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(music) Whisper Wednesday | LMBYTS #1387 | Jason Newland | 2nd July 2025 · Deep Sleep Whisper Hypnosis (Jason Newland)

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Speaker 1: Hello, and welcome to jasonnew Land dot com. My name's
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Speaker 1: Jason new Land. This is Whisper Wednesday. Let me buy
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Speaker 1: you to sleep. And Vinnie has just awoken at seven
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Speaker 1: in the morning on I think Wednesday, the second of
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Speaker 1: July two thousand and twenty five. I've just heard him.
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Speaker 1: I've heard his ears flap. However, he's not coming here.
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Speaker 1: I don't know. I just flushed the toilets. Maybe that
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Speaker 1: disrupted his sleep. Anyway, Only listen when you can safely
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Speaker 1: close your eyes. It's quite warm already. It's supposed to
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Speaker 1: be well according to people that told me, there should
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Speaker 1: be some raine today, but it looks like it's going
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Speaker 1: to be. If it does rain, it's going to be
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Speaker 1: a warm, rainy day. So I'm off to see Uncle
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Speaker 1: Sausages again. I'm a neighbor. Uncle Sausages, that's what Viny
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Speaker 1: calls them. I saw him Monday Tuesday, because I've seen
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Speaker 1: him today, and I'll probably see him tomorrow and Friday
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Speaker 1: as well. I was hoping to try and just see
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Speaker 1: him on Monday, Wednesday. Friday kind of needs me to
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Speaker 1: visit a bit more often, so I'll continue to do
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Speaker 1: that with the hope. But that maybe he'll be able
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Speaker 1: to go home or come home because he lives opposite me.
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Speaker 1: But I really don't know. I genuinely have seo idea
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Speaker 1: if he'll be allowed to come home when I say aloud,
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Speaker 1: of course he can do what he wants. He's mobile,
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Speaker 1: so he can physically leave if he wanted to. But
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Speaker 1: that possibly wouldn't be a good idea. I don't know
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Speaker 1: if you can hear that. Hni's just climbed onto the
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Speaker 1: sofa with me after after chasing a fly for a
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Speaker 1: little bit. Now Vinnie is going to stay with a neighbor,
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Speaker 1: So quarter to nine, I'm going to take him to
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Speaker 1: a neighbor rihim to stay there for the day, well
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Speaker 1: for a few hours. And then I got a taxi
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Speaker 1: book to four between nine and nine point fifteen to
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Speaker 1: go to the hospital. And Uncle Sausages has gone. Did
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Speaker 1: you hear him making weird noises of it? Uncle Sausages
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Speaker 1: is having scared. He's having a doctor come around to
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Speaker 1: tell him, hopefully some kind of dreamer plan, cause he's
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Speaker 1: he's in limbo at the moment. He's not really sure
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Speaker 1: what's going on. This has been in there since Friday
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Speaker 1: last week or the week before last, so Friday, Saturday, Sunday, Monday, Juesday, Wednesday, Thursday, Friday, Saturday, Sunday, Monday, Tuesday, Wednesday.
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Speaker 1: So this is the thirteenth day he's been there. And
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Speaker 1: other than giving him medication to reduce the ammonia in
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Speaker 1: his blood to stop him from being so yellow or
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Speaker 1: cerebulum cerebellum or where they call it, it's I don't
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Speaker 1: think he's on any other medication. And he said he
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Speaker 1: stopped having that drink as well, so he's not stopped
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Speaker 1: having that medication constantly getting monitored, constant blood tests. He's
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Speaker 1: not He's not wired up to any kind of machine
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Speaker 1: or anything to check his vitals. So you know, they
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Speaker 1: do come around and do his blood pressure and stuff
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Speaker 1: like that. He was on a drip for a short
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Speaker 1: while before his full body scan because he was kneel
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Speaker 1: by mouth, so it's so hard they had to get
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Speaker 1: liquid into his body. He don't be parking. Many don't
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Speaker 1: be barking. It's too early. There's someone in the garden.
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Speaker 1: I hope that's not the builders. That's way too early
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Speaker 1: for them to be coming here and climbing on the roof.
