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Episode #193: Blooming Beyond the Pain · Tea Time w/Amie & Bev

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Hi, Welcome to tea sign with Amy and Bev. Happy New Year,
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good day, so excited. It's awesome. It is so you you go
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first, how are you? What's going on? How's the new year so
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far? Where it's great? Actually, it's freaking phenomenal. I saw people
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yesterday and it's like I felt like something for my clients like that. It
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was just an easy it was just the most beautiful day ever. And it
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was a long day. But I'm realizing when we're in these flows of things,
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there is no loss of energy. I did feel tired, but on
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the way home, but it's like I got home and you know, I
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was like, I don't know, and then I got home and it's like
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I got recharged again. It's like it's just been amazing as far as that
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goes. And I started listening to this person today called riz Mrza or something
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like that. He's being he's being interviewed on a show with Maria Minuonos or
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something like. I'm saying her name wrong. I haven't even or pronounce it.
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I was just looking at it, but I'm like, man, he's
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got me inspired. The words that he's using is like, instead of thinking
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that your heart's breaking to let the light in, it's breaking to let the
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light out. Like his whole perspective on everything is such a huge perspective and
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it's really got me charged up and ready to go. So it's like he's
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speaking all this language that is my language. And I've been going through this
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process of even like ideas we identify with too much stuff around us, we
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really do. And he even talked about if you you know, yes,
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you can change the past, change the change it how you're talking about it,
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and it's like, that's the truth. How many times do we Oh,
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I would say that I was miserable, we were always unhappy and blah
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blah blah, and I look back at pictures and it's like that's not true.
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But we get into these stories, right, So it's recognizing and it's
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we're in such a beautiful place. And from what I'm saying, it's just
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it's even more perspective. Right, It's just how you want to look at
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everything in this life. It's how we look at things all the time,
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being in the wrong place the wrong time. And he says, what if
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you're always in the right place at the right time. We are, We're
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always in the right place at the right time, because we're constantly growing in
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this and we set ourselves up or we knew that we would evolve by certain
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things that were brought into our experience. So it's like, man, I'm
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just I'm I can feel this is where my passion is. So again,
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it's paying attention to where our passion is. We're in the new year,
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right, pay attention to what you what gets you going, what you what
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charges your whole life up, and then be open to experiences. You know,
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I've talked to people and I'm not going to bring up this platform,
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but there's a platform that's out there that I won't say the name that you
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can go on to there and it's like eight has sexual stuff on it and
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stuff like that, but the other side of that you could totally. It's
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like it's like Freeman said, we could be like Jesus, and we could
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be He always hung around in what others would consider not really good people or
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good energies to hang around with, but he always hung around them. It
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wasn't because it was draining him, but because he was such an effect on
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these energies. And it's like, why not go to those same platforms and
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and create your own put create your own you know, I can't even think
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of the right word for it, your own player on the on the whole
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thing, would you say panel basically, but create your own stuff on there,
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but change the content you're bringing forward. So if once you change that
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content that you're bringing forward, it kind of has a different effect because in
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some of those places, these people are screaming out to be heard that they're
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of their own and I'm not saying that we're there to save the world,
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but they're having their own issues. But and they're not in the right places.
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No, that's not see I'm starting to say the same thing. They're
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in the right place at the right time. So why not be you be
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the right person to be the right place at the right time, even during
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that space, no matter what's going on around you, and presenting something different,
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Because now you're you've got an area of people that can see you,
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that have been looking at other stuff and they've been staying in that space,
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but they want to change. And then you're that one change by showing up
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on it on that platform, by creating your own channel, like you said.
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So, it's like there's so many things that are out there right now
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that we can make a difference or change things, and it's not And I
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wouldn't do it to go out there and say, hey, I'm changing the
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world, because there's nothing wrong with the world. But what if I give
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them an opportunity to see what else is out there? What if you gave
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them an opportunity to see what else is out there, even from that platform
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that maybe has had negative attention in the past because of the whatever they provide.
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But it doesn't mean it has to stay that way, and it doesn't
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mean that it can't include more things because this is the world. We have
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all things in this world. Everything is an opportunity. So that's where I'm
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at thought because I just before this, before we hopped on, I had
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a coaching session and talking to HER's she talked about she's going through a change
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in her life and now you know, when she gets home sometimes it's just
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her and she said, I feel lonely. I'm like, are you kidding
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me? Do you know what kind of opportunity? I mean? First of
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all, you have coaching sessions going on, which means you want something different,
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and the opportunity that you have because the house is empty, right,
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because you have all this space and time to be with yourself. So then
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that's the issue. People don't know how to be with themselves, and so
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they sit there with the program and they've had since childhood and birth and all
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that. And we want to change the narrative when you want to see things
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differently, when you want to transform, and universe is like, okay,
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well you get the whole house to yourself. What are you going to do
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with it? Well, you can feel lonely or you can be like this
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is great. It's all about perspective, And that's what you're talking about,
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is perspective. How are you seeing things? We're programmed to see things from
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the negative side, the wrong side, the dramatic side, what's wrong with
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me side, the victim story, all that stuff, instead of like seeing
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you know, like you're talking about people who are on those sites that are
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engaging in sexual activities. They're probably doing what they know how to do to
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survive. So can you see through the eyes of compassion and love? Like
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they could be a lot of them could be hurting inside, but they don't
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know what to do differently, and and so you know that comes a lot
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when you were talking. The word that came up to me was being offended.
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People get offended by all this stuff, and I'm like, I've kind
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of moved away from that. It's like because now I'm a victim. If
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I'm offended by something, now I'm a victim to it. And I'm like,
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no, how can I see this differently? What is it showing me?
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What can I what can I learn from this? And and I definitely
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know from from my perspective and my experience, is that when you go through
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a forgiveness process of yourself, you develop passion for yourself, and when you
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do that, you definitely have more compassion for other people. It's a given,
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like it is automatic. So now like, why do I need to
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get offended by this? They're just operating from the space and the channels they
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know how to operate from. That's their programming, that's their habits, beliefs,
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all the stuff. If I get offended by it, that's on me.
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That's my responsibility. And I just want to say, I love I
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love that language too, letting the light out because and I don't know if
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there's the context of what he was talking about, but it kind of sounds
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like like They talk about a lot that life experiences clouds our connection to spirit,
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our spirit in the body, to love to that light that's in us.
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So it's it's just clouded and and to let that light out right,
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and that's my expression. I have my hands over my heart, but when
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I let that light out, my hands go out and I open up my
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chest. And I'm just explaining that for people. Just listen to the audio,
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and that is that's truth, right, Like the spirit is in us,
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the light is in us. It's been there, it's always been there.
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It's never wavered. When we clear the muck and guck, that's that's
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from our experiences. Now we get to let that light out, let it
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shine. Let be be the beacon, the lighthouse, the beacon, or
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whatever you want to be. And you don't have to beat You're good with
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where you with being. I'm not saying you need to go out and be
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a teacher and preach to everybody and all that, but just letting your light
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out, letting your light shine, that's being an example and you're just living
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life. So I like those that that term because it's just a different way
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of saying the same thing I've been saying so gives me more language. Yeah,
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and it's paying attention to our words. Right, Like there was a
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gal that I was listening to and she's like, well, I'm pushing through
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and I'm going to do this. Pay attention to the words you're pushing through.
