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You're probably doing better than you think · The Love Drive with Shaun Galanos

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The reality is that I'm not sure that's actually true, because
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money isn't a replacement for self love.
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OK, love lies. Welcome to another episode of
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the Love Drive podcast. My name is Sean Galinos.
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How is your heart? Isn't that a sweet question?
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It's pretty woo woo. It's a little cringy, but if
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taken at face value, it's very sweet.
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So how is your heart? Answer in the comments or just
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take a moment and like pause this and sit with how are you
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doing? How is your heart doing?
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Are you yearning? Are you longing?
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Are you sad? Are you exhausted?
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Are you scared? How are you doing?
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How's your heart? How's mine?
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My heart is, I would say a little, I would say peaceful.
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There's a an expression in French.
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Well, it's not an expression, it's a word.
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It's fibril, having or showing a great deal of nervous excitement
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or energy. Yeah, my heart is a fibril,
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which is I'm a little, there's a little anxiety, there's a little
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excitement, there's a little nervousness, but I'm generally
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feeling pretty good, better than I felt in a long time.
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And I'm always like, uh oh, you know, waiting for the other shoe
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to drop. I don't know if you can relate
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to that. That's kind of where I'm at.
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I'm feeling good. There are good things on the
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horizon. It's funny, I was talking to a
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friend recently and I go, I go, everything's going to be OK.
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And they go, oh, everything is OK.
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Then I go right, because everything was OK in that
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moment. But it's funny to be sort of
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projecting that it's going to be OK in the future without
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recognizing that it's OK in the present.
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I suspect that most of us are doing OK.
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We're probably doing better than we think that we are I'm not a
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good judge of how I'm doing sometimes my heart is at peace.
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My heart is filled with excitement.
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There's a lot of unknowns in my future and that used to be
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really scary. And in this moment it, it kind
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of feels like a possibility and opportunity and a little bit of,
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dare I even say joy. So that's, that's where I'm at.
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I want to give you an update on my nicotine use.
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So I'm recording this a few days before you're hearing this
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episode. So today is day 8 of No Nicotine
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and I am very proud of myself. I am feeling better.
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I think this has quite a bit to do with my mood.
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I am feeling more. I am being touched by life in a
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way that I really appreciate. Last night I was watching a
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cooking show. I'm watching.
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I love cooking. I don't watch a lot of cooking
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shows. I'm really just sort of a Great
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British Bake Off super fan and I've re watched every season.
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I think I'm on my third re watch.
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There's like 12 or 15 seasons and now I'm just re I'm just
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sort of like re watching them. And someone said, oh, you should
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watch Culinary Class Wars on Netflix and I gave it a shot and
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basically it's fantastic. It's amazing.
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There's two seasons and it's pitting Chinese, Korean and
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Japanese for the most part, Asian cooks and chefs.
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So high end hotel and Michelin star chefs against like up and
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coming St. chefs and it's outrageous.
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It's fun. It's pretty wholesome.
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I like reality TV shows that are wholesome.
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I don't like like, I like love on the spectrum.
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I don't like love is blind, you know, I want things to be
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wholesome. I don't want anybody to be
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punching other people are kicking people when they're
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down. I want everybody to be uplifted,
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even if it's a competitive thing.
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Anyways, I was watching culinary class wars and feeling touched
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by just some of the contestants that, you know, have have
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battled it out for for weeks to be the best chef and, and either
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losing or winning and being so happy for them.
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And, and some of these people are a little arrogant and some
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of them are so earnest and share with so much compassion and
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gratitude and it just makes me cry.
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And with nicotine, I feel like I'm not as likely to be touched
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by life. And so I'm, I'm being touched by
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life a little bit more. My gummy bear consumption is up
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like 300 or 400%, which is OK. I'd rather be eating gummy bears
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than using Zen or vape. So day 8 doing well, Something
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that I've noticed that I'd like to change in my life these days,
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which you can probably relate to, is I'm scrolling way too
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much and it doesn't feel good. And I'm scrolling first thing in
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the morning. And what that does is it sets me
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up to scroll all day long and I, I hate it doesn't feel good.
