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“I once was blind, but now I see.” The transformation of DeRay Hannah · Cultural Wars | America Out Loud News

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  Hello, you are listening to America Out Loud News Radio.
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  This is your man Monk, and we are here with a very special guest.
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  D Ray Hannah.
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  But before we get into your story.
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  Yes, sir.
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  I got a question for you.
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  Alright.
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  Do you believe us as human beings have the ability to choose, or something or someone is choosing for us?
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  Both things are happening simultaneously at all times.
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  Both things are happening simultaneously at all times.
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  Please explain.
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  But this isn't widely accepted.
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  So most of us run around life thinking we're making choices or we're forfeiting our power to choose over to somebody else, something else, and they're making choices for us.
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  Right.
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  Man, look at life, man.
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  Look at me, man.
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  When they don't know they chose it.
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  Well, we'll let the listeners know a little bit about your backstory, your childhood, and how you got to the point where you can answer that question, because you didn't know that question was coming.
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  The way you can answer that question is so easily and so confidently.
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  Okay.
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  Because I know it wasn't always like that.
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  Never.
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  Never.
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  So I would I would say the understanding of the answer is recent.
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  But the answer is somehow always been there.
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  Like I've always been the person living just outside of how everybody else lives, at least in my mind.
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  So as a child, I was more like a uh black clothes, not gothic, but just dim, dark.
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  But I could pop out and go meet with my friends and stuff like that.
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  Um childhood was spotted with uh lack of a father, uh single mother, trying her best to raise a man and other women.
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  Um struggles, a lot of struggles, but I actually look at those as the blessings nowadays.
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  Feel me?
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  The secret sauce of life, it helps do well.
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  Without those struggles, I wouldn't know how to struggle or overcome my struggles.
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  So uh, but however, most people don't, they never get to that to that place of understanding that everything is working out for you.
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  Yes.
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  Yes, it it's disheartening, bro, because since I've for lack of a better term, became quote unquote woke.
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  Um, I'm looking for this conversation.
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  I'm searching for it.
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  And every conversation I have.
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  The disheartened part is when I catch it.
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  Oh, they don't get it.
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  They don't get it right there in plain sight.
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  Uh, I think it takes a lot of self-exploration to accumulate this type of uh understanding or knowledge if you want to call it that.
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  But we're taught selfishness, self-absorbed, and anything with self is wrong.
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  When it's this it's the key.
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  Seek yeah kingdom of heaven and everything else we added unto you.
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  That's a scripture about falling into the self and coming out with the gifts of creations and laying that at his feet, and then everything else is dropped on your head, just you ain't even asking for the game.
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  The game is being given to you at that point.
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  And at that point, it's uh to even understand if it's real or really wrong, but then you just start testing life, and you start seeing it everywhere, like, oh snaps.
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  Am I the only way to get this?
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  And then you get a blessing in a form of monk the man.
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  And you be like, okay, I'm vindicated.
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  I'm not thinking like this by myself.
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  There's a school of us out there, bro.
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  Yeah, and everybody has different facets, different thoughts, different ideologies, but it's the same, it's the same pie.
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  And uh so as far as your programming goes, because obviously we had to initially be you know given a truth about ourselves.
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  In my book, uh 1215, I call it our indoctrination.
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  Uh and our indoctrinators are mainly mother, father, and then both sides of the grandparents.
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  This is so crucial because they can only give us what they got, but time keeps advancing.
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  What's new will be new today because it wasn't that yesterday.
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  So for my indoctrinators to give me what they give me, I take it as concrete, take it as crack until I go through a life about and feel like and realize like, oh, wait a minute.
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  This doesn't, this isn't equate.
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  This doesn't, this doesn't add up.
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  And for me, that was actually uh one of my biggest struggles of life.
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  I had to deconstruct 30 plus years of indoctrinations, and these indoctrinations were from people that love me.
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  Right.
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  So I clung to what is truth.
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  But then when I go to pull that truth out, and it falls weak in my hand, I'm like, wait a minute.
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  Um snaps it.
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  My belief system is not holding up in certain degrees, certain temperatures, certain pools, certain bins, it will break.
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  So I want to back it up just a little bit.
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  Okay.
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  You talked about grandparents.
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  Now, for me, that was interesting.
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  I had one set of grandparents that were racist.
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  And I I didn't have any relationship with them.
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  Then my other set of grandparents, I never knew.
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  So I never had any grandparents.
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  That's that's I only had my mother.
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  My father died when I was three and a half.
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  That's it.
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  And my aunties and uncles.
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  But they weren't, I wasn't really close to them either.
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  What would you say about that situation?
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  So what I would say is it worked to your benefit because you didn't get the proper indoctrination.
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  So the slate, the mind, the brain, instead of being packed with all this intake since child from all these different people that love us, you had one.
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  So the slate, the mind, the brain, instead of being packed with all this intake since child from all these different people that love us, you had one.
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  So it left you enough room to still explore that.
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  So it left you enough room to still explore that.
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  What about the trauma of this pass down through the genes?
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  What about the trauma of this pass down through the genes?
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  So I'm dealing with that myself right now.
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  So I'm dealing with that myself right now in a new relationship, and
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  Um in a new relationship.
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  And jealousy has been a word thrown around.
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  Manipulator has been a word thrown around.
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  Insecurities, even sadistic.
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  And uh my belief system in myself is somebody can't say something to me, and then somebody else say it, and I don't give it any attention.
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  To me, a two word rather than my name's online.
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  Two people I don't that know don't know each other, say the same thing.
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  I have to apply myself and see, okay, that has to be real to some degree why we're type shelf.
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  So this uh particular incidence, I set with myself and said, shh, yeah, jealousy.
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  She was talking about any any truth to what she's saying, I can look in my history and see it somewhere.
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  Let me call her blow.
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  Let me do some reflection work.
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  I started reflecting the question.
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  You found out the wrong, you found out the wrong.
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  There wasn't where was it at?
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  It was where wasn't it?
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  I said, oh, snaps, we got work to do.
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  So uh Scrady said this.
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  This is the question because I'm very, very vulnerable with uh expressing myself, maybe or over share, like to the tenth degree.
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  So my father calls me today, and I don't speak with this guy on a normal basis.
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  Uh really uh just you pops, man.
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  You ain't been there.
