker 2: from Omar and it was good, Like it was good.
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  Speaker 2: But also I'm so glad that my sister was there
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  Speaker 2: with me because I would have just changed literally everything.
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  Speaker 2: And because she was there, she was able to ground
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  Speaker 2: me in the belief that wait, take me, spit up
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  Speaker 2: long or whatever. And so basically he was saying in
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  Speaker 2: a nuts shell that we were taking too long to
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  Speaker 2: get to the point. And so I was afraid to
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  Speaker 2: address that again, Thank you Holy Spirit. I was afraid
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  Speaker 2: to see that again because it reminded me of my lack.
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  Speaker 2: It reminded me of the place where I used to be.
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  Speaker 2: It reminded me of the feeling I had in that
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  Speaker 2: moment because I wanted to impress somebody I was impressed by.
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  Speaker 2: And so because of that, I avoided looking at it again. Wow,
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  Speaker 2: I avoided watching a great moment again. I went, and
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  Speaker 2: when I reviewed it, Desiree, I had to go back
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  Speaker 2: to myself and say, that's what I said on TikTok.
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  Speaker 2: Why did I avoid that for so long? Because the
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  Speaker 2: intro was what the problem was, and he even said, hey,
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  Speaker 2: after we got through the whole intro thing, the show part,
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  Speaker 2: we went in and it was a great conversation. He
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  Speaker 2: said this. I wasn't just saying this, but in my
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  Speaker 2: mind I was like, man, I don't know if he
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  Speaker 2: really enjoy himself because I did this wrong, that one thing,
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  Speaker 2: that one thing. I don't think I'm good enough because
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  Speaker 2: or I don't think I left a good impression because
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  Speaker 2: the intro wasn't introing, it wasn't to his standard right.
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  Speaker 2: And so when I heard the Lord say this morning,
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  Speaker 2: he said, I need you to tell my people to
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  Speaker 2: get over it. I need I need for my people
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  Speaker 2: to know it's time to get over it. And just
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  Speaker 2: like me, you might be in a situation or had
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  Speaker 2: some moments, just moments. You might have had moments that
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  Speaker 2: shifted your identity or gave you false understanding. It's not
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  Speaker 2: even a lot, it's false understanding. Yeah, that that part happened.
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  Speaker 2: But also and you're forgetting the and he did. He said,
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  Speaker 2: he enjoyed himself. Hey, if you change this, let me
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  Speaker 2: elevate you. That's a part of being coach, as a
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  Speaker 2: part of allowing somebody to push you. What you gonna say.
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  Speaker 2: I was wanna say. I think the thing, the dope
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  Speaker 2: thing is you were wondering if he enjoyed himself. Well,
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  Speaker 2: we was there like two hours, not because we not
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  Speaker 2: not because we were not that we didn't want to
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  Speaker 2: be We wanted to respect this time. But he was like,
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  Speaker 2: oh yeah, let's just keep talking. We was like, okay.
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  Speaker 2: That's how we got two episodes out of that time.
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  Speaker 2: So I think it's interesting because because that one piece
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  Speaker 2: was so loud in the moment that it kind of
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  Speaker 2: blinded the rest of the rest of what happened in
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  Speaker 2: that conversation. Right, So good man, when I say that,
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  Speaker 2: he told us stuff that he hadn't even released yet,
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  Speaker 2: about his father, grieving, grieving his father and all this
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  Speaker 2: stuff like that. And but I watched it. I watched
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  Speaker 2: the second one first, well the first one first when
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  Speaker 2: because we switched to and we talked about YouTube on
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  Speaker 2: the second one. But I could tell the difference. I
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  Speaker 2: could tell that bothered me. I could tell the lack
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  Speaker 2: of confidence I had when we were talking about the
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  Speaker 2: YouTube thing. I was still asking good questions, but it
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  Speaker 2: wasn't myself. I allowed a moment to shift me. I
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  Speaker 2: allowed a moment to shift the confidence I had. He
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  Speaker 2: agreed to be on my platform. It wasn't his platform,
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  Speaker 2: it was my platform. He just provided a suggestion based
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  Speaker 2: on his expertise. Right, And I'm grateful that I had
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  Speaker 2: that moment because some of us won't go back to
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  Speaker 2: a thing just for the simple fact that it made
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  Speaker 2: us feel bad. But it was good for us. And
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  Speaker 2: we avoid a moment that was actually good and say
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  Speaker 2: the moment was bad or the experience was bad because
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  Speaker 2: a se or five minutes of an experience. And so
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  Speaker 2: the Lord was dealing, Oh, let me not, because I've
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  Speaker 2: been playing Anita Wilson all morning. You go, come on here,
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  Speaker 2: almost you are the source of my strength. Listen, listen,
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  Speaker 2: let me go there, let me go. You know, sold
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  Speaker 2: the people and it's okay, It's okay. And so I
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  Speaker 2: heard the Lord say that we live in moments too long,
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  Speaker 2: way way too long. We thank you, Holy Spirit. We
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  Speaker 2: give the moments that we experience that we don't like,
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  Speaker 2: we give too much access to it to our lives.