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So I don't know what I'm going to do about that.
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I've have had periods of time where I've invited myself to do
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no screens from 8:00 PM to 8:00 AM, which is really nice because
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then it allows for a, a mellow, you know, sort of wind down of
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the day with reading and maybe writing and lighting candles,
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putting things away, taking a bath, whatever.
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And then because I wake up around like 6 or 630 a few hours
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in the morning to wind up, you know, have a cup of coffee, sit
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on the porch, journal, write A to do list, go for a walk,
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etcetera, etcetera. So that's something that I want
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to work on. I know that I feel better when I
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scroll less. And it's also kind of hard
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because it's part of my job. I have friends who have quit
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social media altogether, like they've deleted their Instagram
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and I'm legit jealous. And I've had periods of time
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where I've, I've been really diligent around my social media
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use where I would just use it for an hour a day to post stuff
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and respond to comments and then bounce.
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But I just don't have the discipline these days, so
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looking for a little bit more discipline.
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Excited for the moment when I can make that happen.
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Not too worried about it, just a little fine tuning to the
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behaviors that I am employing on a daily basis.
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Someone mentioned that these little mini episodes are like a
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longer voice memo from a friend and that makes me really happy.
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That's perfect. That's what I want these to be
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little updates, little stream of consciousness, a little Q&A and
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just a little a little time for you and I to to connect into
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deep in maybe our relationship. OK, so in therapy last week,
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this is sort of the thing I want to talk about today.
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I don't want to spend too much time on it, but I let's see how
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do I say this have been feeling unaccomplished in life.
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I've been feeling a little down on myself.
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Not this week, maybe earlier this week and maybe a little bit
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more last week. That I haven't really done much
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with my life. Hard to admit.
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Hard to admit that at 43, sometimes I get down on myself
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about what I have done, what I have to show for my life, what
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impact I'm having or like sort of, I don't know how to say,
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like what legacy I'm leaving. OK, I'm not dying, I've got
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time. But you know, there's a, there's
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a bit of a failure to launch feeling and it's, it's
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uncomfortable as a 43 year old man to be battling with these
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feelings of not being relevant, not accomplishing much.
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I have had a dad who was very successful in business and
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founded a company and hired a bunch of people and really grew
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that company in in the software development world and was, you
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could say very accomplished and very success driven.
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And he even received an award. This is sort of a joke in our
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family that he received in a world called Rusita Tal, total
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success. These are the shoes that I have
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to fill. A man who has received an award
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for total success, complete and utter success.
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And I don't feel that way. I talked to my therapist about
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this, and, you know, her question to me was, oh, OK,
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well, what does success look like to you?
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And can we make our own definitions of success?
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Here's the thing about my dad. He was very successful in
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business, but I don't think he was that happy.
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He also worked like a dog and woke up at 4:00 AM to send
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emails and was the kind of person who, you know, it's like,
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don't poke the bear. He's a nice guy until you cross
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him or threaten to or, or he you do something he doesn't like.
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And there's an element of sometimes having to step on
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people to get to the top. And I don't want to do that.
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There was a a few weeks ago, I thought that I might want to be
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the kind of like online creator that takes manosphere or
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misogynistic reels right from like these creators that are
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just like red pill dudes. And then I would stitch them and
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then kind of throw them under the bus or tell them why they're
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stupid and be the guy who kind of claps back on these people.
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And you've seen these creators, right?
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Like there's, there's a whole bunch of them.
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My favorite is Good Trouble. Good Trouble is really good at
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clapping back on Republicans and conservatives.
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There's a few other who is it, Blue Todd?
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I forget who it is. Anyways, I realize that's not
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me, that's not my style, and I'm more interested in spreading joy
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and positivity, not at the expense of taking other people
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down. Sure, I can bring these guys up,
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but I don't have to clap back and stitch their content.