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Speaker 1: Seven in the morning yesterday I heard one of the
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Speaker 1: buildings that basically there's scaffolding outside by well outside my windows,
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Speaker 1: which leads to the roof. I didn't realize until I
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Speaker 1: got home yesterday afternoon. I can't open my windows. The
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Speaker 1: scaffoldings so close to my windows, and I can't actually
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Speaker 1: open them. I can put them on a latch, you know,
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Speaker 1: so they're open kind of a crack. I can't open
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Speaker 1: them up till at any air in wrong time of
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Speaker 1: the year for that. Wow, So it's a bit of
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Speaker 1: a sweat box in here. In the bedroom, I can
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Speaker 1: open the top window, so I don't know how they
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Speaker 1: managed to do it, but the living room can't open
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Speaker 1: any of the windows. So I'm hoping that they'll be
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Speaker 1: finished fairly greatly because I don't know, just that I
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Speaker 1: don't want to be sitting in here not being able
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Speaker 1: to open the windows. I open the windows in the
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Speaker 1: winter all year round. My windows are open, and now
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Speaker 1: I can't open them. I think I might have talked
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Speaker 1: enough about not being able to open my windows. I'm
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Speaker 1: not really sure what else to add and bad bet so, yeah,
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Speaker 1: thin He's gonna stay with a neighbor and then I
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Speaker 1: am I'll head up to the hospital and taxis. I
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Speaker 1: got that Bood. I couldn't get an earlier taxi because
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Speaker 1: there's the school runs, so there's no no taxis between
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Speaker 1: pretty much seven and nine. And there was no reason
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Speaker 1: I couldn't go there too early because I've been waiting
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Speaker 1: around for hours and hours and get there at seven
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Speaker 1: is a little bit too early because they were all
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Speaker 1: getting ready and the nurses are going around and I'm
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Speaker 1: kind of in the way a little bit and having
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Speaker 1: their breakfast, and yeah, I think the I have got
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Speaker 1: there around eight, just after eight before that was a
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Speaker 1: one off time, and that was a bit too early,
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Speaker 1: but that was just because one of my neighbors came here,
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Speaker 1: left and he left half seven, dropped off his daughter
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Speaker 1: at school and his wife at work, and then dropped
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Speaker 1: me off at the hospital. So by the time I
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Speaker 1: got to the ward, it was about quarter past eight,
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Speaker 1: maybe a little bit later, but it was still a
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Speaker 1: bit too early. I think anything before nine is a
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Speaker 1: little bit, you know, plus plus plus plus plus plus.
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Speaker 1: There is the visiting hours of eleven o'clock onwards in
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Speaker 1: that board, so I shouldn't really even be in there
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Speaker 1: before eleven o'clock. But no one says anything to me.
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Speaker 1: I think that was a wind. I think I just
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Speaker 1: spoke through my nose. Then I could hear my knees
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Speaker 1: or kevity. It was weird. I think in a ward
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Speaker 1: like that, visiting hours don't really seem to apply so much.
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Speaker 1: You know, if it was award for people with broken
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Speaker 1: bones or people are that their appendix out things like
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Speaker 1: that basic quite simple. I don't know, you know, normal
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Speaker 1: operations where the person is going to be fine and
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Speaker 1: recover normally, like you know, then I suppose the visiting
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Speaker 1: the hours a bit more strict. But here in the
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Speaker 1: Carn ward the Uncle Sausages is in, it's they're more flexible.
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Speaker 1: I feel like I've got to know some of the
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Speaker 1: staff now cause I've been in there nearly every day
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Speaker 1: since he got in Friday, Saturday, Friday, Saturday, Sunday, Monday, Tuesday, Wednesday, Thursday, Friday, Monday, Tuesday, Wednesday.
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Speaker 1: So there's will be the eleventh day that I've gone
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Speaker 1: in there. I did have the weekend off last weekend.
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Speaker 1: Friday and Surday, Saturday and Sunday. Sunday's pretty much a
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Speaker 1: no goo. Unless I get a taxi, I can't get
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Speaker 1: in there and I have tried to get the buses
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Speaker 1: when I can a m attempt to get the bus back.
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Speaker 1: You know, two Texas a day is way too expensive,
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Speaker 1: although I have asked. I called Universal Credit yesterday to
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Speaker 1: see about again in an advanced payment, and they said
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Speaker 1: what's it for? I said, taxis? Maybe it's for taxis
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Speaker 1: and she said what do you mean? I said, okay,
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Speaker 1: it's stay kind of like they take you to places,
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Speaker 1: phone them up and they come and click and picked
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Speaker 1: you up. I know what taxis means, but what what
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Speaker 1: do you Why why you again? Why why are you
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Speaker 1: get so many taxes? And I said it's because of
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Speaker 1: Uncle Sausages, and she said, oh okay, and then the
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Speaker 1: phone cut off and I thought, oh, you call me back.