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  I I I've processed the ill feelings I've had about it since my youth.
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  Now it's just uh, what's up, dude?
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  I can get at you like this.
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  Like it's just another man.
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  I can get it to you like that.
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  But he called out the blue and true to me being me.
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  Let me ask you a question, man.
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  Uh, was you are you a jealous dude?
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  Uh no, son, uh have you ever been?
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  Yeah, my child growing up.
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  Ooh.
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  I said, yeah, I'm experiencing some jealous stuff.
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  Ooh, and his uh, what's the name was Sonia?
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  You gotta let it go, because a woman is gonna do what a woman do, regardless if you want it or not, whether you like it or not.
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  So I'm not jealous no more just because I know she's gonna do what she's gonna do.
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  I'm like, dang, dad.
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  Like, is there a point to say I'm not jealous because I know she's gonna do what she's gonna do, and I can be cool with that?
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  Is that our cuss?
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  Or is there a place where we get to where we truly trust and value the woman we're with?
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  And the insecurities are the trust issues or oblivious, you know, you've processed to yourself enough to get to a secure place and self.
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  So I understand that's what I'm going through, but looking back at Pops, I'm like, maybe this is an inherent situation.
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  Uh the same process.
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  Uh my book is 1215, and the theory is TFA and co.
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  is the permeators of life.
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  Our thought, our feeling, our actions is what ties all together, and no one will experience different thoughts, different feelings or different actions.
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  All the same ship.
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  We may express them in different ways, but if I want to correct something that I an infraction I have against myself, even if I understand that it's an inheriting, track it.
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  Where's this thing established at?
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  Like I've been doing with my jealousy.
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  Oh, snaps.
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  Blank slit, I can't find the situation in my life that calls me to be uh a jealous.
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  Uh segue, real quick, side note, uh single parent household, mother, father never been there, seven sisters in total.
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  My admiration for a woman is a deity status.
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  What keeps breaking me, monk, is I understand what I have for a woman, but then I look back at my past and see I've been charging every woman for some jealousy stuff.
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  It's almost disheartening, but I know it's not me.
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  But I know if I can't find it, it must be tied to the makeup of me.
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  But it's still my life to live.
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  So I have to reflect back, find where it's at, okay.
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  Uh it doesn't have a starting point, so it must be a part of me.
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  At that point, it's God given.
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  So now I have to figure out the jewel in that thing that God needed me to grab, because the rest of it is trash.
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  It was wrapped in it.
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  Feel me?
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  The jewel was wrapped in it.
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  So the jealousy came like it came, but there's one spark of goodness somewhere in there.
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  It's a reason why I had it.
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  Right now, I'm searching for that reason.
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  But I will dismiss and dismantle everything else.
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  It's a process.
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  For those that are listening, I I really hope that you are hearing what this young man is saying.
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  It might have.
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  I know that listeners that do listen are very intelligent.
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  But sometimes if you're not really paying attention, it's gonna, it's gonna slip by you.
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  You really gotta pay attention because he's spitting facts.
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  Um but your childhood and not having a father and the way you grew up and your grandparents and all those different people and experiences that shaped, they created that.
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  I call it the hard drive.
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  Yes, sir.
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  The hard drive that's created is most people run with that same operating system their whole life.
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  Whole life.
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  Carl Young says, until you make the unconscious conscious, you will uh I'm just paraphrasing, um, you will be controlled, and you will call it fate or something like that.
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  Until you make the unconscious, you will be making decisions and or being the victim, and you will say this is just how it's happening.
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  And like I said, I'm paraphrasing, but I wish I could remember the exact quote.
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  But you have to put that light in those dark places.
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  You have to find a way to become aware of the patterns that are controlling you.
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  But you don't even know how tough you touch it.
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  Uh downloads, damn those demos, demos.
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  I've been receiving them about this topic this whole week, not even knowing that this is about to happen.
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  So maybe uh y'all just witnessed it the jewel that I was supposed to catch, is what I've just coined, the thought before the thought becomes conscious.
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  Y'all just witnessed it, the jewel that I was supposed to catch is what I've just coined, the thought before the thought becomes conscious.
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  This is what we're supposed to monitor.
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  This is what we're supposed to monitor.
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  This is what we're supposed to watch.
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  This is what we're supposed to watch.
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  This is what we're supposed to tweak to change those situations for ourselves.
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  This is what we're supposed to tweak to change those situations for ourselves.
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  Um if you just watch people and the experience of watching yourself, you'll see yourself do a twitch before you tell yourself to go work out.
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  Um, if you just watch people and the experience of watching yourself, you'll see yourself do a twist.
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  You'll feel uh bounce before your mind says it's time for me to entertain my woman.
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  Um you'll have a nudge mentally before your stomach tells you so it's time to eat.
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  Uh after you being so critical of a thinker and being attention to all these things about yourself, you start seeing those niches and nudges and everybody else.
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  And then you just watch and say, uh, I know what I did I would have all you just did it.
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  Oh, I just practiced code of life.
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  So it's those thoughts before the thought becomes conscious.
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  If we can grab those, uh, that's all the power you need because it sets up the tone for the rest of T FA Thoughts and Actions.
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  That's that's that's amazing.
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  I was I was watching the show, and they hooked people up and monitored them and everything, and they said there's something going on.
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  Don't you see it, boy?
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  Don't you see it?
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  The decision is made before you know the decision is made before you make the decision.
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  There's a there's a split second, not even second, just a just it's that quick.
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  It's like a it's made, and then your brain says, okay, let me do this.
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  And this is how you know it's a computer because what it really is is a spark.
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  That's a spark in your electricity spark, but it kicks everything else in the dry.
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  It kicks everything goes like some of life switch.
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  They were actually telling the people what they were gonna do before they did.
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  Yeah.
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  I can do that naturally.
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  It is not accepted.
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  You can't say it's not accepted.
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  And I get it.
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  You can't tell me what the nope.
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  Even if you is, I'll never let you know.
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  Yeah.
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  They literally would um know just a split second before the person would do the thing.
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  They could they it it the the whatever the electricity or electromanic or whatever they were measuring in the brain, yeah.
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  It would make it make some fun movement before they actually actually made the decision.
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  And welcome back to America Out Loud News Radio with my special guest, D-Ray Hanna.
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  Yes.