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And so anyways, bit of a tangent, but even though I
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haven't built a successful company, even though I don't
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have a relationship or kids to show for it, which is sometimes
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people that they feel unaccomplished or they, they
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lack purpose in life, they think that having kids will bring them
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purpose. And it does to some people.
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And I've also heard from people who say, Oh no, I, I thought I
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was, I felt like I was lacking purpose and I decided to have
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kids and now I am lacking purpose.
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But with kids, just add kids, you know, like having the kids
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didn't drastically change their life.
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Having the relationship didn't drastically change their life.
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You know, there's the saying like wherever you go, there you
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are. Some people are like, oh, I'd be
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happier if I moved out of whatever small town and I moved
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to like Pittsburgh. And then you get to Pittsburgh
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and you go not better, just here now.
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Same Sean now in Pittsburgh, although I will say I, I lived
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in Flagstaff and, and, and that town was too small for me.
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And also the state of Arizona is just, it's not for me.
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I needed more Kuertos. I need more community.
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I needed more. I needed less heat and less, I
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needed more humidity for sure. So there is something to be said
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of like when you're unhappy in a certain situation, can you
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improve? Are there things you can do to
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improve that situation? Will that make you feel better?
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In some cases, yes. In some cases, no.
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Right. Like for me, if I'm like, oh, I
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want to make more money. And that's the thing that I've
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been talking to my therapist about.
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Like she goes, OK, well, well, how much money would you be
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happy with? And I said $200,000 a year, I
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would feel accomplished. The reality is that I'm not sure
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that's actually true because money isn't a replacement for
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self love. She even said this thing, she's
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like, oh it because I get a lot of positive validation around
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the work that I do. And I know that I have an impact
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in your life, in other people's lives.
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I know this because people tell me all the time.
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But the appreciation that I get, I don't let it in.
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It's like it passes through me like a strainer, right?
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Because I think at the root, I need to be OK with myself.
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No amount of external validation is going to make me feel
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accomplished. I think no amount of money is
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going to make me feel accomplished.
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I have to come up with my own definition of what that looks
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like for me. I don't know.
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Maybe you identify with this. Maybe you've have a hard time
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feeling like you're making an impact in this world or that
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your work matters, or even worse, that you matter.
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I know I matter, I know I, I leave a positive impact on, on
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my friends, on my loved ones, on some of you.
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I know that. But deep down inside, sometimes
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it's hard for me to, to, to feel that I know I'm contributing to
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life. And it's hard to live in the
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kind of world where we are judged on how productive we are,
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how much money we, we have. Being in a relationship equals
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success. There are markers that society
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says, OK, this person is positively contributing, this
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person is successful, this person has made it and it's a
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lot of pressure. And you could also have all
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those things and still not feel that great.
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I'm not sure I have like a nugget.
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All I want to do is share that that's how I'm feeling and maybe
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some of you are also feeling that way.
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I also try to sit with that. It's OK not to be it's OK not to
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be successful by other people's measures.
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I mean, that's what my my therapist is trying to get me to
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to find is like, how can I value the time that I'm spending on
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this world, on this earth, in this world?
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I don't know, this feels like a tangent.
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Let's move on. OK, This is outrageous.
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I'm bit of a rough transition, bit of a an abrupt transition.
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Somebody posted a question recently that's that said every
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time I Deep Throat I get a sore throat.
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Am I doing it wrong? And my response was, oh, I'm not
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sure because I'm not an expert on deep throating even though I
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have tried a couple times. I mean, I, I do think that
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getting blow jobs is much harder.
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It's more demanding than cunnilingus.
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You know, they don't call it a job for nothing.
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It's a much more active, I feel in my, in my opinion, it's a
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much more active activity. I kind of made a joke saying
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like, I don't know. But I guess if you keep
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repeatedly pounding the same area, then, yeah, it might feel
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kind of sore. And I was just, that was just a
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guess. And then I heard from several
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dentists and dental hygiene hygienists.