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Speaker 1: She didn't. Didn't call me back. And the reason I
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Speaker 1: didn't phone back is because firstly, I'd already been on
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Speaker 1: a phone for way too long waiting, you know. Secondly,
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Speaker 1: the chance to me getting the same person is pre
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Speaker 1: practically non existent, so I'd have to go for the
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Speaker 1: whole thing again. So what I did is I went
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Speaker 1: online and I left her. They call it like a
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Speaker 1: journal injury, where I just typed in that I spoke
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Speaker 1: to someone, they hadn't left a note or anything on
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Speaker 1: the system, which is I don't know if that's just
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Speaker 1: the way are but I was always taught when I
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Speaker 1: worked in a call center, whichould pay sixty was what
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Speaker 1: were they doing in it? When you when you work
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Speaker 1: in a call center and a customer phones up? But
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Speaker 1: now why are they called? When they called? Why they
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Speaker 1: called and what the outcome of the call was? You know,
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Speaker 1: even if it's a case of old customer card wanted
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Speaker 1: to speak to renewals, transferred them to renewals. Yeah, just
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Speaker 1: something like that, just to keep a track. It's just good,
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Speaker 1: good customer service. I would argue. I wouldn't argue, but
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Speaker 1: I would say, but I don't know if they're going
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Speaker 1: to respond. It seemed really weird because it says if
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Speaker 1: you want an advanced payment, click unaclicked, and it's big,
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Speaker 1: a big writing came on a screen saying no way,
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Speaker 1: go away, you're not enough. And they said there was
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Speaker 1: like a drop down list of things and not one
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Speaker 1: of them was advance to payments. I think the way
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Speaker 1: they're working out if you do get one is you
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Speaker 1: pay ten percent back over the year, so for ten months.
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Speaker 1: So if you borrow. I guess three hundred pounds. You
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Speaker 1: pay thirty pounds a month back for ten months, so
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Speaker 1: just see. I don't know if they're going to go
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Speaker 1: back to me, but I kind of need to plan
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Speaker 1: ahead a bit now because I don't know how long
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Speaker 1: of course Sausages is going to be in there, and
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Speaker 1: of what he called through my life's savings getting backward
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Speaker 1: and forward over the last ten days, so now I
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Speaker 1: kind of have to be a bit strategic. So yeah,
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Speaker 1: that's my planned day to day I get there, hopefully
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Speaker 1: I can sit with him while the doctor talks to
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Speaker 1: him and tells him how they're hoping to proceed medically,
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Speaker 1: and that way I can have more of an understanding
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Speaker 1: and perhaps I can explain it better to Uncle Sausages
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Speaker 1: because he doesn't always and it is not criticism. I
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Speaker 1: don't think he understands always what they're selling and saying
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Speaker 1: to it. And I think part of that is overwhelmed,
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Speaker 1: A huge part of it. He's overwhelmed. And you can't
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Speaker 1: blame him. You know, he's never been in hospital before,
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Speaker 1: never been unwell before in his life, doesn't even have
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Speaker 1: a doctor. He's not registered with a doctor's surgery he's
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Speaker 1: seventy eight years nearly, and he's been tipp top health,
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Speaker 1: so this is I don't think he is. I don't
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Speaker 1: think anyone in that situation could really fully grasp what's
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Speaker 1: going on. It's a confused, very confusing time. I find
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Speaker 1: it confusing, is why I find a lot of things confusing.
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Speaker 1: I can't think of anything off hand, but they're sure
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Speaker 1: there are some stuff. So that's my plan. Yesterday I went.
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Speaker 1: I wasn't gonna go. Actually I went Monday. I told
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Speaker 1: him that I was gonna visit Wednesday, but i'd give
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Speaker 1: him a call Tuesday. He called him and he said
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Speaker 1: he'd seen a doctor and he wasn't very happy. And
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Speaker 1: I said, you want me to come, but you want
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Speaker 1: me to come in? And he said there's something only
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Speaker 1: you can decide. So I thought that was a yes,
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Speaker 1: wasn't it. Also he was a bit he felt a
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Speaker 1: bit low because his his neighbor, the man in the
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Speaker 1: bed next to him, had left, so it's spent They
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Speaker 1: spent a week with this man. They got to know
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Speaker 1: each other quite well, and suddenly he had no one
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Speaker 1: to talk to. So it's kind of a little bit.
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Speaker 1: I think he felt a little bit lonely, although he
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Speaker 1: does have tennis on the TV now, so that's that's bright.
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Speaker 1: That's perked him up a little bit. For the first week,
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Speaker 1: he didn't watch any television, and I kept saying, why
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Speaker 1: don't you stick the TV on, just have it in
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Speaker 1: the background, don't even have to have the sound up,
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Speaker 1: so there's plenty of sports on normal TV, especially the weekend,
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Speaker 1: but he said no, no, no, no no. And when
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Speaker 1: I did eventually just turn it on a couple of
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Speaker 1: days ago, I think Monday, he was really surprised at
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Speaker 1: how good the picture was and Whimbun had just started
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Speaker 1: the way that's tennis just started on Monday, and I
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Speaker 1: think it's I think it's a pleasant distraction. So when
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Speaker 1: I visited him yesterday he was half asleep. He was
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Speaker 1: listening to because I think I got to him probably abound.
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Speaker 1: I lived here him midday, so I got there probably
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Speaker 1: twenty to one. After twenty to one, he was half asleep,
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Speaker 1: but he was listening to the to the tennis. So
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Speaker 1: I think for him, listening to sport or some kind
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Speaker 1: of sporting activity, whether it's football, rugby, cricket, tennis, he
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Speaker 1: relaxes him and it feels nice and I just I
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Speaker 1: just stood down and stared at him for a while,
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Speaker 1: made him jump when he looked up. It was worth it.
