Latest / As A Man Awaketh Podshare / Trauma, Trust & Truth | Ep. 15
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- 0:00SPEAKER_00: Welcome to another episode of the As A Man Awaketh Pot Share.
- 0:07SPEAKER_00: So, as you can see, if you're watching this on video, I've got a bit of a new setup here.
- 0:13SPEAKER_00: I'm playing around with some things.
- 0:15SPEAKER_00: And got a new microphone, got a new camera.
- 0:17SPEAKER_00: So I'm still working things out.
- 0:20SPEAKER_00: I'm not sure yet if this is exactly how I want everything.
- 0:24SPEAKER_00: But for now, this is as best as I could make it for today.
- 0:28SPEAKER_00: So well, as usual, I don't really have any particular topic that I pre-plan for these episodes.
- 0:35SPEAKER_00: I just trust myself and trust Source that whatever needs to come through will come through.
- 0:41SPEAKER_00: So one thing though that I'd like to share right now is one of my readers
- 0:46SPEAKER_00: on Substack recently asked me,
- 0:48SPEAKER_00: well recently it was really kind of a couple of months ago,
- 0:53SPEAKER_00: Asked me how I connect with my subconscious.
- 0:57SPEAKER_00: Because I had mentioned that during one of the podcasts, pot shares, or even one of the posts.
- 1:03SPEAKER_00: I'm not really sure.
- 1:04SPEAKER_00: But so there's many ways, really.
- 1:07SPEAKER_00: One of the ways.
- 1:08SPEAKER_00: That is the simplest most effective really is using what's called the finger lock
- 1:15SPEAKER_00: or finger testing system.
- 1:17SPEAKER_00: And you basically,
- 1:19SPEAKER_00: this is a way by which you can tap into the intelligence of your body and really
- 1:24SPEAKER_00: the subconscious.
- 1:26SPEAKER_00: Some people say that it's actually tapping into your higher consciousness
- 1:30SPEAKER_00: or your higher self, if you want to call it that.
- 1:33SPEAKER_00: But whatever it is,
- 1:35SPEAKER_00: there's different methods,
- 1:36SPEAKER_00: but I've sort of developed my own in that I first drop into my heart space.
- 1:43SPEAKER_00: Because the heart never lies unless it is extremely hurt and extremely wounded.
- 1:49SPEAKER_00: So when you want to muscle test really is another word for doing
- 1:54SPEAKER_00: that muscle testing, finger testing or finger lock muscle testing.
- 1:57SPEAKER_00: This is how it looks basically on screen.
- 2:00SPEAKER_00: You put your index finger and your thumb together on both hands, and then you interlock them.
- 2:08SPEAKER_00: And this is then how you basically would test by asking questions.
- 2:12SPEAKER_00: You can test this out for yourself and get to know your subconscious and your body
- 2:20SPEAKER_00: with this by just trying it out.
- 2:23SPEAKER_00: Really, that's all it takes.
- 2:26SPEAKER_00: The first test,
- 2:27SPEAKER_00: if you want to make That first test is to put your fingers together like this and
- 2:32SPEAKER_00: then ask a question that you know is true.
- 2:36SPEAKER_00: For example, my name is Daniel.
- 2:38SPEAKER_00: So first though, you want to drop into your heart space.
- 2:41SPEAKER_00: So that may take some practice, of course.
- 2:45SPEAKER_00: It may take some healing if you haven't been on the healing journey.
- 2:49SPEAKER_00: It takes certainly a bit of a...
- 2:53SPEAKER_00: Breaking of the armor around the heart to really have access to that space
- 2:58SPEAKER_00: that is really our true self in the heart self.
- 3:02SPEAKER_00: But once you're there,
- 3:03SPEAKER_00: and if you can get there through meditation,
- 3:05SPEAKER_00: it's just like anything, you want to repeat it.
- 3:09SPEAKER_00: As much as you can until you're fully proficient with it.
- 3:13SPEAKER_00: And then once you're ready, you drop into your heart space, okay?
- 3:17SPEAKER_00: And you put your fingers together.