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  Speaker 2: We allowed the access of that moment to remain with us. Therefore,
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  Speaker 2: we're believing that the moment was supposed to be a lifetime. Right.
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  Speaker 2: That's why I mean but it shows up in other ways.
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  Speaker 2: Like me, for one, when I date, I date for real,
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  Speaker 2: like I'm with one man for a long time. It's
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  Speaker 2: supposed to be a moment. It will supposed to be
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  Speaker 2: a moment. Shout out to my brother in law over here.
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  Speaker 2: I just want you all to know. Here, cadero, here
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  Speaker 2: we can say, we can say your name, my life, hay,
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  Speaker 2: brother in law. That's real one right now, Okay, anyway,
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  Speaker 2: But moments, we we we feed into the moment. We
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  Speaker 2: watch this, We invest in the moment. And the way
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  Speaker 2: we invest is time spent not giving over it. Time
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  Speaker 2: spent not giving over it is your investment in a
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  Speaker 2: moment that shouldn't have been invested in investing something else,
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  Speaker 2: invest in the time that God is dealing with you
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  Speaker 2: and and grooming you and loving, or invest in that
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  Speaker 2: we have put a deposit in those spaces because we
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  Speaker 2: we're like, you know what, let me feed into the
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  Speaker 2: truth that I once believe, which wasn't really the truth
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  Speaker 2: I'm saying. I think we don't allow the moments to
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  Speaker 2: do what they're designed to do. That's so good you
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  Speaker 2: talk about it, even if you think about healing, right,
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  Speaker 2: if you're walking through a process walking through a journey.
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  Speaker 2: Sometimes you don't know where you are on the journey
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  Speaker 2: until you encounter a moment, until you encounter a person,
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  Speaker 2: until you encounter a situation that may not be good,
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  Speaker 2: but that moment can be used to show you where
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  Speaker 2: you are in your journey. So you encounter the moment.
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  Speaker 2: If the response is look at that, yeah, okay lord,
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  Speaker 2: If the moment is your your emotions start to flare up,
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  Speaker 2: you start to get angry, all these all these negative
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  Speaker 2: things start to flare up. Then that's a moment to
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  Speaker 2: be like, dang, I got a little bit more work
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  Speaker 2: to do. Yeah. And it's so instead of taking it
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  Speaker 2: as a moment to be like dang, I thought I've
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  Speaker 2: come away, but I still got a little ways to go. Okay, Lord,
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  Speaker 2: this is how I'm feeling about this. This is what
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  Speaker 2: came up in this moment, instead of taking it like
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  Speaker 2: and you sit in it. That's typically what happens. Like
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  Speaker 2: a moment happens, and it may be a moment where
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  Speaker 2: we realize that there's still some healing to do, there's
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  Speaker 2: still some work to do, and we sit in it
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  Speaker 2: and we take it as a negative thing instead of
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  Speaker 2: looking at it as like, okay, let me progress on, right,
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  Speaker 2: because the experience of the moment, and I can speak
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  Speaker 2: for myself because I know I've had like there even now,
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  Speaker 2: the Lord is like I need, like you said, see
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  Speaker 2: any Lord, what is what is it? Because I don't
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  Speaker 2: already just got out of some It's that I don't
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  Speaker 2: want to experience again. I don't want to I don't
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  Speaker 2: want to go back to that place. But the unique
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  Speaker 2: thing about going back to that place is that you
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  Speaker 2: get to deal with that place, and you get to
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  Speaker 2: tell that place where it was supposed to be for you,
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  Speaker 2: and you get to redefine that place. Now that I
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  Speaker 2: went back to go see the Omar my my interview
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  Speaker 2: with Omar, Our interview with Omar, I'm like, oh, okay,
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  Speaker 2: and y'all watch this. In the middle of me watching
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  Speaker 2: the episode, I commented on his YouTube or whatever because
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  Speaker 2: he was teaching on how to teach right. I love
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  Speaker 2: I love good teaching, so I love good teaching. He
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  Speaker 2: was teaching really good. He was teaching real good, so
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  Speaker 2: I comment on it, and then he comments a response.
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  Speaker 2: While I'm watching that episode, he was like, let's go
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  Speaker 2: see I'm gonna see you at podcasts summon, what uh
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  Speaker 2: you remember me? You remember the oh me you were?
