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Anchored In Your Deepest Desire- A pivot in the Podcast/Manifestation Series · The Spiritual Shitshow Podcast

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  Hello and welcome back to the Spiritual Shit Show podcast.
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  My name is Julie Nguyen, and I want to first of all say thank you.
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  I just got a notification that the podcast has reached 5,000 downloads, and just this week alone has reached 500 downloads.
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  So thank you.
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  Thank you.
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  Thank you.
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  You know, I sit at my desk and I record these podcasts, and I enjoy processing.
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  And if my processing and accessing answers to these questions that I have are also supporting you, that's the whole goal.
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  That's the whole goal.
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  We grow together.
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  Thank you so much for listening.
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  Thank you for downloading.
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  Thank you for sharing.
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  Thank you for supporting me.
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  and let's get into today's episode.
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  I've been recording a manifestation series because I have questions on manifesting.
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  I'll tell you where I am right now.
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  Two solid weeks of like, fucking everything looks amazing.
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  I'm so amped up on life, like everything's turning out for me.
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  I was so close to manifesting my money goal this month.
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  Wah-wah.
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  still, I still got time.
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  I still got time.
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  I still got time.
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  But it...
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  Where I am right now is in the full contraction, and I am waiting to see what's gonna be birthed from this contraction.
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  And this is why I love doing the check-in points with the guides because, you know, I...
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  it's...
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  this is part of the process.
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  This is part of life.
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  This is also why it's important to have a coach, because when things are in a contraction mode and you wanna quit, you need to have a coach who's telling you,"Fucking get your ass back up and, and keep going.
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  Do not quit." Or,"You know what?
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  Take the break today.
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  Today's your spiritual rest day, and tomorrow we're training again." When we are pushing up against change, it's going to feel hard, and I am at that point right now, and it is feeling hard, and I am coaching myself through it.
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  And that is also why I'm super excited to hear what the guys have to say today about some of these manifestation questions because lordy, lordy, you know, on this side, I'm here in the trenches with y'all.
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  So I have questions.
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  I have questions when, you know, why do things can-- how come things can feel so expansive and then contract?
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  And, you know, how come there is days where it's like everything's working beautifully, and then it's like, phew, you know, I just, I just all the things.
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  So here we go.
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  And maybe I'll pause actually and, uh, ask my own questions for what I'm going through.
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  Ha ha.
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  All right.
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  There's the pivot Reset up my microphone here real quick.
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  Okay, so then I have questions from where I am now, and let's just see, because everybody has these points where we're super excited and things are moving, moving, and then it's like, it feels like a door is just shut in your face and You're in, back in the fun house.
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  All right, beautiful.
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  Uh, the guides, which again to the listeners, thank you'cause I can only do this'cause I know there's somebody gonna be listening, otherwise I'm just talking to myself.
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  So thank you for listening.
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  Um, but here the guides are saying In Energy Club on Mondays, the guides always bring in anchor.
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  What are you anchored to?
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  What are you anchored to?
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  What are you anchored to?
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  And as one is expanding into the fullest expression of who they are and what they, they're, they're correcting me, they're saying, and how one has come to play in this dimension, it is imperative that you are also anchored in, anchored in to Self, what is true for you?
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  What is it that you truly desire?
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  What is it that you truly want?
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  The thing here is, is the mind can be so creative, and a creative mind is what spins multiple possibilities.
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  Well, what if I do this?
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  Or what if I create this?
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  Or, you know, let's go on Instagram and put out 50 bajillion posts every day, and let's get more followers, and let's be big and famous, and let's do Like, the mind is gonna do that.
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  And when we are anchored into our being, I know, I know, I know, I know, I know, I know, I know that I desire to.
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  I know that my deepest desire is to feel, to create, to be, to experience, to express.
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  My deepest desire so when we are having fun in the expansion energy, sometimes a stop sign is placed only for the reminder to pause and strengthen that anchor, that knowing,"I know.
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  I know my deepest desire is to..." What I am being guided here in this moment is to get out my journal and write again my deepest desire.
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  I know my deepest desire is to experience Express Receive Allow and to offer So for me, when I hear that, that could sound like,"I know I'm here to experience abundance and love and a sweet, beautiful family and travel And tenderness.