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I'm a dental hygienist. Yeah.
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That, in fact, you can bruise the back of your throat from
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deep throating. OK, just tuning in extra quickly
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after I'd already recorded this episode to add a little bit more
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Intel about this. I got Adm from somebody who
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said, and I quote. Hi, Sean.
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I work as a dental assistant. The bruising you're mentioning
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is called petechia, which happens to all folks who suck on
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penises and isn't isolated to only deep throating :).
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I love dentistry and also love discussing sex topics, so
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hopefully you found this interesting.
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Be well. And then she goes on to add the
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science behind it is geek out with me for a minute.
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People who suck on penises have to create suction with their
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mouths, and minutes of doing so will create broken capillaries
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and bleeding under the skin of the hard palate of our mouths.
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More reason to be kind to people who do this job.
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Thought you should know your dentist and anybody there who's
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looking in your mouth knows that you're a Dick sucker.
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And this has been visually confirmed so your dentist knows
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what you've been up to. Someone even said on V Day
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around Valentine's Day, extra bruising at the dental office.
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Can you imagine? I find that absolutely
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hilarious. And I think there's a way in
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which you can angle yourself where the cock doesn't hit the
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back of your throat. It slides down into the throat.
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And I usually feel like if you're doing like some type of
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69, the angle, you know what I'm saying?
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Like if you're flipped around, the angle of the penis is is
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such that it slides down the throat instead of hitting the
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back of the throat. Either that or head off of the
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bed is kind of a fun one. Not for everybody.
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If you've got a gag reflex this isn't going to work, but these
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are some positions that you can try to maybe not let it be known
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to your dentist that you're performing deep throats.
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I thought that was interesting. Also this is insane.
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Someone DM Ed me and said I'm allergic to semen.
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So I get a sore throat and mild tummy ache after swallowing.
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Usually lasts a couple of hours. If the semen ends up on my skin
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I get a mild red rash. Also not sure if anybody else
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has experienced this. I've never come across anybody
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in my life who's allergic to semen.
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OK hello, is anybody allergic to semen?
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Please leave a comment. DM me wildly interested.
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Are you allergic to semen? Yeah.
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Also the other thing is like, man, people really tell me just
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about anything really. Like this was out of the blue.
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Just. Hey.
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PS I'm allergic to semen. So that's why I get a sore
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throat. I mean, it's nice.
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They're just giving more data points and I love data.
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Let me play you a sweet little message.
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Hi Sean, longtime fan of yours. I'm listening to the recent
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season of the podcast and I'm loving it.
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I'm halfway through the second episode, quickly moving on to
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the next one. I also listened to all of We Can
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Do Better. And yeah, I just wanted to send
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through some words of appreciation and affirmation.
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I'm a gal who has a lot of guys in her life.
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I have a long term committed partnership, but it's also an
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open relationship. So I have play partners as well.
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And then I've got a lot of really good close male friends
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in my life. And I send them all to you.
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I send them to your social media content, I send them to your
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podcast. I get them to go back and listen
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to We Can Do Better. So, yeah, you are also a not
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only a great resource for just women to listen, listen to, but
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also for them to send the men in their life to your way to get a
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little bit of additional emotional literacy.
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Or if they are really seeking, you know, deeper conversations
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or a safe space to just listen to a man or two guys talking
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about all of this stuff. It's just such a wonderful
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place. And it's just, yeah, you're
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really doing something special. And I just wanted to say thank
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you so much. And yeah, keep doing what you're
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doing. Well, Chucks, thank you.
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That means a lot to me. It's really, really sweet and I
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appreciate the time that you took to send that.
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My audience is heavily skewed female.
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I didn't plan that. I didn't set out to do this.
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I never, I'm not like a business, dude.