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You don't have to push through. And just like even saying that we
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had the I don't remember over your terminology, but we are the lights.
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Yeah, we are the lights. There is nothing to there's nothing for us
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to do. Honestly, there is nothing for us to do. It's like
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he's even saying, you don't have to apologize to anybody. You don't have
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to do any of these things. It's not about all that stuff. It's
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it's really a perspective. But we've learned and it's not a bad thing.
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It's like, oh, hey, well I learned it that way. This
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is a different way I can look at it. And if we didn't have
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that experience, how will we be able to say, hey, this feels
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better? Right, that didn't feel so great to me, but this feels
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better. These thoughts feel better. These the words that are coming out of
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this how mouth resonate with me? What he's saying resonates with me, and
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it's uplifting and it's just a change on the energy, and it really gives
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you a different perspective, a different view of everything around you. It's not
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God, it's just all of our experiences that we've had that we've labeled as
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bad because a lot of us do. And I'm not saying that bad things
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haven't happened, but we've labeled them as bad. It was an experience,
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and it's beyond the experience we came here to. Gosh. It's really looking
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at things totally different. It's really not being attached to the outcome of things.
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And that's where the I feel like a lot of problems lie is we
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have an attachment to an outcome, and I catch myself in these places.
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I even caught myself getting ready to talk about someone the other day and I
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was like, Ooh, I said something. I was like, ooh,
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that's sounding kind of shitty. I don't, I mean, And it wasn't
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shitty. It just didn't feel good. It wasn't right or wrong. I
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didn't like the way it felt. Period. I'm not saying if someone wants
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to go out and judge, go out and judge. Do the best you
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can when you judge. Yeah, but I'm just saying it's just a matter
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of perspective, right, And for me, when I'm judging others, I'm
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putting myself into that place. I mean, I've got pictures, I've got
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my vision all going up here, and I've got pictures of me. I
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don't have pictures of somebody else that I'm looking at and saying that's what I
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want. I have pictures of me, reminding me of that joy that I
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saw my face, reminding me that you are beautiful. You may not have
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seen it at the time, but you are. And it doesn't change the
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fact that time has changed. Time here on this on earth's what school roomor
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they call it, but time here we've gone through, We've evolved, and
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it's me. I'm so super stoked about this year. Like if I'm feeling
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this great since the beginning of the year, fully, crap, people,
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I don't even know what to tell you, and I can't even contain myself
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at the time. I'm like, in a different my voice is getting louder
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versus Freeman sits all the time. Why are you screaming at me? I'm
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like, I'm excited. I can't help because this person, this person that
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I had been for so many years, my story was keeping its squashed down
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and squashed and not shining this beautiful, brilliant light that I am. And
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everyone's been doing a lot of the same stuff because we try to keep ourselves
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small to fit into what other people see and we don't want to make them
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feel bad. Well, when you look at it that way, then it
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kind of makes them feel about But what if I just show myself the way
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that I am, the true me that I'm finding that I'm loving even more
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and more, and then I give them an opportunity to do the same,
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and if they choose not to, that's okay. It's not a big deal.
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It's not Everyone doesn't have to jump on my train, do you know
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what I mean? It's not about I'm right and everybody else is wrong.
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It's no, this is what feels right for me. It doesn't matter.
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I'm not going to judge myself or judge someone else because they're doing something different
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than me. Now I say I'm not going to, but I do catch
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myself still doing these things. So like you can listen to some of our
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videos and you might find subcontra victory statements. But it doesn't mean it's just
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because I'm in my growth process. It's not because I'm doing anything right or
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wrong. This is where I'm at and it's like, ooh said, I
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just heard what I said, and I could be aware of it and I
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can effect I can make it an effective change that feels good for me automatically,
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and it doesn't matter. It's like life is, Oh my gosh,
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life is just so amaze. I'm I'm on that train with you. I'm
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on my train, you're on your train. But we're heading in this direction
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right. So we met some and I want to point out though to people
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Bev and I, if this is your first video you've ever seen of us,
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this is huge for us. Like being in this space of joy and
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smiling and lightheartedness and laughter and excited about the year and all the stuff.
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Go back and watch our videos three and a half years ago. Talk to
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people who knew us when we were in our twenties. Me, if you
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talk to people, they say, she was a bitch, she was miserable,
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she wasn't happy, she never hardly ever smiled, like complete opposite.
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So we've had our journey, We've had our journey, and we're here to
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be an example for you that you know this is possible. I have not
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had a better roses of my life my entire I've been laying on the thorns.
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I was laying on the thorns early in my life and it hurt,
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and so I had to learn to embrace the roses instead of the pain of
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those thorns. And so it's been a journey, it's been a process.
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And so to see us where we're at right now, Bev and I having
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these conversations and being in our joy, it's been a practice. It's been
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a lot of healing, it's been a lot of learning, a lot of
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growth, and we're just here to share with you the things that of where
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we're at and just have that conversation. And so if you are seeing this
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video or listening to this content, then you're listening to it for a reason.
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And it doesn't to me. It doesn't matter which piece you get out.
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Just be sure to implement something that feels good. Like Bev was saying,
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well it feels good to her is what she is implementing now. Now
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that could change tomorrow, It could change in a week, could change in
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a year. I don't know, it doesn't matter. But if you watched
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us three and a half years ago when we started and two years ago,
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you'll notice as there's been a gradual change in both of us over the years,
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that we will see that we've been in the heavy emotions sometimes through those
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these past few years on video while we're recording. And so just as long
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as you recognize that the things that we're talking about, something resonates with you,
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you know it, you feel it, you receive it, you get
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those goosebumps or god bumps, implement that. Just implement that, because that's
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going to be that's the piece you need right now, or the piece that
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we've I'm not gonna say need, the piece that would be beneficial for you
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right now in whatever path you are seeking, and we might be that stepping
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stone. So that stepping stone is okay, you heard our conversation, and
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then you know, Bev talked about somebody she's been listening to, so you
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go listen to them, and then that takes you in a direction and you
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may never come back to us. It's okay, we did our part,
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or you might decide you want to go listen to the rest of them.
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That we've recorded great. I hope something you get something out of it,
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And of course we would be very appreciative if you listen to our videos because
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it helps our ratings on our channel. So it's gonna be selfish in that
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moment. So on a do I have, I wanted to go back to
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the thorns and the roses, and it's like, what about all the roses
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moments? Do you know what I mean? Right? People are so focused
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on the thorn moments. Maybe that's why I don't remember a lot of my
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past because maybe I was focused on those moments and not putting my attention on
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the rose moments. And if we want to call it like I mean,
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because basically that's calling it good or bad or you know, it's back to
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that same space again. But it's like, what if it was all rose
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moments? From a soul perspective? What if it was all rose moments?