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  To experience what it's like to be taken care of.
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  To experience what it feels like to be supported in life.
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  To experience love, love, love.
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  I will say personally, every time I spend too much work on what is my career, and that gets me hung up, like,'cause I used to be somebody, and I used to make a lot of money, and I used to work with a lot of people every day, and now what am I doing?
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  It has literally been one of the hardest soul lessons for me because...
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  And here's what the guides just offered.
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  I know, like, at the depths of my desires, the depths of my knowing, I know what I deeply desire is to feel the incredible gratification, fulfillment, love, and all capital letters, experience of being a mom Of having a home and being able to create a home and family dinners and being present with my daughter, and being a wife and knowing what it feels like to be loved by my husband.
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  And gosh, and to capture these moments with him, you know?
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  Of just, even when we're laughing together or spending the mornings together.
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  Like, I fucking know that that, that is where I need to be putting my energy.
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  That that is what I'm supposed to be doing That right there, the depths of my desires is that I know that I desire to be home when my daughter gets home from school, that I desire to make home-cooked meals and enjoy every single second that we get to be a unit together.
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  And to be honest with you, that is not how I spend most of my days.
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  Most of my days are spent, what is my career?
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  How do I have to put myself out there?
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  What do I have to create?
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  I have to do this workshop.
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  I have to...
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  Like, uh, my, I, my energy literally is so hijacked from this idea of survival from what it is that I know to be true So when you know and can continue to stay tethered to the depths of your knowing, then you get to do more of that.
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  That's how you realign yourself to what is powerfully true to you, what is powerfully true for you to pause.
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  And when the universe is putting that stop sign in front of you, it is not the door slamming and you are on the wrong pa- wrong path.
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  It's just a powerful, powerful invitation just to pause and take inventory.
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  Okay, where are we?
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  Where are we now?
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  Where are we now?
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  Where are we now?
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  And are you getting ahead of yourself?
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  And are you getting too excited?
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  And are you getting out of alignment?
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  For me, when I had a dance studio, I had a really hard time with a work-life balance because I loved being at the studio.
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  And I remember I was having a really honest discussion with my husband, and I was telling him,"I am fully aware that on my list of priorities is," at the time it was like my sister Her kids, the studio, Then this, my studio students and their families and competitions and all of that.
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  And then it's Braxton, which is my daughter, and then it's you.
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  And that priority list is really fucked up, and I'm working on that.
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  I don't know how to change it yet.
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  The universe changed it for me, right?
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  The universe was like,"We got you.
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  You are out of alignment.
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  You cannot be there anymore." I know on a soul level my job right now is to be a wife and a mother, period.
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  Again, what do I spend most of my days struggling in?
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  Figuring out my fucking career and money.
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  So what is bringing me the most struggle?
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  this figuring out of the career and money.
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  Why is it bringing me the most struggle?
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  Because it's not what I'm supposed to be focusing on I have the incredible luxury of being taken care of by my husband.
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  I have the luxury and the gift of being able to be home and work when I need to work, but to be present for my daughter This is also what it's like to call yourself out on your bullshit And if you're not calling yourself out on your bullshit, the universe is gonna do it for you Okay, let's wrap this little segment up This is manifestation/alignment.
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  This is the reminder that the universe literally is always working in your favor, that the universe is always supporting you.
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  And there are times when you just do not believe it, and I am one that I am always shouting at the universe,"Prove it.
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  Prove it.
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  Prove it.
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  Prove it.
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  Prove it.
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  Prove it.
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  Prove it." And then we come back.
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  We come back again.
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  And I think that's why in a lot of breathwork practices and yoga practices, like you just keep meeting yourself over and over and over again.
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  You keep coming back to the breath over and over and over again.
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  You keep coming back to your mat over and over and over again.
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  You keep coming back to dance class over and over and over and over again.
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  That we always have the opportunity to stop, to start again.
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  To strengthen our ability to trust our deepest knowing.
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  And then it's the practice to work from the deepest knowing, not where the mind wants to go and do and like all of that.
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  The practice now is how can we all deliberately work from our deepest knowing?
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  And with that being said, I am gonna go happily do my laundry, clean my kitchen, make dinner And I'll wait for my daughter to get home from school Thank you for listening Sending you big love