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Speaker 1: I think he was surprised to see me, even though
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Speaker 1: I did sellimos on my way. He seems to be
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Speaker 1: talking a lot quieter as well, and slower. I don't
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Speaker 1: know quite why that is. He didn't want to go
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Speaker 1: out yesterday, so that was the first time that he
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Speaker 1: didn't want to go out for walking that you know,
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Speaker 1: come out into the sunshine. Although I did manage to
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Speaker 1: get him what he's been craving for a few days.
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Speaker 1: That's ice. When I say ice, I'm talking about ice. Ice,
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Speaker 1: not not ice as in removing people that have lived
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Speaker 1: here in their whole lives. I'm talking about ices in
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Speaker 1: frozen water. So he was on about get some get
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Speaker 1: some water, Go get some water, frozen frozen water. I said,
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Speaker 1: you mean ice. He said, yeah, frozen water. And I said, well,
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Speaker 1: I can give you some of that. He said, we
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Speaker 1: need to get a flersk of flowers. I said why,
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Speaker 1: He said that keep the ice frozen for longer I've
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Speaker 1: and I thought to myself, well, I don't have a flask.
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Speaker 1: I can't be trusted with flasks. That sounds strange, doesn't it.
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Speaker 1: But I don't think I've ever had a flask where
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Speaker 1: I didn't break it. I don't know why. I just
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Speaker 1: have a habit of dropping flasks and breaking the inside
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Speaker 1: bit way did you know the glass bit inside? Although
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Speaker 1: it's been a little while, I think the last time
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Speaker 1: I had a flask was two thousand and five, probably
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Speaker 1: two thousand and four, two thousand and five, Yeah, maybe later.
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Speaker 1: Maybe it's been a while. So what I did is
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Speaker 1: I said to you know, you can just get a
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Speaker 1: cold drink from Costa. I'll get you a bottle of
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Speaker 1: coke and it will be colder being a fridge. So
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Speaker 1: I did that the day before and then he said
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Speaker 1: I want some ice. I was just pleased and stop
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Speaker 1: saying frozen water. So you want some ice? He said, yeah,
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Speaker 1: I want some ice. So what I did is I
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Speaker 1: went downstairs, got him and have a bottle of coke
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Speaker 1: from Costa him from the pin because there's a big
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Speaker 1: cost well, a larger costa with seeds, and it's a
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Speaker 1: smaller cost which is closer to his ward. We have
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Speaker 1: no seats, it's just a takeaway. So I go into
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Speaker 1: the larger costa I get myself a bottle of venter,
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Speaker 1: get him a bottle of coke, and I get myself
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Speaker 1: a chocolate brownie because I'm worth it, And then walk
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Speaker 1: up to the other costa and there's a customer there
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Speaker 1: at the till, and the man serving hanswer back to me,
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Speaker 1: and he was doing, I don't make in a coffee,
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Speaker 1: I suppose, so I'm kind of offering behind the lady
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Speaker 1: who's being served. And then another lady comes in and
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Speaker 1: he says, there is like a place where you queue,
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Speaker 1: and she said, are you being served or you queueing?
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Speaker 1: I said, I am. I'm not being served, but I'm
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Speaker 1: not really cueing. But I am queuing, but I'm not
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Speaker 1: really killing. And she said to me, what you mean,
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Speaker 1: I said, well, if I get in the queue there,
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Speaker 1: the man who's got his back face to us might
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Speaker 1: think that I'm that I've just got the items out
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Speaker 1: of the fridge and try and charge me for this stuff.
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Speaker 1: But I've already bought it at the other costa. And
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Speaker 1: she said, it's okay, why are you waiting it? Then
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Speaker 1: I said, I'm going to see if I can get
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Speaker 1: some ice. She said, I see, I said, yeah, ice.
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Speaker 1: I thought she might correct me by saying frozen water.
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Speaker 1: But she didn't, so that was good frozen broken water.
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Speaker 1: So I personally don't drink ice. I never have ice
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Speaker 1: ever because ice it's tap water and I don't drink
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Speaker 1: tap water, so I don't never have ice in anything
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Speaker 1: apart from when I do. But generally, no, I'm not
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Speaker 1: saying I've never had eyes, because I have, and if
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Speaker 1: I reckon in this weather, I probably would have ice
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Speaker 1: if I was if I was sitting outside a pub,
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Speaker 1: for example, I might have ice in the glass because
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Speaker 1: of the heat. But generally I don't have eyes. But
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Speaker 1: the ice wasn't for me anyway. And the man turns around.
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Speaker 1: He finishes serving the lady that was already there, so
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Speaker 1: it's just me and the other lady who's waiting in
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Speaker 1: the queue. So I'm standing in the queue now. And
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Speaker 1: he said anything else, and I said no, no, wait
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Speaker 1: wait wait wait, He said, what do you mean wait?
