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43: become the energy you crave (or envy) · Soul Salon with Ayandastood

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  If you are watching this, this is your sign.
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  You need to become the energy
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  that you are calling in most at this time.
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  You need to embody the vibe
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  that you are craving most in the universe.
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  And in order for you to become the energy that you crave,
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  you need to know the energy that you crave.
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  And so this requires a deep inner knowing
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  and intuition and alignment,
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  which you may sometimes be using other people's voices
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  to drown out of your consciousness.
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  In our culture, there's so much to consume in this video
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  is one of those things.
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  And while I love videos and podcasts
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  and all that is available to us to deepen our consciousness,
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  it's also very important for you to create space
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  in your day-to-day life
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  that you take to truly listen to yourself,
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  to tap into your heart energy
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  and to understand what am I feeling?
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  What am I trying to say to myself?
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  I think so often we focus, especially as creatives
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  on what do I want to say to the world, you know?
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  And it's so important to also have practices and spaces
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  and areas of your life that bring you into
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  what am I trying to say to myself?
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  And I think when it comes to energy,
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  I really believe that everything is energy,
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  so many messages that the universe is sending to us,
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  the medium that it sends it through is energy.
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  You feel, for example, drawn to someone,
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  like you're like, wow, I'm just drawn to your energy,
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  I wanna be with you, I wanna have coffee with you,
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  maybe you meet someone and you just have sparks flying
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  or maybe you listen to someone's podcast
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  and you're like, instantly, your heart just feels at home
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  in their consciousness, in their way of seeing things,
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  in their way of feeling and being in the world
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  or a poet or an artist, someone you deeply admire
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  and maybe even envy because we know that there is that feeling
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  of that egoic state that we all go to,
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  I go to it all the time where someone creates something
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  and you're like, oh, I wish I could do it
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  the exact way that they did.
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  I wish I had the name of the podcast that they came up with
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  because it's so clever and it just you know exactly
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  what it's saying.
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  I wish I could embody myself the way they did
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  or I wish I had the knowledge that they had
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  or could put things together in the way that they do
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  or to be much more blunt.
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  I wish I had the success that they were having.
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  I wish I was getting the visibility that they were getting.
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  So we get into this mindset of wanting what someone else has
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  and I think there's so much to discuss on creative envy
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  but what I would invite you into is seeing, okay,
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  what is the energy that I'm so drawn to in this person?
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  It's almost like we've only been taught to recognize
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  the kind of love that is about wanting to be with someone
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  and we have it recognize the kind of love
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  that comes from wanting to align yourself
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  or to be deeper in touch with yourself through someone.
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  What do I mean by that?
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  If you envy someone, there's something within them
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  that they've accomplished or that they exist as in the world.
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  Part of you knows you feel cool too.
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  You are supposed to embody.
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  You are supposed to exist as.
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  So now they are almost like this further along version
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  of what you believe is possible for yourself.
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  So really, the way they are existing in the world
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  is a sign of what is possible for you to make your own.
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  So when you notice, okay, why is it specifically this person?
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  If I tell my friend about this exact person,
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  they're like, well, okay, so there's something about me
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  and this person that have this soul alignment.
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  And what I really believe is we are each others you.
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  I am your other you, you are my other me.
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  There is a unity consciousness.
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  We are all drawing from the same source.
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  We see different manifestations of the possibilities
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  of how we could be and exist.
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  They are magnetic to you.
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  But when you have to recognize this,
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  that person in and of themselves isn't magnetic.
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  They are magnetic to you.
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  There's a part of you that they speak to.
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  So it's like they are calling you into,
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  inviting you into a part of yourself that may be waiting
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  to be discovered or recovered,
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  depending on whether you believe in past lies,
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  but even just past evolutions of yourself.
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  I know that there are certain aspects
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  that I love about my younger child that I don't have now
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  and like we're always spiraling, right?
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  So just know that it's not that they are your enemy
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  or that these people that you meet or see or feel the energy
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  and you're like, oh my, how can I be like you?
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  It's like you are already, you are like them.
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  The strength of the collective lies in each of us.