- 3:20SPEAKER_00: And then you simply ask a question that you would like a yes or no answer to.
- 3:24SPEAKER_00: So that's really kind of the only thing that you can get with the muscle testing
- 3:30SPEAKER_00: or finger testing technique is yes or no answers.
- 3:34SPEAKER_00: So if you want to do this with me right now, if you can...
- 3:39SPEAKER_00: So first,
- 3:39SPEAKER_00: drop into your heart space,
- 3:40SPEAKER_00: like I said,
- 3:44SPEAKER_00: and then ask a question that you know the answer to would be yes.
- 3:48SPEAKER_00: So in my case, my name is Daniel.
- 3:52SPEAKER_00: And then you can feel by pulling out.
- 3:54SPEAKER_00: So when you want to test the answer, you're basically pulling these two fingers out.
- 4:03SPEAKER_00: You're trying to break the cycle.
- 4:05SPEAKER_00: You break the chain, basically.
- 4:07SPEAKER_00: Of these fingers interlock together.
- 4:10SPEAKER_00: And that's basically how you get a yes.
- 4:12SPEAKER_00: So when you get a yes, that means your fingers are locking.
- 4:16SPEAKER_00: So they're not moving.
- 4:17SPEAKER_00: Okay.
- 4:17SPEAKER_00: You're not breaking the chain.
- 4:19SPEAKER_00: If the answer is no, then they will come apart like this.
- 4:23SPEAKER_00: Okay.
- 4:25SPEAKER_00: So once again, my name is Daniel.
- 4:26SPEAKER_00: Okay.
- 4:29SPEAKER_00: My name is Jonathan.
- 4:31SPEAKER_00: And you can see the resistance lets go.
- 4:34SPEAKER_00: So yes, the fingers stay together and no, the fingers come apart.
- 4:40SPEAKER_00: And that's really all it takes to muscle test.
- 4:43SPEAKER_00: And that's one way,
- 4:46SPEAKER_00: one quick way to get in touch with your subconscious,
- 4:50SPEAKER_00: even though the subconscious is a vast field of possibility,
- 4:57SPEAKER_00: certainly also a field of hidden dangers and fears and anxieties and all that kind
- 5:02SPEAKER_00: of stuff.
- 5:04SPEAKER_00: But that's one way, okay?
- 5:05SPEAKER_00: So that's a simple way.
- 5:06SPEAKER_00: And there's plenty of other...
- 5:09SPEAKER_00: Videos online on how to muscle test or finger test, finger lock, also some people call it.
- 5:15SPEAKER_00: That's the way I do it.
- 5:17SPEAKER_00: I do this also by testing quick things such as what to feed my dogs, for example.
- 5:26SPEAKER_00: We have four dogs and all of them require Not all of them,
- 5:32SPEAKER_00: but some of them have special needs and certain dietary restrictions,
- 5:37SPEAKER_00: and some of their stomachs and digestive tract,
- 5:41SPEAKER_00: I'm not going to get into any kind of detail now,
- 5:43SPEAKER_00: but I think you know what you mean, right?
- 5:47SPEAKER_00: I think you know what I mean.
- 5:48SPEAKER_00: There it is.
- 5:50SPEAKER_00: So when we feed our dogs,
- 5:53SPEAKER_00: we basically test,
- 5:55SPEAKER_00: and by we I mean my wife and I, basically test what each of them requires today.
- 6:01SPEAKER_00: So there's a supplement for intestinal support,
- 6:04SPEAKER_00: there's probiotics,
- 6:07SPEAKER_00: there's other liquids like salmon oil that's very good for their coat,
- 6:10SPEAKER_00: but for those dogs that have a bit of intestinal issues,
- 6:17SPEAKER_00: that's not always the best thing to do.
- 6:20SPEAKER_00: So anyway, you want to find out what is working for your dog or what is not.
- 6:29SPEAKER_00: And so sometimes things are good for them for that day,
- 6:34SPEAKER_00: for that meal during So,
- 6:36SPEAKER_00: we had to really experiment back and forth and thinking about it and researching
- 6:44SPEAKER_00: and ultimately we came to the conclusion, well,
- 6:46SPEAKER_00: why don't we just test,
- 6:47SPEAKER_00: why don't we just muscle test what each of our dog needs per meal.