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  And uh we talked a little bit about your childhood and um my my brother Malcolm, he said, you know, about life.
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  He said, you know, life is a four-letter word.
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  When he said that, it was so hilarious to me because you know how you say a four-letter word is bad, but you know, life be life.
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  Life be life.
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  Right.
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  You know, life is a four-letter word.
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  It's one of those four-letter words.
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  And on this platform and on my show, I like to talk about life.
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  Because what else is there?
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  There's nothing else.
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  What else is there?
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  You feel me?
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  There's nothing else but life.
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  Yes.
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  That divine spark.
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  What else would we talk about?
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  So I love to get other people's experiences because I know that somebody else's experience is gonna help somebody get through a tough time.
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  Yes, right.
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  And this is what it's about.
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  So now you you're you're locked in.
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  You know, from birth to seven is when they say that your actual hard drive is created.
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  That that the side, and then after that, you just have experiences that reinforce them, those beliefs.
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  And it becomes more solid and more solid.
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  Like the saying, you can't teach all old dog new tricks because that system is ingrained the older you get.
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  So now you're locked in and you start moving a certain way.
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  How do you start moving?
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  And why do you think that is?
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  Um I'm a good dude.
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  Always have been.
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  Um peer pressure's never been big on me.
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  Um peer pressure's never been big on me.
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  But I did want to move with the crowd.
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  But I did want to move with the crowd.
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  So, you know, I don't single dude, single boy in the house.
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  So, no, I don't single dude, single boy in the house.
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  My cousins get to do what they're doing, I'm with them.
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  My cousins get to do what they're doing, I'm with them.
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  I'm trying to, I'm trying to, but I know I'm a good dude.
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  I'm trying to, I'm trying to, but I know I'm a good dude.
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  I'm not a bad boy.
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  I'm not a bad boy.
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  I'm not a none of that.
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  I'm not a none of that.
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  But I'm a beer.
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  But I'm gonna be it, I'm gonna jump on it.
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  I'm a jump.
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  I'm a I'm I'm out here.
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  I'm I'm out here.
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  The moment I got locked up to second, the second incarceration.
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  The moment I got locked up to second, the second incarceration.
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  So, how you gonna skip?
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  So how you gonna skip over how?
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  You gotta go.
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  I'm a D boy.
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  We was D boy.
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  You had it and we won't it.
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  We coming again.
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  Get it.
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  You know what?
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  Many of my guests come on here, they like to skip over stuff.
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  You went straight from I was like and run with the crowd to my second time.
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  Two time.
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  So how did you even get into that?
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  What happened?
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  My guys, man, me and being my bros.
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  Uh not having no money.
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  And uh knowing what we know about the streets and going to go get it.
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  I don't know too much about dope.
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  I know we've been out here beating people up all the time.
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  So we just gonna start beating people up and taking these stuff.
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  And uh that's really what it was.
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  We went from regular street fights, running people's pockets to run into establishments.
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  Feel me?
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  We never got, we never did nothing crazy.
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  And um it's funny because uh we was squat up, uh Mafia also with a dough.
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  But before he really solidified, everybody got incarcerated.
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  Well, me and Wiz.
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  But 10 years him, before he got out, I caught five.
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  Um before I get out, he catches ten, before he gets out, I catch ten.
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  So you are Marvel.
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  So you had five the first time, then ten the second time.
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  Yes, sir.
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  Yes, sir.
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  Uh my second time, I was out four years from the five piece.
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  And I was I was done with it.
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  I was done with it.
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  But I still had that itch, that bite.
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  Uh what I did was dumb down my crimes.
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  Like, well, I was doing an arm robbery, so I'll just go do some petty thief announcement.
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  Right.
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  Nah, I don't work like that.
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  Ride to the penitentiary.
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  Uh I'm asking myself.
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  Well, really, first when I woke up in county, I was this case I got beat up, I was in a coma three days.
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  You still see the scars on my face.
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  So I woke up looking in the mirror.
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  Who what happened?
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  I tried to rob an establishment, which was my brother's lick.
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  I had a lake, my brother had a lake.
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  You rob my lick because they know me, I rob your lit because they know you.
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  So I run in his establishment for some music equipment and uh some spice.
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  Chasing a fake eye.
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  Uh went in there on a nine-year-old war vet, which I cannot remember his man, this man's face for nothing at all.
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  But uh, beat me bloody, put a white seat on me, called the cops and told them I didn't mean to kill them.
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  Cops came, saw me, they said my the police forces my blood was pulling through the store.
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  Oh, that dad wolfed me.
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  But I'm glad he did.
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  I was in the wrong, bro.
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  I I always say, since I came out to look home and cut the time through the time.
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  If I ever meet this man, I'm gonna shake his head and thank you.
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  You gave me a blessing that I didn't know was a blessing, but you sent me on a uh a course that I was already on, but you you made the path straight, baby.
• 24:33
  The next 12, you got to go sit down.
• 24:36
  And on the ride to the penitentiary, I told myself, I'm going to college.
• 24:40
  I'm gonna go study that show life self-approve.
• 24:42
  I'm gonna fall into myself.
• 24:44
  I'm gonna learn who D-Ray Henna is.
• 24:47
  And I'm not thinking this biblically or I'm nothing even telling me this is right.
• 24:53
  This is just what I feel I have to do to get a point to self-maturity.
• 24:59
  I'm like, who are you, dude?
• 25:00
  How are you taking a bus ride to the penitentiary for the next 10 years?
• 25:06
  How did you do this to yourself?
• 25:09
  I don't know why I had understanding then that it was to myself.
• 25:12
  Um I never all because of such and such.
• 25:15
  I've never did the blank game.
• 25:17
  So the moment I hit the yard, bro, my head was down.
• 25:21
  My first couple months, I'm thinking, how do I convey this?
• 25:27
  How do I get this out of me?
• 25:28
  I gotta write it down, I gotta write it in, I gotta write it down.
• 25:31
  But I have a creative mind.
• 25:33
  Well, if I want to write it down, I can't write it down for nothing.
• 25:36
  I'm gonna write a book.
• 25:38
  Well, if I'm gonna go.
• 25:39
  So I got a quick I got a question.
• 25:40
  I got a question for you.
• 25:41
  So the second time that you went to prison, you didn't get involved with any prison politics or anything like that.