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  Speaker 2: Because and you know why, I also thought that he
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  Speaker 2: didn't enjoy it, because I didn't really get a you know,
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  Speaker 2: this is just me being in my head because the
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  Speaker 2: collaborations weren't accepted and he could have not seen him
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  Speaker 2: I can, I can call it. I didn't. I didn't
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  Speaker 2: give him an excuse or way out of my negative
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  Speaker 2: thoughts about me. I want to say that again. I
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  Speaker 2: didn't give him an excuse or way out regarding the
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  Speaker 2: negative thoughts I had about me. It wasn't about him,
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  Speaker 2: it was about me. So I got a question looking
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  Speaker 2: at his socials. Do you see other collaborations on his
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  Speaker 2: page if I pay attention to I probably don't. I
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  Speaker 2: really I don't see the like even other I don't
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  Speaker 2: really see other people's other content of things that he's
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  Speaker 2: gone on on his page. I see his stuff. Yes,
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  Speaker 2: So that's a valid point. See, perspective is everything. And
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  Speaker 2: so sometimes when we're like in the moment, or I
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  Speaker 2: took that moment and said, you know what, he didn't
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  Speaker 2: like the intro, so he was gonna he wasn't gonna
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  Speaker 2: collab with me, like we make the moment bigger than
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  Speaker 2: it's supposed to be. I gave too much energy, way
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  Speaker 2: too much energy, to the point where I avoided reliving
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  Speaker 2: this moment. Now I'm free. Watch this. I want to
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  Speaker 2: I want to give us the definition of avoidance. Okay, avoidance. Yes, So,
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  Speaker 2: avoidance is the act or practice of keeping away from,
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  Speaker 2: withdrawing from, or evading something under undesirable, such as a person, placed, thought,
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  Speaker 2: or situation. This is what this is what Webster says.
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  Speaker 2: It says, it's it is you used as a coping
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  Speaker 2: mechanism to dodge uncomfortable feelings, but often perpetuates anxiety or stress.
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  Speaker 2: What in the long run run. I'm gonna say that
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  Speaker 2: last part again. It is used as a coping mechanism
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  Speaker 2: to dodge uncomfortable feelings, but often perpetuates anxiety or stress
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  Speaker 2: in the long run. And so when I choose to avoid,
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  Speaker 2: I choose stress, and I choose anxiety. The thing that
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  Speaker 2: came up to mind, Desiree, when I was thinking about
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  Speaker 2: this was, you know how we were praying heave and down,
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  Speaker 2: say God, anxiety is not my abortion. Stress your ways.
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  Speaker 2: And then the thing that the Lord says, hey, this
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  Speaker 2: is how you get rid of it and you say, no, God,
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  Speaker 2: I don't want to sit in that no more. I
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  Speaker 2: don't want to do it that way. Lord, give me
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  Speaker 2: another way. I just need you to remove it. But
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  Speaker 2: then we go back to what's the point of Holy Spirit?
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  Speaker 3: Right?
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  Speaker 2: The power is said again, that's how you, that's how,
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  Speaker 2: that's how you, that's how, that's how we conquer the
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  Speaker 2: things that seems inconquerable, unconquerable. I don't know, don't answer. Okay,
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  Speaker 2: how do we walk this this journey out called life? Yeah,
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  Speaker 2: in a in a righteous, holy kind of way. We
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  Speaker 2: think it's nearly impossible. It is without the Holy Spirit
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  Speaker 2: because he was sent as a helper, helper, a comforter,
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  Speaker 2: a guide, and the power that shall be you. So
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  Speaker 2: the powers, it's not our power, is the power that's
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  Speaker 2: that allows us to conquer the inconquered, unconquerable. So what
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  Speaker 2: are we asking for? Are we asking for God to
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  Speaker 2: remove it for us? Are we asking it for to
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  Speaker 2: be removed? And the thing is is like, what's the
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  Speaker 2: point in the power that's invested in us if we
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  Speaker 2: never use it and we don't have power to go
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  Speaker 2: back to a thing and say, you know what, let
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  Speaker 2: me redefine you real quick. Let me look at you different,
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  Speaker 2: let me give a different personspective, let me feel different
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  Speaker 2: about it. This is something that's coming up. I've seen
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  Speaker 2: the person. I've said it before, been in some domestic situations.
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  Speaker 2: It was a domestic relationship. Right, I've seen that person,
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  Speaker 2: and me seeing that person has been able to allow
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  Speaker 2: me to go through forgiveness right on both ends. Right,
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  Speaker 2: and it allowed him to be free because he was
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  Speaker 2: carrying that burden as well. Right. When we avoid it,
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  Speaker 2: we also avoid the opportunity to help people be free
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  Speaker 2: from that moment, right, help people be delivered from that moment,
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  Speaker 2: especially when somebody else wronged you, like in this situation,
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  Speaker 2: Oh I went wrong. It was really helped. But what
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  Speaker 2: if somebody said, what if God has sending you back
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  Speaker 2: to a place where you know, it's like, no that
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  Speaker 2: I've gotten over that, I've been able to build the businesses,
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  Speaker 2: I've been able to conquer this, that and the third.