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Every single experience we've had has been a rose moment? Yeah, because some
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somewhere along the way, because because my grandfather that blested me, I can
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I'm in a space now where I can love that person. He's no longer
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on the in a physical body that I'm aware of he could be in he
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could have came back in another body, but he wasn't. He's not in
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that body anymore. But but I don't have a judgment. I became neutral
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to that. I realized I love the person that I'm becoming now. Yeah,
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And it's like without if we look back to three and a half years
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ago, Pasha, if I didn't have those experiences, maybe I wouldn't be
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Maybe I wouldn't feel this passion as much as I do now. Maybe I
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wouldn't feel love as much as I do now. Oh my gosh. It's
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like looking at my grandkids and freemen and my kids and and everybody that comes
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into my life and how family shows up that even if it's not it's now
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my new soul family. I have people that are coming into my life.
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All the time before I was being so restrictive on things, trying to control
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it, and I wasn't allowing the universe to bring to me those people that
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would be beneficial in my life. So it's like, oh, are you
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two taking new clients? No, I'm not, But I could have.
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But it doesn't. It's not that I did anything wrong. It was always
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a rose moment at that time. That was a rose moment. My rose
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moment has it's blossomed them into this huge bouquet of flowers that you can't contain.
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It's like, no matter what, it's always alive, it's thriving,
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and it's just being in a different space and being in a different mind space
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and how we're looking at things. And guess what, the more that excited
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I get about these things, I'm getting more excited. And I'm constantly like,
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I'm a millionaire. I'm a millionaire, and and it's like I'm not
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just a millionaire, but I but it's like I liked the way that it
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feels now. Before it felt like it was out of my reach or it
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was something else or whatever. And it doesn't matter. And it doesn't matter
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if I ever even comes to fruition, it doesn't matter because in that moment,
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when I'm using those words, that's terminology. It feels good. That's
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all that matters that moment, whatever however, I'm coaxing myself into that space
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because that's really what all you're doing right then, it's just being in that
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space. And it's like I came here to experience and flow and grow and
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and not contain myself into this little tiny box that people wanted me to fit
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into, even though that's what we learned. But it's like, who cares
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that's where I came from. I'm not I mean, that doesn't define who
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I am. So it's like it's our perspectives. It just takes a little
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bit of a different look at things. It really does. And I'm and
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I'm not gonna go all back to the all the the other stuff that made
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me feel all those ways that I felt like I was the victim because it
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wasn't. It's good good that I felt that, because it it kind of
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pushed me into where I'm at right now, or helped guide me or like
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you know, I was always on the right path. Everything was always meant
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to me as it was. It was just however I was perceiving it.
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And it's not good or bad. It's just it's snowing again. But it's
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it's it's just wonderful. It's just a it's a beautiful experience. And it's
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like what, I've got a couple. I've got six dogs and one of
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them is like seems to be having an issue and it's like this morning,
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I look back at him and it's like, Okay, do your stuff.
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Man, if you want to get pissed off, and everybody get pissed off
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everybody? Why is this showing from my experience? I just I'm not gonna
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how many labels if I put off the situation or how many times let's talk
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about this. We get our brains into these solution minded things. If you're
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into a solution, you think there's a problem, right, if you're looking
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for a solutions, there's got to be a problem in order to have a
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solution. What if there's no freaking problems? What if there's not? And
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what if I was another way to keep ourselves busy and it was another way
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to Oh gosh, my side was hurting up. I gotter go look it
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up on Google real quick and find out, Oh, you could be my
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pancreas are you know? And then we start formulating these ideas and we start
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creating from those thoughts. Right then we're creating and it's like it doesn't even
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have to be that way. Oh it just got my titchen. Oh what
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if it was just letting me know that maybe I wasn't thinking in a thought
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that was just feeling good, that was just showing up my body. That's
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it. All I gotta do is change my thought real quick and be like,
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oh, but my toe feels so amazing, And look at my eyelash,
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that one eyelashes it's blowing in just the perfect direction. Do you know
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what I mean. It's just it's just just however we want to perceive things,
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and it's and it's just keeping us in a higher vibrational frequency feeling so
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that we're growing and going in the direction we want to go to. I'm
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I'm I'm hanging onto this rose analogy because I think it's amazing, the the
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idea that for me, because I'm gonna speak from my experience and when I'm
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looking at a rose when it's when it's in bloom, the beauty of it,
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the color, the softness of the petals, the scent right when you're
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when you're in that moment of smelling a rose and the scent, Uh,
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it's just amazing. Like that's the focus you're focused on that. I forget
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about the thorns. I forget about that stem that's got all these pokey things
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on it. And at the same time they're there, I was not giving
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attention to them, so It's similar to our life experiences. What's getting your
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attention? And we're programmed, we have been, So now it's time for
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me to start changing my language. We have been programmed to focus on the
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drama, to focus on what's wrong, to be in that space of being
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a victim to our circumstances. And you can still be in your joy will
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You can still have moments of joy, you can still have the memories of
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joy, laughter, playfulness in those moments when you're feeling the thorns. When
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you're feeling the thorns, you recognize what you don't like they're great. It's
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like, oh, well, this doesn't feel good. Why am I focused
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on it? Why am not focus on the beauty of the rose itself?
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And so you know, just recognizing it's your choice. Where are you focused?
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And the more I you know, every time I say it, now
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I just start I put this puts a smile on my face. It's your
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choice, it's your choice, it's my choice. It's my choice. Is
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my choice? And what am I choosing? Where am I choosing the focus?
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And so just remembering that in any and yesterday we had breakfast with some
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friends and they were telling me about experience they were having, and they were
23:32
kind of glossing over some things, and I'm like, listen, tell me
23:36
all the drama. I want to hear the drama because I need all the
23:37
details. And I set up playfully, and then they shared more about the
23:41
story. And it's snowing here too, just you know that. Uh.
23:47
But as they were telling me, I wasn't getting sucked into the pain and
23:52
the muck and guck of it. I just listened and I had a smile
23:53
on my face, and every once in a while put I put plant some
23:57
seeds of some words about well, that's what she knows how to do,
24:03
right, And so I would just put these comments in there every once in
24:07
a while. And so practicing that was actually kind of fun. I was
24:11
like, this is great. It's also recognizing we're going to go back to
24:18
we're going to continue with the rose and the thorns, or the Cacus flowers
24:22
or the cacus and the beautiful flowers. We can look at it like I've
24:23
had Joseph's code. If anyone's ever grown Joseph's coat, it's an absolutely beautiful
24:29
flower. It changes from yellows to orange to red too. I mean it
24:33
is the most beautiful rose to me, it is man, but it's got
24:37
the most horrendous thorns. But let's look at this a little bit differently.
24:41
Those storms are protection, right, Those storns could be protection from another animal
24:45
eating it. Those storms are protection for animals to be able to go into
24:49
that and to be protected. Same thing with a cactus. We have cactus
24:52
wrens, you have sparrows, you have all kinds of just a normal what
24:56
we consider natural for Arizona around us, and that's their support and their protection
25:03
at the same time. So it's all a matter of perspective. I just
25:06
wanted to bring that forth as far as perspective goes, because that protection at
25:08
the same time, that's enabling an animal to survive and not be attacked by
25:15
a larger animal. It's just or you know, it's whatever the experience is,
25:19
but it is. It's another amazing way to be living in that sheltered
25:23
space or that comfortable place. So it's all how you want to perceive things.
25:29
We can find the beauty and anything. You can sit and look at
25:30
a whole rose bush, or you can sit and look at all the thorns.