• 25:50
  You went straight to to trying to find yourself.
• 25:54
  The second time?
• 25:55
  The second time.
• 25:56
  The second time, you dang right.
• 25:58
  I wish you would come in.
• 25:59
  We were in prison politics.
• 26:00
  You see me.
• 26:02
  If I'm not reading or writing or working out or working my job.
• 26:06
  And uh for the most part, everybody respected it.
• 26:09
  I had a few times people come up to me, hey uh, we need you to go uh you go whoop on wood do for what?
• 26:16
  Because we make in the car, who call.
• 26:18
  Yeah, yeah, I'm not.
• 26:20
  You will, I remember one time somebody had made the comment like, uh, you know, if you don't go in there, I can send him in there on you.
• 26:27
  Send your best, and when I send him back, bring yourself up in here.
• 26:32
  That's not my bid, and I'm not doing that.
• 26:35
  Forget your politics.
• 26:37
  I'm on, I'm on God's work.
• 26:38
  That's really solely how I looked at it.
• 26:41
  And for the first eight years, my head was down writing this book.
• 26:46
  Around year six, I got the opportunity to start typing it and writing it.
• 26:50
  And I just focused on the mission.
• 26:53
  Because when I first started writing it, I didn't have a concept of what I'm gonna write about.
• 26:59
  It was I know I gotta get my story out of me.
• 27:02
  But what would make my story have any any type of weight?
• 27:06
  Uh I was in sitting in a cognitive restructuring class, and they were saying your thoughts, behaviors, and um not actions, but it was thoughts, thoughts, effects, and behaviors or something like that.
• 27:22
  And it just said right.
• 27:23
  I'm like, that doesn't equate to nothing.
• 27:25
  Like a behavior is a repetitive thought.
• 27:27
  I mean, a repetitive action.
• 27:29
  That's how you accumulate behavior, so it can't be behavior because it had to go somewhere to get to that.
• 27:34
  I'm sitting there thinking about what they're saying.
• 27:36
  I'm like, oh, that would have to be to make what they're saying, right?
• 27:41
  So it has to be TFA.
• 27:42
  And you want to start stoking.
• 27:44
  I'm like, oh, well, then that would apply to everything.
• 27:48
  That is the only thing that everybody has together.
• 27:53
  We have the power to think, we have the power to feel, we have the power to act those thoughts and those feelings out.
• 27:58
  If that's so, then those need to be the three things that we do at the highest level imaginable.
• 28:00
  Be the three things that we do at the highest level of magical.
• 28:04
  Once you do that, you start to tap into yourself, which is direct link to the higher, higher, whatever you want to call it.
• 28:04
  Once you do that, you start to tap into yourself, which is direct link to the higher, higher, whatever you want to call it.
• 28:13
  That's the way you get there.
• 28:13
  That's the way you get there.
• 28:14
  And once you tap his line, he gets to throw them jewels back at you.
• 28:14
  And once you tap his line, he gets to throw them jewels back at you.
• 28:19
  Who receives them, who catches them?
• 28:19
  Who receives them, who catches them, that's not his concern.
• 28:21
  That's not his concern.
• 28:23
  He just wants to make sure you see the planet.
• 28:23
  He just wanna make sure you see the planet.
• 28:26
  I uh heard something the other day.
• 28:26
  I uh heard something the other day that really resonated with me.
• 28:31
  And it's just true.
• 28:33
  I forget who it was.
• 28:35
  He said, everybody has thoughts, but very few people think.
• 28:45
  Everybody has thoughts.
• 28:48
  But few people think.
• 28:53
  That's so deep.
• 28:54
  It's so true.
• 28:55
  And it's simple, because it's the little things that like the whole truth.
• 28:59
  What's the point of thinking if it's not thought?
• 29:02
  I switched it around.
• 29:03
  But it's the same.
• 29:04
  What's the point of thinking if it's not a thought?
• 29:07
  You can't have a thought without thinking.
• 29:10
  So even that same conversation with my pops today, he ended it with, son, you just can't be overthinker as man.
• 29:18
  I said, Dang, Pops, I get it.
• 29:20
  But my depth of perception is nobody's thinking enough.
• 29:24
  All these thoughts running through your head, but ain't nobody thinking about them.
• 29:28
  I have a thought.
• 29:28
  I'm saying, why did I think that?
• 29:31
  Where'd that come from?
• 29:32
  What's that about?
• 29:33
  And then I'll see it thought through.
• 29:37
  That definitely ain't gone for me.
• 29:39
  I'm not thinking about stuff like that.
• 29:41
  Download, what am I supposed to do with it?
• 29:43
  But those are the steps to process and do yourself.
• 29:47
  And it's scary.
• 29:49
  And it's hard.
• 29:50
  And you're gonna find some stuff about yourself you don't like.
• 29:53
  And you're gonna, but you gotta go through it.
• 29:57
  Because you gotta grow through it.
• 29:59
  Those uh faults or those flaws are still the secret sauces that make you.
• 30:04
  What you do is find the jewel in them.
• 30:07
  I know it's funny because through this time I'll sound like a broken stove, because everything is everything.
• 30:14
  This principle applies to every aspect of life.
• 30:18
  Because, like we started at the beginning of this, it just is life.
• 30:23
  So you can come up with any however you want to do it.
• 30:28
  But you're still doing life.
• 30:30
  And we have metrics, we as humans can find to do life.
• 30:34
  And that's our thoughts, our feelings, and our actions.
• 30:37
  If we align those, we figure that out for ourselves, then we can see it clearly with anybody else.
• 30:45
  Then you can land, then you could, but who's gonna receive?
• 30:49
  That's that's what I've been seeing for myself is there's a class of people that are thinking like this, but the people that ain't thinking like this is the people that we gotta get thinking like this.
• 30:59
  But it's hard to tell somebody that's been indoctrinated for 40 plus years that their indoctrination was a little faulted or a little wrong.
• 31:06
  Who are you, especially if you're younger than them?
• 31:09
  Who you who you what?
• 31:10
  T of what?
• 31:11
  Boy, gonna take it, but somewhere my grandma and grandma tell her that.
• 31:15
  What are you talking about?
• 31:17
  Ain't nothing new under the sun.
• 31:19
  No, it ain't new.
• 31:20
  We've all been doing it forever.