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Speaker 1: I said, wait a second list, need to just explain.
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Speaker 1: He said, no you wait, I said, well, he said,
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Speaker 1: I don't know. I just I'm not really sure what's
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Speaker 1: going on. I said, it's fine. These two bowls, the
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Speaker 1: factor and the coke. I already purchased them from the
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Speaker 1: other costa up there. He said, okay. He looked very confused.
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Speaker 1: He said, what about the chocolate brownie. I said, that's
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Speaker 1: in my pocket. You can't even see it. He said, oh,
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Speaker 1: fair enough, and he said, well, how can I help?
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Speaker 1: I said, I was wondering, just wondering. Say no if
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Speaker 1: you like. He said, I will say no if I like.
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Speaker 1: I've got complete control of what I say. I said, okay,
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Speaker 1: thank you, shirty. He just you know, I'm just asking,
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Speaker 1: is there any chance I can get some ice in
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Speaker 1: a cup? And he looked at me and I said
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Speaker 1: that's the end of the sentence. There was nothing else
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Speaker 1: that was it, Can I get some ice in a cup? Please?
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Speaker 1: I don't know what else he expected me to say.
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Speaker 1: Did he expect a song? I don't know, put our
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Speaker 1: piece of paper and start reciting poetry. I don't know
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Speaker 1: what he expected. And he said sure. So he went
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Speaker 1: got some eyes and I said, it's it's far. It's
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Speaker 1: for a patient. I think. I said, it's for a customer.
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Speaker 1: Then I realized that hospitals don't they call them patients,
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Speaker 1: not customers, don't they I suppose customers would be a
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Speaker 1: private hospital they call them customers. And he said, fine,
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Speaker 1: isn't it. Do you think it's weird? Right? Do you
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Speaker 1: know when you see someone every day but you don't
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Speaker 1: know them, you don't know anything about them. And that's
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Speaker 1: what is going on with this bloke in the coster.
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Speaker 1: I've seen him nearly every day for the last two weeks, nearly,
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Speaker 1: well yeah, it's nearly from the get onto two weeks,
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Speaker 1: and I feel like I know him a little bit.
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Speaker 1: I don't. I don't know anything about him, but just
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Speaker 1: it's weird, and it's a little bit like people in
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Speaker 1: the street that I've seen for years and years heading
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Speaker 1: towards work, walking through the park, getting ready in their bathroom.
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Speaker 1: I mean, okay, obviously he involves climbing a tree, but
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Speaker 1: I can't. I just see people doing things that are normal,
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Speaker 1: and I kind of feel like I know them a bit,
31:44
Speaker 1: but I I don't know who they are, don't know
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Speaker 1: anything about them. I noticed that one there, I was
31:52
Speaker 1: going to work on a bus and I started to
31:55
Speaker 1: nod to people because it was the same people the
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Speaker 1: same time every day, or mass felt like I knew them.
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Speaker 1: And I remember saying to someone once like after about
32:13
Speaker 1: six months of doing this. I said to her, you know,
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Speaker 1: I feel like I know you're now seeing you every
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Speaker 1: down the bus. She said, yeah, we should do our
32:27
Speaker 1: work at your place, literally sit opposite it on the desk.
32:35
Speaker 1: I said, oh, for you look familiar. You just looked different.
32:41
Speaker 1: You look different when you're at the desk and what
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Speaker 1: you do when you're outside. She said, I know, because
32:46
Speaker 1: I'm wearing a coat now. And she is kind of
32:52
Speaker 1: strange without being rude, she used to wear a Kim
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Speaker 1: costume of work. No one knew why, but it didn't
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Speaker 1: seem it didn't seem to affect her work because she
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Speaker 1: was on the phone, so no I could see her
33:15
Speaker 1: when the management came around, you know, from the head office.
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Speaker 1: She was just like all the weird people that dressed
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Speaker 1: a bit strange, were like or acted a bit weird,
33:27
Speaker 1: or put into it like a room just hidden away.
33:33
Speaker 1: I looked forward to those days because it was a
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Speaker 1: nice break from working. Me and those other people would
33:39
Speaker 1: just sit around chating. And never got around to asking
33:48
Speaker 1: her about the Kim costume. But the blood dressed as
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Speaker 1: a pirate. He was interesting, he was he was just
33:59
Speaker 1: a big fan of pirate movies. He said, he's always
34:04
Speaker 1: wanted to be Coirk Douglas, and I said, Okay, it's
34:13
Speaker 1: hard to follow that up, retty, isn't it. Someone just
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Speaker 1: comes out without all In case anyone's wondering the reason
34:20
Speaker 1: why I wear a pirate costume to work, Actually, he's
34:24
Speaker 1: a pirate uniform. The reason I wear this pirate uniform
34:30
Speaker 1: is because I'm a big fan of Kirk Douglas when
34:34
Speaker 1: he was in pirate movies in the nineteen fifties. It's
34:42
Speaker 1: hard to have a follow up, Christian, what's your favorite dessert?