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I wasn't like, OK, I'm going to get this Instagram going and
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here's my avatar. I literally just started talking
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about what I wanted to talk about, which was sex, love,
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dating and relationships. And you know, lots of women
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followed because they resonated with my message.
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I would love, love, love to have more men following, listening,
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commenting, engaging with my content.
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It's been something that I've really wanted for a long time.
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So thank you for sending dudes my way and for sharing this.
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And hey, dudes that are listening, I know you're here.
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I know you are because I hear from you every now and then and
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it warms my heart to know that you're listening and to know
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that you're here. And I would actually, I would
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love more questions from dudes, more comments, more feedback
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because again, it's like it's most of it is from women.
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It's 90% from women and ladies. Do like this person did and
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share this with your male friends.
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I don't know how we're going to get there.
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We're going to how we're going to get men to pay attention
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more. It's not like I'm going to
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advertise at the Super Bowl and it's not like I'm going to
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pretend to be somebody that I'm not so that I'll be more
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palatable to men. I'm just going to keep doing my
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thing. But I think if we want more men
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to heal and to be more emotionally available, which
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which is kind of what I'm hearing from you all, that's
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what I'm hearing from you, you want men to be a safe space for
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you to be emotionally expressive.
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You also want men to be more emotionally expressive.
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You don't want to have to decode what the Hell's going on with
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them. Part of that work is going to,
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is going to be sharing this to them.
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And I know women, you've done, you've done more than your fair
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share of the labor. I, I know, I know.
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And here I am a man asking you to share this with men.
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And gosh, I, I don't know how we're going to get there without
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your support. It takes a village.
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And I know you've been doing the bulk of the work, I guess.
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Hey, hey, homies that are listening, homie, male homies.
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You also have to share with your male friends.
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And I have to learn how to talk about men in a way that doesn't
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alienate them or throw them under the bus.
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And I'll, I'll be honest, that's not a strength of mine.
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And it is something that I would like to get better at.
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So we all kind of have to share. Thank you for that message.
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That means a lot to me. I will also say I get a lot of
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messages from therapist that thank me for my work and that
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feels amazing. And they say they send their
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clients to to me when those clients need help with how to
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like talk about stuff and that feels awesome.
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I've had very few therapists say that my work is no good, that my
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work isn't good. Most my work seems to be almost
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unanimously. I'm just going to praise myself
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a little pat on the back. Almost unanimously approved by
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therapists. And and maybe that's because
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I've, I have 10 years of being a therapy client or that I
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intuitively understand some of the concepts or I've self-taught
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myself, you know, some of these concepts.
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So to all the therapists who are sharing my work, thank you.
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Yeah, it feels good. OK, got a question for you.
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Here we go. Hi, Sean.
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My name is Anna. I'm calling from Montreal.
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And my question is about kind of self advocacy.
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Like if you go on a date with someone and they, you know,
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they're too busy to follow up or they state that they're not
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interested or maybe you've gone on a few dates.
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Is there ever a scenario where it makes sense and it's
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worthwhile to advocate for yourself a little bit?
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If you have a really good feeling about this person and
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you feel the connection and you think they feel it too, is it
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ever dignified to ask for another date?
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I have never done this. I tend to accept people's no or
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lack of interest, and I also have just been having a few
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situations replayed where I feel like, no.
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I really think if we went on one more date, you know, then it
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would be either clearer to me that I'm not interested in this
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person, or maybe my sense that this has potential would surface
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and the other person would see it too.
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Thank you. You're welcome.
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Great question. Couple things I feel like it's
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this is 2 two different questions.
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Look, if they say they're not interested, then we don't try to
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convince them to go on another date just regardless of how good
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you thought the date was, right? Because we're not in the
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business of convincing people to spend time with us, right?
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And, and I heard you say like, I respect people's nose.
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That's great. If someone, if you say, hey, do
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you want to go on another date and they say no, you kind of
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just got to be like, OK, Ouch. But I understand, take good
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care. And that's not your person.