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  Speaker 2: But you're still broken in this area and God sees that,
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  Speaker 2: and it's hindering you from doing greater works. It's hindered.
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  Speaker 2: It's hindering people from from experiencing the greater in you
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  Speaker 2: because somebody asks you about that situation, or somebody asks
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  Speaker 2: you close to it, you triggered. You don't give a
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  Speaker 2: righteous response in that moment because you never would revisit it.
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  Speaker 2: You didn't give yourselfself another opportunity to see even though
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  Speaker 2: the thing happened, right, I'm not negating that. And so
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  Speaker 2: also the Lord said not only get over it, like
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  Speaker 2: don't not to care about it or get over it
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  Speaker 2: in the sense of we need to do away with
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  Speaker 2: this this mindset, but to literally step over it, like
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  Speaker 2: get over. You have the power to move, Thank you,
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  Speaker 2: Holy Spirit. You have the power to move, and you
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  Speaker 2: have the power to see it. You have the power
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  Speaker 2: to resolve the thing, and you have the power to
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  Speaker 2: avoid the thing. Where are you placing your power? That's good,
• 19:56
  Speaker 2: I think if it really all boils down to identity, right,
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  Speaker 2: hold on finding my scriptures? Scripture, my scripture? What scripture?
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  Speaker 2: You going to? Sis to the beginning? Oh my God,
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  Speaker 2: are we going to Genesis one? To Genesis We're going
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  Speaker 2: We're going to Genesis one twenty six on twenty six.
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  Speaker 2: I'm gonna go uh uh uh. We're gonna do a
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  Speaker 2: easy reads. I want to be able to understand what's
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  Speaker 2: happening here? Okay, okay, okay. Genesis one, twenty six. Okay,
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  Speaker 2: and it says, so God made every kind of animal.
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  Speaker 2: He made the wild animals, the tame animals, and all
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  Speaker 2: the small crawling things. And God saw that it was good.
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  Speaker 2: That's twenty five twenty six says. Then God said, let
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  Speaker 2: us make humans who will be like us. They will
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  Speaker 2: rule over all the fish in the sea and the
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  Speaker 2: birds in the air. They will rule over all the
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  Speaker 2: large animals and all the little things that crawl on
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  Speaker 2: the earth. So God created humans in his own image.
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  Speaker 2: He created them to be like himself. He created them
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  Speaker 2: male and female. God blessed them and said to them,
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  Speaker 2: have many children's. Feel the earth and take control of it.
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  Speaker 2: Feel the earth and take control of it. Rule over
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  Speaker 2: the fish in the sea and the birds in the air,
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  Speaker 2: and rule over every living thing that moves in this earth.
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  Speaker 2: So we're asking, So, really, what we really be doing
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  Speaker 2: is asking God to do the thing that he's already
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  Speaker 2: given us the power to do. Like God has already
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  Speaker 2: done every single thing that He's gonna do that we
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  Speaker 2: need on this earth. We now have to step into
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  Speaker 2: that space of identity that he's already given us to
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  Speaker 2: take the power over the things that God remove this.
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  Speaker 2: God's like, I'm giving you the power to do that. Yeah,
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  Speaker 2: you have the power to do that. Yeah, God, get
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  Speaker 2: me out of this. God do this. Will you have
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  Speaker 2: the power to do that? Yeah? Yeah? So when will
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  Speaker 2: we step in and take the power that God has
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  Speaker 2: already given us? I think we I think it's a
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  Speaker 2: lack of realizing how mature you actually have. You're not
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  Speaker 2: giving your yourself enough credit for how mature you are.
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  Speaker 2: Like I had to realize that even in this season
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  Speaker 2: right prime example, we remember I think y'all told y'all
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  Speaker 2: when we talked about Coach d releasing me from being
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  Speaker 2: her admen child. Oh man, I think about that. This
• 22:39
  Speaker 2: was about the fault. She was trying to hold it
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  Speaker 2: together right there in that moment. But I can see
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  Speaker 2: that she was just I was. She was crumbling baby.
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  Speaker 2: Oh God, because literally for me and and and in
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  Speaker 2: a way, it's done it. But I think that in
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  Speaker 2: the I thought of it as I thought it was
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  Speaker 2: as a negative thing. Right. It's almost like when they
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  Speaker 2: say when the bird leads the mother's nest, And I
• 23:06
  Speaker 2: literally felt like instead of feeling released to move forward.
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  Speaker 2: It was almost like I was feeling abandoned. And there's
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  Speaker 2: there's that's a real thing when people because you've experienced
• 23:23
  Speaker 2: abandonment and releasing abandonment could seem like the same thing,
• 23:28
  Speaker 2: but it's releases into something. Abandonness is I have no
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  Speaker 2: result for me me leaving, you know what I'm saying.