34:53
Speaker 1: It just doesn't fit, does it? Oh dessert? Oh? Was
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Speaker 1: that dessert that doesn't people don't eat anymore? Angel Delight?
35:13
Speaker 1: There was this dessert I I don't know if it's
35:16
Speaker 1: it might still get sold, but it was one of
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Speaker 1: my favorite desserts. So it's kind of like they see
35:24
Speaker 1: it looked like yet looked like custard. It wasn't custard,
35:31
Speaker 1: cause I cannot stand custard. It wasn't custard, but it
35:38
Speaker 1: was cold strawberry chocolate, Banahna flavored. There might have been
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Speaker 1: different flavors, but they're the ones that I remember. It
35:52
Speaker 1: was this powder which you put in and I don't
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Speaker 1: know if you mix it with milk and just user
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Speaker 1: like a what do they call it, a mixing thing,
36:06
Speaker 1: which makes it all fluffy, not drill a whisk a
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Speaker 1: whisk so yeah, and it makes it all fluffy and
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Speaker 1: bubbly and or yum yum yum yum. And my stepmom
36:25
Speaker 1: used to make niker boker glories. Be careful how quickly
36:30
Speaker 1: you say that word, nika boka glory, which is if
36:35
Speaker 1: you don't know what it is, it's in a big, long,
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Speaker 1: quite a high glass dish. I think it's basically did
36:46
Speaker 1: I use the same the same thing for Sundays as well,
36:52
Speaker 1: not on Sundays, but like a long dish. I don't
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Speaker 1: know anyway. So what she used to do is she'd
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Speaker 1: put in different levels of stuff. So there'd be some
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Speaker 1: ice cream, there'd be some fruit, there'd be some angel
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Speaker 1: delight maybe somewhere dream at the top, there'd be some
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Speaker 1: what those those fingers they're not bread, but oh wow,
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Speaker 1: I can't even remember what they recalled. I used to
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Speaker 1: love them because they would melt in your mouth. Wow.
37:42
Speaker 1: What what was it called? I'm sure there's something fingers
37:48
Speaker 1: And they were kind of pastry ish and they had
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Speaker 1: a bit of sugar on top. And I think what
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Speaker 1: she used to do is if just stick them in
38:02
Speaker 1: so they melted or crumbled them up and made little
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Speaker 1: toppings kind of bread crumbs as well. And yeah, it
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Speaker 1: was sugar and it was lovely, amazing, possibly a flake
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Speaker 1: at the top. Oh, it was glorious. And then his
38:26
Speaker 1: big long spoons of a tiny, tiny little kind of
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Speaker 1: spoon thing at the end. So big long handle probably
38:42
Speaker 1: quite good for helping with constipation, I imagine, but it's
38:46
Speaker 1: not a focus on that. So with very long handle,
38:51
Speaker 1: which you can really get into the hard to reach places,
38:56
Speaker 1: which is like I was found right at the bottom
38:59
Speaker 1: of the dish. There was one bit that seemed to
39:04
Speaker 1: just be very hard to get to and then maybe
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Speaker 1: be a bit of ice cream or a bit of
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Speaker 1: chocolate or something just right in there. And I dig it,
39:17
Speaker 1: really dig from different angles until I got to it.
39:22
Speaker 1: I never quit when it comes to chocolate, I never quit.
39:30
Speaker 1: Oh y. And also trifles, we didn't have custard. Of
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Speaker 1: our trifles we had angel did I The reason for
39:42
Speaker 1: that is because custard is horrible. I didn't like custard.
39:48
Speaker 1: I would not eat I would never ever eat custard ever.
39:53
Speaker 1: Not gonna happen. And that's not gonna happen ever, So
40:01
Speaker 1: this is one of those things I don't like. So
40:04
Speaker 1: we used to have I think because I was so
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Speaker 1: anti custard. Maybe my brothers also didn't mind custard, so
40:13
Speaker 1: my stepmom would just figure a way around it. So
40:21
Speaker 1: we used to angured de light instead on top and
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Speaker 1: some cream. Lovely. It was oh yu. So I'm thinking,
40:37
Speaker 1: why am I talking about Angel of Delight. I don't
40:43
Speaker 1: know why, but I'm not sure if they sell it
40:45
Speaker 1: any mine in shops. I think it's one of those
40:49
Speaker 1: things that possibly wasn't nutritionally the most beneficial edible product
41:02
Speaker 1: in the world, but it was yummy, so yummy, yummy, yummy,
41:11
Speaker 1: yummy yummy. Another thing I used to like to eat
41:15
Speaker 1: is Vanetta ice cream. Again, I don't know if it's
41:21
Speaker 1: still around, and another understand but I didn't understand why
41:26
Speaker 1: it's not the most popular ice cream in the world
41:30
Speaker 1: because it's layered again, kind of like a lasagna or
41:35
Speaker 1: a trifle, spaceally a trifle. It's just that it's a
41:45
Speaker 1: version of a lasagnia, isn't it. And I learned to
41:51
Speaker 1: make lasagnas and I did I learned when I was
41:54
Speaker 1: at school, but I learned on a more industrial level
41:59
Speaker 1: when I worked a canteen in a bakery. So those
42:04
Speaker 1: hundreds of people being served, and I made this massive lasagnas.