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  And whatever is in them that they've cultivated is in you
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  and could be in you.
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  And I think the reason you feel so drawn to them
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  is part of you feels like they are going to help you expand
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  into the fullest version of yourself.
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  I think our energies, our souls, if you believe in that,
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  naturally want to expand.
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  So they draw us to voices that will help our expansion.
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  There's some people who are vibrating on this frequency
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  that you're like, I want that.
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  Whatever they are on, I want it.
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  Stay close to them if you want,
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  but also stay close to the part of you
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  that is in them, babes, that is in them.
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  So all of this to say become deeply aware of why you are drawn
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  and magnetize to certain people and to certain topics
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  and beings.
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  If you find yourself constantly Googling something
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  and like, oh, I want to learn more about this,
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  what is in that for you?
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  What is the thread?
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  What are you feeling deeply curious about?
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  What are you feeling cold to?
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  Are you listening?
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  Because you are always speaking, but are you listening?
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  I would invite you to ask, what is internal to this person?
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  Is it the fact that I really admire that someone is so
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  in tune with themselves and they allow themselves
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  to be goofy and silly and to dance
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  and to just embody this like, wow,
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  how do you do that?
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  And then the critic in your mind is like,
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  oh, that's embarrassing or who would do that?
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  Who would let themselves be seen in that way?
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  And yet you're not hearing the question.
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  Who would let themselves be seen in that way?
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  What if that question is about which version of you
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  would allow you to exist in a way
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  that they are allowing themselves to?
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  And so I think it's so important that every trigger,
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  every message, every uncomfortable feeling,
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  don't flee from it.
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  Really understand what does it have to offer you?
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  When you meet someone and you really love being around them,
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  taking time to reflect on why I do this all the time.
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  Like I now know the type of person that I'm drawn to,
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  I'm drawn to people who have very good listeners
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  because I feel like I'm always playing the role
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  of listening in my relationships and my friendships.
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  And I want that mirrored back.
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  I want like me and another person who are deeply empathic
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  and deeply interested and intrigued by each other
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  and curious about each other
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  and holding space for each other
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  rather than me holding space for someone else's emotions,
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  else's existence to then fill the container of my energy.
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  Leaving me feeling depleted and unseen.
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  I'm very drawn to humble people.
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  I've made the mistake of dating people are very arrogant
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  and for me it's just an energy that I cannot.
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  It's a no for me.
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  It's not a no in the universe.
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  We need all kinds of energies,
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  but for me personally and my body and my being,
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  I'm like no.
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  I've noticed like that energy
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  of I'm so cozy in this person's company
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  is something I feel very, very drawn to.
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  The coolest thing about energy is it's not like yes or no.
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  It's a spectrum.
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  Someone may just be in your life
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  to bring you like a second closer to that energy
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  to inspiration or to devotion or to love.
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  Like whatever it is.
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  If you think about these micro shifts
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  and how they compound over time,
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  that's what transformation is.
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  It's not like zero to 100.
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  It's more like this person can just help me dial
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  up certain parts of my being
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  that may be feeling repressed,
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  maybe because of my conditioning
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  I haven't been inviting myself into having audacity.
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  Okay, so this person is coming into my life
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  to bring more audacity to me.
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  Becoming what you crave can also mean
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  becoming for someone completely different.
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  What you crave from a person who can't give it to you.
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  If there's someone in your life
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  who you wish was more loving towards you
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  and you want to be more loving but not towards them
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  because they've betrayed your trust,
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  then you can become back for someone else.
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  And I think that's also how we heal as a collective.
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  Is we alchemize the things we've lacked
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  or felt hurt by or been traumatized
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  by into the healer we become to someone else.
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  This is not always possible,
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  nor expected, nor required,
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  but it's just this idea that we have this energy within us
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  to take seriously what we've gone through
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  and then to become the medicine for that pain in the world.
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  So if we've been bullied we can say
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  I will never contribute to anyone's bullying
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  and whenever someone is being bullied
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  I will stand up for them.
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  There you are becoming the person
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  that you crave don't need it most in that moment.