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  Speaker 2: It's just me leaving. You know what I'm saying. And
• 23:38
  Speaker 2: because I've experienced abandonment in so many rays, and it's
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  Speaker 2: not just a pariental I'm not even talking about this.
• 23:45
  Speaker 2: I'm talking about friends, people I thought that were my friends,
• 23:49
  Speaker 2: like that level of abandonment and avoid like so I
• 23:54
  Speaker 2: avoid moments to where I could go deeper with somebody
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  Speaker 2: sometimes because I don't want to feel that anymore, you
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  Speaker 2: know what I'm saying. And so but now I'm talking
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  Speaker 2: to people and and and being honest about my my thoughts.
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  Speaker 2: I've gotten a new revelation of Okay, this is just
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  Speaker 2: a transition of maturity. Right at one point, you know,
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  Speaker 2: I was drinking milk, next point, I was I had
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  Speaker 2: a little serious my milk. This point, you know, we
• 24:21
  Speaker 2: even baby food. You know, there'restages started giving at this
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  Speaker 2: point right in front of me, and I'm like, but
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  Speaker 2: where my mama is? Where's my mama to cut this
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  Speaker 2: steak up for me? You know what I'm saying? Like
• 24:34
  Speaker 2: that's that Like I'm more focused on who's not at
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  Speaker 2: the table with me. I just had an interesting visual. Okay,
• 24:41
  Speaker 2: so it's about to be nasty. Go go ahead. So
• 24:44
  Speaker 2: you know, like mama, birds they actually chew up the
• 24:48
  Speaker 2: they do food and in the mouth. I was waiting
• 24:52
  Speaker 2: for the bird food instead of like, hey here it
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  Speaker 2: is right here. You can now chew it up yourself,
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  Speaker 2: right you now the teeth, you now have the power,
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  Speaker 2: the jaw, all those things to be able to grab
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  Speaker 2: it and chew it, toup and eat it yourself? Who
• 25:09
  Speaker 2: want to be in high school still getting getting eating
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  Speaker 2: from their mama? That chewed up stuff? That car? And
• 25:15
  Speaker 2: I think that it just exposed you are y'all? Please
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  Speaker 2: can we stretch our hands to desert? Father, bless her
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  Speaker 2: because of mine. Thank you for maturity, Lord, thank you Jesus.
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  Speaker 2: But no, I think that realizing that it wasn't an
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  Speaker 2: intentional thing. But when you go back to that space
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  Speaker 2: like I have to all, I've oftentimes going back to
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  Speaker 2: that space and say, hey, she didn't abandon me, she
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  Speaker 2: released me. That was two different things, right, And and
• 25:50
  Speaker 2: because of that, sometimes I retreat. I will listen if
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  Speaker 2: you ever catch me, I know me, I will. And
• 26:00
  Speaker 2: if I start retreating, it doesn't mean that I don't
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  Speaker 2: love you or I have a problem with you. It
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  Speaker 2: means that I'm not trying to experience something or feeling
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  Speaker 2: that I don't want to feel anymore. But that's a
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  Speaker 2: part of the process of sitting in it. It's allowing
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  Speaker 2: God to redefine the feeling for you. I think it
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  Speaker 2: was dope though, because there was a moment of opportunity
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  Speaker 2: that presented itself. And in that moment, the feeling that
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  Speaker 2: came up from past things as you've been walking and killing,
• 26:30
  Speaker 2: was dang, she's abandoning me. So you gave yourself the
• 26:34
  Speaker 2: opportunity to be like, is this what this is? Or
• 26:38
  Speaker 2: just not right? And I think also because you've journeyed
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  Speaker 2: with her, you know her heart, you know the love.
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  Speaker 2: This is not abandonment. This is literally the release. So
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  Speaker 2: and what has happened. What happened was you got over
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  Speaker 2: it right and now I believe that moment allowed you
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  Speaker 2: to freely walk into the spaces that God has caused
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  Speaker 2: you to. Otherwise, I think you still would have been
• 27:00
  Speaker 2: kind of in the shadows in the back, still kind
• 27:03
  Speaker 2: of like, am I supposed to be here? Am I not?
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  Speaker 2: But when you out there, baby, you out there, you
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  Speaker 2: ain't got no choice? You you you don't have a choice.
• 27:09
  Speaker 2: Then that literally, But now I think also to speak
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  Speaker 2: to I guess she texted me right now, you have
• 27:17
  Speaker 2: texted me, texted me because she said she needed to
• 27:19
  Speaker 2: talk to me about Saturday. But anyway, I think that
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  Speaker 2: also on the opposite side of that, Okay, get over it.