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The other scenario, which I think is probably a little bit
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more prevalent in your life, is that like you're going on a
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couple dates and the person sort of isn't really following up or
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doesn't seem to be interested. They haven't told you that
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they're not interested. They're just, they're not
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pursuing you. I think this is a more common
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scenario. This probably happens.
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It's like after a date or two, maybe something was out of
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alignment, maybe the chemistry wasn't there for them and so
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they're unlikely to pursue. But they they're not close to
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the idea of seeing you again. If that's the case, then yes,
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you can absolutely ask. If you're unclear about where
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you're at and it's not a no for you and you kind of want it to
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be a yes and you're a woman, well, actually it doesn't matter
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who you are. You absolutely should ask for
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the for the second or the third date just to see what happens
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because you said I might get more clarity about how I feel
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about them. And that's the goal.
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The goal is for you to find out how you feel about them.
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So yeah, ask them on another date.
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I mean, if, if they say no, then it's a no.
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It's interesting, though. There's a little part of you
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that that's like, hey, I'm really good.
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I'm a I'm a catch and one more date.
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They might realize how good I am.
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And that's also not a game that we want to play.
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If, if someone doesn't automatically recognize that
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you're somebody worth spending more time with, not that you're
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like the hottest shit since sliced bread, but people should
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be naturally curious about wanting to spend more time with
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you. And if they're not, we're not in
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the business of convincing people to spend more time with
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us. I used to pursue more than I do
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now. If someone's not interested, I'm
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not going to chase them. I think I used to much more.
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I think I'm just not in a place to want to do that anymore.
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But this is something that you've never tried before, and
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so try it and see what happens. You might find that you don't
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you don't like being in that role, in the role of pursuer.
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And that's OK. It's absolutely fine.
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I'm less interested in pursuing these days.
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OK, that's my answer. It's not the best answer, but
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it's honest. OK, that's it.
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We're wrapping up here because I have to move out of this
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apartment in Berkeley. This is the last time you'll see
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this background. This last time you'll see this
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background. Next week I'm heading to San
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Francisco and then later that week I'm headed to Bangkok,
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Thailand and a little island to celebrate my friend's 50th
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birthday. We're also going to be there for
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Songcrat, which is Thai New Year's, which also happens to be
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like a huge three day water festival where everybody just
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like like throws water balloons and super soakers at each other
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for a few. They're not throwing the Super
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soakers, they're using super soakers to, to wet people.
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And so I'm doing that. And then after that, I might
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spend 5 days or so in Berlin and then spend maybe a week or so in
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France. So very exciting.
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April because I'm boppin. I'm boppin.
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So I might record a couple episodes from the road.
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I'm going to bring my microphone, my headphones, and
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see what I can come up with on the road.
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We have moved to a weekly podcast release schedule and the
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episodes are being released on Thursdays.
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There's a good, there's a good reason for that.
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I used to release my episodes on Tuesdays.
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Well, for this last three weeks we were doing double drops, but
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that's just sort of a relaunch special.
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My hopes is that I can keep doing double drops or continue
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doing double drops solo episode and a guest episode once I move
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back into a place, a fixed address with a studio.
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And that's not going to happen till at least July.
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So until then, we're doing single drop episodes on
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Thursdays. But then I can also update you
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on the therapy sessions that I have that week.
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So that's interesting. That's happening.
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And then next week's podcast will be with none other than
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Claire Pearlman. We had a fantastic in person
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interview on this bed right here and we talked all about sex.
31:56
We answered questions about squirting, about squirting.
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We talked a lot about squirting. What else did we talk about?
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We talked about how often you should get tested.
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We talked about butt play, how to bring up more butt stuff in
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your life. We talked about all sorts of
32:16
stuff. Just trust me, Claire is
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fantastic. We had a blast.
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We're going to do it again because we literally could have
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talked for three hours and that's a it's so fun when that
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happens. So that's next week.
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Until then, have a beautiful week, have a beautiful weekend
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and take good care.