- 6:54SPEAKER_00: And that's basically where we landed.
- 6:57SPEAKER_00: And so whatever, you know, when we make food for them, we muscle test, does blue need this?
- 7:04SPEAKER_00: Does gem need that?
- 7:06SPEAKER_00: And we muscle test yes or no.
- 7:08SPEAKER_00: And then if it's a yes,
- 7:09SPEAKER_00: for example,
- 7:09SPEAKER_00: if there's a multiple options,
- 7:12SPEAKER_00: for example,
- 7:12SPEAKER_00: with the salmon oil,
- 7:14SPEAKER_00: we test,
- 7:15SPEAKER_00: okay, if salmon oil is a yes, then how many pumps do we need to put in the food?
- 7:22SPEAKER_00: So...
- 7:23SPEAKER_00: That's one way, okay?
- 7:24SPEAKER_00: You can also do this for your own food.
- 7:26SPEAKER_00: Like for example,
- 7:28SPEAKER_00: when you want to eat something or you want to test something,
- 7:32SPEAKER_00: if it's good for you or not, that's a way to do it as well.
- 7:36SPEAKER_00: But again, you want to sort of find yourself in this.
- 7:39SPEAKER_00: This is not a technique that is going to just sort of quote unquote work out of
- 7:44SPEAKER_00: the box for everyone.
- 7:45SPEAKER_00: You have to sort of find yourself in it with this finger lock or muscle testing method.
- 7:52SPEAKER_00: Because you really want to reduce the possibility of false positives.
- 7:59SPEAKER_00: And that's why I always drop into my heart first.
- 8:02SPEAKER_00: As you know,
- 8:03SPEAKER_00: if you've been following my Substack for a while,
- 8:06SPEAKER_00: you know that I've been on a And so the more pain I released from my heart...
- 8:27SPEAKER_00: The more access I got to it.
- 8:29SPEAKER_00: I remember one specific plant medicine journey with sassafras and mushrooms
- 8:36SPEAKER_00: that basically pulled me into what seemed at the time during the night into almost
- 8:44SPEAKER_00: a bottomless pit of pain.
- 8:47SPEAKER_00: So much pain was coming out of me and I was writhing on the floor
- 8:54SPEAKER_00: and
- 8:57SPEAKER_00: shaking out this pain that had been stored in my cells and my muscles.
- 9:03SPEAKER_00: A lot of tension out of my muscles in the back and the hips and the legs and even
- 9:10SPEAKER_00: the arms and the shoulders for sure came out.
- 9:14SPEAKER_00: That's really where it's stored.
- 9:16SPEAKER_00: When we experience pain, fear,
- 9:19SPEAKER_00: anxiety,
- 9:20SPEAKER_00: any kind of shock or trauma as children,
- 9:24SPEAKER_00: and we don't have the proper channels to release it right away,
- 9:28SPEAKER_00: and there's no comfort,
- 9:31SPEAKER_00: no safe space that we can return to to release and come back to our baseline
- 9:38SPEAKER_00: of being good and being okay and being peaceful, then we will find...
- 9:44SPEAKER_00: The body and the subconscious will find a way to store this trauma,
- 9:50SPEAKER_00: this shock,
- 9:50SPEAKER_00: this pain somewhere in the body and lock it down so that we don't have
- 9:55SPEAKER_00: to feel it anymore.
- 9:57SPEAKER_00: And this is how we create the armor around the heart.
- 10:00SPEAKER_00: And this is why so many people,
- 10:01SPEAKER_00: because trauma, sorry to say, is part of your experience as a human.
- 10:08SPEAKER_00: Everyone goes through it.
- 10:09SPEAKER_00: There's not one human that does not go through some form of trauma.
- 10:14SPEAKER_00: Even if your parents were...