• 27:30
  Speaker 2: Now what navigate? That's been my word I've been I've
• 27:37
  Speaker 2: been tearing that word. H you and me navigate. I
• 27:41
  Speaker 2: am navigating on what it looks like for us to
• 27:44
  Speaker 2: do relationship without my title as her admin. And that
• 27:48
  Speaker 2: has been the most interesting thing because now it's just
• 27:55
  Speaker 2: all respect d and jes you get what I'm saying. Now,
• 27:58
  Speaker 2: it's just two women that honor each other. Cause it's
• 28:02
  Speaker 2: not just I on her. I don't want y'all get
• 28:04
  Speaker 2: in to it. She honors me, and she was like,
• 28:05
  Speaker 2: you got girl, you're ailing shed be like what the
• 28:07
  Speaker 2: Lord telling you? You know what I'm saying, Like it's
• 28:09
  Speaker 2: not a one way street. You gel what I'm saying
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  Speaker 2: by honor her because she is my spiritual mother, you
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  Speaker 2: know what I'm saying. And so I think learning that
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  Speaker 2: poor part, I think is what scared me too, because
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  Speaker 2: I didn't know what that meant. I didn't know what
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  Speaker 2: that looked like. I didn't know if that meant that, Okay,
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  Speaker 2: we're just not gonna we're not gonna kick it, you
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  Speaker 2: know what I'm saying. Or because you don't need me anymore,
• 28:29
  Speaker 2: you know what I'm saying. But to be desired in
• 28:32
  Speaker 2: another way, it's like, oh yeah, I still wrong with
• 28:34
  Speaker 2: you heavy, Just so she's like, no, and baby, when
• 28:36
  Speaker 2: I tell you she wrong on me, heavy, don't even
• 28:38
  Speaker 2: play with it. Don't even play with it. And so
• 28:41
  Speaker 2: I think the opposite side of what if this doesn't
• 28:45
  Speaker 2: feel good? Of to get over it? You know what
• 28:47
  Speaker 2: I'm saying, when you is what am I coming over to?
• 28:50
  Speaker 2: I think that's what we ask ourselves, what am I
• 28:53
  Speaker 2: coming over to? But that's where faith has to come in.
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  Speaker 2: It has to come in because we have something to
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  Speaker 2: God would not say, hey, get over it, and there's
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  Speaker 2: nothing that you're crossing over to. Thank you only Spirit.
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  Speaker 2: So this is a moment where the Lord brought me
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  Speaker 2: to the idea of Moses. Right. And you know, he
• 29:10
  Speaker 2: did a lot of back and forth with Jesus, with
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  Speaker 2: the Lord when he told him, when he said, hey,
• 29:16
  Speaker 2: I need you to go to the same place I
• 29:19
  Speaker 2: just brought you from, right, and I need you to
• 29:21
  Speaker 2: go deliver them, and he bucked up because he didn't.
• 29:26
  Speaker 2: He thought he was done with that part of him.
• 29:30
  Speaker 2: I want you to walk with me. He thought that
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  Speaker 2: his assignment was done and he didn't have to deal
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  Speaker 2: with it anymore. So he was able to avoid it
• 29:39
  Speaker 2: in a different manner, right, And so Moses got mad
• 29:42
  Speaker 2: because avoidance wasn't working anymore. Come on, avoidance was like
• 29:46
  Speaker 2: not having to deal and repeat the same thing and
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  Speaker 2: experience or see the people from the moment. Oh, thank
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  Speaker 2: you Holy Spirit. He didn't want to see the people
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  Speaker 2: from the moment, right, So for forty years the Lord
• 29:57
  Speaker 2: allowed him to avoid for forty ye is the Lord
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  Speaker 2: and through and in his avoidance, God was still developing him.
• 30:04
  Speaker 2: But when God told him to go back, he buked.
• 30:07
  Speaker 2: And so listen, Buckheart's talking about how you study had
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  Speaker 2: every excuse in the book, not knowing, not knowing that
• 30:17
  Speaker 2: it was that moment that he will be be called
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  Speaker 2: and understood as a deliverer. Right, it was something on
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  Speaker 2: the other side of get over it, Moses, go deliver
• 30:28
  Speaker 2: my people. Moses, go talk to Pharaoh. Moses. And when
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  Speaker 2: we don't allow ourselves to get over it, we missed
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  Speaker 2: the opportunity of fulfilling the ultimate goal of being a Christian,
• 30:45
  Speaker 2: it says, go ye. Therefore, and when we don't go
• 30:49
  Speaker 2: because we avoid, we mismanaged the responsibility of our faith.
• 30:54
  Speaker 2: Who jee, we mismanaged the responsibility of of our faith.
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  Speaker 2: And you're saying that you are connected to God, but
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  Speaker 2: you're still using avoidance as a comfort zone for you.