42:11
Speaker 1: And my boss, who is the chef, he was doing
42:16
Speaker 1: all that stuff, and I said, why don't you teach
42:18
Speaker 1: me how you do it? You know, because it's very
42:22
Speaker 1: different making a little lasagna to make it a massive lasagna.
42:26
Speaker 1: It's just a little bit. I don't know, it's a
42:29
Speaker 1: different kind of process. So in the end he told
42:34
Speaker 1: me to do it so he didn't have to do it.
42:38
Speaker 1: I just thought that made sense. It gave me something
42:40
Speaker 1: to do a bit more interesting, and so he got me.
42:45
Speaker 1: When it was a lazagna day, I would always do
42:48
Speaker 1: the lasagna. I do the whole thing, maybe two or
42:52
Speaker 1: three of them, and they could just stand you out.
42:59
Speaker 1: I think I felt quite proud because they did come
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Speaker 1: out nice, and he went because he was a trained chef,
43:06
Speaker 1: he went through the whole thing with me and stepped
43:09
Speaker 1: by step. I felt quite accomplished. Actually, because people liked
43:15
Speaker 1: the lasagnans. They were popular, and I think we did
43:21
Speaker 1: a vegetarian version as well as a yeah, because there
43:31
Speaker 1: was I think the problem there was a lot of
43:34
Speaker 1: people there. It wasn't so much that they were vegetarian,
43:39
Speaker 1: but they could only eat me like hell heal me,
43:47
Speaker 1: stuff like that which the kitchen didn't provide, the captain
43:52
Speaker 1: didn't provide. So what they would do instead is maybe
43:57
Speaker 1: a vegetarian version. So they were quite popular as well.
44:04
Speaker 1: What I did, though, is to make the designs taste
44:09
Speaker 1: a bit nicer. I with the vegetarian ones, I just
44:16
Speaker 1: brink a little bit of meat in there as well,
44:19
Speaker 1: just to add a little bit of taste, a little
44:21
Speaker 1: bit of pork. So I think that was they were popular.
44:30
Speaker 1: I didn't I do. I really didn't. Well, even now,
44:35
Speaker 1: thirty four years later, I still wouldn't. I was still
44:41
Speaker 1: gonna say I was joking. I would not ever do that. Wow, No, no, no,
44:50
Speaker 1: you fed them pork and they didn't think they were
44:54
Speaker 1: eating any meat, or don't. I'm not sure there was
45:02
Speaker 1: even one vegetarian lair at all, like vegetarian vegetarian, but
45:09
Speaker 1: the vegetarian aren't meat, or the vegetarian meals were a
45:14
Speaker 1: substitute for Because of religious issues or religious beliefs or whatever,
45:27
Speaker 1: those of pork grindings really went down a tree. It
45:31
Speaker 1: just shows you if you don't know. I was fine.
45:37
Speaker 1: I still find in fact I didn't do that, by
45:39
Speaker 1: the way, I'm just joking. I still find it funny though,
45:42
Speaker 1: the amount of people, not even necessary religious of any persuasion,
45:50
Speaker 1: that were saying, don't eat pork. It's a dirty animal.
45:55
Speaker 1: Name a clean one. Where is there a clean animal?
46:01
Speaker 1: Just name one. I mean, my little the love of
46:05
Speaker 1: my life right now. If Anny he's a dirty little
46:09
Speaker 1: back up, you know humans are day he was just
46:14
Speaker 1: there's no clean animal. I'm technically clean for maybe five
46:20
Speaker 1: minutes after I've had a shower and then I fought,
46:25
Speaker 1: you know, it's oh dear, oh, that's a bit of
46:33
Speaker 1: activity downstairs. So I'm just waiting to see if Finnish
46:38
Speaker 1: going to start barking or not. It's called eight in
46:45
Speaker 1: the morning. I've got one hour until I need to
46:52
Speaker 1: take Vinnie over to see the neighbors. And they've got
46:58
Speaker 1: a little dog there till about me day, so he's
47:01
Speaker 1: gonna be happy running around with the other dog how
47:04
Speaker 1: he likes. And then I'm hoping I can get back
47:13
Speaker 1: by two o'clock at the latest. Yeah. Yeah, Ideally there's
47:25
Speaker 1: a lot of shouting outside. That's weird for that. I
47:30
Speaker 1: just heard someone go, right, what's that about. I don't know,
47:46
Speaker 1: Oh yeah, the I just love Angel Delight. I used
47:53
Speaker 1: to tell them what was that ice cream I was
48:03
Speaker 1: talking about? It was basically what they did, a mint
48:09
Speaker 1: version and possibly had different versions, but the one I
48:13
Speaker 1: liked was just vanilla ice cream with it was bits
48:21
Speaker 1: of chocolate, like I don't know how to explain it,
48:27
Speaker 1: Vonetta or ice cream. For those who don't know, it's
48:30
Speaker 1: like a a big, long, oblong kind of blog that
48:37
Speaker 1: came on a tray, a brown tray, I think, wrapped
48:42
Speaker 1: in plastic but white, you know, just like ice cream,
48:47
Speaker 1: you know, frozen kind of plastic, and then inside a
48:52
Speaker 1: box with Vonetta on the side and a picture of it.