- 10:15SPEAKER_00: Still together,
- 10:17SPEAKER_00: even if you had the most loving household,
- 10:18SPEAKER_00: even if you grew up on a farm,
- 10:21SPEAKER_00: an off-grid community or whatever the case may be where everything's good,
- 10:26SPEAKER_00: at least seemingly good,
- 10:29SPEAKER_00: something always happens that causes trauma to be lodged in our system somewhere.
- 10:37SPEAKER_00: And that then creates obviously patterns and habits and perceptions of reality
- 10:46SPEAKER_00: through which we see the world.
- 10:48SPEAKER_00: And for example,
- 10:50SPEAKER_00: if you've grown up in a household where there's lots of chaos,
- 10:54SPEAKER_00: then eventually you will think that the world is chaotic and you will live in a way
- 11:02SPEAKER_00: and perceive the world in a way that That no matter what you do or where you go or
- 11:07SPEAKER_00: who you talk to,
- 11:09SPEAKER_00: that is kind of the filter through which you see the world,
- 11:12SPEAKER_00: through which you see people,
- 11:14SPEAKER_00: through which you see your job, your career, your love life.
- 11:20SPEAKER_00: So it's a program that sort of works as an overlay,
- 11:26SPEAKER_00: kind of like if you were wearing glasses, basically.
- 11:31SPEAKER_00: Think of it like a stain on your glasses.
- 11:33SPEAKER_00: And because you grew up with it,
- 11:35SPEAKER_00: and that's been sort of the normal thing that you just figured,
- 11:40SPEAKER_00: hey, I guess that's how the world works.
- 11:43SPEAKER_00: That's a stain on these glasses, and that's how you walk around the world.
- 11:47SPEAKER_00: Thinking that, well, that's just the way it is.
- 11:49SPEAKER_00: How many times have we heard that?
- 11:51SPEAKER_00: Especially from our parents.
- 11:53SPEAKER_00: And so you just accept it as truth.
- 11:56SPEAKER_00: And so you walk around accepting the truth that the world is chaotic,
- 12:01SPEAKER_00: that people are chaotic, that your life is chaotic and love is chaotic.
- 12:08SPEAKER_00: You're going to have that kind of notion no matter where you go in life.
- 12:12SPEAKER_00: And until you Revisit,
- 12:16SPEAKER_00: really is what we all have to do,
- 12:18SPEAKER_00: revisit that initial,
- 12:20SPEAKER_00: ideally the first event where that particular chaos pain was programmed into us
- 12:32SPEAKER_00: when we were first exposed to it.
- 12:37SPEAKER_00: So revisiting that and feeling it again,
- 12:42SPEAKER_00: allowing our body,
- 12:44SPEAKER_00: allowing our system,
- 12:45SPEAKER_00: allowing our subconscious to revisit that and feel that pain once again
- 12:54SPEAKER_00: so it can finally move out of our system.
- 12:58SPEAKER_00: That's unfortunately the only way it works that I've found.
- 13:02SPEAKER_00: And I've been in this space for a while and I've looked at different things.
- 13:06SPEAKER_00: If you want the most clean, fast,
- 13:10SPEAKER_00: and holistic and complete way to release your trauma and the patterns,
- 13:16SPEAKER_00: the subconscious behaviors that are limiting you,
- 13:20SPEAKER_00: that are keeping you small,
- 13:23SPEAKER_00: Then you have to revisit those painful events and allow yourself to feel them fully.
- 13:31SPEAKER_00: And that will then allow your body to move it out of you.
- 13:36SPEAKER_00: Because it's just energy.
- 13:37SPEAKER_00: At the end of the day, it's only energy.
- 13:39SPEAKER_00: That's all it is.
- 13:40SPEAKER_00: Now, when it comes out, of course, it's very ugly.
- 13:43SPEAKER_00: Okay?
- 13:46SPEAKER_00: It's not going to sound,
- 13:47SPEAKER_00: look, or feel, or even smell good in some cases if you're really like purging heart.
- 13:53SPEAKER_00: But think of it like rotting food, right?