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  Speaker 2: And you wonder why you stress. You're wondering why you
• 31:14
  Speaker 2: have some anxiety. You wonder why you're hesitant to do
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  Speaker 2: anything because you won't get over this one thing. It's
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  Speaker 2: a stumbling You have created your own stumbling lo What
• 31:27
  Speaker 2: happens when you're your own stumbling block? What happens when
• 31:30
  Speaker 2: you are in your own way? What happens when you
• 31:34
  Speaker 2: avoid a moment so much to where now it has
• 31:37
  Speaker 2: become a generational dialogue. You're teaching your children how to avoid.
• 31:43
  Speaker 2: You're teaching your friends that you are not trustworthy because
• 31:46
  Speaker 2: you avoid these type of moments. It's bigger than that.
• 31:50
  Speaker 2: It's bigger than that. And when you allow the enemy
• 31:52
  Speaker 2: to play on your own thoughts, because these are your thoughts, right, Like,
• 31:58
  Speaker 2: we can't just blame the devil, only use the tools
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  Speaker 2: that are supplied to him, thank you, Holy Spirit. He
• 32:03
  Speaker 2: can only use the tools that are supplied to him,
• 32:06
  Speaker 2: And you're supplying him negative thoughts. So he's gonna tap
• 32:08
  Speaker 2: dance all of them all day, all day, every day.
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  Speaker 2: Ask me how I know tipity tap tap dance to
• 32:14
  Speaker 2: audio family from tap dancing. I'm tap dancing, that's right,
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  Speaker 2: Oh my god. Well then I know that was it
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  Speaker 2: was a direct word, but it was a word that
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  Speaker 2: you know. I did my part. I got over it. Yeah.
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  Speaker 2: I think that the one situation that has come up
• 32:32
  Speaker 2: since we've been talking about avoidance. My last situationship about
• 32:37
  Speaker 2: five six years ago. Yeah, ended because it needed dance.
• 32:43
  Speaker 2: Jesus did. And I remember forgiving, releasing, forgiveness. So this
• 32:50
  Speaker 2: is like twenty one, is twenty maybe going into twenty two. Right,
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  Speaker 2: I forget, I've forgiven, let it go, releasing, Bless the Lord,
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  Speaker 2: bless them, Lord less him. Lord, he would come to
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  Speaker 2: twenty twenty three. I ain't thought about nothing about the
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  Speaker 2: man of cause okay nothing, ain't thought nothing of Bud,
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  Speaker 2: lived my life, all the things. And then he starts
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  Speaker 2: popping up in my brain. I don't ever see him out,
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  Speaker 2: never never see the person out out about nothing like this.
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  Speaker 2: He starts popping up randomly, and I'm like, but I
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  Speaker 2: forgive him, Lord, I forgive him, Lord, I forgive them Lord.
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  Speaker 2: Guess what the Lord said? But have you forgiven you? Jesus?
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  Speaker 2: I said that just touched my chest. Yeah, you've forgiven him,
• 33:31
  Speaker 2: But have you forgiven you? For making the decisions you know,
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  Speaker 2: the regrets that you've made towards Have you forgiven you?
• 33:38
  Speaker 2: So walking through this process of and it was really
• 33:40
  Speaker 2: like every time you pop up, I pray, release, forgiveness,
• 33:44
  Speaker 2: rese forgiving for myself, you know, ask the Lord? Am
• 33:46
  Speaker 2: I missing anything? If there anything else there? This is
• 33:48
  Speaker 2: like March. This went on for about two months, right,
• 33:52
  Speaker 2: So he would come in November. Remember I said I
• 33:54
  Speaker 2: never see the man. Yeah, okay, never see the man.
• 33:57
  Speaker 2: He would come in November. I got invited to come
• 33:59
  Speaker 2: share in a Bible study in Huntsville. Okay, I wake
• 34:04
  Speaker 2: up that morning with grits on my mind. Grits. So
• 34:07
  Speaker 2: I go to the waffle house. Walk in. Jesus, guess
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  Speaker 2: who's standing at them right there, the man of God
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  Speaker 2: that you said you forgave. Did you forgive them? For real?
• 34:17
  Speaker 2: So I walked in, I said, walk right past him, right.
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  Speaker 2: I sat down, and I said, huh, you know, I'm
• 34:26
  Speaker 2: checking and checking out the parts, you know, Okay, my mind,
• 34:30
  Speaker 2: my mind cool. I don't feel no angriness. And I said, okay,
• 34:39
  Speaker 2: I see what you did there. I literally, like literally
• 34:42
  Speaker 2: the day of an assignment that was already nerve racking
• 34:45
  Speaker 2: for me. Yeah, right, I don't. I don't do all
• 34:48
  Speaker 2: this stuff like this like for real, for real, but
• 34:51
  Speaker 2: I'm going to share in the word of the Lord
• 34:53
  Speaker 2: walking people, okay, and I and I encountered this opportunity. Yeah,
• 34:58
  Speaker 2: that could have easily made me recluse back into some feelings,
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  Speaker 2: you know what I'm saying and abort the thing that
• 35:05
  Speaker 2: the Lord hadn't for me to do that day. But
• 35:07
  Speaker 2: I said, you know what, not it didn't feel good,
• 35:10
  Speaker 2: like the process to get in there didn't feel good.