• 31:21
  You just ain't been conscious of you doing it.
• 31:24
  You're having thoughts and not thinking them through.
• 31:26
  And I think that's the thing with people that have started to see, have eyes to see, that they want others to help others to see, but you cannot do that.
• 31:40
  You have to sit back as hard as it is and watch them learn.
• 31:45
  A lot of times, if we try to change somebody, we're gonna, we're gonna prevent them from getting something they're supposed to get from being in this the state that they're in, right?
• 31:58
  Trying to rescue them when really this experience that you see that you this is a terrible experience, it's for them and they need it.
• 32:08
  And we're trying to pull them out because we see the suffering, but that's not our job.
• 32:16
  And it sucks because let's say uh I see this, right?
• 32:21
  And I'm saying, I gotta teach, I gotta, I gotta, I gotta give.
• 32:27
  But their uh lesson are their blessings gonna come to them actually seeing that uh trauma all the way through.
• 32:36
  Uh also though, my blessing came from voicing up, trying to speak.
• 32:43
  Because just like they have a course of the direct directory, uh I do as well.
• 32:48
  Now, even though I'm supposed to sit back and let them get to where they gotta get, if I'm not there yet, I have to advocate for the people that are not good at it, so I can get to this place of saying, okay, I see why I can't.
• 33:07
  I understand why I can't do that.
• 33:09
  It becomes clear to me after doing it X amount of time, muscle memory, things like that.
• 33:14
  You've grown.
• 33:15
  In my space that I am right now, I see the why I shouldn't do it.
• 33:20
  And uh I see a therapist, uh, to ground speaking when she said you should, you should see therapy.
• 33:25
  That's how that's what she covered me.
• 33:27
  Like, your mind do what your mind, you should see therapy.
• 33:30
  I'm like, you know what?
• 33:31
  I've heard it before.
• 33:32
  Two more seconds, uh let me go ahead and do it.
• 33:35
  So my therapist said, Hey man, I think I'm gonna have like a God complex.
• 33:39
  She said, Why you say that?
• 33:40
  I said, because I be want to say people, I don't want to.
• 33:44
  She said, uh, you know, we wouldn't look through their notes.
• 33:46
  She said, Do you feel like you don't care about what people feel?
• 33:50
  I said, No, I'm quite the other way around.
• 33:52
  I think I care too much about what everybody else feels.
• 33:54
  She said, then it's not a God complex.
• 33:57
  But that's the only thing I can equate it to, because that's the only uh reflectionary point that I can go to is saying, well, while everybody else was saying, eh, I know what you need, but I gotta let you go through it.
• 34:12
  You got one man that came down and was marching, spitting game.
• 34:17
  And even though it was what it was even then, he still voiced up.
• 34:23
  He still spoke up, and the reason why we shouldn't do it is because we see what they did to him, nailed him to a cross, and vilified him and then deotized him.
• 34:33
  Crazy.
• 34:40
  But I kind of feel like all of our mission, if his word will never come back void, is to follow the blueprint.
• 34:48
  Uh be a fisherman.
• 34:51
  Keep fishing.
• 34:52
  Even when you're not supposed to.
• 34:54
  That's when you catch the biggest fish.
• 34:57
  But you but at the same time.
• 34:59
  No, man.
• 34:59
  You got look, all you can do, all you can be responsible for is delivering the message, right?
• 35:00
  Look, all you can do, all you can be responsible for is delivering the message, right?
• 35:06
  When you work in the field that we work in, yeah.
• 35:06
  When you work in the field that we work in, delivering the message the best way you possibly can with the with the right intentions, and just in the delivery is everything.
• 35:08
  Delivering the message the best way you possibly can with the with the right intentions, and just in in the delivery is everything.
• 35:18
  Right?
• 35:18
  Right.
• 35:18
  So in order for someone to re receive something, there can't be an ounce of judgment in your delivery.
• 35:18
  So in order for someone to re receive something, there can't be an ounce of judgment in your delivery.
• 35:25
  Yeah.
• 35:25
  So that that's our job is to make it so.
• 35:25
  So that that's our job is to make it so easy to digest, yeah that they get it.
• 35:33
  Like it tastes okay to them.
• 35:35
  It's not bitter.
• 35:35
  Yeah, yeah.
• 35:36
  But we can't be like, no, you're gonna eat this.
• 35:38
  What I'm giving you, all you can do is give it, and when they're ready to receive it, they will receive it.
• 35:43
  Yeah, it's funny because uh understandable with myself, I've been trying to find the perfect balance to deliver the message.
• 35:51
  And what I've been finding, it's uh circumstances, situational, like uh different people respond to different things different ways.
• 36:00
  So in real time, I have to gauge that if the conversation comes up, it's like how do I say this?
• 36:07
  And uh true to life, I'll have to say something two, three times before a person get it.
• 36:13
  It's it's actually funny.
• 36:15
  I'm dealing with lately.
• 36:16
  I'll say something, and that person will say something like, Why you say the house was tall?
• 36:24
  And like I didn't say the house was tall.
• 36:26
  I said tall and house, but I didn't, I didn't, I didn't structure the sentence in the question or like that.
• 36:34
  So people here, see, think feel what they want to hear.
• 36:38
  So I know all I can do is plant the seed.
• 36:41
  Uh my problem is I be won't attend to it too much.
• 36:45
  And it ain't my job.
• 36:46
  So I get that.
• 36:48
  And that's why I call it a God complex, because I shouldn't be breaking away from it, but I'll see something like, man, you need one more word, man.
• 36:56
  Yeah, me.
• 36:58
  And then sometimes I do have throw my hands up.
• 37:00
  Well, when we come back from break, we're gonna talk a little bit more about what you do for work and what your goals are moving forward.
• 37:07
  Sounds great.
• 37:08
  Right.
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• 38:51
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• 38:54
  DR.
• 38:55
  D Ray.
• 38:56
  Drahan of the God.
• 39:00
  I appreciate you being here too.
• 39:02
  Man, I appreciate you, big bro.
• 39:03
  It's my first one ever, y'all.
• 39:05
  So yes, this is the guy pretty good.
• 39:07
  No cousin.
• 39:08
  Ooh, this is this is this young man's first time ever having a.
• 39:13
  How long have you been out right now?