25:33
It's totally up to you. And if you want to look at the
25:36
thorns find the positive in it. The positive is it's a great shelter for
25:38
birds and for critters, and you know, to be able to go into
25:41
that, some other big things can't get into very well. So it's just
25:45
if we live life just being excited about things. And before I couldn't be
25:51
excited because I was putting. I was focused on being excited. I had
25:55
no idea of this was even possible. I didn't think this was anything that
25:59
was going to be my experience in this lifetime. And it is so.
26:03
And it wasn't because I didn't think it was. I just never thought about
26:07
it. It never crossed my mind. I remember looking at people and it's
26:10
like, oh, they they're a little bit excited. They need to calm
26:11
down over there. Now I'm that excited person. I'm not going to calm
26:15
down. That's just the way it is. I'm going to keep going the
26:18
way I'm going. You know. It's it's kind of interesting. I told
26:21
myself this year because I'm this is that I retired, and it's like I
26:26
was telling myself, if this one client this, if she ends up moving,
26:30
I know, this is like my big huge sign, right using it
26:33
as a sign again, well she's retired from her job and she's getting ready
26:37
to move, and it was like, holy smokes, and it's happening so
26:42
fast, all of it, and it's like, okay, that's I'm that
26:47
okay, universe, I hear you. But it's not. But when I
26:51
say that kind of stuff, it's almost as if we're putting it into someone
26:52
else's hands. Like I'm saying, oh, well, this happens, I
26:57
need to sign for this. No, you don't go out and freaking do
27:00
whatever makes you happy. We're we're forgetting we can trying to contain ourselves in
27:03
that space again, I'm almost like saying, hey, mom, Dad,
27:07
can I go ahead and go out and do this? And is it okay
27:08
if I go don't go? Maybe maybe I don't go to work today.
27:12
Is it okay if I just maybe I drive up to Colorado out of the
27:18
blue for what the heck? Why not? Do you know what I mean?
27:19
It's those little things. It's like we're looking for permissions from all these
27:22
places and it's like it's within. It's like it's not we don't have to
27:26
have this big aha moments all the time. That's making us live by thinking
27:32
that we have that something else is in control again. It's like, oh
27:33
God, I'm sitting here, I'm still waiting for that freaking aha. I
27:37
don't even know when I'm supposed to do this. When do I put my
27:38
last day? Like all these things, because we're looking for something. I
27:41
have been looking for something outside of myself to tell me when it's time,
27:45
and that's that's just not the way it is. And then of course I've
27:48
let go. I've surrendered. I surrender, I surrender to my soul.
27:52
I surrender to the lights I am. I surrender to my lights. And
27:56
it's recognizing all how all that stuff feels, but recognizing. But it's not
28:00
a matter of where I'm going to go or do. It's not a matter
28:03
of what work I'm going to do. It's a matter of being happy with
28:07
whatever I'm doing. And that's how I was yesterday. That's how it was
28:11
all day. And it's like normally I would be like pressed to do something
28:14
else. And I saw, you know, a few three clients, and
28:18
one of them was having some issue in the morning, and I'm like,
28:21
you want me to come over and help you with that? As soon as
28:22
I've all be done at this time, and that's not I would never have
28:26
offered to do stuff like that in the past because I didn't have the time.
28:29
I didn't think I had the time. And now it's like it was
28:32
just such a beauty and I go over and help, and it's like,
28:34
well, here, take this, take this, take this, here,
28:37
have this. You know, all these things that are like all these gifts
28:40
that are coming to me that are going to go from me out to other
28:41
people. So it's fascinating and it's fun. It's just our perspective on things.
28:48
I keep saying that, but it really is. It's just really how
28:51
we want to look at it. And it's so it's been said so many
28:52
times. It's like is it a glass half full or half empty? And
28:56
it's like, it's to me, it's so much bigger than that. That's
29:00
andy stated so many times. I don't even feel it. But when I
29:03
when I hear that, risk say, it's not letting it's not all the
29:06
cracks in your heart. To let the light in, it's to let that
29:08
light out is for the whole world to see that. It put us in
29:11
a vulnerable position for us to love anyways, that's awesome. I love it
29:18
so beautiful that when we are able to get through that cloud, right,
29:26
that cloud, that heavy cloud like cloud of the the I'm gonna call negative
29:30
art clouds. Yeah, yeah, our cloud. We put it, We
29:33
put it in place, not even realizing it. Yeah. So when you're
29:37
when you you know, look at the cartoons and they have those those the
29:41
heavy emotions is represented as a dark cloud and it's like above you and it's
29:45
just raining on you or or you're surrounded by this dark cloud. Like,
29:51
think about that as your life experiences, those your life experiences created, contributed
29:56
to, contributed to to the way you feel, and the way you feel
30:03
you've been focused on that heavy emotion, and that heavy emotion is actually a
30:07
story of I'm not good enough. And what that story is a blank for
30:14
is I'm not loved or accepted. And so then you're pursuing life seeking ways
30:21
to feel loved and accepted, and in that you're just trying to prove yourself
30:23
good enough. And so you're exhausting yourself and doing that through people pleasing and
30:27
being a fixer and all the things that you learn from your childhood environment.
30:34
So when we start to see through different eyes of well, how is that
30:41
how was that experience in my childhood beneficial for some of the skills that I
30:47
learned that I'm implementing now and I could build up on that if we changed
30:52
the foundation. Your foundation before was I'm not loved and accepted. But if
31:00
I change the foundation to these amazing skills, and that's what my focus is
31:04
now, I can build on that. So we're laying the fertile ground,
31:08
just like that rose bush, right The rose bush and any other plant needs
31:14
a fertile ground, needs a ground to be able to grow from. That
31:17
seed's got to be planted to be able to open up and create its roots
31:22
and create the piece above the ground. If it grows above, maybe it
31:26
grows below, who knows. But the idea is that it's got a foundation.
31:32
And when you build on a foundation, that's healthier in a sense of
31:36
like your mindset, your emotions, your conversations. When you're building on that
31:45
fertile ground that you're feeding with good feeling, things that resonate with you,
31:52
things that they're lifting you up. Now it blossoms. And so just keeping
31:57
that in mind, where where are you growing from? What foundation are you
32:02
growing from? I love the rose bush analogy this is so cool. We
32:14
never know, fun what we're gonna talk about. We never know. I
32:17
don't even try, pash. I remember before trying to like watch podcasts and
32:22
stuff like that to be to find that inspiration. And now I'm just like,
32:25
okay, so what words do you want to bring forward today? What
32:29
do you want to talk about? And it's like and I love that I'm
32:31
being guided to certain things. And it's funny because I wasn't going to listen
32:35
to this, you know, I don't know what my deal was, but
32:37
I was like YouTube is great. It really is in so many ways,
32:40
but I'm going through it because it brings you information, right, And it's
32:44
like this one day, it's it's interesting how it is today, and they
32:47
say it goes by what you're looking at, but it's like it's been evolving,
32:51
is changing, and it's like I'll go on there and it's like all
32:52
there is is channelers. And I was like, I don't want to listen
32:54
to any of this stuff, Like I didn't. I don't want to listen
32:58
to and you're talking to me that. I love that. I'm drawn to
33:00
it. Well, it keeps finding its way to me and I'm listening to
33:04
all this stuff and I'm like, oh, this one looks good. He's
33:06
got predictions for twenty twenty four, Right, I'm going to go into there.