• 35:12
  Speaker 2: But as I got over that thing, what the Lord
• 35:15
  Speaker 2: began to do is take me on this journey. So
• 35:17
  Speaker 2: this is kind of like where all this moving and
• 35:19
  Speaker 2: things started to happening. He started putting me in these
• 35:21
  Speaker 2: places to like show me and give me opportunities to
• 35:25
  Speaker 2: release some other things that that was there that was
• 35:28
  Speaker 2: not like him to Now I'm in this this place,
• 35:31
  Speaker 2: not fully hole, but definitely more hole than I was,
• 35:36
  Speaker 2: more healed than I was because I allowed. I didn't
• 35:40
  Speaker 2: sit in the opportunities, but I allowed the opportunities to
• 35:44
  Speaker 2: wrestle me a little bit and sharpen me a little
• 35:47
  Speaker 2: bit to get on the other side of it. And
• 35:49
  Speaker 2: that's and that's what's needed. Right, And now you're on
• 35:52
  Speaker 2: the other side, and you got my brother in law.
• 35:55
  Speaker 2: I mean, just learn from devil ray. I've been looking.
• 35:58
  Speaker 2: I be looking at y'all. Just pray for me when
• 36:01
  Speaker 2: they get married. Brother law. Please don't leave, I gotta
• 36:07
  Speaker 2: say to people. I gotta ask in front of the people,
• 36:09
  Speaker 2: please please don't let the lead make a leave. But no,
• 36:12
  Speaker 2: for real, though, Like we have so much more to
• 36:15
  Speaker 2: gain from what's over what's on the other side of it, right,
• 36:18
  Speaker 2: It's not just get over it because I'm tired of
• 36:21
  Speaker 2: dealing with you in this. This is not what the
• 36:23
  Speaker 2: Lord is saying. Let me be very clear, that's not
• 36:25
  Speaker 2: what the Lord is saying. The Lord is saying, I
• 36:27
  Speaker 2: need you to get over rich so you can continue
• 36:29
  Speaker 2: to walk down the path that I have for you,
• 36:32
  Speaker 2: for I know the plans I have for you. Thus
• 36:36
  Speaker 2: this the Lord. And as to prosper you, right, he's
• 36:40
  Speaker 2: not if it's not for prosperity and it's not for
• 36:44
  Speaker 2: the uplifting of the kingdom. He's not gonna ask you
• 36:46
  Speaker 2: to get over something. You know what I'm saying. He's
• 36:48
  Speaker 2: not gonna ask you to move forward in something. It's
• 36:50
  Speaker 2: a greater call on your life. And if you keep
• 36:52
  Speaker 2: limiting yourself to a moment, as I did. Right now
• 36:56
  Speaker 2: that I got over that moment, I'm free from it.
• 36:59
  Speaker 2: I'm free from like, oh, okay, we've done what we said,
• 37:03
  Speaker 2: we took some suggestions that we acted on it, and
• 37:06
  Speaker 2: he didn't waste his time. And so now when I
• 37:07
  Speaker 2: see him again, I'm gonna say, hey, we didn't waste
• 37:11
  Speaker 2: your time. You did not waste your time, Thank you
• 37:14
  Speaker 2: so much. And so now you you you defeat the
• 37:17
  Speaker 2: moment by saying, hey, I'm not scared of you, I
• 37:19
  Speaker 2: can go back to you and address you right, You're
• 37:22
  Speaker 2: you're more powerful than that. I don't know who needs
• 37:25
  Speaker 2: to hear that, but I need you to just put
• 37:27
  Speaker 2: your hand on your chest to say I'm more powerful
• 37:29
  Speaker 2: than that. That I'm more powerful than that. And so y'all,
• 37:32
  Speaker 2: I hope y'all enjoyed this week's episode until next week.
• 37:36
  Speaker 2: Until next time, remember life could be much more simple
• 37:40
  Speaker 2: if you just ask. There's a really ship be y'all.
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  Speaker 1: I know I won't see you back until next week,
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  Speaker 1: but until then, remember to love always yourself and always.
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  Speaker 2: Say thank God for one another day.
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  Speaker 3: Hey, hey, I know we could be another way. Hey,
• 38:20
  Speaker 3: pray thank God for another day. Hey Hey, I'm just
• 38:26
  Speaker 3: thankful another day? Hey Hey another day? Oh, another day wise,
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  Speaker 3: another day to get it right, another day to rise up,
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  Speaker 3: another day living another day we loved ones. I always
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  Speaker 3: remember hold it down for all one yuhay