- 13:58SPEAKER_00: So when you put food in a,
- 14:01SPEAKER_00: let's say,
- 14:01SPEAKER_00: in some kind of container,
- 14:03SPEAKER_00: Tupperware or whatever,
- 14:04SPEAKER_00: and you put it into the fridge, Okay,
- 14:07SPEAKER_00: it's going to be there for a while and it's going to be okay for like a week,
- 14:11SPEAKER_00: maybe two weeks, maybe three weeks.
- 14:14SPEAKER_00: But if you leave it in there for 10 years,
- 14:18SPEAKER_00: 20 years,
- 14:19SPEAKER_00: 30 years,
- 14:19SPEAKER_00: in some cases, 60 years, what do you think is going to happen to that food?
- 14:26SPEAKER_00: Nothing good.
- 14:28SPEAKER_00: It's going to turn black and moldy and ugly and toxic.
- 14:33SPEAKER_00: And maybe if it's in a plastic container,
- 14:35SPEAKER_00: it's even going to start eating the plastic and it's going
- 14:37SPEAKER_00: to start maybe even become corrosive depending on what kind of food it is.
- 14:42SPEAKER_00: Now, in the case of McDonald's, it'll hold.
- 14:45SPEAKER_00: It'll still look the same in 60 years.
- 14:48SPEAKER_00: But any kind of real food is going to look really ugly.
- 14:53SPEAKER_00: So think of it like that.
- 14:55SPEAKER_00: These traumas and pains that we have as children that we have to store in our body
- 15:02SPEAKER_00: in order to not feel that pain all the time,
- 15:05SPEAKER_00: It's like food stored in a container,
- 15:07SPEAKER_00: stored in your cells, locked away in your cells, in your fascia, in your muscles.
- 15:14SPEAKER_00: And it's going to just keep rotting away there.
- 15:19SPEAKER_00: And, you know,
- 15:20SPEAKER_00: in some circles,
- 15:21SPEAKER_00: in the somatic circles and the more, shall we say, the metaphysical anatomy circles,
- 15:30SPEAKER_00: It is well known to them that cancer is the result of stored energy,
- 15:40SPEAKER_00: of stored traumatic energy that has never allowed itself to be released.
- 15:48SPEAKER_00: And also the location matters, right?
- 15:50SPEAKER_00: So people, let's say, who have throat cancer.
- 15:56SPEAKER_00: Maybe, usually,
- 15:58SPEAKER_00: what reveals itself is that during childhood,
- 16:03SPEAKER_00: They were not allowed to express themselves fully.
- 16:05SPEAKER_00: They were not allowed to speak.
- 16:07SPEAKER_00: They were not allowed to talk.
- 16:09SPEAKER_00: They were not allowed to express their needs verbally.
- 16:15SPEAKER_00: So they were shut down on the verbal level.
- 16:20SPEAKER_00: And other things too.
- 16:23SPEAKER_00: But there's always a correlation between the energetic and the physical expression of a disease.
- 16:29SPEAKER_00: And that's becoming more and more mainstream now.
- 16:34SPEAKER_00: There's lots of people writing about it and talking about it.
- 16:37SPEAKER_00: There's a book called Metaphysical Anatomy.
- 16:40SPEAKER_00: I forgot the author's name.
- 16:42SPEAKER_00: But she basically wrote a whole really thick book about most common diseases
- 16:49SPEAKER_00: and their locations,
- 16:50SPEAKER_00: obviously, and then the subconscious traumatic cause of that, usually.
- 16:58SPEAKER_00: And then she also gives some examples and practices on how to start releasing
- 17:04SPEAKER_00: that trapped energy from your system.
- 17:08SPEAKER_00: But again,
- 17:09SPEAKER_00: personally,
- 17:10SPEAKER_00: I believe that plant medicine,
- 17:12SPEAKER_00: psychedelic plant medicine,
- 17:14SPEAKER_00: is one of the best,
- 17:15SPEAKER_00: fastest, and most complete ways to release these trapped energies.
- 17:24SPEAKER_00: It's of course not for everyone.
- 17:27SPEAKER_00: If you're super sensitive,
- 17:31SPEAKER_00: for example,
- 17:31SPEAKER_00: I know that there are a lot of people that are sensitive to these kinds of things,
- 17:36SPEAKER_00: then it may not be good for you.