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  So it can be a very collectively healing thing
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  because if many of us have not felt truly appreciated
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  we can just say I'm gonna move through the world as gratitude.
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  What would gratitude do next?
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  What would love do next?
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  I haven't been loved, I'm gonna be loved.
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  And of course sometimes you can become depleted
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  and unable to occupy or embody this energy
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  but just know that that is possible.
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  Like energy is abundant, you can embody an energy.
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  You don't have to take it uncompletely
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  but as I said the spectrum you can move a little bit closer
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  to that energy and to that place.
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  If you crave trust, what would trust do next?
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  If you want a trusting relationship
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  then what would a trusting person do next?
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  Even if you're not quite there
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  you can quantum leap into that energy
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  by becoming what you seek.
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  That is a quantum leap that is accessible to you.
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  And it only can happen if you really take seriously
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  the emotional and intuitive information
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  you are receiving from the collective and from yourself.
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  So when you feel that pang of envy
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  don't just turn up the volume so you don't feel it.
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  Journal about it or listen to yourself,
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  create a voice note to yourself
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  or just speak to yourself if you have the space to do that
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  and say why do I envy this person?
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  What are they trying to teach me?
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  What are they trying to guide me towards?
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  What is an energy that I see within them
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  that I want to tap into within myself
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  but hasn't felt safe for me to do so?
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  So as we wrap up this episode
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  I hope you've enjoyed the journey.
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  I hope that you feel invited into becoming the energy
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  that you crave and letting that really take on
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  its many meanings.
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  If you're feeling like I wish someone
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  could just listen to me and sitting with that pain
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  like I'm so sorry you don't feel hurt.
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  It's so isolating.
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  I love you, you deserve to be heard
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  and when you are heard you will know it
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  and you'll feel it and we'll think of this moment together
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  where we acknowledge that we deserve to be deeply listened
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  to and we're tired of being the ones to listen.
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  We also want to be received.
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  We also want to be held.
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  Okay, lovely.
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  There's so many different manifestations
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  of becoming what you crave.
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  So I'm so excited to see how it manifests in your consciousness
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  and in your being what seed it plants within you
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  and what trees and flowers will blossom
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  from your spirit, from my heart to yours,
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  from our heart, our consciousness,
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  which I so believe we are each other's mirror,
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  we are each other's oneness and unity consciousness.
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  And I think that is so beautiful and I'm proud to exist
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  from the same energy as you.
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  And I'm excited that I get to feed into that energy
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  in my little way and hopefully support you on your journey
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  as you continue to grow and exist and evolve
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  and learn and unlearn and think and feel and really listen.
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  That's my invitation to really listen to yourself.
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  I am wondering what are you calling more of into your life?
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  What are you trying to invite in
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  and what will it look like for you to become those things?
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  What would the embodiment of those energies look like?
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  Maybe you are so drawn to people who are heart-centered
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  so you're gonna exist in the world as that heart-centeredness
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  and as that love, maybe you're drawn to sensitivity.
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  So instead of being ashamed of it,
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  you're gonna embody and be in your sensitivity
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  and cry in front of people
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  and just feel joy when it's joyful
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  and sadness when it's sad and heartbreak when it's heartbreaking.
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  So I just invite you to tap into the energetic messages
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  you're receiving from the universe
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  and remember you are the universe.
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  So if you feel a feeling within you,
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  don't shoot your way out of it.
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  Oh, I shouldn't feel this way.
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  I should be more happy for them.
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  I shouldn't feel jealous about this.
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  Why don't you just relate it to yourself with no judgment?
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  Everything is here and everything is right.
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  And this isn't me.
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  I'm not just a jealous person.
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  I'm experiencing in my oceanic being a wave of jealousy.
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  Instead of just writing it out,
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  I'm actually gonna listen to it
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  and say what does it have to teach me?
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  What does it have to show me?
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  I love you so daily and the love in me
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  sees the love in you, sees the love in us.
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  Okay, love you so much.
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  Bye.
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  I hope some paradigms have been shifted
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  for you in today's conversation.
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