33:08
And I go in there there and find out that he's a psychic medium
33:12
and a channel or two, and it's like, you have got to be
33:15
kidding me, Universe, like this is hilarious to me, and it's just
33:19
it's nurturing. It's it's like it's nurturing that fire. I have no idea
33:23
what I'm what I'm where I'm going, or what I'm going to choose to
33:27
do, because it's not before I was leaving it so much into Fate's hands
33:31
or whatever, like I was giving it responsibility to somebody else to have control
33:36
over what my next step was. Make it exciting, guys, come on,
33:39
make it exciting. But it's like it's up to me to follow those
33:43
passions, to follow the the videos that are that are coming in. It's
33:47
like and recognizing, okay, well that's shown up again. Well there's great
33:52
information. But it's also letting me know that we all have this capability.
33:55
And I've talked about this. It's just learning how to flex those muscles.
33:59
It's learning to be in tune with that and not be in tune other ways.
34:02
It's learning how to play with your friends by reading each other's minds,
34:07
you know, being in that psychic place, because we do it all the
34:10
time. People everybody, I think, at one point or another has have
34:14
that experience where you're saying, you're just locked in with someone and you're having
34:17
conversations and you're saying the same thing as the other person, or you or
34:21
they can't find the word, and then you you know that. And I
34:23
do this all the time, and the word will pop into my head what
34:25
they want to say, but I let them do it anyways, and then
34:29
they'll come up with the words. So it's not because I'm not because I
34:31
don't need to fix it, because I can be in that space to recognize
34:36
it's nice. Now I'm not when I say it, fix it. I
34:38
appreciate it when you brought for it, because I couldn't. It wasn't exactly
34:42
the word I was looking for was channel, but it's like I didn't have
34:44
a vocabulary. It wasn't coming up right then. So that was like the
34:46
best thing to go to at that point, because otherwise I was getting hung
34:50
up on it right but it's like I'm recognizing so many different things and how
34:53
we do it, and then how am I operating from that space too,
34:57
and what does that feel like? And what does it look like? I
35:00
am freaking questioning every single thing everything that I'm saying today, Question it,
35:05
every single thing, because this is my experience and that's the that's what I'm
35:07
recognizing. Oh, well, this is what's going to happen when you die.
35:10
I'm listening and I love Suzanne Gieseman, and I love There's just so
35:14
many people that I listened to and they'll start saying things, Well, this
35:16
is what happens on the other side. Is it that hasn't been in my
35:20
experience? How can I say that it is? But it hasn't been in
35:22
my experience because otherwise I'm just preaching someone else's words. Now, when I'm
35:27
listening to Rizz this morning, I'm using words that he used, but that
35:31
totally resonate with me and that I totally felt it. And that's how I
35:35
knew for me right this moment that resonated with me, And like you said,
35:38
it may not resonate with me. I can tell you four years ago
35:44
I probably wouldn't have even gathered it. One of my friends was, She's
35:47
like, guy, could you imagine you five years ago? And I said,
35:50
no, I can't. I cannot fathom that that was a lifetime ago.
35:54
That was that was another life, that wasn't even this life. It
35:58
wasn't even this experience. And it's but if we can change our path by
36:02
the way we think, then it could have been. It's like, look
36:05
at me, I was growing all along that whole path. I was evolving
36:08
the whole time, and I was doing it quickly, as quick as I
36:12
would allow myself to do it. It just changes the person. And that
36:15
gave me goosebumps. And that just changes the perspective on how we're saying things.
36:20
We've just I feel like sometimes we try to keep ourselves so small just
36:25
to help help someone else that's keeping themselves small, and that creates a domino
36:30
effect. Right. So now it's learning to be just as open as you
36:36
want to be and being your true, authentic self. And when you don't
36:38
know, because I have it known and I still don't know, I just
36:40
know that this is me evolving, this is me in a different space,
36:45
this is me, this is me in twenty twenty five if you want to
36:49
put a time frame out there, this is me growing and evolving and changing
36:53
and being a ripple or not, it doesn't matter. I just know it
36:59
feels right for me and what feels good for me and I and it's working
37:04
for me. I have my grandkids here the other day. I hadn't seen
37:06
him since Christmas, which she's put a stake in my heart, not just
37:10
getting mess out, because I was like, oh my god, I miss
37:13
him. And do you know what when I missed, even missing my kids,
37:15
I'm not do I call them No. So I'm learning to do that,
37:20
like learning to reach out and talk and because it's so easy to use
37:22
Boxer or other programs to do a little quick chat and it's done. But
37:27
I was really missing them and I go pick them up, and I pick
37:30
up my granddaughter and she's like, well, I just wanted to be me.
37:32
This is my day. And I said, well, actually this is
37:35
usually my grandson's day. You know, this is his day, is not
37:39
usually your day. This is Friday, And she said oh. I said,
37:45
but you know what, I changed it from right there, because it
37:46
was up to me. I could be down at their level or be at
37:50
that energy of like I just want I just want Grandma all to myself.
37:53
I don't want anybody else to be here. Or it's like, you know
37:57
what, I have missed you guys so much. I am so excited about
38:00
today. And every time they would start to go into a different direction,
38:04
I would change it. Now I did. There was a few times I
38:06
was getting pulled in a few different directions that I had to like kind of
38:08
like, wait a minute, because we're doing Legos right one's doing a whole,
38:12
big, huge box of Legos and the other one's doing a big,
38:15
huge box of Legos. And then I got all this stuff. I'm like,
38:16
wait a minute, slow down, let's do these let's there's steps for
38:20
this. That's why there's number one on that. And I also have to
38:22
realize that well, first of all, my grandson and he said, and
38:24
he can do all this stuff. He doesn't he doesn't need to be but
38:28
we had two boxes. He had two boxes of his open at the same
38:30
time. I'm like, oh man, this can turn into a show.
38:34
And I was trying to make it easier for him. And it's like,
38:36
why let them have their let them have their experience, open up both boxes.
38:39
You let me know how it works out. I'll help you out the
38:42
best I can if you ask me for it. But it's like it's it.
38:45
I didn't have to do anything else with it. So there's a lot
38:49
of recognition that that's going on for me. And it's just realizing how I'm
38:52
showing up and even how I was judging even that's a judgment. Still in
38:54
that space, and that's guess what, It's okay, But I can change.
39:00
I can make it different because to change to whatever it feels good for
39:05
me. Maybe I like to control it like that. Okay, pe'l go
39:07
for it. But it's like I'm realizing it. I can help them to
39:12
learn so much by just being there when they're doing it, and just I'm
39:15
just kind of being a guide and making sure that they're, you know,
39:19
somewhat safe, that they're not trying to kill each other, because sometimes kids
39:22
get a little bit crazy and they not recognize the reprecussions of things. But
39:25
it's it's just being in that space and being in that joy, and it
39:29
was there was so many opportunities, and I took the chance to jump into
39:32
those opportunities, and every time they would do something, and then it's like
39:37
they would do something, the other one would try to one up the other,
39:39
and instead of me saying, you, guys, this is not a
39:42
competition, I'd be like, Oh, you are doing a great job.