• 39:15
  Uh pulling up on a year and a half.
• 39:17
  I got out of February 16th last year.
• 39:21
  So people that interview, I remember my first being interviewed for my first time.
• 39:26
  Okay.
• 39:27
  And it's it feels a little.
• 39:30
  I was very insecure growing up.
• 39:32
  Okay.
• 39:32
  So when I've started to step out of that shell and to realize who I really was, it was still every step, like every first was kind of nerve-wracking for me.
• 39:44
  And you just got to step through that every single time you step through it, every the fear.
• 39:49
  Once you step through it once, you step through it again, you step through it again, you step through it again.
• 39:54
  And every time you step through it, it seems like new opportunities come.
• 40:01
  New job, a new relationship.
• 40:04
  If you step back, you step back, you lose, you stop the momentum.
• 40:10
  Walk through them doors.
• 40:11
  Keep the moment.
• 40:13
  Yeah, we were talking about fear a couple days ago, and uh I use the example of getting up on the high dive, and then you got too scared, so you came back down, right?
• 40:22
  But the more you give into that, the scarier it gets.
• 40:26
  The more you don't do the thing that scares you, the more you fear it, and it will control your life.
• 40:35
  So, Ma.
• 40:37
  Let me ask you a question.
• 40:39
  How do you go about life knowing this and then living in a world where you see plain sight the fear that's holding people back?
• 40:50
  And you see them give it into the fear, accepting the fear.
• 40:54
  Uh the way I put it is um, and it's normally in a relationship context where I'm using it.
• 41:01
  Uh, you gotta take, or you've allowed your imaginary friends to become monsters under your bed.
• 41:08
  Uh now it's a problem.
• 41:11
  Now this is something you gotta fix.
• 41:13
  Let's say it's my girl, and the problem is um a double mind or um unable to commit.
• 41:24
  But your life experiences gave you these things.
• 41:27
  Different situations, different relations is built this thing up.
• 41:30
  So now you have a super wall up, and you think it's uh a protector, and in some senses you use it for it, but it's a defense mechanism for the scared little child back there that's running or hiding from the monster that you was always an imaginary friend with now.
• 41:49
  You have to take that monster taking back down to imaginary friend status, be able to play with your security hand.
• 41:58
  Thank them for being there.
• 42:00
  Uh huh.
• 42:00
  Aww.
• 42:01
  So fragile, my insecurity, my jealousy.
• 42:01
  So fragile, my insecurity, my jealousy.
• 42:04
  You was running around in my life.
• 42:04
  You was running around in my life.
• 42:06
  You was making you yes, you was.
• 42:06
  You was making you yes, you was you gotta give it back down to that.
• 42:09
  You got to give it back down to that.
• 42:12
  Now you've taken your power back.
• 42:12
  Now you've taken your power back.
• 42:14
  Now you're no longer afraid of your own fears.
• 42:14
  Now you're no longer afraid of your own fears.
• 42:18
  You're looking at the man in the mirror.
• 42:18
  You're looking at the man in the mirror.
• 42:20
  It's a simple things of life that hold true.
• 42:20
  It's a simple things of life that hold true, but true to what Monk was saying, the thought without thinking, take those little things of life that hold true and dumb them.
• 42:22
  But true to what Monk was saying, the thought without thinking.
• 42:27
  Take those little things of life that hold true and dumb them down to why do they hold true?
• 42:33
  And then you'll crack the code for yourself and for others.
• 42:37
  But these imaginary phrases that became monsters are us living a life without the knowledge and understanding that these things can control us.
• 42:46
  Everything in anything because it's all the same.
• 42:50
  It's all energy, it's all a spirit.
• 42:53
  It all has a consciousness.
• 42:56
  Give that thing power if you want to.
• 42:59
  It will do the power.
• 43:00
  It will do the control, and it doesn't even know what to do.
• 43:03
  It wants you to be in your power and control.
• 43:06
  But if you're not gonna do it, I'll do it for you.
• 43:09
  That's every way back to the first question.
• 43:11
  I'll do it for you.
• 43:13
  I will do it for you, and I don't know what I'm doing, but I clearly see you though.
• 43:18
  I'm just not about to add that no more.
• 43:20
  I'm just I'm the one see it, and it hurts that I see it everywhere.
• 43:25
  But the it's what you see, like I said, you can't unsee.
• 43:30
  But uh but but most people, and we have to be careful because when we start to see things and other people don't, it's it's easy to become judgmental.
• 43:41
  Like, how do you not see it?
• 43:43
  It's right there.
• 43:44
  And we gotta remember, we gotta remember how many decisions we made because we couldn't see, they got us into some trouble.
• 43:51
  They got us into addiction, they got us into prison.
• 43:54
  You see what I'm saying?
• 43:55
  So once have you ever known somebody that quit smoking for yeah, no, dope, just like a week before, and then they want to get on everybody for smoking.
• 44:04
  It's like you know, you know, people fucking smell.
• 44:08
  You 24 hours, we're gonna cut it out.
• 44:12
  Yeah, so we gotta be careful how we judge other people because everybody is processing things and looking at things through a different lens.
• 44:21
  We have to, the best way we could show them is to be that instead of speak to them or speak down to them.
• 44:31
  We gotta show them how to do it by our own actions.
• 44:34
  It's funny because uh I don't speak down, and I try not to judge for one reason, and you just said it, the process.
• 44:43
  But I understand the process is just that, a process.
• 44:47
  So that can be on its own timeline of anything.
• 44:51
  So if I'm saying uh, I see you're going through a process and I want to process with you.
• 44:57
  I have to understand that it's a process.
• 45:00
  There's gonna be highs, there's gonna be lows, there's gonna be not knowing, there's gonna be understanding, there's gonna be clarity, there's gonna be insecurity, it's gonna be all kind of through that process, whatever that process is.
• 45:10
  And I gotta let you process.
• 45:12
  But I can choose to be there or choose not to be there.
• 45:16
  I'm just saying I'm the guy that chooses to be there.
• 45:20
  Even when I ain't supposed to be, which is a detriment to myself, uh.
• 45:25
  And let me say this, uh, I could be a crock of BS, feel me.
• 45:30
  But what I say is I'm a person that can recalibrate their energy real cool, real quick.
• 45:37
  No, no time, it's been that way for for some time now.