- 17:38SPEAKER_00: You just have to experiment and see what works for you.
- 17:44SPEAKER_00: Now, one last thing I want to say is that
- 17:49SPEAKER_00: You really got to trust yourself.
- 17:51SPEAKER_00: And that's kind of a strange thing to say.
- 17:54SPEAKER_00: If you're on the awakening journey,
- 17:59SPEAKER_00: you know that everything that you thought was real,
- 18:05SPEAKER_00: everything that you thought was
- 18:09SPEAKER_00: the world and the truth about our world is basically
- 18:15SPEAKER_00: a lie.
- 18:17SPEAKER_00: And so once that reality that has been so carefully and systematically programmed
- 18:25SPEAKER_00: into you starts to shatter, then what do you have left?
- 18:32SPEAKER_00: What do you have left to stand on?
- 18:35SPEAKER_00: Because as the awakening continues and your reality crumbles
- 18:41SPEAKER_00: and your belief systems crumble, what do you have left?
- 18:49SPEAKER_00: Well, the only thing that there is really, and that is eternal love, infinite love.
- 18:58SPEAKER_00: Some people call it God.
- 19:00SPEAKER_00: Some people call it source, universe, whatever you want to call it.
- 19:04SPEAKER_00: But that's really the only thing that underlies everything, eternal, infinite love.
- 19:14SPEAKER_00: And so as you continue on your awakening journey,
- 19:21SPEAKER_00: And you don't know where to stand when yet another thing in reality turns out
- 19:27SPEAKER_00: to be complete lie and false or a deception yet again.
- 19:33SPEAKER_00: Return to infinite love.
- 19:35SPEAKER_00: Just know that it is there carrying All that is carrying consciousness.
- 19:43SPEAKER_00: It is the basis for all of consciousness.
- 19:49SPEAKER_00: And even if you can't feel it, right?
- 19:51SPEAKER_00: Of course, most people feel love in their heart.
- 19:55SPEAKER_00: And the more pain you release from your system,
- 19:59SPEAKER_00: from your heart, the more you're going to feel that naturally every single day.
- 20:07SPEAKER_00: So return to love, return to infinite love.
- 20:09SPEAKER_00: And it's really difficult to explain that in words.
- 20:15SPEAKER_00: And you may consciously understand that.
- 20:19SPEAKER_00: But unless you actually have felt infinite love in yourself and in every fiber of your being,
- 20:32SPEAKER_00: You really can't talk about it.
- 20:33SPEAKER_00: I can talk about it all day.
- 20:36SPEAKER_00: I can make a million podcasts, pod share, excuse me, episodes about it.
- 20:42SPEAKER_00: But at the end of the day, if you've never really felt it yourself, it's not gonna matter.
- 20:47SPEAKER_00: It's not gonna resonate.
- 20:48SPEAKER_00: So I had the privilege and the honor of feeling that once during a plant medicine journey.
- 20:59SPEAKER_00: And it basically showed me that all is well.
- 21:04SPEAKER_00: You really don't have to worry about anything because ultimately, Everything is infinite love.
- 21:11SPEAKER_00: That's where we all come from.
- 21:12SPEAKER_00: That's who we are.
- 21:13SPEAKER_00: That's the underlying truth of all realities, of all dimensions.
- 21:21SPEAKER_00: Without this infinite love, there would be nothing.
- 21:26SPEAKER_00: Nothing, not you, not me, not this camera, not this microphone, not this pot chair, nothing.
- 21:33SPEAKER_00: So I hope this lands for you.
- 21:36SPEAKER_00: I hope this is helpful in some way.
- 21:39SPEAKER_00: Let me know in the comments or wherever you find this pot chair, how that lands.
- 21:45SPEAKER_00: Anyway, I hope to make these episodes now every week.
- 21:51SPEAKER_00: Now that I have a much easier setup where I can just pop in and create a show.
- 21:57SPEAKER_00: And so hopefully I'll see you in the next episode next week.
- 22:01SPEAKER_00: Thank you so much for tuning in.
- 22:03SPEAKER_00: Much love.