39:45
High five. Oh you are too, look at you guys. Go And
39:47
then then they started helping each other out. Oh I can't do this,
39:52
grandma. Oh. And then Colton comes over and helps her do it.
39:54
And it was just it's just a I got to see how it was for
40:00
me just to show up and just to be and to appreciate every moment of
40:05
it, whether there was arguing or no arguing, because even arguing represents to
40:08
me they're still here right now, they're still vital what we would consider vital.
40:15
Yeah, that's so cool. We were talking about the the healing process
40:22
and and you know, the health, the long the length of time.
40:24
I was talking to somebody yesterday and I said, she's She made a comment
40:29
She's like, I'm so because she's been with me since the beginning of my
40:32
like well since my mid thirties when I really started stepping into this space of
40:37
of doing energy work and then teaching and all that. So she's been with
40:40
me on this journey and being a witness to and observing and and she said,
40:46
you know, she made the comments because I'm so proud of you.
40:49
I said, you know, I'm I'm I'm at a point now I'm proud
40:52
of myself, like look at me, go look where I'm at. And
40:57
I said, I said, I said it, well, I did take
41:02
the scenic route. I'm not so there's a there's terminology. You know,
41:07
a lot of people would say, well I took the hard road. I
41:09
had to learn it on my own, right, and you got that whole
41:13
it just if I'm like, it took the scenic grout, took a little
41:16
longer, but actually it didn't. It was perfect for me. And now
41:22
because I did take that scenic grout, I know what it feels like.
41:24
I know how long that journey felt like. And I get to offer up
41:31
those pieces of information to help other people, So maybe it doesn't take as
41:37
long and and and you know, it still comes back to no matter where
41:40
you're at on your journey, it's perfect. So I just thought, even
41:47
in that moment, using the word scenic route instead of the hard road,
41:51
I mean, it was just like, look look at you, look at
41:53
you, and look where you're at, and look how amazing you're doing,
41:57
and we tend to forget to do that. Is I not knowledge? Look
42:00
at everything you've been through and look that you and you're still here, Like
42:07
how cool is that? And all the qualities and all the value that it
42:15
has been gained from your life from your experiences, and focus on that.
42:20
Give more attention to that, and and identify how well right Bev's high fiving
42:28
her grandkids, like, look, how amazing you're doing. Do that with
42:30
yourself. Mel Robbins has that, she sayss called the high five in the
42:35
mirror. High five yourself, and that sets a different precedence because a high
42:38
five, just in the we've all been programmed with this, a high five
42:44
is higher energy. It's a way to go at a boy. You're doing
42:46
great, you're amazing. So when you high five yourself, you're bringing in
42:51
that energy without even having to really think about it. You're just like,
42:54
wow, look at you, high five sister, look at you. You're
42:59
so amaze, You're doing so great. And so you know, if you
43:05
need to look into melt Robbins content and go listen to that. So acknowledging
43:13
yourself, acknowledging yourself more and more and more, and I you know,
43:17
I go as far as like making it comical, like if you wear throng
43:22
underwear, congratulates you. Congratulate yourself for you're getting them on right, because
43:28
this is not very comfortable when you get them on the opposite way and what
43:35
they are meant to be worn. Not that I've ever done it to saying,
43:40
I can imagine. In fact, it was so funny. I saw
43:44
a cartoon in the paper to two women are facing each other and one has
43:54
thong underwear on and the other friends like, you might want to put those
44:00
on the right way, but that's awesome, that's funny. Crack me up.
44:09
But anyway, acknowledging yourself more often of how well you are doing,
44:15
and that starts to change the dynamics because now you're you're programming yourself to look
44:21
for that stuff more often. It's similar to being having a gratitude list or
44:27
practicing gratitude. The more you do it, the more your brain is now
44:32
programmed to look for more of that stuff. So ah, and he guys
44:38
taught right, you had to learn that, and you're learning you're teaching your
44:43
grandchildren this and so this is a huge opportunity because a lot of this stuff
44:47
we have, we have to learn it because nobody in our experience, in
44:52
our childhood knew this stuff. No, it wasn't an experience. We had
45:00
the experience of the other stuff, and it wasn't that it was good or
45:01
bad. But it's like there comes a time and space. It's like,
45:05
eh, like you know what, there's other things that feel better. Laughter
45:08
feels better. You know, it's like one of the best things in the
45:12
whole planet. Laughter, and this and that and that flows that that love
45:16
right into you. Well, you're aware of the love. It's always been
45:21
there. It was always flowing into you. It's just looking at things,
45:27
feeling things, experiencing things, and meditation has been one of my biggest things,
45:32
honestly, ever since I talked about it a couple of weeks ago,
45:36
Ever since that one day, I'm sitting out there and it's like I had
45:37
never been in that experience where I was just being the way that I was
45:42
being. So now every time I wake up at night, I just I'm
45:45
if my mind starts to get into the old patterns or the things that I
45:50
let's let me drop the patterns and to the things that just weren't feeling good
45:53
at that time. It's the automatic change. I automatically shifted, Okay,
45:58
let's meditate right now, and then I automnally go into the feeling, the
46:01
knowings, the what do I sense? What do I hear? Taking myself
46:06
into paying more attention, and it's going right back into myself. But by
46:10
doing that is gosh, you want to flow in service, right you?
46:15
You There's so many other things that you want to do. This ritz and
46:19
another thing that this Riz says, I'm fifty four, and I thought,
46:22
yeah, this is the year for fifty four for myself. And he says,
46:25
it's not a matter of going out and lifting weights or anything like.
46:31
It's lifting the light up into yourself. It's like when you're doing that,
46:34
you're raising your own vibrations. With every single thing that we do, they
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ask him, how do how do you have all this energy? Is because
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we can be in that flow of the energy all the time. It's our
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words and how we're experiencing it. And if I'm going to pump some iron,
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I'm pumping light right up into me. I'm pumping energy up into me.
46:52
There's nothing that's draining. It's the way It's that goes all the way
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back to perspective. If you think that it is, it is, and
46:59
it's having all time. Gosh, I could probably have the words like,
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how did we ever manage working forty plus hours a week taking care of kids,
47:07
like all that stuff. How do we do? By the grace of
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God? But by the kids? Again, you said taking a scenic route
47:15
and hav him to do scenes alone. It's recognizing I didn't have someone stifling
47:19
stifling me when I was on that scenic growth. The only one that stifled
47:22
me or controlled me was me because we had a lot of freedom. I
47:24
had a lot of freedom as a kid my parents. My mom was at
47:28
work. What do they call a latch key kids? Your parents are working
47:30
all the time. My mom was the My was the she was the family.
47:36
She was mom and dad for a long time. And going through all
47:39
those experiences, gosh, I say mom and dad, and then I start
47:43
realizing how my biological father has came back into my life and I haven't really
47:47
been spending a whole lot of time talking to him as yet. It'll happen
47:51
or it won't, but I don't have I'm not putting pressure on myself I'm
47:57
interested and I want to hear what his life was about out and you know
48:00
how his experiences were. But it's from a space of that's neutral, right.