• 45:41
  So it seems like I'm always in a relationship or a situation where people around me that are uh depleted of uh the proper energy.
• 45:51
  And um sometimes I'm overzealous and trying to live a person up, pouring from our cup, you need some of this.
• 46:00
  And let they tell why I go do my little meditation thing and I'm dying back on the spot.
• 46:07
  But uh, you know, that hasn't been a beneficial thing for me, but I've seen the benefits for others.
• 46:15
  So I'm cool with that.
• 46:17
  Uh like I said, I could be a crooked BS because that's just my depth of perception.
• 46:22
  God gave it to me for a reason.
• 46:24
  I believe I can raise my energy, but I ain't never tracked it outside of smiling and feeling good after I'm walking away, telling myself I've done that for me, so depth of perception.
• 46:36
  So we kind of went on a little off on a tangent real quick, but we're gonna bring it back.
• 46:42
  What are you doing for work?
• 46:45
  And what are your plans?
• 46:48
  What are you creating?
• 46:49
  Because once you understand how this works, we become creators, I believe.
• 46:54
  Right?
• 46:55
  We create what we want.
• 46:56
  We don't wait back and uh react to life, we create life.
• 47:00
  What are you creating?
• 47:01
  I'm a creator's creator.
• 47:03
  I am creating creation.
• 47:06
  What is that and what is that look like?
• 47:08
  What does that look like?
• 47:09
  It looks like uh creating things like systems that will end up running themselves and employ other people and uh change the economy and add a value to everybody that comes in contact with it, giving them the gene or the spark, the thought before the thought that puts them on their creation path.
• 47:30
  Uh we're here to give, uh, not receive, but um that's the gift that I want to give.
• 47:37
  Creation.
• 47:38
  What do you want to create?
• 47:40
  So the things that I'm creating is in the space of trying to create more.
• 47:44
  Right now I work at a uh a sober living, and um as a house coordinator, I got three houses under me.
• 47:53
  Um and that's pretty taxing because you're dealing with a lot of people's uh TFA thoughts, feels and actions, and still have to regulate your own.
• 48:02
  Um I get everything.
• 48:05
  I get all they all the ups, all their downs, but I'm handling it.
• 48:09
  Um on the side, I work at a group home on the weekends, uh, the same type of individuals, but just younger in age.
• 48:17
  Uh and they're a little more a little more strenuous because they're more fragile.
• 48:21
  Um I just LOC the TFA and co itself.
• 48:25
  Um, it's a developmental firm.
• 48:28
  Um trying to um just take the term and brand it.
• 48:34
  Feel me?
• 48:35
  I want the term to become just a household term.
• 48:38
  How your TFA doing today?
• 48:40
  Just the little, it's the little things that count.
• 48:42
  If I can just get somebody just to say it.
• 48:45
  And somebody's gonna say, What's what's the ideology?
• 48:48
  Who they hold that up.
• 48:50
  What do they do?
• 48:51
  Hey, well, if you come on down here, we can sit with uh institutional counselor, we can sit with a house counselor, we can sit with an individual counselor.
• 49:00
  What I want to do is reinstate the culture is what I'm gonna attack first.
• 49:00
  What I want to do is reinstate the culture is what I'm gonna attack first.
• 49:05
  The culture of a company, the culture of a household, then the culture of a person.
• 49:05
  The culture of a company, the culture of a household, then the culture of a person.
• 49:10
  If we can get their culture right, we can set a president for their bases.
• 49:10
  If we can get their culture right, we can set a precedent for their bases.
• 49:14
  If their bases right, then they have solid foundation to build on.
• 49:14
  If their bases right, then they have solid foundation to build on.
• 49:18
  But they have to have a blueprint.
• 49:18
  But they have to have a blueprint, they have to have a plan.
• 49:20
  They have to have a plan.
• 49:21
  So there's a lot more things that go into play.
• 49:21
  So there's a lot more things that go into play.
• 49:23
  TFN Co.
• 49:23
  TFN Cole wants to go into a company and say, how's your employee's morale?
• 49:25
  wants to go into a company and say, how's your employee's morale?
• 49:30
  What's your turnaround rate like?
• 49:32
  What are you doing for your employees?
• 49:34
  And then help them enhance that.
• 49:36
  Same with the house and same with the individual person because I truly believe as people, it's all one thing.
• 49:48
  Spit the same game.
• 49:50
  And the only difference is one person got it at the bottom while a bunch of people got at the top.
• 49:55
  Or a bunch of Caesar planet, at least.
• 49:58
  So right now, I understand that that's gonna be a bigger task to get up and going than my means.
• 50:06
  So how do I stay in that field?
• 50:08
  How do I say that energy?
• 50:09
  I'm seguing TFA and coach to deal primarily with the housing industry that I'm in right now.
• 50:16
  House managers, kick the same game, put them on the path that I was on.
• 50:20
  My first year I came home and accomplished a few things that would allow me to be a VHT.
• 50:26
  Uh put me on the proper path.
• 50:28
  So I want to put all these house managers on the same path, put them in a house where they're managing people and they're teaching the same thing that I taught them that was taught to me.
• 50:37
  And then we just keep reoccurring.
• 50:39
  I want it to be almost like suspendes.
• 50:42
  Yeah, simple implementing a system.
• 50:43
  Yes, sir.
• 50:44
  To create these amazing people that help people that are gonna create.
• 50:49
  Yeah.
• 50:51
  Yes, I love that.
• 50:53
  And I love that you talk about feelings because emotional regulation is if we can just regulate our emotional states.
• 51:03
  Because this is where we crash out.
• 51:05
  It's the emotional part.
• 51:06
  Yeah.
• 51:06
  The emotion, the emotion shut down the thinking brain.
• 51:10
  The rational brain.
• 51:11
  Once that amygdala is fired up, everything else shuts down, and your decision making goes out the door, right?
• 51:17
  Yes, sir.
• 51:18
  So would you say when I start my classes in the morning?
• 51:24
  I don't say how are you doing.
• 51:25
  I say, how are you feeling?
• 51:27
  How are you feeling?
• 51:28
  Not how you doing.
• 51:29
  How are you feeling?
• 51:30
  Check in with your feelings.
• 51:32
  Where are you at?
• 51:33
  And it's not about feeling better.