49:01
Speaker 1: And I really liked it as a kid and I
49:04
Speaker 1: used to eat it, and I've had it as an adult.
49:08
Speaker 1: I don't know if it's still produced, cause I've not
49:11
Speaker 1: had any for a while. I just liked the layer
49:17
Speaker 1: chocolate ice cream, then chocolate, and it's like these little
49:23
Speaker 1: not flakes. I don't know how to explain it, but
49:31
Speaker 1: it's nice anyway. There was a time when I was
49:35
Speaker 1: about sixteen living in a flat above the chip shop,
49:40
Speaker 1: and I had such little money. I would sometimes spend
49:45
Speaker 1: all my money, which would be maybe a pound, on
49:50
Speaker 1: some ice cream, vinetta or ice cream, and possibly thinking
50:02
Speaker 1: about it, possibly a what would I have with it?
50:12
Speaker 1: What would say? What they called like the non syrup
50:19
Speaker 1: maybe syrup, no sponges, but like pie. Oh, can't think
50:26
Speaker 1: what they call it. It's like pastry. And then there's
50:30
Speaker 1: at of syrupy stuff at the top which is very
50:33
Speaker 1: sticky and thick. Oh, the name of it is gone
50:39
Speaker 1: out of my head. But I used to heat that
50:42
Speaker 1: up and then have that with the ice cream, and
50:45
Speaker 1: that was my dinner. That was my lunch, and I
50:50
Speaker 1: don't feel so full, but not in a good way
50:57
Speaker 1: because I needed food, proper food, not just sugar. Probably
51:08
Speaker 1: wasn't my best decision ever. And there was a time
51:16
Speaker 1: when I used to have. Yeah, when I was in
51:19
Speaker 1: a chip shop, I got a part time job cleaning
51:22
Speaker 1: before work. I needed to try and get some money,
51:27
Speaker 1: and I used to get home. I used to work
51:32
Speaker 1: from six point thirty to eight thirty and then i'd
51:37
Speaker 1: start work at nine, so i'd go home. It's only
51:41
Speaker 1: a five minute walk, get home, have some corn flakes,
51:47
Speaker 1: have a can of coke? Would you believe at I mean,
51:52
Speaker 1: I've not done that since that time. A cann of
51:55
Speaker 1: coke with my corn flakes. It's a weird mix. And
52:00
Speaker 1: I'd watch breakfast TV for like fifteen minutes and then
52:04
Speaker 1: I'd go downstairs and start working. And I think my
52:14
Speaker 1: boss told me I had to quit my morning job
52:20
Speaker 1: because I was working too many hours. It made me
52:25
Speaker 1: too tired. It was like, yeah, but I need the money.
52:30
Speaker 1: Maybe it wasn't much. It's probably fifteen pounds a week. Maybe,
52:41
Speaker 1: I mean probably what two four, six, eight, ten, twelve
52:52
Speaker 1: twelve hours, so Monday to Saturday, twelve hours a week. Yeah,
53:07
Speaker 1: maybe fifteen two one pound fifteen hour probably, so twenty
53:18
Speaker 1: pounds a week, maybe eighteen pound a week, which would
53:24
Speaker 1: really make a difference to my lifestyle. But it was
53:31
Speaker 1: quite diring, you know, waking up at six in the morning. Yeah.
53:42
Speaker 1: Back then, I wasn't a big fan of early starts.
53:48
Speaker 1: I really, really, really really wasn't. I mean really, I
53:54
Speaker 1: was not a big fan of starting up getting up early.
53:59
Speaker 1: It was there's a constant struggle for me. And now
54:07
Speaker 1: I wake up at four or five every day in
54:10
Speaker 1: the morning. I don't know what that noise is. Someone's
54:21
Speaker 1: making noise in the garden. So I'm going to go.
54:25
Speaker 1: Thank you for listening. Remember to be kind to yourself
54:28
Speaker 1: because you do deserve to be happy. Be gentle with yourself.
54:33
Speaker 1: You deserve to feel safe. Lots of love, bye,