48:05
It couldn't have been in here in any other timeframe. It's just like
48:07
me saying because it was his father that was the one that was had introduced
48:13
different things to my life that maybe I probably wouldn't have chosen, or I
48:15
thought I wouldn't have chosen, but it made me who I am today to
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have a compassion for people that have gone through it, or to even have
48:23
compassion to be like, well, what happened to him when he was a
48:25
child, or was what did he experience? And it's seeing things so differently
48:31
and it's so much lighter. But like going back to my dad, it's
48:35
like it's recognizing and hearing those things and then going to my stepdad and thinking,
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I don't you know, knowing that when I'm ready to do the things
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that I'll do them if I want to, and if I don't, I'm
48:45
not going to. It's not a matter. It goes back to what I
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said earlier. It's not a matter of apologizing or receiving an apology or any
48:52
of that stuff. It doesn't matter that that's focusing on something else when I
48:55
could be focused on the light, Like why would I focus on that kind
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of stuf? And instead of just being in joy and then whatever comes into
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my experience, I'm ready to take it with gusto and passion and love and
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without having any condemnation or judgment or hatred or love or whatever. It's just
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being in that space. And then all the experiences they don't have to they
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don't have to make spense makes sense. But often and what is my struggle
49:27
with even talking to my stepdad is because initially I'll run into someone at the
49:31
store that he's talked said a lot of stuff about me, and now they've
49:35
got an opinion about me, and it's like they walk by like it's there's
49:37
just such different energy and it's like, but I gave attention to that,
49:42
I don't have to give attention to that. And that means I'm still holding
49:44
onto his story. But guess what, I'm not going to hold myself in
49:47
the darkness for that because because I am doing I'm just like not ready for
49:52
that on the menu, I don't, you know, And that's okay.
49:54
It's just being in that space of being okay with where you're at. And
49:58
and again, those things don't feel like my passion. So it's really going
50:02
for where my passion is at, not being focused on what I thought was
50:06
wrong right or who may have wronged me. It's being in the space that
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because if I feel that way, that changes the whole dynamics of the energy
50:13
that I'm even putting out right now. That changes the way that I feel
50:15
right now, versus being in the space of passion. So it's really it's
50:21
so simple. It's really so simple. It is so simple. Not always
50:29
easy. We're not going to say it's easy all the time, but it
50:32
does get easier the more you move in the direction of that feels good.
50:40
But it's a choice, right, It's what we chose to do. So
50:43
I can choose to focus on that, or I can choose to focus on
50:46
being passionate and be receiving those messages and how did that feel in the body,
50:51
and how can I maintain that? And it's like, oh, hello,
50:53
Soul, thank you for like, thank you for being here for me
50:57
and guiding me. And I always know that I was never alone in the
51:00
first place, and I just wasn't talking to you. I was just talking
51:01
to everybody else. I was wanting an advice from someone else, and I
51:05
was wanting someone else to direct me. And it doesn't have to be that
51:08
way. And that's very free because we are free. We're as free as
51:13
that we allow ourselves to be. Yeah. Yeah, and oh comes down
51:22
to choice. That's such a huge ord, man, such a huge word.
51:28
You were talking about feeling emotions and stuff earlier, and I listened to
51:35
a gentleman because you know, sometimes if people when we talk about meditation,
51:38
there's there's some they say they have difficulty, and a lot of those people
51:44
that say that have been diagnosed with a term ADHD or a d D.
51:53
And doesn't mean you have to own it, and I'm not. I'm not
51:58
going down that route. What I am getting at is that their mind is
52:02
busy and it needs to stay busy. And his his teaching was to in
52:10
a way to keep your mind busy while you're in a meditation process is to
52:15
notice your body. What is your body doing? Is it feeling uncomfortable,
52:22
is it wanting to move? Is it right? He's like to just have
52:27
awareness of your body, and that's what his focus was. And I thought
52:30
that was so amazing, and it's it's like a simple practice. It's a
52:35
simple practice if you choose to do it, if you allow yourself to do
52:38
it. What we do is we resist it. We resist meditation, We
52:44
resist implementing things that resonate that feel good to us. We resist the healthier
52:51
relationships because we're still in the pattern of the unhealthy relationships. We resist changing
52:58
the dynamics of conversation because we're still drawn to the drama. We resis.
53:04
We're in this space of resistance, and it's changing that to to be in
53:09
a space of flow, flow with it. Flow. Okay, what am
53:14
I feeling in my body? Isn't that interesting? Maybe write it down and
53:17
kind of give some attention to that and just just recognizing, because if you're
53:24
seeking to change something, transform changing changing something, then you first want to
53:29
identify what it is. Do I want to that I want to change?
53:34
So acknowledgment, acknowledge that. And it's not that it's not that I'm saying
53:39
find the things that are wrong with you, because there's nothing wrong with you.
53:43
Is find the things that are no longer resonating with you. Find the
53:45
things that that you can tell within your body doesn't feel good that you are
53:52
like this, this, I am no longer attracted to these type of people,
53:59
this kind of conversation, these types of words, right, acknowledgement,
54:04
acknowledge it, have awareness of it. Then you start getting the tools once
54:09
you acknowledge something and sending that information out there to the universe that Okay,
54:20
this is what I want to would like to change, make do differently,
54:27
What tools or what information is available to me that I could start implementing to
54:31
make that change. And you will be amazed. I certainly was. You
54:37
will be amazed how much information will come to you and you'll be like,
54:40
oh, I was just thinking about that. Oh I was just having a
54:43
conversation about it. Oh I just listened to a video about this, and
54:46
it just starts coming. Because now you're in that space of allowance. So
54:51
allow yourself to feel the emotions, allow yourself to acknowledge the things that you
54:55
want to change, allow yourself to receive the information that going to be beneficial
55:00
in making those changes, allowing it and again, it's all a choice.
55:05
So you can choose to stay in the space that's uncomfortable to you, meaning
55:09
with yourself, with your with your mindset, and your habits and all the
55:14
stuff that's in your container container meaning your physical body. What's in your control
55:20
is yourself. You can stay in in the old ways, or you can
55:27
start moving in a direction of fresh and new and different and change. And
55:32
so it's just recognizing always we say, almost every single week, almost every
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single week, we say, notice what feels good to you? Notice what
55:46
feels good. Your body is a great indicator of that. Notice what feels
55:50
good to you. Give more attention to that, what feels good to me,
55:54
what resonates with me? And you will immediately no, what doesn't like
56:02
It just becomes so simple, And then what are you going to do to
56:08
change to move in a direction where you feel better? If you know that
56:15
something doesn't feel good? Okay, well what am I going to do to
56:16
move in a direction it feels better. One of the things that I was
56:23
what I wrote down, is I'm surrendering resistance to my soul because that resistance
56:30
has fere you know, wanting to control things. It's just surrendering it.