• 51:35
  It's about feel getting better at feeling.
• 51:38
  It's not about feeling better.
• 51:41
  It's getting better at feeling.
• 51:43
  Because you're gonna get Which would take more mental aptitude.
• 51:47
  So when these feelings come, we gotta know what we to do with them.
• 51:50
  Yes, sir.
• 51:51
  Right?
• 51:51
  Because they're all gonna come.
• 51:52
  We're humans.
• 51:53
  Yes, sir.
• 51:54
  So the anger, the fear, the if we can get better at feeling those and knowing what to do with them, we're gonna make better decisions, which can create better outcomes.
• 52:05
  So I'm gonna give y'all a quick little uh-uh.
• 52:08
  Crack the code.
• 52:09
  In order to do what he just said do, stop trying.
• 52:14
  Stop trying.
• 52:15
  Stop coping, stop running from them, stop looking at these negative things as if they're negative.
• 52:22
  And when uh issue like insecurities, jealousies, uh whatever pops up, you run head first into it, dive into it with everything you got and sweeping that thing.
• 52:38
  What's up in here?
• 52:39
  Where does it come from?
• 52:40
  Why I got this?
• 52:42
  Over analytical, overthink about it, and then take the proper time to process through the data you accumulated for yourself, put it in the proper place where then becomes information that you can use to reshape your future.
• 52:58
  Because your past already gave the blueprint.
• 53:01
  You just have to go out, look back at it.
• 53:04
  Everything you're thinking, everything you're feeling, everything you're being now, you can see where it came from.
• 53:10
  You can see how you created it.
• 53:11
  If you can do that, you can reverse engineer anything.
• 53:16
  Why not yourself?
• 53:18
  Man, get you right.
• 53:20
  Yeah, when you see the patterns, then you can change your patterns.
• 53:23
  Yes, sir.
• 53:24
  But until you see them, they will loop around and you will call it fate.
• 53:29
  Just like Carl Yon said.
• 53:31
  The imaginary friends turn into the monsters under your bed, controlling your life, which you run in from it, talking about help me.
• 53:38
  I don't know what to do.
• 53:39
  Uh guy can't.
• 53:41
  And the thing chasing you is just chasing you.
• 53:44
  He don't even, you don't even got no harm for you.
• 53:47
  He wanna hug you.
• 53:48
  He's been your imaginary friend your whole life.
• 53:50
  You just allowed him to take on the face of whatever words you're attaching to it.
• 53:56
  You know, in all these, even in relief when you have the devil on one shoulder and the angel on one shoulder.
• 54:01
  And let them be easy.
• 54:02
  Yeah, you have um uh the good wolf and the bad wolf and all these different things.
• 54:08
  It's just your two selves.
• 54:09
  You have the ego selves to be together.
• 54:12
  And you're the real self and the in the ego.
• 54:14
  So you gotta let them things uh let them.
• 54:19
  Yes, you got you got to see we're taught to let them fight.
• 54:24
  And that's what creates a double mind for all of everybody has a double mind.
• 54:28
  The mind shall be it has to be single.
• 54:31
  Ah, yes.
• 54:32
  How do you do that?
• 54:33
  You put them together.
• 54:34
  It has to be single.
• 54:35
  You put them together two more games.
• 54:37
  They integrate, they become one.
• 54:38
  It's the little sayings of life that hold true.
• 54:41
  Nothing's different.
• 54:42
  It's all about everything, it's all the same thing.
• 54:46
  Your double minds.
• 54:47
  You think it's put the things together.
• 54:50
  Give yourself one clear thought, but you've put them together, so you still processed through both sides.
• 54:57
  They're just not in conflict with each other no more.
• 55:00
  They're working in unison.
• 55:02
  Man, I think they call that coherence.
• 55:06
  Yeah.
• 55:07
  So we got a couple minutes left.
• 55:10
  Okay.
• 55:11
  Um, I want you to give the listeners out there.
• 55:16
  Yeah, I want you to.
• 55:21
  How can I put this?
• 55:24
  Layman's terms.
• 55:27
  Um, what one thing that really we should, as human beings put at the the what is the most important thing you think as human beings that we should focus on now in these trying times with everything that's going on.
• 55:49
  What do you what do you what what do you think is the key?
• 55:54
  I know I'm just giving you a uh a minute or so less than a minute.
• 55:57
  What is layman's terms?
• 56:00
  I won't crucify me for this.
• 56:00
  I'm gonna crucify me for this.
• 56:02
  Self, the self.
• 56:02
  Self, the self, work on yourself, get yourself right.
• 56:04
  Work on yourself.
• 56:05
  Get yourself right.
• 56:06
  Be the change you want to see.
• 56:06
  Be the change you want to see yourself, get you right.
• 56:09
  Yourself get you right.
• 56:11
  Everything else will fall in place.
• 56:11
  Everything else will fall in play.
• 56:13
  Be the change you want to see.
• 56:13
  Be the change you want to see.
• 56:15
  I think we're gonna end it with that.
• 56:15
  I think we're gonna end it with that.
• 56:17
  Your self.
• 56:17
  Yes, right.
• 56:19
  It's be the change you want to see.
• 56:19
  It's be the change you want to see.
• 56:21
  And I and I say that almost every day.
• 56:21
  And I and I say that almost every day.
• 56:24
  If you want to if you want a beautiful world, make it a beautiful world.
• 56:25
  If you want a beautiful world, make a beautiful world.
• 56:28
  Yes.
• 56:28
  Yes, make your interaction.
• 56:29
  Make your inner world beautiful.
• 56:31
  Right?
• 56:31
  Be a beautiful world.
• 56:33
  I want a beautiful world.
• 56:34
  I am a beautiful world.
• 56:35
  Yes, that part.
• 56:36
  Yeah, it comes quicker.
• 56:37
  We take out the steps.
• 56:39
  Be the change you want to be.
• 56:40
  And if you just nope, I want a beautiful world, I am a beautiful world.
• 56:45
  Thank you, sir.
• 56:46
  Thank you so much, D Ray.
• 56:47
  And um thank you.
• 56:48
  Thank you, everybody, for listening and have a beautiful rest of your day.
• 56:52
  And we will pray for my second interview.
• 56:54
  I need a super.
• 56:56
  We'll talk to you again next week.
• 56:58
  Peace.