56:32
We don't have to have it. We don't have to Yeah, we've chose
56:37
to utilize that as a tool for this experience, but we don't have to
56:39
have that. That's just another tool that's on the toolbox or another toy that's
56:44
in the toy box, and we can either grab that toy or grab a
56:46
different one. We can grab that tool or grab a different one. It's
56:50
it's I feel like it's that simple. Yeah. And if you're in that
56:53
space, you know, like you said, if you're in a space of
56:57
something else, then it's like feel how fields and you kind of got to
57:00
figure out what you what floats your boat, because what floats my boat's not
57:04
going to float everybody else of the boat. But sometimes it's finding things that
57:07
just make you laugh. It's it's just presenting because it's life is different when
57:12
you're laughing at things, and life is different when you're you know, one
57:16
of my friends she just went to Colorado and picked up a new puppy,
57:21
so it was like super cute, and it's like finding the jove that in
57:24
that timeframe and knowing that I'm excitedly anticipating that I'm going to meet this dog
57:29
because I will because she'll bring her to or him to the gym. And
57:32
it's like because she's this is her baby in training, so she's training them
57:37
how to be around everybody and it's like, it's just a beautiful experience.
57:40
However, we want to look at things, and either way you look at
57:44
it, it's still a beautiful experience. Yeah, it really is. It
57:49
really is. And perhaps before I wouldn't have seen it that way, and
57:52
I say I wouldn't have. I didn't, but that was just But that
57:57
was because I had a preference. I had a preference to look at things.
57:59
And when I had a preference for, you know, things that were
58:02
in the news or whatever got my attention, I had a preference for those
58:06
things. And that's okay, that was my preference. If I said it
58:09
wasn't, then that was that I'm saying I did something wrong. I never
58:12
did anything wrong. I showed up in the day exactly. I showed up
58:15
for myself. However I wanted to show up. I showed up and had
58:19
this experience. It's it's very it can be very confusing when we're raised by
58:22
our parents that are always telling us what to do, and then we're looking
58:25
for that guidance or seeking that guidance, or maybe we're afraid to make that
58:29
decision, and then we're we're looking for that guidance and it's being okay knowing
58:34
that we have this internal guidance. Sometimes for me, it's grabbing my pendulum
58:37
because sometimes I don't freaking know. I don't know, So I'll just like,
58:42
okay, mutually ask a question. And if I can't neutrally ask the
58:45
question, maybe I'll call you up and say, hey, Amy, get
58:46
your pendulum. I don't know if you have a pendulum, but get your
58:50
pendulum. I'm gonna ask a question and tell me what it says, because
58:52
you would have zero attachment to that outcome. So and that's still coming from
58:57
within me, but you know, leaning a little bit on the outside.
58:59
Or maybe you already know the answer to some things and you we just don't
59:01
want to make those decisions right then. And that's okay too. It's just
59:07
being all right with wherever you're at. It doesn't wherever you're at, be
59:09
okay with it. Don't condemn yourself, don't hold yourself in that darkness.
59:15
See what happens. Flow to the videos that if animal babies laughing, giggling,
59:22
playing, watch some rabbits playing together. They're freaking hilarious. Like their
59:27
rabbits are hilarious. They really are, Like being awareness of that. Watch
59:30
birds how they interact with each other. It's interesting watch your cats, you
59:34
know, have these experiences. Since Freeman put a propane heater in for the
59:39
cat house for the cats, they are smiling, like I can feel their
59:44
smiles, I can feel their low I can there's a shift. It's like
59:46
you made this home by doing that, and it made a big difference.
59:52
So it's like it's not like it stayed seventy degrees all the time and make
59:54
it down to fifty six, but I like it fifty six at night.
59:57
Personally, that's me and I throw all my blame or in their case,
1:00:00
they're fur, but they've got little homes and stuff to go into that are
1:00:02
comfortable too. So it's but recognizing the flow because there's our bodies, our
1:00:08
gauge, but so is everything around us. If I have an animal that's
1:00:13
arguing with other animals in the house, then what the hell is going on
1:00:15
there? Right? It's because they're they're an aspect of myself, So it's
1:00:20
an am I fighting with myself with something? Is they're arguing going on the
1:00:22
home which is not so then it goes internal. So it's like looking at
1:00:25
other things from a different perspective, and it's being okay with all that stuff.
1:00:30
It's just being okay. Even if there is difficulties or what you might
1:00:35
call difficulties, they're really not there's something, there's a nugget there, there's
1:00:38
something that's going to be gained, or you're just going to realize I don't
1:00:42
need this to be in my experience anymore. I don't. It's I'm going
1:00:45
to surrender, right, I'm going to surrender all my resistance. Nice.
1:00:52
This is the first video of twenty twenty four. So twenty twenty five.
1:01:00
A lot of stuff that has been presented in our conversation, and so do
1:01:12
you have any final words? Is we're embarking on this twenty twenty four journey
1:01:17
this year. I'm saying to enjoy the journey. Go look up was that
1:01:22
we're all in a personal eight year Go check it out. Go see what
1:01:25
resonates with you when you have that conversation. I've heard different perspectives on it.
1:01:29
I've heard it. I've heard that this eight years for the people we're
1:01:32
also going into if you look at them Chinese New Year, we're going into
1:01:37
the Dragon. I forget if it was I can't remember if it was a
1:01:43
wood or earth or metal? What was it wood? Okay, but it's
1:01:47
like dragons are all about. Like you're talking wisdom, you're talking the same
1:01:52
thing with ad It's like abundance and securities and just like magnificence. But everything
1:02:00
could be that way always. It's just however we're perceiving or taking our time
1:02:05
to what we're looking at. Right, if we're looking at and giving ourselves
1:02:07
kudos, then you're gonna notice everything that everybody else is doing around you,
1:02:10
and you're gonna give them kudos too. So it's not that you're just doing
1:02:14
it for yourself. You're doing it for everybody. Let's enjoy this journey because
1:02:17
you and I would say probably it's gonna be It's gonna be a lot of
1:02:22
fun. So when you go to the when you think about going to like
1:02:25
a a fair, or you think about going to any place to go rite
1:02:31
a bunch of rides and have fun, that's how it's I feel like this
1:02:35
is put your hands up in the air and scream while you're riding on this
1:02:38
roller coaster and with a smile on your face, because it's gonna be fun,
1:02:42
it's gonna be wild, it's gonna be wild and then my world is
1:02:45
gonna be amazing. So every year just it's getting better and better and better
1:02:51
and so and really it's the moments. It's not necessarily the year. It's
1:02:54
the moments. The moments compound and get better and better and better, meaning
1:02:59
they feel better, they feel good more often, more often, more often.
1:03:04
And so it's the moments the compound and create the momentum, and the
1:03:07
momentum just creates more and more and more because that's where I'm focused, and
1:03:13
that's that's imperative. When you are wanting to make change, is what you're
1:03:21
where's your focus. So, and I just want to put this out there
1:03:25
that February tenth is the Chinese New Year, So when people are wondering,
1:03:31
if you're wondering when that is, it is February tenth. The Chinese New
1:03:36
Year begins the first new moon after the first full moon of the at the
1:03:42
beginning of the year. So the date is different every year, so it's
1:03:46
not like our our regular calendar here in the US. So anywhow, let's
1:03:55
just it's going to be amazing no matter what, it's going to be amazing.
1:04:00
And I'm looking forward to how it unfolds, and we appreciate you being
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1:05:14
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1:05:19
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